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eunique · 2 years

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When you get this you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly. Then, send this ask to 5 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)❤️❤️❤️

To be honest I don't have the best of self esteem. Self esteem is something I really lack and it has been lacking since forever ago ; w;)b

But since this is non-negotiable, I'll be nice to myself so here we go

1) My Art

I'm still my own worst critic but I'm proud of myself in how far I've come. Recently went through all my old art and it really put into perspective in where I am now compared to 2012 me. But every now and then I look at some of the stuff I did in like 2020 and am still proud of some of the stuff I did. I definitely think I can still improve and learn more but I think child me would've been fucking hyped to see my art now.

2) My boba tastes

Sounds really weird but I've had a few friends ask me for reccomendations when we go to Gongcha and they've all enjoyed my recs. Even my Chinese asf mum approves of it so yeah. I may have shit taste in maybe everything else but I still got superior taste in boba tea 😤

3) Being Bilingual

My Chinese still sucks ass but I'm glad I can speak enough Chinese to hold a conversation and help people. Plus, it's also a really good way to talk shit about someone who is in the exact same room as you. Still anxious asf to use it in public tho but that's a different story.

4) My ability to learn (most) things quickly

I generally can learn most things relatively quickly whether I'm learning it myself or I'm being taught how to do whatever I'm learning. I've been a pretty fast learner in a lot of things (aside from maths, chemistry and DAWs to name a few). Taught myself a few things like how to cast off a knitting via YouTube. Taught myself to draw and still teaching myself new things to name a few. Still predominantly self taught in art to this day :)

5) My brain

Gonna get this out the way. I'm not the traditional "booksmart". Never liked academics. Sucked at academics and certainly didn't help that my primary school essentially set me up for failure. Not even smart in the slightest tbh. I'm very much dumbass to the max and I'm absolutely fine with that. I literally joke about being so head empty.

But I do like my brain for the amount of bullshit it consumes and my brain can literally visualise anything as well as visualise a sound. If you told me to imagine an apple and then told me to imagine someone taking a bite out of that apple, I can visualise the object and visualise the sound of someone taking a bite of that apple. I think it sorta stems from my artsy background.

But it is also a double edged sword bc I can then visualise and hear the most cursed videos in my head if it's cursed enough to stick to my brain. That or if someone told me to imagine polystyrene rubbing against each other and squeaking, I can mentally see the exact action and hear that exact sound ringing in my ear and it makes me want to shrivel up like a prune :')

This took me all day to think about because again, idk who self esteem is. But this really made me think about what I like about myself. I think I care too much about what others have thought of me in the past that it has really warped my self perception. Even the 75 question genshin impact kin quiz which I took twice gave me scarily accurate results both times. That along with almost every uquiz I've taken during 2021.

I still struggle to not let how people see me get in the way but it's still really hard to not overthink that every time. But it does help that I have amazing friends online and irl that I can be myself 100% unapologetically and this hellsite where I'm not forced to keep up a certain facade :)

#inbox #fren stuff ❤️#Sorry the end got a tad bit depressing #But genuinely this ask really made me think abt that stuff I know I'm good at and it made me feel better abt myself #Even if it is by a little bit #Didnt think I needed that ask till now so ty for sending it through! <3

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arsquare · 2 years

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For the adj game: 4, 19, 20. :)

Hello :D

favorite thing to draw

Oh!! Easy!! I like drawing people!! in fact I like drawing people so much that most of what I draw is people. I just also happen to be a perfectionist so... everything I draw that happens to have an elaborate background... know that I am gritting my teeth and cursing under my breath while I draw it <3

For more specific stuff... hmm... I don't like faces so much but I think drawing heads and shoulders can be fun! I also like to draw dynamic poses though I kind of lose interest when I have to flesh out the details LOL

how often do you draw

I try to draw every day, and I think I'm reasonably successful at this. Not drawing is like a sanity drain on me, I literally start going crazy going insane if I don't draw. I'm plagued by visions and they need to go somewhere!! The hard part is working continually on the same illustration/project. That... hm. Well, I do make progress.

