#never be as valuable again?

[dockaspbrak]

i think the stock market in its entirety is such a flop....back to grain markets.

#sorry i know this isnt really the topic for my followers #but imagine me trying to say this to my pretty wife who is deep into psychology and special ed academia....she just doesnt need to be burde #ed #so essentially i was watching a breakdown of current crypto trends bc i do that often sorry #and i just.....crypto is basically the absolute boiled down end of what the stock market did to businesses #instead of making. a business that does anything for society....they're made to be valuable to sell to the consumer and then itll literally #never be as valuable again? #thats why tech companies are struggling and its all bullshit. its literally just everything isnt made to work its made to be sold and thati #crypto is just abunch of losers who think theyre smarter than everyone else selling nothing to eachother... and literally why? #its like. wework wanted to be a valuable tech company so bad their frankly basic idea of communal workplace real estate #got fucked from over-valuation and scammy shit bc they want to sell stock #stock selling is like. hypothetical representations of a company that you gamble with right that should have its worth defined by the #performance of the business....in theory. but its all propped up by who ever is buying into it and why and also stupid bullshit #jergoiejgoie hahahah i have a lot of feelings about how stupid financial markets are and very little respect for them

[arthursfuckinghat]

Do. Do you. Do you ever think about John reading Arthur's journal. Do you ever think about it. Do you think about John reading all the things Arthur never spoke about. Do you think about John holding the last months of Arthur's life in journal form. Do you think about John learning his brother's secrets. Do you think about it.

#“michael are you okay” no I'm not imagine having your brother's life written down and being able to read it over and over again and cry #imagine having something so valuable to somebody you cared so much about #imagine never having to worry about forgetting a memory again because your deceased brother wrote down everything that happened in his life #god I'm going to throw up #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick thinks #arthur morgan #john marston #red dead redemption 2 spoilers

[un-pearable]

darkly funny to me that lloyd “father issues” garmadon is the one who introduced jay to starfarer

#text✨ #ninjago #having fic ideas…. #i am a comic collector (bad hobby to pick up but very fun and intoxicating). have a story idea of jay and lloyd working together to #collect all of the OG starfarer run and they never fully do (are Children) (older comics are expensive) (starfarer as fictional x-men and #the OG run starting with the equivalent of giant-size x-men no.1 that is STUPID expensive and one of the most valuable comics ever) #and then years later after they’ve both had to grow up more. years later during like. the year long gap or smthn they jokingly start doing #it again. half their original collection is lost or damaged from various times they had to move or the bounty was destroyed but they have #a good start. lloyd’s finding other comic shops in ninjago city while jay finds them occasionally out in the smaller cities #and they find The issue. the big one. when jay remembers that itty little tidbit about the other person in his life that cared about starfar #yeah that’s right obligatory reveal angst baby. i am nothing if not consistent >:]

[aquamarineglow]

Rook and Bishop probably dislike Easter because the last time they did an egg hunt, it went badly.

#they'd refuse to take part because they don't see how it's supposed to be a game #but their son would beg them so they'd give in #after a few minutes a switch is flipped and they revert back into Targent mode #they get super competitive and start cheating #them kids didn't stand a chance #they get mad when they realise the eggs aren't valuable and are just chocolate #then their son asks to get a toy popono #even though they have over a hundred at home #eventually they go home and watch Hop(2011) #never doing that again #professor layton #rook #macaw #bishop #robin #azran legacy #targent

[betasuppe]

🎶Feels like a failure & never added anything to fandoms anyways~

#i am so so so so so so so tired of myself #you have no idea how much i want to draw but anything i do is utter shite so im losing the energy to keep trying♡ #i feel like a fucking failure & let down #but tbh never added anything valuable to conversations at all #im so ready to delete my blog & vanish into the ether #im so sorry about this all #i dont know why ive tried to do something here #what a fucking wasteeeee lmaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo #whyp do i even try #why do i even try #whyyyy do i even tryyyyy #about to step out & not post here ever again #sorry for just being annoying in the first place♡

[bootay-hole]

more of my doodles from school FEATURINGGGGG my ocs that i’ve never talked about and also some random designs i drew bc school is boring 👍

