#like. idk how people don't see it honestly i really don't.

[adasknife]

this a sort of complain of capcom and some fans.

i have been *seeing posts of people 'trying' to slander claire and trying to uplift ada. when you see why they try to make those conclusions, it sort of makes sense why. ada is a character in resident evil and the fans solely base her around leon and her bad actions. it makes sense why people try to defend her especially when some (not all) claire fans mention ada's name over and over in attempts to slander her.

the line of defense of ada is, "well, without ada, nothing would've happened. leon wouldn't have survived raccoon city. oh, well, she sold plagas and continued the story in re5. she caused the issues of re6 and fixed them. she helped leon with the information in the end of re6. ada isn't really bad if she..."

blah, blah. all are valid points, but we are missing the biggest detail. why is ada's character written like that? why did ada patch leon up? why did the cold mercenary gain a heart in the original re2? why does she have to be there for leon?

it's fucking capcom.

you guys are allowed to like ada. guys, i like her. i fucking adore ada, but let's be honest. capcom doesn't know what's ada's motives were in the original game. the only reason ada does those things is because capcom doesn't know what to do. why did ada save leon if letting to die would be faster and quicker for her? idk.

or why does ada feel obligated to help leon in the og separate ways? idk.

why is ada a morally gray character? oh, yeah. for capcom it's for keeping leon safe.

why does ada do her actions?

"oh, it's because she is mysterious and we aren't allowed to know."

why not? why aren't we allowed to know if the time skip of re2 and re6 (in real time 14 years), all we know is that her name isn't real.

all of ada's actions are:

when people ask, why don't we have an ada game? bro, do you honestly think capcom knows what to do with her? we barely got the remake and she makes a bit more sense than last time.

like even the original guy of re2 was like, "wow, i really like the kiss. it shows how much of a manipulator ada is!" [X]

and let's not pretend that capcom and some fans treat her as a raging stereotype of asian women.

trying to shit on claire/ada just pisses me off because girl characters have to stick together. capcom sexualises women every single chance it got. they queerbaited chris. capcom has a male dominant fandom base. they do things for the guys. why do you think ada's interaction with leon is all the time flirting? like guys, think it through.

why is it so hard to possibly think ada is a victim of bad writing from capcom? ada deserves fucking better and i'm tired of repeating it over and over. settling shouldn't be an option

#resident evil #ada wong #complain

[pemebi]

▶▶▶ Gem!Shinichi Au I had this idea in my mind for some time, I really don't like how it came out but at least is out of my brain. Things to remember This has Steven Universe logic but not Steven Universe characters This means: ▸Shinichi was trapped in a mirror. ▸Gem!Shinichi is a Zaphire that has future vision, but their future vision is only related to death, he is useless to gem society (Gems rarely die), and humans think he is cursed. ▸Kaito Stole a Zaphire because the black org wanted it first ▸Kaito learned that there is an Alien race of Gem People thanks to Shinichi ▸Shinichi can't return to their gem form at will, he is the only gem that Kaito Kid hasn't returned yet. ❥ Google translator is our loyal friend

S: …I can help you, you know? K: I pass S: You didn't even consider it

K: And how are you supposed to help me? The only thing I need is Pandora's location! S: Are you sure about that? S: I can make Kaito Kid and Kuroba Kaito co-exist convincingly!

K: I'm not interested. It's very suspicious that you want to help. S: Hey?! Suspicious? What do you think I want to do?

K: I know your type, Detectives. They wouldn't help a criminal unless they gained something. So tell me, detective, what are you hiding from me? What do you gain by helping me this time?

S: I don't win anything… Honestly, I'm trying to do you a favor.

…And when I'm direct with my predictions… They never take it well… but I guess it's better to be direct.

S: Your enemies suspect your identity If they don't see Kuroba Kaito and Kaito Kid at the same time… They will send you a message with the death of this girl… Kuroba Kaito is the only one who can avoid this misfortune.