If anyone's curious about works in progress, I'm usually pretty good at sending what I've done that day into my community discord! Right now it's a hot mess of BIRDMEN (unsurprising), DCMK (also unsurprising), original stuff (finally), and Celeste (<-???? the indie platformer Celeste??? it's more likely than you think) but things change all the time. I'd love to see some of you there~ <3

But yeah to answer the question. At least a couple of hours every day! Unless I'm writing instead— sometimes writing takes over my drawing time. If I'm REALLY into something I can spend basically the whole day drawing LMAO. when I'm taken by madness. when I've succumbed to my divine revelations. you know how it is ! !

a piece from this year that you’re really proud of

Ohhh I know exactly which piece I'm most proud of from this year but I'm not allowed to post it yet! I can upload all of it in July, it's a oneshot for a manga competition!

Now for something I CAN post... it's got to be one of these two, I think...

The top is a commission for my friend (commissions are open btw. if you even care. here's my carrd) and the bottom are... my blorbos from birdmen... how predictable...

But yeah the circular composition of the top one is CRAZY awesome and I think I did an excellent job with the watercolor style coloring!! The bottom one is just an insane feat of rendering for me honestly. I'm not proud of the road I took to get there, because there was an objectively faster and better way to do it, but I AM proud of the final product. Look at how the light falls on Sagisawa's hair... come ON... the light on Karasuma's chin...? that shit's insane...

Thank you so much for the asks <3 <3 <3

#asks #ask game #ota-chan

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pioneeroverc-my-5000th-sideblog · 2 years

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art block: 2/19 (mostly just did a bunch of studies so not surprising) (from 6/18)

personal: 10/19 (from 16/18)

study/figure drawing sessions: 83/129 days (from 79/119)

more study in study days: nope longer figure studies: sometimes 50 days of figure drawing: yup 15/16 weeks of at least one study: yup (19/19 weeks if you count doing one 30 minute figure drawing session) sketch more backgrounds: yeah i guess (more than like 1 isn't a high bar to clear)

Studies done: Figuary, Love Life Drawing Fresh Eyes, Proko - anatomy of spine

I haven't improved enough overall since last year, I think. My compositions are still pretty weak and my digital lineart is AWFUL, so although my sketches are definitely better my finished art still kinda sucks. Maybe I should try lining over other people's sketches (so not my horrible messy ones). I've made some progress, but need to do better.

IMPROVEMENT METRICS

Anatomy/gesture: did a lot of figure drawing and I THINK this is better than last year. definitely a lot faster to get an idea down and able to exaggerate poses a bit, but still lots of mistakes and stiffness when inked

Backgrounds/perspective: still not enough practice but I'm better at drawing complex objects now - prob about same as last year (must do better)

Composition/storytelling: worse than last year - but starting to develop a better understanding and intentionality (it's very hard)

Colours/values: stagnating but getting more saturation in there - same as last year

Lighting/rendering: oh, look, it's the thing I never practice which always improves more than anything else AND WHICH I DON'T CARE ABOUT

PLAN OF ACTION FOR NEXT FOUR MONTHS:

Same goals as yearly

Finish DAB Lesson 6 and any challenges before Lesson 7

Fit more study into study days: do 1 hour study after waking up (before lunch) 2 days a week

1+ finished piece per month

In September, I want to have had more practice drawing people interacting in a scene (and backgrounds)

#art improvement #end of four months

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deepseavibez · 3 years

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A Star In Your Sky || JJK

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A Star In Your Sky [Jungkook]

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Genre - Dad!Jungkook; Angst; Sadness; Melancholy; Drabble:

Summary - Helpless as he was, 'what you didn't know couldn't hurt you'... it would have to do. There was nothing else he could do.

Warning - Angst; Sadness; Major Character Death;

Word Count - 1.7k

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Jungkook woke up with a start at the blaring alarm. 5am - his phone flashed in red numbers. Snoozing it, he left it back on the table.

The fog on the windows signifying a cold morning, the dreary grey clouds overcast, the edge of dawn.

Wiping the sleep out of his eyes he righted his shirt, pulling his sleeves over his cold hands, ruffling his hair as he stretched his limbs and swung them over the couch.

The cold hit his bare feet as he stood up and started his way down the hall, switching the lights on as he walked, to navigate his way to the room right next to his.

Door slightly ajar, he pushed on it, the slight creak a normal sound, a part of the surroundings, the many years behind the action of tuning it out.

