#otto’s personal life

[otto-c-graves]

In having become the other manager of the place I work, I now understand Benson’s short temper and rage lol

It’s not that I hate my coworkers, but sometimes we all have blonde moments and I fear I’ll get fired if they don’t do their work correctly lol because that falls on me now.

It also, honestly, was a wake up call for me. Where my passion still is for my art and creative career, I now in a way want to prove I am good at being selected manager, you know? So like, I’m understanding the stress and dilemmas my old manager faced but it’s also a neat challenge? I don’t know lol

But, I didn’t take managers position simply because I was asked. I took it because the manager before me who quit fucking hated me and so- yes- a lot of it was spite, but even I won’t deny that they ran the store well. So to keep some calm and give my coworkers a little bit of semblance of how the store was ran with the old manager, then I felt like I could do it and that’s why I took it. I could at least give them that.

Every person who was my senior there, denied the job. I feel like I’m the only one willing to help the new owner get to where they want to be with the store and everyone else is struggling with change. I get it. It’s not easy. But we have to try.

#otto's work #otto babbles on and on #otto’s personal life #regular show benson #benson regular show #benson dunwoody #shit post #be kind to your managers #please #management #manager

[suffarustuffaru]

i need to share my very horrible idea to combine the reinhard/julius/otto/subaru boy drama into one julius-centric fic

ok so a little while ago ive made all kinds of ottojuli and reinjuli posts and while i havent finished all my major julisuba posts Yet i am quite fond of julisuba also and i think itd be incredibly funny if you just dumped all of these ships into one story. just go ALL IN on that boy drama!!!! go big or go home amirite!!!! the worlds WORST love trapezoid youve ever seen!!!!

this post is just me rambling fic ideas bc i sadly dont have time for Every Fic Idea and also i just. i just think itd be funny putting multiple ships with the same person in them into one fic. on a serious level its like mimicking real life relationships where sometimes people come and go and you have different dynamics with each person!! on another level i just think this is also very funny so!! here we go. under the cut:

anyway so my idea for this is that you know, julius of course meets reinhard when hes ten and reinhard is eight and then it alters julius's brain chemistry. at first he's in complete awe of reinhard. and then over time the shame starts setting in. that julius isnt as strong as reinhard. and the jealousy sets in a bit too, so julius's got this chip in his shoulder trying to carry his family's legacy and trying to carry the weight of knighthood to be as perfect as possible. to be as close to reinhard as he can. they meet again in their teens and julius shows reinhard the ropes of like basic knight stuff bc reinhard just joined the knights. and of course reinjuli become friends but julius has spent his whole life quietly watching reinhard from afar and now julius still has that distance with reinhard even as theyre supposedly friends now. reinhard is a God, you know? his powers and his leash from the kingdom and his family keep him distant and the two of them are ignoring that. classic homoerotic "do i want him or want to be him" friendship where both of you are too scared to get any closer for various reasons with a Twist (reinhard's very real monster complex that keeps getting validated bc Everyone Around Him thinks hes a monster).

anyway but then julius remembers that you know, shit between reinhard and him wont work out for many reasons, like reinhards family deciding to torment julius at various points in his life (heinkel, whos julius's boss, and reid, who went from julius's childhood idol to. you know.), and also reinhard needs to have kids because hes the sword saint, and also homophobia exists in rezero. and also even if those werent all obstacles julius still has his Complexes connected to reinhard and they got that distance between them so. no go. (repression gets in the way of relationships :((( )

also quick side note is that ex 4 happens and julius reinhard ferris go to vollachia and julius interrupts a meeting with vincent vollachia himself to go "I UNDERSTOOD THAT LITERARY REFERENCE YOU JUST MADE. THATS A REALLY GOOD REFERENCE I LIKED IT A LOT" bc hes a massive nerd and ig this is slightly-more-of-a-disaster-gay julius au so julius is like ............................. vincent was kinda cool for that.

