#last year I did the most tho

[plutothe-pup]

Tracklist: Swynwrimo 2023:

Completed: 3/30

Wednesday, November 1 -- Villanelle Poem

Thursday, November 2 -- Community Flyer 

Friday, November 3 -- Everyone’s a Critic

Saturday, November 4 -- Crack!ship AU

Sunday, November 5 -- Family Ties One-Shot

Monday, November 6 — Daylist

Tuesday, November 7 -- Community Togetherness Thread

Wednesday, November 8 -- 160 Characters or Less

Thursday, November 9 -- SwynRPVision

Friday, November 10 --  Love Is Stored In The Garlic

Saturday, November 11 -- Short and Sweet One-Shot

Sunday, November 12 -- Background NPC

Monday, November 13 -- #OOTD

Tuesday, November 14 -- Neighborly Plotting

Wednesday, November 15 -- NPC Playlist!

Thursday, November 16 -- Character #Inspo

Friday, November 17 -- Choose Your Own Swyn AU

Saturday, November 18 -- Which Character Are You?

Sunday, November 19 -- Five Times X, One Time Y 

Monday, November 20 -- Personality Playlist

Tuesday, November 21 -- Back to the Future Thread

Wednesday, November 22 — Enter the Metaverse

Thursday, November 23 — Instagram Stories

Friday, November 24 -- Relationship Aesthetic

Saturday, November 25 --  SWYNRP Memes

Sunday, November 26 -- The Final Labor

Monday, November 27 --  Fairy Talent!

Tuesday, November 28 -- Around the World in 30 Days

Wednesday, November 29 -- Wordy Web-Weaving

Thursday, November 30 -- SWYNRP Character Wishlist

#bdrpwrimo #bdrpwrimolauren #idk why I do this when I know I'm gonna do like 5 and then give up #last year I did the most tho #also we've strayed from unhinged this year #.............for now ;)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

:-P

#how long ago did i watch pacific rim? i feel like it might have been last year but i finally drew this lmao #sometimes it just takes a while. newt specifically gets under my skin tho bc i think his research interests r kinda similar to mine #at least in a broad sense. but im dealing with cyanobacteria which is less exciting to most ppl lol but any fanfic i read thats like: newt #has 6 phds im like fucking what? what r they in? they have to be literature based right?! when would u have time to independently design. #carry out. write and defend for 6 independent projects in different topics by his age? #what as waste of time. i say as a person who would happily fuck around and collect degrees without ever having to get a real job #idk characters i relate to make me a little unhinged bc i do not like to relate to characters lol #pacific rim #herman gottlieb #newt geiszler #newton geiszler #tw blood #tw gore #also i agree with herman abt the numbers quote. physics is like literally understanding the fabric of the universe so like yeah #also i cant draw hermann and i cant see his face without thinking of owen from torchwood who i hated lol #pacrim

[skrrtscree]

I really need to draw her more, she has a great design 🥲💗

#persona #persona 3 #p3 #yukari takeba #persona 3 fanart #persona fanart #persona 3 reload #p3re #p3 reload #the new sees outfits were one of the best thigs they decided to add bc i LOVE THEM #to me it makes them all look more coordinated and matching #it fits themore serious vibe that sees have if they all have these more army like outfits #i love their jackets the most and their gold details with the zippers and buttons #colour theory on this was hard 🥲 i was debating if i should render this or keep it flat #i think i like how it ended up tho #so im planning to redraw the art i did for halloween last year as well as getting the prompt sheet for ryomina week done as soon as possible #so loon out on the ship week account in the next few days and thank you to everyone who voted in the interest poll😭 #the amount of ppl who voted and planned to participate surprised me but im so glad ppl are excited for this #ok GN! love yall! #minnidraws

