#lets see how many €$ you spend

[moviekidd826]

#lets see how many €$ you spend #bad omens #bad omens cult #poll time again #don't forget to reblog

[originalartblog]

I would kill for figurines or keychains of the tinies . Especially tiny Chuuya

would there be like, actual interest for stuff like that? It's not something I've ever done myself (though I know people who have) and that would be a lot of stuff to research, that's a lot of time and effort, so first of all I need to know if there would be actual interest

Would you buy bsd merch I designed? (stuff like a sticker sheet or a small acrylic charm)

Answer truthfully please think of my time and sanity!! I appreciate you no matter your answer and I'm still gonna be here anyway. I just need to know if this is worth putting in the effort looking into

Also feel free to say your opinions, concerns or alternative ideas in replies/reblogs/asks I'm actually asking for this

#yeah the first option is because i know many of you feel bad and say yes just to be nice and while i see and feel you #i do ACTUALLY need to know an approximation of how many people actually would spend actual money on this #think of my time and sanity please and thank you 🙏 #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd fanart #tiny skk adventures #dazai goosamu #why not at this point #ask answered #not art #nawy's polls #figurines are obviously way too pricy I wouldn't even know where to start BUT i *am* a 3d artist so in theory i could make something #for printing but then it's pricy to print and ship and it wouldn't be in colors. so. bad idea. let's keep it to flat stuff to mail. #a very cheap alternative could be files to print out yourself but i doubt this would scratch the itch you're clearly feeling #stickers i feel might be the middle ground here

[fagbearentertainment]

Tumblr should add a quiz option next where you make a thing that’s up to 10 questions and if you do bad the creator gets to publicly mock you

#quizzes were ljke #the best part of amino lol #I woke just spend all day making and doing quizzes #and I think it let you see how many people did your quiz and how wel they did but I’m not 100% sure #it at least let you see how many people did the quiz #not a poll

[homocrafting]

I was watching this ethubs megacut video and it's composed of LL clips and there's a part after... I think Tango? maybe? blows up the middle tower in their fortress that Bdubs says smth like "We can always rebuild" and Etho replied "I'm done building" and like. do I need to explain the metaphors you can make out of this. they're making me ill again

#ethoslab #bdubs #ethubs #ecstra explosions #liksten. listen it's just. #he really doesn't; y'know? #he doesn't build anymore- relatiinship wise; which is what I'm going for here #at least not with Bdubs #bear with me here before you go calling me crazy #even when Etho reaches out to Bdubs he can never bring himself to fully build that bridge #in double life he tried to get Bdubs to see hey; I want this bridge built; a castle with me has better walls than one with him #but those walls are so thick he's forgotten how to let anyone through #and when Bdubs says he's happy with Impulse Etho knows there's no way to build that bridge #and then in lim life Bdubs builds *so much* of that bridhe for them #it's so many moments but 'it'll still be you and me' (and etho never says yes) encompasses it best I think #Bdubs spends all of Lim life building that bridge between them; but Etho would have had to build that last connection #but Etho's done building #but *NOW* in SL Etho built a house with Cleo; and he's building again- he built a bridge with Grian and one with Cleo #and Bdubs said he'd fail for him. Bdubs asked 'oh; Etho?' when Cleo asked abt his boyfriend. #but ultimately Etho looks at bdubs and can only see that broken fortress #and in the end he never says me too #sorry sorry went on a tangent. sorray

[suddencolds]

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#not snz #more musings 📝 / mini vent: #not sure why my social battery is so limited 😭 and also so inconsistent #i feel like i can't sustain the amount of... like continued/consistent enthusiasm i see others giving esp in group settings #i just don't know how to engage in that way without burning out #over the past few weeks i've been stuck in like #a strange state where i can't muster the energy to properly respond to even the people i'm most excited to reply to #which is strange?? #(and if that is you i am sorry 😭 i love you and i will get back to you) #i think i can't even like manage to get myself into the mindset of enjoying something for myself (eg. a conversation with a friend) #i think a part of it is the stress from work leeching into my personal life #i feel like i've been working so hard and for such long hours but its the kind of work where the progress i've made is very hard to track?? #:( i just want to be off of ******* work so i can work on ******* work again #i also want to get ahead enough on everything in my life so that i write y+v D: #i feel like i haven't had a properly restful day in weeks... even over the weekend i was busy attending to others' needs #i just want a break from it all... but i dont have enough time to take off... but i dont know how much more of this i can take #i remember also feeling during uni like i was drowning #like there were simply not enough hours in a day to deliver everything i promised. it's such an awful feeling #i just feel defeated. like i've felt exhausted for weeks and weeks on end and like i spend every waking hour working on something or other #but ofc there is nothing to do but to keep at it 😭 other people can handle all of this and more #there are so many people i refuse to let down

[moth--knight]

twilight princess is the best zelda game of all time because it is a story about community at its core - it about fighting tooth and nail for the people you want to love and protect, about teaching that real strength and power lie in your bonds with others, about overcoming loneliness and fear and apathy for your community .....