AND THEN SUBARU CRASHES INTO JULIUS'S LIFE and julius is like seeing this guy who's also got a chip in his shoulder and then he insults the knights and says the knights are all depending on their dads (nepotism) and julius is like .......the chip in my shoulder was bad enough and also youre kinda like me fr. and you are clearly a fucking misguided kid so now i have to save your ass. i cant NOT save your ass. and reinhards like "julius and subaru nooo you dont have to do this :((((" and julius cant admit atm that hes also doing this to save subarus life so julius is just like "he disrespected the knights >:(((("

but yes we all know what happened there. julius saves subarus life. julius has to slice subarus throat in that one failed loop. they become friends across several timelines. they also homoerotically share souls, you know, typical bromance things, rivals to lovers except subarus the one going YOURE MY RIVAL and julius is like he is SUCH an upstart. hes really grown on me like a fungus but thats the appeal. and julius i think sees subaru as like a kindred spirit (or at least thats how i interpret julisuba) except subaru is like way more freer than julius is. same desire to prove yourself but subarus not restraining himself constantly like julius. its sometimes to the point of recklessness and general stupidity and what have you, but his boldness and bravery and determination and heart really is admirable.........................

yeah so anyway julius falls for ANOTHER guy again, you know how it is sometimes. the heart wants what it wants and julius is cursed to always have the worst meetings with his closest friends. and of course julius gets heartbroken bc wtf i have to kill my new friend :((( noo!!!! but in the finished loop its like. oh subaru...... hes really improved himself. hes grown so much already. hes kind of. inspirational really. idk how he does it. except subarus you know got that Mystery to him the same way reinhard does (theyre traumatized and Cant Take About It Normally so they just randomly lore drop what they can) and also subarus SUPER into emilia. and julius is like .................... well. subarus taken. haha. and reinhards. taken. fuck me. fuck. and like somethings going on with subaru and rem and emilia right. fuck. and subarus got his whole toxic masculinity / gender crisis..... and he doesnt know hes Bisexual yet...... man. what a loss for julius amirite haha.

and also subarus busy after arc 3........... and julius has no idea whats happening there but that seems Real serious :(( and julius's got other things to attend to so he hopes subaru reaches out to him eventually..... or that they cross paths again since subarus in the emilia camp and julius is in ana camp (and of course reinhard is in felt camp and like that was a whole debacle bc wtf. reinhard, u do know thatd be a big deal to our mutual friend felix?). so. julius pines from afar ONCE AGAIN HAHA.

(also of course subarus still attracted to reinhard here. its um. well julisuba can bond now over pining over reinhard but thats for later also!!)

anyway of course during arc 3 julius briefly runs into some gray haired merchant twink thats being dragged around by subaru bc ana camp rescued this guy from a cave somewhere??? and this new guy and subaru made a deal or whatever so he was just helping out in the background of the fight against sloth??

and whaddya know................ julius goes to drink at a bar bc you know he probably tastes wine for fun in his free time (hes definitely Fond of wine anyway iirc) and now hes Sad over the Ones That Got Away so. bar it is. and gray haired merchant twink is there!! no way. they start talking a bit casually while drinking you know and julius's taste is Unfortunately either the graceful ones (anastasia, because julius has great taste in women) or the cringe fail ones (all the twinks - except for felix - that julius keeps having the wildest first meetings with, because julius has slightly shit taste in men) so julius is like huh this otto guys kinda funny lol. endearing in a weird way!! and -

oops they both end up being a little. they make a little bit of a move on each other. bc they were drinking and got a Bit tipsy. ottos Also not over the one that got away (subaru) (again) and hey. the finest knight truly is. Fine. objectively fine. totally. so you know. things get a little out of hand, maybe they do a bit of cringe fail flirting hidden underneath five million layers of repression and the Horrors of Being Known but ultimately they both embarrass themselves somehow (read: how far they went with each other while under the influence is up to you) and agree to Never Speak of This Again bc oopsies they were both technically each other's first time being Straightforwardly Not Straight with another man. oops. anyway julius has to go back to his camp and otto fucking bolts but he bolts right into subaru and gets his ass dragged into sanctuary drama.

julius is totally not a little bit envious about that.................... about otto getting to accompany subaru to sanctuary... but dont worry julius!! youll get to make up for it later!! bc eventually arc 5 stuff happens. and julius is Glad to see reinhard and subaru again. even with all the Baggage. and subaru is of course Weird about julius but eventually subaru reassures julius after they both confide in each other about the astrea drama (theyre honorary astreas via being dragged into the astrea family mess). and subarus reassuring to julius in a whole new way okay. subaru, whos unrestrained and incapable of being on the down low about anything, and julius, whos always holding himself back with a gazillion layers of repression, starts learning to let go a bit...