His eyes fell past the threshold, items he knew by heart, colors he had committed to memory, the scent and the surroundings - his home.

The curtains in this room were purple, deep purple, the hue something akin to indigo, silver moons and stars shone at the catch of even the tiniest bit of light.

There were posters of cartoons, drawings in crayons and paints, a basket of toys in the corner of the room, and Cooky, the pink plush toy staring back on the made bed.

Eyes scanning the toy he remembered the day it came home.

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'Dad, look what Uncle Jinnie got me,' Moon ran up to him, as she giggled in excitement, eyes lighting up at the plush toy in her hand.

Turning toward the sound of his daughter, he bent down on one knee so she could hop into his waiting arms. He held her easily, her form tiny and stable in his muscled hands.

Her momentary glance to the tattoo on his skin, a second nature, something that made her smile, as her name had been carved into his forearm, stars surrounding it with a Saturn ring.

She was Daddy's little girl and she loved every moment of it.

Meeting her fathers eyes, she held up the pink bunny in her arms, a prize worth every drop of attention he could give.

Smiling bemused he asked her, 'What about all the other teddy's in your room, babygirl?'

He nosed at her cheek as he teased her.

Her eyes went as wide as saucers, 'Dad!' she exclaimed in a mock whisper, 'They aren't Teddy's, they all have names.'

'Yeah, Jk, how can you call them Teddy's,' Jin played along, just as scandalized at his dongsaengs choice of words.

Mouth twitching, the mole on his chin, shifting at the movement, he raised an eyebrow at his hyung, 'I'm surprised you didn't get her the RJ.'

'Now, now, I did explain the perks of having RJ, but she is Daddy's little girl.' They smiled, endeared with the toddler between them.

It was the last proper, happy outing they had, ice-cream, feeding the seagulls, playing in the sand, her best days with her father and her Uncle Jin.

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‘I don't care what happens to me, I don’t care about the money! Just please save my baby, please!’ Jungkook was enraged, angry at the world, helpless, desperate.

Stage 4. She was only a child, her tiny body fit in his arms, her form only half of him.

It came out of nowhere, severe bruising and bleeding when she fell down, or got cut. Trouble breathing when she ran, nausea when she ate and sometimes not wanting to eat at all. Waking up to her cries in the middle of the night, sniffling quietly, at the pains in her body.

Too many symptoms, too many blood tests later, too many restless, sleepless nights, she was diagnosed with leukemia.

There were weeks of waiting for results, test after test, of having to sit her in his lap, and explain why she needed to see countless doctors and that things would get better, that it was just for now.

But as he stood opposite her doctor, his hyung holding his shoulder, he had to go home and tell her he lied. He lied.

He'd have to tell her that there was no turning back, and if it was too late for his daughter, the love of his life, the very center of his world, for him, there would be no way forward.

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He stood at the doorway of her hospital room, having just gone home to change up and get her favorite mac and cheese. The sight he met every single time, not something he had gotten used to, despite the number of weeks he’d been at the forefront of it all.

The tubes along her face, her nose, in her arms, something a baby should never have to go through. A parent should never have to think about outliving their child. It wasn’t the cycle. It wasn’t fair.

She deserved, to hit double digits, to find love, to have him fight the need to protect her from every mistake, to always be there for her, she deserved friends, memories, the chance to discover hobbies, she deserved more time.

The saddest part was that she was too young to think of any of those things, and yet, maybe it could also be a blessing.

What you didn’t know couldn’t hurt you, right.

Blinking back tears he plastered a fake smile on his face, the brightest one he felt he could muster. ‘Hey, babygirl.’

She looked up, a small smile, slowly making its way up her cheeks, her face pale. Opening her mouth to speak, he shook his head at her. ‘No, no, shh, baby, don’t hurt your throat.’

Making his way over to her bed, he gingerly climbed in next to her, the nurses used to his presence, the doctors having no objection considering the care he had with her as he slotted himself protectively over her.

