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[ladamedemartel]

[ forbidden ] sender and receiver are not supposed to be seen together... but they end up dancing together anyway

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They shouldn't be doing this. If Elijah saw them, then Aurora's whole surprise for Niklaus would be ruined. Still, she had known that Tristan would likely find out that she'd made an appearance. "You know, I distinctly remember asking you not to start the party without me." Aurora's words were barely above a whisper in case Elijah was lurking near by, listening. She doubted that he was. He'd be too busy with Marcel and the brunette that Aurora had spied dancing with Tristan earlier (naturally, she would punish Tristan for that as well, though for the moment she limited herself to the recently dispatched witch). "Don't you have a new recruit waiting for admission? Your first recruit not of Elijah's line? And you think that a dance will be sufficient for me to forgive you?"

@lordofthestrix

#lordofthestrix #when was the last time we were this close to canon? #also i had to make a new icon for this #pretend it's tristan #it was either this guy or when she's dancing with lucien #i figured this was better since 1) it's not lucien and 2) it's the correct outfit for her

[deceptivemorals]

META + Tristan (Because you subjected me to the arduous challenge of writing something concrete about these two with a meme first so now it is your turn to suffer. Best of fortunes!)

*         send   META   +   a   word   ,   a   name   ,   or   phrase   and   i   will   write   a   head  canon   based   off   of   this   !!!  || @lordofthestrix || accepting

first of all, i have to apologize because you already sent in a similar request in … may. i don’t always respond chronologically and i take forever but it's not forgotten. i also wanted to answer this properly and knowing that i tend to make things long, i needed the right time for it to be answered. and yes, after i finished this really long headcanon/meta post, i noticed that i rambled. i still hope this thing here makes sense and i hope you all enjoy reading it and discovering more concerning young!vampire!elijah.

tristan is a black spot in elijah's story. elijah avoids mentioning him or even worse, giving him recognition for anything that makes elijah elijah. however, tristan had an impact on what & who elijah is now.

to make this meta work, i have to go back a little further.

it is known that elijah is descended from a witch and a viking warrior. rich people (rebekah explains in tvd that they were rich landowners in europe), but simple people. i firmly believe that elijah has been trained to be an outstanding fighter (mikael says he is proud to call him his son which confirms this). even as a human, elijah was gifted in strategy, different fighting styles, the ability to hunt, etc.

elijah has always been naturally gifted at being charming and polite, but as already mentioned, he came from a simple family. he lacked what makes him today: the elitist behavior, the formal language, and the way of dressing.

but until he came to the court of the de martels, elijah had not considered that this attitude/lifestyle was a direction he could take that would complete him.

in the originals 3x01, klaus described the situation of the mikaelson siblings as the following:

"in the beginning, we were so naive. our mother had made us into beasts who fed on blood. but immortality was beyond our grasp, compulsion a trick we had yet to learn. all we knew was a fear of being hunted… that, and a terrible hunger."

but despite this, elijah is shown as the one who is capable of acting farsighted. he's the one who covers the tracks, who insists that they stick together, he's the one who made the rules (of not letting anyone live who saw what they are). i think it's fascinating to say that even finn turns to elijah to present his desire to split up. finn wasn't simply deciding that this would be the way it's done, he's asking elijah.

it should also be added that back then, the mikaelson siblings didn't see themself as vampire royalty, solely because a) they were still figuring vampirism out, b) they were the only one of their kind, c) because they were very much focused on being on the run.

nevertheless, even back then elijah appeared to be a natural leader although i think elijah also had an identity crisis during that time.

elijah was a man who had long had the age and the necessary maturity to lead his own life. he had concrete plans with tatia (i think they soon would have married and started their own family). his parents' decision to turn them into vampires deprived him of this life and stripped him of his wishes. he was no longer human, he was something he could not fully comprehend, something he considered a beast, tatia was dead (and as far as he knew it was her blood that he was forced to drink which made vampirism worse), they were fleeing from their own father, they were in an entirely unfamiliar environment, living in fear and suddenly it was he who was responsible for the welfare of the family, as even their eldest brother finn didn't seem to take responsibility and take leadership. suddenly he found himself being head of the family which wasn't an easy task, especially at this time of new beginnings. in addition, there were also feelings of guilt in connection to klaus which had been intensified by the whole vampirism.

he also had issues with being 'in control' / having the necessary (from him desired) self-control. i think that self-control was already important for elijah as a human being. a good fighter needs self-control, control over the situation and a clear head. i think it's something that was expected in his upbringing (mainly from mikael) and also some kind of protective instinct.

