#knowing you for years. doesn't mean im not upset about the situation tho'

[aonungyoufuck]

My Love of a Thousands

Roxto x Gn Sully Reader

DNI/BYF

Part two

Synopsis: Roxto is pining for you. And isnt aware that you kind of like him too. Unfortunately he over hears a conversation which he doesn't know the full context too.

You were the shining star that blinded Roxto every time he looked at you. It was like the wind whispered your name and brought you to him. It was what he could say was a dream come true. 

That was until he heard Ao’nung compliment you. He hadn’t meant to, really he was just looking for you. 

“I do think your attractive”

He felt betrayed. He felt angry, he had confided in Ao’nung about you. It was as if he was betrayed by his own brother. He wanted to yell at Ao’nung. 

He didn’t bother to listen to the other stuff. He didn’t want to. He just went home. Angry and more so hurt. 

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“Why do you ask tho? I thought you hated my guts?” Ao’nung asked you, you looking out to the water where your younger sister was. 

“Oh no i don't like you that way” 

He rose a brow looking At you. “Its about Rotxo huh?”

“How did you know?”

“Well i didnt” He said smirking at you. “But you just confirmed it”

“Oh shit” 

He could only laugh as you hit him on the head. 

It wa rather a stupid question to ask. You had often pondered if you were attractive by Metkayina standards. So who else to ask but the stubborn arrogant chief’s son. 

“I cant speak on behalf of Rotxo” 

“I know. But it seem he alway finds a way to not talk with me you know? I would like to get to know him some more”

“I mean why dont you? Whats stopping you”

“Him” 

Ao’nung could only nod. “I think you should still try you know?”

“Is Ao’nung giving me advice?”

He could only hiss as he walked off. Who knows where. 

You sat there. Wondering and thinking. Not really paying attention to Tuk who was now asking to go home. 

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Ao’nung noticed the change before you did. He had known Rotxo for years. His brother at this point and yet it had seemed that things had changed. 

He didn’t know what it was. But he had become brash. A little bit more … angry. But at no one else but him. 

He noticed how his smile whenever he looked at you was dimmed, and almost pained. 

So he came to you to talk. “Hey”

“Oh Ao’nung hello”

“May I speak with you?” He noticed everyone staring at you. Seeing Rotxo turn his ears to you two but not looking. “Alone?” 

“Uh sure. I can” you excused yourself following him 

Once you were alone he turned to look at you. “Have you noticed anything odd with Roxto?”

“Now that you mention it. I have actually. He’s been.. Idk kind of upset?”

“Good so you noticed it too”

“Whats wrong with him? Did he tell you?”

Ao’nung only shook his head no. “i thought maybe he told you”

“Oh im worried about him He’s normally so keen on helping or just making light of the situation”  You spoke worried for your friend. Or more so the one person to have caught your eye. 

It was a little bit odd. You had done your best to try and talk with him. But It always seemed he avoided you now. It seemed that no matter what he just looked so .. so not Rotxo. 

And it only made you worry ever so more. 

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“What’s wrong with you?” 

“Me? What’s wrong with me?” Rotxo could only look at Ao’nung in shock. “What’s wrong with you!”

“What?!”

“I told you! I let you know from the moment i knew that i liked Y/n” 

“Whoah whoah. What are you saying-”

“And yet you go behind my back. And do this? And to think i could trust you” Rotxo began. His frustration turning to tears. 

It confirmed every one of his doubts. He wasn’t enough. He wasn’t like every other man in the clan. Not built, no status and nothing like everyone else. 

He was just Rotxo, A boy, and you far out of his reach. 

#avatar the way of water #atwow #rotxo #atwow rotxo #roxto x reader #Roxto x you #avatar imagine #atwow imagines #atwow x reader

[antirepurp]

time for me to be obnoxious about an april fool's game at almost may wahoo ft. an unexpected moment of character analysis because i have no chill

TRAIN.

i hope this game is canon because rouge doing petty pickpocketing is my favorite thing actually

he has a wallet? and a home?

