#literally just a ramble but. grinning

[goremet-chef]

mannnn me and my friend. teehee

we play games together all the time and we're doing minecraft rn and idk i FEEL like its too sappy to tell her "hey i like how we are" okay like i can tell itd be hard to phrase that in a way that she wouldnt be like ".. thanks?? " OKAY SHE DOESNT MEAN IT we just. IDK how to explain it. so ill just talk about it here 😁😁

we just flow really well together, she can entertain herself mostly and i can be there and we bully the shit out of eachother and god its so fun its genuinely. i told her i was planning to tunnel into her walls but secretly, so she didnt hear it from me and she went "what?im not paying attention to you" i feel like. to other people that would sound bad but i just teeheed so hard man like . QUIETLY THATS WHY IM WRITING THIS we're still in vc but man

its really hard for me to be comfortable in vc with anyone, even if i really want to, but me and her? we just fit man. ive known her for like. 8 years at this point?? maybe a little less but either way. shes the only one of my friends that i can be alone with in vc comfortably as of right now, like IDK i never expected this but im not complaining. like even my friend ive known for 11 YEARS, i love them to bits id do anything for them, but the reality is that we are just AWKWARD PEOPLE and awkward people are sillay when they talk okay its the same with my other friend like we are just very awkward by nature so our awkwardness duplicates when we're alone, to the point where its like. he thinks its awkward and it is but its so awkward that its fucking hilarious i think its so funny man

love my friends with all my heart but something about me and her? like WE'RE SO GOOOOD we werent even that close when we first met? like she was my friends friend and became my friend by proximity but now we're tight bro we get drunk together we get high together i love that for us. i couldnt have guessed it would go this way, but thats the beauty of life 🥳 chaotic and unruly, i wouldnt have it any other way.

she comes home and tells me all her work drama and then we just pick on eachother for several hours and its so funny to me every time i dont care how many times we say the same things its always funny im always gonna make myself laugh when im mean for no reason and ill always laugh when shes mean back like IDK thats just our friendship and we like it that way its great

also shes been just like? IDK we are all queers (except one of us hes our token cishet i guess) she doesnt even remember my deadname anymore despite knowing me by that for most the time we've known eachother its great. and honestly? this is kind of embarrassing to admit but sometimes when shes making fun of me for being dumb she says 'sillay boy' in a little tune and when i get really stressed out i call myself that in my head to calm me down a bit like. NOTHING ID EVER TELL HER but we know we love eachother teehee. IDK i feel like i just express a lot of gratitude towards my other friends but not much to her, probably cuz we talk so much it just feels agiven like i cannot stand her she sucks thats why shes my bestie 😁😁

like MAN idk theres so much shit i could talk about. we fight and i propose to her in lethal company with the ring and then shes mad at me and divorced cuz i sold our ring to meet quota like. STUPID SHIT LIKE THAT. this is gonna sound weird but i just like being bullied????? like ill always throw it back is the thing we work great cuz its never one sided its a mutual thing. if i go first she say 'shut up dominic' and im like NO fuck you like . to an outsider we do not like eachother but i promise we do its making me like. GIDDY RN i love thinking about it. she just made fun of me for being on tumblr instead of building my GAZEBO but im talking about you dumbass!!!! (she doesnt have a tumblr so. what does it matter SKFJS)

i dont know its so fun for me, im just surprised that like. someone i initially didnt know all that well is now my ride or die and we fit SO GOOD like i genuinely couldve never expected it back in middle school but im glad we are the way that we are. love talking to her, love making fun of her, love when she calls me stupid and WHATEVER ELSE like god its so funny. love ignoring her and harassing children in roblox with her like we have such a good time no matter what

shes one of the very few people i can like. just get in a call with for no reason, like if she has drama to tell me and we arent really doing anything else ill still join for what i think is like 10 minutes and leave 2 hours later 💀 love leaving her too shes so dramatic she knows by the tone in my voice when i say her name that im gonna leave call and shes always like no dont do this to me gurl bye!!!!!i got better shit to do!!!!!!! (lie) love to betray her also she sucks