Pecking her on the head, he took note of the scrapbook in her hand. She looked at it everyday, pictures of her six loving uncles, Taehyung plaiting her hair, Jimin showing her tiny jewelry pieces, stick-ons for her ears, Namjoon with a bunch of block letters, a tower of it clearly having collapsed around them. Her Uncle Hobi always made her smile, as he had her on his back and his neck, walked her around the apartments like he was her personal chauffeur, Yooni holding her as she slept, light music playing in the background, and her Uncle Jin, her favourite Uncle Jin, always around, choosing school bags, spoiling her with anything she wanted, anything that caught her eye, especially morning blueberry waffles and her dad, Jungkook, her dad, the youngest, the one with the most time, the most allowance to make reckless decisions, the one who adapted his whole life around her inclusion in his life.

‘Hey, remember the story of your first birthday,’ His voice exuberant at her cake covered face,’when you didn’t want to wear the red jacket Uncle Tae gave you, and you cried for his instead,’ he petted her head as he searched her face for recognition.

She pouted at the mention of it, the story recounted so many times before,’Uncle Tae’s jacket was purple, Dad. How could I not want it,’ Her cheekiness earned her a light flick to her nose.

She upturned it crossly, a little zest in her eyes at the familiar chastising.

They paused, looking at each other, before the smile slowly disappeared from her face, the reaction apparently contagious as Jungkook sat up in concern. ‘Dad,’ she started softly, her eyes trained on the blanket covering her legs, ’are you gonna forget me?’

Jungkook’s breath caught in his throat at the innocent question, striving to show no reaction on his face. Moving swiftly, he worked his way around the cables and maneuvered her into his lap. They tried, he tried, and she had been so strong but even at her tender age she knew it, he knew it, the time for sugar coated words, and false hopes were over, acceptance was all that was left.

‘Close your eyes,’ he prompted, wiping tears he could no longer hold back, away from his eyes.‘Can you see me?’

‘My eyes-,’

‘No, keep them closed, can you see me,’ he reiterated, beside himself.

‘No, I can’t see you.’

‘But you can hear me right,’ taking note of her face, her nose, her cute cheeks, he waited for her answer.

‘Yes, I can hear you.’

‘Well,’ he sniffled, head falling against her forehead lightly, the contact needed, ’that’s what it will be like. I will always be here for you. I will always talk to you, and I promise,’ his hand found hers and squeezed it, ’I will never forget you. You may not see me and I may not see you, but you will always be the biggest part of me. And I promise, I will never, ever, forget you.’

He broke at his last words, pulling her into his embrace, holding his Moon, wishing with everything he had left, he would never have to let her go.

Moon passed that night, in her sleep, in his arms, as painless as it could possibly be. Knowing what was going to happen, couldn’t have prepared Jungkook for the real thing. But he knew he had to let go of her lifeless body, he knew he had to call the one person who could handle him or whatever came next for him, and as soon as he saw his Jin hyung, the one that named his perfect girl, he fell into his arms and cried, as his heart shattered into pieces.

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Standing at doorways were his thing these days, he thought, everything he did was not enough, not too much, like sitting on the fence, falling in the middle.

It had been a year, but he couldn’t clean out this room, he still woke up at 5am despite his flexible job because he had to take care of her routine, maybe someday he would have to stop coming in here, but right now, the made bed, the unused room, the stillness of it all, would remind him that even for a time, he had something beautiful, something worth all that pain, a human that he would meet someday again.

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mistninja · 2 years

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naruto for the ask game!

Hiiii <3

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)

Naruto Uzumaki my sunshine boy, my son, my little brother, my specialest boy 🥺😊. I spent my childhood watching him grow up so I don't think he will ever stop being so important to me. It's hard to even be like objective or coherent about him I just love him <3

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped)

Hinata! She is the prettiest of the girls and I want to kiss her little forehead I love her so much. I wish Kishimoto had developed her character beyond "shy girl in love with Naruto" but I have no expectations of that man and I can accept what little we got. There's a lot of depth to her if you are obsessed like me haha.

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)

I think all of Team 8 (Hinata, Kiba and Shino) should be more appreciated, they are insane! People forget that they were the first team to draw blood (even before Gaara!) in the Chunin Exams and the first team to finish the Forest of Death (they only got delayed due to Gaara being a maniac). I think their dynamic is very interesting and they had a lot of potential, especially as foils to Team 7 and also because their powers really work well together. I wish they had some focus on Shippuden.

