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loxxxlay · 4 years

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Official note about Dark Thor Grandthorki fic and Semi-Hiatus

The Situation My Dumb Ambitious Ass Has Landed Itself In

Unfortunately, my big bang date has arrived a lot quicker than I expected it to. >.> On Friday, I’m expected to post the fic I’ve been working on since June. Don’t get me wrong, I have very much been working on it this whole time; unfortunately, I have also been doing quite a lot of exhausting things, including treatment for mental health and college classes. I’m suffocating in the stress of my last semester, which isn’t great for fanfic writing. T_T woe is meeee~

Because of ^, my dark-Thor grandthorki fic (god it needs a title too, huh) is incomplete and, no matter what, will not be completed by Friday (especially considering that all but one of my classes has something due this Friday, too, ugh). Luckily I did sign up for a solo track for big bang so no artist has been ill-used! Unluckily I have robbed some actually prepared & hard-working individual of a very lenient&late posting date. T_T Thus, I want to at least post something on Friday because it would be super inconsiderate and irresponsible of me otherwise, no matter how unprepared I am D:

So, here is what I have decided for my Big Bang/Dark Thor Grandthorki fic:

I am going to post the beginning chunk (about 10-15k words) of the fic! It will be posted as a WIP but as the spirit of the big bang is only to post a completed fic, the part I post will not end on any rudely patience-challenging cliffhanger. (Those who are still waiting for OoT and Figment of Choice to be complete, I am so so sorry lmfao, and this will not be anything like those cliffhangers.) In fact, I’m trying to make this chunk end on a note that is as complete as possible, while still being a WIP.

As for the quality of this beginning chunk... sigh... It’s definitely not my best writing ever since the only times I could work on it were unfortunately times where my writing skill was rusty and atrophied. >.> However, it’s definitely not my worst writing either lmao, so hopefully it will still be enjoyable! @veliseraptor will be betaing the part most recent and most clunky (I didn’t ask her to beta all of it because that would be super unfair in such a short time frame lmao), and until Friday I will be doing my best to polish the rest!

However! As the entire fic isn’t quite written/outlined, I’m nervous about posting this beginning chunk because of how future writing might require changes to be made. Therefore, the part I post is potentially gonna be subject to extreme changes once I start working on it again months from now. In other words, after I graduate, I’m gonna edit it, possibly change things that happen in it, depending on future scenes, and hopefully do it better justice.

Why am I telling you all of this?

Well, because I don’t want y'all to read this Dark Thor Grandthorki fic with high expectations! T____T I know a lot of you have been super excited and eager to read it after all the excerpts I’ve shown you and all the meta I’ve posted about it. I remember receiving a ton of asks about it back in the pique of me working on it. And.. like.. I know I say this a lot, but I genuinely mean it this time: This is not going to be my usual expected brand of (allegedly) good fic. This is gonna be at least a little disappointing. This is not to criticize myself. It’s just a fact based on how I’ve been writing it and how little I can edit it right now.

And I’m honestly super sad because this project has been so so so important and fun for me that I don’t want you to go in without knowing that it won’t be as good as I want it to be.

In fact, my biggest reason for telling you all this is to give everyone an OPTION to actually NOT read it on Friday. If you want to see it in its final form and its final form only, you can instead wait until I’ve actually had a chance to complete the entire fic, edit what needs editing, get it beta-ed, and feel prepared enough to stick to a regular posting schedule. Obviously I don’t care one way or another when you choose to read it--have at it if you don’t care about it being sub-par! ^_^ I just want you all to know where I’m coming from and be able to decide one way or another. So yeah. Feel free to decide whether you want to read the shittier version on Friday or whether you wanna save yourself for the less shitty version later!

Semi-Hiatus Info:

Initial Note: I’m not really going on any kind of hiatus. I’m changing nothing about what I’m doing recently. I’m just... officially acknowledging that I’ve got one foot in fandom right now and one foot out. And that it will continue to be like this until I graduate in December.