but also juliotto meet again. its terribly awkward and they both agreed to never speak of their awkward encounters again. subaru is going ??? and reinhard is clueless. otto then also goes to save reinhard and felt from heinkel trying to take felt hostage, which was also terribly awkward but reinhard and felt are grateful about it (but lbr if reinhard and otto knew each other deeper reinhard would maybe be a little. Apprehensive. around otto while otto would be sympathetic with reinhard bc hes like male emilia). but then while otto manages not to get erased by gluttony....... julius gets erased. of course. which you know results in being forgotten by reinhard in julius's THIRD first meeting ever with reinhard. and subarus the only one who remembers him of course.

then arc 6 happens :,))))) and julius of course has to confront his ideas of knighthood, his identity, his self esteem, and who he is outside of His Name. and also julius gets his ass beat by reid. his childhood idol. who reinhard KNEW was a shitty person but never ever told julius (whether this is because reinhard wanted to spare julius's hero worship or because reinhard never got the chance to tell julius is hard to say lajdsf). but julius does get to triumphantly win in the end!! grow as a person!!! learn to undo a bit of that repression and not hold himself to impossible standards all the time!! hes growing still!!! hes finally solidified his friendships with people like subaru and emilia!! hes remaking his relationship with anastasia!! hes asserted himself, hes planning on going to meet reinhard again one day and duel him!! things are looking up even if its still bittersweet that he doesnt have his name back yet!! does this mean?? perhaps?? a HAPPY ENDING?? julius can have the two men (reinhard and subaru) he admires the most in his life?????? as friends???? or as boyfriends?????? slowburn mutual pining????????????????????????????????????????

and then comes. arc 8 otto. that piece of shit.

julius is very much someone who has to grapple with the weight of the expectations that people throw at him. and also reinhard is someone who May envy julius a bit, but there's also you know, joshua and subaru with the Explicit Envy and (past) resentment because theyre placing heavy expectations on julius!! theyre pointing blame at julius!! julius is trying to find himself outside of stuff like that, especially after arc 6, but he's still got stuff to work on you know? he still has duties to fulfill!! loyalty that he has to act on bc hes gotta help subaru and co in arc 8!! and then in comes otto.

otto is also someone with expectation placed on him, but its Different. ottos mostly a nobody and when hes Not a nobody, his reputation tends to be Derogatory. hes a menace. hes a bad luck charm. hes grappling with the fact that he has to keep being left behind - post-arc 5 bc he was injured, but also repeatedly during arcs 7 and 8 because hes too physically weak to be on the same playing field as emilia or garfiel or subaru on the battlefield. he feels Useless after placing his identity on the expectation that hes Dependable and Useful.

julius is a bit more on even ground with otto now that julius is. also mostly a nobody bc his name is still gone. and also julius had to deal with having that part of his identity crushed. julius tried to be useful over and over in arc 6 only to get his ass repeatedly curb stomped by reid in the beginning. he was a nobody. he wasnt dependable anymore. and also otto is that one guy he had a Passing Fling with over having The Ones Who Got Away and julius was still vaguely hopeful about maybe being pals at least but ottos brushed him off a bit since arc 5. theyre like each others secrets you know? and now otto doesnt know that shit - julius is the only one who Knows - and otto also hates julius's fucking guts now. over SUBARU. and julius has been through this whole rodeo clown circus with arc 3 subaru so this is an absolutely terrible ride through memory lane.

and this is julius's THIRD twink that hates him for terribly unfair reasons. julius is very tired and a bit heartbroken in this au trying to pretend it doesnt bother him. on one level it doesnt. bc ottos pathetic and clearly Overcompensating for Something. on another level it kinda does bc julius had a Thing going with otto. and otto is the complete opposite of julius. like hes different from the other guys julius has liked.