i think the desire for self-control has increased since he attacked tatia. he obviously does not remember, but the trauma of his loss of control remained subconscious. so yes, he strives for (self-)control and to be in control of the situation which gets harder as a vampire.

but how does that get us back to tristan?

funnily enough, elijah was the one who was totally averse to the idea of posing as nobles:

"masquerade as nobles from a land we do not know and whose customs we cannot begin to understand? ridiculous!" - the originals 3x01

his objections were overruled and they were on their way to a real castle, in an environment where they had to be careful not to attract attention and elijah was very aware that this was a dangerous decision ("we're placing our lives in the hands of a stranger." - the originals 3x01) while his siblings mainly saw the luxury of having a comfortable life.

when presented to the count, elijah was impressed by the building, the high ceilings, by everything. he could see the appeal of it, of being something more.

again, it was elijah who stepped forward to answer the counts' critical question of never having heard that his actual expected guest had children.

even later at the party, elijah is shown to converse with the count. on another day, elijah was the mikaelson-sibling in an axe-throwing contest with tristan. he seemed to integrate into this lifestyle with the right amount of confidence while it seems that the other siblings did not do so to that extent and rather focused on romance or feeding.

since the siblings had a very long stay at the court, elijah had a lot of time to watch and learn. he adapted to the 'correct' behavior and the proper way to speak. elijah is a quick learner. he is someone who does a lot automatically after having it picked up and considered it important, and he had copied most of it from tristan.

so why tristan of all people? why not the count? why not aurora?

i think he identified with tristan (a bit) over time.

they probably have roughly the same age and i think they did spend some time together. out of curiosity perhaps, out of sportsmanship (the competition of throwing axes, perhaps even swordfight etc.), out of recognizing that they are both brilliant minds.

although far from being as educated as elijah is now, he was even back then a smart mind with diverse interests, which have been increased during their stay at the court and the new possibilities that it brought (a library, for example). although i do wonder how they even communicated (how did the mikaelson siblings learn to speak french within a year after turning into vampires?).

tristan was an older brother who was always concerned about his younger sister’s well-being, even though elijah soon noticed that this concern was (almost) an obsession. nevertheless, this reflected what elijah felt for his siblings: concern for their welfare, and the need to protect them. they also shared their disdain for their respective fathers.

but above all, tristan radiated control. tristan always seemed (outwardly) self-controlled and he was in control of the situation. a (self-)control elijah was looking for and something he desired as being in control/self-control is up to this day an important matter to elijah.

tristan also radiated a matter of course to deal with power. it struck elijah how naturally tristan saw his position of power, how he rose above others, but mostly how he wasn't scared to use what was given to him. power wasn't a curse, it was a gift. of course, elijah’s power (even with his limited knowledge of vampirism at the time) differed from the power that tristan had, nonetheless, he learned how to handle/use power by watching tristan.

and even if elijah did not always approve of the treatment of tristan's (or the counts) subordinates, he also learned qualities of leadership from his time with tristan. something elijah had to deal with as his family relied on him (and not on the oldest brother finn). don't get me wrong, i think elijah was taught how to be a leader by mikael but that kind of (required) leadership was different.

elijah learned valuable things during his time in southern france and there are two quotes from 'game of thrones' that fit the situation:

"power is power" – people like the count martel & even his children radiated a different kind of energy when it came to leadership, power, and control. a unique power that elijah (and his siblings) now held as well. a power elijah learned to use and not be ashamed of doing so (the first time when he compelled aurora to despise klaus).

"power resides where men believe it resides. it's a trick. a shadow on the wall. and a very small man can cast a very large shadow." – this can’t be transferred one-to-one to the situation, but it’s also something elijah had learned. appearance is important, without the right clothes (and of course without the initial help from lucien), they would have been noticed immediately. the right clothes/appearance/demeanor immediately brought their family a different kind of power, and respect. through the right appearance, you can achieve a lot without having to play the real trump cards. in the originals season two, esther explains to elijah that he dresses the way he dresses because he subconsciously wants to be 'clean'. i don’t think that’s the only reason, he prefers his suits because they give him authority / strengthen the authority he has. because the right clothes are important to make an impression. his suits are like an armor.