---- In other words, if Kaito isn't near Aoko in the next Heist, she is dead. If the Heist is cancelled isn't going to change the scenario But if they confuse the organization by convincing them that Kaito isn't Kid, Aoko is saved, horray! If you don't know anything about Steven Universe, Gems can transform into anything they wish (The real body is the gem, the rest is like a solid projection with light) So, that's why he can take Kaito Kid and Aoko appearance. I wanted to change a bit Shinichi Gem uniform, but I don't have anything final, lol

I doodled this Shinichi, I like their smile idk, I feel like I work better with comedy but I like the dramatic ideas too

#dcmk #magic kaito #gem!Shinichi #shinichi kudo #kuroba kaito #This took me forever #But I like a lot this Au and I REALLY get sidetracked

[dropthedemiurge]

Second part of my translation comments (and half meta) for Gray Shelter [Episode 5], you can find the first post here!

"You gave the choice/decision to me, didn't you? (reference to the earlier scene)" "So your decision is to give me some money and tell me to get out of your sight?"

꺼져 is quite a rude word, like 'get the hell away from me', Yoondae is clearly pissed rephrasing/interpreting Soohyuk's intentions, he's using informal tone too

"Because I live like this? Because I idle/fool around here and there without doing anything, not able to get myself together (cannot get a grip on myself and my life)? Because you still see me as a child?!" "Yes. That's why I'm confused. Because it doesn't matter who is by your side (anyone will do), right?" "And (what's the problem)? You can be by my side. Why is everything so complicated for you? Just... (in softest pleading voice) ...Watch me. I will live like all the other people. Then it'll all be good (it's solved), no? You can watch over me while being by my side. Mmhm? Don't care about the situation, once again I'm telling you, just look only right at me."

I actually really like the usage of 'focus on me' in all the sentences because the translator keeps the leitmotif and it works in all contexts, the entire conversation was translated nicely. Even "- What's the most difficult thing about me and this situation for you? - That I'm your home (the place you return to now)."

I just gave you more literal translation... idk, for fun xD Maybe you'll catch more nuances that I tried to put in here. It's just devastating. Soohyuk sees and feels that Yoondae is clinging to him like to a lifeline, and he doesn't want to be one, he's got enough of people burdening him, his life is hard enough.

He tried to think simply like Yoondae and just live in the moment, give in to his impulses as well, but he just can't. He's sinking on his own and he can't chain himself to another person because even if he's a safe place for Yoondae, he won't be able to save him in this situation, it means they'll both drown. Yoondae has to find his own ground to stand on, he has to get a grip and find a new home on his own so he won't circle his entire life and attention on Soohyuk. Only then it'll work.

"If I find another home, can I call you? You won't avoid me then?"

They don't kiss here – they can't. It won't work. But such short distance is a promise, it's a possible future happy ending hanging between them both like a life vest and a heavy rock.

I'm not sure he means it as 'we get together again'. More like

"If we meet again, will we become okay?"

Like, they agreed it won't work out now, they need some time, and Yoondae now will be holding onto that hope that Soohyuk might accept him and his feelings once Yoondae finds his own home, his own meaning in life. But he's still afraid it won't happen, that's why he needs to hear some affirmation. Will things between them become alright (and the fact that he doesn't really say 'better' or 'good', he uses 괜찮다 - fine, alright, okay and asks if they will be able to even reach that). Which means they both know their relationship is less than 'okay' now.

And in a very Gray Shelter melancholic satisfying-unsatisfying way, Soohyuk only replies: "It'd at least be better than now."

That's the only thing Yoondae is left with. This, and a daring request to pretend he didn't steal that goodbye kiss.

And we're getting a time skip which starts on a sound of a ringing telephone. ("If I find another home, can I call you? ) And surprisingly, it doesn't seem that Yoondae is the one calling this time, as he wanted to. It seems like Yoondae accepted the call but he wasn't holding it or answering, yet Soohyuk called him and invited him for a dinner and is waiting for the answer. Now, the decision is up to Yoondae.

There is a calendar on the wall but I honestly didn't track if there were any other calendars in the show so we can tell how long was the time skip.

"Alright. I'll be waiting."

To be honest, in the ending I wished they showed at least one scene of Yoongdae coming home in a work-like uniform or doing something to indicate he started sorting his life out before that call came through. Because even though the ending is hopeful – they lived separately for some time, Yoondae has his own place, Soohyuk is reaching out to spend time with him now and they both agreed their next meeting will be more hopeful – but will it be enough? Was the problem actually solved?

