#lmfao im bringing some of the OGs back for this

[nako-doodles]

Shirley what are your thoughts on the new music and what is your fav new track

absolutely emotionally ravaged!!!! no coherency just screaming!!!!!!!

i cannot explain to you how important it is to me that bts released an anthology album like the legends that they are AND they released their demos like showing us their heart and all their thoughts ✨✨

disclaimer: i know nothing and i have not emotionally physically spiritually metaphysically recovered from this album ✨

born singer - fuck the significance this song has to armys and bts and j cole allowing them to release this song fuck. FCUK. namgi's verses still make me cry. this really is the thesis. the central theme for the tannie's careers and their message. i lokey wish they recorded yoongi's verse to reflect the amount of years that has passed but opening the anthology w this song is so smart of them.....creative team fantastic work.

yet to come - 'best is what comes next you and i the best moment is yet to come' 'we are all about it....dreams hopes and moving forward' ....as someone who struggled into adulthood w hyyh, dream hope forward forward was the mantra that kept me going somedays and i absolutely burst into tears in public hearing it. fuck the message is so good the references are so good the mv is so good the hope the vision SO GOOD..........if born singer is the thesis statement to start their collection of title songs, then yet to come is the conclusion to their thesis paper of where they are heading towards in the future. im so incredibly thankful for bts and their impact in my life

run bts- ROCK BTS I CANT BELIEVE WE DID IT BESTIES WE MANIFESTED IT no notes 110/10 song would loop jin's rock vocals until my last breath thanks for coming to my ted talk

jump demo - wow it sounds both incredibly similar and also completely different i was so shocked when i first heard it!!! im glad they made that violin arpeggio clearer but i havent had a chance to look up the lyrics and what they changed

young love - the piano hook is so pretty and the bar chimes and the bg vocals are so atmospheric. while this song is lovely (hehehe) and it absolutely has that classic bts genre twist i think its getting lost in all of the greats in this album. which really speaks more to how bts stuffed this album w the creme de la creme top state of the art quality music than this song in particular tbh.

boy w luv demo - #bring back jin's husky chest voice 2022 tbh lmfao i see why they didn't add yoongis voice from the chorus chant intro his voice is too distinctive. fine min yoongi. you win. i concede my years long offense was unfounded. i wish they didnt take away some of the extra bg sound effects and the back n forth in the bridge 😔 bby jk sounds so smol w his safe standard riff i want to put him in my pocket for safe keeping 🥺🥺🥺 hobi's hakuna matata verse remains iconique™️

quotation mark - easily one of my fave instrumentals its so well mixed a GIANT kiss for the soundmixer wow the balance bt the melody and the counter and bass and the synth/brass and the lil ornamentations mmMMM. rapline bringing back that school trilogy style back thank you kings. will be hunting down an instrumental to vibe to w telepathy.

inu demo - ive been wanting this for YEARS you hear me????? verse 2 has a better backing than the og and the prechorus is SO nice. i still cant stop laughing at joon's puberty voice in these early demos (this will be a reoccurring theme but is esp funny on joons high notes what did joon do to modulate in program his voice up oh my god)

boyz w fun - TAEEEEEE AHHAHHHAHAHA i love him!!!!! the beat on the chorus is a little lopsided i see why they decided to change the chant. this has always been one of my ULT FAVES so hearing the drafts before is a treat!!!! i wish they kept that electric guitar and joon's eenie meanie minie moo riff and how clear and distinct jin's voice is in the tutti and post-chorus parts

tony montana ft jimin - IVE BEEN WAITING FOR FOR YEARS FOR THIS its such a sexy song im so happy to replace the concert audio version ive been listening to for this that build up to the last chorus is HYPE AS FUCK. i never realized how sick that drum and bass is fuck i cant wait to see it in the concert setlist again. i wish they amp'd up jimin's vers bc this sounds like a concert backing track??? like they expect jimin to sing on top of it????? sthing is missing idk what it is but it feels sandwiched in. also. i also know its a style in rap music to have processed vocals but jimin doesnt need it you know? you compressed his vibrato and timbre too much. but also conversely too much reverb?????? confusing.

young forever rm demo - i wasnt expecting how much this demo would ruin me. i cried immediately the first time i heard it. this is joon's first bby and you can tell from his distinct style of that atmospheric synth thing and hard rap paired w piano. i want to transcribe the piano line SO badly you dont understand

spring day v demo - ANOTHER SONG IVE BEEN WAITING FOR FOR YEARS you can hear tae's melancholic/nostalgic/melody-driven style here clearly god i love his version so much the outro on the chorus w the humming and harder.....vuvuzela??? works surprisingly well. kth1 when?

dna hobi demo - another demo that took me by surprise how much i love it. in fact i love this so much more than the og even tho i know it sounds more jhope than bts. i want him to play this at the music fest. please. IM BEGGING. god its so good. how does hobi keep putting out so much good music i dont get it.

epiphany jin demo - im sure all of you are aware how hard and how long ive wanted this in my hands and jin just never disappoints. idk man jin knows his voice and his strengths very well and i see why this was in the running until the last minute revision. fuck its so good. im sad the leak was real bc i can't experience for the first time again but at the same time hearing the prechorus in context is so magical. his voice is what 1000 thread silk bedsheets feel like to someone who has slept in a pile of hay all their lives feel like.

seesaw flower demo - i love this instrumental i love min yoongi i love his big sexy brain i wish he kept this bassline and the rain and cricket and pipa sounds and the drumline but i do understand that its a little too strong for the vibes and the piano. the bridge is so nice i want a 129048935 hour loop of it thank you. min yoongi will you ever love me enough to give me autumn leaves demo??

still w you acapella - talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely not ever been done before- i love how they just took the file and deleted all of the instrumental lmfao. couldnt they have filled in the empty spaces i thought i broke my laptop 🤣🤣 anyways the harmonies are so sexy mozart has been real silent since this dropped!!!! choral 5 part harmonies could NEVER

for youth - they really ended this album w this absolute GEM!!! they really pulled a whole sea w this huh. the instrumentals the vocals the lyrics the mixing the composition the piano and the strings and the bass line starting the song w army singing young forever in wembly FUCK anyways im emotionally fragile this love song to their armys huh!!! 'youre my best friend for the rest of my life' huh!!!!!! where do i fucking sue for emotional damages huh!!!!!!! jin's syncopated verse is where i live now.

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i love that you can really hear how far into development these songs were before putting them into this album. some, re: heungtan sonyeondan and inu, were put together earlier in development and thus are more rough sketches and minimal 'meat', only there to provide the general idea of what they want. sthing to show bang pd or sthing to wake up the next morning to polish. esp when you compare them to epiphany and spring day, practically full songs w professional sounding instrumentals already. while they are much more polished, you can hear all of the thought sope put into seesaw and dna even you can hear some are clearly midi w their standard settings before recorded w better software/more tinkering or a live band. i think it also speaks to the type of writers they are. joon seems like the type to want things down asap before he goes back to fix things, while yoongi is the type to tinker w sthing making sure its basically perfect before showing it off to the world, and hobi has the minutiae detail work to add things while he goes.

i love this album w all my heart and i love the tannies for showing us their souls their hearts their talents w us 💖

#ive been asking for these demos for years im so happy and in love this album was for me specifically #they did it for me #i went on a whole rant im so sorry #i know nothing about music pls pretend these are the ramblings of a senile old lady thank you 💖 #ans

[johnsongrey]

March 2023: Downtown & Dancing, HUNNY.

