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bookwyrminspiration · 6 months

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hello my lovely loveliest dearest favorite quil <333 I have finally actually returned with a slight rebrand and many tales to tell.

How are you bestie!!! I missed you So SO much and it's literally so rude that I can't send you all of the things that make me think of you. Like I swear my partner is gonna be jealous at this point because I'm literally like omg I literally need to show this to quil. It is a necessity. (If you're wondering it was a hoodie that had the classic university logo and said Silly Goose University and I decided that we needed them to match with our friendship bracelets.)

Anyway I am eyeing your new writing up very very closely and am itching to go to Ao3 and read ALL of it. (The urge is quite strong now that I have started Thinking about it, however this ask is taking long enough bc I have to take Wiggle™ breaks because holy bestie I am SO happy to talk to you once again.)

Speaking of your writing I was struck with the most incredible fantastic amazing art idea after looking at some of my old wings AU doodles. However, my drawing tablet went through the shredder (<- Puppy) I have to WAIT. To give the full idea justice but trust me bestie I'm so excited to show it to you.

Anyway I've been extra ramble-y but HI HOW ARE YOU I MISSED YOU WHAT IS GOING ON WITH YOUR LIFE.

I'd love all of your thoughts and feelings and I miss you and ily and I'm so happy like I kid you not this ask has taken. So much effort because I cannot sit still writing this to you. I have. The Dumbest Smile on my face. <3333333

(Please note that this ask is meant to be read as if I am laying on your bed kicking my feet in the air while excitedly talking, thank you 😌)

TOBI!!!! I was just thinking about you the other day!! My dad and I were watching Labyrinth for the first time in a while, and when I realized the baby's name was Toby (i'd forgotten) I just went...ah..Tobi...I hope he's doing well...

I'm doing alright! I've been very busy this semester, and we are approaching finals so it's probably only going to get busier soon. But! This has been my first semester mostly in person in a very long time! And I'm officially fully in uni rather than dual credit, so I'm somewhere else now and have met SO many people. Actually am planning to meet up with one of them tomorrow to go to a restaurant/museum for class! And to watch a few movies with two others sometime soon.

lots of reflections on that because relationships of all kinds have been. rather difficult my whole life, so we'll see what happens here! also would 100% wear some silly goose university hoodies with you <3. move aside tobi's partner I need to glue BOTH of his hands to mine. forever

Also!! If you read my fics I'll love you forever and ever and ever even more. This new titz one has been sitting for several months, but I finally pulled it back out! And I am rather nervous about it because Fitz and Tam are both particular characters, and so combining them just makes them even harder to write. and THEN! throwing in Fitz's Alvar feelings makes that EVEN MORE difficult. but! it was also an absolute delight to work on so I hope you like it :)

and holy shit wings au art!!! i trust you so much I am so excited to see it--and don't worry about however long it takes! wings au is years in the writing, i've got experience with patience. wait btw, I don't know if you're aware, but I'm attempting to post the epilogue soon! I have the rough draft and the anniversary is coming up, so I'm hoping to have it edited to post on the ending's anniversary. it's a little over a week away, but also finals are descending AND its nano, so we'll see what happens. it WILL be out by the end of the year for certain though (and during october I went through and re-edited the whole thing for grammar and details--it's ridiculous how many its it's mistakes there were because i KNEW the difference. i'd just autopilot do one or the other and not catch it in my quick edits)

I keep pausing to do little claps and stim because. tobi!!! it's so so cruel we can't lay in bed kicking our feet together, i have missed you so so so much! what has been up with YOU? how has your life been? what's up with the blog migration--if you want to talk about it. also totally cool to simply accept it and move on. i just like talking to you and it's very nice to see you again :)

#quil's queries #xanadaus #tobi tobi tobi tobi tobi tobi tobi toboi toiobtoi toibtio!!!#i would say more but there's so many thoughts that they've kinda all turned into white noise and actually there's no more thoughts #just excitement #and also I am a little tired. because of the busy #but!! very very happy to see you!!#long post

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hyunjinspark · 1 year

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Hi Jade, I always thought of writing here and I was thinking of waiting till the next chapter (like mate stop procrastinating) but here we go... I've seen some people bad mouthing fanfics here and you saying that Tumblr hasn't been a happy place for you but I want you to know that your writing was one of the few things that helped me during one of the hardest times I've went through this summer. This is a bit embarassing for some reason lol but since I'm writing anonymously I can talk freely. Let me warn I may talk about some triggering topics and I don't know if you even want to read such things but my depression and anxiety became worse and I was also diagnosed with an eating disorder this summer. I really felt like giving up a lot this year and I feared that I'd. Thankfully I found some things to hold on for in life especially with uni starting. But during the summer I felt really alone and hopeless. This is half joking and half serious but I spent most of my time online and everytime you updated I was like "omg thank god I didn't do stupid things, here's the new chapter." "oh i should hang on a little more so that i can see the end of the fic." I always look forward to new chapters and I can imagine how hard it is to focus and be inspired when life goes on, responsibilities shows up and people try to degrade your work. But in the end I really hope and believe that nothing breaks your soul and your love for writing because you can always be an escape from reality and a peace of mind to someone who's in trouble without even knowing. I even made goddamn streusel cakes lol (unfortunately I had no strawberries left but apples weren't that bad either). Sending so much love to you and pardon me if I made any grammatical mistakes while writing to the greatest writer <3

trigger warning; depression, anxiety, ed

oh my god. first of all, thank you so much for feeling comfortable enough to open up and share this with me. i can’t thank you enough for telling me something like this, and how your message turned my week around.

its definitely strange to not have it to be a happy or safe place at the moment, because tumblr, for me, since years, has always been a safe space where i felt like i could share the writing i like, in a form that’s interesting to me. i love writing fiction, films and building stories about love, and with something like fandoms and fanfiction, its so simple to share with people. but currently with the hate threats, it’s definitely not feeling like a space where im comfortable anymore, so your message really impacted me, because it reminds me what i write for.

im so sorry to hear that you went through such a time, and i truly hope you’re doing much better now. ive had people close to me who have been through such situations and im so proud of you for not giving up and for still holding on. for you to say that my story helped me is a lot, perhaps way too much credit than i deserve, but honestly if my stories make you happy even just 1%, that’s enough for me.

i have been writing my entire life, but only shared on tumblr for a couple of years, with reservations because when you share any form of art or writing on the internet, you’re always inviting hate and anonymous comments from people who may not understand the intent of the work, and i could always go back to not sharing my writing since first and foremost i always write to express my ideas of love and receiving hate for love stories kind of negates that, you know? this week has made me feel like not wanting to share my writing anymore in the future, so thank you for telling me this.

i am grateful to have been an escape and piece of mind for you when you most needed it, and just that makes me feel like i was successful in sharing some love into the world.

you made streusel cakes from slwy? im honestly going to cry, ive never made streusel cakes myself but i will for you, im serious. going to get the recipe and coerce my best friend into doing that with me, just to celebrate you and slwy, and love.

once again, im so proud of you for getting through this and im so happy to have been there for you, even if unknowingly.