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)

I wouldnt say Iruka is obscure but for someone who is set up as main character in episode 1 he has very little screentime afterwards. Even then, every time he appears he reminds me why he's the only adult who I can respect in that show. He cares about Naruto so much and their relationship is so sweet, they really are father and son and maybe I cried like a little bitch when Naruto asked him to be his dad on the wedding.

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

Kakashi is the easy pick lol the OG pathetic shonen sensei. He's my second favorite character, he has a lot of layers but instead of becoming cooler the more you look at him he just gets sadder.

Obito is also my poor little meow meow. They are a sad and pathetic pair.

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

Shikamaru. I don't hate him but he is Kishimoto's self insert for his anti-women shit and it gets really annoying sometimes. I like his smart but lazy persona but I think it would be really easy and entertaining to torture him by just being a Girl around him.

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell)

THE THIRD HOKAGE. God I hate this man SO MUCH. I will never forgive him for abandoning baby naruto like his mother ON HER DYING BREATH asked him to take care of naruto and Hiruzen was like "yeah dw" and then left him ALONE his entire childhood. Also he was so fucking stupid and useless. He can rot in hell.

Thank you! I really wanted to talk about them haha.

#ask game #mutuals <3 #mine

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pedroalonso · 2 years

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Don't get me wrong, okay, luv. I love your hard work you put into your creations and drawings. And I'll forever continue to do do so.

I saw your thread on twitter and your recent ask here. I just want to say something.

I know how writers or fanartists tend to fetishise Andres and Martin here. But does not that happen in every fandom? Writing smuts with weird power dynamics and all. Like in the Hannibal fandom I have seen how creators there are so positive towards such things. They fetishize the living daylights out of the characters and it's honestly so funny😅

I mean to say is that, there are a various types of people in a fandom and different people tend to like different things. This happens when a fandom grows big. Some stereotype the characters, others experiment.

A fandom should be open to everyone, creating their own niche. After all, the characters are all fictional. They are written by someone, set in a well plotted background.

If someone hates something they should stay away from that, rather than creating a division or setting rules that this should be done and this not.

Look luv, please understand I'm not saying this to you, aiming at you. Not at all. I love your works and your account helped a newbie like me a lot. I'm sorry, if any of words affected you.

Anon I’m gonna be honest with you and say the statement “they fetishize the living daylights out of the characters and it’s so funny” doesn’t sit right with me.

While we all are free to interpret fiction in our own way, I still think people should be mindful of the harmful stereotypes they propagate, especially if it affects a certain group that they personally do not belong in.

YOU might think fetishization is funny, but to the gay community, it ISN’T. It’s actually extremely offensive. And the whole “Haha, it’s just for funsies” excuse is such a horrible cop-out from any sort of responsibility. Fun for you, maybe, if you won’t experience any repercussions from it. But not to the people who will eventually feel the effects of that.

Also, the excuse that it “happens in every fandom” — that doesn’t mean it’s okay???? The heck. The idea that toxic behaviors should be normalized because it’s “bound to happen” is honestly so objectively wrong??? Like I don’t even know what to say to that tbh. My god.

I’m not a media purist. You’re right when you said fandom involves people from every walks of life. So yeah, there’s gonna be weird stuff and problematic stuff and stuff we don’t like — and we can’t stop it.

But, hear me out:

People are allowed to hate it! People are allowed to be uncomfy by posts that fetishize gay characters because you know, not everyone is going to like it??? Because I can’t believe I have to say this, FETISHIZING IS AN INHERENTLY WRONG THING TO DO.

So forgive me if I don’t vibe with that kind of weird shit. I don’t care how positive you all are with each other about it. It’s wrong, it’s weird, I don’t like it, I can openly say I don’t like it (it’s MY blog), and I want it as far away from me as possible. And I think I’ve done well in that regard as I’ve blocked a ton of fetishists on this site. So yeah, I don’t engage with those posts and this kind of stuff only comes up when someone sends me asks about it.

I don’t know if you want to start a discussion about fetishizing Berlermo, anon. Because I would be open to it. However, your ask gives me a more “Fetishization is ok as long as we have fun!!!!“ vibes and I don’t abide with that mindset at all.