We all should think that yes, but I wish the ending supported it a little bit more confidently. After such a rollercoaster of emotions and complicated situation, I want to see them heading towards the truly happy ending Т_т (give me the second season!)

In any case, the acting is great and the melancholic atmosphere for a BL was so unusual, I loved the edgy dialogues and emotionally raw writing. For such a short story, Gray Shelter certainly will go under many people's radar but it still touched my soul.

And, well, now I understand the title. Soohyuk is a shelter, he shouldn't be a home. Shelter is a place they seek temporarily comfort in when they have nowhere else to go. And it's not a bright happy couple place, and it's not an abusive family house either, gray is neither black nor white. It's something in between, and it's up to Soohyuk and Yoondae to try and build an actual equal bond, have a place to return to and person to eat dinner with.

#gray shelter #gray current #gray shelter comments #dropthemeta #korean bl #kbl #soohyuk x yoondae #kdrama #bl series

[dismissivedestroyer]

Hi hello I might be a bit feverish still so this might come off as some nonsense rambling but!!

LITERALLY YOU'RE SO CORRECT!!

Like, Bob and Moloch don't have HALF of the complexity that Dexter has (this doesn't mean i don't like them, i actually love them), Moloch is just "Evil-because-demon", and Bob is just "Evil-because-yes", since as far as we know, he doesn't have any backstory to tell us why he is the way he is. He's just an evil cannibal serial killer for the sake of being evil and eating people.

With Dexter, the situation's way more complex, because he really isn't evil. He's morally grey at best, made some questionable choices to keep his "urges" under control, but not evil at all. It took him ONE YEAR of psychological torture to snap and decide to kill the kids, and even then, he fought it as much as he could.

I really like how Pelo wrote Dexter, honestly. It's really rare to see ASPD (antisocial personality disorder), which i'm like 90% sure Dexter was canonically confirmed to suffer from, represented in a way that isn't just "Ohoh look at this EVIL MONSTER with NO EMPATHY who doesn't CARE FOR HUMAN LIFE and so he's gonna KILL EVERYONE OHOH". And it bothers me a bit how much the fandom leans into characterizing Dexter exactly like this. Like, his issues are barely acknowledged as a whole, and if they are, they are represented poorly. Idk maybe it's just cause Spooky Month usually leans into horror tropes and stereotypes, so the fandom chalks Dexter up to the (still ableist btw) "Mentally Ill Serial Killer" trope, but the fact is that Dexter in canon is NOT LIKE THIS, and they always make him so WIDELY out of character... It's like the fandom saw his mental illness, saw the fact that Dexter's personality is still at times very harsh, brutally honest, and sassy and sarcastic (mostly in the doodles Pelo does), and decided "okay yeah we can't baby-fy him, turn him up to the other extreme"---> and made him this heartless insane guy

Anyway. Big fan of how Pelo gave us a character that actually struggles with his mental illness and also makes bad choices and isn't a perfect human being but also not an irredeemable evil monster that just wants to murder people for fun.

#spooky month #spooky month dexter #dexter erotoph #sm dexter #dexter doll #spooky month bob #sm bob #bob velseb #sm bob velseb #sm moloch #moloch

[mobiused]

sorry but min heejin is a legitimate pedophile who has stated brooke shields as her inspo and has pics of children in the nude on her walls. i hate jaden as much as the next guy but he is not as genuinely awful and disgusting as min heejin is. and i dont want people minimizing how dangerous she really is, esp w the weird undertones of sexualization she inserts into nwjns lore… so many people turn a blind eye 😞

IDK whether it's fair to say that she's a legit pedophile but its not like its relevant tbh. I think she sees the profitability of pedophilic marketing and will endanger children for her aesthetic vision which includes sexualising children. IDK if its her sexual preferences or just her tastes (is lana del rey a pedophile for aestheticizing lolita, i don't think so) but honestly? Has jaden not done the same thing? Love cherry motion and uncover were overtly about losing your virginity and choerry was 16. Hyeju's egoist dance was massively age inappropriate. Yeojin's song about consent is just very creepy esp with the foot stuff even if there's nothing overtly sexual like LCM or Egoist. Favorite was a disgusting nightmare of fetishizing schoolgirls. Jaden is definitely not innocent in this regard.

