I got these shoes from someone recently but thought they were way too plain looking, so I set out on a quest to customize them with some sharpies and charms and miscellaneous ribbon I had in my craft drawers. Mostly sky themed (clouds, rainbows, rain, stars, etc.) because that's my favorite aesthetic, but I had to include some cat imagery as well, of course lol.
holly black for real writes books like they’re mid movies from 2008 and it is sincerely one of the most beautiful and real things ever. the cruel prince trilogy excluded from this sentiment because i haven’t read and wouldn’t know if that’s its vibe. well that’s not true i read the cruel prince but NOT in the booktok way i read the first book when it came out when i was in high school and then i entered my illiteracy era and never read the next two. i have them, one’s even a signed copy i just haven’t had the time to get around to them and also i’m lowkey prejudiced against them because of their booktok popularity. those annoying ass people don’t even know my friends hazel and ben evans. who btw would have slayed in a low budget fantasy action comedy rated pg made in 2006 released direct to dvd with the ugliest and most captivating cgi you’ve ever seen in your life. starring some dude who was not famous at the time but became so in 2011 as the faerie prince. god i can see it now. actually to be fair this could never have been a film in 2006 because there’s gay people. if it was about two sisters tho instead of a sister and brother it would have. and nothing else about it would change and i would have watched it so many times i scratched the dvd. but well that is not the world we live in we live in the world where it’s just a book nobody has read but me by an author who’s popular for other stuff. and you know the worst part about the cruel prince getting booktok-ified? ben is literally in that book and i know none of those bitches even knew or cared. holly sets all her faerie stuff in the same universe (which is ambiguously also the same universe cassandra clare writes in. hard to explain the nuances to a fuckin newbie you had to be there) anyway. i was a holly black girl before it was cool. i was literally made fun of for reading her books and then suddenly in like 2020 faerie romance became “in” and frankly i’ve never felt more betrayed by the trend cycle as i was then. ok i was there in 2017 getting bullied by my older cousin for reading about gay faeries (lady midnight) when i was 15 and now adult women are allowed to log on to tiktok and talk about their literal fantasy porn series every day. is anything fair holy shit…
Let’s briefly acknowledge the fact that in the conversation with Dr. Nix, Hunter replies to basically everything with a strong no, admits to destruction of property...
But he just sighs at the mention of suicidal ideation.
I know how we’re supposed to take it. As a ‘pfff of course not’.
But like...
What if we interpret it differently? What if it’s more in the vein of:
(Mild discussion of suicidal ideation below the -keep reading-)
I’m not even getting into that
It’s complicated
What even constitutes ‘suicidal ideation’? Everybody wants to die sometimes, right? Do I have to have a twelve step plan mapped out? Or are you going to write down that I’m a crazy suicidal lunatic if I just want to not have to deal with being alive on the regular?
But he doesn’t say any of that of course. He can’t. He’s built up walls upon walls over the years, but he can’t quite bring himself in the moment to simply say no. He wants to. But all that comes out is a sigh, and the need to avert his gaze. To quell the subconscious fear that, if he retains eye contact with Dr. Nix, he might somehow be able to read his entire train of thought on his face.