#like. in terms of meeeee its all about me all the time. whatever.

[arowrath]

like what the fuck am i supposed to do

#tw transphobia american politics etc #like. in terms of meeeee its all about me all the time. whatever. #like my state currently isnt looking super bad legislation wise & im very lucky & very grateful #but we've seen how fast things can go downhill #and it's like . i dont know what the fuck i'd do if things get bad in my state #like. where would i get t. bc there doesnt seem to be any resources for it online because it is a felony . & ppl will be all 'oh just diy i #' as if resources for diy hrt for trans men Exist or are nearly as easy to find as those for trans women. Which they arent because it is #a FELONY !!!!!!!!!!!! for trans men. But even if i were able to get t and start t whatever #if things got bad after that. idk. ive made my peace with probably never passing in no small part due to nvr pass by she her hers #go stream . but that would make me a very obvious target & there is Nothing i can fucking do abt it bc that is just how my body is #and i dont know. if my state passes anything like mo just did. im fucked man like completely fucked #but im not gonna not transition out of fear. But its like what would i do. #Anyway in terms of not-me. How am i supposed to help people in other states Like theres no real material way i can help other than #sharing information but its like am i even accomplishing anything if i cant provide a way to help as well. but i dont know how to help. #and things just keep getting worse in my country & around the world & i cant help & i cant fix it & i dont know what to do #Anyway. whatever #text

[wildefluorescent]

andem. skam polska. Please go off.

oh my god, oh fuck. oh fuck. alright so you KNOW whats up, its all written in my head yk. i have imagined the fucking TRAILERS. and now we're absolutely NOT talking in terms of like realism cause poland SUCKS balls but yk. a dude can dream.

alright so i wouldn't change too much in s1 plot wise, only that jonas is trans and has a band (he plays guitar cause a jonas needs to play guitar, girl isak sings because i'm cliche like that. there are two other band members that i haven't developed properly yet. isak and jonas are childhood friends and used to have movie nights in blanket forts and this is relevant in s3). the eva would probably move from some countryside (like meeeee she comes from the middle of fucking NOWHERE) BUT like for Some reasons the whole thing could be set in some seaside town (this again is relevant in season 2). anyway, the penetrators are like a volleyball team which will also be relevant in later seasons. i have this Idea where there's a song sung by isak over some of the more relevant jonas/eva scenes and then later on there's something sung by jonas in s3 (im thinking end of ep5?) over a scene with isak where she's Going Through It. ideally isak would be nb cause i need that sweet self insert but i haven't decided yet. idk what the equivalent of russ could be in s1, like??? school board elections? that's for nerds and cishets i said what i said. maybe some play or whatever, i don't know.

season 2. y'all listen. girl volleyball player willrat, lesbian noora, willrat isn't actually manipulative and the relationship isn't toxic, she's just a bit of an asshole but has actual character development. i said what i said.

season 3. LISTEN, fucking LISTEN. isak starts staying over at jonas' more and more bc of her home situation yk and it gets to the point where she basically lives there. i mean they're childhood best friends yk. now the eskild??? jonas' older sister who's at uni and studies some bizarre course. m you know what's up. the equivalent of the nurse talk is with jonas' grandma over rosołek. EVEN?? she's trans, she PAINTS with OILS she's a LEGEND. i won't get into more details cause i've literally imagined almost every scene of s3 but here is a post where i went off about the first kiss. this NEEDS to happen.

season 4. god first of all our sans gets full ten episodes. second of all this is their last semester at high school so there's the pressure of finals and there's the stress of uni looming and she doesn't KNOW what she wants what she should do what she wants to have, and can she take a gap year? can she really? can she take the time to figure it all out??? and then on top of it all there's YOUSEF and her hearts going all whooshy and there's uni and love and her friends scared of whether they'll drift apart

anyway on top of it all there needs to be a party during each season where an abba song plays. thanks for your attention

if you're still here you can send me these!

#ask game #skam polska #m stands for mlegend #I LOVE YOU DUDE

[ts-indonesia]

Episode 5 - “someone literally thought the word rocks and you switched your vote” - Trent

After nuObor killed Kenny, the two tribes merged onto a one world beach, where they learned they would reward a member of the other tribe individual immunity. Upon the merge, the Cahaya kumbaya continued (or so it seemed) with the returnees engineering the challenge results in their favour. Otherwise they compared notes on all the newbies, making the season seem as if it was going to be a returnee steamroll.

