#like i got maybe an hour last night

[omppupiiras]

yes i know i am a grown ass adult but somebody please tell me to stop playing with my food

#käärijä #it seems i DID INDEED LOSE MY MIND TODAY #i was looking at the peas and corn on my plate and started giggling to myself like an insane person #maybe the 4 hours of sleep i got last night are catching up with me #who knows #forgot to draw the mouth lol but who cares #peas and corn käärijä

[arielluva]

"If I do this again, Madoka will just have more fate attached to her. The only thing I did in the end was..."

#my art #madoka magica #puella magi madoka magica #pmmm #homura akemi #madoka kaname #everytime i draw homura she is crying.... anyways #i finally finished something!!!!! #everything ive been drawing recently goes unfinished so im glad something made it out #it took working over the span of like 4 days but i got it done last night.... at 2 am.... #it probably only took maybe 3 hours to draw but i sure did not have motivation #but yeah! art! woo #2022

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[sunny12th]

been thinking about the rotting blue heart in the House of the Undying that seemed to nearly kill Dany and the Heart of Winter that made Bran cry. Drogon ate the blue heart, saving Dany, and destroying the HotU as a result. Dany also ate a raw stallion heart to give her son (the stallion who mounts the world, the title that actually belongs to Dany/Drogon) strength.

There's some foreshadowing there, right? Dany and Drogon (plus the other dragons/dragon riders maybe) are gonna eat the Heart of Winter? Dany consuming death itself? life eating death, fire melting ice, etc. Obviously the "Heart of Winter" might not be a literal and physical heart.

Bran eating the Heart of Winter through Summer; Summer literally consuming Winter. We see him eat while in Summer's mind in the books, it's an escape from his own nagging hunger. Hunger is for winter, feasting is for summer.

Eating as a celebration of life. I like this visual better than This Character strikes down the Big Bad with a sword. I also like it more than the three dragons simply burning whatever they see in the Heart of Winter. Eating is a celebration of life; I read a post awhile ago about how grrm puts so much Detail into his descriptions of food because of this. because it's all about celebrating life in the face of death, when you know Winter is Coming anyways.

#i got 3 hours of sleep last night. #something something dany and drogon have a history of eating hearts! and there's a heart of winter! i am connecting the dots!! #the heart in HotU being blue also. blue is associated with death and ice and the others #the HotU collapsing after drogon eats their weird blue heart too. maybe the heart of winter is key to destroying all of the others/ice zomb #i dont think any other characters are associated with hearts like dany is but admittedly im not going to check #mine #daenerys targaryen #asoiaf #heart of winter #asoiaf predictions #drogon #this is SO poorly written but well. it's not like im turning this in for a grade #bran stark #idk i just love the visual of dany and bran literally eating a blue heart #asoiaf meta

[pcktknife]

its lookin like I'm bout to have another 8hr nap tomorrow

#maybe even longer cause last night i went to bed at a much much earlier time than now #i got like 3 hours so uhhh niiiight 😋 #kae.txt #i sleep so much now but still not at all... crazy

[thatoneluckybee]

bitches love me cause i sleep until 4

I'm stealing you melatonin I need some

#I woke up at EIGHT!!! I COULD NOT SLEEP MORE!!!!!!! #I actually. Fell asleep at a decent time it was weird #This is funny to me if I fall asleep early I WILL be forcibly woken up by my body because it is alarming apparently if I sleep normally #I don't ever sleep enough I can't ever. Like 6-5 hours on school nights #Maybe once or twice a month like last night ig I'll just. Randomly collapse or pass out in my room and sleep for longer than normal and the #I'm good for a few weeks. Like. It's strange. How I sleep idk. #I've fallen asleep at like 6 and woken up at 3am on a SATURDAY #and also I slept for 18 hours one time and then only got like three hours for the next few days #I'm taking your melatonin I need my body to produce it like a normal person #Asks #fruit-gummiees

[girlscience]

I feel like actual hot garbage today. I got the goobies from my family and I am increasingly pretty sure I have altitude sickness. I am so mad.