i remember she invited me down (like an hour drive) to watch mario movie and she took me out to olive garden and i CRIEDD it was the first time i went to olive garden and it was so good and she laughed at me. that high is like. I DONT KNOW i feel like im explaining it POORLY its just so silly to me, its so fucking funny

grining right now. im not even tired weve been playing for hours and im not tired at all. love bothering her she deserves it. like would i lay down my life for her? yes absolutely. would i also insult her randomly while shes not doing anything? yes absolutely. i guess its cuz i know she can take it, thats why she does the same to me. idk its just how we're comfortable, we like it this way!!!! hhehehheehee

this is far too sappy to share with her but we love to hate eachother so i think im doin a pretty good job

#this is so long and for what #literally just a ramble but. grinning

[designernishiki]

ladies and gentlemen. we got em

#this is so fucking FUNNY dude banxbsnanxb #STRAIGHT PEOPLE ON REDDIT ARE SO MAD AND IM JUST SITTING HERE. GRINNING. PLEASED #that’s 700x more in character than the alternative and I’m just praying this is true/legit (cause I couldn’t find the exact interview this #is from- but I didn’t see anyone saying it was fake on Twitter/Reddit so idk) #to be fair I could only scroll through comments on reddit for like a minute before it started giving me brain damage so #but yeah bdbxsbscshxjdj YOKOYAMA. MAYBE IVE BEEN GIVING YOU TOO LITTLE CREDIT. #I absolutely love seeing all these basic ass straight folks getting so pissy about him not settling down with a nuclear biological family #and a wife and all that and dying at the ripe old age of his fucking mid-50s #like no shit???? what games have you been playing bro the whole fucking Point of his idea of family is unconventional #he’s literally a fucking orphan who didn’t grow up with any biological family are you fucking fr #dgagdhdhd ANYWAY yeah I’m seriously hoping to high heaven that this is legit #rambling #kiryu #yakuza #rgg #rgg8

[godofstupidsentences]

I think fic authors should make Theo a little feral… as a treat

#c’mon guys #we put him through so much #(tbf the series does most of the work) #I think we should let him go feral #that boy grew up in the sewers #he can literally shift into a wolf #let him growl at people a little #let him and Malia (my other feral child) wrestle on the floor as a form of greeting every time they meet #and then brush it off when others ask bc it’s just “coyote stuff” #let him do that too wide grin that looks a little animalistic #let him have this #he deserves it #(this is just me rambling about my love for characters that are a little unhinged) #theo raeken #teen wolf

[twinkodium]

@httpiastri you have your submission disabled so I’m posting a video instead 😘

#Lola’s ramblings #just for Jackie 🧡 #this was his screen time in that episode 😭 #literally said two sentences and was declared cocky☹️ #it must be the smug grin

[anna-scribbles]

GIRL WAKE UP PJO CAST

GIRL I AM SO AWAKE LOOK A THEMM

PERFECT. STUNNING. BEAUTIFUL. THOSE ARE MY KIDS ‼️‼️‼️

#THEY LITERALLY. I AM GRINNING SO MUCH #they just. the vibes are GREAT #aryan has such grover energy #and leah is so so annabeth #I AM SO LOSING IT #also i’m so so happy they cast actors of color. i’m so happy i’m so happy #pjo #asks #anna rambles

[dangoarts]

hello mcsm ivor fans allow me to introduce you to pavel tron uprising

#literally the EXACT same character i promise #perks! voiced by the same guy! #wanted more evil ivor? look no further than pavel #it's basically a one to one recreation #especially in tron uprising episode 6 price of power grins #if i get the time and energy i want to do line swap animatics with them #maintagging this wahahaha #minecraft story mode #mcsm ivor #tron uprising #tron pavel #guess what i rewatched impossible difficulty #just a ramble