PHEWWWWWW- WEE, March 2023 was good to us. March 2023 was good to US, hunny. LMFAO. Like all those affirmations we got this month was that gurl. And exsctly what we needed to be catapulted into this new era. Affirmstions on my matcha suit for Josh & Cindy's Wedding, affirmations on my new job downtown, affirmations on my DANCIN, affirmations on my SINGIN???? Phew. What a spectacular month we had, my friend. lol Stuffs that happened this month!

K.BBQ.CHICKEN WITH CAAAAMM Friggin delicious. ugh, yummy. Service and timing could use a little boost, but the chicken alone is enough to have me on the ground at the front door waiting for them to open.

Dinner with Derick & Harvey @ Fuzzy's :) Aw, I love quality time with my Lineage. :') . I may have gotten there 30 min late (LMAOO), but luckily, as always, they were super gracious about it and in good vibes when I finally did make it. I'm so happy for Litto graduating & being a WHOLE chiropractor! I said this before and I'll say it again: I'm so thankful for the lineage we have. and its so nice to see how we've grown (in number) and in closeness. LOL i say "in number" as if there's 10 of us, when its really just me, derick, & harvey. LOL. ANYWAY, I love how surprisingly tight we are. I mean, we not like- attached at the hip lmfao - but I'd say we do have that sense of genuine friendship & mentor/menteeship amongst us. we're pretty active in our lineage chat (all equally) and I feel like we do have this sense of sincerity & wanting to see each other succeed. I feel that Little really spearheads that unity among us a lot of the time, and im just happy to know that - despite old concerns in the past that I would never find the right little or lineage - I'm happy to see what we have, and despite if we ever grow, we still got Derick & Harvey, and im mad thankful for that. literally, 2018/2019 us would be so happy to see this. 🥲. (also bump the Alpha Scammas for never calling G Harvey LOL. they missin out, man!! we are cool.) LOL

Last Day at Zwicker & Associates, P.C. Good on me for bringing pizza, and for offering some to Mike Beech.

Josh & Cindy Wedding UGH what a fun night. I lowkey had social anxiety bc i didn't really have a tag-a-long friend to be with, but all that was washed away whenever I was talking to someone new and catching up with random ass people. LOL. Also -- love how much affirmation re received, on our MACHA SUIT?? like GOO us for making the executive decision to arrive SNATChED??? and just in general with people laughing with me and saying how funny I am and how much they enjoy my dance videos. lol. and LOL at when kyle stole food from the Children's table. shid was hilarious. Also sor happy that Ate Lee Anne & Long got to have fun and be young for a night! With Mass, Ichiban, & Twistee Treat the next day with family, it was indeed the perfect party and mini vacay before my first day at work.

Came out for Tennis at USF! Twas fun, and then Naga right after was a nice surpirse. Can't say I'll be back anytime though. Sundays and Wednesdays?? oh honey no. no time for that. lol

First day at Hill Ward Henderson Boy, was this nerve-wrecking. I remember I got there at like 6:30am?? LOL Like it was still dark, when I parked at the Bank of America garage.

Officially Entered my Downtown Tampa Era Will never get over where I work, the magnitude of who our clients are, how much this Firm actually does for its employees (oop intentional shade @Zwicker) and how many bizarre and crazy fun things that I get to share with everyone on my OG close friends. Man I love the top 2%. Aside from all the hype of working for a top law firm, I really just love how everyday is a new experience, and that I get to have my own little NY era without leaving the comfort of home. - Got to do my first city Happy Hour (paid for by the Firm) - Saw Jane Castor in the lobby - Got $200 off F45 - Got to enjoy Good Friday at Sacred Heart (after getting released early at 3p!)

SAW WICKED LIVE AT THE STRAZ FOR THE FIRST TIME On its 20th Anniversary ANND with Lissa De Guzman, like we wanted!!!! ugh. sor sor sor good. It only inspired me to practice on my voice and to freaking do the "For Good" recording with Josh already!!! lol

Songs - Always Love by Lauren Jauregui - Wicked OST Our month in a review: We started the month off saying our official goodbye to Zwicker & Associates, P.C. (which, in retrospect, I am happy to report that this was the single-most influential decision of our 2023, thus far. I can't imagine what we would've missed out on, had we declined the offer to move on to Hill Ward Henderson, and after the bullshittery that Lisa did us toward the end of this month, all i can say is: Thank Goodness. *****hehe Wicked reference too

Additional Notes: - We gained hella professional affirmation this month, via LInkedIn. Our goodbye/hello announcements on LinkedIn, the interactions/?? the following growth & seeing OUR future office on the sprawl of Downtown Tampa behind us at the Blend??? ugh iconic. so very iconic. and good for our soul, lol. - I am still working on how to move forward confidently & optimistically, when it comes to journlaing on here. I don't want what happened - with everything deleting back in February - to hold me back, or somehow dissuade me from doing what I genuinely love. Which is keeping up with myself, writing down my most favorite memories, and reminding myself of the Good that comes from being in this world and being me. Despite all my fears, insecurities, and fallen expectations, Life and God has shown me time & time again that Good (and the memory of it) is enough to bring you out of a hard place. And even if somehow I experience another AOL-Tumblr gate (LOL), I want to keep documenting and having convos with myself. I think I owe that to myself. Now granted, I think the good that has come from AOL-Tumblr gate, is that I no longer feel sick or stressed to do them. I consciously absolve myself from those feelings, because I recognize that these journals are for me. And that they are healthy and good until I deem so. And if they distract me from my present, well, - then they are doing the exact opposite of what they were always meant to do: which is to lead me back into a place of gratitude and excitement. I do these because I want to, and because i recognize the value in them - even if they aren't meant to last forever. If 2033 me is anything like 2023 me, I will be curious as to what this moment felt like. What events filled my day, who i was close to, what I loved most, what I hoped for, and the smallest of desires/wishes come true. It has all happened before, and Im convincing myself that it can happen again.

I feel like- with Alyana & Tina's engagements, there will be moments where I'll feel triggered and bothered by those feelings of "time passing", "its not 2019 anymore" "are you what/who past you expected" "Am i failure to my own expectations" and "is it too late for me" --- but i know that those are feelings that ill just have to navigate through and deal with, as they come. I know who I am, I'm proud of myself, and I know Im only moving toward Good. And even it doesn't seem Good, well. I've learned that my definition of "Good and Goals" can (and will) change with the times, as needed. And its all Good, still.

Where We Are: Where we are right now is a place of gratitude, change, and excitement. I think we're in a totally brand new season of our lives: we work in a corporate law firm Downtown, there's 3 more babies in the picture, we go to dance class now, we just joined F45 - and i really think God was hoping all of this would help us usher along into having new goals, having new sources of joy, and really leaning into this brand-new 20's decade. I'll admit, I still have some residual sadness over losing my 10-year long journals, and all the lessons and memories i poured into them, but I also recognize the beauty & value in starting anew. And understanding that joy and a sense of rhythm & meaning can be found (and redefined) again, and again, and again. So, cheers to this new era. And in my time of loss, God replacing and offering me Something New. This month's Life Lessons: - When its new & scary, Lean Wit It, and Rock Wit It. (hehe) - (From January's Affirmations: You are right to pursue new and bettr opportunties.) Next Month:

Caden's 3rd Birthday! (I can not believe. When did our one & only smol baby become 3?? and a KUYA??? time is f l y i n g , my guy)

Kelly & Andy's Tea Ceremony- exicted for this, but inda not bc i gotta sress about how I'll look, who Im gonna see, and deal with lowkey social anxiety ughghghgh

[tobebugjewce]