#star lost with you #the best message i have ever received #despite the circumstances #thank you for sharing it with me

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theold-ultraviolence · 1 year

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I wholly gotcha about the staring off into space. I am the same but with names, like somebody will be giving me a name and then ten minutes later I need to call them and I am like 'wait... what was it'. also sometimes I'll be drifting off. like I am talking but my gaze is fixed somewhere far away. I have to admit that - since starting uni - I don't really iron my clothes, as most of them don't need to but yeah... ironing is an hassle and some fabrics are just ugh... complex. truly wishing for this clumsiness to leave me one day.

and yeah, I love the whole aesthetic of that period. in general it's very interesting! also yeah... I do think that sadly females in many departments gets a bit overshadowed, so it's good that you are interested into discovering more! I am trying to do the same with female authors in literature! also, personally I really struggle to just sit down and watch movies, unless they are the same three I know and are my comfort movie/TV series, so I get you. also Ewan teaches us your way... like dude, I need the chill way that you handle the absence of social media!

YEAH! I AGREE! I think that there's a difference between enjoying the time with your partner and straight up co-dependence.

(like one thing that I don't really like of Italian culture is just how OBSESSED - in an unhealthy way - couples are. like back when my friend group was mostly couples, they were always attached to the hip + doing stuff together and they had this dreadful thing of bringing their boyfriend to girls night, like no. I need my independence - I don't know if it's a trauma response - and I am definitely clingy but I also need time off to just charge and handle my stuff).

(like I get needing time with your boyfriend, but I also would need time with my family and friends, alone. like there's a time and place for things)

also yeah, I'd be OBSESSED - in a positive way - with Aemond (also fellow insecure babe over here, so I'd be a bit jealous but in general line, unless I am give a reason not to believe somebody I tend to just be like 'live and let the other live'.

ALSO NEED TO SHARE THESE THOUGHT: alright, so you know about how we said Aemond would have always an hand around you? I don't know if it's a general head canon but I think that his modern version would smoke and personally... I am not the biggest fan of smoking, but I'd tolerate it for him. also he'd be like such a sweetheart about it always moving away to smoke because maybe he knows that it bothers you (if you are a non-smoker) and giving you a kiss, because he knows that maybe you'd mind his breath... and ugh. this man is so so soft!

so yeah, that's it, aside this, I hope you are having a lovely day!

-🌗

Omg NAMES! Bestie it's embarassing how much it takes me to remember my student's names. We're right in the middle of the semester and I still struggle. To my defense, I teach 3 groups of around 20 people, so 😅 what do people want from me lmao. And for sure!! in literature too! I think I've been better with my reading women authors than I have with filmmakers, so we have to fix that asap! This reminded me of something very cool that happened yesterday with students. They had to do a presentation on the Renaissance, and instead of talking about Da Vinci and Michelangelo and stuff, they covered women artists of the time and I was so impressed. BIG kudos to them! AND YES Ewan teach us your ways!! I wish I had 0 social media pressence to have inner peace but the images on my phone call to me lmao. At best, I deleted my personal instagram and only left one I use for my work.

And I absolutely HATE that in couples. I just couldn't do that, I like my space way too much. I'm not even that clingy with my friends. I'd run if someone I was seeing started acting that way. If I had a partner I'd obviously want to see them all the time but having your own space is important, and also it allows you to miss the person and make it even more special when you do see them (not that I know anything at all about relationships lmao).

AAAAAAH HE SO WOULD. I normally dislike smoking/smokers so much but ngl, when an attractive guy does it...👁👁👁👁👁👁👁👁👁 this may be weird but when the scent of smoke mixes in with a guy's cologne? 🥵 but also dying over him being super considerate of not kissing you or going off somewhere else to smoke laskjflkdjflkj Aemond come back here I don't mind you kissing me after you've been smoking

Hope you're having a wonderful day too, lovely!!

#🌗

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nettlestingsoup · 1 year

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Hi, it's me..again. I hope you're doing well!

I swear I don't mean to spam you but I saw that you had a post pinned listing your fic ideas and it said that we could ask about them? Now, I don't know if you pinned this ages ago but I always love talking about my fic ideas with other people so maybe I can still ask about them?

I am so very intrigued by the space station au. And The Orchid seems so interesting too!

And I somehow remember a Jeongchan idea too? Which, YES I love that dynamic.

Also please know that this is just me saying that I'd love to hear your ideas about those fics (if you want to or feel up to it!) but I am in no way trying to make you feel like you have to write.

I also hope I'm somewhat making sense? It's been an odd day haha. Please let me know if I'm being annoying hahah.