When Matt & Isaac won immunity, it was revealed that they would in fact attend the opposite tribe’s tribal council as infiltrators. On NuCahaya, the returnees quickly got on the same page, and given Anabel & Trent’s success in ingratiating themselves with the returnees, Dylan became the easy scapegoat vote and was unanimously sent out.

On NuObor... people were cracking. Owen, who had been sceptical of Foxx since round one, when faced with an alternative of voting out Canadian queen Lorelei, rallied the troops to get Foxx out. Though the plan almost hit a snag when Foxx accidentally made it seem like he had heard of the plan, Foxx (and the entire nuCahaya tribe) were blindsided, with Foxx being sent out the door.

OLIVIA

Kenny was literally the one I wanted to leave so woohoo! No offense Kenny but you just seemed like the biggest threat!! Whew what a relief now we outnumber them on both tribes hehe

Why y’all gotta do Cahaya dirty like that with this twist we were ROLLING

TRENT

Well this twist really sucks. I am really hoping there is 2 different tribals and not one big one. Because if theres one big one i might be screwed. If there are two and only 7 vote, then i can work with that. I just gotta put on my social hat and be everyones friends but not toooo friendly or then ill be a target. but again. i really hate this twist.

FOXX

How...how did we convince a tribe I was a minority in to unanimously vote off one of their own?  And all three of them specifically want to work with me?? These newbies gave away their chance of gaining a majority. AND I connect back with my old tribemates in the One World twist. I got to meet Anabel, Dylan, & Trent. I got drunk af on call (not really) and apparently Trent is smart but would turn on his tribemates and Dylan is nice but inactive. With this weird twist I’m thinking the person who gets voted for the most from the other tribe is an Infiltrator. With merge approaching we’ll see.

MATT

Alright so leading up to tribal council, it became kinda obvious Kenny would be going home.  Not because i put in effort to stay, but because the newbies were scared to go to rocks.  So they caved in and voted out Kenny with us unanimously. Kenny voted for me which is whatever.  It didn’t phase me at all since i knew it was coming. But It was a nice feeling knowing the other three gave up on their tribe so quickly.  With them doing so, Stoner joins our tribe and we now hold a 4-3 majority on both tribes.  So effectively we could do anything we wanted to.  I think the four of us on NuObor can work really well together. So hopefully moving forward, we can win immunity and stay strong.

OLIVIA

Upset I didn’t get immunity but we did it the fair way, terrified of the twists and whats to come

OWEN

Last tribal went rlly well, I got what I wanted, it was Gucci. I set myself up so well on this tribe to be between Leigh/Chris/Lorelei and Stoner/Foxx/Matt. I rlly worked to build trust with the newbies and it clearly paid off since they gave up the numbers and took one of their own. The only thing bothering me is that foxx, who I would want to flip on, got put in the alliance with me Leigh and chris..... But now this twist kind of comes and fucks with everything bc the original returnees tribe is working closely together ahhhh and they wanna do what they can to protect all 8 of us. I’m starting to feel torn because on the one hand I rlly like talking to olivia jess and Isaac. And matt. Like we had a ton of fun on call last night and I don’t wanna turn on those people. But on the other hand I really want to prove loyalty to chris O, Leigh and Lorelei. And I don’t rlly mind Trent and anabel either.,,, so it’s tough. I agreed to give Isaac and Matt the top positions on the lists, but then I went and told chris o and Leigh that the returnees were working together and that Matt would probably be immune. Leigh mentioned that ‘it would probably have to be lorelei’ then.... which got me rllll shook :( I don’t want any of those three out this round and I have no clue how to do this. To be honest, I’m hoping that the top two vote getters leave and we can send out Dylan and the newbies can take out a returner, hopefully michael or something. That’s best case scenario for me rn.... but I have no idea what to expect with the twist I spread myself too thin again :((( like always. But the difference this time is I generally like almost everyone and pretty soon I’m going to have to make some choices. What I need to focus on is, once merge come, where will I have the most options? I don’t want to stay returnee strong forever. I won’t!!!!! But I will protect olivia jess stoner Isaac and matt for as long as I can....