I 100% agree with you about not understating the importance of how dangerous she and her age inappropriate treatment of underage girls is for the record. Honestly I don't really agree with comparing the two - they both suck bad, end of story.

#like... jaden wrote lyrics for choerry to sing about losing her virginity and asked her to sing them #and the styling....... padded bras and skirts that cut away at the hip yeah ok normal

[mamawasatesttube]

the thing about generally-accepted broad fanon batfam dynamics is that even if you disregard the complete stripping of all nuance in order to make a perfectly nuclear family with no lasting or significant conflict etc etc, half of it is all just built on vaguely (or explicitly) racist stereotypes anyway, like .......... ah yes the little half arab boy is a violent feral gremlin who can't fit in with refined polite society. the half east asian girl is the golden child who never speaks and is good at everything and has no flaws because she's the favorite who holds the family together. the romani one is a slut. LIKE. okay...!

#and this isn't even getting into latino jason and east asian tim hcs. which aren't inherently racist and i do enjoy sometimes! #but sometimes it's just so like. oh you just went hm the poor guy who's violent uses guns and is in the drug trade... that one is latino now #and oh let's declaw this other guy and make him physically weaker but such a nerd and good at computers and ope now he's east asian #like. idk how people don't see it honestly i really don't. #rimi talks

[anghraine]

I think it's interesting that when Gandalf describes Denethor's ability to "perceive, if he bends his will thither, much of what is passing in the minds of men," he ties it less to his wisdom or general insightfulness (though he possesses both) than to his difference from "other men of this time," his near total Númenóreanness, and as bolded here, the active exercise of his will.

Tolkien also attributes Denethor's resilience against Sauron (by contrast with Saruman) to not only his right to use the Anor-stone, but "great strength of will." He notes that Sauron had no servant with greater mental powers than Saruman or Denethor, and Gandalf remarks that Denethor was "too great" to be subdued to Sauron's will.

Denethor and Gandalf have a strange and unsettling silent confrontation, carried on by their gazes, yet it strikes Pippin as like "a line of smouldering fire" and "as if reading each other's mind." Gandalf afterwards says Pippin was stuck between two "terrible old men," lumping Denethor in with himself. Pippin also sees some kind of kinship between Denethor and Gandalf, as Sam saw between Faramir and Gandalf.

In his letters, Tolkien said that the ancient Númenóreans became barely distinguishable from Elves in appearance and in their powers of mind. In Unfinished Tales, he notes that they loved their horses, and when a Númenórean had a strong bond with a horse, it was said that the horse could be summoned "by thought alone."

In LOTR, Faramir—who has inherited Denethor's Númenóreanness/wizardliness—has a reputation for command over both animals and men. When everyone else is thrown by their horses upon being chased by five Nazgûl, he not only keeps his seat, but mysteriously gets his horse to ride back towards the Nazgûl. And during the retreat across the Pelennor, the soldiers in the city conclude that Faramir must be with the men who are managing to retreat in order, repeating Beregond's remark that he has some undefined command over both men and beasts.

Gandalf suggests that this is a result of Faramir pitting himself against the effects of the Nazgûl in some way, but his abilities (whatever they are) are outmatched. In the event, the effect of Faramir's Aura of Courage commanding abilities remains until he's shot and finally falls to the Black Breath.

Faramir also makes repeated references to perceiving or reading things in Gollum's mind. At one point, he describes Gollum's mind as dark and closed, yet unable to prevent Faramir from detecting that he's holding something back about Cirith Ungol specifically. Noticeably, this only happens when Faramir orders Gollum to look at him (which Gollum does "unwillingly"), and the light drains from his eyes as he meets Faramir's. It seems decidedly reminiscent of the later Gandalf vs Denethor duel-by-eye-contact.

Faramir's exact words about Gollum's secrecy are "That much I perceived clearly in his mind," in reference to his earlier questioning of him. He says that he can "read" previous murders in Gollum and Gollum cries out in pain when he tries to lie to him.