And sighhh, I know I say “ohhhh I will be so much more free and able to work on fandom stuff when this date arrives” again and again and again and nothing ever changes lmfao. But when I say I’ll be more free to work on stuff after December, I actually mean it lmfao because that is when I’ll be graduated from college. I’ve never been graduated from college my entire time in fandom, so you can trust that I’m not kidding around this time.

So yeah, in light of my recent silences/etc, please don’t think I’m disappearing. T_T I’m just really stressed and ... even though I try to lie to myself about it ... realistically ... it’s just not possible for me to do all the fandom stuff that I want to be doing right now. :( Especially as this final semester starts ramping up and finals week starts approaching. :/

Obviously, I’ll still be busy after I graduate. I’ll be looking for full-time work and be starting the process of moving out (I’m super excited!) But the mental energy I’ll need for writing won’t be used up by essays and papers and original creative writing classes! (Assuming I get a seat-warming job, crosses fingers lol.) So basically I’m just letting you all know that, despite my behavior, I haven’t forgotten anything! I just really don’t have time (yet).

For sake of knowing when you can expect things, here’s a list of the things I want to work on (starting December) in order of importance:

(honestly this is as much for my reference as yours lmao)

Commenting and reblogging this year’s Grandthorki Day fics! Very top priority, and if I get a free two seconds in my life, I’ll try to do some of this before semester ends too

Putting Grandthorki Rimworld streams into shorter view-able highlights instead of the full-streaming chunks that they currently are in (especially that 3-hour unwatchable one)

Finishing OoT

Commenting on the rest of the grandthorki fics that have been neglected in recent months

Finishing Moment of Peace

Finishing Figment of Choice

Completing the Big Bang/Dark Thor Grandthorki Fic

Going through my drafts to answer all the asks and recommend all the fic I’ve put there

Finishing that Whumptober Collection and/or Re-Doing Whumptober (because lets be real by the time all of this is done, it will probably be October haha)

Updating Happily Ever After

If I’m forgetting anything that you guys really have been wanting me to do, please let me know!

#sorry i just felt like i needed to say S o m e t h i n g because this has been weighing on me quite a bit the last several months #long post #blog maintenance #grandthorki for ts #dark thor #lox talks personal

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dreamersscape · 7 years

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what sorts of fanworks should I be prioritizing?

*waves shyly* Hi, it’s your friendly neighborhood service-oriented ISFJ here. As you know, I like making All The Things! Especially RHBBC fandom related things since there’s…I wouldn’t say a great demand relatively, considering it’s a small fandom, but the supply end of the symbolic market isn’t so saturated so to speak. Anyway, my inferior Ne is totally down with the breadth of mediums of Things I have the capabilities of dabbling in, but it’s very easy for it to get, let’s say, unfocused. And while I enjoy having the freedom to hop from gif making to video editing to struggling to articulate my character meta-ish thoughts in writing, completing these things is a heckuva lot more fulfilling (imagine that). And there hasn’t been very much of that for awhile now. Lately, I’ve been feeling my production motivation has been bogged down in large part because of all the options I have. They’re all good options! There’s just too many of them.

Putting it into words makes it seem like such an insignificant problem. How silly is it that I can’t choose what to do with my free time? It’s not stopping me altogether from working on stuff, but I think it’s definitely slowed me down significantly. I think if I had a more focused idea of what is most important that I work on right now? then I’d be a lot more productive. And that’s where I’d love to get some imput from all of you lovely people–as theoretical ‘consumers’–if you happen to have any preferences?

This is all stuff I’m personally interested in making–and most everything listed is in progress to some degree–but I want to know what you would like to see from me ‘cause I put a very high value on that too.

WRITING:

fic (basically exclusive to RHBBC and Allan-focused): the ‘hole-in-the head’ fic (with illustration!)(I waffle so much on whether I should start posting it as a wip on, say, a monthly basis.); the version of the hp/rh maruaders’ era crossover that lives in my head; I’ll never give up on shades of light, never; etc.

meta

the MBTI Allan Manifesto (yes it is all my fault Erin and I haven’t done a RH personality profile in a year and a half *quiet, guilty sobs*)

discussing Allan and anxiety in which I realize the key concept wrt how I characterize Allan

whoops I should probably finish filling out my own Allan personality trait survey /o\

GRAPHICS/GIFS:

RH episode gifsets

Allan reacts to Robin series (with occaisonal accompanying written meta. just wait until we reach 1x12 my friends. it’s gonna be gr9.) (the interest in these seems to have waned a bit the past year, but this is totally something I can easily self-motivate myself for.)