i could go on about how much i love these kids being unhinged and chaotic but unless i want to reblog this post a million times i have to cut it down. let it be known that i adore the kids and their antics tho

you know what i also adore? blaze committing crimes in the chaos dimension because she can get away with it. i think i need more of that in my life actually

although right after he says he doesn't wanna do more crimes i'd like to think he grows out of that opinion eventually. let the little guy steal stuff i want him to hang with rouge and have her make him worse actually

look here shadow's had it rough in the writing department for a while but i very much appreciated this plot point of him going out of his way to get concert tickets for amy and even (reluctantly) agreeing to go with her to said concert even if it isn't his cup of tea. i know it's more presented as him trying to y'know be polite and considerate and he's going about it in an edgy way but i'd like to think it's just his way of presenting things if you will? like he know what amy's favorite band is and sees how hard the tickets are to get so he goes out of his way to get them because he cares about his friend and knows how much attending a concert like that would mean to amy. and in terms of this screenshot in particular i also appreciate amy appreciating her friends' presence at her party even if they hadn't gotten her anything! sure it does kinda come across as her being bummed about not getting gifts from them and maybe she is but i think that's okay? like she's 12 (or 13 now i guess?) getting excited about presents is pretty normal, and it's not like she's super upset about it anyway. i think she genuinely appreciates her friends attending her party more than anything

i also found this a lovely little detail lol and it does kinda make sense! the bitch has been in stasis for 50 years and computer technology has taken leaps in that time, of course he'd be a lil rustier with them compared to his peers

more on shadow, this guy's brain goes overdrive the second he realizes he fucked up and needs to get something nice for his friend now. like i don't have the brain power to form it into words atm but i just love what this all says about him as a character!!

i could flail about the art in this game the whole evening honestly it's so lovely and colorful and pretty and i love how this scene is composed and shadow being seated on the windowsill idk this just put a big smile on my face when i saw it :)

frankly obsessed with amy's unhinged energy can we please get more of this bc i live for it

the fucking blowdart. i cannot tell you how fucking off the walls these teens are like espio's instructed to use a blowdart on sonic with non-lethal poison and he's like yeah that checks out and sonic's just like wow cool guess i'll snooze for a bit then like this shit is exactly why teenagers should be given superpowers and be put into Situations(TM) i love it

not an april fools game making me emotional over trains

and why yes i am obsessed obviously

it was a fun game! like tbh with a bit more content i would've been happy to pay a bit for this honestly (like. when im not broke lmao) like it's so charming and there were a lot of fun details and the jokes were enjoyable too. i just think it's neat :)

but yea that is all im glad sonic the hedgehog got murdered it was a great time

#soda offers you a can #the murder of sonic the hedgehog #also the minigames were banges actually i loved the vibes in them they were rad

[sonderkore]

✉ extraordinary attorney woo | ep 13 thoughts jeju-do, joined by friends, and junho's sister is going to have to sleep with one eye open

; or the one where i tried to make sense of what happened.

↳ jeju-do you know what i thought going into this ep? oh, jeju, it's gonna be so much fun!

and it was, actually! it had its funny moments here and there to balance out all the angst. from our newest golden trio singing in the plane and the car to their visit to the temple.

(minwoo's bp joke honestly made me laugh, and i do hate that it was him who said it lol jk)

imo the case's biggest contribution to this ep was that it brought all of them to jeju-do.

it's the things that happened while the squad was in jeju-do, in the middle of this business trip, were the main focus for me.

1. uncovering myeongseok's divorce. the show gave him the spotlight he deserves.

he told us his past, how much he worked even then that ultimately led to his condition now and his eventual divorce. i don't think he'll d word. we see him walking okay in the ep 14 preview when they visit the temple. (at least, i think it was him) ((also im in denial, he cant be terminally ill. he cant!!))

the squad might be trying to find the haengbok noodles owner for him, i think? but we'll see if that's relevant to the case or not.

2. suyeon and minwoo. is it it surprising that this happened? i don't want to say yes in full confidence but it's not a definite no.

we saw the way the camera focused on him when suyeon got a new hairdo. his reactions to when suyeon said she'd aggressively win someone over were also indications of his interest. those were hints that this was bound to happen. they established this in the first ep, i feel like. your typical enemies to lovers trope.

but does it warrant that confession FROM SUYEON we're getting tomorrow? i honestly don't think so and i hope it's a fake out. minwoo likes suyeon. sure, ok. i can understand, can't say i like it.

but you're telling me that suyeon likes him now? even after knowing what he did to youngwoo? after one walk in jeju? REALLY? if that's the case, i think she falls easily :( she fell for junho and her one night stand i think, and if that's the case, then this thing minwoo actually might make sense. doesn't mean i have to like it tho.