When Faramir gives staves to Frodo and Sam, he says that a "virtue" of finding and returning has been placed on them, with zero explanation of what he means by that. He adds a hope that the virtue will not altogether fail under Sauron's power in Mordor. He describes the people who did the woodwork but not who placed the virtues (it doesn't seem inherent to the wood itself, given his phrasing).

We do know that Dúnedain can potentially embed enchantments into items. The Barrow-daggers carried by Merry and Pippin are specifically enchanted against the Witch-king of Angmar by an unknown Dúnadan of the North, and when Merry stabs the Witch-king, the dagger breaks enough spells for Éowyn's ordinary sword to finish the job.

Meanwhile, Aragorn uses his healing powers to help the city, wishing for the presence of Elrond, because he is their eldest of their kind and more powerful. Aragorn, also, has at least some part of this ability to actively exercise his will and mental powers, perhaps an equal share, though he uses it less often.

In the book, he doesn't physically attack the Mouth of Sauron, but instead holds his gaze (again, eye contact is important!). There's another silent struggle that involves no weaponry or any other contact.

He prevails in some way over the Mouth of Sauron (not a warped creature of Sauron in the book, but a cruel Númenórean who has "learned great sorcery"). The Mouth indignantly says he has diplomatic immunity and can't be attacked like this.

But, I mean, maybe they're all just smart and perceptive, it's really unclear.

#eldritch dúnedain WHEN #because i am very aware that this could be deeply unsettling if presented just a bit differently! #but it is wild to me that tolkien can outright say 'this guy is a númenórean who learned sorcery' #and people are still like 'but can númenóreans use magic. i guess we'll never know.' #or have faramir give his whole speech about what gollum's mind looks like to him and what he can see clearly in it #fandom: idk it's just really unclear #gandalf: denethor can see what happens in other people's minds if he exercises his will #fandom: a great mystery ... maybe he's just very wise and insightful??? #tolkien: the dúnadan who enchanted the daggers would be happy to know his spells worked and helped defeat the witch-king #fandom: númenórean craftmanship is /skilled/ of course but how can we make this about elves #honestly it seems like people don't /want/ númenóreans to have supernatural abilities and i'm not sure why #humans who have elvish-style powers and appearance yet can never escape their humanity is SUCH a concept #(yes i will harp on this until the end of time) #anghraine babbles #legendarium fanwank #legendarium blogging #long post #húrinionath

[bluesidedown]

.

#this just in: moving to another continent to live and work with complete strangers for six months #incredibly distant from every important person in your life and your supportive community #is in fact. incredibly difficult. #like idk it's hard to describe because it's also been amazingly cool and i'm so thankful i get to do this #and like i can see God's hand in so many things that have happened and are happening #and He's providing what i need in such amazing ways #but also i'm exhausted and really really homesick #and i miss my people #and i miss going to chapel at school #and honestly just attending church in a language i understand #and rn i'm dealing with a crisis at least every day about what i'm going to do with the rest of my life #and long distance dating is really hard and need i reiterate i am exhausted and when i get tired and sad i self isolate. which is unhelpful #and generally i'm in that weird state of being where i genuinely have no clue how to persevere and i feel deeply deeply out of my depth #and also God is just. so present. #tbh i'm terrified that the rest of my life is just going to be Like This #and i'm also terrified that the rest of my life is not going to be Like This #because the last 5ish years have been Like This to varying degrees and i've learned and grown so much and i've come to know God so much mor #but i'm so tired. #and i'm tired of getting up every day and dealing with things that are scary. #but i'm scared of a life where i don't because i'm most scared of stagnating #anyway wow congrats if you made it this far into my venting #on the bright side yesterday i experienced one of the weirder (in a good way) social situations i've ever been in #walked into my language learning partner's mother-in-law's house (who i'd never met before) at 10pm and was instantly given two plates #of beautiful homemade (culturally appropriate dumplings) and a cup of tea #and proceeded to stay for 40min listening to a conversation where i understood about 3 words out of every 50 #couldn't have experiences like that if i stayed in my comfort zone could i

[tarmac-rat]