#tay draws #tay posts #tay’s ocs #can u guys tell that the star/heart oc duo are new ocs #i somewhat figured out their designs solely through school doodles LMAO #also i’m planning to work on the moon/sun guys a bit too. they’re pretty cool i thinks #ducktales 2017 #may duck #june duck #ty cloudkicker #now to tag the names of my ocs that i’ll probably never tag again for like a few months #oc: Fawn #oc: Florence #oc: Taffy Tizz #<- that’s the one with the sweater vest and curly hair with the two ponytails on each side #i had a dream about her once and decided i had to make her an oc #oc: Laila Brooks #<- angel with the locs #oc: Lilith Avarie #<- demon with the broken horn #also taffy tizz has a crush on the guy in the goggles beside the ty cloudkicker doodle #idk his name yet #he looks like a cleo or a felix or something #i think the guy was like an undercover spy or something and he managed to take something valuable from taffy cause. boy pretty #now that i’m typing this out i’m realising that this is basically the plot of swindle chapter 2 lol #also taffy has two love interests (including this guy) and one of them is a WOMAN!!! we love a bi poly icon #she’s not in these doodles but her name is iris <3 #tay’s art

[legionofpotatoes]

I played Season over the weekend, which if I had to condense "thematic meandering" into a videogame is probably what I would most closely end up with; but it was still a cozy chill time that targeted my very specific niche of robust cow petting mechanics. Followed by journaling the heck out of them.

I do think cute indies living and dying by their sincere desire to paint the human condition should never ever ever fall into the temptation of obtuse and nebulous worldbuilding that desperately needs to explain itself so it can function as an aesthetic blanket for their vignettes. Just keep it loose and metaphor-heavy, fellas.

Cause if you're not extremely, painfully specific about your intention with a story that centers ignorant tourism and historic preservation, you're gonna beef it, bud

#season a letter to the future #I have so many nitpicks but it feels mean lmao. in a very subjective sense I had a good time with it. I am a boring playstyle guy #scrapbooking and cycling in a pretty world is right up my alley. wish it wasn't so #man idk if I can call it what I want to call it cause it's so unclear of its own optics. the intention feels pure #for whatever good that can do in a context this god damn loaded :D but at least I recorded the froggies on my tapes #(a game like this does not need elaborate lore that it then fails to adequately explain anyway. that is a barrier to many of season's #emotional high points. shit just lacks clarity of purpose and happens as a given and banks on its aesthetic and melancholic context to #provide the necessary backbone for that punch. but then you end up revealing your hand and general flippant disposition towards this #nebulously coded cultural backdrop that you've constructed for ultimately shallow purposes. especially irt to the core ethos #like the game ultimately asks us if dispassionate preservation of a dying culture is more valuable than the vicarious experience of it but #then that binary is never meaningfully weighted since the protagonist survives and succeeds in either option BECAUSE of the journal and? #it all fizzles out in thematic incongruity. maybe it's my own hangups with glorification of legacy to such a manic degree #or maybe it's really just meant to be sort-of aimless and 'human' in that way. which again negates the need for this lore-brain barrier #just keep it simple without the oddly pedestrian mechanics of the literal apocalypse and the mass amnesia prayers and tell #the exact same story. with a tighter grip on the context of who the protagonist is in this land. there's your game) #text

[angel-thoughts-dump]

Wesley and Gunn come from opposite worlds, they get involved with the supernatural from completely different reasons. One is willingly the other is not, one is for prestige and family legacy the other for survival. When these characters first appear on-screen they are, if not content, at least accustomed to their worlds, and they can only think about going the rest of their lives the same way they have always gone. It's amazing how they end up working together, saving each other lives, best friends, even falling for the same girl.

Another thing they share is that when they have a crisis where they think they have failed in a big way, they start to crave things from each other worlds, something completely different :

Wesley, after failing miserably as a watcher, wants to be a rogue hunter, forget polished manners and flourish language, he wanted to get more physical and never run from a fight or a hard decision, and make quick gut desicions instead of thinking too much - everything Gunn had lots of experience with. The big difference is that Gunn always acted with his group, he knew there was strength in numbers, while Wesley craved it but he romanticised the lone badass hero. Then when Fred "chooses the other guy" Wesley starts to obsess over the prophecy of Angel killing Connor and well- we know the rest.

Like so, when Gunn losses his connection to the place and group of people he grew up with, and later to Fred, we see him fantasize about fancy things, knowledge, etiquette, "class". They are mostly little comments, like before formally breaking up with Fred: Gunn says he sees himself and Fred living in "a place like this" while they are in a luxurious house, or when he goes with Gwen undercover to the house of an ambassador: the show makes a point of showing us he is really enjoying being in that kind of situation. Then season 5, when he gets that knowledge implant, is just taking it to an extreme. The big difference is that Wesley is curious and passionate about the lore and languages he learns, while Gunn never liked laws, he just wanted that knowledge to be useful.