(joo jonghyuk's cute BUT MINWOO? TACTICIAN KWON MINWOO? no. he's a -12)

3. meeting junho's sister. we'll get into that one later.

4. minwoo's backstory. i sympathize with his situation. it's difficult to be the breadwinner of your family. you need to endure everything to provide and it gets incredibly lonely. he's suffering, and i can't fault him for that.

does that excuse his behavior, though? nope.

i can't get behind on a redemtion arc for him. he could've not went to taesumi, or they could've shown us him regretting ever going to her as he uncovers more about taesumi and youngwoo's relationship (or lack thereof) and then he apologizes to youngwoo because that's the least he could do after what he did.

but nah.

i just feel like it's a little too late for them to appeal minwoo to us, to say that he's not that bad of a guy.

he still is, that ableist prick. nothing will ever excuse his behavior towards youngwoo. ever.

but, anyway.

i loved that we got some of the cutest whale couple scenes in this ep! junho smiling when youngwoo arrived, even though he was still upset at her for what happened. youngwoo making junho guess the names of the dolphins in the pics, the plane talk and the whole seatbelt thing - i could be here for a while.

but my personal faves are: (non-verbatim)

"i have 154 (bows) left"

"no, it's still 155. you started late."

"why are you keeping track?"

"just keep going."

and

"i should've rented a van with an open roof, too."

"there are no vans with open roofs."

"right." *in like a "yes dear" type of tone*

if not date, then why wooho act like a couple married for 10 years??? 😭

↳ joined by friends the geurami, minsik, and myeongseok trio was so refreshing and funny to see!! their colorful fits and their singing in the car were top highlights.

i'm so glad they joined, because we not only got to see the whole cast together, but they were there as a saving grace for all the minwoo scenes we got. (hahaha jk... hng)

minsik not being (totally) awkward and sad around suyeon after their failed date is nice. he's still trying, though, but i hope he gets over her.

i love geurami so much and her scenes in this ep just sealed the deal for me. the clock scene is the best one!! she'll do anything for youngwoo, that's her ride or d word!! she'll slay any ticking clock that disturbs youngwoo for eternity.

but she needs to open her eyes and see that minwoo is not the boy for her.

↳ junho's sister is going to have to sleep with one eye open she really does.

i was really hoping that voice we heard in the preview wasn't someone related to junho. i was imagining them both overhearing it, and youngwoo opening up to junho about her worries and him reassuring her that their relationship isn't like that.

but, well.

firstly, junho wanting to introduce youngwoo to his sister is a big deal. that's what you do when you're serious about the relationship. not that we've seen anything from junho that states otherwise. but time and time again, he proves to youngwoo (and us, the viewers) that he's in this for the long run. he's committed!! he knows it will last!! HIS FEELINGS ARE NOT TEMPORARY!!

and it sucks big time that junho's sister clearly doesn't see that, too blinded by her assumptions.

before meeting them, youngwoo asked geurami for tips to impress them. after hearing that junho's sister will be serving them meat and raw fish, no gimbap, youngwoo was hesitant but since she remembered what geurami said, she said it was okay. junho even insisted that she didn't have to force herself to eat them, but she still did.

i made this point in a post earlier, but she did it all for junho. she sat there and ate something she wasn't used to eating because if it meant that junho's sister and her husband will approve of her, then so be it.

but they didn't.

and it led to youngwoo questioning their relationship. "am i someone who can make junho happy?" it's especially painful to hear that after seeing how wide junho's smile is just at the sight of youngwoo alone.

his sister had the audacity to tell him "you're not going to marry her, so don't bother telling our parents."

