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magicalrocketships · 11 months

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snippet of escalating horny/feral gay chicken sexting maxiel fic? 🤲

You have covered all the major beats of this fic plot beautifully, but I'll add a little subtle, brief subtitle: Daniel and Max play Dick Chicken

Or more specifically in this snippet: The one where they graduate to video

(E, Daniel/Max, 800 words)

The video arrives the night before FP1. Daniel is fresh off the back of a little evening yoga routine, body warm and stretched out, relaxed and ready for tomorrow. He's got some meditation app to try too, something Michael's suggested, something to improve the quality of his rest.

But: a video in his message thread with Max.

Daniel is getting hard even before he lets himself press play; a Pavlovian fucking response to an inexplicable game that Daniel can't-won't-wouldn't-want-to stop competing in. The thumbnail is Max in grey underwear, grabbing his dick, hotel room sheets beneath him.

He chews on his lip for what feels like a long time but is probably about half a breath. There is no decision to be made: he will watch; he'll press play. He does exactly that.

The first thing is, he can hear Max breathing. He can hear him and it's harsher than he might expect, because Max is holding the phone at chest height, close enough for it to catch his breath loud. Max is playing with his dick though his underwear, outlining the shape of it with his fingertips. Max has always talked with his hands. He is a blunt instrument in so many ways, a force to be reckoned with, a hammer to be presented to a rock. His hands are graceful, expressive; they shape his conversation and his place in this world, and right now, they shape out his dick through his underwear. His dick is hard, at a bit of angle, pressed up towards his left hip. There is a growing wet patch around the tip of his dick, because Max is always wet and Daniel is always, always hard for it.

Max keeps shaping out the outline of his dick, his balls, the wet, flushed tip. Daniel knows it is both wet and flushed without even having to see it. This is Max fucking with him; this is Max cruising to victory without even fucking trying. Max pushes down his underwear, his hips pressing up like he's going into a bridge so he can push them down over his ass and kick them off an ankle. The muscles flex.

Daniel, who has never thought about a man's body in any way other than strictly neutral, catalogues it away for another day.

Max presses his flat palm to his dick, which is weird, but he physically zooms in, the zoom jagged as Max holds the phone close to the tip of his dick. It takes a moment to get into focus. Daniel is forced to endure the desperate, unrelenting, breathless want of seeing the head of Max's dick in extreme close up: the foreskin, the red, red tip, the slick blurt of pre-come. Max's thumb, pressed to the slit.

Then Max is taking the phone further away again, and then there is a weird angle of the sheets and his calf for a moment as he does something off camera with lube, because when he picks the phone up again he's wrapping a slick hand around himself and jacking himself off wet.

Daniel does not touch his dick. He is hard; his undies are tented out with an erection that is begging for him to bring himself off. If he does that, he won't be able to stop, and he won't be able to respond in kind, and if he doesn't film himself coming then he'll lose, and the game will be over, and, worst of all, it might fucking stop.

Max jerking off is unrelenting and unimaginative. He jerks and sometimes he touches his slit but most of the time it's just his hand on his dick. His breathing grows harsher. Daniel thinks it might be the hottest thing he's ever seen in his life. It beats the threesome he had when he was 21 and two girls sucked him off until he came so loudly the hotel called up to make sure everything was okay, and he had to reassure them while watching the two girls -- whose names he's forgotten even if he hasn't forgotten the feel of their mouths on him -- start to finger each other. That night feels like a fever dream; everything about what is happening with Max makes him feel like he's on fire.

When Max comes it is quick and his breathing is harsh and fast too. He stripes his stomach and his hip with come. Daniel is too far gone to focus on the detail, and especially when he has to watch Max press the pads of his fingertips to the mess on his stomach, scoop it up. When the camera turns to selfie mode and Daniel has to watch the flushed, desperate reality of Max licking his own come off his fingertips, see his red mouth close around his fingers. Everything so wet.

The video ends.

There is a bit more of this posted here!

#dick chicken #my fic #the working title for this is #feral feral feral #so there we are #at no point in it do either Max or Daniel make a single sensible decision #their dicks are doing alllll of the thinking #anyway #fic that i'm writing #maxiel

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brakingpoint · 2 years

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breaking away from my commitment to not being a tinhat blog to briefly give my 2 cents on which drivers i think are gay/bi

max: bisexual but will never fully consciously realise due to his desperation to settle down into a white picket fence 2.5 kids and 2 cats marriage with kelly. perhaps, subconsciously, that is why he is so quick to settle. so his cock does not have time to wander

checo: cheats like a straight man. will kiss the homies after a beer or two but always remembers to say no homo because gay activities aren't very catholic

charles: i know he's Not French but he's gay in a french way, where if you don't have a deeply tragic homoerotic bond at least once in your life they revoke your citizenship but it doesn't actually count as being gay

george: things i did not learn at oxford - proper orchestration technique, anything about non-brazilian hip hop, the different types of augmented sixths. things i DID learn at oxford: george russell would lick his best mate's nipples at the bullingdon club party for the photo op but he would staunchly refuse to identify as anything other than straight

lewis: on the one hand i think he is actually genuinely gay or bi and will come out publicly within the next five years. on the other hand only the worst kind of straight man could have done that to nicole scherzinger's boob

carlos: he's not gay but he IS in a deep long term open relationship with lando

lando: see above. also i used to watch dan and phil and i see no other explanation for whatever the situation is with him and max fewtrell. he's bisexual i know it in my soul

esteban: god love him but that is a heterosexual man. a charmingly sexless one but a heterosexual nonetheless

fernando: will fuck other men as an intimidation tactic only but he's never needed to resort to that because he's intimidating enough already

valtteri: not an iota of gayness in him. heterosexual wife guy. ass fixation easily explained away by being finnish

seb: BISEXUAL KING, NO OTHER COMMENT

daniel: he has successfully gaslit everybody into thinking he's bisexual due to his relentless flirtations with other men but it's all part of the brand. he has never, ever won a game of gay chicken

kevin: no.

pierre: once again, gay in a french way but ALSO gay in a gay chicken way with yuki and against all odds they both won like katniss and peeta in the hunger games

lance: despite his gay little voice everything about him and his ex has me confident that he not only fucks exclusively heterosexually, but he fucks WELL

mick: i think there's a lil sumn sumn there. i don't know if or when it will ever come to light. but i don't think he's one hundred percent committed to straighthood. maybe it's bisexual osmosis from having seb as a mentor

yuki: DOES identify as straight but also identifies as never ever losing a game of gay chicken so now he and pierre have been fucking nightly for approximately several months and it's getting increasingly romantic each time

zhou: remember when we all used to say metrosexual in the early 2000s to describe a straight man with the fashion and grooming sense of a gay man?

alex: he and lily absolutely have bi4bi energy in every aspect of their online posting and that is why they are thee superior formula one couple

nicky: straight but i could fix him

bonus 1 (nyck): a man that short has to adapt to maximise his dating pool. it's basic evolutionary theory or something idk i dropped biology after gcses

bonus 2 (hulk): no.

bonus 3 (nico rosberg): the most flagrantly bisexual individual i have ever seen in my life and i look in the mirror daily

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danielfuckingricciardo · 11 months

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yknow i don't think max is bi, but i feel like he fell into the hole teen boys sometimes do of liking edgy homophobic humor a bit Too Much, and then pr reeled him in with "on god you cant say that" and now hes really paranoid and needs to make sure everyone knows he thinks Being Gay Is Good And Fine

but also the thought of him being so disconnected from anything not racing that his brain just goes haha pretty :) at rainbows is so incredibly funny

I’m gonna preface this by saying that I don’t really agree with the idea of speculating on a person’s sexuality. Like, to me, fanon and canon perceptions of a person should be kept separate, so while we can explore these ideas freely in fiction and fandom, I really don’t feel comfortable making a definitive judgement about a person’s sexuality and saying ‘yes he is’ or ‘no he isn’t’ because it isn’t my place to do so.

I do agree with you anon that Max totally could have been one of those teen boys, though, to be fair to him, we’ve never seen any definitive proof of him (that I can recall anyway, feel free to prove me wrong) being explicitly homophobic in any way? Like for sure he’s said some offensive things in the past, so it wouldn’t be outside of the realm of possibility for him to have held these kind of beliefs in private, but honestly I’m not sure about the whole overcompensation thing?