THE WALTEN FILES: my jumbled notes on my blind run-in with this web series

first off this is gonna be long and unorganized, also this is my second time writing this as i had lost literally half of my progress and im This (imagine two fingers almost touching with a 0.0000000001mm distance between them) close to ripping all of the fucking hair out of my goddamn head. but now this will be extra long and yes, i will lose some accuracy to my first writing but thats okay ill probably edit this a kajillion times over

which brings me to my next tangent; im literally braindumping here. so to have a smidge of organization all afterthoughts, edits and corrections will be boldened, i forgot what im gonna do with italicized text but ill probably bolden it here yeah im pretty sure its for side tangents, separate from Corrections, which are in bold. also theyre for emphasis too.

so in general, this post right here is all of my notes i wrote down on my grid-patterned sticky notes (which i used WAYYYY too much of) about the first 3 uploaded walten files youtube videos transferred onto my handy dandy digital notebook, this b(l)og. yeppers peppers. you know im serious about this shit when i typed probably over like a thousand fucking words including boldened shit, italicized shit and motherfucking links, lost it ALL, and im sitting here re-typing it again.

i feel bad about this but im not gonna trigger warn right here, but this is technically a warning. if you want a list of triggers as to what this post (and the walten files in general) i will link a little list to that here

without further a doo doo, (mama mia) here the fucking fuck we go again.

THE WALTEN FILES - VIDEO #1

clarifying this now, im gonna put some useless shit which i thought was code onto this because even though it was useless it was part of my notes and im physically going to combust if i dont put down every single thing i wrote on my papers. so what i thought was code was in the closed captions, i started writing it down when i got to the second video but came back to my first videos notes to include them. i wrote down the first letter to every word that was capitalized in the closed captions, which i had on as a default because number one i knew going into this id need them because most web horror things like args and cryptic shit like that has some of the most crucial shits in the closed captions. number two i am autistic and have auditory processing issues and have most closed captioning on as a default if theyre available.

firstly jotted, i wrote down the closed captions “code” so im gonna put the rest here too: HYWITB(BSI)Y A(BSI)BJWFKWITW ILHHFSBBSBTLBWI USOISTBNBSFIRBCAWHSHCBWHTAIGRNB*C*BTWLTSFA(20)MCFP ILITIIACPH(1978, 1979)SA(4)YTSCH*C*OGSSU SFTGRPATDBBUTFBNLLCHMIHLBRALLCLAYTUKB*LC*WHATWASTHATTHING 

the numbers in parenthesis are there because i wasnt sure they should be included in the “code” or not. i also thought of this with the BSI - bunny smiles incorporated and also the years 1978 and 1979. the shits in asterisks are coughs and light coughs, which were capitalized in the closed captions so i included them too just in case

i then jotted, in parenthesis of course, the names of the animatronics when they were listed in the animation section of the video; bon aka the blue bunny, sha aka the sheep one, boozoo aka the clown<3 honk<33, and banny aka the purpled eyelashed up one who is also a bunny btw. also i got boozoo the clown and boozoo the mustache guy confused because apparently the clowns name is billy???? but they named “boozoo” in bons sleepover and showed the clown? idk maybe im an idiot and theyre the same or just an idiot and theyre different or a super mega (matt and ryan?!?!??) idiot in general which is probably the case

i started drawing little stars to write down things i thought would be super important or to 100% look at again. the first subject of this pointy torture was the part of the video where at 3:00, i marked it down to make sure to reverse the audio as it was most definitely a weird audio that has that signature warp-y effect that makes sure you KNOW its in reverse. i then listened back to it Very carefully (still got it wrong) and got this: “you finally start to remember. that old doll. they will look out for you soon” im also pretty sure i heard “sophie” at the end of that audio but im not entirely sure and dont remember and i dont wanna go back to check lmfao but anyways it didnt matter because i was wrong anyway. after i had finished all 3 walten files i watched the film theory video on the walten files (which didnt cover all 3 but was dece.) out of curiosity and to hear matpats signature silly little voice explain some stuff i already knew, and click some shit in my brain that i couldve thought up of if i was a bit more... i dont know honestly. anyways yeah so the actual audio is “you finally start to remember. that old day. they will look out for you soon.” so yeah. day, not doll.

i then wrote down “sarah evelyn”, the name on the bons sleepover animation (i dont remember if she created it or animated it or whatnot) and scribbled will she matter? under her name. turns out no, as i didnt see her name in the rest of the series, let alone the first video. this is also a great time to mention how matpat theory helped me realize that the walten files are collections of videos, uploaded onto youtube by anthony. (i already knew about anthony as he signed his name in the descriptions of the youtube videos, making me categorize this overall web series more into an arg type genre.) but yes, the tapes, recorded “irl” footage, animated clips, vhs tape recordings and other audio-visual content is all collected and labeled the walten files, as i had mistaken each video to be a tape. stupid me. alrighty, onward!

i starred this one, good for me; MISSING: Jack Walten LAST SEEN: 06/11/1974

i jotted down with an arrow that; sophie was a nightguard? she was wearing the uniform explained in tape 2 i dont know why but i went back into my video 1 notes after i had watched video 2. organization purposes. i guess.?? 

i then paused the video when the screen flickered a date, the beginning of video footage dated 10/10/1982 (Brian Stells?) god my little genius ass assuming the videographer was brian stells, based on the id card i saw earlier.

i then wrote down what text i saw on the dead, mangled, bloody body in the purple security suit; “i cant feel anything” “he thought i was her” then drew a little arrow pointing to; thought brian was sophie? or ashley? i also starred the name Brian Stells this is totally out of order LMFAOOOOOOOO also i wrote down ashley because, again, my little pea brain went back on my video 1 notes after watching video 2. but yep thats all i wrote for The Walten Files 1 - Company Introductory Tape

THE WALTEN FILES - VIDEO #2 

Tape #1 - created 07/02/1978

awesome how thats first and foremost in the captions. god. so sexy of you martin walls. /j /nsx

this pack of notes is chunkier because again, like i have mentioned before i am an absolute goober and thought the capitalized letters of the words would actually mean something. I MEAN MAYBE THEY DO AND IM JUST DOING IT WRONG but i stopped doing it after this video because holy shit it was exhausting and my stupid little fingers couldnt take the writing anymore becasue i am WEAK. 

so write off the bat (squeak) i wrote down 197[] the blacked out rectangle over the last digit of that year and everything im also now assuming its probably 1978 or 1974 because lore reasons but whos to say but yeah i also wrote down this;

Tape #2 - created 08/13/1978

then, straight up in the beginning of the video i caught it, the flash of text, as i had by now realized i gotta be SUPER stupid focused on the screen in case i miss anything, i wanted to be crazy precise on my theorizing and mental notes, among other things. but yes i saw it, the first half of a youtube link;  “https://youtu” 

claps hands together and rubs them evilly. oh yeah baby. thats the hot lunch. this shit right here? the cats pajamas. lets fucking go.

i wrote down this goofy shit i pasued to inspect when i saw bon sorting through a file cabinet and naturally scribbled down the labels and other written things i could see on the files; 

relocate X/X/75 felix

storage K-9 07/23/1975 felix k(ranken)

Bons Burgers 06/28/1974 Jack Walten

Shipping Service 1975

New Location -> 1982

i also wrote down more goofy shit, like when banny was created for some reason; in 1974

starred, i noted to go back and reverse the audio at 5:09, when played back, i didnt write it down so i dont remember. lmao.

i also marked to screenshot and brighten the darkened image i saw at 5:20, i was going to do it on my phone then realized i can just do it on my computer so i quickly took a screenshot, brightened it and wrote down what i saw; a missing person poster that read MISSING: SUSAN WOODINGS(?) Last seen: 1974 i was very unsure of the spelling of her last name because the image was so goddamn low quality and grainy but its what i saw. this is where tape #3 gets thrown in, which im gonna type again because i like how the formatting looks;