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

my maths teacher is essentially making us all do the work for his class digitally and the laptop-tablet thingy i lent from the school is never doing what i want it to and it's incredibly frustrating and the only reason i somewhat tolerate it is that he's the same teacher i could talk to about not using gendered pronouns for me whenever possible in school papers and the like and he also remembered that and made a conscious effort in front of the entire class to reword what he was saying to refer to me gender-neutrally. which really is a feat in my native language, so like, i love him for making the effort and remembering. but also why digitally

#its an internal conflict #bc i HATE to work digitally for school. i DESPISE it #i have so many reasons i can write an entire professional argument about that #i probably will. not professionally but by god i will vent on tumblr.com #but also. NO GENDER FOR ME!! AND HE REMEMBERED!! AND MADE SURE TO ADJUST HIS LANGUAGE!!!!!!!! #i just sat there with the widest grin ever istg #a biscuit's rambles #we stan gender supportive teachers!! #and also the 60 something secretary who knows everyone by name and also everything theyve told her ever #(okay this applies to all three secretaries istg they are literally the best) #and she said she was sorry that their computers still dont get that theres third options for gender #and that they might mess up but they know and are doing their best to not refer to me as a girl #and i am sos o so so happy #i mean. none of the other teachers know i think (yet?) bc going up to teachers and outing oneself alone is like. hooo boy #but like. itll spread ig. or ill just mention it off-handedly instead of a traditional outing #like my class knows. half the other class knows bci have maths w/ them. a teacher and the secretaries know. its only a matter of time now :

[scribe-of-monsters]

I really do need to watch those old Dracula movies but I also kinda hate watching movies so we'll see how it goes

#scribble scribbles #also I saw somebody say bela lugosi was sexy which uhm im sorry but he looks scary as fuck in that movie #like i would scream and cry and run away if i saw somebody grinning at me like that :( #maybe it's the aroace talking #i would watch the whole movie just for Renfield though i really like that Renfield he seems like a swell guy #at this point my standards are literally just renfield #and henry clerval i suppose? #but this is a Dracula post #so we won't worry about him #anyways i love you mr Renfield and adaptations need to be nicer to you #im gonna stop rambling now

[alun-ura]

Do they get jealous easily? Do they feel bad if they do? and What are some of your OC’s biggest personal obstacles? This could be emotional, physical, social… Are they aware of it? Are they trying to overcome it? (Alun)

Big Ol’ Honkin’ OC Question List

Do they get jealous easily? Do they feel bad if they do?

I wouldn't say Alun gets jealous per se, instead what she feels is something more akin to protectiveness and spite to some extent - the way and the intensity of it varying of course depending on the person. In that regard Alun is usually very calm, she doesn't carry a sense of possessiveness over people for multiple reasons; one being that I hardly imagine Alun being a monogamous person, but going deeper into it would be that because of her lifestyle and past experiences, she wouldn't want to be heavily romantically invested to someone so she nips it at the bud before it can even get to the point of bubbling such a feeling.

Specifying a bit HOW she feels, when it comes to being protective of someone she does care about - Alun isn't exactly bothered about them being with someone else. Still, it is a lingering feeling of 'Is this person good enough for you?, Are they able to keep you safe? Will they hurt you?' that can make her somewhat hostile to this other party, or even seem jealous. When it comes to spite, it is usually aimed at partners she doesn't care as much about - people that tend to be more physical with her and, ironically enough, people that try to make her jealous. Most times, people with this kind of dynamic already have a nasty attitude coming from Alun, of overall being a prick and not pleasant - she'd often describe such people as her leftovers, if the other party wants that then she is more than fine with it. It's usually in a degrading way to both people, which can also seem like spiteful jealousy.

