#me: one fear

[the-eldritch-it-gay]

im supposed to be working but I’m busy thinking about the universal translators in Star Trek. Because while it gives an essentially in universe reason for why everyone understands each other, it’s a story telling aid, it also does lowkey horrify me. Do I not have the privacy of my own language? How well do things translate? I wrote a whole essay about how translation irl is such an imperfect and flawed thing because there’s so many contexts and meanings and layers words have. What if I don’t want my words to be translated, huh? What if they need an essays worth of background explanation to translate?

Like I said I know it’s clearly just a story telling aid/justification and isn’t some rigidly defined thing but still.

#salam watches ds9 #me: no fear #universal translation: (exists) #me: one fear #to be fair though it is a better alternative than Universal Language

[the-himawari]

OH GOD

#personal #me: no fear #liber: what about the possibility of 3 masumi gachas within a one month period #me: one fear #/thinks about possible Masumi hana high gacha + Masumi birthday + possible Masumi March night walk gacha #buckle up my dudes #we're going through it

[completelyandtotalyuneventful]

Amity’s either gonna get two christmases in the new episode or none

#TOH #the owl house #toh spoilers #clouds on the horizon #amity blight #odelia blight #alador blight #me: no fear #Rebecca Rose: *drops the new promo* #Me: one fear

[dgalerab]

jk just had a performance review so nice i got off the call and immediately started crying and it nuked all the self control i still have so here we go

(disclaimer they're not cat ears i just made a tactical error that i have to fix with coloring)

#undecided poll tag #bnha #me: no fear #'your bosses are pleased with your work and telling you you're great' #me: one fear

[orlamccools]

every single friday, saturday and sunday night for the past month i have been consumed with anxiety levels on par with someone being hunted for sport and i feel the need to make that everyones problem

#maddie mumbles #me: no fear #random t shirt: taylor plays your fave songs for the secret songs #me: one fear

[lonely-night]

istg if they actually give us captain seven of nine but make her tie up her hair like she did on voyager I WILL KILL SOMEONE

#rambling tag #seven of nine #me: no fear #them: they might make seven tie up her hair #me: one fear #BRING BACK MESSY CURLS YOU COWARDS

[scarletspider2the2ndpower]

“If Death be My Destiny!” Spectacular Spider-Man (Vol. 1/1976), #227.

Writer: Tom DeFalco; Penciler: Sal Buscema; Inker: Bill Sienkiewicz; Colorist: John Kalisz; Letterer: Clem Robins

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Spectacular Spider-Man #Kaine #Kaine Parker #Spidercide #Jackal #Miles Warren #Me: no fear #Jackal: refers to himself as “daddy” #me: one fear #also they really did just let Spidercide say things huh hahaha #in other news I’m distracted from any possible frustration I might have with the Jackal’s plot armor by Kaine’s fascinating ruminations #there’s Kaine’s established issues with worth #that he tries to keep buried deep but apparently not deep enough #we’ve got that #but this idea that Kaine might have something literally in his DNA that compels him to prevent harm from coming to Warren is fascinating #I always wondered why (in-story not editorially speaking) why Kaine never hunted Jackal down and got some revenge #even if it wasn’t a full blown X-Men: First Class “let’s just say I’m Frankenstein’s monster and I’m looking for my creator” moment #if anyone would threaten the thing Kaine’s determined to protect (Peter’s happiness) it would be the Jackal no? #so this hint at genetic tampering that goes beyond the physical provides an interesting explanation

[oseh-shalom]

Currently wrapping up my beit din essay (it’s not due for another week, so I have time) and I’m stuck in this awful loop like—

Is this too weird to say? Was that last sentence pretentious? This paper is already 5 pages, that’s probably to long, right? How am I supposed to write an entire essay about my feelings and then show it to people? Oh G-d, my rabbi has to read this, what if he thinks I’m weird? Maybe I should just delete this entire section. What if I say something extremely stupid and the other rabbis point it out in the beit din—

#me; hitting my brain with a paper towel roll: Stop That!! #yes i realize i'm worrying unnecessarily! my rabbi keeps telling us this is just a 'get to know you' intro essay for the other rabbis #and like. i feel ready and i know he wouldn't schedule the beit din if HE didn't think we were ready #but!!! it's like that meme/comic #me: no fear :) #2nd panel: Rabbis Think My Emotions Are Stupid & Weird #me: ONE FEAR #anyways uh. feeling totally normal right now #personal

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[spiritdreamt]

❛  do you trust me?  ❜ @consumare

trust has never come easily to percy. or to be more specific: trust of authority has never come easily to percy. she's spent her life dancing through a minefield, warily waiting for her stepmother's good moods to end, waiting for it all to come crashing back down. sooner or later, percy always disappoints. she'll stumble one too many times, forget one too many things, exhaust everyone around her with her stupid, sad bullshit. but dr. lecter is steady in a life characterized by chaos, and that surety has been the final thing to cement the answer to his question. "yes," she answers without hesitation. "i trust you."

#consumare #me: no fear #hannibal: do you trust me percy #me: ONE FEAR #ic. #answered.

[spinnyspood]

is that Tataru Taru.

#spoodposts #dash comments #me: NO FEAR JOKING ABT THE SCIONS #tataru: hello! #me: one fear

[inkskinned]

kids remind me, often, of the things i've taught myself out of.

i have a big dog. he looks like a deer. he is taller than most young children. while we were on a trail the other day, a boy coming our direction saw us and froze. he took a step back and said: "i'm feeling nervous. your - your dog is kind of big."

goblin and i both stopped walking immediately. "he is kind of a big dog," i admitted. "he's called a greyhound. they are gentle but they are pretty tall, which is kind of scary, you're right. their legs are so long because they are made for running fast. i am sorry we scared you. would you like us to stand still while you move past us, or would you feel more safe in your body if we move and you stay still?'