of course, the second quote is no longer quite so relevant, because elijah is now a powerful man. appearances are no longer deceptive and he no longer has to hide behind a false facade to be considered powerful. nevertheless, it is still a valuable lesson when it comes to assessing others. opponents are sometimes just puffed-up pomp, to whom one attributed too much power.

what i find interesting, however, is that tristan (and i am referring to my interactions with @lordofthestrix) acknowledges elijah’s power/monstrosity, while he does not acknowledge klaus' position and considers him small (x) (x).

learning from tristan gave elijah direction and i think that also ended his identity crisis.

nonetheless, elijah was not blinded by the lifestyle. he knew the count was a cruel man (a warning lucien had issued). that not all gold is what shines and a beautiful appearance deceives, was also confirmed when elijah (and klaus) discovered how tristan tortured lucien. there was nothing noble in these noble people. elijah was admittedly appalled by that discovery because despite being a monster himself, elijah still did value humanity and decency.

elijah found the fact that a man was capable of such a terrible thing, although lucien, a loyal servant, had done nothing wrong, horrible and he was disgusted by it, especially because tristan felt entitled to give such a vicious punishment and didn't even question his position as 'judge'.

this behavior, this entitlement, and the lack of humility are also something that elijah still has in mind and that he condemns. my elijah had a magnificent exchange about this topic with @lordofthestrix here.

fun fact: this situation was also the moment when elijah should have intervened. not to stop klaus, but to finish off tristan as soon as he had made his threat to spread the news of their true nature. because even if this threat hadn't been a bluff, they would have had enough time to flee. it's something he regrets in retrospect.

i think it's interesting that elijah and tristan left together after the latter was done torturing lucien. i assume they made some kind of deal (which had nothing to do with turning tristan at a later point).

so what does it mean to say that tristan contributed to making elijah elijah? it was definitely not an active process in the sense that tristan had consciously taught elijah. elijah evolved through interaction and observation of the 'wordly power'.

and he embraced the qualities he had picked up in this place.

"we made each other" - the originals 3x04

without tristan, elijah would have taken a different path or would have taken much longer to become the elaborate, elitist man he is now.

he enjoys not only being 'vampire royalty', but also presenting himself as such: powerful, superior, unassailable. over time, the mikaelsons have repeatedly presented themselves as nobility, 1112 in italy and most prominently 1492 in england.

so yes, tristan did have a major influence over what elijah is now although elijah would detest having to give him credit.

#lordofthestrix #long post #⚜ perhaps i'm not making myself clear here. this is a headcanon ▬ headcanon #i hope this is what you had in mind #i'm really sorry it took me months #i also really rambled #😳

[hellgivenhasmoved]

@lordofthestrix

𖤐 ⸻ " i'll admit , two fangs are way better than a mouth full of them. still , you're ancient. which means you're dangerous. "

#lordofthestrix

[noblehcart]

@lordofthestrix

"The answer to the question you have not asked nor asked my opinion of is 'no'. Nina is expressly forbidden from dating anyone in the Strix- especially any musicians. Or for that matter vampire musicians. Vampires are like catnip to women and I'm not letting her get her head turned around by one- " like i did.

#lordofthestrix #/ liesel ivanov / threads

[fallen-regentarc]

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lex !!! i don't think that there is only one thing to say ? i have so many kind words to share with you , but I will try to condense it !! we've been following each other for the longest times , truthfully I don't remember my roleplay experience without you in it , so it definitely means that you made quite the impact on davina & myself . you have always reached out , on holidays , whenever you heard I wasn't doing well & always shared such kind words , even when i wasn't writing at the moment . you have been such a shining star , a beacon of light in my rp life & you are actually one of the reasons I came back to writing , and even came back to writing davina on her own blog . your love for Tristan , the way you write him & how you just blow me out of the water every time is something rare & I am so beyond grateful to have you and your muse in mine and Davinas lives . you are one of the best parts of the roleplay community , don't ever forget it xx

@lordofthestrix .   send ✨ or ( ‘SPARKLE’ ) and i’ll tell you at least one thing i like most about you, your blog, your portrayal, or your muse.

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[the-last-doppelganger]

@lordofthestrix

Continued from here

The ground was cool beneath her as she sat in the cemetery, her back against a headstone. Her fingers flit over the earth, and she moved them over the headstone, over her mothers name. She knew that being out there at night was like inviting trouble, but her Jeremy was gone for the night and Jenna was dead. There were only ghosts accompanying her in her home.