#there is also a giant yeti who makes a delicious soup for his wife #perfect game #I have so many thoughts about this game like #more than any other zelda game IMO this game centers what it means to be in community with people and protect them #the entire game you spend trying to rescue ilia and the kids #link rushed into the darkness with NOTHING to save them #and while he is the chosen one that doesn't really matter to the story?? #like he was going to do this all regardless #colin who spends the whole story nervous sees link and gains strength from how hard he is fighting for them #everywhere link goes he finds pockets of community and not only protects them but JOINS THEM #the wrestling with the gorons makes him one of them #the zora queen entrusts her son to him #the yeti's let him into their home #in other zelda games the drive is usually some grand journey to save the princess or a singular person important to link #but in twilight princess his identity is tied SO CLOSELY to what it means to be from orodon #when you get to snowpeak ruins he is struck by the reminder of home in the ingredients he finds #and even to midna he becomes much more than the chosen one and her actual friend #when you get to the desert and she admits the truth about herself link just smiles and accepts her #he wasn't doing this because she forced him too #he did it because he wanted to #she has become his friend and he will protect her and help her #fuck #i'm going to cry thinking about this AHHHHH #like zelda and midna are both rules but they are distant from their people #meanwhile link is no leader #he is just a goat herder from ordon who spends his free time entertaining the local kids and exploring the woods and riding his horse #link is just some guy but he LOVES the people in his life so deeply and that affects both zelda and midna in profound ways in the story #i'm #normal #kels speaks

[hecatesbroom]

Apparently, today's brainrot of choice is a Golden Girls Sound of Music AU where Rose is Maria, Dorothy's the Captain, and Blanche is the Baroness, only that one scene where the Baroness visits Maria in her bedroom ends very differently & they end up in a polycule

#i'm afraid i'm sending this one into the void but i was singing edelweiss on my way to the supermarket when this thought popped up #and it has *not* let go of me since #i'm sorry but this just seems perfect for them when you consider it!! #rose seems like she would 100% be the type to be mesmerized by nuns (and their singing) #only to find out after joining the convent that she absolutely is Not the right type to be a nun #(she would absolutely be found singing and humming everywhere. her tendency to hum is a canon fact!! and she's great with children!!) #dorothy would be a widow rather than a divorcee in this case & i guess stan was still a yutz (but with money this time) #it's been 2 years or so since he died and she's been absolutely torn with guilt over how *free* she feels without him #(she thinks she ought to feel sad like any good widow but she doesn't. just like she felt she should've loved him during their marriage #but she also couldn't of course. #so i'm guessing she has this sense of ''if i wasn't able to love you the way i should have when you lived #then at least i should grieve you as i ought to now that you're dead.''? so she spends her time being... well. we've all seen the captain #because she doesn't feel like she's *allowed* to experience joy anymore #which is when Rose shows up and slowly brings love and life and music back into the household!!) #Blanche as the baroness feels pretty self explanatory to me #but i think for additional conflict she's a widow who was very happily married #(everyone thinks she married for money & rank but it really was love. SO MUCH of it) #and the very first person Blanche falls for again is Dorothy. so of course she sees Rose as a threat the first time they meet #but when she sees how much Rose genuinely loves Dorothy (and how *good* Rose is for her!!) Blanche slowly falls in love with her too #i have SO MANY thoughts about this au lol i'm kind of starting to wish i had the motivation to write it :') #the golden girls #golden wives #rose nylund #dorothy zbornak #blanche devereaux

[edelorion]