RH character summaries gifsets

Allan smiles compilation gifset

Djaq appreciation gifset

Jedi!Outlaws

once upon a time some of you sent in ‘make me choose’ requests and I swear I intend to get to them sometime in the next decade

more stuff along the lines of parks & hood and ham4hood

alllllllll of the lyrics/quotes/what-have-you inspiration grahpics (mostly) for RHBBC (It’s a little bit scary just how many I have saved away for reference… That said, do you have an idea of a certain one that you’d like to see right away? Tell meeee! Exactly what this post is for.)

I’d think it be fun to do one of those ‘get to know me’ memes too

DIGITAL ART:

I have finally procured a device I can use as a drawing tablet! Which means I can start flexing my drawing muscles again and do digital painting(!!!) and not have to go through the time consuming process of sketching and scanning and trying to use a mouse as a pen and so forth. I’m a little bit excited. :)

Top Secret 3 Musketeers illustration, has been in progress for like 6 months already via the time consuming way so it might not be quite my best work but it has HEART OKAY

certain cherished scenes from aforementioned hp/rh crossover

tag yourself meme: robin hood edition with hand drawn portraits of the characters cuz it’s gonna be SUPER CUTE

I can keep my promises to Mirjam and Mel to illustrate their fics! (If we still want to do that. My deal with Mirjam was if she wrote otp: love hurts, I’d draw it, and this happened, so… You might not remember, Mel, bc it was a loooong time ago but I once mentioned I had an idea for a piece based on the high school band au with Will and Allan.)

I sorta have this idea for The 100 characters + patronuses project, so if anyone has thoughts on that hit me up, but there’s no reason why that can’t migrate to other fandoms too…

VIDEOS:

Basically I’m overflowing with vid ideas for about a half dozen fandoms? It’s…under control. *sweats nervously* Oh, also, more RH crackvids.

MISC:

Remember that one time I decided to make character plushies and it was going along pretty well until I got distracted by making stuffed wolves from the wolfpack AU? Good times, good times. *half-bald Robin plushie stares at me accusingly*

#*tamps down 'who could possibly care about this' anxiety long enough to post*#i hate these irrational bouts of frantic worrying about my social connections #because heaven forbid my fe not feel constantly reassured that i am loved and matter to people #so i wrote this instead #*buries head in arms while pleading with my brain to stoppppp*#random musings of a personal nature

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survivemiddleearth · 6 years

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Episode 1: “Hobbits, we gonna slay this all the way to Isengard.” -JG

I’m back and better than ever!

Heylo! Who loves a pre-game confessional oh we do! I cannot wait for this season to be honest. I am finishing a season as we speak being in the final 3 so the adrenaline rush and hype is so real. I am a not a super fan of LOTR but I do love and enjoy the the stories. I read the books when I was in second grade and the saw the movies for the first time in 7th grade. My goal is to be like Frodo in this game, make myself known when it's really important and needed, then disappear when I am not, why make a target on myself when I don't need to. Hopefully the power of the ring won't consume and something wild happens.... eeks here goes nothing, FOR MIDDLE EARTH!

Ahh fuck Johnny is in this game he's gonna betray me I know it fml I just wanna win an org how hard omfg

This is my first org in 5 months and honestly I forget how to play. I'm just gonna do whatever and I do how I do, but I'm not gonna be scared to yeet people out of here.