Stefan was gone. She couldn’t help but think of him, as she did whenever she didn’t miss Jenna, and he’d likely never come back. Just to keep her safe from Klaus.

She wanted him back though; there was no way to bring back Jenna, but there was a way to bring back Stefan.

She startled as she heard the rustling of leaves, suddenly accompanying the sounds of insects chittering. Goosebumps raised along her skin as she strained to hear soft footsteps along the ground.

She rose from the ground as the silhouette made it’s way across the ground and towards her. Her eyes were sharp as she looked at him, his voice ringing out clear in the night. She frowned at first, wondering what this was about, before she understood it.

He was playing with her.

And he knew who she was. What she was. Part of her wanted to run, yet when she moved, it was to walk towards him. There was no point running from a vampire. He was a vampire of course, his suit too expensive and his accent to rich for him to be a werewolf.

In some ways, he reminded her of Elijah, the way he carried himself. But there was something about him that was distinct too, the closeness in his eyes. The closer she got to him, the more he resembled shark swimming in blood infested waters.

“You would like a word?” She frowned at him, confused and wondering what he wanted. Alarm bells were ringing in her head as she stopped a few feet away from him; something about him screamed danger. “The polite thing to do would be to show up my house in the morning then, not stalk me in the cemetery at night.”

She bit her lip, her neck tilting as she observed him, “but then vampires aren’t known for their politeness, even ones as old as you.” She tested the words, and even though she walked for his confirmation, she knew they fit. He was an ancient vampire, although she wasn’t quite sure just how old he was.

“Who are you? You know who I am, what I am, it’s only fair that I know. And what do you wanna talk about?”

#lordofthestrix

[touchedbydestiny]

cont. from here || @lordofthestrix

            "it is nothing personal", diana stated without a hint of being ashamed due to her undoubtfully impolite previous comment. it was still her conviction that vampires should not exist. it was by no means a statement about his own personality; how could she judge someone she did not know? judging his species, however, was something completely different.

            "i treat others the way i would like to be treated, even if i don’t know them yet. being open-minded towards someone new also means trusting this person – at least if this person isn't a vampire. maybe it’s hypocritical, but it has its reasons."

            "you’re pretty convinced of yourself, tristan, i wonder where this confidence comes from. do you really believe that i will throw my principles overboard and trust you? do you consider yourself to be the proof that vampires aren't the undead beasts they truly are? or is it rather the opposite that you think i can be manipulated? easily deceived if just flattered enough?"

#lordofthestrix #lordofthestrix // diana & tristan #❖ interactions | diana #❖ v: main | diana #diana had to reply #asdfasdf #you can ignore if you want to

[malka-lisitsa]

"How do you feel about...Let's say...Tristan de Martel?"

Ask my character “How do you feel about ______?” Can be an idea, person(s), place, or thing, and they’ll have to answer honestly.

"Real smooth buddy. Didn't see that one coming a mile away at all."

"I feel a few things towards you actually. The main being curiosity. My knowledge of you as a whole is lacking I must say. That might be because your beef seems to be with Elijah, not Klaus- and there for we've never had a common enemy so to speak. However now that I do know of you I find you fascinating. I even admire you a little bit. I mean you what? Took over an organization Elijah started and then turned it against him? That's bold and incredibly sexy."

"I am a fan of masterfully done underhanded deeds. Especially when they're done to others. If I'm completely honest I am a little afraid of you too. I'm usually the smartest person in the room but I must concede that title to you, unfortunately. You've been at this longer than I have and it clearly shows.

Unfortunately I must confess that I fear you sister more than you. She's everything you are.... but far more impulsive. I can see why The Mikaelsons were careful to keep you a secret. I imagine the last thing they would want is three clever creatures with incredibly sharp bones to pick with them, teaming up to plot their demise.

So to sum it up, curiosity, admiration, fear, and respect."

#Answered #lordofthestrix

[founderscouncil]

TRISTAN DE MARTEL (@lordofthestrix) said "It appears that, against all auguries and assumptions, the two of us make for a rather grand team."

There is no way to describe the room they're standing in other than bloodbath. A single man kneels in the center at Tristan's feet, cowering and quivering with the stink of terror, but Hope ignores him for the time being. His guards are in literal pieces strewn about the office, and her boots sink half an inch into the rug that has been thoroughly soaked in blood with a disgusting squelch.

"It appears that, against all auguries and assumptions, the two of us make for a rather grand team."