Alun neither feels bad nor regrets either situation, she feels entitled to both feelings in the way that A) She is seeking the best for that person when being protective to the point of being horrible to them, and B) She was never in an emotional tie to care about being spiteful to someone, often lacing it with the fact that she would have most likely warned them that things would be like that. Both are not exactly good, both her behaviors and her reasoning for them are rooted in deeper issues within herself that just flower up in such a way.

What are some of your OC’s biggest personal obstacles? This could be emotional, physical, social… Are they aware of it? Are they trying to overcome it?

I think the main thing that comes to mind is her inability to emotionally connect or rely on people, though I realize Alun has many varying obstacles in all categories (go girl!) so for this I'd just go down the list.

Emotional; to explain this better I'll dip toes a bit into some past stuff as Alun has been on an emotional rollercoaster since she left the Steppes - which was the exact opposite of what she used to be like, in quite the opposite, she had experienced little and none during her time living there, to the point of getting into a 'stunted' personality and emotional. There was far too much to address and to live once she left, and hardly any care for it at the time as if one decided to eat a huge hearty meal after being starved for weeks. As expected, it didn't go too well which leaves the current times not too different from what she used to be - there was a myriad of situations and feelings she had never properly experienced truly, and the main and lingering one at the current times is love and grief. What slingshot Alun into the current person she is, how she behaves, and how she emotionally responds to things and people is the loss of a loved one caused by herself, perhaps the only one she deemed true in her life despite never truly allowing room for another after that accident happened. 

It is one of the biggest themes when it comes to Alun as a person in a deeper sense of her character (and something plastered all over her aesthetic tag) but particularly this encompasses the feeling well.

"my death will forever cling to you, leaving behind a slimy trail and a metallic taste in your mouth. my soul will forever drag you down like the heavy corpse of a long-dead god, who somehow still grants wishes. you can't tell which one of us is the one not letting go. you know not even your own death will end this." 

This branches out in other aspects of her obstacles per se but I believe it to be the biggest of them, realistically she should get over it - but the damage made by her and to her due to such feeling is the one thing that I find it incredibly hard to see Alun surpass as it grew into an enormous knot between emotion, physical and social all. She is constantly haunted by it, in her dreams and losing sleep over it, it follows her in a personality adopted by herself and traits that did not belong to her, she sees them in shadows and the corners of her eyes during medication, the crystal necklace being the only thing she has from them - that sometimes seems to talk to her with that same voice. And she has questioned her sanity before due to it all, even when she is doing good or when she is completely awake it is there as a constant ringing of what happened will be shackled to her. So it ends up reflecting an unfulfilled bond, in guilt and fear that she has to surpass to truly, emotionally connect with someone. I don't think she needs to get over ALL of these to make it happen personally, but because of the type of person she is, it is very easy for the other side to fuck up in the way and have Alun retract from any progress made.

Alun is bitterly aware of it, it has come into the topic before and she recognizes it as the issue it is when she began questioning her own sanity due to it, but she isn't trying to overcome it in any way. She has, as a character, gone full circle where she hated the lack of motion her life had brought her, only to willingly walk back into it herself - Alun is 'comfortable' in the stillness of carrying her life as it is until she dies and hopefully can meet them again. 

Physical; I think this can be addressed both in a bodily manner and a physical interaction way so I'll ramble about both. Going deeper into that, due to the scarring that such a loss left on her, the regards for her wellbeing were knocked away as well and this turned into a couple issues with her current days. She has sustained a couple injuries over the years, the worst being over her ribcage as I mentioned somewhere here before - the wound clearly affects her breathing if one has a keen eye for it. She also puts too much attention into defending that side, enough to leave room for other crucial parts of her body open as a target. Because of her behavior regarding her own body, she doesn't go through too much trouble in defending it, though of course she won't take blows if she can avoid it - but the scarrings over her are clear enough. To this point, she doesn't exactly have too many issues besides that which brings the actual bodily obstacle; her dependency on medication. Her body is usually aching, due to exertion, injuries, and the chemical response to the constant cocktail that goes inside her - usually all deafened by it. It has got to the point where she doesn't heal properly due to it, her response to a magickal approach isn't good too in both the body and mind, and on top of it, it has been affecting her inhibition and cognition to some extent. Her necklace takes part in how her body takes all of this in, but her addiction is by far her worst physical obstacle - and yet again, she is aware of it but she doesn't see it as a problem that has any other solution to it because she doesn't see the dependency as the problem, but how her body & health currently are now. 