Part of my strategy is to try and be social to everyone in the beginning. I want to try and have a conversation with everyone on my tribe as soon as possible and try to gain a slight favor so people think I have something to contribute to them if we happen to lose the first immunity challenge and go to tribal

First confession of a new game is always a lot. I haven’t played since…March? Maybe even earlier than that. And if you know me, you know there’s been a lot of drama surrounding me since then, so I’m definitely nervous to be back in the saddle and playing again. Pre-merge queen. Basically, on my tribe, I feel…neutral to nervous. I have Dylan R, who is my ORG child, so I should be able to work with him fairly easily. I’ve also hosted Eric, which could be good if he weren’t friends with so many people who don’t like me. Same boat with Vi. I’m hoping I can kind of work both of them to my side, but it might not be possible and I may just have to rely on Dylan keeping me in the loop. There’s also a newbie, which is usually a good sign. Finally, we have Johnny. I FEEL like Johnny has an issue with me from something, but I’m not 100% sure. I love reaching a point in my life where I can’t remember who hates me and why, but, hey, that’s running and destroying the biggest ORG series since Mains for you. As for the other tribes……..yikes on a bike. Aside from Zach, JG, and Stephen (more of my sons), we’re fairly stacked with people who would cut my throat without a second thought. Drew has seen me play before and we had a, uh, messy relationship in that game. I’m certain Sammy still hates me from Lago and also from The Drama since he’s friends with the core few people who hate me. Nick I don’t know, but he has “skinny” in his bio as a positive which means we probably won’t get along, plus he came from tengaged which can be a yikes. Crow I hosted for like three seconds in Emathia, so maybe he’ll have mercy on me. Dennis I think hates me from the Athena stuff. Bodhi I think hates me, and I’m not wild about him either. Roxy I know hates me but I don’t have any idea why since we’ve never spoken. Probably just more Athena Stuff. Hopefully I make merge with JG. That’s going to be my big hope for this season. Well. Idol hunting is going to be my lifeblood. Wish me luck, unless you hate me like everyone else.

So Drew in this game? Kill me with an axe right now. What the fuck is JG doing here? I'm finished, I was going to play nice but THREE zwooper people are on my tribe. MESS.

Small tribe, which means riskier tribals early on but its easier to get to know everyone. So far Roxy and.. dnn??? I like (I’ll check the cast reveal for what we should be calling dnn). JG and Sammy I know from other games, I feel I can trust JG a little, we’ll see. Sammy I don’t know I like to give people clean slates but almost every game we’ve been in he’s gone straight for me. Bodhi hasnt messaged me back yet :/

Hello ! Welcome to my first confession. Excited to exist. I haven’t met everyone in the tribe yet but I am playing with my old host so that’s funny. I don’t really have any interesting things to say so just. Hello. The first immunity challenge is one that I really didn’t do well in the first time I played so. Yikes. Whatever I’m still excited !!

Well hey! Got a clue on my very first idol hunt? But in a series so aggressively dominated by men, where the hell is "sisterhood" supposed to take me?

Honestly, I did not want to do the first challenge. I know I am good at it, but I didn't want to be the one responsible for losing for the tribe since its a hero challenge. I made up an excuse which is not a lie and is at the same time. Hopefully our tribe does well at the challenge!

This game so far is really stupid, I mean no talking during heats is fine but the fact that my tribe didn't offer any condolences or anything like "you tried" is rude and frankly, tragic.

You ever agree to face an Australian in an endurance challenge at midnight your time, 2pm his time? What a disaster for me

What are half the things mentioned here. Like what's a hobbit. I know its a movie but like, really? There better not be a quiz on LOTR or I am getting last place.

Yas!!! I love getting lucky and being on a winning tribe. First immunity lets go hobbits, we gonna slay this all the way to Isengard. So far I've mingled and stayed for tea with my hobbits and gotten to know them. Of course I'm excited to play with Stephen again, cool to finally meet Roxy and Bodhi. We shall see what will happen I'm anxiously, excitedly nervous. But let's go!

You know the most embarrassing part of losing that comp in 2 seconds? The fact that I almost called in sick to work bc I wanted to free my schedule for the day. Yeah that was a flop. If I get eliminated first that would be simultaneously hilarious and also very depressing. No one other than Eric and Jay have messaged me so I should probably like. Pop in and say hi

watches crow flop

My tribe is so...INACTIVE.

