#not even when drunk either

[crispywizardtale]

#my favorite boys have an eskimo kiss #you cant hear it but im crying #this was so soft #the way Mai brushed his nose against Jades was so soft and slow #even when drunk Mai is so gentle #you can also see that Mai desperately wants to kiss Jade #i love how Jade is actually into it he is not pushing away and he keeps smiling #Jade already likes Mai even if i know he will never go for Mai... #also if this was imagination of either Jade or Mai i there will be flame!!!! #i also do not know if they will kiss or not but even if they dont i think this scene was so perfect #also i prefer this small actions over kisses #middleman's love #middlemans love #middlemans love the series #middleman's love the series #jade x mai #mai x jade #tutor x yim #tutoryim #tutor koraphat #yim pharinyakorn

[good-to-drive]

I totally agree with the general consensus that Ringo provided a lot of emotional support and coolheadedness to the other beatles to the point where they'd have probably killed each other without him but I do also wonder sometimes how much of that is being supernaturally patient and easygoing and how much of it is Ringo just having a tumultuous and isolated childhood where he was never taught to recognize and assert his own emotional needs so he became a blank slate on which others could process their emotions

(And tbh I also wonder how an inability to access or assert his feelings may have contributed to his tendency to process pain by numbing himself and the pretty shitty way he treated women)

#see also: george falling in love with his wife and paul routinely telling him he was easily replaceable #and yet ringo has nothing but warmth for either of these men #and of course I'm not saying we shouldn't appreciate how much patience and kindness that takes! #but also i guess it takes a certain lack of assertiveness or the ability to see/value your own emotions #and that's also something interesting to think about #speaking from experience here a lot of alcoholics want to be numb more than they want to be alive #and if ringo couldnt access his emotions it makes sense his only recourse would be to erase them #but for me it comes from childhood psychosis and i think for him it comes from isolation at a young age and a lack of emotional support #you need your caregivers to teach you what 'sad' is so you can then teach yourself what to do about it #or you may start to cope with that constant feeling of unease and dissatisfaction (that you can never quite grasp) in destructive ways #also his mom started getting him falling down drunk when he was not even twelve years old so tbh the alcoholism was probably inevitable #anyways all this is just to say that the fact that he could absorb pretty much infinite distress CAN definitely be construed as a virtue #but tbh it might also be symptomatic of some painful shit that he needed/deserved help with #ringo starr

[ivysos2001]

The way that the icarly revival canonized the fact that pre getting together creddie act like a couple when they’re high

Like those inhibitions get lowered a little bit and they both forget they’re living in denial about being in love with each other lol I love these dorks

#creddie #icarly reboot #icarly revival #the way that Spencer and Harper weren’t even fazed by it either #they’ve def seen it before lol #high creddie forgetting they’re living in denial and being all coupley and in love #reason 123456 why no one they knew was surprised when they got together #fanfic writers get on this pls #obsessed with the idea of them being completely transparent and acting like a silly little couple whenever they’re high/drunk together lol #ugh I need more creddie already

[derpinette]

i have this "alter ego" that only exists in my head where essentially i am a fat sloppy drunk old fisherman with no loved ones living in misery & isolation & i often imagine myself as him especially in moments of patheticness

#& he is always a fisherman not a farmer not a fisherwoman either ( too badass... ) #past life ?! caus my ♯azn side was all fishers & stuff like my grandfather ETC but like all of them looked anorexic instead of fat so #also i imagine the guy as kind of vaguely mediterranean looking so maybe not because that side of my family are mountain farmers #when i read the old man & the sea ( i hate hemingway BTW ♯NotPete ♯ActuallyMikey ) ( uhm sorry about that... ) #i was like this is my life/future if it was better... 🚬 But that was a good while after i was already thinking of myself like that #closest thing i felt to a kin moment is when we analyzed miss brill like wow me & i am not even old that is genuinely just my life #as a (at the time) seventeen year old. & also carol ledoux from repulsion literally 100% only i am an ugly freak instead of beautiful #i pretty much never think of myself as myself in my head & actually never when i was younger up until age 9 i remember vividly #& i just had this thought while making my lazy “bite sized” onigiri ( bowl of seasoned rice +tunamayo +vache qui rit +avocado +spoon ) #but even when i make the non lazy version i get so overwhelmed & irritated & SLOPPY i feel like a drunk old man with nothing to #live for #anyone else feel like this sometimes... #if any of you weeaboos judge my terminology by the way i will kill myself just FYI #IDCCCC about the actual name you know what i mean. quasi poke bowl but each “component” has its own dish. whatever OK...