The other facet of a physical obstacle is how she physically connects to people since the emotional option is usually out of the picture. This is the way that Alun will gladly invest herself into, though yet again it is in a destructive way as I mentioned above regarding her wellbeing. It is the easiest way to connect to her, and also the easiest way to completely shatter any opportunity to get anywhere 'closer' to her - and also what she WILL offer in most scenarios if the chance is given. This doesn't have to be romantically or sexually exclusive, and goes as far as offering herself physically to a foe [ in a fight right? :) ], ultimately, she gets the same satisfaction of being beside someone either as a partner or as an enemy. And this can go in any way, be together in combat or opposing, sharing a respite together, or in bed. With this, she is steadily building wall after wall that, as closely as it gets with the other person, she is putting her actual self further and further away while getting that high of a company she desperately wants, not that person's company but just A company. In a physically social way, I think this is the biggest obstacle and something Alun is actually not aware of - she is lonely and starved for different aspects of comfort, and she seeks all of these with the company of strangers regardless of if they are hostile or not.

Social; I think all of the above builds into her social issues and the knot I mentioned within all of these, that builds into her biggest social struggle that's her fear of getting close, her emotional distance while being physically close, how her medication aids in hindering her personality to an extent - all of these builds into Alun being a tricky individual to get close to because she is constantly shifting from cold and hot. It flickers back and forth, from friendly teasing to cruel remarks, of interest to silence, toothy grins that follow that perpetual monotone voice. Though the reason for it is an amalgam of all of the above, she has adopted many traits of the people that she knew, people that she lost, and built who she currently is as a walking monument for those. In a way, it is one of the reasons why she won't take the approach of just choosing to die - I know I posted this quote of hers here before but this is the best take I have of the creature herself about it. 

 “All that I am now, every memory, everything that I know, every thing that I did, every single fucking step of the way– I would give it all back t'him if it meant getting him back.” 

All that she currently is is pieces put together of those that she affected somehow, that Alun blames herself for - and this shows in her very personality, in an adopted form of speech, or her preference for certain drinks, down to the very fidgeting habits she has. She does this in a conscious way while seeing that both as the person she is and someone she also won't always be - which can make it difficult if someone is after knowing Alun in a deep sense, of who she is, or keeping up with her behavior.

#asks #thank you for the ask! #this got #so incredibly long oh my god #I'm sorry NFJKDNJG AAAAAA #I was even like #hm hm I'm going to try and keep this short and not ramble too much #wHICH I DID I SWEAR #I think my favorite parts or themes about alun is #literally all of these aspects #she has so many social issues #and huge emotional issues #and physical ones too #go GIRL #and it is genuinely hard to implement all of these when writing her without being just Too Much #moreso because when writing her in a scene with someone these things won't be in their face to read like in an ask right #it will be small details that are JUST THERE #Alun poking at the crack of her horn or grinning and laughing are all signs of these things #even her speech #so I like to mull about these things a lot in my mind because they are core pillars to the character she is now even if it reflects in #too subtle ways #OK I'M SHUTTING UP NOW

[theydoctor]

Thank your for the tag @thirteenmyspacegirl <3

1. Were you named after anyone?

Well, I named myself after 13 in a fanfic by @fuxdeiflswued haha And also Leslie's character in The Scarlet Pimpernel <3

2. When was the last time you cried?

Saturday lmao I'm very emotionally stable :,)

3. Do you use sarcasm?

Yeah, quite a lot, I think. It depends on the person I'm with, though.

