As someone who is genderfae (microlabel under genderfluid), I have a lot of different experiences with gender.
I just wish someone told me sooner that it won't go like "today I'm a girl" "today I'm an enby" but more like ,,, "today I am a swamp witch" "today I am a feminine victorian vampire boy" "today I am a forest goblin collecting people's stares about my gender expression like shiny rocks on the ground" "today I'm an androgynous pirate lady"
Like,,, sure, are those real genders? I don't fucking now. If a cisgender person asked me what I identify as that day, would I answer like that? No, definitely not.
But to my genderqueer, trans and genderfluid friends; do you get me? I can't be alone with this, right?
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The whole framing of Lestat as the sole symbol of patriarchy that fandom is so desperate to put him in doesn't work unless you deliberately ignore how he was also a victim of rape and abuse before he was turned. People want him to be fit into this strict role of "father figure/violent husband/perpetrator" that is only that and not even a whole person, and in doing so they need to push aside the fact that despite being his family's provider, he was also pushed into that role when his father forbid him from joining a monastery or gaining an education that he wanted. Lestat wanted to run away with a theater group as a kid, and actually managed to do so once Gabrielle gave him her blessing and monetary support in order to go to Paris. He didn't always want to be the provider, he was forced into that role and became despondent when he thought he would never get a chance to leave his home.
His new life prior to being turned is pretty much the antithesis to the whole "Lestat is a manly man who would sooner throw up than be compared to a woman" spiel: he lived with another man in Paris while also being an actor, having left his family and "responsibility" to them. The only family member he was ever close to was his mother, all the other male members shunned or ridiculed him. Add onto that the fact that his turning firmly placed him within the role of the damsel/victim: he's kidnapped from his bed by a stranger, taken into a tower and left to rot while being fed on for a week, before then being raped and violently turned all while never even being asked if he would consent to it in any normal circumstance. But you of course have to ignore all of this if you want him to only represent the aggressor/patriarch while Louis is the helpless unhappy matriarch of the family.
My issue isn't that I think Louis isn't a victim, it's that it's not unrealistic for Lestat to be an aggressor/abuser while also displaying traits that aren't regularly assigned to stereotypical depictions of male characters. He's abusive to Claudia while also having been a victim of abuse from his own family. He's not a good maker/teacher, but he also didn't even have one when he was turned. He's the provider/attempted protector of the family and seemed to like being that, while also having run away from his own family prior to this to act in a theater in Paris. He's a rich white man while also being obviously effeminate in public spaces, even to Tom's own bigoted humor.
Like Louis' own complicated story with being his family's benefactor and provider, you can't firmly place Lestat as being one thing or another in terms of gender ideals without deliberately ignoring parts about him that don't fit this. And I don't think it's an absolute necessity, when even in Louis' own story, Lestat isn't stripped of his effeminate mannerisms or behavior while also being the abusive maker/father/lover.
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the comparison between rileys ultimatum and spikes ultimatum is so fascinating to me.
riley told buffy i need you to show me that you love me or else ill leave. he wanted some big display of affection, since clearly how she normally showed her love wasnt enough, the issues he had in their relationship being that he felt that she didnt love him (before he lost his powers, before she learned her sister wasnt really her sister) and that she didnt need him (to protect her, to help her, to care for her). his ultimatum was selfish, focused on him, and when push came to shove he followed thru. if he loved buffy the way he claimed he wouldve stayed, sat somewhere off to the side watching the helicopter take off, knowing that losing buffy was worse to him that losing his job opportunity
spike gave her a similar ultimatum, i need you to tell me that there might be something there. that if we were to work at this you might, maybe feel the same way about me, or else ill let my love of the past 100+ years kill you. hes desperate for a sliver of hope to keep him going, and when she squashes it completely, tells him that the only chance theyd have to be together is if he took advantage of her while she was unconscious (to his horror), he still doesnt follow through. he protects her from drusilla, even if he fails to stake her like he said hed do to prove his love to buffy. when push came to shove he cared for buffy too much to let her die even if she would never love him back the same way
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if i made a google question thing with a few (three at max) not too serious questions about vampirism and queerness and all that would you guys answer it. be honest
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About Sanae
Alright, so
Sanae Kochiya
Is known to have been a geek as a human in the outside world (referencing pop culture often in multiple of her appearances)
Has very specifically been shown to be into science-related fiction (her interest in aliens in UFO, her absolute joy at being able to go to the moon, her Soku story involving her thinking that Hisotensoku is a giant robot)
Is a noted eccentric
Used to read "occult magazines" when she was young around the turn of the century (Vs. Patchouli win dialogue, Soku)
These things we know about her factually
We also know that in the outside world (our world)
American comic books have a niche in Japan (they are not sold in all book stores and the more fashionable shops that sell them sell them in English for the art [Justin Sevakis w/ ANN, 2018])
Most Japanese people who read comics read comics from the Big 2 (Marvel, DC)
At some point, American comics were serialized in Japanese magazines (Justin Sevakis w/ ANN, 2018)
There was a huge boom in extreme/grimdark themes and tropes in 90s American comics
Spider-Man antagonist Michael Morbius had a solo run starting in 1992
Thus, we can infer
Sanae, as an eccentric and a nerd, has probably read some American comics
Sanae would have been reading comics from the Big 2
Sanae, who read magazines in the 90s, could have read those comics in the 90s (if not through magazines, then through collected editions)
Sanae would probably lean more into Marvel, as Marvel is heavy on sci-fi elements
Sanae would be in the middle of the era of 90s grimdark
Leaning more Marvel, Sanae would definitely had read Spider-Man if she read western comics
What I'm saying is, there is a non-zero chance that Sanae Kochiya has read Morbius, The Living Vampire (1992). Now, her opinions of Morbius, at least in my opinion, depends on when she started reading/what issues she read, but that doesn't change the fact that the chance that she has knowledge of Morbius exists.
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I’m in one of those very pred moods… I’m just really tired of this weak human body. I want to have claws and talons and fangs I can use to take what I want from any human I decide to prey upon. Sometimes, if I close my eyes and focus on my body, I can almost feel myself changing into something better…
I want to express my love with my teeth in their flesh. I want to taste blood and feel their weak limbs struggle in vain. I want to be assured of my supremacy over them but still give them all of my devotion and attention with the sharp parts of my body.
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Finished Evil West and did my fave thing after finishing games, looking at fanart and cosplays now spoiler free! 🤠
Only to discover the gutting truth that apparently no one cares about this game whatsoever, and here I was expecting to please my eyeballs with Chester fanart... dang 💔
There aren't even good quality pics of him on Google images like bro why did no one love this game?? I loved it a lot???
Well, anyway, I'll provide... whether people care or not lmao
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