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Since my little sister got a win today, and I've kind of created a little family here, I'll post the second chapter of the fanfic I posted today now.

It's very short, actually.

@alissonbecksfan234 , my little sis and @liverpoolfanfiction , big sis, this is for you!

Tw: brief mentions of SH and anxiety, mentions of blood, crying

Abandoned (?) Part 2

"I'm sorry, my goalkeeper. Ali, it's not your fault."

When Alisson heard Virgil's deep voice utter those words, he felt even more miserable. Violent sobs wracked his body as he hunched even further, fleeing van Dijk's touch.

"Por que you are here?" He said between sobs, red and swollen hands rising to his face in a furious attempt to stop the torrent of tears "Go hang out with Joël, he's better than me after all."

Virgil felt a bitter taste of disgust in his throat. He felt guilty for saying those things to Alisson. The Brazilian had won his heart in a way that even he didn't understand, and he realized how cruel he had been.

"Can I touch you, Alisson?" He asked hesitantly as he held his hand out towards the goalkeeper.

"Keep your hands to yourself, Virgil van Dijk!" Alisson started backing away from the quarterback, obviously very nervous and distressed, as he nervously opened and closed his hands.

Alisson was having an anxiety attack. Virgil could see that he was constantly scratching his nails into the skin on his arms, as if he were trying to relieve stress through pain.

"Alisson. Alisson, stop trying to scratch yourself. You will get hurt, meu amor."

Alisson stopped scratching his arms, but he was still bristling like a nervous cat. He looked ready to jump and run, or fight. Firmino was right, Virgil thought.

"Oh, so now it's meu amor, huh!?" Alisson screamed, hurt seeping into every word, his eyes red and filled with tears "Before that it was 'I'm disappointed, Alisson.'" He rubbed the skin on his arms furiously, very nervously.

The last person Virgil had seen do that was Gakpo, when they were knocked out by Argentina in the World Cup. The boy had had such a fit that his arms bled from rubbing them so much.

"Alisson, I didn't mean it that way." Virgil approached the goalkeeper slowly, keeping his hands to himself "I don't think you're any worse for not wanting to play on Sunday, I just wanted to understand why!"

"I assume you went to ask Bobby and Fabi?" Alisson said, eyes downcast, as he picked at the cuticle of his fingers.

"I confess I did it, Ali. They told me that you're having a meltdown, especially after the amount of hate you've been receiving."

"Great, then you must be very proud of what 'your goalkeeper' is now." Alisson wiped his tears furiously "Je doelman is een loser."

It hurt the Dutchman's heart to see Alisson saying that about himself, even more so in his own language. Controlling the urge to wrap Alisson up in a hug and kiss every part of his red, pimply-popped face, he took a deep breath and sat down a few inches from the keeper.

"You know, we all make mistakes. I've told you this several times. I know it's hard to deal with people's hatred, the fear of being rejected even by the family that shelters you here." Virgil took a deep breath and reached out, placing his pinky next to Alisson's hand "But I want you to know that, in addition to Fabi and Bobby, who are your fellow countrymen, I will always be here for you. Klopp too, but I want you to know that I'll be here. I'm going to be here because that's what we do for the people we love."

He noticed that Alisson had wiped his tears away and he looked calmer now. It made him feel relieved. Even though Alisson still hadn't made any moves to approach him.

"Can I touch you now?" The quarterback asked.

Alisson tried to say something, but his voice was so thick he just nodded. He felt new tears streaming down his face as he hid his injured hands close to his chest.

Virgil, in turn, reached over and took Alisson's hands in his. He kissed each injured finger, long and soft. Then, taking Alisson's face between his hands, he ran his thumbs over each pimple wound on the Brazilian's cheeks and forehead, leaving a soft kiss on each one.

Alisson needed comfort right now, and he felt responsible for providing it.

"Eu te amo muito, Alisson." He smiled in his attempt to say something in Portuguese. He had heard Alisson say that to Fabinho and Bobby a lot.

He leaned his forehead against Alisson's as he gently wiped the tear marks from his cheeks. He never wanted to see Alisson as nervous as he had seen him. And he never wanted to be the reason for that to happen again.

A confused and warm feeling took over his heart. He felt guilty of making Alisson believe he had abandoned him. The goalkeeper was very loyal to him, and Virgil wouldn't trade that loyalty for anything. Even more so because he liked Alisson so much.

"Virgil?" Alisson's shy voice brought him out of his thoughts.

"Yes, Ali?"

"Ik hou ook veel van jou. Je maakt me gelukkig als nooit tevoren." Alisson said as he lifted his head and kissed Virgil's nose, and then nestling his face in the space between his neck and shoulder, letting out a satisfied sigh.

Virgil was frozen, cheeks hot. The last time he had heard anyone say they loved him was from his parents. He felt important and special to someone for the first time. With a smile on his face, he snuggled the Brazilian into his embrace and gently scratched the younger's neck with the blunt part of his fingernails.

He'd never been good with comfort, but he felt like he could do this when it came to Alisson. After all, he was his goalkeeper, his alone.

*Yay! I confess that I loved writing the part where Virgil comforts Alisson. I would love for someone I love to comfort me this way, but I still haven't found my Virgil van Dijk. I hope you enjoyed. If it sounds romantic, I'll admit I made it look that way. After all, I'm just making use of their name, not their real personalities. Any parallel personality is my "creation". Kisses from the Brazilian who loves you so much!

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