4. What's the first thing you notice about people?

Uhm. I'm really bad at noticing anything about people tbh. So I guess their personality? I rarely really look at people, it's uncomfortable.

5. What's your eye colour?

Some sort of greyish-blue

6. Scary movie or happy ending?

Happy ending, please! I'm not a fan of scary movies at all.

7. Any special talents?

Hm. Maybe my ability to quickly absorb anything related to history? Not sure if it's a special talent, but I like it :)

8. Any pets?

Yes!! My dear dog, Watson, a red irish setter, who is my favourite dog in the whole wide world and the best emotional support I could wish for. And my beloved grumpy cat, Lilli, who dislikes being pet by most people, but once she likes you she's really quite the sweetheart and will never hurt you <3

9. What sports do you play/ have played?

I don't play any sports at the moment due to medical issues, but I really want to start running? It sound fun and like a great way to relief some stress. But before I used to do karate and play tennis and soccer, though I never thought of myself as good in any of those haha It was a lot of fun, though, and I do want to take up karate and tennis again at some point. Hopefully I'll be able to in the future. :)

10. How tall are you?

1,76m I think?

11. What was your favourite subject in school?

*chanting* HISTORY HISTORY HISTORY !!!! There's nothing better and I may have a sweet spot for my history teacher, too haha I also like german, but it can be a bit boring at times...

12. Dream job?

Definitely something with history! Maybe professor at a university or archivist. In an ideal world I'd just sit in a library all day long, studying wwi and infodumping to anyone willing to listen.

No pressure tags: @sunny-lie-melody @walkingcontradiction42 @mcrmadness @beartrust42 @phoenix-is-still-here

#ok now i'll go back to studying history hehe #i have an exam on friday and i'm so excited!!! :DD #i hope it'll go well but aaaahhh it's so cool to study everything and i'm really excited to see which sources we'll get to work with #and which questions we have to answer! #literally the last history exam i wrote i was just bouncing my legs all the time and grinning like an idiot haha #charlie rambles

[groovytimes]

Why is it considered wrong that I don’t want to be a third wheel on my own birthday?

#Personal Ramblings #have had to spend the last two with my sister’s boyfriend because of covid and there was no choice #but the year before that we went to dinner where he literally bought gifts for her that included jewellery and Fenty sliders #while I’m just sitting there not even wanting to be there in the first place with the only caveat being I got to take home most of the cake #I deserve some dignity on my birthday and I am more than entitled after grinning and bearing it for the last three years #the pitfalls of being a twin with someone with historical bad taste in boys and men

[weavingmemories]

For the character bingo, hmm.... I'm gonna be predictable but not TOO predictable and ask for Yusuke, Futaba, and Mishima? ^^

yusuke:

futaba:

mishima:

#robin rambles #i LOVE yusuke so much omg. his arc and its parallels with haru and akechi's particularly is so delicious #i really like how he goes through trying to process everything that happened to him re: madarame #i think about his and akechi's conversation in the thieves den about their respective fathers a lot and how they handle it very differently #i also just love his character so much. he's so silly so sweet and so precious #i could do with seeing more feral grin type yusukes but ... it's okay. their rarity makes them special #futaba has such a WONDERFUL arc and i loveeee her having a palace. #and what that introduces. your cognition can be totally distorted even if you're not a bad person #small slashes mostly because while i have no strong opinions against any ships #i just can't get invested in sh/utaba and su/mitaba ): #i do love yusuke & futaba together though #i also don't think it's wasted potential so much as i would have ADORED the fut/agoro half-siblings dynamic #augh i think about like. the fact that they really just could very well be related all the time #and mishima... MISHIMA my beloved #mostly half checked the 'i'm the only one who's correct' as a joke bc my sisters both can't stand him LOL #i really love mishima. his confidant is so cool. i love that he literally has a corruption arc in canon #and that you can go confront HIS shadow! whereas in most confidants it's like. someone else's that's harassing them #i also just have so much love in my heart for the fact that he and what he represents really saved the PT at the end #i'm always so upset that you can't be nicer to him. mishima rights! #thank you for the ask <3 #answered #dangerousfantasist