Its interesting how they valued the other so much, it's like when their own self-confidence was at their worst they attempted to -unconsciously- take skills/characteristics from the other, but by forgetting themselves

#And its sad to see because Wesley never lest go of his watcher's side #that side is always seen as valuable #but all the practical skills Gunn picked growing up? not only the fighting skills #the creativity to use few resources and make it work #the ability to make quick hard decisions #the effortless way he could act charming or intimidating #some contacts from before? anything?? Then he literally ends up in a place where he is forced to live that laser cut model of a happy life #but as a form of torture with a pendant that makes him forget who he is. again. taken to the estreme. He gets out of it #in an anticlimactic way #somehow still thanks to wesley #and remembers who he is #he wears his old outfits #just before the big final fight ! yey ... #:/ #I really got carried away with this and now I'm so sleepy hehe

[goldensunset]

there were a couple years i couldn’t even say the name of the show vld i couldn’t even allow my fingers or tongue to form the shape. to this day it’s still my instinct to call it v slur lol

#hi. more Blog History Disclosure. i used to be One Of Those People. #more specifically i’m one of the ones who watched to the very end bc i was optimistic it would finally get good #spoiler: it did Not #that was the messiest this site has ever been tbh #superwholock is the thing that lasted for years and bled into this site’s culture but i have never seen worse hostility than the vld fandom #and i don’t think we ever will again #the lasting impact it’s had on the internet to this day… #was it objectively awful? yeah. should i be ashamed? yeah. #is it very funny to look back on and reminisce years later? absolutely #good old bad days #it taught me a valuable lesson about how much to engage with media/ media fandom

[babyfairy]

i really hate how weirdly self aware i am sometimes. idk how to explain it. it’s like being aware of when i overreact or i’m being sensitive or i’m acting weird or noticing changes in the way people talk to me or behave around me is just all too much. but i’m always like hypervigilant about all of those things. so when they aren’t “right” then i feel like shit lol. and i feel like i come off like i’m dumb and maybe never notice anything but i do. i just never say anything about any of it because what’s the point

#like i notice patterns in what people avoid talking about around me #or changes in demeanor when i say or do certain things. and honestly i just feel weird and like unsettling idk lmaooo #i don’t feel like an outcast really like i know i’m not but i just feel Off and Weird like i just don’t fit right anywhere or with anyone #and i never will. that’s how it feels sometimes #it’s very rare for me to feel like i belong or that my presence is like. highly valuable if that makes sense #idk! none of this matters lol i’m just lamenting feeling normal and i feel like i will never feel normal again

[youremyonlyhope]

why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up

#i'm overthinking something that i did and was told off for doing by my director #and on my way home i was thinking when was the last time i was even talked to like that during a production #and then i remembered the costume experience from hell of only a couple months ago that i've already began blocking out #but the thing is that that person was someone i knew i'd never have to work with again #i mean at first i thought i would have to work with them more. then they announced they were moving away immediately #so i only had to deal with them face to face for another weekish after that point and anytime they yelled at me #i was like 'cool. i'll do exactly what you say to do. and nothing more.' but then of course me being me #i did some extra stuff and they initially were like 'oh that's pretty' and then days later told me to cut everything i added #and like sure i get that the show was frozen but girl. that costume was unfinished. i was trying to finish it. it was frozen but looked bad #anyway. whenever they yelled at me and had actual malice in their heart i was like whatever. i was hurt. but i didn't care as much. #but this time it's someone i've worked with many many times before and it was about a habit i have that i know isn't great #but at the same time the thing that prompted it wasn't even me doing this habit it was something else #but she interpreted it as that habit and said that i can't do that on a production she's directing #and that if i couldn't stop then i could pull out from the production and there'd be no hard feelings between us #and honestly i think her reassuring that she knows i'm valuable and that she wants me there while also telling me not to do this thing #and the fact that she's someone i like working with and will continue to work with just made it all hurt so much more #especially since she referenced another past production we've done where i didn't even realize she had noticed that i do this. #and i found myself in near tears. and still am kind of in near tears. i can't decide if i need to cry or not. #and i had NO sleep last night so i was looking forward to sleeping tonight but now i'm just overthinking EVERYTHING #and like. i know everything will be fine. if i just stop inserting myself and stick to just my specific tasks. it'll be fine. #but this is one of the ways my ocd manifests. i feel like i have to personally fix something i notice going wrong. or it'll be bad. #because every single time i choose to sit back and not be nosy when i notice something it ends up bad in a way i could have prevented #if i just inserted myself in a situation i technically wasn't part of but knew i could help or fix. so i just need to not do that. #but then i feel guilt if it does go wrong in the ways i immediately assumed it would and in a way i could prevent. #and i've been trying to work on this for like 6 months and aaaahhhh it's hard and being called out on it from her just really really hurt #i still may or may not cry. i don't know. the irony of me telling my therapist THIS MORNING that it's been a while since i last cried. #and the universe being like 'i took that as a challenge' and handing me this situation for me to spiral over. #i need to leave things alone. i need to stare straight ahead. and ignore whatever isn't specifically for me to do. but ahhh i want to help #and then of course my mom has this same habit and it annoys me when she does it yet i do it to other people and ahhhhhhhh #brain please just shut up. i need to sleep. i have to work tomorrow.