[tradingjack]

having fun with colors for once :P

thanks @creepycoffins for the awesome dtiys :D

#creepycoffinsdtiys #trigun #millions knives #vash the stampede #i haven't drawn nearly enough knives. posted him even less #him and vash are so fun to draw :P ik they have the same face but it's like. fun to experiment with how different i can make them look yk #also admittedly. did most of this at work during downtime so if it looks funky..... my bad #the lighting isn't the greatest aight?? it's night shift and there's no windows but they do dim the lights #i did do the limited coloring i did at home lol. wasnt gon bring more art supplies to work #trying to get back into the swing of things with my drawing. i got myself a huion display for my birthday this year! #on top of my traditional i wanna do more animated stuff #primarily animated bc honestly i don't really wanna learn digital painting or whatever. im not interested in that and i like my harsh style #i'd also like to do more original work. i think last year was literally just trigun fanart lmfaoo #we'll see how things turn out ig #i'm not really holding myself to doing anything bc i don't see that turning out well. i am applying myself to more fan projects at the leas #tho those i'm applying more as a writer lmfao #well anyway. enough about me. i actually really like the drawing this was based off of! i didn't include the full body designs #and tbh vash's design is almost entirely cut out just cuz how the pose worked out :( #so i would highly suggest checking out the original art by the person i tagged! #and their other art's pretty banging as well :D

[vezpera]

happy valentines day 💌

#kh #kingdom hearts #ventus #I did this last year just never posted LOL #and I feel bad I haven’t posted in quite awhile I most do silly notes app doodles I could post tbh so maybe I will #life and work is just that tho you know how it issss

[smalltimidbean]

I finally finished Bugsnax

#I know Grumpus Bean has a unique tag but I don't remember what it is and I think I was gonna change their last name #so new tag time #OC: Bean (grumpus) #that'll do for now #but yes I am like three years late #mainly bc my old pc lagged to all hell and then I never redownloaded it on my new one until like yesterday #well I actually had to repurchase it for steam bc I was not gonna get that epic games launcher just for bugsnax but no big #although for some reason the game still lags but only when I am in snaxburg so the last quest was extra stressful! fighting a hoard at 2fps #I did know what was gonna happen bc I'd watched the ending #but still! it's a different experience to actually play than just watching someone who is also talking over most of it #and they didn't do most of the sidequests nor any of the DLC (tho I watched it before the DLC so they could not have ljksdgfkj) #so that was all new to me!!! #there's so many fuckin quests but I did them all!!! #except like two of them and catching that fast little coffee bastard #I will probably return to do that but for now I have to draw or I will explode #we will return to PT things but don't mind if I have snax on the brain for a bit #I have some funny moments I want to draw

[laundrybiscuits]

(wait for the season to come back to me tag)

It gets less strange, as time goes by. Eddie doesn’t make any kind of noise about him moving out at some point, and neither do Steve and Robin. Turns out they don't need to store any bodily fluids in the fridge, and in fact if Steve didn't know better, he wouldn't be able to tell that Eddie's drinking blood at all. Steve assumes he's getting animal blood from somewhere on a regular basis, but as far as either Steve or Robin can tell, he never takes it inside the apartment.

Anyway, it turns out Eddie can still technically eat human food, but about half of it tends to come back up afterwards. They’re still figuring out what works and what doesn’t. Robin made a little chart with smiley-face and frowny-face stickers, which Eddie has been gleefully filling out. He’s drawn little fangs onto the stickers with a Sharpie.

That’s another thing: to Steve’s mild surprise, Eddie and Robin have been getting along like a house on fire.

“I really wish I’d known him in high school,” says Robin, slicing bell peppers for dinner.  “I think it would’ve made Hawkins a lot more bearable.”

Steve doesn’t really remember Eddie at all from school, which is probably a really good thing.

He can’t imagine the guy he was back then being this obsessed with Eddie. Well, no, that’s not true. He can imagine it, but he’d have been such a jackass about it. Probably would’ve fucked a few girls about it. Maybe would’ve even bullied Eddie about it.

“Did you come out to him yet?” Steve asks Robin.

Robin leans all the way out the kitchen door, practically horizontal. Steve grabs the back of her belt so she doesn’t overbalance. “Hey! Hey, Eddie!” she yells.

“What, Buckley!” he yells back.

“I’m gay!”

“Cool, me too!”

She lets Steve’s grip swing her back in, grinning. “Your turn, dingus.”