In this immunity challenge, I have no other option but to beat Vi if i dont, I will lose my spot in this game, I swear on it

Im deciding if I should tell Crow Run wants him out. I like Run but I gotta cover myself...

So uh...it’s kinda fuckin wild. We lost and don’t really have an easy vote because everyone’s active and ready to play the damn game. I’m fairly certain there’s a large majority though I don’t think anyone will be absolutely shocked about who goes home.

I'd like to start this seasons confessionals of with saying that I absolutely hate Bodhi. Since he took my Tom Bombadil and then told me, he had forgotten that he was cast for this season... LIKE COME ON ARE YOU SERIOUS, THATS MY AVATAR. After calming down I saw the tribe I was on. Bodhi (AJUSNKDIKWQJNE), Roxy, Sammy, Stephen and JG. I have played loads with Sammy and Roxy before. Stephen seems nice. Bodhi must die and JG is prolly the hardest person to talk to since I was in kindergarten. I mean. It should be that hard to give proper answers to your questions. MAYBE it was because he was busy playing the inferior BR game fortnite, but still come ON. I agree to play the challenge, but didn't need to actually do something in it, since Stephen and Sammy beasted it. The idolsearch first went SUCKY. because I went to bree ignored Aragorn, got durnk and got a 35 % DISADVANTAGE ON MY NEXT CHALLENGE (LIKE WHO THOUGHT OF THAT HIGH NUMBER) then at my next search I find out, that the other option I had, prolly would've given me an Idol... OH MAN PLEASE DONT LET IT BE GONE I WANT THAT.

You know I'm winning when my tribe wins immunity. Time to take the free time to make an alliance of my own. I have to choose who I want to trust for now.

okay so i haven’t made a confessional yet but I’m super excited to see some familiar faces in the game. I’ve played with Dennis before but I know that if I’m a threat to his game he will take me out so it’s a good person to stick with for now but idk if I can trust him in this game. JG is very friendly and chill but I’ve onkg played another game with him where he quit. He had a lot going on so I understood but I’m willing to work with him again if he’s willing. ROXY IS ON MY TRIBE AND SHE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND I KNOW SHE WILL NEVER VOTE ME OUT. SO I GOT HER AND IM EXCITED. Okay and who else? oh yes Stephen! Stephen is cool and I’m 100% down to work with him despite our past in orgs. I just don’t want him to think of me as an enemy. If we have to boot out someone I’d say bodhi would be the most obvious choice because he hasn’t been active...but bodhi is a fun player to play with I’m just hoping he becomes more active before our tribe decides to give him the boot. I see Crow in this game and he’s super nice and I’m so glad I’m playing with him and also Johnny is playing and I’m hoping he’s gonna want to work with me. Okay okay I’m done for now. Let the games begin.

CRAP i forgot to talk about immunity and idol search...okay sooooo i went heat 2 after Stephen won heat 1 and like i was expecting to be targeted bc if I won, my tribe would get immunity. However Dylan(I’m sorry if i umm spelled that wrong) forgot the period and Crow spoke out of turn or something and I won...I was shocked but glad that it didn’t last as long as the first heat. Oh and I searched for the idol and went to the bar or something and it turns out the item i was gonna get had been snatched before I had a chance....WE GOTTA THIEF IN HERE....I’m just trying to make it to merge so i need any advantage i can get.

Johnny just approached me for an alliance and I told him, "of course johnny! :)" But I am internally screaming like "nooooooo why meeee," because just before this game we were talking about how Johnny likes to betray everyone in orgs so now I'm like, please just let me win one org I got Ryan V casted in Bermuda you owe me.

