#none of this shit is worth it

[outrosuqa]

ooh im contemplating so heavily on quitting

#none of this shit is worth it #and then managers coming in with their pissy attitudes and being assholes bc they're having a bad day and shit #literally fuck this job

[unlikecharlie]

every comment or post that I see yelling about sympathy, empathy, and reminding us that those people are humans with lives and families only makes me wish they're dead even harder. matter of fact, I hope they all suffer as much as possible and then go to hell and suffer even more. there

#titanic #oceangate #rambling #PATRICIA THESE PEOPLE PAID A QUARTER OF A MILLION DOLLARS TO RIDE A BOLTED PRINGLES CAN STEERED BY A LOGITECH CONTROLLER #TO SEE THE REMAINS OF A SHIP THAT KILLED MOSTLY POOR PEOPLE BC THE RICH WERE PRIORITISED IN THE EVACUATION #FOR NO OTHER REASON THAN TO HAVE BRAGGING RIGHTS AND BC THEY WERE BORED #WHILE IGNORING SAFETY REGULATIONS LEFT RIGHT AND CENTER #I HAVE NO SHRED OF SYMPATHY. NONE. THEYRE GETTING THEIR KARMA #I'LL HAVE TO PAWN OFF A PAIR OF EARRINGS TO SURVIVE UNTIL MY NEXT PAYCHECK. DO YOU THINK I GIVE A SHIT? #I COULDVE PAID OFF BOTH OF MY LOANS. GOTTEN CLOTHES AND SHOES I NEED. GONE ON VACATION FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. GOTTEN A TATTOO #AND STILL WOULDVE HAD MONEY LEFT OVER TO LIVE OFF OF WITH JUST ONE TICKET'S WORTH. ONE #so get off your moral high horse. you will never get where they are no matter how hard you're trying to convince yourself that #if only you work hard enough. long enough. youll be rich too #you wont. #and they wouldnt piss on fire to put you out if you were in their situation

[dragontatoes]

every other "transandrophobia isn't real" post I see on here is about how we not only don't care about trans women and complain constantly about them not caring about us but also actively wish to harm them for insinuating we have male privilege when in reality

my transfemme and transmasc friends and I do care about each other a lot. for many, we are the only safe people in their life for trans related things.

nobody tells the transfemmes to stay in their place or that the transmascs have it worse

nobody tells the transmascs we benefit from male privilege or that the transfemmes have it worse

the transmascs have expressed how painful it is to be infantilized and treated like they were peer pressured to sacrifice femininity, huh i fucking wonder what this could say about society's perspective on femininity which is attributed to all kinds of people regardless of identity

the transfemmes have expressed how painful it is to be feared or viewed as aggressive, huh I fucking wonder what this could say about society's perspective on masculinity which is attributed to all kinds of people regardless of their identity

nobody acts jealous of someone's gender related issues. we joke about how we wish we could donate boobs, uteruses, dicks, and hormones to each other. But if someone said "you're lucky" they'd be quickly and rightly told to not.

some of them are multigender and basically could not have skin in this fuckheaded game you've made up if you tried

You can't be talking to trans people in real life and still have it stuck in your head that trans people are the main perpetrators of any kind of transphobia, not without trying really hard not to pay attention. "Transandrophobia truthers" are simply not doing the shit you're saying they're doing. They're not even, like, a group. Idk, maybe they are on reddit or some other website I don't care about but let's try to focus on real things that matter for this post?

We can and should talk about how masculinity is vilified in its own right sometimes and how this leads to mistreatment of all kinds of trans people.

#transandrophobia #trans #yeah I'll tag this and risk ppl getting mad for some visibility on it. #someone i follow just reblogged some real 'I have never talked to a trans person irl' type of shit. which they often do. idk how worth it #is to keep following like buddy. none of that is how anything works. i know you're probably like 20 and dont have much community #but these people are just lying to you and making you feel bad for like existing

[something-about-sunflowers]

Hot take: The people who are STILL insisting that Izzy is homophobic (despite the NUMEROUS instances of the cast/crew/David himself saying that nobody on the show is being targeted for their identity and ‘it’s not “I can’t believe he’s with a guy” but “I can’t believe he’s with THAT guy”‘ ad nauseam) towards Stede, Lucius, or Ed (I don’t believe I’ve seen anyone say anything about Fang or Pete, though I could be wrong, but I’m gonna touch on that in a bit too*)? They’re, unironically, being homophobic by stereotyping the characters and reducing them to just their sexuality.