[skrunksthatwunk]

found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?

#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now #sigh.. i dont know. i dont know. #at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him #no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow? #it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my #best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker. #i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time. #but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh #he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him. #im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to #say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more? #just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am #and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him #and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him. #she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on. #she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken #but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him #and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not #like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him? #so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her #and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all #the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess #like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea. #but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.

[paranormeow7]

in the midst of getting all of our news and opinions and information in general from social media so many people online have forgotten that it’s the wild fucking west and literally anyone can just lie and say they’re a doctor and that drinking bleach is good for you. I’ve been seeing so fucking many warning posts along the lines of “sometimes people online lie!! reminder that people online can pretend to be someone else and spread false information!!” like yeah I thought this was common knowledge. we as a society need to realize that the internet is not always a reliable source of information, and that the people on here hide behind a shroud of anonymity, allowing them to genuinely be anyone. do not trust xxboyslutxx on TikTok with how to treat your crippling acid reflux or lose 10 pounds or whatever. check your sources or read a book at your local library

#actual sugar post #not trying to sound bigoted or weird or anything because a lot of valuable information has gotten more accessible through the internet #but good god it is depressing to see that people need to be REMINDED that people online are capable of telling lies #this is the telling lies hub. the telling lies capital of the world #reactionary mindsets on here have just destroyed peoples ability to see when someone’s shitting you and when you should back up #don’t get too comfortable or trusting on here #I could absolutely be a middle aged man. you guys would never know #anyways. start teaching internet safety again it’s so important now more than ever #rambles #blabbering #internet safety #izzy.txt #text post

[sunlitmcgee]

I think that people who preach about how important forgiveness is when healing/recovery could gain much from one conversation with someone who was raised in an intense Christian household. Understanding how being Forced to forgive those who've hurt you fucks you up for life can help a lot.

#the right to Never forgive is vital #the right to not forgive. to be angry. to never want to speak to them again #it's vital and a valuable option #if you deny the option or paint it as the evil childish lesser one #you are denying a victim a valuable choice

[asinglesock]

I am actually feeling more optimistic about school than I have in several weeks. I'm thankful for that.

#a sock speaks #grad school tag #got paid for the fellowship I did this fall (which I'm just realizing I never posted photos from here. maybe I should do that sometime.) #the pay was not much but tbh having it on my CV is probably more valuable #got my research job sorted out so I can clock hours again #got a topic I'm actually interested in for my Big Scary 20 single spaced page 2nd Temple lit paper #got the ok from my program advisor to completely restart my portfolio if I'm still not happy with it in the spring #lots of New Testament course offerings for spring semester and I'm going to take as many as possible #and I'm very timidly going to say that I might be doing a little better with Hebrew verbs this week #I talk a lot about my negative feelings here but it's really not all bad

[batemanofficial]

i have been home for twenty four hours and my mom has already made me cry 🤩

#speak friend and enter #CANNOT WAIT TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE BUT IM HERE FROM DEC-MAY UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #tell me again about how im an ungrateful leech. im sure you'll have something valuable to say this time. unlike all the others #if im out of the house its fine. but as soon as im back its 'you take too much' 'do you know what i do to support you' etc etc #for context my mother is. very well off but as soon as i - her student child with no income - buy one thing for myself im a leech #she gives me money unprompted (i know better than to ask even if i do need help) and then gets mad when i *checks notes* spend it? #but starting monday i will have my own income and she can shove it #my mother. logan roy kinnie. never saw anything she loved that she didn't wanna kick it to see if it'd come back