Ah! Can I follow you btw or is that weird. Omg I feel like such a noob help haha

hi! please never apologise for sending asks; i'm well aware that i haven't answered your last one, but i have been a horribly busy little bean lately and i don't like answering things in a rush (it feels unfair to people who ask)!

you're right, i haven't updated my pinned post in a while, but it is still relevant! i'm currently trying to finish three fics before i work on anything else: the orchid, which is very nearly done; lichtenberg, which is halfway to two thirds done; and the seungjin red thread au which... i haven't worked on in some time. i'm hoping to get back to the space station au after those, and also to start the jeongchan! i'll explain each of those in a bit more depth below. this is going to get long.

the orchid: probably the most m-rated fic i've ever written??? it's a science-fiction adventure story centred around chanjin and the life they're stuck in on a space station where they can barely see one another. it's less a story about falling in love and more a story about how much you're willing to risk for it once you have it. i've had a lot of fun with the space-centred worldbuilding, and i'm looking forward to refining it while i edit!

space station au: more sci-fi! more space! i started that one when i moved away from uni and i was kind of lonely in a new city. most of the characters are lonely in some way until they find each other, but they do! the basic premise is that chan gets lost in space and falls in love with seungmin, a sentient star. he does his best to try to make him human so that he can come home to earth, but he can't figure out how to do it on his own. his friends from earth find him, though, along with a few others, and despite some lingering resentment at him leaving them, they do their best to help. i could do a whole answer just explaining everyone's role in that, so let me know if you want to hear it! it's a big au. it's going to take me a long time to write i think, even when i'm working on it consistently.

lichtenberg: seungbin featuring a kind of scary and mysterious seungmin who's secretly possessed by a lightning spirit. changbin starts to work in the bookshop that he owns, and finds himself more and more drawn in by seungmin and all of his secrets and the way he has a strange effect on the people around him when it rains. it's a kind of intense as a love story, and changbin doubts a lot whether seungmin actually cares about him, and there's fun supernatural shenanigans involved! i was really enjoying writing it but i got very distracted by the orchid.

seungjin red thread au: softer and cuter than any of the others! it features seungmin as a kind of angel who works for the goddess of love, working to ensure that people find those they're fated to be with; until She changes her mind, and asks him to cut red threads instead. it's about seungmin finding his own red thread with hyunjin and learning to be human, and it's very inspired by how much i love my queer community and how happy to be myself they make me feel. it's drawn quite a lot on personal experience, especially jisung being non-binary and chan being ace (i really love the minchan side story in that one. it's my favourite part.)!

jeongchan: this one is a fantasy-steampunk story inspired by taylor swift's illicit affairs. it features chan as a professor at a university for those who study to create clockwork marvels, and jeongin as a servant to the professors at the same university. they fall in love when chan agrees to teach jeongin in secret, and their relationship is kind of fraught with class divides such as chan's arranged marriage, and the constant need for secrecy so that jeongin doesn't lose the job that allows him to support his family. it'll have a happy ending, i promise!

ok! there we go! that's all of them! let me know if you have any more questions!

and you can absolutely follow me! tumblr is wildly interaction-based. follow people who post about things you like! send them asks! like and reblog things you enjoy! add your own things in the tags! it's how you and everyone else has the best experience <3

#asks #pompoenwolkjes #this took a long time to type haha my thumbs hurt #i should have done it on desktop #whoops #writing #ao3 author #stray kids fic #damn my story concepts are fun actually #sometimes it's good to remember that

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baekhvuns · 1 year

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True, Olivia x Helena - what a great duo. Ohhh where did your friend met Sebastian, did they talk? I saw him on a motorcycle in London once, hahaha

Omg, The Interview... not this movie 😭 does your uni has any dark secrets then? 👀

Advice wasn't 3 years ago, but the time is running so fast I'm constantly confused. Like wdym it's almost the end of 2022...

Some people say "it's their money they can do what they want" well yeah, though sometimes I question if it's really THEIR money not their parents, because wtf??? But those stans must be so fucking bored to fly everywhere? So no job, no school? Tbh I would be too fucking tired, I love Ateez but no way I'm travelling around the world for two months just to see them. Same with fan signs/calls, just let it gooooo at some point. 😭 Most of those fans might not be dangerous, but you can't convince me this isn't some weird obsession 🤡 the urge to block, especially a few Hwa biased fans kshdjsysjsuskshwu, but I wanna see the man - the struggle 💔

You're right, I HATE the concealed lips trend so much

Baeksussy back at it, I won't trust you again 🔪 Wolf Girl and Black Prince is controversial, but some people love it and I'm like??? It's not even dumb, entertaining fun, it's just awful. I only bothered because the guy looked good, but his personality? TRASH. And Erica... girl, have you no shame. Brother's Conflict I- yeah remember, who allowed it?! The guys were pretty tho

I read the latest installment of Campus Affair and SJ is also giving DUMB. I CANNOT WITH HIM 😭 is there nothing behind that forehead??? Damn I need to catch up on the Harem. Tbh the character doesn't need to be black-haired, I can envision Hwa in every hair colour basically

I think BBC was shocked that someone as cheerful and nice as Chuu decided to stand up for herself. Ooooh I hope all the members can get away from that company (I think Vivi can't because she's a foreigner and would have to leave Korea </3), but not BBC denying it ofc lmao. I also hope Omega X wins their case and comes back soon.

Yes the chest, the Hwaboobs need to be covered too

I almost thought Spain x Germany would end in 0:0, hshahsiagshsha it was still a draw, but wtfffff. I could never take Neymar seriously, I know he has his moments, but I can't stand him and his shitty acting, he learnt all the tricks in Barca lmaooo 💀 this guy did a Neymar. ??? Yes, Tottenham players are doing well, can't deny it.....

I don't follow WayV's music, but I always see their questionable or loser behaviour, especially Yangyang 💀 but I felt that video actually, it happened to me

I need Soohyuk's sweater and I need Seonghwa in his sweater 🤗

I tried to find the best tier list, but all of them were missing something. My friend said she actually started making her own list a few months ago, sooooo maybe we will help her 👀 BESTIE THE HOLIDAY THAT LOW NOOOOOOO. Wait you didn't see Love, Rosie?! :o you must see it IMMEDIATELY. Here is mine

Stop because when Seonghwa dropped THE pool photos I instantly thought of that tenelka fic

WHITE HAIRED HWA IN THE JAPANESE MV LET'S GO LET'S DIE

That's what I said when they announced SuperM, no Changmin but Lookass?! Be serious 🔫

THE 2ND ONE I'M GONNA KMS!!!

I'm afraid about Seonghwa's and Mingi's hair, please please please no scissors 😭😭😭😭 and I don't wanna say goodbye to blonde Hwa either 💔💔💔💔

DO NOT SAY THAT TO ME I'M THE STEALER

Very true <3 I'm crying lol

WHAT THE FUCKKKKK. Seonghwa's a cutie though

.......... If I saw him outside my window I'd have jumped - DV 💖

hi hello!!!