Like to me, Max doesn’t really seem like he cares about the whole PR thing? Like I think the change in his demeanour in public is more to do with him maturing and growing up than him explicitly being told what to do and say? I feel like Max is unapologetically himself and wouldn’t worry so much about the way people interpret his political beliefs because that has nothing to do with his racing?

I think the other thing about Max is that, as long as we’ve ‘known’ him (or as long as he’s been in the public eye), he hasn’t been afraid to play gay chicken with his team mates?? Like I think being with Daniel for so long, who we know is a terrible flirt, he learnt how to play the game and, just like in racing, he was always determined to win? So he’s not afraid to push those little references here and there to play the game?

To me, that says that he’s just a guy comfortable in his own heterosexuality that he’s able to make these jokes without worrying about other people’s perception of him and his sexuality. Like he doesn’t care if people think he’s gay/bi/whatever because he knows himself who he is attracted to and that’s all that really matters?

Also with regard to the rainbows thing I think that would be pretty funny too, but honestly I don’t think it’s possible to be alive in 2023 and not understand the significance of the pride flag and what it represents. He’d have to be a special type of clueless for sure 😂😂😂

I’d love to be proved wrong here. As a bisexual myself, it’d be nice to have some representation in the sport outside of enthusiastic straight allies! But we just… can’t know anything for sure.

As I said earlier, I don’t believe in speculation around a person’s sexuality, but I also don’t like the idea that everyone is presumed straight unless they state otherwise. I’m not even fully out of the closet in my real life because I’m scared of repercussions, so I can’t imagine how it would feel if, hypothetically, Max was queer in some way but having to hide it to avoid sparking public outrage or losing support from fans globally.

It’s a tricky thing, and I’m sorry for the insanely long reply here anon, but I think Max is a really interesting person with a lot of layers!! I really do hope he is showing his allyship or dropping subtle references to his own identity, but I don’t think we’ll really ever get a true answer. Saying that though, considering Red Bull have partnered with Racing Pride, we might be seeing more ally Max in the future!!

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

#asks

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liesyousoldme · 3 years

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Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier Fic Masterlist

Completed:

Richie Tozier: Come Out & Play (Oneshot, Rated M)

Richie Tozier: Come Out & Play, a new Netflix special! Comedian Richie Tozier is back after a very public mental breakdown. And he's ready to (over)share. (5.7k words)

baby i didn't know, but i'm glad that you found me (Series, Rated E)

1. i've been waiting

Eddie loses touch with the Losers after he's forced to move away from Derry. After 5 years, he finds a way to see his friends again - including Richie, who is just as beautiful as he remembers. (15k words)

2. i'm seeing the most in your eyes

Eddie comes out to his mom, visits with an old friend, applies for a job, and finds his home. (14k words)

we'll get where we're going even if we're late (Oneshot, Rated E)

Richie sees a lot happen in the deadlights. Eddie has to keep reminding him what's real. (7.8k words)

the time and space between us (Oneshot, Rated T)

For Eddie Kaspbrak, dying was just like falling asleep. And then he woke up. (10.7k words)

The Power of Sexting (Oneshot, Rated E)

Richie accidentally sends Eddie a shirtless picture. Things escalate from there. Or, Richie and Eddie play Gay Chicken: Sexting Edition. (4k words)

i love you, ain't that the worst thing you ever heard? (Chaptered, Rated E)

They'd been so close to everything they ever wanted when they were young. And then they forgot. Now that they're back in Derry, they're remembering. Or, a retelling of Chapter 2, with a happier ending. (36k words)

(Continued Under The Cut)

That's where you'll find me (Series, Rated T)

1. In The Wrong Place Trying to Make it Right

"Richie wasn’t sure how the fuck he’d managed to forget Eddie Kaspbrak. Like, now that he’s got Eddie’s hand in his (his remaining hand, Richie’s traitorous mind reminds him cruelly, and he avoids looking at the hospital gown lying flat against the bed where an arm should be) he remembers everything. " Or, 27 years later, Eddie makes it out of the sewers alive. (5.5k words)

2. Got My Heart Set On Anywhere But Here

“Let’s make it a rule to never talk about It again,” Richie suggested, and Eddie readily agreed. “Let’s focus on the future instead of the past.” “Like visiting New York next week?” Or, 27 years later, Eddie gets divorced. (4.9k words)

3. I'll Be What You Need (Goodbye, Apathy)

"Helping you through nightmares of me dying is the least I can do after you literally nursed me back to health for six weeks," Eddie responded with a tired smile. Richie didn't say anything, just let his head fall back into his pillow, pulling Eddie with him. Eddie sighed as he nestled into Richie's bed. Richie felt his heart beat faster the way it always did when Eddie was in his bedroom, in his bed, in his arms. The small smile that had formed on his face fell, however, when Eddie spoke again. "I think you should see a therapist." Or, 27 years later, Richie goes to therapy. (4.6k words)

Block the Noise, (Oneshot, Rated T)

Richie has a conversation with his newly ex-manager and Eddie doesn't like what he (over)hears. (1.5k words)

i've never seen nobody shine the way you do (Oneshot, Rated T)

It was like this: Richie had thought that moving to New York together, getting an apartment and going to school, would be good for both of them. And it was! But! While Richie had thought that he had reached his limit, his max capacity, the top level of Loving Eddie Kaspbrak, he was now being proven dead wrong. Perhaps there was no cap to how much a man could love Eddie Kaspbrak, and wouldn’t that have been nice to know before he’d gone and moved in with the little asshole. Because it was one thing to see each other every day at school, and to have sleepovers on Friday nights, and to spend their afternoons together doing fuck-all, but it was another to see Eddie fresh from the shower, his wavy hair dripping water droplets onto his bare shoulders, his skin flushed from the heat. It was another to wake up and eat breakfast together every morning and dinner together almost every night. Especially since Eddie had decided to start looking like he did now, all bright-eyed and ready to take on the world. So, it was like this: living with Eddie had him absolutely fucked. (2.6k words)

just hold me close (Oneshot, Rated T)

It's Richie Tozier's birthday, and Eddie Kaspbrak would do anything to make him happy. (1.7k words)

say anything (Oneshot, Rated T)

There were so many things he wanted to say to Richie, all the time, but he just couldn’t. He couldn’t put himself out there, couldn’t risk ruining this friendship. But it was getting harder and harder with every day that passed to keep his mouth shut. (4.6k words)

you heard them say it (Oneshot, Rated T)

Even after she's 6 feet in the ground, Sonia Kaspbrak still lives in Eddie Kaspbrak's head. (2.5k words)

Misinterpretation (Oneshot, Rated T)

A prompt from Tumblr: "I'm only here to establish an alibi." (1.7k words)

let's find the place where happiness begins (Oneshot, Rated T)

After Eddie survives Neibolt, he and Richie have a few things to discuss. (3k words)

make it feel like the first time (Oneshot, Rated T)

“Eddie,” Beverly said, grinning. Eddie felt his heartrate speed up and focused on taking a deep breath. He was 17, he hadn’t carried around his aspirator in ages, and he wasn’t about to have a panic attack in front of his friends over a stupid party game. “Truth or dare?” Eddie gets asked about his first kiss. Too bad he lied about the fact that he's had one. (2.7k words)

keep you sheltered (Oneshot, Rated T)

Richie has a fear of thunderstorms. (1.6k words)

so into you (Oneshot, Rated T)

Richie is tired of Eddie watching from a distance. (1.7k words)

Like Kisses on the Necks of Best Friends (Oneshot, Rated T)

He’d wanted to kiss Richie for ages, and suddenly, on their walk home from school Richie just fuckin’… plants one on him, blushes beet red, uses a Voice to say “Good on ya, mate,” which didn’t even make fucking sense, and then takes off running in the opposite direction. Eddie had stood there, gaping, until Richie was an entire block away. Or, Eddie has to sit on Richie's lap for a car ride two days after Richie kissed him and ran away. It's totally not awkward at all. (2.2k words)

now my bedsheets smell like you (Oneshot, Rated T)

Richie and Eddie can't sleep without each other. (3k words)

You're only brave in the moonlight (Oneshot, Rated T)

A homophobic church sign makes Eddie cry, and Richie decides to do something about it. (2.3k words)