[clearskiiess]

SO . guess who just went to their first queer clubbing experience

#CHRIST IM FUCKING VIBRATING #OH MY GOD #i actually cried in the club btw #literally did the meme #because holy shit #the gay euphoria #these three drag queens came up and performed on stage UGH THEY WERE SO COOL #AND FUCKING #AND #there was a queer aboriginal drag queen as well which was SO COOL #AND JUST #i was there with a good friend and we had SO MUCH FUN #MET SO MANY COOL PEOPLE #I JUST #i couldn't help but tear up at the fucking euphoria in the room seeing all of these people who are like me #the euphoria and the grins and the laughs and the way everyone was just there to have a good time and like #the sense of community got to me man #nothing like meeting queers in real life im telling you #this is just nonsense rambling really but idk i just needed to post about it #because wow im shaking #and a little tipsy but their shit was kinda expensive so didn't drink much #tilly.txt #got to go vanish now im so exhausted from all the fucking dancing and just . everything lol

[angryborzois]

suguru why are you so fine

#literally the first half of this day I was brainrotting over tr and grinning excessively over it #then the last half of this day I was just brainrotting for suguru and smiling excessively over it #why is my brain wired like this #angryborzois rambles

[h3rmitsunited]

thinking about how we can hold on to little offhand moments of human connection that don't mean much, shared instances with someone we don't know and we don't ever get to know, ships passing in the night, and how that can feel so special

and then thinking about how one of those moments for me was shared with a performer dressed as a murder clown at the halloween nights at knotts berry farm

built up this fond little memory and it's some fucker that looks like this

#story time is that i went to the knotts scary farm night event thing with the mazes and dress up people that try to scare you with a group #of friends. and we were waiting just inside the entrance for the rest of our group to get through security and theyve got some planter with #benches around them you can sit on so my group was sitting there and i was sitting at the edge of our group #and we were right next to another group of people like a group of girls whoe were probably like 17-18 or something #and my friends are talking and i notice one of the clown guys sneaking over in between our groups and there #is room on the bench for him to squeeze next to me so hes sitting between me and the group of girls #and im the only one out of the two groups to see him doing this and we make eye contact #and he does the little finger to lips thing and sits down next to me quietly and just waits #and it takes like a minute and we share like a secret little smile like yeah im in on the joke and i am #also eager to see those girls flip out when they see murder clown there. #but it was also just like a nice little like hey human moment. like yeah maybe i fell in love for a moment with the murder clown #and i dont know him and we shared a glimpse for a literal minute but like *connection* #and then one of the girls noticed him and screamed and then they all screamed and he grinned at me and ran off #and i never saw him again #never forget you murder clown #rambling #idk what to tag this #humanity #life #memories #clown #clown warning #Halloween

[theultracharmingladynoire]

The pure JOY I felt when they announced his name as a part of the winning team (I never knew) it is the best thing ever

#I actually never thought I'd be this happy to see someone win #Buuut maybe I was TOO happy since I stood beaming in front of the crowd forgetting I had to hand the trophy to the chief guest #(I was a medal girl there) #Hope no one noticed me grinning like maniac WHY DID I FORGET I WAS STANDING IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE OF HIGHSCHOOL DHIAGSUSHSHHS #but still...yes #I just. the moment they announced his name #I literally GASPED #It felt so. So. Okay I'll stop but still IS THIS HOW YOU FEEL WHEN YOU ARE PROUD OF SOMEONE #I only knew he was the goalkeeper I never knew he was in a football team I never knew THEY WON #it was a SHOCK #I don't think I'll ever be over this #n rambles #(for real this time) #crushposting #For A.