Tape #3 - created 07/09/1978 (BEFORE tape 2?!//1/1??? its more likely than you think)

i wrote down more dates, any dates i saw, i jotted down. i wrote; 

Technical Support 1978 

then, 

Brian Stells (for some reason i dont remember right now)

alrighty this is where the stupid capitalized letters come in, but before it looks like i vomit a keysmash time infinity on this, ill put down the little inbetween things i wrote in the midst of the caps lockalypse like timestamps and stuff, so here you go;

- Reverse at 8:16 which i did but of course didnt write down what i heard. i think it was too warbled to hear anything clear out of it, or it was just the good ol auditory processing issues fucking me over yet again. WAIT yep yes i did here it is: “rosemary would go to the restaurant every night hoping that [her] beloved husband would reappear after being missing for weeks but no response until one day [s]he heard a voice [saying] ‘i know where he is rosie’ coming from the back stage” the bracketed stuff is the corrections, i misheard the audio and thought the audio said “his”, “he” and “singing” like a nimrod

- Brighten at 10:14 which was another missing person poster, but i dont think it had any information on it because i didnt write it down, just;

- Sophie again (pic at 9:08?) (dismemberd and put in Sha) i was stupid and wrong haha idiot it was rosemary who was put in sha but anywho

i starred and underlined a huge thing i discovered which was;

- Walten had 3 kids which i dont remember how i found out but it doesnt matter, its good important info i uncovered.

- Tape #4 - Unkown Date

- recorded 07/12-07/14 1978 

- Hilary B, Ashley P & Kevin W i made sure to get these names down as soon as i saw them on screen but then realized shortly after i wouldnt really need to have it as the closed captions made sure i knew which person was talking by using their first initial (capitalized of course) before each line of text. this is the perfect time to announce the arrival of the clusterfuck of capital letters, which is going to include colons which will indicate that the letter before it is the initial of the person talking. without further aedue, here comes another chinese earthquake;

TCWTSTATO(K-9)TBSSFWFCNEHAWBSUBIUC(BSIIDC)OWHISF INBIJTILNSPL(K-9)LCSCKCCCWTTLTLITTTYROTFAJAMHPYYSTCSPMBBWSBIB H:NTPPCCK:DA:HH:YCPRPMWTCBCRAWK:JH:SYYTCPBACPSTBAWCA:TK(?):FMTTCMK:TCPNOA:DTOFK:ITNPPRA:YBUTIRRFH:HKIBESRAIA:TCK:WA:WPCCFTRRIDPEH:GGK:GPA:LKK:WA:HNCGTKMK:YH:IGKA:ESK:MFH:RK:HILRLBNTRPPUWHITRRTPEIFEPH:YWBEBPK:MAHPBTRPTRPEL(LN)HTACPKLIKHPFITSKLTKLB(LB?)ISIBSUBIPRW AEBATHSPUAICTPURTWBBRPHTRTIIIILTCITCUCCP S(bpe, be)WA”IDCPBPSIB

holy shit its finally over okay now onto some MORE of what i wrote down in between and also after that keysmash attack;

12 doors? (backrooms) 27? 26? i was unsure because ashley was unsure too lmfao

found cassette (6/11/78) <- says “discard”? yeah it did

Tape in clown audio, speaking voice; jack, susan, charles(?), rosemary, sophie, last word sounds like “walrus” it was walten lmfao

Ashley died? yeah she did lmfao OR AT LEAST I THINK SO??

starred this one, Reverse @ 17:06, then got this;

“they left the next day, they thought ashley left early, but she was in the backdoors, screaming as much as she could, but no one heard the screams, the following days the caretakers would complain about an awful smell coming from the backdoors, company decided to shut down facility until new advice, the relocate project was unsuccessful. ashley is still there, but she is not screaming anymore, she saw something she wasnt supposed to see and now shes beautiful” the phrase “shes beautiful” was repeating like a bajillion times in that wall of text. then, god motherfuckng bless: 

at 17:23 i found the other half of the youtube link, “.be/k07QqEDOfQ” i pieced that bad boy together as instant as i think any form of ramen could never be, but remained ever patient. because i made sure to jot down this before moving onto my next segment;

@ end of vid 2, “shadow man sees* me when lights go off” im an idiot *it was actually “feeds” not “sees”, which AGAIN, i only found out after watching the stupid little film theory video *begins snarling and foaming at the mouth*

okay im not proud to admit im editing this to post it and realized ive lost my notes. well. 

might as well post what ive got! if i find my shit ill add onto this, i suppose.

#the walten files #twf #notes #horror

[teamjacobthot]

this has been said before but i forgot who (sorry) but i wish we got to see jacob and bella talk about their moms and how even though bella has her mom it doesn't feel like she's emotionally/physically there for her idk they could've really bonded over this and we couldve gotten more insight about jacobs personality cause not having a parent really changes people!! also whats the point of having her dead if they hardly bring it up or make it useful to the plot?

you are SO right. i wish jacob and bella talked about their moms at least once. like imagine how great that would’ve been for their relationship? for adding depth to both of their characters??? i feel like smeyer didnt bring up jacobs mom (besides the horrid imagery of “she was so mangled that they had to nail her coffin shut” which is ????!!!! but i digress......) bc she didnt plan on developing him much beyond the phasing thing. but now that you mention it, keeping her alive could’ve possibly made the team jacob angle even better (if we’re going at this from the love triangle / “bella was ALWAYS meant to end up w edward” perspective), and we all know she wasn’t gonna give us that on purpose. but now you got me thinkin........

if sarah was still alive, then rachel and rebecca would’ve stuck around just a little bit longer. i still like to think rachel wouldve gone to an in-state college, just maybe not one as far away as wsu, and rebecca also would’ve found a hot surfer boyfriend.......just not so fast. so the twins wouldve been more present in jacob and bella’s lives, and all 4 of the kiddos would’ve benefited from more mutual support among each other, as well as support from another trusted adult, despite already having a plethora of trusted adults in billy, sue, harry, charlie, etc. (im a big fan of communities/groups of friends all looking out for each other, and im also a firm believer that charlie, billy, sarah, sue, and harry were the OG CliqueTM but whatever.)

so if sarah was alive and if the twins stuck around for a lil while longer, jacob wouldn’t feel so abandoned and bella would’ve had friends, assuming she and the twins were actually close before she stopped visiting forks/la push as a kid. billy wouldn’t be seen as the “superstitious old guy” bc sarah most definitely would’ve backed him up in his suspicions about the cullens. if i remember correctly, there was a small and sad bit in breaking dawn where billy was trying to talk jacob into leaving bella alone bc he’d just gotten rachel back and didnt wanna lose jacob. of course, his dumbass son still would’ve done that, but sarah would’ve also helped talk some sense into their dumbass son, but she ALSO would’ve been there for billy so he wouldn’t feel so abandoned.

i also imagine sarah would continue to be good friends with charlie and harry, and absolute besties with sue. maybe she’d talk sue out of dating a cop too lmfao. it’s too bad smeyer sees the wolf pack characters and is like “two present parents??? i think the fuck not!”

this was a great ask, anon. tysm 💖💖

#anon #thankfully tho my jxb magnum opus covers this 💞 #deadbeat mom vs dead mom FIGHT #im jk #but also this inspired me to write a tender scene w leah and jacob in my leah fic #so imma go write that down before i forget #jacob #wolf pack #bella #billy #sue #harry #charlie

[shaydixons]

Hellooo so u are like the only skam blog i know still exists lol and i just got back into skam and there are now like a bajillion versions and many new characters so anyway i had two questions.

