#maybe vacuum? idk

[why-the-heck-not]

20.12.23, wednesday

My main hobby is just procrastinating in any way I can. The plan was to make a cup of coffee and then start working. What actually happened is that I watched a 3 part video series (by james hoffmann ofc) on Aeropress coffee and made a few cups with different variables. Still not sure if I found The Recipe for me, but it’s getting better (tho I don’t love the coffee beans I have)

#altho i’m not sure I agree that inverted method is not worth the risks #maybe I just pour my water in too slow (bc I get nervous abt pouring too much) but there’s a fair bit of liquid that manages to get through #before I can place the vacuum on there #so I did it with inverted method #what I took from his recipe was the swirling instead of stirring and letting it rest for 30secs after to get a more even bed of coffee #I did 14g of coffee & 200g of water with a 5min brew -> swirl -> another 30seconds of letting it rest before pressing gentlyy for like 20-3 #seconds #but idk it’s a bit ’’one note’’ #which could be the beans #I have medium roast rn and I prefer light roast but the light roast beans have been no where to be found lately idk why #(there aren’t many actual light roast beans and the other ones are waay out of my budget) #(or at least good ones; there’s the one affordable light roast that’s everywhere but I don’t like it that much (but tbf should’ve still #bought that instead of these ones I got)) #like this is still way better than what the drip coffee of those beans are #and the achilles heel is that I don’t have a thermometer of any kind so my water temperature is guesswork every time #so tweaking variables is always a bit sketchy bc idk if I just had a better water temperature that time #studyblr #booklr #aesthetic #bookblr #books #study #reading #read #book #coffee #2023 #december 2023

[wazzi2ya]

Alastor: I hate kissing Lucifer when he's wearing his hat, but he refuses to take it off at any point during the day.

Husk: Why, you don't like the brim blocking his face?

Alastor: No, I keep getting stabbed in the eye with his crown.

Alastor: At this point I'm sure he enjoys my screams of pain more than kissing.

#it's tough for alastor out there #maybe you need to crouch before approaching him idk #also no alastor will not budge either he will keep getting stabbed in the eye until lucifer caves in first #the hat is like fucking. vacuum sealed to his head. it cannot be removed by normal means #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel lucifer #radioapple #appleradio #duckiedeer

[soldrawss]

I have no idea if this was all from the same anon or not, but if it was, hope you're doing better anon, thank you for the apology. Im sorry you felt the need to vent this way, so maybe taking a step back from social media might be good. Wish you the best anon.

#not that im glad i got hate #but glad to know the anon took their frusterations out on me and not another artist #but also pls dont send things like this #you never know what someones mental state is and something like this could break the camels back #and maybe also like #idk #therapy isnt free but you know what is? #touching grass #smelling flowers #the first sip of yout favorite drink #if those negatives zoomies start kicking in #do something product abd healthy #vacuum your bedroom #tell a family member you love them or a good joke #lay in the sun for 10 minutes #thats free seratonin right there #anyway best of luck to you anon no hard feelings

[galaxygorl-does-stuff]

they're besties

#the pomni plush is so much bigger than I thought lol #also the proportions are odd #it feels like a bootleg despite being 100% not #but maybe it was just squooshed in travel idk #it also wasn't vacuum sealed like I thought it would be :( #but whatever at least she's here :D #tadc pomni #tadc #the amazing digital circus #amazing digital circus #digital circus #the digital circus #ena #ena joel g #joel g ena #pomni tadc #pomni #the amazing digital circus pomni #pomni the amazing digital circus #pomni plush #ena plush

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[spitblaze]

todays award for 'man what the fuck' goes to reddit for making me see pr0/-ship discourse in goddamn 2023. thought we were past that but i guess not

#spitblaze says things #i am once again reminding ppl that media and fan content are not created or consumed in a vacuum #you do not need to whitewash all 'taboo topics' from any work but maybe like. warn people up front. listen to minorities and csa victims #consider if yelling at strangers on the internet is actually helping anybody at all. esp the people you purport to be helping #realize that most people think grown-adult and literal-child pairings are gross for a reason and they arent just pearl clutching prudes #(im talking like 'this character is 10 and this one is 35' not 'this one is 17 and this one is 18'. yes ive seen it. yes i hate it) #idk. have a set of personal values rather than trying to align urself with some movement or group or whatever #also maybe give a little less leeway to ppl making purposefully tittilating csa content? even if it IS fiction??? #at that point its not 'exploring dark subject matter' anymore its just jerkoff material. maybe you can afford to be a bit more discerning #also. learn what a maladaptive coping mechanism is please #thats it i just. dont want to think about this shit ever agaaaaaain

[fooltofancy]

not handling existence well rn in any way whatsoever, and it's not even for any drastic reason it's just. overwhelmed by mundanity. if i'm on top of one thing it's because i've stopped paying attention to something else, and there are just so many stupid little things and it's just me in this apartment and i'm tired.