Steve’s going to. He is. The longer he waits, the more awkward it gets. He’s got nothing to lose. He—

Robin takes him by the shoulders, spins him around, and pushes him out into the living room.

“Uh,” he says. “I’m—bisexual.”

Eddie actually does, like, a full-body twitch; his eyebrows climb practically to his hairline for a second, and he sets down his book.

“I’m…very proud of you? Thank you for telling me?”

“Why are you being weirder about me than Robin,” says Steve, annoyed.

“Because you’re being weirder about it than Robin was! I don’t know, I don’t have a lot of practice with, uh, this. Also, Robin was a band geek who dressed like Annie Hall, and you were—popular.” He draws out popular like it’s got three key changes in it, waving his hands in the air.

“Yeah, okay,” Steve huffs. “Sorry I wasn’t, like, alternative enough to be a real queer.”

“No, c’mon, Steve, I didn’t mean it like that. I accept you! Buckley, get in here and accept Steve with me.”

“Ste-eve Harrington,” Robin sings out, wandering out of the kitchen to wrap her arms around Steve’s waist. “We accept you and your beautiful bisexual soul.”

“Thanks,” says Steve dryly.

Eddie points at him. “Feel accepted.”

“I feel accepted,” Steve says; daring, he holds out an arm, and Eddie hops up to let Steve pull him into the hug too.

“Good,” says Eddie into Steve’s shoulder. “You should be.”

#steddie #fic: wait for the season to come back to me #I'd been slogging through angst and complaining about it #and today I was like. but what if I didn't tho. #what if I just wrote about the vaguely weird coming-out you do when you spend most of your time in queernormative spaces #and you already kind of know about the other person even if nothing's been officially confirmed #I've literally said 'samesies' to a coming-out bc I'm the woooorst #the other day a straight friend asked me 'when did you come out' #and I was like...this morning. yesterday. last year. twenty years ago. #also I feel I have been focusing too much on the pathos of this story and not enough on vampire shenanigans #I'm making the executive decision not to care about tonal shifts

[ispyspookymansion]

normalguy movie stats

#also obviously top actor was tobin bell. i probably watched like saw movies 50 times last year #not sure how darren lynn bousman bagged most watched director tho #did i really watch saw ii and iii more times than the original last year…….maybe thats why im having bad luck #kora.txt

[sn0wbat]

had a slow day at work today, so i kept doodling my vampire ocs on my phone while waiting for work to do lmao

#my art #low stakes 🦇 #these were all referenced from personal sims screenshots :-) #honestly really happy with these #also uhhhh haha fun fact i was literally never asked to do anything today LMFAO #not even a single curtain. #i just sat there. at my spot. doodlin. waitin to get asked to do a thing like i usually would #(istg most days are the complete opposite ddsfgf sometimes i don't even get time to THINK) #i really like these tho #and i didn't waste my time scrolling apps.... i actually did something fun #so. worth it #that helena is legit my favorite yet #i swear i intended to draw rune too but i kept getting distracted by the others hfgjdg #eh it's fine he already has a very nice painting from last year

[felizusnavidad]

taylor swift lyrics that keep u up at night?

*takes a deep breath*

remember looking at this room, we loved it cause of the light now i just sit in the dark and wonder if it's time.

(oversharing in the tags)

#i know it's not the most obvious choice and i think i've never talked about this line before #but i think it will keep me up at night for the rest of my life #so when i heard you're losing me for the first time i was in a very similar situation #most of you don't even know i was engaged and had the most terrible break up this year #it's easier when someone breaks up with you #it's much harder when you have to make that decision #and the hardest when you know you made this decision already but you're not sure if it's actually the time... #and i feel like both taylor and i knew it was the only option but we were never 100% sure if it's time to go #if that makes sense #i did eventually #i still remember moving into our apartment 3+ years ago when we were still happy #and then spending last six months of our relationship alone in this apartment knowing it's going nowhere and i have to leave eventually #and moving out in june to my own small cozy place i live in now #but i never even got closure #so i still didn't fully recover #and it will haunt me forever #trust me this line always makes me cry #ugh #sorry for that #i still miss him sometimes even tho he was a bad person #thanks for the ask tho #i feel like i wanted to say all of that long ago and you just gave me a perfect opportunity to do that #so i'm grateful ❤️ #yes i got your letter yes i'm doing better*

[wonder-worker]

I've been thinking about the tragedy of Elizabeth Woodville living to see the death of her family name.