True, Olivia x Helena - what a great duo. Ohhh where did your friend met Sebastian, did they talk? I saw him on a motorcycle in London once, hahaha

i need them to play like a fairy god mother vs the ‘evil fairy god other” I NEED THEM ON A DISNEY FILM !!!! they didn’t! the rush hour was too much but my friend momentarily froze bC JUST RANDOMLY?? we do not see anyone else but our canadian mascot ryan reynolds here so it was quite a surprise fhdbd AYOO??

Omg, The Interview... not this movie 😭 does your uni has any dark secrets then? 👀

LMFAOOOO YEAH THAT MOVIE 😭😭😭 seth rogan made my uni mad it was a whole fiasco fhsbshd,,, u know what i do know if they do but it is a creepy uni,, the most dark secret i know is that there’s a avocado statue in the uni garden <3 lights up as well <3 fbwndh

Advice wasn't 3 years ago, but the time is running so fast I'm constantly confused. Like wdym it's almost the end of 2022...

no bc why did november skim past so fast??? it was oct 31st like yesterday and now it’s snowing and dec 1st???? wHAAAT??? time is a simulation

NO BC EVEN IF IT IS THEIR MONEY,,, don’t u get bored seeing the same idols again? like isnt it inconvenient to sit on a plane and travel 7 seas away to attend a 1 hour fansign jetlagged completely??? no school, no job??? just vibes??? NO BC IS IT NOT TIRING TO WANNA TRAVEL WITH THEM REPEATEDLY??? “but you can't convince me this isn't some weird obsession” no u are correct, i get that they wanna travel just bc “yolo” but come on bro spending 400$+ on tickets for 2 months at idk 12 shows??? is it not tiring like id be physically exhausted at the second day of the concert, like ive seen this exact setlist yesterday why do i wanna see it for 2 more months 🤨 FBANDHWK SOFTBLOCKING THE FANSITES

You're right, I HATE the concealed lips trend so much

no like, we’re not gonna kiss it??? why are u hiding them??? it’s the bronzer and the concealer im about to fire this makeup artist 🔫

LMFAOOOO 😭😭 no bc it had POTENTIAL but it was executed terribly tbh,, YOURE RIGHT HIS PERSONALITY WAS TRASH THEY WANTED TO MAKE HIM SEEM LIKE A USUI 2.0 BUT FAILED AT IT SO BAD,,,see the red haired one in brothers conflict, do u rmr subaru i-

FBWNDHWJ IM NOT THERE YET BUT THEYRE ALL SO DUMB 😭😭😭 NOTHING BEHIND THE FOREHEAD STOP IM GONNA USE THIS AS A DIALOGUE IN THTIS YUNHO FUC FBENFHEJ ,,, i also have it catches up on harem ever since that webtoon update about free passes each day like MF i can’t even read nothing???,,, ur absolutely correct, he is red haired hwa <3 but im sorry this. this guy right here.

YEAH!! the way they keep denying everything and jtbc calling them out on it fbdbd,, bc chuu’s so loved globally hopefully she doesn’t get blacklisted like a certain someone! vivi and hyunjin, hopefully vivi’s working with the visa issues before terminating! i hope so too! have a lot of evidence and hopefully they win!!

Yes the chest, the Hwaboobs need to be covered too

hwaboobs and sooboobs. need them both in a room, covered.

NO BC GERMANY IS NOT HERE TO LOSE,, seriously the teams this year are so unpredictably good <3 i keep laughing at how the guy from the saudi team got touched and he rolled over and fell 😭😭 mf how dramatic are u 😭🤚🏼 he deserves a rolls royce for that acting fbsnd,, LMFAOOOO neymar is so jokes STOP FBWKDHWK HES IN HIS NEYMAR ERA COMEON MAN LEARN FROM HIM,, he pretend to be hurt every match and now he is! LEARN 😭😭 ngl sk was robbed of a goal 🤚🏼

I don't follow WayV's music, but I always see their questionable or loser behaviour, especially Yangyang 💀 but I felt that video actually, it happened to me

wayv is so questionable sometimes i forget they’re a group bc they act like a walking talking sitcom,,, and yangyang,, why’s he always set up like that, breathing hard and groaning over a TAP FBWKDJAK

I need Soohyuk's sweater and I need Seonghwa in his sweater 🤗

im about to make soohyuk hwa’s father in the next fic, i can’t take this resemblance anymore every time. i just see him and go “so that’s what dilf seonghwa would look like, huh”

SEND OVER THAT LIST ASAAAPPP BESTIES FRIEND!!! SAVE US,, lOOK HEAR ME OUT I DIDNT EVEN WATCH IT PROPERLY OKAY WHEN I DID IT WAS A MESS AND IT LEFT THAT IMPRESSION ON ME,, ILL REWATCH IT ONE DAY,, AND EXUSE ME WHY IS 5 YEAR ENGAGEMENT SO LOW ON UR CHART 🔫🔫 WHAT IS THIS BLASPHEMY

Stop because when Seonghwa dropped THE pool photos I instantly thought of that tenelka fic

no bc is this not… AD..

WHITE HAIRED HWA IN THE JAPANESE MV LET'S GO LET'S DIE //// That's what I said when they announced SuperM, no Changmin but Lookass?! Be serious 🔫

BETSIE WHAT IS THIS MV I HAVE NOT STOPPED SCREAMING !!!! no srs??! changmin would’ve been the best top tier addition to superm! his vocals and his dynamic with everyone would just been so much better!