Someone asked my opinion and I gave it, and ONCE AGAIN (unsurprisingly) it gets misinterpreted. Why am I not surprised.

I am NOT making divisions and I am NOT making rules. Why do you all think I have such a sway in fandom opinions??? I am literally just another fan, just blogging here and making gifs. Expressing my thoughts every now and then. My word is not gospel, yet when I express an opinion, I always get these defensive asks like I’m purposely starting a war and not just saying “Hey, this thing has some negative connotations therefore I don’t like it nor endorse it.” I do not get it.

Anon, please understand. If you think fetishizing is okay, then I’m pretty sure me expressing my opinion should be even more okay. Because to be honest, I think all of you feminizing characters and giving queer relationships heteronormative gender roles is WAYYYYY more harmful in the long run then me saying “I don’t like that.” Like genuinely, if you think that behavior is okay, please… idk??? Read a book? Ask a friend? Educate yourselves? Stop enabling each other’s problematic behavior??? IDK. I’m not your parent. If you wanna keep doing it, then go ahead. Wait till you offend someone forreal before you realize it’s wrong and learn your lesson. I really do not care.

If anything anon, I should apologize to you. Because my opinions seem to bother you so much that you felt compelled to send this ask. To what? Justify fetishization? Tell me my opinion shouldn’t be expressed? What?

I never said people should stop writing that stuff. I don’t have the power to stop it, and even if I did, I don’t want to. I’m not fandom police. I’m just another fan. And if you think sharing my thoughts can somehow magically shift fandom discourse, then sorry to say but you think too highly of me. Again, just another fan who makes gifs. No more no less. If you don’t like seeing my opinions, then do not engage with my blog. Simple.

PS. Thank you for making it clear that the weird fetishist posts I’ve seen are in fact Weird Fetishists posts. Genuinely think you all need to touch grass, to be honest. And stay away from my blog, thanks! I don’t like that gross shit!

#asks #anon i’m so sorry but what all of you are doing is weird and wrong no matter how you spin it #thanks for confirming my suspicions though #i was right all along but at what cost #and to the people who spearhead the fetishist movement in this fandom #pls know ur all pieces of shit and ur all disgusting tbh lmao #the way u obsess over gay people but have no respect for them #freaks and weirdos ngl #TOUCH GRASS

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thunderon · 3 years

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Re the post you reblogged about HtN unanswered questions and the work, it is possible Harrow knew about BOE pre lobotomy and might have agreed to work with them, but I think "the work" itself might be bringing Gideon back. Harrown instructs herself to bathe the sword in blood and keep careful watch on it (it is an object Gideon was extremely attache too in life to maybe trying to coax her spirit into it?). And also to learn flesh and spirit magic, maybe to be able to build a body and transfer a soul into it? Not saying this is definitely what Harrow meant, but our girl is a planner. She knew the lobotomy would stop her from absorbing Gideon but it wouldn't bring her back, and I highly doubt Harrowhark Nonagesimus does anything without backup plans upon backup plans. Tldr: she wanted Gideon alive and I don't think she stopped at the brain surgery. Just some thoughts though!

original post here (shoutout to op for writing up everything so well. massive thumbs up!)

but yeah anon ur so right! harrow absolutely is a planner! and i had the same thought you did about the lobotomy. it would stop her soul from being absorbed, but what after that? what was harrow’s endgame? i def don’t think it was what went down in htn either.

think about it. when harrow went into her bubble in act V, we learn a couple of very interesting things:

harrow’s bubble was an unintentional creation

harrow was seemingly aware (on some level) of gideon’s divinity and each of the AUs hinted toward gideon being gods child

harrow seems completely surprised that gideon’s soul was able to pilot her body. in fact harrow was going to return to her body until dulcinea alerted her otherwise

harrow did not seem to originally plan to become a revenant like pal

based on all that… i really dont think harrow’s intended plan was “i give myself a lobotomy and gideon gets my body”. so what was her endgame?

so the goal of the lobotomy was to prevent gideon’s soul from being absorbed. and that’s all fine and dandy, but what do you do with her soul now? just let it float around for eternity? no way. like you said, harrow for sure had a plan. so what was it?