julisuba is about complimentary opposites - they appear Extremely Different at first glance but theyre very similar. theyre people who try to look and act bigger than they are, people who keep reaching to be The Best, to be Perfect, because theyre overcompensating. theyre worried their entire identity is only built off of trying to be bigger than the shadow that other people in their lives (like their families) cast. but they cant reach perfection. and julius is like subaru but if subaru tried to really make himself "refined" - if he tried to stop putting his heart on his sleeve all the time. reinsuba are very similar too. theyre very refined knights who try to keep themselves in check at all times while the weight of the world is on their shoulders. they cant have a hair out of place. except julius is like the "smaller" version of reinhard. julius is less powerful. its like comparing a human and a "god" - reinhard, whos untouchable. but its a double edged sword, because julius gets to be a normal person, because half the expectation placed on him is also purely from himself, while reinhard isnt. reinhard isnt Free. hes on a leash by the kingdom and his family. julius even gets his kind of "celebrity" status stolen from him via the loss of his name. hes truly kind of Normal now - julius is like if reinhard didnt have his crazy abilities and had a little more of a chance to be free.

otto? yeah otto is. very very far from all of that. hes so obviously imperfect that most of his reputation, when its brought up, is just him being known as a mess who's caused various forms of chaos everywhere he goes. either that or hes just. There. Invisible. very very average. and otto is someone who wants a nice comfortable life, someone who wants to fit in - julius and subaru arent Exactly like that, and while reinhard also wants to be normal, ottos the one who has more of an opportunity. but he doesnt. because otto Dooms Himself by being recklessly cutthroat. otto is like if subaru was just. More of an asshole, so ottojuli would just be a rather Extreme Challenge for julius to have to deal with HAH. and normally otto is someone who repays how people treat him - a very "you treat me like this, i'll treat you the same way in turn" kind of deal, except ottos developed a vendetta against julius and its basically like if subaru never let go of his arc 3 julius vendetta.

yes so anyway. etc etc stuff probably happens but i ran out of ideas lajdlfjasdf i just think combining ALL the boy drama and recontextualizing + adding to canon would be. batshit crazy. and terribly entertaining. im so sorry julius but i want to see you crack a bit under the pressure. reinjuli as a ship is like tragic gay yearning that never goes anywhere past being friends with quiet homoerotic tension, then julisuba is. you know. extreme rivals to lovers, starts out Rough but then ends up being super super sweet and theyre Trying their best underneath the self esteem issues. and then ottojuli is. toxic yaoi at its finest (pun intended). you get Every flavor of mlm possible!!

ok so you may be asking "ok what would you even name this fic then" and to that i say that this would be called To All the Boys I've Loved Before.

anyway i really wanna write this idea someday ill inform you guys (if youre reading this and are Interested) if it ever happens :< so. in conclusion this is just julius the entire time throughout all of these events:

#rezero #re:zero #arc 5-8 spoilers #yes i made this post also so i can dramatically drop the wip title for this fic idea at the end of it and then laugh to myself bc i think #its the most perfect title of all time. #also adding up all of the rezero boy drama is important to me ok. and i was mostly going into the julius side of things in this post aldsjf #it gets messier when you remember reinsuba. and ottosuba. and reinotto. its incredibly funny to me. truly the worlds worst love pentagon. #or love square???? love shape???? #on a serious note i would love to see more queer stories exploring like. a person's different relationships over the years. bc sometimes it #does feel like this you know?? having drastically different dynamics with each person and each person knows you in different ways!! #its a fun character study exercise. and it feels true to life imo. you grow and change throughout your life and your relationships at each #time period can kind of reflect who you were as a person at the time. if that makes sense. idk i have many feelings on it HAH #natsuki subaru #reinhard van astrea #otto suwen #julius juukulius #also i do often hc reinhard otto julius as being on the ace spectrum. i dont really write otto being ace in mind for Every wip i do but yes #i do have these hcs and reasoning for them!!! also specifically i hc reinhard as being on the aroace spectrum. these are just hcs of course #hah but yes i quite like my hcs for them.

[asteracaea]

miranda otto's transformation into zelda spellman blows my entire mind. they're not the same person. where does that voice even come from?