If you recognize that Stede is a multifaceted character and you recognize the ways in which he is multifaceted - He’s a man born into wealth and raised on classist, colonialist ideals. Yes, he’s also traumatized by how he was treated by his father and peers but trauma doesn’t exempt people from blame when participating in, embracing, enforcing, and benefiting from classist and colonialist ideals - you will understand that Izzy is not being homophobic towards him just because he hates him.

If you only view Stede as a gay man and ignore everything else about his character then the only motivation for Izzy to hate him MUST be because he’s a gay man and therefore Izzy MUST be homophobic.

If you recognize that Lucius is a multifaceted character and you recognize the ways in which he is multifaceted - He’s a man who likely was born into some level of the middle class, given that he can read and write (It’s also possible that he was born into a working class family and he learned to read and write there, but it’s the unlikely option by default. None of the rest of the working class crew know how to read or write save Jim who was raised by a nun and would have been taught by her.), he also avoids doing work which is necessary for the function of the ship that they live on and depend on for their livelihoods and encourages the rest of the crew to do the same with his insubordination. He’s also in an unorthodox relationship that people who have not experienced the concept of consensual non-monogamy would not understand and might interpret as cheating - you will understand that Izzy is not being homophobic towards him just because he hates him.

If you only view Lucius as a gay man and ignore everything else about his character then the only motivation for Izzy to hate him MUST be because he’s a gay man and therefore Izzy MUST be homophobic.

If you recognize that Ed is a multifaceted character and you recognize the ways in which he is multifaceted - He’s a man of color, born into a working class family who worked hard to make a name for himself, to the point where he did not have to endanger himself or his crew to earn their livelihoods. He’s also some level of neurodivergent and understimulated by the environment he’s in (because he excels at his job) which leads him to make irrational and dangerous decisions and puts the lives of himself and his crew in danger. He’s also been making increasingly out of character decisions (corroborated by Fang and Ivan) by the influence of Stede - you will understand that Izzy is not being homophobic towards him just because he’s angry about his relationship with Stede.

If you only view Ed as a gay man and ignore everything else about his character then the only motivation for Izzy to be angry about his relationship with Stede (and only Stede, because he had no qualms about Ed and Calico Jack’s involvement with one another given that he sent Jack to get Ed out of the way of the English, but that’s another post I don’t have the spoons to make) MUST be because he’s a gay man and therefore Izzy MUST be homophobic.

If you IGNORE that Izzy is a multifaceted character and you IGNORE the ways in which he is multifaceted - He’s a gay (we’re not having this argument) working class man who earned his high ranking position on an extremely respectable pirate’s crew. He’s capable and is rightfully angry when he’s looked down on because of his class. He recognizes the importance of ship maintenance and is rightfully angry when those tasks are ignored. He doesn’t understand Lucius’ relationship dynamic and thinks he can use (what he thought was) him cheating on his partner (seriously, how is ‘I’m going to tell the man you were fucking that you were fucking another man’ threatening to out him?) as a motivation to make him do the necessary ship work. He is rightfully angry when his orders are ignored because he’s the highest authority on the ship next to the captains. He is in love with Ed and is jealous because Ed is in love with Stede - you can pretend that Izzy is homophobic because of how he behaves towards the other gay men on the ship.

If you ignore that Izzy has valid reasons for his actions (which does not mean that the actions are all entirely justified) then the only motivation for them MUST be because he’s homophobic.

(* The persistent neglect of Fang and Pete in these discussions is also rooted in homophobia. Fang and Pete are the only explicitly gay men on the ship who don’t, at any point, present ‘femininely’** and therefore don’t fall so easily into the bubble of the stereotypical gay man and so they get ignored in these discussions because they aren’t suitable to push the narrative that Izzy only interacts negatively towards ‘feminine’/’gnc’** gay men.)