#bilbo moment except the only reason for it is My Brain Is Full Of Holes #i want to take like two weeks off so badly just to rest and maybe vacuum my stupid fucking floors but that's just. not feasible. #i can take a couple of days but if i do that all i can do is sleep lmao i just fucking crash #i'm not even doing anything!!!!!! #i'm not even doing a third of the things i NEED to be doing to fucking function and i'm so tired. i'm so tired. #i bought this rug. that i've wanted for like. so many years finally. and it's still rolled up in my entry because i haven't been able #to con myself into vacuuming my stupid floor #so i can lay it out #everything's messy because my kitchen is clean #or my kitchen is a nightmare because my laundry is put away #idk what to fix to fix everything else it's just me and i'm tired.

[satanfemme]

"no mental disorder makes you a bad person" is very very true and a good statement to promote, but "if someone does something bad, they must've chosen do it, there's never any other possible explanation, and it's especially never b/c of any mental disorders" isn't true?? besides the fact that people can make honest mistakes (even big ones) without realizing what they're doing, or the fact that life circumstances can influence what choices someone even thinks are available to them in the first place, my hot take is that mental disorder can influence you to do bad things sometimes and that should be acknowledged.

that does NOT mean a person with a disorder would be a special extra evil kind of abuser compared to a neurotypical person (ie "narcissist abuse" is still a meaningless and harmful term). it also does not mean that abusers are more likely to have a disorder than to be neurotypical. but disorders are disabling, they cause disorder, it's right in the name, they negatively affect you and your connection to others... why do you think that wouldn't that affect your behavior too sometimes? I know my disorders affect mine. often in negative ways!

besides just "mental disorders are never disabling in ways that make me feel uncomfortable" being ableist, understanding this is important if you believe in prison abolition (which you should). "someone did something bad because they randomly chose to be bad idk" is just as unhelpful as "someone did something bad because they were born bad". but "someone did something bad because of X thing they're struggling with, or their Y need is unmet" is helpful, that's something you can work with and fix. integrate this into your anarchist worldview.

and lastly, tbh it's isolating to have "scary" or "bad" symptoms, and then get told by armchair "mental health advocates" online that you're just choosing to have those symptoms and maybe you could be a better person if you simply chose to stop having mental illness in the first place. so you know, don't be fucking rude lol

#some of this wording is probably clunky from an anti-psych lens #but heres my morning soapbox #🙈 READING COMPREHENSION CHECK ✅: #Q: ''so you think all abusers are helpless babies that should be coddled?'' A: no. but behavior doesn't exist in a vacuum - #- and this post is about more than just ''abusers'' specifically #Q: '' so you think abusers should go unpunished?'' A: by our current definition at least yeah. also maybe yeah in general idk. - #- I'm a prison abolitionist; including involuntary hospital confinement. there's better options out there than torturing people. #Q: ''why are you sympathizing with abusers?!?!'' A: you have more in common with ''abusers'' than you think - #- and until you accept that; you're never going to escape the ''good person vs bad person'' false dichotomy. #Q: ''what's even the point of this post?'' A: the point is that mental illness/disorder is not always harmless or something that - #- only affects the person experiencing it and your discourse should make room for this fact instead of ignoring it - #- in favor of the easier feel-good arguments that leave more stigmatized experiences behind.

[homosexula]

ok sorry for being annoying or whatever but like. if ofmd isnt to your taste thats obviously completely fine but im seeing way too many of yall celebrating the cancellation of a show that was very likely cancelled for being gay. just bc you think fandom shit is annoying or?? you dont have to like the show or even think it deserves another season but even so uhh celebrating homophobia just seems like poor taste to me!

#and before yall say anything i know ur not consciously being like WOO HOMOPHOBIA but u do not exist in a vacuum etc #anyway my point isnt that it makes you like a terrible person or Problematique #i just think we should consider the things we say!! idk maybe thats just me!!! #ofmd #baz.txt

[vegancas]

i did many things today including put all my recycling in the bin, two loads of laundry, washed the kitchen compost bin, folded last week's clean laundry, bought tickets for simple plan!!, made a gif, but the sacrifice of doing so many things is that i have only eaten 1 pouch of fruit puree, 1 slice of banana bread, and 1 cup of noodles all day, and it is now almost 1am 😩

#i mean i didn't do that much maybe but like after waking up at 8.30am to buy the tickets i then went back to sleep until almost 2pm so #also vacuumed but that was the robot vacuum i didn't really do it myself lol #also did some online shopping but that is not something i am proud of 😓 well except maybe buying things for my sister #what i really should've done was cook some rice and chickpeas now idk what to eat 😫 #soooo hungry help ! #misc.txt

[deviousraptor]

Please tell me about your theories for the ecological niches of the upside down. I could not be invested quicker.

You have now unlocked my special interest.

So! There's only 4 known creatures within the Upside-down: the Mind Flayer, the Demogorgon (with bonus pupa stage), the Demobats, and the vines. Of those 4, 3 have actively attacked people, though it's unclear whether the vines began as omnivores or developed into it over time, and it's unclear exactly how the Mind Flayer sustains itself. However, there is an inherent and glaring flaw to their ecological system: with mostly predators, the world of the Upside-down is completely fucked and will consume itself until everything dies.