Her eyes shift back from their crimson-tinged gold to their normal azure hue and she looks around at the carnage. It had been so simple to compel a handful of these guards earlier, long before this meeting had been called. Her family had always insisted on knowing how to stack the deck, and this was just another way to keep things in her favor, without needing to dirty her hands.

Within minutes of their meeting, her compelled team had dispatched the rest of the guards before turning their weapons onto themselves. It was over so quickly that hardly anyone had a chance to respond before the attack was done.

"Looks like it," she replies softly with a Cheshire grin. The man is human, though steeped in the supernatural judging by the curios his office is filled with. The entire reason they are here is to collect some magical artifact that would allow her to get through the day without wanting to spill blood. The voices at the back of her head have ebbed slightly now that violence has been done, but she knows that it's only a matter of time until they come back. "I didn't take your Strix to be the type to work with someone so... undignified." Her nose wrinkles slightly as she takes in their sole survivor, sobbing and begging for his life, a far cry from the arrogant man that had greeted them only a few short minutes ago. "But I suppose men like him have their uses."

#[ ch: hope mikaelson. ] #[ ic. hope mikaelson. ] #[ tristan de martel / lordofthestrix. ] #lordofthestrix #ty always for letting me write unhinged hope

[kingofthewebxxx]

🖼️

#lordofthestrix #aestethic

[survivingpierce]

@lordofthestrix commented my starter call || accepting

          katherine, dressed in a sparkly dress, blew out the match she had used to light the last remaining candle. "you can see these as a kind of birthday candles," and it somehow fitted, even if they were unusual birthday candles. 

          "i admit it’s a strange place for a birthday present, but this is exactly the place you were looking for. so i consider this a fitting gift. tadaa."

#lordofthestrix #tristan #♕ the cute one’s here ▬ interactions #closed starter #i love the way you commented the starter call #plus it was tristans birthday #so katherine gifts him a creepy spooky place #probably something for his witches or idk

[ladamedemartel]

@lordofthestrix liked for a starter!

Aurora's expression was grim as she looked down into the cardboard box that contained what was supposed to be a new hat. According to the girl at the shop, they were all the rage, but Aurora could not bring herself to give the garment a try. Only the sound of her brother's footsteps drew her attention (she had ignored several members of the Strix that had attempted to inquire as to the reason for her morose expression and knew that they would report her ennui to him.

"It's called a bucket hat. Why would anyone wish to look as if they're wearing a bucket on their head?" she groaned.

#lordofthestrix #idk if this is short #but it is crack #so #that's what you get

[deceptivemorals]

SUPERNATURAL SENTENCE STARTERS / SEASONS 4 - 5 || @lordofthestrix || no longer accepting

❛ You don’t know me. You never did. And you never will. ❜

           "is that the case?" he let the question linger in the air before tilting his head slightly.

          "you’ve always felt like you were born to higher; which is probably due to the fact that you come from a noble house. 'the divine right to rule', it was placed in your cradle - at least that's what you like to think. you don’t know modesty, you like to see yourself above others and flaunt your power over them in the cool assurance of your own supposed superiority. even if you tended to see someone as equal, you would see yourself above them, including your own sister."

          "speaking of– it’s obvious that she is your only weakness. your devotion to aurora outweighs even the value you place on your own life. one would think it's fraternal love but it's so much more than that, isn't it? it's an unhealthy obsession and despite your claimed love for her, there’s so much deception and frequent isolation and abandonment. in a way, you and aurora are like yin and yang. always circling each other in an eternal dance, balancing each other, push and pull. always co-dependent."

          "you have an incredible thirst for knowledge and a talent for finding your sources - i'll give you that. but apart from that, you're a power-hungry, arrogant, and elitist vulture with a gift of turning good purposes into ego-maniacal sociopaths. someone who hides a diabolically vicious and very vindictive nature behind that stoic personality you often like to deceive others with and finds joy in it."

          and because elijah could imagine that he would come up with counterarguments and show the similarities between them, elijah added immediately:

          "the worst thing is that you don't even recognize your own faults. there is no self-reflection of your actions, no humility in your doings. even if you are supposedly concerned about the welfare of others, you are always in a prominent position that is beneficial to you."

#lordofthestrix #⚜ hello there ▬ answered #omg #i'm so sorry for elijah

[h1rezzie]

@lordofthestrix // x.