#edel vents #disclaimer: really personal issues in the tags. also wishes of death upon others. this is PROBABLY too much information tbh... #so if you're not up for it scroll down fast!!!! the deluge is coming!!! #today was... eventful. bad. also very bad. grandma's birthday celebration was today #and while she... definitely has Old People Issues (racist) shes also very lonely since the death of my grandfather so i can't really not go #i'm the only one who really visits her regularly to begin with #aside from the... very serious racism issue... she's “alright”. i guess. but that's besides the point. there's family there #and among those... my parents. which i don't like to talk to #discovered they threw more of my old stuff away. typical. wanted to strangle them. as usual. #had to “talk” with my mother (read: spend approximately ten seconds reciting exactly why i *don't* talk to her anymore) #so that whole ordeal completely soured my mood. #went home tired. can't really do anything right now. #at least the food was good i guess. but i also really want to cry... which i can't. which sucks. #...i really like to think i've improved as a person. i used to be really hateful of everything and everyone #worst of all myself. still kinda do but i'm... getting better..? #i like to think i've grown past most of it but every time i see my parents i feel this gripping at my heart. as if i haven't really changed #as if instead i'm still the hateful person i “always was” deep down... bc there's this visceral joy that i feel whenever i'm mad at them. #when i looked at my mother and told her how much i despise her i felt a shiver of happiness. righteousness. #to be clear: i do NOT care for her. at all. she's the worst person on this earth #and the only person whom my philosophy of “nobody deserves to die” does NOT apply to. i'm not scared of hating her. #she genuinely deserves this. but...every time i see my parents - and thus her... i feel as if i'm slipping back into that mindset of hatred #i don't want that. not anymore. it consumed me whole. i was a horrible person back then and i've caused so much grief for so many #i can't let go of this hatred. i can't forgive them. they don't deserve my forgiveness anyway. but i'm tired of hating. #i'm tired of letting that hatred define me. i'm tired of letting that hatred direct me. i'm tired of letting it bring me to ruin. #i'm tired of being who i was. i'm no longer “that��. i'm edel now and i'm happy for people now. if i don't like something i just walk out. #i can just leave. “if it sucks hit the bricks” right?.. but i didn't. i had to say it. i had to tell them. her. and i liked it. #and... i'm scared of that. because it tells me i haven't improved. #i'm not sure what i'm expecting out of posting this i guess. maybe help. maybe i wanna be told that this is normal or something. #maybe i just want to get my thoughts in order. i don't know. i'm gonna stop writing now. #sorry for making you read all this. thanks for doing it anyway. tags were cut off on this one btw so it may look like a mess. but. yeah.

[galacticlamps]

god knows i love my friends and im very happy so many of them are happy together and getting married but jesus these weddings being all in a row is like? i have to plan??? in advance?? things that i am going to wear??? and it's not even halloween???????

#to be fair i've completely brought this upon myself by only ever buying clothes when i very specifically need to #and now that i need to a bunch in a row it feels positively silly #on an unrelated note if anyone knows online places you can try on/potentially return formalwear as easily as amazon that aren't that #im now very interested in the possibilities of online shopping all of a sudden #seeing as it's that or spend multiple days off visiting malls #& probably discovering most of the brick and mortar stores i could even name likely dont exist anymore #since i haven bothered with this sort of thing in. well let's not even think about how many years okay #same goes for like idk accessory type things #are there still etsy shops with fun costume jewelry or not so much any more?

[hoonclub]

#.................................... #everyone please look away .. ha.. i just need to save this somewhere #ha.. jongseong-ah. happy birthday #happy; happy birthday #my jongseong who has grown so much who has worked so hard who went through so much #jongseong who i have loved for a long time #jongseong who is unapologetic with everything he does. #jongseong-ah.. i love you. thank you for making me happy thank you for being born thank you for always working hard. thank you for always #trying to be a better version of yourself #jongseong who thinks his iland self is embarrassing and shameful and doesnt want new engenes to see him then.. i will never understand how #it was for you and all i can do is be sad and upset with you. but iland is how i got to know the jay that was so selfless so hardowrking #so kind and so thoughtful... i think it's sad and somewhat ironic that the version that you dislike is the one i fell in love with first #jongseong i hope you continue to live your life without regrets. i hope you always have courage and strength to carry on no matter what #happens. i hope you dont think so little of yourself and gain more confidence. i hope you know that so many people love you #i hope you continue to do all the things you love with the people you love and those who love you. i hope youre surrounded by people that #take care of you as much as you take care of them. i hope you spend your days with a light heart #jongseong who's born in the spring whose love is so warm and sincere who's like a light that makes my heart bloom #i love you. let's be happy let's be together for a long time. take care and eat well. #happy happy birthday jongseong-ah. #0420

[leomssis]

what’s very funny about this whole “negreira” situation is that no one actually seems to read what the charges are about and just think it means that every game or trophy is corrupt when that’s not what it says at all