THE 2ND ONE I'M GONNA KMS!!! /// I'm afraid about Seonghwa's and Mingi's hair, please please please no scissors 😭😭😭😭 and I don't wanna say goodbye to blonde Hwa either 💔💔💔💔

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT, FIRST THE LIP STAINS AND NOW THESE PC’S 😭😭 WHY DO THE JPN ALBUMS HAVE TO BE SO EXPENSIVE I WANT THIS FRAMED 😭😭😭 if the stylist comes near mingihwa or yeo,, im boycotting them 🔫

DO NOT SAY THAT TO ME I'M THE STEALER

DHWKDHKWDHKW HE SAID IT AGAIN WHAT IS THIS MAN DOING 😭😭 BAITING US

Very true <3 I'm crying lol //// WHAT THE FUCKKKKK. Seonghwa's a cutie though

omg stop it, his aura changes when he’s blond,,, idk if ive seen this before but after kai’s blond hair in monster ithought id never see an aura like that BUT seonghwa’s blond, every fucking type of it, im so in love. he’s so different with blond hair, it’s his fratboy calling actually

STOP I WAS ABOUT TO SEND THAT TO U

.......... If I saw him outside my window I'd have jumped - DV 💖

but uhhh anon is this not model hwa for a street magazine shoot. 🙂. I wOULD NOT LET GO OF THIS MAN bc what is this

anon 😭😭🤚🏼

mingi has joined the ysl line, i knew i could trust him, will be preparing a model mingi au

very surprising news, i dreamt about the guy who performed dreamers at fifa <3 first time. im, apparently, obsessed.

and exo finally exoing 😭🤚🏼 idk if u can see me crying

and i need to u do this. COMEON.

HE IS SO CUTE

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

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hella1975 · 3 years

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i'm very socially anxious and i'm starting university next month 😬 i don't drink much and i've never been to an actual party but i kinda have to start going otherwise i'm scared i'm not gonna make any friends at school so do you have any tips on how to act at a party? bc i can't dance, especially in front of others and i'm very nervous when talking to new people

omg hi i'm going to uni next month as well, let's figure it out together anon (yes this is a direct order to keep sending me asks i would like to be kept in the loop pls) <3

okay so believe it or not, i actually started drinking very late for what was usual in my peer group. (however pls note this is britain; by 'very late' i mean i was sixteen when i first got drunk). that means that while i do enjoy getting drunk now, i've also been the 'sober one' before, so i know what that's like.

for starters, you are under no obligations to get drunk. ever. and you will love yourself a lot more if you stick to whatever your personal limit is, be that one drink or no drinks, even if being 'sensible' or 'boring' can make things difficult at the time. trust me on this. it's not worth caving just to feel like you're fitting in.

the good thing about the age you're at now is that for a lot of people, the novelty of alcohol has worn off, and people are - in some ways - a lot more mature than they were when they were getting pissed in a field at the ripe age of 14. if you say you don't want to drink, aside some inevitable banter, people won't actually care, and if they do, they are very much in the minority and are not someone you want to be associated with anyway. it's actually a very big red flag of mine on a night out if i meet someone still into peer-pressuring at their big age. you have to be seriously insecure if you feel the need to make others uncomfortable like that, and remember that about people!! it's their problem, not yours, and it's very easy to tap into that insecurity without being confrontational if you don't want a scene, so long as you remember that all their false bravado is just that. false.

as for parties, please don't punch me for what i'm about to say but.... try and have fun. i say try bc i know social anxiety is not just a simple one-hurdle-leap-and-you're-fine thing; it's debilitating. but if you ease up as much as you can in the moment, even if it's only a little, then it'll help. at the end of the day, it's just a party, and there's dozens at uni for you to compensate if you make a tit out of yourself. and it's like i said earlier; at a party, people don't care if you make a tit out of yourself. i mean this nicely but when everyone is raving with music so loud you can barely hear when people shout in your fucking ear, and there's dancing and drinking and it's dark, who's gonna notice if you're dancing a little stiffly, or if you fall over, or say something stupid? it's so easy to lose yourself in a party and that's one of the reasons why i love them, because everyone just becomes one big crowd, and it doesn't matter what any individual is doing.

but if it really does feel overwhelming and you feel like everyone's staring and judging you, then some steps i'd recommend:

1) have a go-to person. now i'm gonna be very clear here, whoever you go to a party with, you stay with them. whether that be a group of 5 or just one mate, you stay with them. and i don't mean 'be glued to their side the whole night' bc that's not fun for anyone, but check in on them, and make sure they check in on you. this is a safety thing, but it's also nice to keep tabs on a familiar face. if things get bad, find your go-to person and spend some time just dancing/chilling with them until you feel a little braver

2) find a side room. preferably..... avoid the bedrooms. but usually, side rooms away from the main bulk of dancing are great, bc it's where drunk people go to have weirdly deep talks, and it's very calm compared to the noise of the party. they're good to have a breather. this is like the smokers area when clubbing. 11/10 experience; sometimes better than the party itself.

3) if all else fails, the bathroom is your friend. this is when you think you need to be completely alone without anyone pushing at you or talking to you or bothering you. you can lock yourself in and that's that. is it selfish for all the drunks needing the bathroom? yes. do people act completely self-indulgently at parties thus making the previous question void? absolutely!!! do whatever you need to feel better. no one thinks you're weird or a buzzkill. you will feel worse if you force yourself to just suck it up.

4) if you genuinely feel awful and you're not having fun and nothing you've done is helping, go home. i don't care if you feel like you've ruined the night, or your friends see you as a 'burden'. as someone who has gone home early for friends and also not asked my friends to take me home when i should have done, it's absolutely not a hassle. for as fun as they can be, parties can also get dangerously out of hand. listen to your gut. act selfishly if you need.

but honestly bestie, don't make a monster of this in your head. i promise you it's never as bad as you think. i was terrified for my first party, and now i spend weeks looking forward to them. like everything, it's about practise and figuring out what you are and aren't comfortable with. i promise no one is judging you as much as you think they are, if at all.

good luck!! i hope this helped even a little bit, i got a bit waffley but the thought was there <333

#really what i wanted to say is that you don't have to ever go to a party if you don't want #they just aren't some people's scene and no one should force that down your throat #and if anyone IS pressuring you then remember what i said earlier about people like that #don't let them beat you down when they are the problem #people need to act selfishly more and if you're not happy doing something/being somewhere then *leave*#take care of yourself x #but yeah i focused more on your actual questions just bc i know how frustrating it is #when you ask for genuine advice and someone goes on some high and mighty lecture as if this is a perfect world where we get what we want #so know you deserve to be completely comfortable at all times. but if you do decide to brave the social scene #then this is my advice xx #ask

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mediawhorefics · 2 years

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Hello! I saw your tag about “you can be both” reading fics and books and how? Because since I started to read fics in 2020, I only read one back and it was in 2021🤦🏻‍♀️ Can you give us some tips or something? Because there are so many books I want to read but now it’s like easy to read fics but idk, nothing makes sense lmao

omg yes i can ABSOLUTELY give you some tips because as a huge reader who lost a lot of interest in reading original fiction for a while, i worked hard to nourish my love of reading and get back into it.

a little background info: back when i was doing an English lit degree, i was reading all the Classics (which was interesting from a ~learning about literature pov but not from a 'i'm having fun reading' pov ....) for uni and it was a LOT of reading yk? and while i'd be lying if i said i read all the assigned stuff, i did my fair share. none of it was really me reading for pleasure though. and in my time off, i read fics cos that was easier to get into/didn't require as much digging to find what i liked. it was more lighthearted. etc etc.

but at one point i realised i hadn't read a novel for pleasure in years and as someone who ALWAYS described herself as a huuuuuge reader, that really fucking bothered me. so here's a few things i did/do to boost my ~reading original fiction stats.