Absolutely bonkers that we're now living in a world where people are holding up Cyberpunk 2077 to other video games and CYBERPUNK is the positive one in the comparison. (x)

#Cyberpunk 2077 #Game criticism truly is an endless cycle of eating each other alive ain't it #Honestly I personally think that people who care about this level of detail are nitpickers #I don't ever see myself caring about NPC reactions like this because I suspend my disbelief in video games like these #But as a survivor of the times that CP2077 was on the opposite end of these comparisons it's crazy to see how the narrative flipped #And not necessarily through patches-- I don't think crowd reactions like these were ever patched IN just updated over time #idk I know it matters to some people but stuff like this personally doesn't matter to me so it's eyeopening to see the flip in the narrativ #at least in real time #Aldi speaks #And this is from someone who actually wants to play Starfield I really don't have a horse in this race

[maddy-ferguson]

i feel like the fact that barely anyone who watches the show thinks of will as the main character might be indicative of the fact that he isn't

#and like i say: brf slt #just realized i said the fact twice. this was worded differently at first #i'm very sorry #(not about the the fact thing about the will mc thing) #if you ask anyone who the main character is after seasons 3 and 4 they'll say el #it's not the el show and will is just as if not more important to the supernatural plotline like obviously nothing would've happened if he #hadn't gone missing and he has a connection to vecna no one else has and #everyone's love for him is basically what makes all of s1 happen #but he's literally not there. i've seen people watch the show for the first time recently and guess who was the main character to them #while they were watching the first two seasons? mike! literally elliott in E.T and the YA protagonist in the middle of a love triangle why #does everyone take his main boy status away from him...we first meet the characters at HIS house in HIS basement we see HIS family first #it's HIM we follow all throughout season 1 in the kids part of the show basically like idk #yes he's not el and he's not will in terms of connection to the supernatural but like #in seasons 3 and especially in season 4 you don't really think of him as the main character anymore but literally no one but bylers think #of will as the main character like i'm just saying. i don't think trying to pick a definite main character makes sense anyway because #there's kind of a shift around season 3 where it becomes...the el show. even if it doesn't not really. but it's not like people are crazy #and Media Illiterate for thinking that the biggest character on the posters whose actress is the biggest star and who gets paid the most is #the main character. don't people complain 24/7 about how little screentime will got in seasons 3 and 4 like obviously that would lead to #people...not seeing him as the main character #anyway. to me in seasons 1 and 2 it's between mike and el honestly and if you add seasons 3 and 4 then el #even though will is just as important like i said. it's just very different #but honestly in season 1 it's totally mike to me it's only in season 2 that i would start to hesitate #there's also joyce but i don't think anyone's saying joyce is the main character but yk i don't know if you know this but it's an ensemble #show... #it's definitely the willel show in a sense but... #mike is the protagonistest protagonist in season 1 how do people forget that #having to fight for your life to convince people that will is the main character kind of proves that he isn't😭 #and i still think he's the most important which doesn't make sense i know but idk it makes sense to me

[glimblshanks]

I understand wanting to ship the lower decks characters (I enjoy shipping the lower decks characters) but also McMahan is very clearly trying to write romantic friendships with the WC4 and I wish more fans could recognize that and just enjoy it for what it is

#venting #idk maybe it's just that my other main fandom is mostly aspec people #but as much as I enjoy Lower Decks and its fandom for the most part #I feel like I've experienced a lot more uh ... casual arophobia in this fandom than in others #and it's mostly through people insisting that certain ships need to be canon #and that certain actions in the show couldn't possibly be read as platonic #it honestly makes shipping less fun for me :/ #like I love the relationships in lower decks because they are so much like my own relationships as an aro #it's so nice to see committed friendships that are prioritized above the romantic relationships the characters get into #and even though I enjoy shipping some of the characters romantically #honestly any of the WC4 getting together would really ruin that aspect of the show for me #I don't think McMahan is aro #but he writes relationships in a very aro way #and I appreciate him for that! #like I understand that some people want certain ships to be canon #but I think harping on that too much really takes away from how unique and meaningful his way of writing relationships is already #and it really kind of sucks to see relationships I strongly relate to #critiqued as being poorly written or 'bating the audience' just because they're not romantic

[electrivolt]

// blog update— like i said some time ago i will be clearing my mutuals list a bit through the week. more importantly, i am adding a rule concerning interactions.

i have to stress out that this is by no means petty drama or "she said he said so i have beef with them", this is not any petty thing such as stealing icons or headcanons or whatever. it's about genuinely concerning predatory grooming behavior that under other circumstances like irl situations it is serious enough to be likely considered criminal by some. it's something i'm begging all of you to take seriously, i have NEVER before in any rp blog in my years on the platform felt such a strong need to make a DNI and try to cut off someone completely from my curated space.