JESS

So this whole twist has been a wild ride. I REALLY wanted to be safe so I could set myself up a little bit here with the newbies and such. However, I also didn't want to be the one who pushed for my safety when no one else was. It's just a bad look and it's messy. I just HATE that i'm going to be forced to show my hands here. It's way too early to make a move against the vets. I'd be out-numbered and I'd lose Michael's trust. On top of it all..... I don't have a solid enough relationship with the newbies to fall back on. All of my interactions with them have been very surface level. PLUS, attempting to murder one of my "own kind" will give them an excuse to come after me before any of these newbies. It's almost USELESS for me to vote with Trent and the gang when both Anabel and Dylan RARELY talk game to me. I do feel bad for Trent though because I do want to work with him. I do also see how this move would help me in the long run. The vets are dangerous and there are a few REALLY dangerous vets in this game. I just don't know if I'm willing to shake things up at my expense this early in the game... BUT I may never get as good as a chance to get someone like Olivia again. 

OLIVIA

Trent came to me and said he thinks we have a really strong relationship and it’s like oh honey I’m so sorry I did not mean to lead you on but we’re just friendly we’re not ride or dies and now he’s sorta bagging on Jess TO MY FACE who is my number one in this game and ahsjshsjab. But maybe I should keep Trent around as a side piece if he trusts me 👀🧐 but I gotta tell my alliance what he’s saying bc I don’t trust him whatsoever so I’m just copying and pasting everything he sent to me to my alliance with Foxx, stoner, and Jess lmao and I’ll probably tell Isaac later

OWEN

honestly/???? this twist turned out to make things a liiiil better for me than I was expecting. first of all, matt is safe which is good af and so is isaac. instead of having to deal with 8 votes due to infiltrator, there are only 7, which means my vote has more power bc majority is 4 instead of 5 yeehaw. but the fact that it is one world raises this complexity a shit ton and also the stakes. i know i need to be more careful with what I say. that being said, i was in no way careful with what I said tonight and basically told chris o. everything sakdfjhdskj i told him that the old cahaya's worked together for the challenge, and that I wanted foxx out over lorelei but if I had to vote stoner instead i'd do that too nnnn why am i a messy bitch. I rlly REALLY dont want stoner gone, its like not beneficial for my game at all. but really lorelei leaving doesnt help me either???? voting lorelei unanimously is the easy move without a doubt, and I'm sure that's what foxx is gonna want to push for because he is in the alliacne with me+leigh+chris and is in that other foursome with (side note - i stopped mid confessional to literally go and text chris o and tell him about the jess/foxx/stoner alliance oops1!1!) stoner. so that leaves lorelei as the only person he isn't aligned with as far as i know. technically im aligned with all five of my vote options butttt fuck it i feel like stoner would help me make a move against foxx honestly. if I could get leigh on board, it'd be set bc I feel like chris o would do it based on what he told me tonight and lorelei would want to save herself. its tricky as fuck right now.... because basically all chris o has to do is run to foxx/stoner and tell them I exposed everything and I'm gone. but honestly? idc!!!!!1 :) im here to have fun and do what I want. that's whaat I keep telling myself anyways lmao but the things I want hurt people I like, so where does that leave meeeee idk. if i can get stoner, chris o. AND lorelei on board for foxx and somehow keep it a secret + convince leigh??? then i'm rockin and rollin. ill do damage control with the vets later.... lolol i dont rlly care if michael is mad at me but jess/olivia/matt/isaac i dont wanna do dirty :((( WHYYYYY is this so hard for me?

OLIVIA

What’ll I do once the newbies are gone. I don’t want any returnees to leave. That’s assuming I make it that far which is never good to do but you do wanna think ahead. Aghhhh 