1. take the time to think about what you like to read & to find the right book

just like fics, there's a lot of choices and there's no point trying to read award-winning novels/the books everyone are talking about if it's not something you're normally interested in. for me, that meant leaning into the fic thing. i thought about what kind of fics i liked reading and why (fun lighthearted romance + queer rep were two reasons) and i tried to look for books that had similar vibes. that meant looking into the romance genre, which i'd never been a big reader of before, and into lgbt+ fiction (both adult and ya). and i found lots of fun stuff that way. i als went back to my first loves: fantasy and historical fiction. i looked into what had been published recently, what was popular, what lots of queer people around me were reading, what movies/shows i had liked were adapted from books, and what other books were recommended a lot alongside those, etc....

2. find people who read a lot whose opinions you trust/who have similar taste to yours and check out what they've been reading

i was following a few blogs of big readers at the time so i tried a few of their favs and once i realised which my taste was most aligned with, i kept a close eye on their recommendations (and still do for a few of my key favs!)..... it can be tumblr bloggers, twitter people, people on booktok or booktube, writers you enjoy, hell you favourite actor/musician who shares their reading lists............ it doesn't really matter. but keeping engaged in the conversation is one of the biggest motivators for me! i keep seeing people talk about cool books and i'm always adding to my tbr pile and that keeps me turning the pages haha.

3. give yourself a challenge!

ok this might not work for everyone but i like the idea of focusing my reading on one contained challenge. i do a goodreads challenge every year with a goal of x books each year ofc, but that's not quite what i'm talking about here. i'm talking about how, in 2019, i decided i was gonna make a huge dent into my tbr pile by banning rereads for the whoooooole year. (i'm BIG guilty of rereading. i enjoy it so very much). it was great and it was hard (all i wanted to do was reread ofc because it was forbidden!!!) and it allowed me to discover lots of new favourites and read things that i had meant to for literally years. this year, i decided i want to try and read more Classic Queer Literature (started with brokeback mountain and now i've just moved on to angels in america). stuff like maurice and a single man and the price of salt, etc. maybe you could try and read ten books written by women of colour, or ten books from ten countries you've always wanted to visit, or five biographies, etc etc. it kinda makes it easier to chose what to read next and it's fun! there's a toooon of preexisting challenges online too so if you don't really know, googling will give you a bunch of lists you can base yourself on.

4. mix it up with the length/medium

this is a big one for me! sometimes i find it hard to focus (between *gestures vaguely at the world*) on big novels so i like to mix it up and read a few comics in a row. maybe a poetry book. or a few plays. things that can be read super quickly and give you a sense of accomplishment. when you haven't read a lot in a long time, the feeling of beginning and finishing a book is pretty satisfactory, so giving yourself a chance with shorter novels/shorter stuff, is totally fair game IMO. esp. as you ease back into it.

5. have a daily goal.

ok this is the big big big one for me..... with my mentally ill brain being what it is, at some point, i had to Force Myself to read. esp. during quarantine since i felt soooooooo blurgh. and now it's part of my daily habit and i wouldn't go back. i've done it differently over the years. sometimes i'll do 15 min. of reading a day (either in the morning or before bed).... and lately i've done reading one chapter per day! and i don't go to bed until i've done it. it's just as part of my routine as brushing my teeth. (just looked at my habit tracker app and i've done the 1 chapter per day thing for 188 days since i started tracking it.) and that really helps me. it's a small enough goal that it's totally doable every day and it really adds up over time. and when the book is good, sometimes one chapter turns into five lmao.

6. audiobooks ?

this isn't exactly one that works for me since i can't focus on books i've never read on audio BUT i know it works for lots of people so i thought i'd mention it. listening to audiobooks while going through the motions of life can be a great hack! while you do daily chores, or while you commute, or on your lunch break.... you can be reading a book through someone else reading it to you. and it totally counts, so!

sooo, it's not a lot but hopefully, that helps a bunch ??? ?

#about me #reading

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OMG, your story reminded me of something hilarious that happened to me while at uni

So, I realized at the time that I was 'not straight' but I wasn't sure of the label yet because I was still learning about all the different possibilities and about how I felt I could identify.

Anyway, I spent a summer learning how to twist my tongue into a three leaf clover shape (TW - it looks a bit odd and some people might not like it) and so I finally learned how to do it, and then proceeded to spend a couple of weeks freaking my friends out 😂

Now, I'm a woman and my entire friend group was also filled with women

When I did that tongue thing, at least half of them started telling me 'if they weren't straight they would be SO turned on by my tongue tricks'

(I didn't wanna make anyone uncomfortable, but for some reason I always gravitated towards hanging out with people who identify as 'not straight' and either be out, or not even realize that that's a possibility for them - important info for later)

And those few weeks whenever I'd hear that SAME comment from different ladies I'd think to myself, "oh bby denial isn't just a river in Egypt (the Nile)"

Anyway, the thing was, that even before those few weeks, I'd get vibes from the same girls like they were hitting on me

But they were all in straight relationships and it felt so wrong to me - I do not condone any form of cheating and those things make me ridiculously uncomfortable (my first two bfs cheated on me and I know how awful it made me feel and again, I don't ever wanna make people feel bad, but also, common sense, ya know?)