WIP:

once in twenty lifetimes (Twoshot, Rated T)

Eddie Kaspbrak had to say goodbye to his best friend at age 13. He wished desperately to live in some other universe where Richie never had to leave. He can imagine them. Happy together in other, better worlds. 27 years later, Eddie Kaspbrak gets to say hello to his best friend at age 40. Maybe he decides this universe was worth the wait.

isn't it just so pretty to think... (Series, Rated T)

...all along there was some invisible string tying you to me First kisses at every age in every universe.

a supercut of us (Drabble Collection, Rated T-E)

#reddie #reddie fic #my fic #my fics #redid my masterlist #updated with latest fics

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tokumusume · 4 years

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tokumusume’s list of best and worst movies and dramas watched in 2019:

There’s a new category this year. Inspired by kpopalypse, welcome the Honorable Mentions! Movies that weren’t exactly bad but also weren’t good. Movies and dramas are qualified to enter if I watched them for the first time this year, not that they were released this year. Click on ‘keep reading’~~

Best Movies:

1. Parasite

Another masterpiece from the director of Snowpiercer (let’s pretend Okja never existed). A poor family con their way to a rich household. Choi Woo-Shik from The Witch (see below) is the eldest son and mastermind, fabulous as always. Definitely the best movie of this year. For me, movie of the decade.

2. The Witch Part 1 The Subversion

This movie is amazing, hard to describe without spoilers. A perfect mix of Stranger Things and Hanna. Choi Woo-Shik can come to my house and kick my ass anytime. I can’t wait for part two.

3. Death Trance

Visually stunning, kinda like Amemiya Keita’s style in early Garo or Mad Max. I wish the movie was longer and the characters were better fleshed out, Ryuen the monk and the little girl had so much potential... The most interesting thing about this movie is how sexualized the main male character is compared to the female ones, and apparently, the swords were designed to look like veiny penises (can’t find a source for this info), and yes, they do look like veiny penises. The final showdown is heavy with sexual energy. Have I already said that Ryuen deserved better? #RyuenRights

4. Gintama 2: Rules are made to be broken

The barber shop scene is a fucking cinematic masterpiece. I never laughed so much like I did with this movie. The way it doesn’t take itself seriously, the meta jokes, everything is perfect. Even better than the first one.

5. Kingdom

While I think that some fight scenes were way too long (like the bamboo forest one), the dynamics between Shin and Hyou/Eisei were highly entertaining, at least in my shipper eyes. I like that (SPOILER) the King of the Mountain People is a woman and not once they try to call her Queen. She is a King. Hashimoto Kanna is adorable as a Ten, Kanata Hongo does a great job as Eisei’s psycho brother, Sakaguchi Tak waves his sword around, the usual stuff but with added layers of dirt and sweat.

6. Bravestorm

A movie I lovingly call “Japanese Pacific Rim”. Full of Kamen Rider stars (Hino Eiji! Misuzawa Haruka! That girl from Heisei Generations, the one with a sword! She has a sword in this as well!) and giant robots (god, I love giant robots!), I waited so much for this movie and it exceeded my expectations. I just wish I could’ve watched in theaters, it had a limited showing in my country.

7. Twelve Suicidal Children

What begins as a murder mystery ends with a twist you won’t see coming. All of the actors are amazing, but special mention to Sugisaki Hana and that guy from that one boy group I forgot the name but can’t be bothered to Google.

8. Gakkou Gurashi

Four girls and their teacher try to survive the zombie apocalypse trapped inside the school. This one destroyed me for days.

9. Forest of Love

I’ve watched some Sono Sion movies but nothing prepared me for this. Be aware of extremely gory sequences and sensitive topics. Hinami Kyoko is so amazing as blue-haired, punk girl crush Taeko that I totally didn’t notice she was AkibaBlue in Akibaranger.

10. The Host

After watching Parasite I decided to go on a Bong Joon Ho binge and watched this horror movie. Not as good as Snowpiercer and Parasite in my opinion but heart-wrenching nevertheless. The little girl is the star of the movie.

11. The Hungry Lion

A story about the dangers of social media and slut-shaming. I want to punch Mizuishi Atom in the face.

12. Cromartie High

A little absurd comedy about yakuza-style high school boys (played by middle-aged men lol) forming a club to battle aliens summoned by themselves just because. It made me laugh like a child. A hidden gem.

Honorable Mentions:

1. River’s Edge

Depressing as fuck. Warning: the cats die. It’s not graphic but it’s traumatizing. Yoshizawa Ryo is a gay boy who sleeps with old men for money. There’s a graphic sex scene (not Yoshizawa, sadly) where my only thought was “That thing is gonna get stuck in there! Use a condom!” Can’t remember much from it except for these three scenes.

2. The Disastrous Life of Saiki K

Yamazaki Kento has the acting chops of a dead fish but it comes handy for playing a teen with psychic abilities and zero social skills. Hashimoto Kanna is one of the prettiest girls in Japan. Yoshizawa Ryo with white and blueish hair looks more like Sakata Gintoki than Oguri Shun in the Gintama live action. The end is a huge let down but the fun ride is worth it.

3. Ano ko no, Toriko

Congratulations to Yoshizawa Ryo, he has FIVE movies in my list of favorite movies this year! This is to make up for crowning GIVER as the biggest waste of time of 2018, this list is totally not biased, lol. “Ano ko” could be just another romance movie but the (very) little insight into how the entertainment industry works and not focusing on school life made me love it. Poor Sugino Yosuke being left behind again, when will this boy get the main girl?

4. Monstrum

It doesn’t reinvent the wheel but it’s pleasant enough to fill a rainy afternoon with a lot of blood and spilled guts. Hyeri of Girl’s Day is the heroine and Choi Woo Shik is the commander she falls in love with.

5. Weirdo Go

I confess I watched this one just to see Ji Li (aka my snake son Nie Huaisang) dressed as a woman but it was enjoyable and not that problematic.

6. Real - Kanzen Naru Kubinagaryu no Hi

Directed by the same guy that did “Creepy” and “Before we vanish”, there are lots of twists you won’t see coming. And a dinosaur. A fucking dinosaur.

7. Tomodachi Game: The Final

The movie loses its focus halfway through then picks up again minutes before ending. Yoshizawa Ryo delivers again as the sadistic Yuuichi, much like his role in Gintama. The plot twists are the star of the movie.

8. The Living Dead

Sorry Wen Ning. I saw the plot twist coming in the first 30 minutes of the movie, not very smart of the writer. His personality did a 180° turn for worse and I’ll demote the movie to an honorable mention for it. Gao Han is cute though, I would like to see him as a better character.

9. Backstreet Girls

Some recycled scenes from the drama to situate the viewers, a completely new story for the movie, it is certainly funny and enjoyable, if you can get past the forced gender reassignment surgery background and transphobic jokes (you shouldn’t get past it btw). I like the soundtrack.

Best Dramas:

1. The Untamed

Do I need to say more?

2. The Tale of Nokdu

This Korean romance had everything to be a mess but it wasn’t!!! *claps* I don’t hate the main female character and the whole palace politics actually kept me interested until the end. The complete shift of atmosphere mid-season was strange at first but ultimately very welcomed.

3. The Naked Director

Netflix original Japanese content is amazing. This one is a look at the life of a legendary porn director in the late 80s, I learned a lot about the history of Japanese porn and censorship (yay pixels!) and went looking for his, erm, works. Very graphic, 69/10 don’t recommend watching with people in the house.

4. Channel wa Sonomama!

I don’t remember it well but it’s about a news station and what is like to be a journalist and it was very interesting and funny.

5. SCAMS

Forgettable. Sugino Yosuke with black hair cons old people via phone calls.

Worst Movies and Dramas:

1. The cat in their arms

The cats spend 90% of the movie in human forms, and halfway through it they simply abandon the cats’ plot to show a fucking long montage of a weird guy painting a picture of a nude girl. It’s also super creepy to see a grown-up man acting like a cat, getting belly rubs and eating cat food from a bowl. Yoshizawa needs to choose his roles more wisely.

2. Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun

A waste of Suda Masaki’s talent. Can Japan stop casting Tsuchiya Tao already?

3. Samurai Marathon

Almost two hours of dirty men running through a forest. Maybe Japanese History experts will enjoy it, because I certainly didn’t.