#it has no application on anything outside of la liga #so no their ucls wouldnt be stripped away and neither would any of their cup trophies #what’s even funnier is that most of the refs have admitted that they don’t believe negreira could’ve influences this #but yes let’s listen to real madrid a team that has been historically favored over all spanish clubs in history #when they say that a club is apparently favoring refs #i’m not even the biggest barca fan but this entire situation is absurd #and it’s very ironic seeing sooo many people happy about this #when they spend all day talking about how barca’s accomplishments aren’t that great #really just shows you how hypocritical people can be

[what-breaks-my-heart]

#him being straightforward and simple-minded was a great source of strength for her in many occasions #that she found strength in his simple yet wise words #but when he is deep in the pits the very same words can be used to comfort him #like... that is usually the case even in daily life #but I admire how this concept is used again and again in this drama #really shows how we are often our strongest critique when we wouldn't treat other people the same way #and here we can observe one recipe for an age gap romance #whereby the older partner is often weighed down by experience and has the tendency to complicate things #and the younger partner reminding the older partner of how simpler life is when you don't complicate things and just go with you gut feeling #and in the meantime we see the younger partner starts to be more thoughtful and spends more time to deliberate on something #while the older partner learns to let go their tendency to complicate things #and in the process both of them adjust to fit into each other #anyway... #nothing but you #cdrama #zhou yutong #wu lei

[whipped-for-fictionals]

i just spent my blood sweat and tears for the lucifer ur card in the current event my funds are crying...

i literally went from 180+ demon energy(?) to 70... IT'S ONLY A LUCIFER CARD TOO LIKE???? AND I ALREADY HAVE PRIDE UR MEMORY CARDS 😭

WHY HWVE I DONE THIS I AM CRYING SCREAMING SOBBING IT TOOK ME MONTHS TO SAVE AP AND DEMON ENERGY ONLY TO BE WASTED BY A LUCIFER CARD? 💔

i haven't even read the story yet is it good 💀

(further ramble in the tags)

#well actually ness #you decided to go for the lucifer card because you felt lucky #having gotten all three cards in this nightmare #you decided #let's see how many points i can accumulate without spending any resources #and eventually you ended up spending because you got tempted to get the really pretty icon frame #which by the way will NOT BE WORTH IT™ #so now you've wasted a shit ton of resources when really you could've saved for a mammon card instead #bro at least i got the mammon card from the nightmare 🥲 #i've used up all my luck for the entire year #[🌺] my posts! #[🗣️] nessa's rambles! #[🧍] ramble in the tags #obey me

[gender-euphowrya]

funniest defense of that one writer that keeps saying nonsense and funding hate groups You Know The One is when people say "well i still like her work because she writes well"

have you actually read a single fucking word of her latest works

i know nobody in their right mind should willingly subject themselves to this but i beg you to look up the polish character in her detective story

#you know how in wizard boy she just. googled 'common names in [country]' to name her non-white characters #yeah she's at it again. introducing Poland Woman. with a name that according to polish people would Not be had by anyone in poland. #but it has a bunch of consonants and ends in 'inka' so y'know ehhh sounds eastern european haha who cares about accuracy #let's dive deeper into the stereotype pool because why not at this point. her job ? cleaning. of course. maid. what else do polish women do #speaks english ? eef you kount zis as spikking englis. this is how she spells her accent in writing. for real. #also she's soooo Not bilingual that she can't understand words like. detective. #after all it's so different from the polish word detektyw. how the hell is she supposed to understand that #SO ANYWAY....... #to say that she deserves her career because of her talent and to deny that it's being upheld by her talent is just #What fucking talent. where. the talent to be incredibly xenophobic and bigoted in many ways including sexism ??? #because i fail to see the feminist part of making a woman character a cleaner and spending an entire paragraph describing her ass #soz didn't mean 'deny' i meant 'claim' ^^^

[citrus-system]

 I will preface this by saying, autism has me I the most cruel and unforgiving headlock,

But there is nothing worst then someone telling you how they feel about you, and you not feeling even remotely the same

#this isn’t strictly romantic either #like even hearing people say ‘’I love spending time with you :3 you’re such a good friend’’ #and knowing I am violently over their presence after 20 minutes is like #such a guy dropping feeling #i feel like a pathetic excuse of a companion #let alone the way I cringe when someone implies romantic interest when they like #barely make it into my friend catergory #it sounds harsh but like #i don’t force myself to like people #I’m civil and friendly when necessary. I’m not mean. maybe too blunt but I’m never an asshole #and the bar is so low I’m so sad at how often it’s mistaken for enjoyment #and how many times I’ve had to smile and say ‘’thank you’’ even though I never felt safe around them for a second #not just physically safe. but like emotionally understood and respected. etc. #idk it’s just such a punch in the face I never have the heart to be like #‘’oh sorry. i don’t see you as more than someone I know’’ #my autism friend requirements aren’t high pre say they’re just like. ya know #autistic. #// #/vent #actually autistic #actually autism

[tofixtheshadows]

I've been thinking a lot lately about how Kabru deprives himself.