you brought up some REALLY interesting ideas about harrow doing a build-a-butch body to put gideon in! or yeah maybe drawing her into the sword! another think is that harrow knows gideon’s body is missing, and harrow knows that gideon is special when it comes to not doing. and at the end of gtn harrow seemed very determined for recovering gideon’s body and fixing things…. i just can’t imagine she doesn’t have some plan going on in the background to find her body

also wake was in the sword at the beginning of htn. but how did harrow know that? and in chapter 11 of htn, harrow wakes up with no memory and her sword is plunged into cytherea’s chest (completing the transfer of wake -> cytherea). and that plot point is literally never touched at all. how did harrow get there? especially because (like you said) harrow was deadset in her letter about not letting it touch naked flesh and keeping careful watch over it….

gosh this was long. but yeah so many questions!!!!!

#asks #yeah anon you and me had a LOT of the same thoughts here #gaaaah tamsyn muir pls answer my calls #i need to draft a full post on this #at this point itll be a thesis paper in MLA format #the locked tomb #harrow the ninth

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Day 3849

In the town that is home to Facebook -- now, Meta -- there is a blood lab located in the back of a suburban grocery store. In the small office, I sit under fluorescent lights, wait for the phlebotomist, and chat with a senior couple – the wife, objectively, faring much better than her counterpart. She warns me to be careful so that my purse isn’t stolen at Trader Joes, and I make plans to avoid getting old.

Eight vials of blood later, the schemes continue out into the sunshine of the peninsula. “There has to be a way,” I ponder, “to process just as many tests, but with less blood,” and I don’t immediately realize that this is the beginning of Elizabeth Holmes.

It doesn’t bode well for Holmes that perhaps her best defense, or at least most effective whataboutism, comes from the fake German Heiress, who defended her own failure by saying, “So many businesses are just a house of cards. You just don’t know about it.” At the risk of being derisive, I have thought this same thing. I also wonder, in such cases, the extent to which misogyny is being obscured by a moral argument of protecting good and ethical business practices.

I won’t dwell on the comparisons between Elizabeth Holmes and Anna Sorokin nor will I spend time defending them, but I will note that they both possessed something that I want. Arguably not brilliance, influence or power (at least not anymore), but they both spoke as if others would listen – and others not only listened, but they believed what was said.

It's not surprising that these women don't have many peers, and by the end of her trial, Elizabeth Holmes had three fewer.

One woman was removed from the jury for playing sudoku. What pains me is how she created little sudoku games in her jury notebook. I can imagine doing something similar: each night, engaging in the soothing activity of drawing out a grid and a game template. In doing so, meditating on the day's arguments, and balancing this uncertainty by engaging in something for which there is a right answer. When the judge asked if she was distracted from listening, she said no. When asked if she has been able to retain everything going on, she said, “oh yeah, definitely.” The judge didn’t believe her; he didn’t believe that she could both listen and add numbers together.

A second woman was removed after she declared that it would weigh too heavily on her conscience if her verdict sent Elizabeth Holmes to prison. She said she was willing to sit through the deliberations, as long as she didn't have to vote. She could have simply voted not-guilty, even if guilty. Jury nullification isn’t illegal, but it requires a lack of transparency, and disregard for the rules that are needed to make the system work.

A third woman couldn’t afford to stay on the jury, and she had to return to work. I don't know her circumstances, but in this area of the country, low income is anything above something like $102,000. They arrive at this number by ordering all the salaries of all the people from smallest to largest. They find the middle salary, and then they take 80% of that salary. Although it’s only slightly more likely to fall on the wrong side of that line, it feels impossible to land on the other side. Furthermore, at least in tech, some data makes me wonder if the pay gap in this region manifests itself in such a way that women may be more likely on average to fall below this line, while men, on average, remain above it. Regardless, women in the area experience poverty at a higher rate than men.

These are the stories of the Elizabeth Holmes trial that interest me.

It seems that these former jurors have experienced some key variables that may explain why some women fade into the background of silicon valley: an underestimation of intellect, a propensity to punish transparency, and an exacerbation of the pre-existing pay gap. It is striking to me that, even though these women were honest, even though they were transparent, even though they were hardworking, and even though they probably spoke with the knowledge that they would be ignored, they still had to face a judge and say:

Who I am, and who I am supposed to be, are two very different people.

Amy

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