I don't mean her family with her husband, which lived on through her daughter and grandson. I mean her own.

Her sisters died, one by one, many of them after 1485. When Elizabeth died, only Katherine was left, and she would die before the turn of the century as well.

All her brothers died, too. Lewis died in childhood. John was executed. Anthony was murdered. Lionel died suddenly in the peak of Richard's reign, unable to see his niece become queen. Edward perished at war. Richard died in grieving peace. For all the violence and judgement the family endured, it was "an accident of biology" that ended their line: none of the brothers left heirs, and the Woodville name was extinguished. We know the family was aware of this. We know they mourned it, too:

“Buy a bell to be a tenor at Grafton to the bells now there, for a remembrance of the last of my blood.”

Elizabeth lived through the deposition and death of her young sons, and lived to see the end of her own family name. It must have been such a haunting loss, on both sides.

#(the quote is by Richard Woodville in his deathbed will; he was the last of the Woodville brothers to die) #elizabeth woodville #woodvilles #my post #to be clear I am not arguing that the death of an English gentry family name is some kind of giant tragedy (it absolutely the fuck is not) #I'm trying to put it into perspective with regards to what Elizabeth may have felt because we know her family DID feel this way #writing this kinda reminded me of how I am just not fond at all about the way Elizabeth's experiences in 1483-85 are written about #and the way lots so many of the unprecedentedly horrifying aspects are overlooked or treated so casually: #the seizure and murder of two MINOR sons and the illegal execution of another; #her sheer vulnerability in every way compared to all her queenly predecessors; how she was harassed by 'dire threats' for months; #how she had 5 very young daughters with her to look after at the time (Bridget and Katherine were literally 3 and 4 years old); #how unprecedented Richard's treatment of her was: EW was the first queen of england to be officially declared an adulteress; #and the first and ONLY queen to be officially accused of witchcraft #(Joan of Navarre was accused of her treason; she was never explicitly accused of witchcraft on an official level like EW was) #the first crowned queen of england to have her marriage annulled; and the first queen to have her children officially bastardized #what former queens endured through rumors* were turned into horrifying realities for her. #(I'm not trying to downplay the nightmare of that but this was fundamentally on a different level altogether) #nor did Elizabeth get a trial or appeal to the church. like I cannot emphasize this enough: this was not normal for queens #and not normal for depositions. ultimately what Richard did *was* unprecedented #and of course let's not forget that Elizabeth had literally just been unexpectedly widowed like 20 days before everything happened #I really don't feel like any of this is emphasized as much as it should be? #apart from the horrifying death of her sons - but most modern books never call it murder they just write that they 'disappeared' #and emphasize that ACTUALLY we don't know what happened to them (this includes Arlene Okerlund) #rather than allowing her to have that grief (at the very least) #more time is spent dealing with accusations that she was a heartless bitch or inconsistent intriguer for making a deal with Richard instead #it also feels like a waste because there's a lot that can be analyzed about queenship and R3's usurpation if this is ever explored properly #anyway - it's kinda sad that even after Henry won and her daughter became queen EW didn't really get a break #her family kept dying one by one and the Woodville name was extinguished. and she lived to see it #it's kinda heartbreaking - it was such a dramatic rise and such a slow haunting fall #makes for a great story tho

[jestroer]

Anyone interested in my life and who seen my previous post about trying to quit caffeine, I did quit it fully in the last month in a half!

Did it help me in anxiety, fatigue and insomnia department? Not at all actually! Not even a little I don't think! It was a solid try on my part tho!