4. Lady Vengeance

While there are legit great moments, I didn’t find this “classic” to be anything special. The animal cruelty was too much for me.

5. Hot Gimmick

This movie makes Bohemian Rhapsody’s editing look like a work of art. There are more flashing cuts than a T-ARA music video. I have no idea who likes who, who’s banging who, what even are they saying. Too much poetic shit for my like. I wanted to see Shimizu Hiroya naked. I was bamboozled.

6. The Divine Fury

While some parts were interesting, at the end I still don’t know if the protagonist is possessed by a demon (if yes, then why would he help a priest destroy his friends?) or if he was blessed by God when his father died and talked to him (the glowing hand thing, why and how??). The exorcism parts are really, really scary, or maybe I’m just a chicken, but I had to avert my eyes. The best (only) part is that the protagonists are hot. Hello Woo Do-Hwan, you can sacrifice me to Satan any time…

#tokumusume awards #2019 #Parasite #Gintama #The Untamed #The Tale of Nokdu #Yoshizawa Ryo #long post #jdrama #kdrama #jmovie #kmovie #cdrama #cmovie

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chaosamplified · 5 years

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1: the meaning behind my url: chaoSAMplified. because it has Sam in it and Sam is my name (half of my name? I have 2 names now) and also because I thought I was really cool when I made it

2: a picture of me: my profile pic

3: how many tattoos I have and what they are: I have 0 currently

4: last time I cried and why: Wednesday because I was drunk and I listened to Mariana’s Trench

5: piercings I have: 2 lobe piercings in each ear but i only wear them in 1 ear

6: favorite band: Fall Out Boy

7: biggest turn offs: Republicanism

8: top 5 (insert subject): Anon didn’t give me a subject. Feel free to give me subjects lmao

9: tattoos I want: I want to get my t date on my arm (once I have a t date), something large on my left thigh and a lil ghost somewhere

10: biggest turn ons: I don’t even know I’ve had the same crush for like 5 years and the one other person I’ve had a crush on since then (maybe still do? Idk) is veryyyyy similar to him so uh. I literally don’t know

11: age: 18, 19 in 17 days!

12: ideas of a perfect date: Realistically like going to cedar point together just the two of us, idealistically like going on a week long road trip to the other side of the country and visiting the ocean

13: life goal: Get a Grammy

14: piercings I want: I don’t think I want any more

15: relationship status: Single and trying too hard

16: favorite movie: Nobody has an actual answer to this question. I guess I’d say The Imitation Game

17: a fact about my life: I had a personal protection order against someone at age 12? Idk

18: phobia: I’m a fearless bitch

19: middle name: Alexander 🤙

20: height: 5’1” for all of eternity

21: are you a virgin: Virginity is a social construct developed to slut shame women. Also as a Gay Trans that word has very little meaning at all

22: what’s your shoe size: 7

23: what’s your sexual orientation: We just went through this. Gay

24: do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs: I have smoked weed but don’t really enjoy it, never smoked cigarettes, yes drink, have lots of prescription drugs

25: someone you miss: Max :(

26: what’s one thing you regret: Not talking to my mom for 6 months in 2012

27: first celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: First of all I think of a person I know, not a celebrity. But Halsey is hot as hell. I’m so gay but Halsey man

28: favorite ice cream: Raspberry

29: one insecurity: b o o b

30: what my last text message says: From me: yeah no prob 🙂👍. From someone else: ok cool thank u lol

31: have you ever taken a picture naked: hnnnnng yeah

32: have you ever painted your room: I didn’t but my dad and sister painted mine while I was in France

33: have you ever kissed a member of the same gender: (I’m using gender instead of sex because sex is fucky): Yes a couple of ems

34: have you ever slept naked: Of course

35: have you ever danced in front of your mirror: Every single time I drink if I’m being honest

36: have you ever had a crush: Always

37: have you ever been dumped: Lots of times :-)

38: have you ever stole money from a friend: No but Charlie paid for a ton of my laundry once and I still have to pay him back

39: have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met: YES my boyfriend at the time was about to leave me at this place outside after an event but instead I got in this van with a whole bunch of his friends I didn’t know it was a mess

40: have you ever been in a fist fight: No I’m a bottom

41: have you ever snuck out of the house: Only once and it was to go with max to meijer at midnight and he bought a nerf gun and we shot at each other in his car in the michaels parking lot until like 2am and I have absolutely no regrets it’s still one of the best days of my life

42: have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back: I’m gonna say yes but also I’m not entirely sure how he feels so like. Probably yes

43: have you ever been arrested: No

44: have you ever made out with a stranger: No

45: have you ever met up with a member of the opposite gender somewhere: Yeah Alessandra and I just had lunch the other day. Jk I know what this is implying and I’m extremely gay and also no

46: have you ever left the house without telling your parents: This is the same as number 41

47: have you ever had a crush on your neighbor: Define neighbor?

48: have you ever ditched school to do something more fun: On my 16th birthday I stayed home so my dads girlfriend at the time could give me blonde highlights (yikes)

49: have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same gender: Yeah

50: have you ever seen someone die: No

51: have you ever been on a plane: Yes!

52: have you ever kissed a picture: Yikes probably

53: have you ever slept until 3: I hate that you say this like it’s a challenge, I do this at least 4 times a month

54: have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now: Yes and yes

55: have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by: Yes

56: have you ever made a snow angel: Yes

57: have you ever played dress up: It was my favorite thing when I was little (plot twist I’m trans now)

58: have you ever cheated while playing a game: Probably (ps I lose)

59: have you ever been lonely: Always

60: have you ever fallen asleep at work/school: So many times

61: have you ever been to a club: Yeah Lio and I went to Necto once lol

62: have you ever felt an earthquake: Yes! I was 5 and in California

63: have you ever touched a snake: Yes

64: have you ever ran a red light: I hope not

65: have you ever been suspended from school: No

66: have you ever had detention: No

67: have you ever been in a car accident: Yes but it wasn’t that bad, the car was totaled but everyone was fine

68: have you ever hated the way you look: Everyday babee

69: have you ever witnessed a crime: Yeah

70: have you ever pole danced: No

71: have you ever been lost: In a figurative or literal way? The answer to both is yes

72: have you ever been to the opposite side of the country: Yes I’ve been to California

73: have you ever felt like dying: Haha yeah

74: have you ever cried yourself to sleep: What are these questions of course I have

75: have you ever sang karaoke: Not in front of more than like 3 people

76: have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t: So many times lol yeet

77: have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose: YES

78: have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger: No

79: have you ever kissed in the rain: I’m trying to remember but I don’t think so?

80: have you ever sang in the shower: I’m a little bit shook myself by this but I honestly don’t think so?

81: have you ever made out in a park: Yes would recommend

82: have you ever dreamt that you married someone: Not like literally dreams no

83: have you ever glued your hand to something: Lol what no

84: have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole: No gross

85: have you ever gone to school partially naked: No what

86: have you ever been a cheerleader: No but I used to say it’s what I wanted to be when I grew up lol

87: have you ever sat on a rooftop: Unfortunately no

88: have you ever brushed your teeth: Yes?????

89: have you ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone: Not too scared but I don’t really like watching any movies alone

90: have you ever played chicken: Like the water game? Yes with max and his sisters it was honestly a grand time

91: have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on: No but goals

92: have you ever been told you’re hot but a complete stranger: Yes I’ve been on tinder

93: have you ever broken a bone: Nope

94: have you ever been easily amused: A friend told me the other day that I laugh at everything

95: have you ever laughed so hard you cried: Of course

96: have you ever mooned/flashed someone: No consent is important

97: have you ever cheated on a test: If you say you haven’t you’re a liar

98: have you ever forgotten someone’s name: Yep

99: have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real: Do you mean like too good to be real or like I’m dissociating and they literally don’t seem real cuz uhh

100: give us one thing about you that nobody knows: I’m alone in a room with a stranger in a bed that’s not my own (jk listen to my song Matches on YouTube https://youtu.be/Q-SGbIjLYEI)

#this is all 100 of them #i hope youre happy #it was really fun if im being honest #send more lmao #long post

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What happened to that curly haired little boy I used to know?

What happened you ask? You really want to know what happened? After at least sixteen years, but you seem to think about me like how I was when I was eight, so split the difference and call it nineteen years, so after nineteen years you're finally concerned about me? About how I am now? Fine. Let's talk about the little curly haired boy you used to know.