(** The insistence that Stede, Lucius, and Ed are in any way, at any point, LEGITIMATELY presenting ‘femininely’ or are ‘gender non-conforming’ is ALSO rooted in homophobia - and I’d argue a touch of racism via Ed’s hair and beard as they relate to his indigenous roots. The assumption/association with those three being considered feminine comes from their identity as gay men. That is homophobia.

Stede wears men’s clothes. He wears RICH men’s clothes. Bright, colorful, patterned fabrics are worn by RICH men in the 1700s - if you want to argue that, say, king George presented femininely or was gnc because of the way he dressed be my guest but you won’t because he doesn’t and he isn’t. Lucius wears men’s clothes. His clothes are perfectly at place amongst the rest of the crew’s clothes. Ed wears men’s clothes. His leather is in direct relation to gay leather-men which is a hyper-masculine aesthetic in the same way drag is - typically - a hyper-feminine aesthetic. His appreciation for Stede’s clothes comes from the wealth and privilege that centers around the easy possession of those types and quantities of fabrics.

None of them behave in ways that are stereotypically feminine. Having and expressing emotions is not a uniquely or inherently feminine trait. Caring for and maintaining your appearance is not a uniquely or inherently feminine trait. Even if they were, Izzy also does those things. Izzy frequently expresses his emotions - yes, anger, a stereotypically ‘masculine’ emotion, but others as well. He also puts a great deal of care into his appearance, aside from the materials, the only difference between his and Stede’s outfits are the type of shoes and the presence of a jacket. If those traits are to be considered inherently feminine then it is disingenuous to not apply that label to Izzy as well.)

#the dork is being a dork #izzy hands #the izcourse #always feels like i'm swinging at a hornet's nest tagging them but #edward teach #stede bonnet #lucius spriggs #seriously tho we're not doing the 'izzy isn't canonically gay' shit. #if you're still peddling that at this point you're basically saying that your opinion is only worth dismissal #because you don't know how to listen or pay attention to anything that isn't spelled out for you in a goddamn picture book #and MAN have we been given practically kindergarten level reading comprehension tests by the cast/david #it's okay to admit you were wrong about this by the way #you're not going to be forgiven for the constant and consistent harassment you've engaged in towards people who were saying the right things #from the beginning (izzy is gay and none of what he does is motivated by homophobia) but you're at least not digging yourself deeper for #when your INSISTING on it being true doesn't pay off

[noctude]

fucked up being tricked into enjoying a traditional childrens song bc theres no good recordings of them that arent clearly for babies. im a freaking Adult can i not enjoy a good melody in canon once in a while....

#o wie wohl ist mir am abend.. it's just nice . wahtever..... #all the recordings are either shitty or instrumental or sung by children #none of which have the same effect as a normal choir in a big space. give me the good shit. #like i get it. it's so easy. it's not worth the time of a professional choir. WHATEVER #WHY ARE ROUNDS ALWAYS FOR CHILDREN!!!!!!!! I LOVE ROUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[conchfritters]

last post complaining about genshin's writing for the month Anyway i think blorbofication happening in canon is the best way i could describe a lot of the problems i have with it ex. kaeya's relationship with diluc (or klee) is almost the only focus we get on him now, other than his brief appearance in the sumeru archon quest which was just saying his backstory basically with very little actual reaction or characterization on his part OR dainsleif's (also a problem i have in the albedo homunculus reveal in shadows amidst snowstorms). i haven't done his hangout because i. don't care enough to sit through an hour for each route with the quality of content hoyoverse puts out but looking at the ending options i feel like. they missed the opportunity to expand on things we already had for kaeya in favor of Oh he babysits klee! Oh albedo is here! Spend money to pull albedo!Venti cameo! What do you mean him and amber have a complicated dynamic. What do you mean he's apparently beloved by the elderly of mondstadt and the one who wraps up all the incidents there. What do you mean bennett trusts him as an omniscient big brother according to his official cn character profile. We made him talk to diluc again isn't that enough kaeya for you? and it sucks because kaeya feels like a rubik's cube with an onion's layers and like one of their best character personalities in content where he's actually kaeya and not just diluc's brother who is sad and also pretty! we never see anything about his relationship with jean, who he is the Most Trusted Aide of, or mondstadt at large! because every day we get closer to fanon kaeya being canon kaeya and it's just. You can have canon kaeya and fanon kaeya will follow but if fanon kaeya is at the forefront you're just immediately losing all that depth and it's going nowhere