#she is a true actor #and i am in love #she's so adorable and sweet in real life! #seriously how did she become a completely different person #nongaylor #miranda otto appreciation post #caos #chilling adventures of sabrina #aunt zelda #zelda spellman

[downtherabbitholewithlucy]

POV you're at a costume shop with Limp Bizkit

#The two-person horse on John and Lethal & the tight jaguar suit on Sam are my favorites #Fitting that Sam put on a Jaguar costume. DUUUVAL!!!!!!! iykyk😉 #And can Wes' 'lil caveman outfit get any shorter. LIKE DAYUM BBY GIRL LOOKIN' SEXY #I just love that Fred is living his best life just watching his bandmates act a fool #Limp Bizkit #nu-metal #Fred Drust #John Otto #DJ Lethal #Sam Rivers #Wes Borland #Music Video: My Way (William Orbit Remix) #down the rabbit hole

[dumping-ideas]

Taking a break from brainstorming and writing my WxS + ensemble fic by thinking rezero thoughts and how much I love SubaEmi & SubaRem both in and outside of romantic context because their relationship is so much more than that.

I remember back when the first season aired there's an 'I love Emilia' meme going around before I even knew rezero (I watched it in 2017 iirc). And when I finally watched it, I didn't really get why people at that time is mad at Subaru for not saying 'I love Rem' lol.

First of all, Rem is the one who rejected Subaru's proposal first. She knows that Subaru doesn't love her that way, and that something scared him so much that he chose to run away other than fight. She confessed not to get Subaru saying 'I love you' to her (although she kinda wished he would), but it's more about showing Subaru that there's someone that would love him and always be by her side no matter what--her.

And Subaru answered Rem's genuine love confession with the genuine truth--that he still loves Emilia. Because he knew that saying anything else but the truth will dishonor Rem's feelings. Rem falls in love with the Subaru who tries so hard for everyone and everything, including for Emilia's love. Actually, I like this scene because it shows how loyal Subaru is?? Even in his weakest moment, even when there's a girl that's so passionate about her love to him, his feelings for Emilia is still going strong. And I hate that a lot of viewers don't appreciate that dedication. Like damn, where can I find a guy as loyal as Subaru??

And not all anime-only knows this, but Subaru actually, truly, loves with Emilia because of the lap pillow in Arc 2. Sure, he fell in love at first sight when she saved him in the beginning of Arc 1 (also because she's physically his type), but it's only a bud--a crush. There's even a whole paragraph that's basically about Subaru realizing 'oh, I love her' at the end of the pillow scene in the light novel (ps. the ln is great btw). Just think about it, at that time, Subaru was terrified of being hated and betrayed again by everyone, everything he did ended in mistakes and he couldn't even tell anyone about his trauma---and then there's Emilia, who doesn't know or even able to understand, and yet she lent him her lap and a willing pair of ears to listen to his cries---showing Subaru that he's not alone in that world. For Subaru, he knew Emilia for more or less two weeks, but for Emilia, she only knew Subaru for more or less a day. Like, who wouldn't fall for her gentleness??

(And Rem did kill Subaru in cold blood and tortured him so I think it's weirder that Subaru forgave Rem, but that's Subaru for you ig. His super low self-esteem makes him has the mentality of 'as long as I know you have a shred of kindness in you, I can forgive you, even if you betray my trust, torture me, and kill me without remorse lol'

Btw, iirc in arc 7 he had a monologue where he said he still got shivers every time he heard the sound of chains--his trauma from Rem's torture will probably never go away).

So yeah, anime-onlies argument about 'Subaru's love to Emilia doesn't make sense' becomes moot if they actually have the context from the ln. But I didn't even have the context from the ln when I watched Ep. 18 the first time and I still understood why Subaru said 'I love Emilia' just fine, so... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Funny thing is that there's a scene in ln where Subaru admitted to both Rem (in Arc 3 before the White Whale battle) and Emilia (in Arc 4 on the carriage to Sanctuary) where he said that he also loves Rem. Again, understandable, because who wouldn't fall for Rem after her heartfelt confession?? And I appreciate how Subaru think that he's such a scum for liking two girls at the same time and thought that Emilia and Rem should know of his two-timing feelings. Rem is... well, she's kinda obsessed so she said that she's okay being the 2nd wife (but by the way Arc 7 goes I think she wouldn't be in the future), and the kind and gentle Emilia basically saying 'yeah, you suck' but she also said that she understood that Subaru and Rem had a history that she didn't know of so she couldn't fully judge Subaru for that.