#not gonna go back to drinking caffeinated stuff much #but like #i did such and effort #it was pretty fricking hard to stop altogether drinking things i drunk literally every single day for the last two years #and most of the days for the rest of my life since being like little #(i drunk so much fucking black tea in my childhood you don't even know) #and i didn't get almost any positive results if any! #i guess i feel a little more energised sometimes when i get enough sleep #its not very often tho so its not much really #absolute betrayal to be completely honest #guess i cant chuck my sleep issues on caffeine anymore. maybe i should actually like see someone about this stuff #shitpost #vent #a bit

[mocacheezy]

Reminder for any small furry pet owners with no AC; check on your pets and wipe them down with a cool cloth. If you have some of those plastic reusable ice cubes dedicate one or a few for your pet and gently cool them down by gliding it over the fur on their necks or under their armpits.

Brought to you by; my shorthaired cat Pikica looked like roadkill until I cooled her off for a bit and now she's her happy, slightly destructive self again. After being a lil menace and strutting around she is now curled up in her spot on the couch napping.

#moca talks #pets #pikica the spawn of peace destroyer #summer heat #cats #dogs #i did this for the first time last year and now she meows at the cooler door anytime she feels hot #i take her collar off and she nuzzles against it until she's sufficiently cooled off #so yeah. if you're hot so are they #my weather app says it's 28/31°C outside and I know that if it's hot inside rn opening my balcony would feel like opening an oven #also no that's not a filter my phone camera's been like that for a while #i either need to clean it up again or I need to buy new glass #given my phone could classify as a hand warmer most of the time it might be smth else tho

[1960z]

watching rick and morty this season has been weird and I can’t decide whether it’s to do with the actual quality of the episodes or the intentional emotional distancing I did when the roiland accusations came out.

like you have to understand I haven’t really been known to “return” to fandoms a whole lot. while I’ve never really been someone to jump onto “trendy” fandoms, (I usually stay in the same primary fandom for at least a couple years) and I have love for all my past hyperfixations, usually my online engagement with said past hyperfixations boil down to reblogging fanart and memes every now and again - and occasionally some insightful analysis if I come across it.

that wasn’t the case with rick and morty. I was first hyperfixated on it in 2016 and was active in the fandom and then I did so again in 2022 and because of that it felt kind of special and unique to me in a way. and because of that, those allegations hit almost embarrassingly hard lmao, especially considering before that I wasn’t even expecting roiland to be an especially good person to begin with. but to have a show that meant a lot to me in two separate stages of life be marred with all the ways he used to abuse his power really hurt. so yeah I took a huge step back.

and trying to get back into it this season, it always feels like there’s just a small piece missing, idk. I don’t think any of the episodes have been bad, although a couple have some more obvious issues than others and honestly, I actually really liked episode 4 a lot but the thing is even then I felt like I didn’t really have anything to say about it. and I had more to say about episodes last season that I liked less. I just don’t find myself engaging in the show as deeply as I used to. and knowing that it’s not because of a natural shift in my focus, that this was because of something that happened, it kinda sucks.

this didn’t really have a point in the end I guess I wanted to dump the conflicting feelings I had down somewhere

#shut up abe #rick and morty #also doesn’t help that earnestly admitting to having/having had a lot of earnest attachment to r&m is more embarrassing than most things bc #of its pop cultural perception #like I have a lot more followers and mutuals now than I did this time last year or even than when the allegations first came out #so this might be the first time some ppl are finding out how much I like this show and there is a part of me that’s embarrassed about that #even tho I know I shouldn’t be #anyways the new voice actors are doing pretty good jobs I don’t feel like either of them have set into the roles completely yet but I feel #like it’s pretty clear that they will as time goes on #thought I’d mention that here bc I doubt I will anywhere else

[justanotherfanartist]