That little curly haired boy moved to a different country when he was ten. He had never been on a plane before, but he loved it. Except that he got a little bit sick on the landings. His dad taught him how to fish while he was in that foreign country. It became one of his favorite things to do because he could spend time with his dad. That little boy got his first computer. He picked up a joy of reading. Of riding bikes. He took karate lessons. He got the chicken pox. He learned to play the trumpet.

That little boy moved again. He spent time with his grandma for a while before he moved, but that had to end and ended too soon. He was across country on an island in the middle of the ocean. He learned how to skateboard. He went through a hurricane. He learned about skater culture and nature. He became first chair trumpet and learned what it was like to hate a teacher.

He moved back to the desert he was living in before you met him. Or at least before he met you. It was the first time he realized what leaving a friend was but held out hope that they would meet again because it's a small world right? He made friends. Deep friends. Friends forever friends. He suffered disappointment at not making the basketball team. He had his first feelings for a girl. Deep feelings. But he couldn't separate those from lust and he couldn't talk to girls, so he passed them notes and got laughed at. He learned he sucked at the trumpet but was great at the tuba. He learned that band kids were considered geeks. He was made fun of. He learned he wasn't cool. He learned that he was an outsider. But he found music and hobbies that resonated with him. To his core. He learned computers through those hobbies. He became a Christian. Albeit a fearful one.

He moved again and finally, for the first time, felt the weight of loss of friends. He couldn't just make new ones to replace them. But he could make new friends. He made new friends through video games. Through a love of the same TV shows. And because the girl in the seat near him was painfully extroverted. He made many friends but was still an outsider. He learned what it was to not be black enough. To talk white. To lose respect among your peers for succeeding and to have a teacher truly have it out for you. But he also knew what it was to gain respect from those that mattered for being you. He had his first relationship. He didn't handle it well. He had his first break up. He didn't handle that well either. He learned that friends will betray your trust, but that those that betray your trust aren't your friends. But he didn't have his music to fall back on because the school didn't have a band program.

He graduated high school. He invited you. You didn't come. That's fine. You were busy. A gift, a card, or a phone call would have been nice though. He also got into college. Picked the easiest one he could get into but still. 3.7 out of 4.0 GPA and 1380 out of 1600 on the SAT. It was a proud moment.

In college he got his first job. It was seasonal and he was not hired on full time. That was fine though. He joined a club. He met friends through that club. It was a nerdy club but he felt at home. He found out that he loved nerdy things. He fell in with a not great crowd through his club. He started drinking under age. He also got food poisoning.

He got another job though. He was able to save up money for his brother's high school graduation gift. He bought his brother a graduation gift. So did you. And cards. It was upsetting but I got it. Graduation was a foregone conclusion for me and not so much him. And you were always really close with him. I gave him my gift. I love my brother.

I fell in love. It caused a lot of drama though. A guy wanted to fight me because I “stole his girlfriend”, but that isn't at all what happened. In fact we didn't start dating for a year after they broke up. He was a shit head though so fuck him. I was president of my club for two and a half years. I dated this girl for 5 months. Maybe six. Lost my virginity at age 21. Whatever. Broke up with her when she went off to another college. Hurt her, hurt me. I was an ass hole.

Coasted into a pseudo-relationship. I was really drunk and really high. She made out with me. Didn't last a week. We maybe had sex. I don't know. I was drunk and high. Those years are kind of a blur to me because I was basically in class, playing Magic: The Gathering, drunk and/or high. I worked the same shitty job through the rest of undergrad.

At the end of undergrad, found a girl I liked. Went on a date with her. Got drunk. Fucked it up. Sought out a shrink. Found another girl. Took up D&D. She broke up with me. I got drunk and threatened suicide. I sought out a shrink again. She told me call the suicide hotline if I ever wanted to talk. Didn't have to want to commit suicide. Never wanted to in the first place to be honest. Ex dates my “best” friend after a week. I knew he liked her. Asked him to wait a month before dating her. He didn't. He also actively broke us up. He is a dick. I called the suicide hotline. I got picked up by the police and brought to a mental hospital. I do not blame the suicide hotline. They are helpful. I blame my shrink for telling me, a heavy drinker, to stop drinking in a time of emotional turmoil and to call the suicide hotline to talk even though I had threatened suicide before. A large part of that is on me though. I was an asshole and too proud to get help. Please get help if you need it. It probably did save my life.

Anyway. Almost failed a semester. Doctor's notes saved me. Got on anti-depressants. Be warned, they will help you A LOT, but there was a period of a couple months where I had no motivation at all. That's why I almost failed. Failed one class. Retook it. Got an A.

Got into grad school. 3.0 GPA, 1380 GRE. Kept same shitty job from undergrad, but looked for others. Found real group of friends. Love them to death. Got into board games and table top RPGs even more. Had shitty roommates in an apartment that stole my shit or got it stolen. Stopped trusting people. Never got a card or call or anything for graduating college. Neither did my sister for graduating. Explained a lot. Though to be fair I didn't get her anything for graduation either. I didn't know her well enough and I was broke.

I got fired from my shitty job, hired on to another, and fired after three months. I missed a lot of days because of dentistry and I play a lot of computer games because the job was bullshit. I drank a lot during that time, but I got a better handle on it. I stopped drinking hard liquour and started drinking beer. Almost exclusively.

I moved to Utah. I started blogging about beer. I started drinking too much again because Utah kind of sucks. I loved my coworkers though. And I had friends. Not close friends but they were there. I started going to the anime club at the local college and started playing board games and table top RPGs with them. I cut back on my drinking because life was a bit easier.

Until I got furloughed. I worked for the government and lost 20% of my pay for 11 weeks. I maxed out all of my credit cards just to live. So I started looking for, and found, a better job.

I moved back to Florida. Kept blogging about beer. But I was making enough money that I had alternative choices to drinking myself into oblivion to entertain myself. Also I was closer to my family. Until they moved across the country. It was my fault because my mom was trying to transfer to be closer to me in Utah, but she kept the transfer so she could help my grandma.

That hit me kind of hard, but I liked where I lived so I just grabbed my stuff out of their garage and took it with me. I moved later, but that doesn't matter much.

I made a friend who had a baby and grew to love their baby. I dated women and it didn't work out. But the one thing that got to me is that I joined a beer club and missed a meeting I really wanted to go to. Because of anxiety. Because you probably don't know but I have a phobia of vomiting and it got bad to the point that I would leave home with a stomachache. It upped my drinking which made the phobia worse. I told my doctor and found a shrink and now the medicine and the therapy is helping a lot. I drink more than I should but I am trying.

But you know what? You didn't see that. You saw someone failing to live up to your expectations. I will, and did, admit that I drank to much at your Christmas Eve party. I was belligerent. I was an asshole. But I was also in an uncomfortable situation that was hitting my anxiety on all levels and I told you about that and you didn't care. You weren't there for me. I also woke up perfectly fine on Christmas, but you didn't tell me when dinner was. I was an hour and a half late to Christmas dinner.

Then after we got back to your place, you confronted me about drinking too much at your Christmas Eve party. Saying you didn't know me. That you couldn't stand me.

Well guess what. It's true. You don't know me. If you did, you probably wouldn't be able stand me. But don't you dare for a fucking second try to put that on me. You had every fucking chance in the world to try to get to know me. To be there for me. And you absolutely weren't. So until you are ready to get to know me. The real me. And to accept me. Good bye.

PS: You can claim that you have gay friends all you want but while your husband is a homophobic church pastor and your friends are similarly homophobic, I will never believe you.

#family #aunt #sunts #christmas #christmas eve #party #vacation #homophobia #church #alcohol #alcohlism #confession #rant #i'm done

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Someone subjected me to it, so I'll return the favor. Do them all, yes?