[arowolfwalker]

Man, as much as I wish Wallace had seemed more affected by Scott's death in the anime, actions speak louder than words and Wallace's actions screamed that he was extremely not over it

#Wallace getting drunk and hanging out with 'Other Scott' after Scott's funeral #and then pitching the idea to make the movie about Scotts life a gay romance betw him and Scott #wallace only being shown acting nice to Todd when he's in the Scott costume and then telling him the fling is over once filming wraps #todd is a good looking guy the fact that Wallace saw nothing wrong with cutting their thing off completely once filming was done is so... #he wasn't even just fucking todd either he was like holding his hand and playing footsie with him and chatting with him n stuff #but was set on ending it and got annoyed when todd tried to pursue him like wallace was just projecting scott onto todd #also this fucks with envy and he would totally do something to spite her especially cause he knows she broke up with scott for todd #there are so many layers and all of it points to him being extremely unwell and much more affected by scott's death than he lets on #min screams #scott pilgrim

[motherfuckingmaneater]

so you like tommary?

No. That is not a term I would use. I have enjoyed the idea of it and can get into it when its well written but i've so far only read one fic i've truly enjoyed and that didn't ship them at all. I am a sucker for time turning AUs in which any character (Harry in this case) is thrown back to another time.

However, in their instance, I don't enjoy when they're shipped/romantic because I just don't think Harry is or has anything special enough to warrant and evoke that kind of emotion or pull from Voldemort who is an otherwise incredibly emotionally closed off person.

Furthermore for the most part Tom/arry fans will very heavily shit on Bellatrix. Most of the time authors are like “ewwww no Voldemort didn’t love Bellatrix he just USED HER he’s not CAPABLE of love she was nothing more to him than his SLAVE” then write Voldemort becoming some kind of idiot obsessive love freak over Harry and have V fall so madly in love with him he changes his evil ways. That puts me off the authors and subsequently their fics, so it's unlikely i'll venture into it again.

I find it kind of repulsive as a ship to be perfectly honest, but I enjoy reading the non romantic or non smut ones and the ones where he heavily manipulates and abu/ses Harry. Unfortunately it's hard to find many of those.

#yes valid she was his slave and she loved being his slave but he definitely cared for her #you can't take that from his character #its not even a redeeming quality she's literally just as bad as him and probably made him even MORE dangerous at times #take for instance them in the atrium in ootp #he risks making himself known by stopping to get her #“over there! i saw him! he grabbed a woman and disapparated!” #didn't give a shit about any of his other DE's though did he #also as a final point i don't enjoy the romantic bellamort stories either for the most part #I think their romance is very macabre and unconventional #i think he tries to be sweet sometimes #but his way of being 'sweet' is by reanimating the corpse of her childhood cat bc she mentioned she missed it one time when she was drunk

[eddiebabygirldiaz]

it's kinda funny how my accent is never more pronounced than when im singing for some reason

#like even more than when im tired or drunk #and it dont matter what im singing either lol it will be belted with a deep southern accent #ry rambles

[queer-pagan-witch]

One day I will learn, that just because the bottle is low, does not mean I need to finish off the bottle.

#imma be so fuckin hungover tomorrow #someone should kiss me #and i moght be either asexual or aromantic or both which like woo thats funny to only me for so many trauma reasons #i love #im so drunk #i too drunk #i stated typing thos at 12:30 #imma smoke pot after i post this #if your reqding my tags hi i love you. why are you reading this though like im a schizo bipolar depreased trans girl im unhinged in the tags #i need to stop drinking by myself #if think im an alcoholic as well if it wasnt for the fact that i can genuinely stop when ever i want but idkmaybe that changes? #at this point im just typing to annoy myself cause i think its funny to annoy other people and itd be hypothetical to not annoy myself #im ramblimg in the tags and honestly its your fault for still reading this #trans thought time #i wish i was born with a pussy but i do like having a cock and there is a possibility im genderfluid and fuck me that sucks if true #like how do you transition if your genderfluid? like i kinda want a cock and pussy and i know thats an actual option #but is it the right option? #i hate being trans but not knowing what kinda trans maybe ill hit where im at with my gender and just say tranny #cause i already say faggot for my sexuality instead of anything specific maybe i should just say tranny #this is probably what a therapist is for but idk if i can justify paying for this instead of saving money to buy a hoise #america sucks #capitalism sucks #love is such a bullshit thing #how can i be in love with some ane be in love with someone. being in love is nothing but selfish but also you have to be selfish for youryou #like i know that doesn't make sense sense but it makes sense to me and i also know its wrong #maybe i should give up and spend money on a therapist #i love my freinds and would sacrifice myself for them literally #12:51 and i have one more short tag to add #i hope you didnt read this far cause even in a drunk state this tag is embarrassing and im sorry you know me irl im sorry this is rambly+ugh #but if you dead read all the tags <3 i love yoh and would die for you