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#back on my super personal posting bs #last basketball game for the band tonight #augh and misery but at least it’s at Cool Big Semi Circle. Two hour drive at least tho. sigh. #if u from my state you know what I mean. actually wtv it’s obvious idfk Tacoma Dome moment lmaooo #man. last thing of band for the whole year kinda sucks ngl #our band is fucked don’t get me wrong but a part of me still loves it with a lot less cynicism than most of my friends n other band kids do #part of me is like yeah there’s stuff that sucks. but also this is where I’m meant to be and I’m having a good time #the reality is that our director sucks our band sucks nobody practices and we don’t really play well #but in my head #I’m doing well #i practice. a lot. because I like it #All my friends are here #I’m doing what my dad did in Highschool and being like him makes me really happy #which is especially why I’m switching to drumline next year to hopefully be on snare #I’m actually gonna kill myself if I get cymbals i fucking HATE cymbals I will fight my Director on this actually so hard #cus I don’t know shit about percussion #but my dad is a drummer and so is one of my senior friends who is sticking around after they graduate this year #and they’ve both agreed to teach me over the summer #so I’m gonna go fucking crazy hard into practicing so I can do percussion ensemble next year and do drumline too #I’m literally gonna dig in my trenches and fight tooth and nail to get what I want #and I’ve never really done that before #It really feels like I’m determined to prove myself worth of being a snare #not cymbals #not bass #snare #I feel like I was kind of always meant for this; I’ve just been putting it off yknow? #I’m the child of two divorced music majors #my dad is a drummer who was in band his whole life #he loves it. he loves it so much. #my parents moved to New York to chase their dreams and become musicians

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i spend so mad god damn time bitching on this website. its bc i dont talk to ppl. whens the last time i had a non functional conversation? #uuuuhhh last weekend or maybe the weekend before that? so like i gotta complain somewhere. so if i stop complaining u can assume i made #friends lmao. ugh. its just. im worried. im worried abt how this semester is gonna go. how this phd program is gonna go #bc i spent the last 2 years destroying myself. realized ive gotta stop doing that. haven't figured out how to stop and now im gonna triple #the amount of pressure im under while trying to do things in a more healthy way. its just like. it objectively doesnt seem like a formula #for good things to happen. im more worried for how catastrophic its gonna b on my brain than i am abt the things i think most ppl would b #concerned abt. like im not worried abt planning and executing a project or teaching beyond fear of the unknown #its like. ive done these things before. theyre difficult but u make due and tackle the problems. but when it comes to: how to maintain a #healthy school/life balance? i dont even kno where to start with that. i just dont bc when u have a learning disability things just take #more time but like how much time is too much? where does it end? i dont kno how to manage it and i dont wanna hate my project by the end #of this. i want to b excited and not paralyzed bc im afraid i cant change my behavior and its gonna kill me #and im worried bc im meeting with my advisor for the 1st time since march before i agreed to join thr lab and have i prepared for this #project which is almost complete unrelated to what i did in my last lab? no bc ive been managing data and im still not done managing data #bc i cant focus bc i collected that data in a way that was actively self destructive. and i mean i kno itll b fine. thr guy seems nice i #just hate that im showing up devoid of enthusiasm bc its all been drowned out by the fear. and thats also gonna make teaching a problem #bc its hard to b excited abt things when there's a hole in your chest and ur desperate for someone to tell u how to fix it. but idk helping #ppl does usually make me feel better so maybe itll b a good thing. forgot how much i feel like im dying when i sit in meetings and #classroom tho lol. god its been 2yrs since i was a student. classes feel like such bullshit now. and yet if i dont get all As i might die #my students better b good. i have the 1st lab section bc thr lead ta couldnt do that time. so im the trial lab and i start fucking Monday #who tf does labs the 1st week of class? ugh. also its an intro bio so like 2/3 of thr class r freshman. lil bby 18yos and some r non bio #majors. and ive been warned that sometimes there r problems with ppl who don't believe in evolution and cause problems. pls let my classes #b good. im not that worried. its just gonna b annoying as fuck. im not good at being authoritative #ugh. i should b reading papers so i dont look like too much of an idiot tomorrow. itll b fine im just an anxious freak. a lil over a week #until i can try to find a therapist. probably seek medication bc i dont kno how else to stop this bullshit. annoying. i grew up with a dad #who gets anxious abt the idea of taking too much medication when he tskes a single ibuprofen. in this household we feel pain and then we #die miserable. this is all his fault. we have the same brain.im just a lil more irradidic than him #its so funny i say that bc im like the least irradic person ever. i do the same things every god damn day. im just irradic in terms of #sometimes i feel like my brain is on fire and im a cry bby lol #whatever. enough bitching. ive got papers to read. or maybe ill just go to bed and read them tomorrow 🙄 #unrelated