MATT

woo so after tribal led to to a twist of One World.  Both tribes came together on one beach and we had to rank the other tribe in terms of who we want to get immunity.  So the 8 of us Cahaya members came together in our old tribe chat and started strategizing on who to give immunity to.  Because we both have 4 members on both tribes, we can easily submit the same list which leads to two of us getting immunity.  For the NuObor tribe, it quickly was between Stoner and myself (Stoner for being the newest member  on the tribe, me for getting voted last time/beef with leigh. ). I obviously wanted immunity but couldn’t outright say it because i don’t think it would’ve sat well with the tribe.  for NuCahaya, none of them seemed to want to give any kind of info up or who might need it.  Eventually on sunday, Olivia and owen kinda took charge of the situation and said Matt (me) was gonna get immunity and we randomize it for the NuCahaya tribe, which ended up being Issac. And another twist which we expected, is that the both of us are the infiltrators for the round.  So I’m voting with NuCahaya and Issac is voting with NuObor. As for the vote, we were discussing what would be best, and i suggested Lorelei but others thought she could be more useful later down the line.  Which means it would be left between Leigh and Chris.  And as right now, i think everyone knows i prefer Leigh to go.  I don’t care if she overreacted and apologized and whatever.  She made the big scene in the tribe chat.  She put a target on my back.  She snapped.  She needs to go.  Hopefully I can talk to Owen and make sure she could go home.   As for NuCahaya, it seems they aren’t too fond of Anabel, so it’s likely she will be voted out.  Anabel was one of the few people i knew coming into this game, but i wasn’t actually looking towards using that pre-existing relationship.  She’s a nice girl and a good player, but i came into this game hoping to make bonds and move further with new friends and faces.  So if she needs to be voted out, then so be it.

OLIVIA (this is five confessionals in a row)

I no longer go by Olivia I am now only Idol Queen

I told Isaac I had an idol and I deeply regret it he didn’t react maybe the way I thought he would but we also like cemented our friendship and ally ship tonight and he was the first one to actually talk about Cahaya members for real with me and not just like super sunshine. No one know my alliance with Matt and Owen is a thing like it’s something very unexpected and that’s kinda cool, also i don’t think anyone would expect fox stoner Jess and I to be together? And same with Isaac and I being close like I know the newbies know Cahaya are close knit for now but I don’t think any of my alliances are obvious which is cool. I’m just very paranoid and anxious this time around when I said I wouldn’t be lmao. But it’s weird like I feel that anxiety through the whole tribe like normally waiting for results isn’t too big a deal and you’d think we’d be excited about it but MAN we were buggggging out today it’s a really weird collective anxiety

https://youtu.be/9nIMZVmSrlY

Why can’t I keep my mouth shut I’m such a fucking moron like I’ve never known a dumber player than myself

WHEW but anyways I still have the idol which is WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

LEIGH

So I just used a random list generator for the immunity challenge. I figured it didnt matter what I did anyway. Them giving it to matt was no surprise for us. Ostensibly it is Lorelei or Chris S going due to me/owen/foxx/chris o. But I would feel better about splitting up Owen and Foxx. And considering I voted out Foxx in our last game I would like to keep him this time. The problem is Owen seems protective of Lorelei which may go both ways. So it may have to be Foxx.. we will see.

FOXX

There was like...a religious Coming to God experience about my being a furry last night. Like...Lorelei legit did NOT KNOW. I’m beginning to think these people did not watch my bio. My goal today is to try and take Lorelei out. I really don’t want to. It’s exhausting as hell to put so much energy in people I like to talk to just to watch them go. Lorelei is sweet and funny but I can’t sign away my chance to win this game. Chris O.  apparently is trying to get Stoner to target us but tbh I don’t take it personally bc he knows he’s in a rough spot. These newbies are being pagonged on two separate tribes and I don’t blame them for being desperate. I’m gonna need them coming along though in order to secure a better spot in the sea of Cahayas come merge time. We’ll see.

ISAAC

So I won immunity!!! We shittin' lads! This round has gone so well for me so far like? I'm nervous that this is about to go down so quickly. In other news I forged a Final 2 with Olivia and I genuinely like her so that's cool and in response to our call last night she told me she had an idol? Thas power luv xx. As for tribal these freaks wanna take out Lorelei as of right now? Like? What the fuck? Leigh is super smart and Chris is.......dead but like I don't quite understand how getting rid of Lorelei is in our best interests? But whatever - it's too early to make waves so - if that's who they want that's who I'll do. I'm trying to play this game and make myself look more aloof and/or dumber than I actually am because in the past I've shown how observant I can be and that got me sent packing but as of right now (even before I had immunity) It seems as if I'm not on anyone's radar. Which is how I obviously wanna keep it but I'm super nervous of the other vets (and Trevor/Anabel) as I know they're capable of striking first - which is fine as long as it's not on me or someone I'm working with - at the moment. But the risks of flipping right now - far outweighs the benefits because everyone on the favorites tribe has been holding their breath for so long and the first person to turn is going to get destroyed because they are (we are) looking for any reason to get rid of anyone.