Of course, then in Arc 6 Emilia said that she knew Subaru would be occupied with Rem when she woke up, so Emilia needed to work harder to make Subaru look her way... And then in Arc 7 Rem lost all her memories (which I think will tie in to Rem's own character development so she could live for herself, not for Ram or Subaru).

And also, why didn't anyone mention how strict Rem is to Subaru? In Arc 3 she basically said 'don't you dare run away from your trouble because I'm here', and in Arc 6 she's basically pissed at Subaru for giving up and not being able to stand up lol. Heck, in Arc 4 Subaru said to the witches that Rem is the strictest person ever to him because she wouldn't let him give up... and somehow it turned into a hero complex which is also addressed in Arc 7... although I think Arc 7 just made his hero complex worse... On the other hand, Emilia is gentle towards Subaru. In the Arc 4 light novel, when she realized how distressed Subaru was she put Subaru's ears against her chest so Subaru could hear her steady heartbeat to calm him down. In Arc 6, Emilia's (almost-)confession to Subaru was so soft even though all the chaos, and then when they fell she embraced him in such a way so she would fall to the ground first??? Even though there's no way they would survive that fall??? I'm so sorry, I'm so soft for that scene. Not to say that Rem wasn't gentle, but where Emilia would say 'it's okay for Subaru to rest', Rem wouldn't let him.

And and his narration in Arc 4 of his feelings for Rem and Emilia when he talked to his dad---Emilia is his light, and Rem is his sky--and how he couldn't live without both... that passage is so *chef's kiss*

And I haven't say anything about how their love for each other (and other people, in Subaru's case) is also a catalyst for them to love themselves...

Rezero is about love, and there are many forms of love. Romantic, platonic, familial, self-love, etc. ... The writer isn't wrong by calling it a heartwarming story.

#re zero #natsuki subaru #emilia #rem #basically a rant #actually subaru's dynamic with the everyone is so amazing even with the male characters #otto for being the only person who never thinks of subaru as a hero #but only as his stupid stubborn and kind friend?? #or julius who admires subaru's straightforwardness in life #who's proud of being subaru's friend #and how he's only able to stand proudly as a knight even though everyone forgets him because subaru remembers him?? #their exchange in arc 6 about subaru saying i remember your strength #and then julius responds in kind to the amnesiac subaru by entrusting anastasia to subaru??? #or even the comedic gag in rezelos where it implies that reinhard will do anything subaru asks of him #and even in arc 5 where subaru told reinhard to stop saying things that'll make fujoshi happy to him lol #and also the gag that child!subaru is the son of the emperor of vollachia and crossdressing subaru #while vincent and subaru has a mutual trust-hate relationship going on #subaru is a great mc i love him #love nagatsuki-sensei acknowledging the fujo in rezero fandom lol #also he once said that subaru is the delicate one in subarem subaemi dynamic #that he's the one who's supposed to be bridal carried in both relationship lol #based nagatsuki-sensei

[artemislosthunter]

one more person to seriously say that the HSR version of Kallen is in Luocha's coffin and I'm about to enter my villain arc

If it was Kallen (or whatever her HSR equivalent would be) HE'D FLAT OUT SAY IT, bcs idk he's build different and very self reflecting when it comes to the weird / murderous things he does

He tells you it's just someone he's not close to. No. This is very much NOT Kallen, stfu

#this and everyone calling Otto's entire story arc 'simp gone mad' are going to be the reason that one day I'll finally snap skldjslk #'haha simp' bitch he knew Kallen wouldn't love him. He never expected her to do so and fairly never WANTED her to do so #as he did not see himself as a fitting partner for her. He knew of Sakura. She told him in her letters. The reason he wanted to undo her #death so badly is not 'so he could love her / marry her / whatever' it was bcs she was the only friend he ever had #She was the only person that ever CARED about him. Bro grew up abused and uncared for. No this does not make his actions okay #but it EXPLAINS IT #She was the first and only person to care about him. And his desperate actions to save her from being executed #ended up causing her death which drove him over the edge and essentially mad #that's not a 'simp gone mad' or a guy that can't take rejection. This is someone who was convinced he was useless and worthless #who found someone who believed in him. who made his life better by being by his side. and he killed that person. fueling his self hatred #driving him over the edge. making him do terrible things. desperate to undo the worst thing he had done fully aware of everything else he i #doing. #oops character analysis done by accident caused by dumb people