*horrible but joyous raptor noise*

200: My crush’s name is: The pineapple one.199: I was born in: 1997198: I am really: Confused about things and such.197: My cellphone company is: AT&T and they kind of suck but not too much.196: My eye color is: Usually a bluish-gray, more gray in the winter and more greenish in the spring. Not vividly, still mostly gray.195: My shoe size is: 12.194: My ring size is: I think I have an Ace Ring in 13? So that, I guess.193: My height is: 6′0″-ish.192: I am allergic to: A hecking lot of types of medication.191: My 1st car was: A Hyundai that had it brakes rot out, the lower control arms snapped, and now it doesn’t have power steering. I just got my second car 2 months ago.190: My 1st job was: Alright.189: Last book you read: Legends of Localization: MOTHER 2. Super awesome.188: My bed is: A bed!187: My pet: Icha, a retired police dog. 186: My best friend: Dan. I have not talked to so many of my other friends in so long, I need to get better at that.185: My favorite shampoo is: I dunno, the stuff I use? I don’t study the bottle.184: Xbox or ps3: Wii U, to be completely honest. Hopefully the Switch is awesome.183: Piggy banks are: A typo based on a type of coin bank made of a certain type of clay.182: In my pockets: Actually nothing right now.181: On my calendar: I have class in Chicago tomorrow. :\180: Marriage is: Not something I plan to do.179: Spongebob can: Please get canned already? Fairly Oddparents, too. Actually, that one first.178: My mom: Is a mom.177: The last three songs I bought were? Two songs from the Diablo Swing Orchestra (probably the coolest hecking band ever) preceeded by Ballroom Blitz.176: Last YouTube video watched: A bunch of trash TF2 joke weapon demonstrations.175: How many cousins do you have? I dunno, like three or four immediate cousins?174: Do you have any siblings? An older and a younger brother.173: Are your parents divorced? No.172: Are you taller than your mom? Yes.171: Do you play an instrument? Nope.170: What did you do yesterday? My best.[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: Nope.168: Luck: I got all the bad stuff.167: Fate: If y’had a chance t’chainge yer faet, wood yeh?166: Yourself: What a funny story, Mark!165: Aliens: I mean, somewhere out there. They’re probably, like, bacteria, but I mean whatever.164: Heaven: I like to imagine the afterlife is one giant void where you just wait to come back and you get to see all your past and future lives but forget everything immediately upon being resurrected as a new human.163: Hell: See immediately above.162: God: If you do, that’s cool. 161: Horoscopes: Read six of them. Chances are, more than one fits you well.160: Soul mates: Nope.159: Ghosts: Nope.158: Gay Marriage: I mean, do whatever. If its not immoral and illegal and everyone involved is okay with it, then cool.157: War: It never changes, but I kinda wish it would. Why is it this hard for people to support each other. 156: Orbs: They don’t exist because nobody has ever seen a perfect sphere in real life before.155: Magic: There are people who claim this is real?[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: I dunno?153: Drunk or High: Having a height advantage to your opponents makes it that much harder for them to seek adequate cover and that much easier to defeat them.152: Phone or Online: I hate the call quality in the US.151: Red heads or Black haired: You don’t see that many actual natural gingers out there.150: Blondes or Brunettes: I mean, I’m blond, so there’s some bias.149: Hot or cold: The cold. LA would kill me.148: Summer or winter: Specifically the first month of the winter. Past that its gray and sludgy and horrible.147: Autumn or Spring: Spring.146: Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.145: Night or Day: The nighttime makes everything feel forbidden. I shouldn’t be out this late, I shouldn’t be doing this this late, etc.144: Oranges or Apples: Oranges. Citrus is awesome.143: Curly or Straight hair: I dunno.142: McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King has the better chicken nuggets, but both aren’t that great. In this town, its Culvers, Portillo’s, or you eat the DIRT you find in the GROUND.141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Like a 60% dark chocolate. 70% tastes great at first but the aftertaste is horrible, afraid to go darker than that. Heard 100% is the worst.140: Mac or PC: PC, since I make games using software that runs on 139: Flip flops or high heals: Mages with a high heal yield are always welcome in the party.138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: I’ve kind of had it with the rich at this point.137: Coke or Pepsi: Regular coke but Cherry Pepsi. Crystal Pepsi is also back but my life was ruined when I found out its just regular Pepsi with no coloring.136: Hillary or Obama: I would gladly take either of them right now. Barack seems like he’d be a dad friend.135: Burried or cremated: I want to be burned to ashes and thrown from the mountains.134: Singing or Dancing: I dunno.133: Coach or Chanel: Coach was a playable character in L4D2 and thus is infinitely more useful.132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Who the frack are these people.131: Small town or Big city: I’ve kind of had it with the city.130: Wal-Mart or Target: Target. Or, for white people with minimal senses of humor, Targét (Tar-zhey).129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Stiller is meh but never reaches Sandler levels of awful.128: Manicure or Pedicure: [SOUNDS OF LITTLE INTEREST]127: East Coast or West Coast: The East Coast has HP Lovecraft’s home.126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Both seem to end in familial drama.125: Chocolate or Flowers: Chocolate is dang wonderful. Can’t take a handful, eat the tulips. Y’just cahn’t do theat.124: Disney or Six Flags: Six whole flags. Great America has the Viper and its the closest you will ever get to a life-changing moment. 123: Yankees or Red Sox: I am indifferent towards New York or Boston, doubly so concerning Baseball.[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: Like, really guys, talk out your differences and treat people with respect. Its not that hard.121: George Bush: He would have made a brilliant painter or a decent comedian, but for some reason he ended up as president. But now he’s paining portraits of veterans wounded in the wars he started, so there’s that.120: Gay Marriage: Of course.119: The presidential election: 2016 was a terrible year, can we just fast forward to an election where two decent, respectable human beings are being voted for on election day.118: Abortion: Every woman has their reason, and its not the right of men to get to decide what happens.117: MySpace: ‘sead.116: Reality TV: Ech.115: Parents: Its a toxic environment.114: Back stabbers: I get you want that double critical hit, but please don’t stab me. I just want to grab the papers. End TF2 joke.113: Ebay: I dunno?112: Facebook: I had a video of a chick being forced down a grinder suddenly load and go full screen the last time I used the app. Yeah no.111: Work: Cash money.110: My Neighbors: My next door neighbors are absolutely wonderful people. The people past there are pretty bleh.109: Gas Prices: They’ve been higher, they’ve been lower.108: Designer Clothes: Heck.107: College: I have the presidential scholarship and have taken the maximum out on all possible loans and I cannot afford to live on-campus.106: Sports: Nah.105: My family: I am always feeling much better and more comfortable when spending time at a friend’s house than my own house.104: The future: Kinda losing hope, kinda just wish I had the skills to make great games quick and then just live in peace somewhere nice, kinda want to get struck with construction equipment, etc.[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: I couldn’t tell you, its been, I dunno, a decade or so?102: Last time you ate: 11:something today.101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: Spent some time at a friend’s place Friday. Haven’t gotten to speak with them in such a long time, felt nice.100: Cried in front of someone: I dunno?99: Went to a movie theater: The last film I saw in theaters was Godzilla and I lost interest when Walter White died.98: Took a vacation: Absolutely never! I was in Florida for a few weeks a few years ago (2013, I think?), but it barely counts because half of it was rainy days, Minecraft, and Nostalgia Critic.97: Swam in a pool: Couple years ago?96: Changed a diaper: If this answer becomes anything but never I will have seen too much.95: Got my nails done: Never.94: Went to a wedding: Never.93: Broke a bone: Pretty sure never?92: Got a peircing: Never.91: Broke the law: I once forgot to stop at a stop sign nobody else was at. Take me away, coppers, throw me in the slammer.90: Texted: I think Friday night?[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: Dan.88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: Not having anywhere to be. 87: The last movie I saw: I watched The Adventures of Tintin for like the 9th time. I wonder how that film stands up in black/white. I heard really good stuff about Mad Max: Fury Road in B/W.86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: Switch Switch Switch SwiTCH SWITCH SW85: The thing im not looking forward to: The hatred spiraling around the 45th President. Actual Nazis spoke of their goals and were praised on national TV. One of them got punched and is afraid he will become a meme. What the heck is going on. How much Nyquil did I accidentally drink. Is this a dying dream. Please let it be.84: People call me: Really needy and obnoxious. Or that might just be me.83: The most difficult thing to do is: Have one good day. Friday was the first one since probably October.82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: Nope, but I did get one because my brakes went out and I hit the bumper of the car in front of me. 81: My zodiac sign is: Gemini, but it really doesn’t make a difference.80: The first person i talked to today was: Dan.79: First time you had a crush: Quite a while ago. It was the orange one and it was alright. Pineapple is the better flavor though.78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: Dan.77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: I dunno.76: Right now I am talking to: A Tumblr text post.75: What are you going to do when you grow up: Design dem vidya gaems. 74: I have/will get a job: I have a job? Its my second one, been there 3 months.73: Tomorrow: I’LL72: Today: Is almost over.71: Next Summer: I’ll be out of school until September again?70: Next Weekend: Will be practically the end of the month? What am I supposed to put do--69: I have these pets: I have one (1) dog.68: The worst sound in the world: I have been woken at 2 in the morning by someone loudly blaring “Now look at this NET!” at me as a joke. 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: I dunno, Speilberg? Because he won’t make thAT TINTIN SEQUEL--66: People that make you happy: Dan and the other ragtag band of friends I have.65: Last time I cried: Like ~a week ago?64: My friends are: @eishkrooked @virtifrication-order @ahogehope and my non-Tungle friends Steve, Byron, Haley and Sam.63: My computer is: More expensive than my first car.62: My School: Costs far too much.61: My Car: Is alright.60: I lose all respect for people who: Justify killing or dehumanizing a lot of people quickly.59: The movie I cried at was: Wreck-It Ralph. Because I am a loser.58: Your hair color is: Blond.57: TV shows you watch: Actually between stuff because everything is over or on hiatus.56: Favorite web site: Steam, I guess?55: Your dream vacation: As many of my friends as possible and we all go to somewhere rad, I dunno where though.54: The worst pain I was ever in was: I once had a coughing fit at 1AM that caused me to spit up some blood and it hurt so bad I collapsed on the floor and cried myself back to sleep. But Death’s gonna have to bare-knuckle box me for my life, he tried to kill me with life-threatening pneumonia twice and that did bugger all. Come at me scrublord, I’m ripped.53: How do you like your steak cooked: Medium-well.52: My room is: Barely my room.51: My favorite celebrity is: JK Simmons.50: Where would you like to be: Somewhere nice.49: Do you want children: Not really, no. Maybe adopt some? I dunno.48: Ever been in love: Nope.47: Who’s your best friend: This is like the third time this question has appeared.46: More guy friends or girl friends: More good friends.45: One thing that makes you feel great is: Ever get to steal, like, all the stars in a Chance Time? That power changes you.44: One person that you wish you could see right now: I want to know how Haley is doing. She moved off to Minnesota after graduating high school and has not been online in like have a year. 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: I barely have a five-day plan.42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: I could die at any minute, lists just leave “I could have___”s everywhere.41: Have you pre-named your children: Nope.40: Last person I got mad at: It took Arin 4 hours to make it to the end of Paper Mario: Thousand Year Door’s first major boss. FOUR HOURS.39: I would like to move to: A nice flat somewhere just outside Chicago.38: I wish I was a professional: Game dev because then, again, good things made quick.[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: York Peppermint Patties, also a fan of Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups.36: Vehicle: Can Tesla just do a cheap electric car already? 35: President: Obama is definitely top of the list. Amazing public speaker, total dad.34: State visited: Illinois.33: Cellphone provider: If only Metronet could do phones.32: Athlete: JK Simmons got ripped, I can include him.31: Actor: See above!30: Actress: Ashly Burch (Ms. Pauling in TF2). 29: Singer: Lynda Carter became a freaking phenominal jazz singer between the 70s and Fallout 4. Probably the best part about that game.28: Band: Diablo Swing Orchestra, hands down.27: Clothing store: The cheapest one I can get good-quality stuff at.26: Grocery store: Jewel? I dunno, don’t hassle me.25: TV show: Gravity Falls deserves all the awards.24: Movie: This might come as a surprise, but the Adventu23: Website: Steam? I dunno.22: Animal: Samoyeds and Malamutes. Japanese Akitas come in third.21: Theme park: Six Flags is pretty rad. 20: Holiday: According to the store I work at, Italian Market is a holiday and now its my favorite holiday.19: Sport to watch: Not a sportwatcher.18: Sport to play: Used to spar. That was rad.17: Magazine: Rest in peace, Nintendo Power.16: Book: Journal 3 is such a fabulous blend of so many good things.15: Day of the week: Monday, actually. I don’t need to commute, my brothers are out of the house, I can record or work on personal projects, etc.14: Beach: Not a fan of beaches.13: Concert attended: Have not attended any live whatsits.12: Thing to cook: Pasta. And then I have it all. Because its pasta.11: Food: Read above.10: Restaurant: It depends. Subway is cheap, Corner Bakery Cafe is right inside Union Station and their Mac and Chee is awesome, but if money is no object, then I’d go for Olive Garden because “endless pasta” are two words that get slung around in there.9: Radio station: I hate the FM radio.8: Yankee candle scent: Fresh-cut lawn.7: Perfume: Nah.6: Flower: I don’t have an answer.5: Color: One of those deep, vivid blues. Something like Tumblr’s but with some more saturation.4: Talk show host: Nah.3: Comedian: SungWon Cho or Barry Kramer.2: Dog breed: 22 has all the answers you need.1: Did you answer all these truthfully? I could be a jerk and say I answered one of these incorrectly, but nah, they’re legit. Or are they? They are. Or are they?