MAM

MAM

in junho's head, they've been married since this scene.

probably.

but he we saw how worried he was before moving forward in this relationship. he's 100% sure of youngwoo. he's down so bad for her and he's in this for the long run.

i've said that, but clearly junho's sister needs it drilled into her head.

my frustrations simmered down a bit now, but i'm still so incredibly disappointed at how things turned out. not at the writers, no. but the scene in general and the fact that we're going to witness a whale couple breakup tomorrow.

they need to be able to communicate this properly. saw someone said that wooho were better at communicating before they were dating, and i can definitely see that. this is a drama, and tbh when i said in ep 12 that their little bickering was necessary, i meant that. and i mean it for this one, too. that doesn't mean i enjoy seeing the angst tho. these are two people i want to protect.

i'd hate for the writers to throw the healthy communication down the drain in ep 14. they should talk it out!! and i mean in that beach, not when they go back home. we have 3 eps left, are they seriously going to make us wait??

also want to point out the glaring plotlines that are missing so far:

junho meeting youngwoo's dad

taesumi and minwoo. how's the deal going?

boston.

we haven't heard anything about boston since ep 11, if i remember correctly, and we have 3, episodes left. i hope they're not ending it with her going to boston, but it's becoming a possibility?

i don't want to think about it and this post is getting way too long and i need to work so.

see you later for ep 14!

#lia.txt #extraordinary attorney woo spoilers #extraordinary attorney woo #eaw #park eun bin #kang tae oh #woo young woo #lee jun ho #eaw ep 13 #eaw spoilers

[jadeneppy]

I did get ur ask but i will not answer it directly since people dont follow me for my personal affairs. If you wanna see my response its gonna be under the readmore

They gave their side of the story and i gave mine. I constantly asked for consent and now that its years later they are taking it away. Dunno how that works but while we were together i did ask before doing anything irl. If they felt really uncomfortable they could have asked me to stop at any time and i would have. As for being smug what else would i be? Its been years gabe!!! Talk to me like a normal person!!

Im not gonna be able to change your mind and of course i still feel bad but just because i feel bad doesn't mean im guilty of what they accuse me of doin! When they asked about top surgery or goin on T i always said I'd help support them, i dont know where they got that i wouldn't when its in our dms!

Im not sure what else you guys are upset about since they didn't feel the need to bring it up but i honest to god felt like me and sigs last goodbye was gonna be the end of this whole drama tho i dont wanna call it drama. We had our talk and you both blocked me without giving your reasoning, like when u first block evaded after i gave my piece, you were the one who didn't want to continue the conversation when i was willing to explain my reasoning or my side. I cant believe it took the ramblings of a high me to get u to finally send an ask tho, like i was sooo out of it and didn't even remember what i typed. Did u completely miss all my posts where i said i missed their company? I never saw sig in a bad light up until this whole thing started getting bad. Why? Cuz they always feared I'd hate them, they had multiple dreams about it and would cry.

I even now dont hold a lot of malice towards them just kinda in disbelief that they'd say these things to others before me. Before we could ever talk about it so i could at least have give them my own response. They didn't wanna give me closure but in the end i still found my own version of closure and that was to believe in the TWO people that stood by me, when everyone else turned their backs on me. Literally all of our mutual friends left me behind except for Charles and Curt!!! I am so thankful to them and my new friends for sticking with me even after you tried to take them away from me.

If stalking me is a way of coping for you then i think you should look for some healthier alternatives. It took me a while to get over them and that whole situation like for gods sake they gave me ptsd! Just up and dropping me after 7 years and with no explanation! I had to wonder for weeks/months before i got an answer and even that wasn't clear enough since everyone was withholding information from me!

You should just be happy to be with sig at this point and forget about me all together? Its what you both wanted right? After what happened with kuro and windy i didn't wanna be that type of person for sig. But just as they said i should have been the person to protect them not the one who hurt them. That chapter is done but im still allowed to remember those times and be glad that i met them.

I sure as hell know they didn't throw away any of the gifts i gave em like the figures, shirts, games and the sonic hat. You coming to tell me that i was terrible for not buying them a 300 dollar console for their birthday?? What the fuck was that. That isn't a part of being a boyfriend, was i a bad boyfriend for not getting them that? I bought them so many things so many games just because i loved them and thought they deserved to have some type of gifts, it was my love language after all. All i asked for was their love in return. The only thing i did expect them to throw away were the pictures we took together cuz i sure as hell threw em away.