#I got maybe 3 hours of good sleep last night #I am cranky. everything is loud. I am not sure my glasses are correct. #we are at the grand canyon today and all I want to do is lay down and die 😭😭 #I am increasingly nauseous and I don't want to throw up out here #I have a headache and my sinuses are going nuts. It feels like someone stuck suction cups on my eyes and is pulling #I just want to enjoy seeing one of the coolest things on planet earth 😭

[cordycepsbian]

some wasps (and a bee)

#bug fables #bug fables spoilers #stuff i made tag #bf carmina #bf prisoner #bf voi #bf rebelle #bf crow #bf serene #can you tell what our favorite kind of bug is #we got yhhhh like two hours of sleep last night maybe two and a half. we are so eepy right now #but the Draw Wasp urge was greatwr than the eepy #we kinda redesigned carmina because we couldn't rember what her face looked like #and didn't think to uh use a reference. until we had colored her #thwre's probably more mistakes we didn't catch ebcause sleepy we are posting this and then take a nap ok. goodnight

[keeps-ache]

if i could be any little creature on the earth i'd be one of those little robot-dog toys that kind of suck

#just me hi #i know they suck my sibling had one once and it was okay hfvsh #it could do backflips but it also banged its head into the floor every time it did so it was kind of painful to watch lolll #but besides the suckiness i just think they're neat :> #they can roll around and that is very cool to me #sometimes they play music but the speakers are horrible but they're trying so hard bhfs </33 #/anyway. i actually had a point to this but i forgot what it was #if i was a sucky robot-dog toy that costed 60 bucks with terrible wheels and worse speakers i think i'd go and travel the world #why travel the world? i don't know ! just makes sense to do something like that #i think the little things would like to travel the world :> they can't move very well and aren't taken to many rooms and their batteries di #quickly but i think despite (or maybe because) of that they'd roll around busy streets and explore spots that would be hidden by the usual #tourist #it's just a neat thought :) #//okay.. on my way now lol #i keep staying up to ungodly hours by accident and i feel so flat hfhvsh #stayed up til 5 on saturday bc i got caught up telling my siblings a story. stayed up til 4 last night doing the same exact thing fhhsv #i don't learn lol !! #but ye gonna see if i can get my sludge brain to work. as my brother says; toodledoo #//edit: also their hearts are in their batteries and every time you change them they love you more. okay Now bye fhvsbvhfvs

[propertyofkylar]

if you were sick, i think kylar, whitney, robin and sydney would all bring you soup. however, they would all wear masks so they wouldn’t get sick too except for kylar, who would be licking the sweat off the nape of your feverish neck (they think consuming your germs makes you part of them)

#dol #nica's headcanons #things i think about when i can’t sleep #guys i slept like. four. maybe five hours last night #life is pain #i got out of bed to have some toast and tea and went right back #have to think about my blorbos to survive

[mossflower]

loki season two has me screaming crying throwing up trying not to get dragged back into the mcu trenches

#i am stronger than this. i am better than this!! #by the trenches i mean consuming fanfiction at an unhealthy rate. fourteen year old me was insane i think i was on ao3 more than i slept #that’s not exaggeration. i was getting four hours of sleep on school nights and frequently went to bed at 5am on weekends #it is ONE good story. one. literally not worth it. i don’t even care about ninety percent of the mcu characters #i will ignore the little voice in my head reminding of the sheer amount of fanfiction. this was my pre-tumblr days #so my fandom interaction was like. youtube and ao3. maybe instagram posts sometimes. it was so much fun like. zero drama zero discourse #i was honestly living my best life. got less interested when i joined tumblr and went full doctor who mode #and after endgame i watched i think wandavision and loki and that was it. just didnt care anymore lol #i know exactly why this is happening tho. currently the thing i am insane about is my own damn project. which i am in the process of writin #for obvious reasons no fandom there. bc it lives in my mind twenty four fucking seven #i do wonder if i’m kind of growing away from fandom anyway? the closest i’ve got since toh ended was homestuck tbh #i want to feel obsessed with something again!! everything i’m into now - tma tlt and the like - i love them #but it doesnt hit like it used to. i don’t know it’s hard to explain #like video essays that i would have loved a few years ago!! the hour long ones about representation and queer media #they just irritate me now! i got halfway through one last week and had to bail i just could not care less #how did 2020 social media have me convinced that x character being gay was super important politically economically socially etc #ofc the answer is that i was a baby lesbian getting even less social interaction than normal #like representation is important obviously but also. sometimes it was not that deep #i don’t know if i’m making sense tbh but you get my drift #morganposting

[0509-brainrot]

dying over domestic 0509. like Actually Deceasing.

their jobs Suck and half the time one or both of them are Exhausted as Hell when they get home (but that won't stop Shidou from trying to ensure that mikoto never touches an energy drink Ever Again). They cuddle when they get home. Or just collapse.

They have a plant. Actually they have several. They're everywhere. They just keep buying them.