There  is  a  secret  in  her  family.  What  else  is  new?  But  this  one,  she  did  not  knew,  no  one  alive  to  let  them  know  the  risks  of  breaking  the  cycle  of  the  Merge.  Where  it  came  from  or  why  it  was  made.  Magic  comes  with  a  price,  specially  such  high  magic  that  is  created  to  mantain  a  prison  world.  It's  there  in  order  to  be  a  lock  for  a  great  evil.  But  the  Merge  has  never  happened  and  never  will  now  with  her  being  a  Heretic.  A  failsafe.  The  secrets  of  the  Gemini  Coven  are  uncovered  when  she  starts  to  have  dreams  of  Shadows  and  a  man  at  the  center  of  them.  An  elemental,  something  that  was  not  real  until  now.

 "The  prison  world  was  in  place  in  order  to  keep  him  safe.  They  just  know  him  as  the  Darkling.  400  years  ago,  the  Coven  locked  him  in  the  first  prison  world  and  that  type  of  magic  requires  a  sacrifice,  hence  the  Merge."  Combine  the  power  of  two  into  one,  enough  to  stable  the  nature  of  it  until  another  pair  of  twins  come  along  and  so  the  line  continues.  Perhaps  Kai  Parker  knew  about  this  and  his  desire  to  continue  the  Merge  with  Jo  was  justified.  Or  maybe  his  killing  attempt  on  the  twins  came  for  a  desire  to  free  the  man.  Either  way,  Lizzie  drops  the  book  on  the  table  before  Tristan,  as  she  speaks  of  her  findings.

 "I  thought  the  dreams  were  just  weird  but  dreams  are  barely  just  that  when  you  are  a  witch.  He  is  breaking  free,  if  not  already  out."  It  wouldn't  be  that  difficult,  there  isn't  that  many  prison  worlds  left,  they  are  there,  lingering,  crumbling.  "When  I  died,  the  lock  was  broken."

#lordofthestrix #☾ ─── ⋆ interactions ⦈ lordofthestrix .

[noblehcart]

only marguerite would be the one to ask the vampire the most obvious question unashamedly and mostly bc she wants to see how creative they are in answering it.

#// ooc #-cackling- #margot: and the coffin? #she'd also 10/10 be the kind to ask what kind of lining they use and how personalized is it? #lordofthestrix #u made my morning omg

[fallen-regentarc]

❝  I’m going to tell you this,  once,  because i think you need to hear it.  You deserve more.  You should expect more from the world ❞

               Tristans   words   took   Davina   by   surprise      ,      a   bit   of   shock   because   hearing   that   she   deserved   more   was   always   something   that   she   told   herself   but   never   anything   that   she   truly   had   heard   from   others      .      She   heard   these   things   from   Marcel      ,      but   there   was   always   an   air   of   bias   from   him   as   he   was   the   one   who   saved   her   and   he   was   practically   her   father      .      but   to   hear   it   from   Tristan      ,      someone   who   had   seen   her   at   her   weakest      &      her   worst      ,      saw   her   for   who   she   could   be      ?      well   it   felt   like   the   air   had   been   sucked   out   of   the   room   and   then   pushed   back   in   at   warp   speed      .

               '      The   second   I   expect   more   from   the   world   they   seem   to   disagree   and   then   I   am   fighting   another   battle   that   I   don't   think   I   am   strong   enough   for      .      '      her   word   are   honest      &      she   doesn't   know   why   she's   being   so   open   about   it      ,      but   some   of   the   things   that   she   had   gone   through      ---      well   Tristan   had   a   secret   society   of   vampires      ,      she   was   sure   that   he   had   her   entire   history   written   somewhere      .      '      once   the   ancestors   can   no   longer   have   control      ,      once   my   friends   and   those   I   care   about   are   safe      ,      that's   when   I   will   believe   that   the   world      ,      the   universe   has   good   intentions   for   me      .     

                  her   words   sting      ,      causing   tears   to   come   to   her   eyes   because   she   feels   in   the   deepest   parts   of   her   soul   that   these   things   will   never   come   to   fruition      ,      that   she   is   destined   to   fight   at   every   corner      .      '      but   I   struggle   to   have   Marcel   even   choose   my   side      ,      to   pick   me      &      he's   supposed   to   be   the   one   who   loves   me   the   most      .      so   it's   hard   to   think   that   I   deserve   more   when   I   am   not   often   in   someones   top   five      .      '

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#lordofthestrix #♡ * ⁎ ┈ answered ask #♡ * ⁎ ┈ you had my heart before i could even say no . tristan de martel ( lordofthestrix ) #q.