1) what are ur favorite skams to see (besides the og?) Which ones do u recommend? You can say specific seasons or a whole show!

2) why is it that when i google " skam s3" i get mostly french skam results😂 is it better than the og skam s3 or? When i stopped watching og skam s3 was like. Unparalleled

omg hi im so flattered you remember me jhgfghjhgfh

ok so each skam remake has its issues but my favorites are skamNL, skam españa, and skam austin; though druck is also good. imo these are the only ones worth watching and each of them bring something different to the table!

the ones i like:

skam netherlands: only got 2 seasons but the characters are so fun and stylish and it has a really great vibe, i barely watched season 2 bc that’s the noorhelm season lmfao but anyway i think it’s worth a watch for sure!! i loveee isa (eva) and liv (noora) especially. also esra (she doesn’t have an og skam equivalent) is so beautiful and a lesbian i declare

skam españa: the first 3 seasons were actually so perfect, and then they messed up in the amira (sana) season unfortunately. it also has a really lovely vibe and a lot of love between the characters and the only joneva i would support getting back together! also season 2 has a relationship between 2 bi girls as the focus!!! and season 3 is the only season among all skam versions that deals with abuse & also the only decent noorhelm. i think this one is objectively the best, but also they really dropped the ball in season 4 :(

skam austin: some people think it’s cringey but it’s honestly my favorite! the only female isak (shay!! my url!!!!) and it’s just a ton of fun and sparks joy and i miss it so much - also only got 2 seasons :(((

druck (german skam): i hate mia (noora)’s season more than i can tell you (altho i like mia :( just like fuck druck’s noorhelm & it’s so lesbophobic like...) BUT their season 3 is genuinely so great and original and their even is trans which is just amazing. also they’ve continued with seasons 5 and 6 with a new generation of characters INCLUDING FATOU WHO I WOULD DIE FOR!!!! (lesbian) also good vibes. also they had the least bad sana season i think. 

the ones i don’t like

skam france: the one everyone rags on but it deserves it bc it’s legit so bad..... like they took skam (good vibes) and made it into a melodramatic teen show with like sex scenes and literally zero lighting. their evak (eliott and lucas) was pretty good but their other seasons are bad. i wouldn’t even go so far as to say it’s one of the best evaks honestly, but their season 3 is one of skam france’s better seasons, if not the best / only good one. but yeah skam france really took a teen show and made it dramatic and adult-y and it’s just bad vibes

skam italia: racist mess.... dont go near

wtfock (belgian skam): BAD!!!! LITERALLY SO BAD like it has so many offenses i couldn’t even try to recall all of them but i think the worst thing they did was have their evak (robbe & sander) get beaten up for no reason like they just had them get hatecrimed in robbe’s season for shock value lol. horrible show. bad vibes

also to answer your question here is my ranking of the evaks (besides original bc idk where 2 put that bc it has a special place in my heart)

crisana (skam es) but im biased bc they’re the only wlw evak but literally they are great and i love them

davenzi (druck) good sweet vibes & good chemistry :)

elu (skam fr) bc their season was honestly really fun im sorry like sue me. that scene where lucas plays the piano is so romantic

idk their ship name but sander x robbe (wtfock) they had legit good chemistry and were super sweet but the writing..... bad.... also so sexualized rip.......

skam italia’s evak idr their names but aside from skam italia being awful they also had NO CHEMISTRY lmaoooo like the cinematographers started shooting really darks scenes 2 mask how much the actors clearly did not want to kiss each other. comedy....

#ask #feel free to ask me more stuff i have opinions :-)

[bxstiae]

plots, please! with any of my muses. :^)

3+ interesting  plots / relationships / connections │ ACCEPTING │ @hamartio​ why do you do this to me.... when you know i that i want all of your muses :(

i’ll do hector. cause you know i love me that man. ( and i already did something similar with zelgius already )

1. so you know how i brought up that link has that unnatural strength? yea? okay but what about.... hector finding out about that. like hec finding out that.... link is capable of suplexing somebody HECTOR’S SIZE. but not just that. hector also just finding out that link loves to sumo wrestle / spar. he is a man of little words and few emotions, but you bring up sparring and you have him hooked. and despite his size, he’s capable of holding his ground. you know i have always wondered what HECTOR would think about link. you know? i mean we talked about zelg just a bit but what about your OG blue boi?

2.  i know we talked about zelg accidentally touching link’s twilight shard but.... what about...... hector.... >:] LOLOLOLOL okay okay okay. i digress though. but you know what i just realised. armads has a thunder/lightning motif right? GOD. link has a BAD problem with armads then. he really does. you bet that this hylian will steer clear from the legendary weapon like its the plague ( it probably is tbh ). link will never tell him why. and its not like he will flinch or anything ( for the most part ). but he just has a problem with it. electricity is the ONE thing he will not play with. so im sure whenever hec is lugging that weapon around, link is paying more attention to the axe than hector. but you know what i want??? i want bumbling hector to realise this. and maybe mistake it for like ‘oh are you interested in armads?’ i don’t know if thats really what hector would do but NO PLEASE I WANT AN INTERACTION WITH THIS IDEA. i can already imagine. link just not saying anythig and keeping his distance. and its a bit of ???? because well link is very friendly and casual around hector so why now when he has a weapon??

3. okay so you know i ship hec/emm. so it will be a fact that i don’t ship hector with any of my other muses. but just imagine. hector inviting link to the wedding ceremony right? ( cause you know link probably is capable of ‘accidentally warping himself to elibe as well’ -- that and its also not hard to ‘summon’ him. literally anybody can summon him. no really that dumbass grey summoned him to valentia, so im sure hector & co can. or hec can ask emmeryn to, since she’s more well-versed in magic. ) but anyway nflsfdgh i kinda went off. but still. hector and link like.... becoming super close right. maybe not like bros. but still. close enough. cause yea link is capable of befriending just about anybody. and YEA he WOULD go to the wedding. cause hector is a friend after all. but god. imagine. hector showing LINK around in elibe. cause if you think about it..... elibe... could be looked at with hyrule. you have legendary weapons.... you kill some dragons... like. its not... that... farfetched to look at SOME parallels right....? right??? anyway. i mean... link in elibe in general. i may know nothing about everything but im always down for that discussion.... 

3.2. okay but take away emmeryn right. just straight up take hector and co and they are doing their journey. and i see HECTOR being the idiot who accidentally summons link to elibe. like maybe they run into some straight ruins. right? and lyn and eli are both like maybe we shouldn’t mess with this cause... you know... its weird and maybe something bad will happen. well hec becing hoho! nothing bad is gonna happen!!! and then.... well. theres link. just warping right before them. with master sword and all. and they’re just sitting there like O____O hector wat did u do..... meanwhile link just.... stares back at them for a second and.... picks himself up and casually just leaves. cause well now he has to go and figure out how to get back home. but you KNOW somebody is gonnna be like no join us!!! im sure eli will probably look at him and be like. hmmm....???? but slhf yea honestly i wuldn’t mind an adventure where link is with hec & co. hnestly. when i set up my fire emblem verses, thats how i set them up to be. feh just happens to be the EASIEST verse to do. but no really. i made this verse after i spoke with susanne about about alm & co accidentally summoned him in valentia. im sure hec & co would be the same way lmfao.