If you choose to write with Grim/Barghest/whatever other name he chooses to go by, I would prefer to break mutuals. He has shown repeated toxic behavior towards many people, including manipulating and gaslighting, and predatory behavior towards someone that started at the time this person was a minor, including inappropriate messages, to say this lightly. There are screenshots that I can share if so requested, screenshots that have been posted by both the affected person previously and then by Grim himself trying to recontextualize them to both victim blame and make himself the victim.

You are free to interact with Grim as you wish, and this is in no way an ultimatum, I just cannot in any way see this individual on my dash since it frankly does make me physically ill knowing what he has done, and I want to curate my space for my own wellbeing. I'm sorry if this upsets anyone, but I genuinely cannot in good conscience pretend I did not see what happened and act as if everything is fine, and I don't want to simply water down something this inexcusable.

My DMs are open if anyone wants to ask anything concerning this post, and if you feel you need to block me and leave, I understand.

#〔 ooc . 〕 ϟ power off . #// i cannot in good conscience tag this as drama. i swear and promise it literally is not #like i cannot overstate how serious this is #ngl idk if i can be here today just the visceral reaction of seeing him around again was enough to make me sick idk how i haven't thrown up #my hands are just a little shaky i don't know how i managed to type this #i don't know if i'll reblog this or not later on just #im begging you guys to take this seriously #i have never made this kind of post before #and i've been here on tumblr since 2016 through some of the worst rpcs according to people #i just want everyone to stay safe that's really it it's scary #if you've heard of aku this is close honestly

[chloelouygo]

Trying hard in therapy so I can fix myself to make my therapist proud 🫡

#he's the absolute SWEETEST #gutted i can only get a course of 6 sessions with him :( #but I'll try super hard over these few months to get better!! #i told him i did cross stitch and he went🥹 i love needlepoint!! and i was like ooh i have needlepoint horses on my wall!! and he was like😍 #entirely too precious ;o; #i don't tend to babble when i talk unless i connect with the person or subject I'm talking with or about #and i find myself rambling when i talk to him #which honestly im often really awkward and quiet to speak with #so he must be good if he can get me rambling lmao #it's really weird to have therapy over the phone though because like #aside from being a pasty irishman in his early 30s-ish #i have no idea what he looks like?? #and like it's odd to spend a while talking but to not see tuem #i used to do weekly phone calls to lonely older people #and i spoke to 4 people over my years volunteering #i spoke to lesley for nearly 3 years #do i know whqt she looks like? #not a clue #we weren't allowed to email or know last names or anything so i have no idea what amy of my lovely old friends looked like #and it's so weird how some really important people in my life (you reading this included most likely) #are people who ive not actually seen #idk how whimsical is that #people in old times would not have understood having great friends who you can connect with really well but have never been in a room with #i be monologuing sorryyyy #ily

[isekyaaa]

Someone said my work is "quality" u//////u

#rambles #i shouldn't be typing this in the tags but like..... #it's hard for me to consider the fact that people follow my writing blog because they like my writing #my assumption is that majority of the notes on my posts are purely from people using the search function #not my followers #like people don't follow me for my writing but because they want genshin content #which honestly i have no beef with that mindset at all #but when people comment on things like the quality of my writing it's like..... #'oh you're following me for me' #it's extremely flattering #it's this sudden realization that i exist #i'm being seen #does that make sense? #i have this strong innate urge to always see myself as a wallflower #someone that doesn't stand out or is noticed #but people always prove me wrong because they will see me and know me #they will treat me with warmth i do not deserve and say kind things about me that i do not see in myself #and honestly i don't know what to think about that or how to even handle it #deep down i know i do stand out #i know that #but it's so hard for me to believe #tmi lol #like idk man maybe people are just really observant and their notice of me isn't a weird thing