"oh. i didn't know that about - greyhounds. i think i ... i want to stay still," he said. at this point, his adult had caught up to us. "i'm nervous about the dog," he told her, "so i'm - i'm gonna stay still." she didn't argue. she didn't make fun of him. she just smiled at him and at me and held his hand while goblin and i, with as wide of a berth as we could make, crept our way through.

behind us, i heard him exhale a deep breath and kind of laugh - "he was really big, huh? she said it's because greyhounds have to go fast."

"he was big," she said. "i understand why that could have made you a little scared."

"yeah. next time i - next time do you think i could maybe ask to touch him? when - i mean, next time, maybe, if i'm not nervous."

later, going to a work event, in the big city, i stood outside, trembling. my social anxiety as a caught bird in my chest. i took a deep breath and turned to my coworker. she's not even really my friend yet. i told her: "i feel nervous about this. i am not used to meeting new people, ever since covid."

she laughed, but not in a mean way. she said she was nervous too. she reached her hand out and held mine, and we both took another deep breath and walked in like that, interlinked. a few people asked us - together? - and i told the truth: i feel nervous, and she's helping. over and over i watched people relax too, admitting i feel really kind of shy lately actually, thank you for saying that.

the next time i go to an event, and i feel a little scared, i ask right away: wanna hold hands? this feels a little dangerous. i hesitate less. i don't hide it as much. i watch for other people who are also nervous and say - it's kinda hard, huh?

i know, logically, i'm not good at asking for help. but i am also not good at noticing when i need help. i've trained myself out of asking completely, but i've also trained myself to never accept my own fears or excuses. i have trained myself to tamp down every anxiety and just-push-through. i don't know what i'm protecting myself from - just that i never think to admit it to anyone.

but every person on earth occasionally needs comfort. every person on earth occasionally needs connection. many of us were taught independence is the same thing as never needing anything.

each of us should have had an adult who heard - i feel nervous and held our hand and asked us how we could be helped to feel safe. no judgement, and no chiding. many of us did not. many of us were punished for the ways that we seemed "weak".

but here is something: i am an adult now. and i get nervous a lot, actually. and if you are an adult and you are feeling a little nervous - come talk to me. we can hold hands and figure out what will help us feel safe in our bodies. and maybe, next time, if we're brave, we can pet the dog that's passing.

#spilled ink #warm up #so i have worked in childcare as a teacher for like 15 years #hence the language behind ''what helps you be safe in your body?'' #like you can tell by what i say here i have EXPERIENCE with kids. #but tbh the REAL teacher moment is watching a 6/7 year old say #''this makes me nervous #can you please not come closer?'' #as a teacher i was IMMEDIATELY like ... ahh whomever is raising you is doing an EXCELLENT job holy shit #verbalizing your fears? trusting an adult to listen? #ability to recognize a way you might feel safer? #like .... this kid's caregivers.... that one moment... i was like .... who are u i wanna french kiss you big on the mouth

[wombywoo]

pining ♡

based on @valiants historical au which I can't stop thinking about...

#cod #call of duty #soapghost #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #valiants #I might've gone too hard with this one... #all credit to valiants for making me swoon left and right for these two #I fear I've got the vapors #my art

[natjennie]

something about "your anger isn't scary to me" is making me so emotional. something about as above so below, cassandra as a mirror of kristen. something about "I've been dropping the ball a lot lately" and kristen's struggles with adhd. something about teenage girls and rage and fury and justice. something about adaine's vision of ruining fallinel and the sylvaire looking for revenge. something about sadness and doubt and anger and love. something about "I choose to understand" being the absolute core theme of d20 in general. something something.

#something about kristen's adhd making her fuck things up and being mad at herself and that manifesting #as her deity being overcome with rage #something about fear and anger and shame and the inability to do better even when you're trying so hard #and something about people loving you anyway #something about 'your anger isnt scary to me' #as someone who had undiagnosed pcos in early high school and got so fucking MAD #something about adhd and how you're always failing and you have no one to blame but yourself #and how heart breaking it is to watch your life fall apart around you KNOWING you could do something #but being unable to do it right. always forgetting always slipping up #and how mad that makes you. at yourself. #this fight is so much #fhjy #d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Enki S Ending: God Blocking Gambit

#fear and hunger #enki ankarian #rher #fear and hunger spoilers #He showed up in the ugliest outfit ever and still served cunt. #Everything about him is so indirectly funny to me. #He canceled his own crucifixion to make sure *he* was the blonde bitch of the non-specific prophecy! #The old gods are running a gambit of trapping humanity in a perpetual timeloop? Just say “Um. No <3” #“Humanity will always be tempted by power and will be tricked into false godhood.” Skill issue. #(Yes I know rher isn't there in the first game but I needed one of the old gods in this comic and...he is the easiest to draw.) #Part of me wants to keep going and sillify the other S endings. Much to think about.

[dykealloy]

#law. lying low for weeks: the plan is slowly coming together. the pieces are slotting into place. this WILL run smoothly this time. #luffy. the moment he touches land: I'm here to loudly overthrow the government with my sheer power of will #law's intelligence perplexes me because he is. so strategic. knows when and how to play his cards #and is insightful enough to be able to get on people's nerves with their greatest fears #but also. how has he not cottoned on to the fact that this is how luffy operates. #yes he will do the loudest most reckless thing for the sake of other people. (little girl he befriended 5 minutes ago) #yes he will completely discard your plan the moment it becomes inconvenient to his goal. #yes it will benefit law in the end. and he will be mad about it. #CJ's op watch-through #one piece #op #trafalgar law #monkey d. luffy #lawlu