#MAKE KAEYA MORE THAN A GUY WHO PLAYS TCG AND BABYSITS KLEE PLEASE I BEG YOU #he doesn't have to Stop playing tcg or babysitting klee even. i think that adds a lot to him actually. I just think pretending the rest of #him Isn't There is the problem #the reason for him being in sumeru is. Super flimsy to me #just because why is diluc having the knights supervise his wine deals #but i think the hangout routes of him acting in that play...ALSO feel very actual kaeya #from someone who's skimmed the dialogue for said hangout routes at least #acting in a whole play making a show then slipping away right at the applause #so those? yeah! but the mondstadt ones? Who cares #oh wow 2 seconds of jean lisa and albedo standing in a room. klee cameo. kaeya does So much for mondstadt we're Told #i would love to be Shown #remind me later to go on a whole tangent about how kaeya & collei's relationship Also got fucked over because holy shit #kaeya was going to Kill Her because he saw her as either a liar or a threat to mondstadt or Something #and then in the event i dont care enough about to remember the name of they have one interaction and its boring #seashell resonance #None of this is cohesive enough to be worth anything but i think about kaeya sometimes and remember that i'm also insane about him

[tapeworrmart]

Bro it's insane how I can draw smth cuz I've been feeling a black cloud and like I need to vent and that I'm all alone with the feeling and then... Post it and have so many of you feel the same or feel similar like :). Man :)). We out here. Holding all your hands rn

#Like obvs not happy you feel the same as that but also like wow #Really puts things into perspective like we are all out here with our little feelings and we get it #None of us are alone #Not to be sappy but. Yeah. Thanks for liking my art guys means a lot to me and my silly brain #Just when I think things aren't worth anything anymore shit like this surprises me

[nucleqr]

the shit that karlach does for her stupid vampire bf istg

#more like the shit wyll does really #i ended up going back and making him read the codex instead #because that temp hp you get every morning is so worth it for his 14 ac no armor wearing self #actually none of my party is wearing actual armor besides shadowheart #that's how it is #necromancy of thay #tharchiate codex #bg3 act 3 spoilers #karlach #astarion #bg3 #john baldur #nuclear.7z #origin karlach

[lesbiradshaw]

sometimes I worry if I've accidentally slipped into headcanons around stucky b/c the majority of the the fanon is so different and overwhelming sometimes but then someone shares the scripts to the movies and remember my "headcanons" are actual canon and I've just been forgetting how layered and deep devastating these two are and I'm not making it up omfg

Bucky was Steve's shield and savior the whole time keeping him safe he faced the brutality of war and tried to protect him from it and was willing to die to keep Steve rogers safe and faced indescribable horrors enslaved in his own mind for it, & Steve is pained in his soul for failing to return the favor and protect his hero in return and now Bucky Barnes is named as a face of evil while everyone praises Captain America and it feels so wrong to Steve and he throws his whole life into doing right by Bucky because he is his home he was the first hero and the history books will never give Buck his due. I am inconsolable T.T

MCU was cooking when they were first writing their story. Marvel needs to stop being afraid of stucky and get back to their roots they had such gold at the heart of their story it was like divine intervention how hard they went at the beginning

one of my fav bits of Steve&Bucky Lore that isn’t explicitly shown in the movie is that bucky isn’t only steve’s protector before the war, he’s also the first one who actually taught steve how to defend himself. steve’s motivation to stand up to bullies is completely his own but in the first vengeance comic (the tfa prequel) bucky, upon realizing steve is not going to give up on enlisting, decides that since he can’t persuade steve to stay out of it, he’s going to make sure he at least knows the basics of protecting himself. they go to bucky’s boxing gym together and bucky gives him lessons on how to fight, stressing the importance of steve focusing his tactics on speed and agility because the people he’ll be going up against are going to be bigger, but not necessarily dumb. he has a whole speech that sort of ties into what erskine says about steve being the little guy— and even when steve takes the serum and gets bigger and stronger, you can tell that he uses what bucky taught him. bucky didn’t stop protecting steve when they were apart. he did his best to prepare him to fight despite being frustrated by how steve was trying to throw himself headfirst into battle and i think that speaks to how much they understand each other. bucky knew steve was too stubborn to stay out of it and steve knew bucky would never let the matter go without doing his best to help. even when they weren’t necessarily on the same side of an argument, they were still a team, and that’s something that has never changed.