[hella1975]

me and my (also bi) flatmate were talking about date guy last week and out of nowhere she goes 'if you get a boyfriend im gonna be so annoyed we haven't even done anything gay together yet' and like i laughed it off but i keep remembering it bc we dont have a flirty friendship AT ALL like even in the moment it came WAY out of left field and im just here like hold on was gay shit ON THE TABLE??? NO ONE TOLD ME

#furious #you know that tiktok audio that's like 'i am not trying to seduce you... would you like me to seduce you?' #and it started off as a smirky flirty thing but the gays and neurodivergents #latched onto their own interpretation where it's more like #'wait.... did you WANT me to seduce you?' #i feel like that rn #like me and her have a very hateful relationship LMAO the only time we're ever nice to each other is when we're drunk #which is so funny bc she is actually one of my favourite people and she's told me im one of hers #so we go from sober and 'i literally despise you i cant wait to live without you next year' #to drunk and 'DONT GO TO AMERICA FOR YOUR PLACEMENT DONT LEAVE ME HERE' lmaooo #so being NICE is odd for us let alone being FLIRTY #like she said it and even when i didnt even consider the repurcussions i was like 'idk how to respond to that' #bc i have a hundred mean responses ready and waiting for her but NOTHING to respond to that with #like i literally said 'as if you'd be my type' but it just didn't hit as well bc she was being NICE/SUGGESTIVE #UGH IDK #like i dont fancy her like that btw and i dont think she likes me like that either it's v much platonic #but bisexuals will be bisexuals i v much think it's part of bisexual culture now to just hook up with any other bisexual you find #hella goes to uni

[watermelinoe]

wish i would practice my spanish more but idk what spanish media to get into and i'm terrified of speaking to others even in a practice setting

#i have some auditory processing issues so i really struggle w ppl's accents even in english #and my anxiety makes it worse #when i studied in costa rica i either got ppl saying ''oh your spanish is good!!'' or switching to english bc i was struggling 😭 #and it was mostly dependent on whether they enunciated or slurred their words #my spanish is at its best when i'm tipsy-drunk... bc i stop being self-conscious #i forgot my wallet at a bar one night and had to get an uber and the driver and i chatted and he complimented my spanish #and in my head i was like yeah that's the confidence elixir fhskfhdk #also i'm told i speak v v formally which makes sense bc most of my courses were literature courses #oh did reading excerpts from el cantar de mio cid not help my conversational spanish?

[yukinyaminyato]

so let's play a game called "is the dude who only talks to me when he's drunk at parties etc gonna talk to me in class today"

#my bet is on no 🥰 #i don't care either way #im just cringing bc when he talked to me last friday i was giggling and being annoying..... bc drunk me likes attention </3 ew #anyways let's see if i even make it to class the weather is awful bc of snowstorm 🥴 #there was a truck stuck in the middle of all lanes creating a traffic jam but at least my bus was finally able to get past #maybe I'll just be late. and probably won't be the only one..... #my posts

[lumo-dreams]

I will wait for you at home 🥺

#new 💛 #luis x moritz #lumo #How could Luis not go home when his cutie boyfriend is waiting for him 😂 #He probably fell asleep anyways 😁 #Moritz was either really tired or drunk he even stumbled on the stairs or maybe it was lenny 😂

[isekyaaa]

The difference between insomnia as a symptom and having a "decreased need for sleep" is that, while both results in you spending an ungodly amount of hours awake and not able to sleep, insomnia will result in a exhausted sleepy person while someone with a "decreased need for sleep" will not be sleepy or exhausted.

#rambles #tmi and bad decisions ahead #i have barely slept the past three nights #i can't fall asleep nor can i stay asleep #and while i can sense something is off enough with my body that it probably would be a good idea to get a full night's rest... #i am at regular functioning capacity #i'm not tired or sleepy... i don't need a nap #i am pretty much fine for the most part #which is even funnier considering that i am sick right now and that's when people feel exhausted the most #hypomania is a trip man #i'm beginning to think that certain games like instinctively triggers my hypomania #because this only started after i started playing graveyard keeper again... #games like that put me in this weird state of mind where i hyperfocus and obsess to the point that i can play for like the entire day #and this is coming from someone who usually does not play a single game for more than an hour at a time #so to go from one hour to like.... 8-10+ hours is rather concerning... #a part of me does wonder if it's actually hypomania or if i'm just physically weird #idk i don't think i've been displaying other hypomanic symptoms... at least i don't think so.... #either way regardless my plan for this evening is to get drunk AND take one of my meds that causes drowsiness so i can hopefully sleep well #wish me luck! :)

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

I’m so fucking stupid for ever thinking I was anything but an aroace trans man. why’d I do that to myself. A bitch was lying and knew it.

#there was a time in college when I didn't even think I was QUEER. #WHAT!!! #I hate everything. #apologies I am a tad drunk and too full of thoughts and feelings #I either need a hug or need my own apartment away from everybody and everything