The nice thing about not going to tribal council is that it really gives you the time to flex that social game and work on building up relationships, which is super important early in the game.

me doing this 4 hours before tribal is a mood but uhm ahem in conclusion, i've heard 8 names this round and let me breakdown how and why begin: i tell nick i think first boot should be someone who didn't compete, and then narrow it down to jayden or zach nick tells me he's been pushing for jayden and that drew is on board and is working on zach jayden comes to me saying he knows he's in trouble and asking me what to do, he reveals that runs ratted out nick about targeting him i tell nick runs ratted him out nick reveals to me that runs has been pushing me to everyone (confirmed by Drew, and later Jayden, as well) i confront rataways subtly and he insinuates that his loyalty is to me and that we're friends and my BS alarm goes flying off the charts rataways thinks he's sly but he's not end: im voting rataways and got confirmation from jayden and drew that they'd do the same....currently working on nick who has supposedly already told zach to vote runs as well if everybody minus rataways isn't a completely shady bitch, this should be an easy 5-1 with rataways thinking he somehow has votes on me and i'll probs get idoled out but w/e. i'm not going to lose my sanity trying to beg rataways not to vote me, idc. oh and i threw the immunity challenge cuz tribal seemed fun (and boi it is!)

Well I wasn’t the first person evicted so I consider this season an accomplishment. I’m trying to attach myself to Ford, since he’s completely new.

Alright hold on a second. 2nd day. 2nd conversation with JG. AND its like day & night. He seems pretty chill :). MAYBE HE WAS JUST BUSY WITH FORTNITE (what I as a gamer understand. I mean.. you gotta set priorities.. right?). Just wanted to clarify, so I don't come over as a dick at the end of the season. In case we end up being best friends *shrugs*

#outwitoutplayoutrunthewitchking

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crabsticksforbreakfast · 7 years

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Does He Like Meeee?????

OK, so I was getting fed up of doing my uni work, so I started being girly and Googled “how to tell when a man likes you”. I found an article giving 52 signs a guy likes you, and I’m going to apply these to S2... it’s important research... Here goes.