I had a feeling things weren't working out and before i could say or bring up anything i got blocked. But anyways either unblock me and talk like a normal person or leave me and my friends alone. If you saw the stalker post you should have seen Charles reply too. We don't know what your motive is and honestly you aren't scaring me at all. You're an annoyance at this point go back to your lover and fuck off

I was actually thinking of getting them the console for their birthday when they first brought it up but as soon as they started saying it was the least i could do after them having to deal with me. Thats when i started getting mad, if they wanted to break up earlier they could have said so we could have just parted ways instead of them dumping me while i was sleeping and not give me a chance to speak.

#neppy nyas #theres probably more i wanna say and i might add it here but for now just dm me? not even on disc just make a random acc and text me here #i do miss how we were gabe u were so funny and great to be around but now its kinda surreal #like maybe deep down i knew u weren't the best person cuz ud send people death threats for fun. #you'd date people and then once they didn't do what you wanted acted like they were the terrible people who abused you #tho some cases it was true they were bad people. i dont know your full story for those people so I'll leave my opinion there #also kinda sloppy cuz im trying to hurry up n get to my moms house lmao #go to zzt for the post its the one with less clutter so you can see that even charles thinks you should move the fuck on #or better yet get sig to message me ive been very curious as to what they think of all of this

[elsecrytt]

not sure if anyone else has already asked but- lucifer/mc/satan? 👀

It's not a rarepair sandwich,,,,, BUT I LOVE IT SO LET'S GOOOOO

SO. The father and his rebellious son, huh? "I HATE you dad" and "Ah, yes, my six adult brothers, all thousands of years old, acting like actual children"

Separately, they're among the most reliable, calm, and intelligent members of the cast. Absolutely the person you go to for help with your problems.

They do individually have their eccentricities - Lucifer likes to make demands for his help, and enjoys teasing or playing with you, whereas Satan is very generous and friendly but can get quite absorbed in his interests (cats, books, new experiences).

But outside of that, you can pretty much count on either of them for anything. Dependable loves <3

Probably the real meat of the relationship here though is in the dynamics between them.

Independently, they're both excellent partners, not necessarily much to comment on that. It's when they spend time with you together, or have other occasion of "sharing" that things get... neat.

Satan and Lucifer are actually both very confident partners who wouldn't normally worry about your affection for them. And Lucifer doesn't, but Satan definitely feels some inferiority towards Lucifer.

I don't think Lucifer is wholly unaware of this, either. He's pretty conscious of Satan's... issues, and at points he even seems to blame himself for them.

Their relationship can be very up and down. Satan, at his best, expresses affection for Lucifer through pranks and can carry on a conversation about tasks or everyday activities with civility.

Satan at his worst sometimes just kinda wants to fight his dad to the death. As you do.

There WILL be some competition over your time, but they're both reasonably calculating over it.

Neither of them expect you to cancel plans, and Lucifer has too much self-respect to barge in on yours, but Satan will feel free to invite himself along through various socially acceptable means.

Lucifer isn't necessarily opposed to this, either. Satan's main focus is to steal Lucifer's time with you, not sabotage it.

Lucifer's reasonably fond of Satan, and while he doesn't like his time with you being stolen away, somewhere, deep down, he's happy to spend time with his son brother without an attempted murder.

And he also thinks it's a good way for Satan to "get out" his resentment, as well as assert some form of superiority/get a "win" against him, without causing any real harm.

Satan's not stupid, he will get suspicious, though he doesn't necessarily understand Lucifer well enough to realize Lucifer would give him a victory if he just asked for it.

And of course, the two will happily compete for your attention. Luci's not giving Satan anything for free, after all >.>

Definitely each one tries to offer you some of his dish, wants you to sit closer to him, brings up a topic of conversation for you all to chat about.

You're free to do as you please, although you can't favor one over the other consistently or the neglected one might back out of the relationship out of pride.

Specifically Satan will probably be particularly hurt if you favor Lucifer, who you can probably make it up to in private.

Lucifer is normally pretty invested in appearances, but when Satan competes with him for your attention, it's his pride on the line - Lucifer doesn't worry about being inferior to Satan, and he knows it.

The competition is somewhat unhealthy on Satan's part and he probably gets kinda unreasonably upset if he doesn't come out on top - which, sometimes, he will have to, bc Lucifer can't be the third wheel on every date you make with him that Satan intrudes on.