But to all of them it was okay, because they were straight AND in relationships, so I slowly started distancing myself, because it made ME feel wrong

Things got even worse when they continued to act the same way as I got into a new relationship a bit later

They started getting mad whenever I'd mention my new bf, talk about something nice he did, or even talk about seeing him for the weekend (we lived in different cities at the time so we only saw each other on weekends)

They were constantly like 'You never make time to hang out with us anymore, is he more important to you!?' - I actually got that exact question from someone who I considered my best friend in the group. The thing is, is that I told them I could only see my bf on weekends so I could only hang out with them during the week (this was my first relationship after nearly 3 years because I got hurt so bad after the last one, and it was important to me to spend time with him) and after a while my 'friends' started only making plans to hang out when they knew I'd be out of town visiting my bf. I'd ask to hang out with them on a Wednesday and they'd ignore me (they even made another group chat without me and I accidentally found out about it when one of them brought up their plans in front of me) but make plans to get together LITERALLY as soon as my bus left town

Meanwhile, when all of their relationships were starting out I was constantly supportive - the girl that said that comment from earlier to me, went back to uni two months earlier than we were supposed to start classes because she missed her bf (they were doing long distance over the summer) and I was like 'yay amazing that they care about each other so much' because to me it was normal

And now there I was being made to feel wrong for doing the same things, so I just stopped hanging out with them altogether

I was only gonna talk about the tongue thing and the comments I got from those friends but by the time I got to the end of your post it made me realize they could have actually felt different towards me and that's why they were acting so weird. I was the only one in the group that ever came out and they all were publicly straight but maybe they didn't feel that way or I could just be overthinking things idk

Now I'm just ranting/venting because they made me feel bad for having a bf when it was okay for them to have bfs, even though that happened 4 years ago

But on the other hand, my bf is definitely the best person I've ever had the pleasure of meeting and knowing, he's helped me get through some really tough times, and here we are, 4 years later, doing better than ever, and I haven't talked to that group of people in years. Sometimes I still mourn the good times I spent with them but I'll never forget how shitty they made me feel - at the time I thought they were doing it for no reason but I've come to think differently since then

That's my story, thanks for letting me vent, sorry things turned slightly sour in the story ❤️

... Taylor Swift is this u?

That’s v shitty babe I’m sorry they sucked so hard. Even if they fancied you they should’ve been more supportive.

It’s possible they did coz my ex-friend I feel guilty about gatekeeping did slut-shame me a lot lol but I still think it was more my fault because it wasn’t right of me to assume worst intentions. Like if that were to happen now I’d be like, “are you maybe queer in some way?” not “you’re a straight girl and this is offensive to me.”

#agony aunat

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foresthuntermajrach · 6 years

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I'd be happy to match you with someone! :D tell me more about yourself?

Omg, you want to OwO? Alright!

(So… damn… that wasn’t easy haha)

I rarelytalk about myself so much so idk what I should tell you but…

I’m an introvert, but I do enjoy spending time amongstpeople. I don’t like partying a lot and feel uncomfortable amongst crowds but Ilike meeting new pals and getting to know them (although I tend to get boredwith idle chit chat easily).

I'm rather quiet and spend most of the time in silence but if I get excited about something (or you ask me about something I love), I get super talkative and can drown you in my excitement (lol?)

Big thing, though. I’ve long ago learnt that I haveempathy problems so like… I’m the last person someone should seek to cry ontheir shoulder - and yet people still do that (that makes me feel bad bc Idon’t get them). And I do not pity people. No matter how shitty your lifeis, I still believe you could be happy in some way. And I don’t really likepeople who drown in self pity.

Alas!

My dad once said that our subconsciousness is ourbiggest weapon, so I started thinking positively and strangely enough it becameso natural to me that now I’m pretty much an impersonation of optimism. Nomatter what happens to me, I believe that earlier or later things will getbetter, I don’t hold grudges, even if I may not like someone; and I tend to actvery nice towards people I dislike (and who dislike me back) just to spite themand at the same time feel good with myself.

I’m an egoist but I help people if they ask me nicely.Cue me being the one that solves physics problems then drops them in the groupchat and explain them bc I get it.

I’m against cheating and believe that the hard way ismuch better for your own benefit unless the thing you have to decide uponcheating or not is absolutely useless for you. The latter never happened.Honestly, i’ve only cheated once on a words test on German classes because Icouldn’t cram those for the love of God and I was endangered with not passingthe subject at all. I’ve found a way to avoid doing it afterwards tho.

I guess I do go by some rules, but those are made bymyself and not forced on me, so I may be seen doing stupid unallowed stuff atuni with my friends. Who cares, anyway lmao.

I tend to be mean. To both, my close ones and topeople I barely know. Mostly playfully mean, because I just like to check ifthis or that person gets offended easily (I know, a dangerous game, but it’sfun af).

Apart from this…

I like togain and then show my knowledge about different things. I like to talk aboutthings I do know about and getfrustrated when someone suddenly changes the topic to something I know shitabout only bc they felt like it (I mean here celebrities, manicure, make-up, topicslike those make my skin crawl pls don’t). I really like listening to someone ifthey are passionate about the thing they are talking about, as long as they arenot repeating themselves for the umpteenth time. People are friggininteresting.

My passions(apart from the obvious drawing and writing) are observation, science andnature. I honestly love being outside. I love mountain trekking, swimming (espin the sea), taking walks in theforests, camping and stuff like those. The night sky is like my one true loveand in summer I tend to just lay and look at the sky and tear up at how fuckingawesome light is to be able to go so quick and show us galaxies that probablydon’t exist anymore and omg I would die to fly to space, ok.

I’ve alwaysdreamed of being an astronaut but there was no way of pursuing this dream so nowI’m searching for something else that I would like. So far I don’t know if I’mmaking the right choices.

I also liketo read books, albeit now I do that less and rather watch documentaries (mostlyabout cosmos and physics - I gotta admit that lol).

I also prefer to rest in silence, uninterrupted, either alone or with someone who will not keep on babbling all the time we spend together.

Hmm… whatelse…

I dislikechildren (mostly when they’re noisy and pushy - they exhaust me and I hatenoise omg) and dogs (same reason), am clueless in love, rather afraid of men80% of the times, even tho I get on best with them and not girls; I may or maynot me demisexual (am lmao) and idk about what sex I’d romance but so far I’veonly had minor crushes on men.