1. He says it - well, no. He hasn’t said it to my face, and frankly, I doubt he would actually be that upfront about it! 2. Questions, questions, questions - He doesn’t always ask a bunch of questions, but the website says, “He’s obviously trying to keep the conversation going with you. He’s trying to get somewhere. So he keeps asking, and asking, some seemingly irrelevant questions, just to keep things going.” and “The fact that he’s talking to you when there’s no need to do so (...) is a good sign in itself. If he asks you questions and tries to dig deeper and find out more about you, that’s a good sign.” and that definitely sounds like S2! 3. He Finds Similar Interests With You - in some ways, yes. It’s usually once he realises we like the same thing (usually food) that he gets excited. I wouldn’t say he deliberately tries to find common interests though. 4. He Leans in - frankly, the way the website worded this one made me want to disregard it, however, he does get physically close to me when we talk sometimes, but not an excessive amount. 5. He Comes Up to You - All the time. One of the things I appreciate the most about him is how much effort he puts into talking to me compared to everyone else. Sometimes it’s like he is waiting for his moment to strike, and I love that! 6. He Acts Slightly Different When You’re Around - it’s hard to tell without having the opportunity to really observe him without him knowing I’m there. To be honest, S2 is just S2, although he does treat me differently from other people. 7. He Ignores You Completely - firstly, this was just as confusing to me as #4. There were some interesting points, but it was all very random and conflicting. S2 doesn’t ignore me... only my texts! Ha! But then, as I found out from Diva yesterday, he does that to everybody! 8. His Body is Turning Towards You - Yep, all the time. When he is with me, he faces me. 9. He Gets You a Drink - this is all about the guy paying for the girl... Well, that’s not how we roll. I wouldn’t have it any different. We pay equally because that’s fair. 10. He Asks You for Your Number - let’s not go there with that one. We all know how I totally failed at the whole number thing. I still can’t fully work that one out. 11. He Adds You on Facebook - he added me because I asked him if he would. But then again, he rarely uses Facebook and I haven’t seen him add any people since then. I do feel a bit special that he went to the effort of adding me. He could have just said that he didn’t use it, so there was no point. 12. He Sends you a Request to Follow You on Instagram - I don’t think he has Instagram. 13. He Goes for the Kiss - well, no that hasn’t happened. You all know that! 14. Hey, My Eyes Are Up Here! - this isn’t just about boobs. It’s body in general, and yeah, I’ve caught him looking at my body a few times. It’s usually my legs. 15. He Makes a Lot of Eye Contact - SO MUCH EYE CONTACT!!! 16. He Looks Away - Sometimes, if he’s embarrassed, he looks away from me. Like when the guy asked if we were a couple, he could not have looked further away if he had tried! 17. He Smiles (a lot) - Yeah, I’d say so. He’s not normally that expressive, but he does smile a fair amount when we talk. 18. Do You Have a Boyfriend? - He has no need to ask me this question as he knows fully well that I don’t! 19. He Agrees - well, S2 is not the kind of person to agree with every opinion to make someone like him, and neither am I. We’ve had some really great discussions about things that we don’t share the same opinions of, and we respect each other’s opinions because we are adults. 20. He’s Nervous Around You - one point in this stood out to me, “does he seem like he’s thinking “what should I say next?” – if yes, these are all good signs.” This reminds me of how we were when we said goodbye on our first night out. It was more of a “what do I do next?” moment, and we both felt the same, I think. 21. He’s Trying to Be the Alpha Guy - at first, I was like “nah” but then the website mentioned things like him cracking loads of jokes when I’m around, or showing off his knowledge, and hell yeah, that is totally what he does. 22. He’s Protective of You - Oh yes. There was one time when a kid said something rude to me and he went for him! Then there was how he acted on our last night out - wanting to get things out of the car for me, giving me his coat to snuggle up in. Ah he’s such a gent! 23. He Gets Jealous - The only time I can really relate to this is when Newboy randomly grabbed my hand. S2 was just glaring at what was unfolding in front of him. 24. He Remembers Your Name - well he’s obviously going to remember my name. He would have heard all about me before he even met me! Anyway, he remembers things about me that I wouldn’t expect him to, like my house number, the first story I told him, etc. and that tells me a lot. 25. He Congratulates Your Birthday - LOL no. S2 doesn’t do birthdays and I clearly saw that in how he failed to acknowledge my birthday in any way, shape or form... 26. He is Trying to Impress You All the Time - yeah to a degree, but not in an annoying way. 27. He Initiates the Conversation - Always. I’ve been through this a thousand times. He just starts babbling away the moment I arrive. 28. Making Fun of You and Teasing - very much so... I’m grinning just remembering it all. 29. Just One Second Longer - I’m just going to paste the whole thing here because, well, you’ll see... “You know, when you run into him on the street, at work, school, at a party, club, in the bus, wherever – you start talking to him and then… there’s this awkward moment where he’s about to leave and then… there’s this one, tiny-little second that he stays – one second longer than he should or had to stay. Then he leaves. Look for this moment. It’s the moment of indecisiveness. He’s thinking. “Should I ask for her number?” “Naah, she’ll think I’m too forward” or “Should I try to kiss her, does she like me?” “Crap, who knows when I’ll run into her again” and stuff like that may cross his mind.Either way, there’s this one extra second that was not necessary, but it was there. It’s a sign that he probably likes you, and if you like him too – don’t hesitate – don’t let him leave, give him a hint that it’s OK if he asks you for your number, or suggests you should hang out sometime. This is extremely important. Guys are afraid of rejection, especially if there are potential negative consequences to your environment. Always look for these awkward moments of silence in your conversation, if he’s nervous and tries to break the silence by saying something, anything really, that’s another sign he likes you. If he didn’t, he wouldn’t care, he’d just look at his phone.” 