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My Top Posts in 2021

Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier Fic Masterlist

Completed:

Richie Tozier: Come Out & Play (Oneshot, Rated M)

Richie Tozier: Come Out & Play, a new Netflix special! Comedian Richie Tozier is back after a very public mental breakdown. And he's ready to (over)share. (5.7k words)

baby i didn't know, but i'm glad that you found me (Series, Rated E)

1. i've been waiting

2. i'm seeing the most in your eyes

Eddie comes out to his mom, visits with an old friend, applies for a job, and finds his home. (14k words)

we'll get where we're going even if we're late (Oneshot, Rated E)

Richie sees a lot happen in the deadlights. Eddie has to keep reminding him what's real. (7.8k words)

the time and space between us (Oneshot, Rated T)

For Eddie Kaspbrak, dying was just like falling asleep. And then he woke up. (10.7k words)

The Power of Sexting (Oneshot, Rated E)

Richie accidentally sends Eddie a shirtless picture. Things escalate from there. Or, Richie and Eddie play Gay Chicken: Sexting Edition. (4k words)

i love you, ain't that the worst thing you ever heard? (Chaptered, Rated E)

(Continued Under The Cut)

That's where you'll find me (Series, Rated T)

1. In The Wrong Place Trying to Make it Right

2. Got My Heart Set On Anywhere But Here

3. I'll Be What You Need (Goodbye, Apathy)

Block the Noise, (Oneshot, Rated T)

Richie has a conversation with his newly ex-manager and Eddie doesn't like what he (over)hears. (1.5k words)

i've never seen nobody shine the way you do (Oneshot, Rated T)

just hold me close (Oneshot, Rated T)

It's Richie Tozier's birthday, and Eddie Kaspbrak would do anything to make him happy. (1.7k words)

say anything (Oneshot, Rated T)

you heard them say it (Oneshot, Rated T)

Even after she's 6 feet in the ground, Sonia Kaspbrak still lives in Eddie Kaspbrak's head. (2.5k words)

Misinterpretation (Oneshot, Rated T)

A prompt from Tumblr: "I'm only here to establish an alibi." (1.7k words)

let's find the place where happiness begins (Oneshot, Rated T)

After Eddie survives Neibolt, he and Richie have a few things to discuss. (3k words)

make it feel like the first time (Oneshot, Rated T)

keep you sheltered (Oneshot, Rated T)

Richie has a fear of thunderstorms. (1.6k words)

so into you (Oneshot, Rated T)

Richie is tired of Eddie watching from a distance. (1.7k words)

Like Kisses on the Necks of Best Friends (Oneshot, Rated T)

now my bedsheets smell like you (Oneshot, Rated T)

Richie and Eddie can't sleep without each other. (3k words)

You're only brave in the moonlight (Oneshot, Rated T)

A homophobic church sign makes Eddie cry, and Richie decides to do something about it. (2.3k words)

WIP:

once in twenty lifetimes (Twoshot, Rated T)

isn't it just so pretty to think... (Series, Rated T)

...all along there was some invisible string tying you to me First kisses at every age in every universe.

a supercut of us (Drabble Collection, Rated T-E)

70 notes • Posted 2021-04-28 20:45:21 GMT

just thinking about eddie and his sense of style combined with his need to prove to his dead mom that he made something of himself, combined with the need to dress a certain way for his job where he regularly interacts with wealthy clients. where did it stop being something he did for others and become something he does for himself? because think about his ruby pinky ring - that isn’t just some gaudy purchase he made to say “hey ma i made it!”, it’s a direct upgrade from the pinky ring from the cereal box he wore as a child. that ring is specifically for himself.

we know he doesn’t genuinely care (and myra doesn’t genuinely care) about the fancy record player or the nice house, that those are for his mother. those material things aren’t for him.

but his pinky ring is. so what about his gucci loafers? his nice tailored suits? are those for him too? what was the first expensive purchase he made just for him? or does he even allow himself to ever view those purchases as just for him? does he tell himself it’s for work? for his mother? for myra?

does eddie kaspbrak ever let himself do anything just for him?