OLIVIA

https://youtu.be/IrOqnZdvI6M This is how I feel about Anabel right now

If Trent idols me out honestly he deserves it

OWEN

I was freaking out lst night about what to do, then today it was like nobody even freaking TALKINNNGGGG which is so frustrating. I want to make things happen but I need other people to put in the work and rn chris stoner is NOT doing that. He's moved down a lot in terms of who I trust literally just bc he stopped paying attention the last few days. So now it seems like saving Lorelei comes with two options.... getting foxx to do stoner, or just grabbing the newbies and doing foxx. I wasnt sure if it would work bc I was beating around the bush but FINALLY chris o came to me and said leigh would be down but she wanted me to bring it up to her. So I did.... now it seems like lorelei, chris o and leigh will all be doing foxx, and my vote would make it a majority. Do I trust them all? i do. i really hope I can. I'm paranoid as fuck because if I pull off this move I get what I've wanted the whole game ever since he got into that alliance LMAOOO but.... if this blows up in my face I'm going home. It's all in now :(( and hopefully we dont swap/merge after this so I have a round to pick up the pieces. im basically saying fuck playing safe, i want what I want and I'm gonna get it!!!! i WILL be the furryslayer tonight yall, so grab the popcorn :)))) lmao watch me be corinne kaplan'd and im the one being blindsided instead. oh well, either way, someone will be shocked tonight

OLIVIA

On call with Matt and Jess and they’re talking about where idols could be and I’m just here like 👀

OWEN

KJFADHDSKJFHSDKJFSD OMG FOXX IS MESSAGING ME "oof" and I said some emojis and he said "come on dude" so literally someone told him the plan IM SCREAMING?????????? WHY DOES NOTHING GO RIGHT FOR ME AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

FOXX

I’m trying to check in with Isaac and this dude *will not* respond. I’m absolutely nervous af. I’m hoping he didn’t go rogue but it’d be a death sentence of he did. My main concern is trying to get Lorelei (RIP) to be locked in as a target. I’m panicking. Stoner’s panicking. Owen’s panicking. It’s a regular panic session.

I hope this goes as planned

OWEN

I talked to chris stoner and he said it would be better if he votes foxx so we can make it seem like foxx was being sketchy and we were more unified which I agree with and appreciate. Lorelei and Chris know that stoner wants to do that I’ve been talking to foxx s little and he’s worried about Isaac but that seems it. If he knows he’s getting votes then he’s being a good liar. I guess if he doesn’t know then it’s me who is bein the good liar oop hskshsj I just want this tribal to be doooooone with ! I’m ready to move on!!!!!!! Pre tribal stress is so so so bad :( This is kind of boring confesh lmaoooo hm idk probably after this vote my closest-least trusted: 1. Chris O 2. Chris Stoner 3. Lorelei 4. Olivia 5. Leigh 6. Jess 7. Matt 8. Isaac 9. Anabel 10. Trent 11. Michael 12. Dylan 13.  Foxx Pls Carly Rae Jensen watch over me tonight

OLIVIA

Goss? IM NERVOUS AS FUCK

LORELEI

I'm very stressed Abt this tribal. Me going is very high possibility. Owen said he would vote with me , chris and Leigh but there is a chance that he could be lying. We agreed to vote foxx out but what if he found the idol and has immunity? Or what if it's his and Owens plan and I go home anyway? I'm very scared. And I know that Owen being at the ranking isn't a mistake, he's planning sth.