[plexippusangel]

I either need to accept that I am just a way stronger person than this friend and can handle way more while still being able to engage with the world as a person, or recognize excuses as excuses, accept that I am not valued and be done or. Maybe both. Idk. It might be somewhere between the two. I am just sick of regular life stuff rendering him unable to spend any time with me, and of him being unable to bear any of the details of my life, when I would move mountains to rekindle our friendship. Though I'm starting to wonder if I still would.

#faer personal files #i just. really didn't want officiating his wedding to be our last hurrah of friendship even though i did kind of feel it coming #also i'm really sick of being infantilized for my chronic fatigue i am a grown adult and i know what i'm capable of #ugh. maybe i'm just being awful and not understanding in which case i'm too much of a rancid person to be his friend i guess #but i don't think that's the case #idk i'll never forget when i couldn't see this dude for a year even masked up outside for covid but when another of our old friends came up #from her job doing COVID RELATED CROWD CONTROL FOR THE FUCKING ARMY he went on a hike with her mask off #and i think that says a lot about what our friendship's been for years honestly. if he can't bear my company idk why i try #if i'm just an interesting prop for conversations and occasions but not a friend. i can't accept that #i am an interesting prop for conversations. the disabled genderfluid bisexual genius who lost everything bc of said disability #but i didn't lose everything i just have to fucking rebuild on new ground. and i am doing that. i whine on occasion but i am so strong #and i do know how to interact with people without traumadumping i haven't on him in YEARS but his concept of me crystalized at age 21 #or something like that i guess. idk it just breaks my heart #bc for a long time he was my person. he was the only person who knew the authentic me. more even than my sisters at times. #and yeah that was a little unhealthy but at the time he craved that!!! #and then i grew up and stopped needing him like that around the same time he stopped wanting that and it should have been fucking fine #but like. even senior year of college when i was sick it was already starting to fall apart #like i remember being on a small hike once being exhausted and jokingly being like you gotta carry me back and then being like #no really i might actually need an arm to lean on by the end of this walk if i'm gonna make it back to the car i really don't know if i can #and he said no bc he didn't want to look straight. who the fuck CARES??? i could barely walk i was stumbling my way back annoying him going #too slow. fuck. and that really has been what our friendship has been for years. the minute my house wasn't the most convenient place it wa #more or less dead idk why i keep dragging this horse around #idk why i keep letting him break my heart like this it's so stupid he's never gonna care about me like he did when i was quick and brillian #but never quite as smart as him in his view. fuck him. i'm smarter. just bc i was a little gullible or paranoid at times bc of the #FUCKING CPTSD doesn't mean i was dumber than him. the fuck??? there's something wrong with me i swear idk why i hang on #anyway i'm irritated. but i'm also reluctant to throw away somebody who's seen me through key points in my life. so.

[polaraffect]

they really mean it when they say "your idols will always disappoint you". shit's got me fucked up.

#damien.txt #this is abt the vtuber nijisanji drama lol #i still don't really know what to think and i think a lot of ppl are being VERY black and white when looking at the situation #but also... i have to admit it hurt seeing ike in that video #like fuck dude. i get it. but also i really really don't. #this was just literally the worst pr move anyone could possibly make. like quite literally this is up there with the all time worst. #and he was so fr my oshi. i was honestly ride or die w him through this situation. but now looking @ everything atm makes me feel #a little disappointed. a little sick. like again i don't think he's a liar or like. the 'bully' that was reported but also #it feels........ just so unnecessary #sigh. i really do think we as the audience are missing SOOOO much info tho. like an incredibly large amount #i think there were wrongs done on both sides and i think everyone is being pretty much truthful to their own experiences #but just. so clearly the people involved are seeing the same instances in completely different lights. #and there's also incredibly large amounts of miscommunication. that seems like the most obvious thing to me. #idk. idk! feeling very conflicted abt still interacting with niji en atm #i will go sleep and see how i feel in the morning i suppose. mannnn. this sucks #nijisanji