30. He Doesn’t Use His Phone Around You - Never... unless it’s really important for him to do so. I had to force him to call his mother when we went out that time. 31. He’s Stalking You (a bit) - I have no idea. He probably isn’t. I very much doubt that’s his style. 32. He Gives You Compliments - I don’t think I’ve ever heard S2 compliment anyone. I don’t think he really does it. 33. He Already Liked You (Even if it was years ago)- Well, we only met when we started working together, but once I started to like him, I had this strong feeling that maybe he had liked me when we first met, and that I had blocked it out... Hmmm. 34. He Touches You - S2 hates being touched and like me, he’s not a touchy feely person. We have had some high fives, and he always seems perfectly comfortable with me touching him, even though I haven’t braved it many times. 35. He’s a Bit Closer than He Should Be - This is another big one I’m just going to paste! Think, him wanting to sleep in my car with me, telling me deep dark secrets... “You can tell if a guy likes you or not by the distance between the two of you and how his body is facing you. If he gets pretty close to you to hear you better; he’s facing you and kind of leaning in, you are just 1 feet away from each other, there’s obviously something going on there. It’s all about proximity.This really depends on the environment, if you’re somewhere with loud music, you’ll have to be closer to be able to hear each other, but if you’re at some house party, chilling at a friends place, then see what’s the average distance between other people. Is he closer to you than that average? He might like you.This may even be just sharing the same room (when he could be somewhere else). See if he makes excuses to join you casually on some short trip to the store or something. If you make a lunch break at work, does he suggest you guys continue your office conversation outside of the office by grabbing lunch together?See if he steers the conversation away from work-related (or college-related) stuff and moves the attention to you and your personal life. See if he opens up and tells you something about himself he wouldn’t normally say to other people. These are all signs of interest.” 36. He Suggest You Change Venue - Think back to the Christmas night out. We spent the afternoon together when we had the option to join everyone else at the pub, we sat together at the meal, then when we were in the pub afterwards, he was so eager to get out of there, and we spent half the night together in my car, just us two... Says it all, really. 37. How to Tell if a Guy Likes You at the Gym - LOL as if either of us go to the gym...!!! 38. He Calls You on a Date - at first, I was about to dismiss this one, but there are a couple of things I related to... “Whenever you see that a guy wants to spend some time just with you, he’s obviously interested.” and “how you could do “such and such” together”, really stood out to me. 39. He Chats You Up on Facebook (or Any other communication thing) - Well, no. We’ve been through this. 40. He Gives You a Nickname - this hasn’t happened, and if it did, I don’t think I’d read anything into it. He gives nicknames to people anyway. 41. How to Tell if a Guy Likes You at Work - these questions helped, “Does he tell you all the newest rumors? Do you have your own little inside jokes?” because the answer is yes to both. 42. He (Eagerly) Helps You Out - yes. He helps me out more than any other person I’ve liked, and he always has. I just never appreciated it before (major guilt attack!) 43. He Invests In You - it’s hard to say with this one really. 44. He Wants to Dance - S2 does not dance. I do not dance. It’s a mutual thing and that’s fine! He does occasionally do silly little dances though. 45. He Remembers the Details - Oh yes, he sure does! He remembers everything. 46. He’s Asking Around About You - this mentioned friends trying to talk him up to you... Well, not friends, but his mum! She always tries to bring him up when we talk, pointing out shared traits, experiences, etc. 47. He Hangs Out in a Group Only Because You are There Too - I couldn’t really relate to this because I don’t know his friends. 48. He Doesn’t Mention Other Women - he does mention other women, and I’m having a bit of a hard time adjusting to this, but I think it’s due to his Autism that he doesn’t realise this isn’t really the “done thing”. 49. He Tries to Get You Drunk - he knows that I don’t drink alcohol and he respects that, so this one doesn’t count. 50. He Opens the Door for You - oh yes, he’s very good at that. 51. He is more groomed than usual - S2 is always well groomed in some ways, but also a bit of a scruff in others... it’s hard to explain. I actually want to go against this one though. Last time we went out, he said that next time we should wear slouchy clothes like joggers so we’d be more comfortable.. To me that says a lot more about him and how he feels around me. If he’s comfortable to dress down for me, I see that as a good sign. 52. He Doesn’t Look at the Clock - He did mention having a “thing” about time, and on our night out, he did wan’t to know the time a lot, but that didn’t stop him from wanting to hang out with me until the wee small hours. 53. Go With Your Guts! Well, my gut instinct tells me all sorts of things, but mostly that he likes me.

The article then gave some tips which I either already do, or could see myself plucking up the courage to do.... It said if I recognised at least 10 of the 52 above (yes, I am aware I have messed up the numbers somehow) then he likes me, and I have, so, way hey!!!

Anyway, that was a nice little bit of procrastination! HA!

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