#i love first vengance sm theres sooooo much good material not just for the ship but also both characters #bucky has no issue acknowledging steves weaknesses because he knows where steve other strengths lie #my family forever there will never be anyone else like them #that one interview that talks ab how wartime bucky kind of works in the shadows & does some of the more gruesome work so steve wont have to #and thats another aspect of him protecting steve even after the serum like that shit is ingrained into his SOUL #its what makes the ending of tws poetic. bucky coming back to himself is a process kicked off by his instinct to protect steve breaking thru #‘​i know men with none of that worth ten of you’ ‘even when i had nothing i had bucky’ YEAHHHHHHHH. #the mcu can try and rewrite history but tws remains one of their best projects so that shit isnt gonna work! #stevebucky

[calenhads]

TLOU OC | THE BLACK DOG OF BOSTON

sometimes the short end of the stick is the sharpest sometimes the only road to take is the darkest sometimes all you gotta say is “daddy, make it go away” sometimes the only way out is as a carcass

[template]

#meaghan talks #hi mutuals are you awake #my horrible little blorbo my creature who has been wreaking havoc in my mind #sometimes in life your wife and daughter turn and you have to kill them but then some freak teenagers try to rob you several years later #and you have to be like are you kidding me. you are going to get killed if you keep doing such a shit job of thievery #here let me teach you how to not suck major ass at this #he scavenges shit outside the qz and brings it in to trade with anyone who will pay for it or give her something of value #worth noting in her design that she is supposed to have an eye patch and also look older #but pinterest is an evil place with no old people #they have a great number of fake names of course #and kieran is just another one of those but it's basically their real name at this point #he's very fond of it #but people who knew him pre-outbreak most likely call him murph since that was her fake name at the time #she just decided to turn it into a last name once she came up with kieran instead #no deadname no agab that's none of my business you and i both just have to be fine not knowing #tlou oc #oc: kieran murphy #edits

[randomalistic]

Chemistry gradually driving me insane (I was studying for 10 hours and that was entirely my fault)

#🦜 #why are there so many rules… none of this makes any sense… well it does but it’s like. someone just made this shit up #I still have to study my life away for 2 more nights but at least it’ll be about birds and I like birds… #txt #listen woukd you rather have a reasonable amount of work every day.. #or have NO studying and FREE TIME. until Hell Week #honestly I’m starting to think hell week isn’t worth it… #let’s see if I bomb my exam tomorrow

[zarovich]

do you ever feel like you can't even vent in a place you made for yourself to feel safe bc you're too afraid of everything and everyone watching and don't want to be the biggest burden cuz you know things won't get much better and what's the point? yea

#personal #genuinely feel as if i cant talk to anyone im too paranoid. even venting on my own stupid ass blog makes me paranoid as hell now #i dont feel safe unless im not here. i feel so fucking pathetic man its ridiculous why cant i just be a normal person instead of a freak #i cant stand this. im my own downfall too i know buti honestlt dont give a shit anymore its what i deserve its what i know #ill be embarrassed by this stupid ass breakdown later and act as if im perfectly fine even as im not. its not worth it #ill continue to pretnd and isolate myself and push everyone away until i inevitably kms. none of this is real so who cares #vent

[gaymothman]

cancel culture is so wild to me, on one hand i agree the original intent of holding people with massive public platforms and influences of power accountable for being shitty because it can cause a lot of damage, but when it comes to like, small users online or people in real life over relatively banal issues like using a term you don't like, or being kind of an asshole, or engaging with a media you deem problematic in comparison to things like... real actual hate speech or predation? i'm sorta just like, if you can't tell me "hey that hurt my feelings/offended me and i think that was shitty" and me be able to either go "oh that's good to know i'm sorry i'll try to change my behavior" or "i don't really care" and both of us be able to move on with absolutely no further interaction in either instance, recognizing this is a small scale issue in the world, and without you needing to lead a harassment campaign against me to run me off the internet, then i'm really not the one with an behavioral problem that needs to be adjusted for the greater public good am i?