Kabru as a character is intertwined with the idea that sometimes we have to sacrifice the needs of the few for the good of the many. He ultimately subverts this first by sabotaging the Canaries and then by letting Laios go, but in practice he's already been living a life of self-sacrifice.

Saving people, and learning the secrets of the dungeons to seal them, are what's important. Not his own comforts. Not his own desires. He forces them down until he doesn't know they're there, until one of them has to come spilling out during the confession in chapter 76.

Specifically, I think it's very significant, in a story about food and all that it entails, that Kabru is rarely shown eating. He's the deuteragonist of Dungeon Meshi, the cooking manga, but while meals are the anchoring points of Laios's journey, given loving focus, for Kabru, they're ... not.

I'm sure he eats during dungeon expeditions, in the routine way that adventurers must when they sit down to camp. But on the surface, you get the idea that Kabru spends most of his time doing his self-assigned dungeon-related tasks: meeting with people, studying them, putting together that evidence board, researching the dungeon, god knows what else. Feeding himself is secondary.

He's introduced during a meal, eating at a restaurant, just to set up the contrast between his party and Laios's. And it's the last normal meal we see him eating until the communal ending feast (if you consider Falin's dragon parts normal).

First, we get this:

Kabru's response here is such a non-answer, it strongly implies to me that he wasn't thinking about it until Rin brought it up. That he might not even be feeling the hunger signals that he logically knew he should.

They sit down to eat, but Kabru is never drawn reaching for food or eating it like the rest of his party. He only drinks.

It's possible this means nothing, that we can just assume he's putting food in his mouth off-panel, but again, this entire manga is about food. Cooking it, eating it, appreciating it, taking pleasure in it, grounding yourself in the necessary routine of it and affirming your right to live by consuming it. It's given such a huge focus.

We don't see him eat again until the harpy egg.

What a significant question for the protagonist to ask his foil in this story about eating! Aren't you hungry? Aren't you, Kabru?

He was revived only minutes ago after a violent encounter. And then he chokes down food that causes him further harm by triggering him, all because he's so determined to stay in Laios's good graces.

In his flashback, we see Milsiril trying to spoon-feed young Kabru cake that we know he doesn't like. He doesn't want to eat: he wants to be training.

Then with Mithrun, we see him eating the least-monstery monster food he can get his hands on, for the sake of survival- walking mushroom, barometz, an egg. The barometz is his first chance to make something like an a real meal, and he actually seems excited about it because he wants to replicate a lamb dish his mother used to make him!

...but he doesn't get to enjoy it like he wanted to.

Then, when all the Canaries are eating field rations ... Kabru still isn't shown eating. He's only shown giving food to Mithrun.

And of course the next time he eats is the bavarois, which for his sake is at least plant based ... but he still has to use a coping mechanism to get through it.

I don't think Kabru does this all on purpose. I think Kui does this all on purpose. Kabru's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder should be understood as informing his character just as much as Laios's autism informs his. It's another way that Kabru and Laios act as foils: where Laios takes pleasure in meals and approaches food with the excitement of discovery, Kabru's experiences with eating are tainted by his trauma. Laios indulges; Kabru denies himself. Laios is shown enjoying food, Kabru is shown struggling with it.

And I can very easily imagine a reason why Kabru might have a subconscious aversion towards eating.

Meals are the privilege of the living.

#Dungeon Meshi #Delicious in Dungeon #Kabru #Kabru of Utaya #Laios Touden #Dungeon Meshi meta #you can have him in the tags too. as a treat. #Dungeon Meshi spoilers #this was directly inspired by livelaughlaios's post about Kabru self harming but I decided it got too long to make it a direct reply #this is a theory I've been working on for weeks because I kept noticing this while skimming for screencaps #I'm hesitant to trigger tag this because of the way certain subcultures on tumblr operate #but if anyone needs me to add a content warning please let me know #also I included image descriptions! I did my best #I think they even help illustrate my points but my god were they sad to write. Kabru is so fucking sad you guys #musings with Dea