[thewingedwolf]

rewatching hotd & i wonder just a bit - i never made the connection that viserys may have let them attempt to save Aemma if she hadn’t said that she didn’t want to have anymore kids. i think that moment, the moment he realized that his final chance at a boy may die and his wife will refuse to have another, is the moment she becomes disposable to him.

and of course - it’s not worth it. the theoretical boy will never be worth the life of the living, breathing partner he has who loves and trusts him enough to clearly state that she is tired of mourning her babies. even if little baelor had lived, he would have been just as fucked as Aegon II was; raised by a father who resents his very existence because it is a reminder of the ways in which he failed as a husband to Aemma and a father to Rhaenyra. Aemma’s life was a precious thing that was not worth being traded for a boy that only existed in theory; she knew it, Rhaenyra knew it, shit even Daemon seemed to understand to a certain point that making the decision to murder a wife on the off chance it will save a son is a cruel decision for a husband to make, and that the decision should rest in the hands of the mother carrying the child (rip Rhea Royce tho, but that’s a different convo). But Viserys is so stuck in his dreams, so convinced that only a son will unite the realm that he sacrifices Aemma and the gods give him jack shit in return because Aemma’s life was worth more than what her womb was capable of conceiving, and Viserys only realized this after he had her ripped open.

And interestingly enough, because he still refuses to act decisively enough, still stuck with his head in his Dreams, he is sort of right and brings about the fall of the dragons through his continued inaction; because he doesn’t smooth things over with the sons he resents for not being Aemma’s, or pave the way properly for Rhaenyra to inherit, his death rips apart the realm. But all of that, all of it starts with poor Aemma - Aemma who decides she has had enough of her body being a graveyard and Aemma who is promptly murdered for it.

#she makes me sad #aemma targaryen #viserys i targaryen #anti viserys i targaryen #i find him utterly fascinating as a character but he is a coward who is terrified of making waves and helps destroy his own family #in the process of trying too hard to stand still. i compared otto to tywin in having all of his ambition and none of his intellengence #but viserys is similar to ned in many ways. but he has all of ned’s faults and none of ned’s fierce loyalty tk the women in his life #for all that ned refuses to learn from lyanna’s death and makes the same mistakes with arya and sansa. if lyanna or either of his daughters #had come to him begging not to wed a *specific* person i do not believe ned would have forced them to the altar. if given the choice between #catelyn and rickon as the boy was being born i think ned would have refused to make the decision. which isn’t the same as saying ‘that’s #fucked up wtf’ which is the correct answer but ned at least would simply take himself out of that situation bc he hates stress and grief. #rani attempts meta #house of the dragon #rani liveblogs game of thrones

[floof-exists]

this is day 1 of me screaming my relatively harmless opinions into the void starting with

This Man

Fucking sucks and I hate him

#msm 2017 #otto octavius #spiderman #He downloaded his consciousness into Peter's body dead set on destroying Spider-Man and hurting people #But some wires got crossed and he accidentally like “remembered” two (2) of Peter's most personal and defining moments #as if he were experiencing them himself #and for some reason that made him think it was okay to just co-opt Peter's life #refer to Uncle Ben as “ours” (as in his *and* Peter's) #and be Spider-Man better than Peter (derogatory) ever could have managed #you absolute sicko get out of Peter's head #those memories aren't yours and they can never be yours #Peter chose to respond to Uncle Ben's death by becoming someone who helps people #You've chosen to respond to hardship by becoming the person with the gun #and experiencing a highlight reel of *Peter's* choices #*Peter's* emotions #directly because you violated him in one of the most evil ways imaginable #does not change that

[gopher-jade]

i'm never going to be over how kevin didn't get a CG of his own... he deserves a proper send off and theme song after all that he has endured :(

#honkai impact #kevin kaslana #fu hua really needed shattered samsara after 50k years #otto really needed his CG after his 500 years #kevin got the worst of both people's journeys #the 50k years. the watching EVERY PERSON you love (not just one) die from old age or the fight against the honkai #the not having memory resets and not having a fun school life bc he's busy fighting the honkai #the remembering mostly the bad things and the hopeless things and not rmbing a lot of happy moments bc thats how memory works. #if u focus on fighting the honkai u rmb a lot of thjngs associated w it which is. p negative. #ARGGGGG KEVINNNNNN #they actually fleshed him out so well in the very end too....