Shidou: "They mean x and it reminded me of you"

Mikoto: "They were really pretty and it reminded me of you"

Shidou knows all of their flower language meanings and Mikoto names all of them (they're written on popsicle sticks stuck in the soil because there's too many to remember) and is also very guilty of overwatering them sometimes. Or forgetting to water them. (But Shidou usually checks the soil so it's fine)

Mikoto gets Shidou into his hobbies. I think they'd enjoy photography a lot :))) Maybe nature photography especially

Shidou writes notes and reminders for Mikoto just in case he forgets to get/do something (I feel like Mikoto himself is/becomes pretty organized about writing stuff down actually, but just in case)

Physically affectionate Mikoto. Shidou headpats. Enough said. *Backflips into the sun*

I want them to be happyyy uwahh... I wish....

#txt #milgram #mikoto kayano #shidou kirisaki #0509 #0905 #0509 ramblings #not putting this in the fandom tag #i'm soooo sososo self conscious about flooding the main tags guhh #edit i changed my mind you all are subjected to my thinking now (i'm sorryyyyy) #i wanna doodle fluffy domestic 0509 so baddd.... #but i'm so exhausted... i god like hardly any sleep last night oof.... like idk if i even got an hour.... #maybe later <33 (more people need to draw them I'm begginggg) #guess it's normal wives domestic buying flowers cooking smiling peaceful sunny going to the aquarium healing and making each other better #+mood today... #ok i can finally rest in peace #i wuv them uwahhhh

[astriiformes]

Surely being this sad is enough, why does it have to come with other Symptoms

#i got maybe 5 hours of sleep last night despite going to bed at a reasonable hour and now i'm so tired i feel like i'm hallucinating #in part because i ended up clinging to scribe and sobbing about the various terrifying/gory intrusive thoughts i was having #bad and messed up!! what the hell! #also makes it hard to figure out what to like. do about any of this #clearly there is something going on here that needs management but is not just major depressive disorder #i know there's some ocd tendencies in my family but nobody with a full-blown diagnosis and i don't think i meet it either #so like is it my anxiety? something else entirely?? #i don't know but i would sure like for it to stop!

[we-dont-talk-about-potato-nonono]

hehe i got the job :3

#that’s it that's the post #bye bye uni life #last friday was my last internship and then my supervisor asked me if j would like to continue work there for another 3 months #and of course i said yeah !!!! #i got the offer letter from HR #it’s been a fun experience but maybe a bit tiring with the 30 minutes - 1 hour of long drives required to get there and back home #but you know a guy gotta make bread am i right? #anyway besides that i'm currently working on a bunch of art wips just keeping myself busy at night #im still fasting and another two days left till the end of ramadan and the start of eid! #gonna be busy with my family and visiting relatives home :3 #hope everyone have a lovely weekend! #potato.post #text

[sailforvalinor]

Oh in other news I think I got a passable grade in Date(?), something that is normal to want and possible to achieve

#I was up until 5 am last night I was so anxious about this I’VE HAD A TUMMY ACHE FOR FOUR DAYS #still don’t know if it was a date but I think I’m okay with that #he got a flat tire on the way there and was late but that was fine #we got coffee (in my case tea) and just talked movies and video games and other nerdy stuff for an hour and a half #wow can that boy TALK. 😂😂😂 #but I of course started panicking on the way home that I’m not sure if I actually like him or if I’m just excited that I found someone of #the male species that is easy to talk to other than my dad and brothers #(or worse that I want a boyfriend for the sake of having a boyfriend 💀) #my parents are telling me not to worry so much and that I don’t need to know right now it’s too soon but like. hfjfhdhshshs #if nothing else it was a low-pressure first date and I didn’t die #oh also while I was talking to him this lovely older gentleman was standing in line just behind his chair and he gave him bunny ears and #grinned at me. delightful #I’d like to think maybe that was God telling me not to take this so seriously but I don’t like to read signs into things

[running-in-the-dark]

the tiny bit of consistency that I had in my sleep schedule has disappeared entirely. I sleep when I sleep. I never know what day it is. I've lost all sense of time. when does a new day start? no idea. it's 3 pm and it feels like it's the middle of the night.

#I got like. 3-4 hours of sleep last night and then woke up at 2:30am and simply stayed awake #I'm not used to being awake when the sun is up but these last few days I've left the house before 8 most days #it's so weird and so confusing #it'll be..... interesting to see how this goes when we move. #maybe having my own room and my own bed (or. well. mattress for now) will help #or maybe yet another change will just stress me out more #we'll see. 🙃 #I really need consistency and routine and I'm completely unable to create that for myself 😭