#⚜ ; — [ ᵗʳᵃˢʰᵇᵒᵃᵗˑᵗˣᵗ ▲ ooc. ] #⚜ ; — [ ˡᵉᵗᵗᵉʳ ʳᵉᶜᵉᶤᵛᵉᵈ ▲ answer. ] #hamartio #can i just say i love hector mre than i lve zelg. #but its probably cause he marries my sweet lady

[wuunderstruck-a]

one - ten !!

welcome to 2k18 rp meme — no longer accepting lmfao

thank u to shannon for being Extra and sending me literally every question in this meme, ily

ten faceclaims i’ve used in the past

ooh boy. this is a hard one. daniel sunjata (as paul briggs), chloe bennet as skye (bc we didn’t know her as daisy johnson then lmfao), and everyone on my (currently) inactive list. EDIT: i forgot, shannon purser!!! god i love her tbh i miss her.

nine faceclaims i want to use in the future

answered here!

eight present/past characters

i’ve had so many characters it’s hard to even remember them BUT I SHALL TRY.

cait scott, a character from a wip of mine who won a contest to appear on a teen television show and was catapulted to fame (i’ve toyed with revamping her and bringing her here also yes her name was a play on ‘great scott!’)

madison caverly, my very very first rp muse. i made her on an oc blog in 2013 and she was my first foray into the rp world. she’s got a few flaws but i have an immense soft spot for her and i brought her over to indie with me.

nadia johnson, my character that i made for my very first d&d campaign. i quickly fell in love with her and even though we’re not playing that campaign rn, i brought her to indie and she’s one of my favorite characters i’ve made for anything. she’s so resilient and brave and has so many layers i have to explore.

owen wheeler, one of my first characters i made on this blog. i had no idea what to do with him until @warmhcney suggested this plot idea and suddenly, owen sprang to life. he’s now a real person in my head and i can never go back. my life has been changed by him, as weird as it is to say. thank you, del, for suggesting owen and molly, because without them i wouldn’t have owen as he is today.

silas trask, another one of my early muses for this. i honestly don’t know where the idea for him came from, really. but he’s honestly a person of his own and a lil shit. every time i write a reply for him the words fly off my fingers, his sassy retorts taking shape on their own. he makes me laugh every time, and i love him so much.

max wheeler, my lost boy. i made him for a group rp and then i realized… dude. what if he’s owen’s younger brother? the rest is history. max is constantly searching, constantly hurting, constantly falling apart. and god, he just needs to be loved. this is just my daily reminder how much max needs love and it’s also an excuse for me to cry about him, thank u.

i also just remembered two old characters from a novel, quinn & nadine. i made them when i was still struggling with accepting my sexuality, and they were an outlet for me to express that. i rly need to do something with them soon bc they were so important to me.

seven characters i want to play

oH BOY OH BOY

ok. so i want to play this cop that’s too soft to actually be a cop, yanno? i think this was inspired by a reddit thread or smth. but i have had this idea for a while, just struggled with the actual execution of it.

i don’t have enough actual bad muses, i rly struggle with playing those, so this is just a general umbrella that i want to do that.

more secret agents & mob bosses in general; i live for that shit.

i rly want this spoiled billionaire daddy’s girl, but i haven’t figured out how to play her w/o me actually hating her guts, so that’s on hold for now.

an actual douche boy that actually fucks a bunch of people, but i have a hard time again figuring out how to play him w/o me actually hating his guts. i have a lot of internal problems can u tell i also keep giving my muses soft sides gdi

one half of a married couple where someone plays one half and i play the other idk just throwin that out there ;) ;) ;)

i rly wanna play bex taylor-klaus as well, plus just add more butch muses to my repertoire in general

six plots of the past/present

well like i mentioned above, owen wheeler was basically spawned from a plot involving a “grumpy secret agent” having to take care of a younger spoiledish girl basically? i think ??? i’D HAVE TO FIND IT but that was a pretty iconic plot omfg (hi del)

i’m a very big hoe for the childhood friends to lovers trope, @hiitchhikers​ and i have riley & lorelai and the og, gianna & leo that fall into this and im in love

idk why i’m suddenly blanking rip

most of the plots i have rn have been super organic from the chemistry that has happened between our muses? that doesnt mean i don’t like doing plots that are in my wishlist tag (bc i LOVE it), but i also like winging it!!!

five plots i want to do in the future

like i said, i would love to do a preestablished-type marriage plot with someone (if we were discussing this already, i’m so sorry, i’m trash. pls nudge me again)

i also was thinking how much i would love to make muses who have siblings with other mun’s muses? @lucywrites​ and i did this with silas and flora trask and it was the best decision of my life

i’ve also rly wanted to do some celebrity plots??? something like this tbh or anything rly

i also was thinking about the cast of tv shows and how they literally are a family and someday i want to do a mumu based on that. imagine all the relationships !!! the drama !!! everything

i also love all those single parent + kindergarten teacher plots — my single parent muses luna & sebastián would be perfect for this, or even joss who takes care of her younger brother

four ships

listen, i tried to pick, but it ended up being IMPOSSIBLE. i love you all so much, thank you for giving me these ships. to everyone who ships with me, you mean the world. 

three friendships

lyra, lorelai, & jack – @hiitchhikers & @niallhcran

wesley, sally, & heather – @peytrps & @warmhcney

nadine & savannah, katy & molly, celine & the wheelers – @warmhcney

p.s. — i want more platonic ships… pls come @ me

two roleplays

i’m going to say @epochhq & @sundridgehq! both have such kind souls and i’ve met so many good people through them. 

one partner

again, picking would be impossible. thank you all for shipping, rping, and interacting with me. i’m sorry for being so slow & sucky at replying to messages & threads, but i love you all so much. it means so much that you’re here, thank you for sticking around. I LOVE YOU!

#answered #about the mun #hcrdliquor #save tag #WOWIE #I LOVE THIS

[ts-hvv4]

EPISODE FIVE: “YOU HEAR THAT NOISE? ITS THE SOUND OF AN UPRISING” - Chris

BARRY MANILOW IS DISGUSTED WITH THIS CHOICE OF CHALLENGE @nicole @owen @monty @andrew

Kage has just been voted out and I have a lot of thoughts in my head when LO AND BEHOLD Ned messages me saying how Jake talked about Armonia sticking together, also wanting Olivia safe, and Andreas/Dennis/me picked off. I dunno if it is true or not but I have to laugh.  Malik and Ned were supposedly on the bottom of the tribe, but I suspect now these two wanna flip and such. Now this is further complicated by me not knowing where Sarah, Matt, Nicklas, and Lukas stand and I fear that if/when we merge, there is intention on getting a person like me out. Nevertheless, I need to do as much talking as I can with people

Ned just came to me telling me, that at Ancient Thera Jake told him, they bamboozled my og tribe and want to stick together and stay "OG Armonia strong" and want Ned to save Olivia... Oh boy. I feel really really good about Ned telling me this, I guess that means that Olivia so far is the person to go, IF we lose the challenge and I somehow need to find out a way to warn the others, even though that could blow up my game come merge aswell. But first off, thank you ned <3

You hear the noise? It's the sound of an uprising! I am so about to start chanting some Les Misérables up in here. Like I can be a pretty calm person but when it comes to adversity, I don't whine and cry about it, I act about it to bring a change for myself and right now I feel I need a change or else I am screwed. So alas, it's time to rally the troops

how did last round even happen LMFAO... so skrt skrt lets rewind ladies! we lose the challenge because certain judges don’t have TASTE. and it was a mess cus we were all sure we would win so we didn’t talk for 3 days LMFAO. i was nervous cus my old tribe was in the minority, but i am close with Nicklas. I kept telling him and the others that i don’t really trust Trent and would gladly vote him out, however Nicklas told me before that there was some mistrust with Kage. So I pushed that to him, saying i would feel better with Kage going now, and that i’d vote trent the next time we lose. He said he would consider it but was very weary. ...then a couple hours later sarah decides she wants Kage out? I was confused, and Sharifa was freaking tf out. Oh also Sharifa told me she has the idol, fun FACT. But near tribal Sarah made a chat of me her nicklas matt sharifa and kurt to discuss a vote. We agreed on Kage, and somehow... he went home LOL. So, I guess I’m feeling a bit more secure. But in terms of the overall game, i am worried because apparently the other tribe thinks i’m inactive (um i give the energy i receive and matt and kage sucked ass at talking to me so i wasn’t going to bother having a dry conversation) so i wonder if people won’t take me seriously in this game ! boo. whatever. anyways i’m at the ancient thera and i better get an idol period 