#canceled #cancel culture #twitter #chronically online #problematic #like you are not entitled to the apology of a stranger online no matter how much a random post hurt your feelings or offended you personall #in the real world people say shit all the time and sometimes it's just none of your damn business and not worth your time #i also have never been called out or cancelled and i'm not bitching or vagueing about some weird experience i had with it #i just think that some people need to learn how to say “that guys an asshole and not my problem” and just stop fucking interacting #and i do support the deplatforming of genuinely awful and harmful accounts regardless of large or small audiences #but part of that relates to the attention economy and should be budgeted accordingly #sometimes the best thing you can do is ignore avoid and mass report and harassment or call outs just gives the shithead more of an audience

[shoutsindwarvish]

flying out to illinois in a few hours for my grandma’s funeral

my emotions have been muted for over a week now and things feel surreal. hoping i don’t get a migraine while traveling. or that my emotions boot up at an inopportune moment and i start crying on the plane or something.

i’ve repeatedly said this the past few weeks because it’s true: everything happens so much

#also concerned i’m going to get covid this week #i’m going to mask at the airport and on the plane #but none of my family members give a shit about covid anymore #they’re all up to date on being vaxxed but none of them mask and all of them have had it at least once #trying to figure out if it’s worth masking at the funeral or at shiva afterward #or just say ‘fuck it’ #brain’s in low-power mode my dudes #my posts #grief cw

[chaotictomtom]

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#realising once more wee bairn me wasn't really taken care of lol #who doesn't bring their kid to the hospital or at least a doc after hitting their lil head really hard against a hard tile floor. #it happened twice note the same situation nor the same age but none were like. checked on with a doc afterwards #i was like around 5? i think for the first time and then a wee bit before 10 #idk tbh i barely remember anything up until after highschool #tons of shit suck abt how i was raised but like what can i do abt the past. absolutely nothing!!!!!! trying to focus on da present #even tho it's hard #it just still feels like im not worth enough for any attention nor concern when stuff are bad but. yeah. #shrugs. big shrugs

[the-trans-dragon]

I need a doctor who has the patience, experience, humor, and directness to listen to whatever new treatment ideas I've concocted, and then either say "Alex, that's a stupid fucking idea, let me explain why," or "The risks are acceptable in my professional opinion. Let's go over pros and cons and then you can think about it and decide what to do."

I just think it would be fun. For me. And I wish I could find a doctor who would also find that fun. I already came up with one fun Treatment for an Illness and have been successfully using it to treat The Illness for almost a YEAR, and all the side effects are awesome so like...I am certainly full of hubris at this point.

#i dont wanna say what i take or what im treating bc its like...well...zero doctors recommended it lol. and two doctors said “that might work #but uhhhhh i dont think im the right doctor for that.“ wait. three doctors said that. but i asked the third doctor ”pwease. youre the third #doctor to tell me to go to a different doctor. i need help.“ (i was fucking desperate. i was missing so many days of work that i basically #lost an entire paycheck's worth of money in two months and like. i had also SPENT that much on the doctors who inevitably ran out of their #own ideas and then recommended i go elsewwhwre to try my idea WHICH IS FAIR but also all 3 doctors did agree it was worth a shot so like.... #i kinda needed ONE of them to actually. try it. it just took 6 months for the first one to run out of ideas and then another two or three #months to get in to see my genderal physician and then see a doctor he recommended who then recommended i go elsewhere and thats the doctor #who i was like “youre the third doctor to say that...i dont know who else to try.” goodness im glad she helped. my medicine is like $15 a #month (it was $10 when i had insurance) and i am in love with every single “side effect” and!!!! yea it has given me a large sum of hubris. #anyways.) i wanna do that again but with my other Significantly Disabling Illness. like why not lol. im already on 3 medicines that are #recommended to *not* take together (none of which are the medicine i chose to take aldjskds) so like.............seems like we #are at a “just try shit out and see what happens” stage. doctors should send me resumes and ill pick the one that looks most fun and then #we will do fun science together on my nerves system :) itll be fine lol. am i serious or kidding? i have no idea. #sorenhoots