Which is, in terms of habitats, not ideal. The brief glimpses of the world we get before 1 began shaping it to his will are a completely barren wasteland, and even with his powers to copy the other side (not touching how that was possible with a 10 foot pole), even with these new additions to the environment it's completely unsustainable, which is why 1 began to propagate the Demogorgons in our world, with far more resources. Even with full grown Demogorgons being able to pass onto our world via portals and hunt, such activity in high enough numbers to sustain the population of the dying world.

Dying? Yes, I think that before Henry stumbled into it, the Upside-down had been decaying for many years. On top of the predatory nature of the only creatures there, they also act much like scavengers, especially with the vines that create almost a net like a spider to grab prey (Though that's subjective, as you could say that the vines are being controlled in all the moments we see, we don't really know how they work. So I'll say that with the lack of water and generally any type of nutrients to grow, this particular plant adapted to also scavenge for water and nutrients within living/dead things).

We also have no idea how the Mind Flayer sustains itself. It absorbs flesh to create constructs, but that could again be Henry manipulating it through whatever dumb construction powers he got. What we do know is that it's an incredibly powerful lifeform, can communicate telepathically or at least mess with the minds of others, and can shift through worlds easily once a portal has been opened. Perhaps it's like a flock of micro-organisms that function like a fusion of starlings and nanobots. I digress.

In short, I think a catastrophic apocalyptic event happened within the Upside-down. Perhaps it was a natural disaster, like the asteroid that started a mass-extinction. Perhaps it was a bloody and terrible war of elevated creatures similar to or even beyond the Mind Flayer that doomed their world. Either way, I think the glimpses we see are Henry pulling together the last stragglers of another world.

#of course they'll never explain this in the show #and I didnt even touch on the spore-like dust that coats the world #perhaps that dust is how the Mind Flayer eats?? Like a giant whale vacuuming up the tiny spores #or maybe its from the plant?? that thing had spore dust too #Idk Im just a random person on the internet

[curiosity-killed]

In good news, the cold medicine seems to have finally kicked in so I’m no longer falling asleep at my laptop. In bad news, the antihistamine-induced cleaning urge has also kicked in so I’m no longer falling asleep at my laptop in part because I have rearranged 75% of the furniture in my apartment

#I’m not satisfied and don’t know what’s wrong with it now >:((( #going to go make myself do some actual work and try again after that tho lol #debating if I want to try flipping my desk and couch but I think that’s going to cause problems #since my desk will stick out like 4’ into the room #and the only blank wall for my projector #is where the couch would be #also I don’t like having my bookshelf over alone in the entryway but idk what to put there instead #like i guess I could do my record player but that feels weird? #my Swiss ball is a problem but there’s really only the one spot that works for it #hnnn #at least I can open my balcony door all the way now and have more room for when I need to move all the plants inside #the bedroom is also :/ #i like the rearrangement of my mirror/dresser/keyboard #but my bed feels weird #like maybe i need to rotate it? #but the walls are so janky that that’s hard to do without weird gaps #hm #personal #everything needs vacuumed and dusted too @__@ #no wonder my throats so sore when there is so much dust hiding everywhere

[aviul]

that time of the year

#photo study #with some (several) creative liberties taken #ominous #cursed image #kind of.. maybe... #i did like 132651478 things today idk where this energy came from but i am using every single drop #fixed stuff went for a long walk vacuumed changed sheets etc etc made bread things out of leftover potato mash #if i was like this every day i would get. so many things done #but nope this is a rare occurrence #a special tag

[justgoji]

maybe I really should just stop interacting on this site

#maybe I’ll be one of those blogs that only posts their art and appears to be in a vacuum from the rest of the site #I’m starting to see posts talking about why I should be ashamed of myself more and more often and it’s taking a toll on me #if I eventually do that some day just dm me if you wanna chat with me on discord idk #I’m afraid this site is no longer for me

[girlwithfish]

guys what if i started smoking cigarettes. or just got a hobby. or became obsessed w one person. hahaha

#me when i dont have any maladaptive coping mechanisms anymore really #🫠 #Idk what to dooooooo #today i cleaned my room and i finished this profile for this thing im doing cuz im meeting w a person from a staffing agency tmrw maybe #they can help me find a job and i watched a movie w my mom bc i dont spend time w her much bc i dont enjoy that much but that makes me feel #guilty and i vacuumed and i think thats it i did more things but cant remember #i did not geto ut of the house or exercise #I just have so many things i want to do nd its overwhelming #bc im like i want to get back into reading and also guitar and also exercising every day and also #ik i just need to break down things into sizeable achievable tasks nd start small instead of having big vague goals that #ill never achieve yes ik SMART goals blablablabla but its overwhelming #and im also trying to unwind more and like actually relax vs dissociate bc i thin kthats qhat ive been doing all month so i never actually #relax #🫶 #my anxietys been a lot better this week its kinda scary idk what changed

[cappurrccino]

i suppose i should try to do something semi-productive before my group project meeting later, huh...

#//juri speaks #mentally i am flopping bonelessly to the floor like a toddler who doesn't want to do anything #but i guess... shower then lunch then laundry and then... idk. food thinking or vacuuming or smth. #have a cry about the group project maybe.