I’m just a fat little bitch who loves berries

DO YOU HEAR THE PEOPLE SING? SINGING A SONGS OF ANGRY MEN? IT IS THE MUSIC OF THE PEOPLE WHO WILL NOT BE SLAVES AGAIN. WITH THE BEATING OF YOUR HEART ECHOES THE BEATING OF THE DRUMS, THERE IS A LIFE ABOUT TO START WHEN TOMORROW COMES!

im so glad we won immunity, i need a damn BREAK. but now i’m nervous that Ned is going to get voted out because he’s basically inactive lmao. but i hope he survives. sarah approached me last night and asked if i found my “Dani” in the game (aka my loyal ride or die) and i said no and she said good because she wants to work with me. she then asks if i’m good with sharifa and kurt and i say yes and she says that she “adores” them. hm idk what to think! i asked who she was close w on her old tribe, and of course she says “i like them all equally :)” -.- if we happen to lose again, i think i would want matt or lukas out the most because i don’t know how much i actually trust them, but i think we might be stuck voting trent if they really want us to pay them back for the kage vote. i just need another tribe swap!!!!!!!!

Too much pressure

Chris found the idol!!!!!! I am so happy for him, and for the trio of me/dennis/chris. I now know where half the idols in this game are ....... this is INCREDIBLE!! Olivia continues to not speak game with me at all, and Keegan isn't much better. Given the new tea that Ned spilled about Olivia and Jake, we are for sure targeting Olivia. The vote should be 3-2-2 right now, with Dennis, Malik, and Ned voting Olivia. Then Chris and I are voting Keegan, with Olivia and Keegan throwing their votes on either Chris or I. With the idol, even if we have any funny business at tribal like votes, etc - then we should be good..... i pray haha

We lost the challenge which is unfortunate but not surprisingly. This tribe is just full of challenge flops. Scrambling for tribal has been... minimal to say the least. DENNIS is saying he’ll vote for anyone as long as he survives the round. CHRIS is saying he hopes tribal lines aren’t still in play but is willing to do what he has to survive. And ANDREAS is just kind of floating there not scrambling too hard. The TINKY CLAN is currently deciding who to vote between ANDREAS and CHRIS since we want DENNIS around for challenges. Ultimately it doesn’t really matter which of the three get votes off as long as they don’t have idols and we manage to make it through unscathed. The McBITCHES still need to reunite. On that note, major props to the OG AMMONIA tribe for getting KAGE voted out.

OLIVIA and I are hatching a plan to maybe have MALIK idoled out of the game. As it turns out, OLIVIA and NED are both getting annoyed with how MALIK is playing the game and don’t really want to continue working with him. And that’s fair. I think MALIK is a great person but as a player. Yikes. He sure is messy. Right now we’re deciding whether we want to tell DENNIS straight up to vote for MALIK, hoping he passes the word to CHRIS and ANDREAS, or if we should hang back and just not really let them in on the current plan to vote out ANDREAS. We could just straight up vote out MALIK but that seems like a bad option at the moment. Might lead to a 3-3 tie next tribal and possibly rocks, which would be terrible.

I am BEYOND tired of Olivia slandering me, talking down on me, and trying to come for me not once but TWICE this game. I knew the Matt thing had to have been true because Chris told me and Chris isn’t a liar, he never lies to me. I didn’t know about Matt, but Olivia apparently confirmed it TO ANDREAS. Seriously, what is this girls issue with me? She’s been at me, saying all this shit about me but acting so nice and cool to me to my face. I felt like I’ve legit done nothing to her, and I’ve even apologized more than once just in case I did anything. But now you wanna come for me. Hopefully tonight this bullshit will end, with it in my favor of you going home, because I am so sick of her and her antics. I’m using this to vent so I don’t blast off at her whether I or her leave this tribal. Gotta be careful sis.

I really hope the core group of five actually have my back. I definitely feel they do, but I’m just so paranoid after the news recently about it. I really am so nervous because no vote has gone the exact way it’s supposed to so far, but I hope that is five are good and we all stay. If an idol takes me out I’ll be so sad. I love those guys! Ned, Dennis, Andreas and Chris! ❤️🔥 Teen Titans!

Today has pretty much been INSANE. I owned having the idol to Andreas/Dennis and hopefully they believe me when I say I just found it, Olivia/Keegan finally lived for Matt and Sarah's warning that they wanted Malik out, and so now, this is hopefully going to be a 3-2-2 vote of all Armonia, which will probably cause confusion with the other tribepeeps hopefully! Meanwhile, Ned/Malik want to work with us, Malik trusts me even more, and tbh I feel so good. It all is beginning to feel like it is coming all together!

[tslasvegas]

Episode 5 - “The clowns are in full force this season” - Jaiden

The clowns are in full force this season. First of all that tribal council was a load of fucking shit lmfao, I could not believe the sob stories Nik and Joey were pulling out to try and stay another day in this fucking org... it is final 17 it's not that serious. I will say that I immediately regretted the decision to vote for Joey but now I'm realizing how beneficial it might've been after all, like.. now people don't see that Joey and I are as closely aligned as we are and it definitely shows Kailyn that not only can I be loyal, but also that I had an accurate read on the events of this tribe. Interestingly enough, Kailyn did NOT believe me when I told her we didn't have the votes to keep Nik without drawing rocks. As soon as the tie came in I acted all mad and said "I'm not drawing rocks for this, I'm flipping". ...and Kailyn still had the nerve to ask "wait did you flip?" after it was all said and done! The funny thing is, Ben also assumed Kailyn flipped and immediately DMed me saying "So I assume Kailyn flipped go figure" or something to that extent. LOVES IT! Maybe no one thinks I'm a flip-flopper after all. Rachael being on this tribe already bugs me because I think she's going to get along with just about everybody and we should've taken a shot at her when we had a chance. It's become evident that I need to start playing the chips game a lot more than I have been because those little buggers are going to become more and more important as time goes along. I think Rachael is fucking full of it when she says there was nothing on Exile for her. She either has an idol and is lying about it, or she's got some sort of advantage to help her out and I'm not here for it. I did eventually come clean to Rachael about the whole DeNara vote thing, where I whipped around and pretended to be voting for Ben afterwards, but I don't think it has a strong impact on our relationship. She gives me such an uneasy vibe and I don't want her around much longer... I kind of hate this tribe I got swapped onto because everybody here feels like legitimate threats to win this game except I guess myself right now. And Xavier. He doesn't really provide much to the game yet, but I bet he will surprise us all along the way. Agenda for this round... make sure we win immunity. But if we don't.. sorry Rachael, you're going to just have to see your buddy Nik a lot sooner than you would've liked. Ciao!

Survived another Tribal!