I’m cuddlywhen I’m close with someone. Like… I tend to lay on my mom’s lap a lot or onmy dad, or i rest my head on my friend’s shoulder while we sit close to eachother. And honestly I would 10/10 snuggle all day if I could. When it’s someoneI barely know I’m usually very uncomfortable with even things as simple as apat on the arm. I’m not sure what it came from but it’s just there.

I’m ratherafraid of love btw and even though I know boys look at me because I am pretty in a way (if I didn’t knowthat myself, then people keeping telling me that would make it) but because ofmy outer confidence and smarts and just the way I am no one ever approaches me.No one apart from the so called “momma’s boys” who are looking for someonewho will take care of them and honestly? I don’t feel a pull towards suchpeople. I’m secretly dreaming of finding my one true love amongst all thepeople I would manage to get it going with but at the same time I’m so veryinsecure about the matter that one would say I do not think I’ll be ever worththe try? Idk people can make you think many things about yourself and so farthe only likable thing about me the boys noted is that I have a pretty face andnice body (which I like too but… what about how I am lmao). I tend to thinkthat this may be not for me and I’ll just end up alone and doing research forsomething I’ll feel passionate about.

God, I’msorry, somehow it turned depressing at the end even tho I didn’t intend towrite those things. But I won’t delete it cause this can also give informationon me.

#I'm sorry I hope this is what you wanted to know #rip me I don't talk about myself like that often k #even tho i sometimes wish I did so thanks for the opportunity lol #shea-gardienne #about mun #ask

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littlespoonevan · 7 years

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Hey! Hc: we all know how Eskild is always cheery and happy and also always there for his friends when they are sad or have a problem. I'd really like to read something about Eskild getting home really sad or upset about something and Isak being there for him, because, even though Eskild exasparates him most of the time he trully cares for him. I hope you are on board with this 😊

aww omg my heart yes let’s talk abt this!!!!

(i would also kindly ask that no one send me prompts for the time being while i clean out my inbox. thank u, friends

so eskild is right up there with magnus as isak’s most Enthusiastic friend

he turns almost everything into a joke and walks around like nothing phases him

isak knows that’s not entirely true since he knows eskild can be serious when he needs to be

(every time eskild has offered isak a shoulder to cry on or given him advice or generally just tries to help him spring to mind)

eskild, as far as isak knows, also doesn’t seem all that interested in being in a relationship

he always seems p happy with hookups

but then eskild gets a date (a real one, not a grindr hookup, with some cute guy that goes to uni with him) and he’s so excited??????

isak (and even) end up sitting in his room and watching him get ready for hours while they listen to him freak out

even is v enthusiastic and continually cheering eskild on and giving him advice

isak is more half-hearted abt it but he’s still happy for eskild so his advice is mostly, “of course he’s going to like you, he asked you out didn’t he?? just be chill.”

says isak The-Most-Unchill valtersen

so anyway eskild leaves for his date and isak and even migrate to the couch

they’re having a quiet friday night in for once; even’s got a movie queued up and they’ve got pizza and they’re in their pjs and isak is so looking forward to spending the night cuddling and dozing on even’s chest

they’re halfway through their second movie when they hear the front door open

isak thinks first it might be noora but he was sure she and the girls were going to a party tonight and it’s only 11

the footsteps are too heavy to be noora’s though and when he lifts his head off even’s chest he sees eskild emerging from around the corner, gaze downcast, and if isak didn’t know any better he’d think he might be crying????

“hey,” he says timidly bc eskild looks so…unlike himself?

eskild freezes at the sound of his voice and his head snaps to the couch where even and isak are lying

once isak gets a proper look at his face he realises eskild has definitely been crying

and fuck, isak is so bad with this stuff. he feels clumsy enough when he’s trying to comfort even and that’s even

thankfully his bf is a bit more sensitive than he is

“hey, what’s wrong?” even asks immediately. he sits up and isak moves with him, reaching for the remote to pause the tv

eskild instantly tries to fake a smile and brushes them off. “oh nothing! it’s nothing! turns out that guy wasn’t as hot as i thought he was so i had to call it an early night and-”

he trails off and isak can tell it’s a lie so he bites his lip, looks at the empty space on his right and pats the cushion. “wanna talk about it?”

eskild’s eyes widen in surprise and he seems too shocked to reply for a second before he starts shaking his head. “oh no, no that’s fine. i’m fine. you should get back to your movie”

“i’ve already seen it a million times,” even brushes him off. “and i can educate isak another time. sit down with us, tell us what happened.”

so eskild sits, unsure at first, but isak nods at him and then he starts talking, about how the guy had been a complete douchebag and how he’d only been charming when first asking eskild out bc he was trying to get in his pants

and isak never expected eskild to be the type to be so deeply affected by this kind of stuff but then he thinks about how excited eskild had been and he thinks about how he’d have felt if even had asked him out only to try and sleep with him and get pissed when isak said no and feels sympathy burn in his chest for eskild

somewhere during his story eskild’s head drops onto isak’s shoulder and isak is a little surprised bc eskild’s hugs are normally so overbearing but this is just eskild. seeking comfort. so after a bit of hesitance, isak wraps an arm around his shoulders

and just, poor baby isak is so bad at dealing with other people’s feelings but he can so so sweet when he needs to be

and like that night where he’d snapped at noora outside his room, he just kind of pats eskild’s arm and says, “that guy’s an idiot. he doesn’t deserve you anyway.”

and eskild is so???? touched???? bc even though he knows how caring isak is (he’s seen how deeply that boy loves and looks after even) it’s still surprising to have that directed at him????

he sits up to stare at isak bc he can’t really believe what he just heard but isak’s expression is serious and even smiles a little when he nods in agreement and says, “it’s true.”

“thank you,” he mutters, letting his head fall back down on isak’s shoulder and reaching for the blanket even and isak had been using earlier. “so what movie are we watching?”

“10 things i hate about you,” even answers from isak’s other side

“a classic. press play.”

and they sit together and watch the movie and eskild might cry a little when cat reads her poem but isak doesn’t make fun of him for it

(eskild learns that night isak is also a crier when it comes to movies)

and by the end of the night when eskild is feeling better all he can think is that he definitely made the right decision letting isak move in

#isak valtersen #eskild tryggvason #even bech næsheim #evak #skam #asks #Anon #mine

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