[ottobooty]

Made myself so anxious today about things I made myself sick LOL

#work life bills commissions friends #did i upset this person? did i do this? i need to pay my student loans #brain off please #Otto Blabs

[otto-c-graves]

Also, I became an ordained minister the other day lol.

#otto babbles on and on #otto’s personal life #ordained #reverend

[awsteb]

i suppose get not liking jawn but uh. if you're like super into parx you realise they're choosing to be his friend right. this is like a slightly less extreme version of gerard way fans who despise lindsey

#i had no idea what anyone was talking about until today and none of them provided sources so i'm still kinda. eh. #by and large i do not know the ins and outs of his personal life nor do i want to. #even if new information comes up i'm just gonna do my thing and remember i'm not a twitter parxie who feels immense guilt every time they #like a guy who has iffy friends #parxies wouldn't survive a day in mcrblr #i just don't get where you people (who like parx and related bands) draw the line here #gerard has made music with jimmy euringer #otto is in a relationship with kinda gross stuff going on and a girlfriend with the worst judgement i've ever seen #i've heard shit about the madden brothers #awsten has done some stupid shit #pete wentz is. i'm not even going to bother to dissect all of that because i know i'm not a good source of information #idk i just find it odd that there's such a sudden large hullabaloo about this as if the scene hasn't been a mess the whole time #transmission📻

[minimoefoe]

until we actually see troy's vibes in 8b I don't think the fact he (apparently) has a daughter is gonna compute in my mind at all bc like wtfdym troy got with someone, potentially was in a full on relationship, and had a child??????

#twd txt #troy otto #i just have to keep in mind that its been 10yrs in universe since we saw him #so obvs hes gonna have changed in that time #but bc all i have in my mind rn is the s3 version of him #im like.. sir thats a virgin who hasnt spoke to a person romantically in his whole life #ftwd spoilers #part of me worries even with seeing s8 him it wont feel completely believable to me #but we'll see #im excited

[cidandy]

otto mozer is so goofy because he's like "grrr i hate cider i need to kill him with my war machine & 13 year old" like. lol no dude he's literally just a big gay nerd i don't see what your issue is

#the amount of times otto has threatened ciders life in the twitter lore is absurd #ALSO THAT ONE TIME HE BASICALLY TOLD CIDER TO KILL HIMSELF #like. DUDE. WHAT DID HE DO TO YOU????? #chipspeech #i love being tbe only person under the chipspeech tag it's so funny

[arthur-kingsmen]

not 2 be unhinged on main but. starting a 100k word long writing challenge, only to get broken up with, for literally the same reason my main character gets broken up with for in the story multiple times, like the literal theme of the story is the struggle of relationships with this particular issue, and then decide to keep writing anyway because i need something to do so so bad and maybe i can vent my emotions into half decent prose, and writing four THOUSAND words a day to catch up on all the days i missed due to a almost three. year. relationship. ending. literally has me feeling like this

#this was supposed to be hot otto summer 😭😭 #i keep wavering from fine to not fine. but sometimes i stare at my laptop and realize im making that exact expression above #and like. it helps to write it out. it also hurts too. im trying to let myself have both #like let myself be sad when i need and angry when i need and nothing when i need #it was like. it needed to happen. i know someday ill be greatful it happened now and not later #but its still hard. like my entire life got torn up. this fic is like. idk #a distraction while i work on rebuilding #personal

[lives-in-a-harpsichord]

Considering doing more of Targaryen fanart

From the Crown you know them

#Sonja's life #Otto in double breasted suits is just something that can be so personal #westeros stuff