84 notes • Posted 2021-01-05 20:16:35 GMT

i think richie is fascinating in that he not only uses his Voices to hide himself from others, he uses them to hide from himself. he’s constantly cutting off his own thoughts even in his internal monologue, and for so long i’ve looked at it as richie hiding from the reader but i’m starting to think he’s repressing aspects of himself. he was so bullied as a kid, he had to learn how to channel his boundless energy and motormouth into something people enjoyed rather than something that got him punched, but that bullied kid still exists inside him. he knows it’s easier to be someone else than it is to be himself. i think there’s a lot of self hatred there that he’s buried under characters for years and years.

so i think about a post derry richie, and how hard it would be for him to unlearn that natural instinct to hide. the way he feels vulnerable and raw when the losers see through those Voices and just want to talk to Richie, not a character. it takes time for him to feel okay sharing his actual thoughts and feelings. it takes time for him to learn how to be his most authentic self and even still he only does it with the losers. he’s always going to be a guy that holds his cards close to his chest but the losers always loved him for exactly who he was, and he eventually becomes comfortable with the fact that they still do and the longer he spends with them in his life, the less it feels like exposing a raw nerve to just be himself.

125 notes • Posted 2021-03-05 04:24:03 GMT

For a reddie prompt: «wait, did you just tell me you love me?» 💜 hope you’re doing well, lovely!

i’m so sorry this took so long! i hope you enjoy :)

The relationship was new (well, as new as a relationship with someone who was already your best friend can be), but it still felt new to Richie. It was in all the little things he was allowed to do now that he hadn’t been before, like wrapping an arm around Eddie’s waist, pressing a kiss to his cheek, and reaching out to grab his hand.

It had been three glorious months of new, and Richie wasn’t quite done basking in it yet. In those three months, Eddie had come to visit LA five times, and though neither of them had said it aloud it was clear it would eventually become a permanent move for him. So now, on Eddie’s fifth trip to LA in the last three months, the two stood side by side in a home goods store, staring at an array of small side tables, because “you can’t just keep balancing things on the arm of the couch, Richie, that’s insane.”

“I think there’s an obvious answer here,” Eddie said, gesturing to a wooden table with a small drawer that Richie was pretty sure matched the shade of his television stand. And sure, the table was fine. It had four legs. A drawer, for who the fuck knows what. It was big enough to put a plate on and still have room for a drink.

But.

But at the end of the aisle was a beauty. One with three legs probably made of plastic, with an iridescent top in a crescent moon shape.

“Do you think the box is too big to just carry out? I really don’t want to have to go get one of those giant carts –“ Eddie was saying, already reaching for the box containing the boring side table.

“Wait!” Richie grabbed Eddie’s arm, watching the other man’s eyebrows raise.

“Yes?”

Richie bit his lip and glanced over to the moon table. Eddie followed his gaze.

“What the fuck, Richie, no! The whole purpose of the table is to put things on it! Literally nothing is going to fit on that table.”

Richie sighed wistfully, still staring.

Eddie crossed his arms over his chest, glaring.

Finally, Richie looked back to Eddie and did his best to look very sad and needy.

“Rich,” Eddie said. “It’s so impractical.”

“But it’s shiny,” he countered, taking a single step closer to the table.

“If you put a plate on that it will immediately fall off.”

“Who needs practicality anyway?’’

Eddie looked at him in disbelief. “You do! That’s the entire point!”

Richie opened his mouth to argue but Eddie beat him to it. “I’m not letting you spill another full plate of spaghetti on the floor because you try to balance it on the arm of the couch. You’ve already broken two mugs. You need a practical side table.”

Richie pouted, taking another look at the boring table Eddie had picked. It did match his television stand…

But.

“How about this,” Richie said finally, after a long staring contest with the wooden table. “We get this little guy to put next to the arm of the couch.”

“Thank you –“

Richie cut him off, running to the other end of the aisle and standing beside the moon table. “And then we get this lovely lady for next to the recliner!”

Eddie didn’t move for a few moments, and Richie felt his heart drop a little, then he began to feel indignant. It was his house, goddammit, he should be able to buy whatever the fuck he wants, regardless of how much he wants Eddie to feel comfortable in his space –

“What if we put it in the den,” Eddie suggested, the corner of his mouth twitching like he was trying to fight off a smile. “Next to the bean bag. Good?”

Richie smiled so wide it hurt. “Eds, you beautiful, beautiful man –“

“Yeah, yeah,” Eddie waved him off, cheeks beginning to turn pink. “You’re just lucky I love you.”

There was a pause in which Eddie’s eyes widened and the pink in his cheeks faded, leaving him pale. Richie was pretty positive his own heart skipped a beat.

“Wait, did you just tell me you love me?“

“No,” Eddie said, shaking his head, looking slightly terrified.

Richie began to grin. “You can’t take it back! You already said it!”

Eddie huffed, then muttered, “Well that hardly seems fair –“

“I love you, too,” Richie said, feeling lighter than he ever had.

“You –“ Eddie looked stunned. “Even though I’m making you buy this table you don’t even like?”

“Eddie, I am a grown adult. You can’t make me buy a table. You’re allowed to have a say, and we came to a wonderful compromise,” Richie said, still grinning.

“It’s your house.”

Richie shrugged, taking a few steps closer to Eddie. “What’s mine is yours.”

“Yeah?” He sounded starstruck.

“Yeah,” Richie agreed. “Plus it’s – I mean, I hope eventually you’ll… You know, it’ll actually be yours, too. If you want.”

“I want,” Eddie said quickly, closing the last of the distance between them. “I want that very much.”

Richie, overwhelmed, reached out to pull Eddie to him, breathing out a calming sigh when Eddie’s face tucked into the crook of his neck. Each huff of breath against his skin felt like one step closer to forever.

After a long moment, Eddie pulled back and tilted his head up, brown eyes soft and warm. Richie pressed a kiss to his lips, then they both took small steps back.

“Alright,” Eddie said, his eyes shining.

“Alright,” Richie nodded. “Now let’s buy ourselves some fucking tables!”

126 notes • Posted 2021-01-18 15:14:48 GMT

can you imagine a post derry richie and eddie, 40 years old and finally together, and maybe a little drunk and chatty, and eddie is sharing more than he might normally. and maybe they’re talking about childhood and richie “offhandedly” mentions how obsessed with bill eddie was. and eddies like “yeah, i was. but that was hero worship, it was different.” “different from what?” “from the way i was obsessed with you.”

and richie like short circuits for a minute before he’s like “please do tell” and eddie talks about how often he thought about richie, how richies voice was always in his head, how he was so intrigued by richie and the way he was one thing on the outside in front of everyone else but another when it was just them, and how even at his most annoying eddie still loved both versions. how he felt so special that he knew so much about richie, that richie felt he was special enough to share things with him even when it went against the Trashmouth persona. he goes on and on and finally richie is just like “...holy shit”

and eddie was drunk and the next day doesn’t even feel like he really divulged anything, richie must’ve already known how much he’s always loved him, whereas richie has been fundamentally changed, to hear how loved he is and always has been, and more than that, how seen he always has been. seen and still loved. it heals cracks in his heart he didn’t even realize were there and when he tries to tell eddie how much it meant to him, how happy he was to hear it, eddie just smiles and says “that’s what i’m here for.”

anyway happy richie month

199 notes • Posted 2021-03-03 02:41:53 GMT

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