#whenyourfiresout

[baylardo]

i just copy paste for Knowledge uwu 

heCKIGN head canons af amen IVE NEVER DONE THESE HONESTLY I WAS BORED AND NEVER TALK ABOUT THESE BUT NOW IM FEELING INVESTED

jacki hates it bUT I HAVE SHIPPED PIPSQUEAK AND LUNA SINCE BIRTH HECK ALL OF U i think their Plausible dynamic is so Complex and gucci I LOVE IT it wasn't like luna Raised Him or anything they wouldnt be in each others lives a lot while pip was a kid but luna always had this like,,,,, gratitude for him from That One Time AND THEIR RELATIONSHIP WOULD HIT OFF IMMEDIATELY EITHER IT WAS KINDA THIS GRADUAL THING THAT HAPPENED they'd probs talk A Lot on walks, pip might have joined the royal guard maybe???? luna would highkey crush on him but kinda be really subtle and distant around him Shed Never Be The One To Initiate Anything Between Them i imagine shed be pretty hesitant to suggest Anything with pip bc its WEIRD when ur DATING A PRINCESS THEIR RELATIONSHIP IMPORTANTLY WOULD BE KEPT A SECRET BASICALLY THE WHOLE TIME, there wouldn't be much use of making it public anyway celestia would be against the relationship but support her sister nonetheless probably due to her own experience with similar matters they'd probs talk about aging and immortality, but pip would insist on leaving it be and basically dealing with it when they got there luna basically Always has this worried look on her when their being intimate but she loves him amen, eventually she feels the feels and loosens up a bit im definitely wanting to kill him off in a large battle or something because suffering is my kink and then she may or may not have a kid of his afterwords RIDICULED

UUUUUH SCORPAN AND TWILIGHT IS SO HECKGING CUTE TO ME I LOVE IT SO MUCH i first really saw the ship presented to me from Dunefilly on DA i hecking love A LOT OF HER SHIPS amen amen i feel like scorpan would return to equestria after hearing of starswirl's reappearance along with the other ancient elements along the way he'd stay many places and hear of stories involving a particular band of ponies infamous for spreading the power of friendship across the land; he'd delve more into it the more he learned, eventually it became the sole purpose of his journey to ponyville underneath being reunited with his close friend thats what that one doodle is anyway of that first interaction he'd have with twilight upon his arrival not long after he meets with starswirl with twilight taking him to him, though scorpan almost immediately points out the tension between the two ponies, specifically pointing out star swirl's degrading attitude toward the alicorn which had toned down a bit though not by much eventually in the reunion scorpan would probably stand up for twilight after starswirl bashing her rookie mistakes too many times, kinda like what starlight did but with a little more personal research to back up the claim on a lighter note the two would spend a lot of time relaying information to each other from their contrasting travels, etc etc i always felt like twilight needed an equal of sorts in a partner that wouldn't necessarily lean toward argument and rather socratic debate lmao also from what the comic shows of him when he was younger i feel like he'd really grow in confidence over the years and grow a capability to help others in that regard

celestia and YOUNG STARSWIRL would Totally be a fling starswirls so busy-minded and serious all the time, obviously has no friends basically LIKE TWILIGHT ORIGINALLY i imagine celestias a total flirt with stallions in general but i love the idea of her trying Literally Everything to get deadpan starswirl to SMIRK he's a little heartless though and celestias lonely so it works it'd be a long-term fling since theyre around each other so often though after he disappeared and then later reappeared many years later what little interest there was in the relationship was lost between both of them by the time they met up again celestia would gladly rekindle the flame though THERES REALLY NOTHING SENTIMENTAL TO THEM THOUGH i feel like dislestia as a ship is REALLY OVERDONE but man is she a ho for GRAY COLOR SCHEMED MEN, i love it bUT I WANT TO DO OTHER THINGS even in her personality like,,,, she too is constantly busy so i dont think shed have time for anything outside of the occasional one night stand

quibble pants and rainbow dash are so cute to mEEEEE RD seemed really fitting with a Not Sporty Guy plus she's the element of [Loyalty] so dang she committed to this corny guy quibbles really supportive of his gf and goes to whatever events he can without Dying it took him a while to believe shed saved the world multiple times probably this is impORTANT

AND LASTLY BECAUSE I SELF INDULGE CHERRY JUBILEE IS MY FAVORITE HORSE SO I GOTTA SHIP HER I KNOW SHE HAS A COMIC WHERE I THINK SHE GETS ENGAGED AT THE END I FORGET???? implying That Doesnt Work Out I LOOOOOOVE the idea of her and troubleshoes being a thing they seem really Streetcar Named Desire to me but NOT HECKIGN INSANE just like a really ditzy girl who's pretty and a big guy to protect her and help in her cherry orchards amen

#art