Super sad to see Nik voted out but also insanely glad to see Joey survived. It would be heartbreaking to see him voted out first after the swap. Livingston and I are sharing all the chips we have and when we spin the wheel we’re transferring chips so if we land on a bankrupt spot we don’t lose the 28 chips we have so far. If we win this next immunity challenge, we may have enough chips to purchase the super idol that’s on sale for 48 chips. (If we both bid two chips on the challenge and then spin the wheel and get some chips.) otherwise, if someone purchases it before we do, we may end up buying some other useful items. Now it’s a selfie scavenger hunt which I hate, but that’s alright. Gonna give it my all and hope to take home the win. 

I just had a moment of clarity. The other tribe are full of OG Palazzo. If they stick together, we're screwed. We should win this next one, see how their vote goes, and change our plans accordingly.

So my lazy ass hasent done any of these yet. So let me catch y’all up. So when my original trive first went to tribal I kinda thought I was fucked cus like I barely talked to ppl. Nik and Rachel were my closest allies (Rachael being my final 2). So quickly they told me denara wanted my ass out. Fucking mistake. So I got my sheep in order and went to work. I pulled some bs outta my ass and was like yo we got a swap coming up and denara is too fucking social she’s gonna flip on your asses. The more I said it the more it made sense to me lol. That fucking tribal was AIDSSS. I’m literally sitting there thinking I was getting booted, but my fucming savior Jaiden came up clutch. We sent that bitch packing. So me and Rachael have had a strat this game to send each other our coins before spinning the wheel to avoid going bankrupt. Since I’m a fucking gambling addict I’m always betting on the comps and spinning that wheel till I’m stacked on coins. So we hit a swap and I actually started talking to people. John is pretty chill and Xavier is kinda weird ngl. When it came time to vote nobody wanted to bring anything up to me. I had to hear from kaitlyn that nik was sadly the vote. So I quickly went to work. I felt the least connected to Joey so I went after his bitch ass. Originally, I didn’t wanna stick with my tribe but like they kinda forced us into that by keeping us in the dark. Everytime I’d ask Xavier his thoughts he’d just say some weird ass response and avoid my question lol. So like I kinda expected a tie vote and tbh I wanted rocks. We get to tribal it was a tie, and I’m fucking trying my best to get Xavier to flip cus he just seems like the dumbest person there. He’s like we can take nik out now then Joey next. LIKE FUCK NO. He wanted to create an all noobies alliance with idek. But I agreed cus fuck it. So sadly nik went home cus jaiden flipped :/ BUT me and Rachael got all his chips!! Now I’m fucking vibing with 10, and Rachael had got 8. Tbh we wanna save up for an idol, but with the shop at 20% and another 4-4 vote looming, I’d be down to snag an extra vote. I gotta peep all these new prices tho. I do hope we win this comp cus I’m obviously betting and I’m too lazy to fucking deal with another tribal. Well anyways peace out see y’all later. 

My plan continues to just be working on relationships and hopefully winning the challenges. Either way, I've participated one of the most on the team so I'm hoping if we do lose, I won't become the target. I know I have a strong relationship with Kevin, which is 1/4 of the tribe. I'm also working on my relationships with Keegan, Pat, and Livingston. I kind of hope the other team targets Rachael, just because I wasn't a huge fan the last time I had to deal with her. I also want John and Xavier to survive because I know I have solid relationships with them. We're at day 14 and I've already put so much work to evolve my game, I want to go from worst to first - I want to do all the things I couldn't do when I was 16. But I have to keep thinking three steps ahead. So if we lose, my target is Mo. Nobody from OG Pink has been voted out yet - but because they have majority on this tribe there really isn't much I can do yet, but Mo hasn't contributed to the challenge. They're also very awkward, so I think I'd be able to swing it. If I keep working on my relationships, working hard in challenges and showing myself as a good ally - I have a chance to make it deep in this game. For now - let's hope we win the challenge so I can relax a little bit more. Day 15 is the farthest I've ever made it so if we do end up winning I've completed my third goal. (The first two being going a tribal without getting a vote, and leading a blindside.) My other four goals - getting an advantage, making merge, winning individual immunity, and winning this game. Get your checklist out, cause I'm coming.

Keegs and I have 28 chips between us then Okay so I told Keegan this, and I could be wrong, but I feel as if the numbers in the vault seem fairly good and that leads me to believe that nothing has been bought yet. If anyone else gotten in there, they are likely saving up for the Super Idol. Keegan and I will be saving up for it but if it ends up being gone, we'll at least have enough chips to pick up some other stuff. Keegan to me: "Also, I just thought of something. Since it’s possible to go Bankrupt from the wheel, would it be a good idea for us to give most/all chips to each other before we spin the wheel? That way if we do land on a bad spot, we’re only losing like 1 chip instead of the 10-20?" This gonna be our wheel strat moving forward

...five seconds later

Jake came to me wanting to work together. Of course, there is no real way to turn such things down so I let Keegs know and then I told him I would be down for that. I am not tryna do some Final 2 or whatever. For now it is just a "I have your back if you have mine" type thing. Jake also went to Keegan so Jake better not fuck up and be overly messy because I have enjoyed my convos w him LMAO - Okay so update on that: he has pitched a 3 of me, him and Keegan. This is good for us so we are going with it but my loyalties are to Keegan before Jake and I think Keegan feels the same way. We are being hesitant just in case Jake has also pitched similar things to other people. If we go to tribal, ideally we keep Jake safe but if he's being like this with everyone then maybe he's the one to go. I like Jake so I would really make rather it be the former.

So nervous about this challenge! We went all in! I even danced Blackpink. My gosh we have to win this.

fuck

38 points in SSH is a terrible score, I’m upset at my poor performance, but now that I just acquired the Legacy Advantage, it makes my game so much more interesting to say the least. I have 11 chips, I could’ve bought an idol, but given my luck, I’d rather not risk all my chips and lose them on a bankrupt.

this is so lame, im not super worried about getting voted out but still i just like the serene environment that comes with immunity, the chaos is fun too but like ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im tired 

Well... we lost the challenge. And I am not surprised in the slightest. This was a very very poor showing from this tribe. Honestly, I wouldn’t mind voting out Jeff right now. He really flopped the challenge. But it seems like the OG Palazzo group is wanting to stick together and vote out one of Jake, Mo or Kevin. Ideally, Kevin would be the one to go. I’ve barely talked with him, and with his recent win in Travellers survivor, he’s certainly capable of playing a strong game. That’s someone I’d like out sooner rather than later. Andrew has suggested Jake. Which I definitely don’t want. Jake, Livingston and myself have a sort of three person thing going on. As long as Jake is casting his net over the entire tribe, I want to continue working with him. Mo is in a weird spot. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ At the end of the day though, I don’t really care who it is, as long as it ain’t me.

SO HAPPY TO HAVE FINALLY WON! Steph and I have enough chips either for an IDOL or two of other advantages. I would rather have two others, because there is an idol nullifier out there. And two advantages are better than one. I am going to be watching the tribal of Bellagio. I want to see if the OG Bellagio are a solid 5.

Ahhhh first time going to tribal. I’m really nervous. Not bec I think I’m in danger but more for long term... what to do?

girl... im so sick and tired of the people in this game keeping around inactive players because they know them from other games. SERIOUSLY, listen ma'am if my good friend is inactive, I know when someones dead weight. I get rid of them. They'll understand, and if they don't then thats a manipulative dumbass because who gets mad for being eliminated by a friend when they were inactive. it was originally gonna be me but ive been fucking pushing for kevin to go cus he doesnt do shit. DeNara give me strength.

Mo at one point was throwing my name out, which is awful. Apparently he’s not anymore. I think he’s voting for Kevin? Let’s hope so. I don’t want to be out of this game yet.

Currently holding that Legacy Advantage gives me much more access to information