It can be a pretty uncomfortable situation, too, and Satan might take it out more on Lucifer than on you - he knows he was the intruder in that situation, and Lucifer is the one he dislikes.

Luci will take it like a champ tho. Ya gotta love 'im. It's not like it particularly bothers him, anyways.

And then ofc, there's intimacy - Lucifer tends to be very private about his intimacy with you... but Satan has a pretty intimate connection with Lucifer, considering they both acknowledge they were once one being.

They could totally double-team you. It could be really great, too, if they weren't both constantly focused on outdoing one another.

Expect lots of overstimulation. They snap at one another relatively often - they both race to make you cum first, and then they want to make you cum last; your pleasure is absolutely the focus of the encounter but that might not necessarily be a good thing.

They're also completely ruthless and efficient about it - they'll do whatever position or stimulation you like best, nonstop, while the other one experiments around to find something different to add to it that you'll enjoy.

Your private encounters with either of them are mutual acts of lovemaking, or safe, sane, consensual engagements in kinks. This is a competition, and you are their game and their prize.

Lucifer prefers to make use of his hands - you can tell he is quite practiced, his control and refinement, plus his long pianist fingertips, make him excellent at finding every spot, applying just the right pressure, rubbing or stroking exactly the way you like.

Satan's not afraid to use his mouth - Lucifer quite prefers to leave his tongue free for dirty talk - and he knows how to use his tongue better than Lucifer.

When you watch him on his knees beneath you, staring straight up at your face with electric green eyes, licking and swirling his tongue against your arousal until your mind is reduced to mush -

A hint of that black, neon-tipped tail swishing behind him reveals just why Satan is so good with his tongue.

Wet and smooth and writhing against you, he never fails to disappoint, and because he never lacks for lubrication he can get you off much faster than Lucifer can.

But Lucifer has two hands, ones that exert more strength than Satan's tongue ever will. And he always does know the right thing to whisper into your ears to make you shudder and buck into him - or Satan's mouth.

It's a tradeoff between pressure and texture, and it's not as if they always stick to the same thing.

Satan's particularly prone to pulling out his cock, pressing up against you however you prefer while he hisses his own retorts to Lucifer's dirty words - whether it's about being your pet, fucking you, or making you cum your entire brains out, he'll always find the hottest way to insist he'd do it better.

#shall we date om #satan #satan x reader #lucifer #lucifer x reader #satan x reader x lucifer #lemon #feeling :/ about this one #might put sandwiches on a hold #or just focus on some satan/reader/diavolo #bc satan/mc/luci is actually a ship i super love but i feel like i havent done it justice here #these sandwich bits are getting long and i have to remind myself i'm not supposed to be writing a novel here lmao #just... littol sandwiches. a snack from the kitchen. #it takes a number of minutes not hours yannow?

[hematomes]

Yeah, and I'm honestly very worried about that..

I have also heard about the Xiao situation and I think the same kinda happened with Kazuha? I do remember seeing some posts about people sending horrible stuff to those who obtained him but not as bad as Xiao.

I just hope people won't lose their minds but I know a lot are probably gonna lose it, unfortunately. I know a LOOOOT of people love Scaramouche and don't get me wrong, I like him a lot as well, I think he is a very interesting character but I'm scared of what people are gonna do.

If he doesn't come out and it's maybe the same with the whole Signora thing or he just disappears or literally anything, people are gonna be extremely upset and if he does come out, I'm worried about the people that will get him, I just hope they don't receive horrible threats and so much more.

Co-Op is gonna be hell for sure, I'll just be quietly watching what will happen, let's hope the fandom won't go crazy and do anything stupid..

Sorry if this came out as rude or anything, feel free to rant about anything that is on your mind.

Have a wonderful day. ❤️

yeah kazuha received a lot of hate from the 'meta slaves' (almost everyone regretted skipping him afterwards tho lmao) and kazuha havers were resented by those who lost the 50/50 and stuff. i myself received some rather spicy anon asks but i tend to just block and delete without a thought so yk zkdkzk

i wanted to keep the ramble to a minimum but it turned out long in the end so uh utc!!

honest the community is quite uh... filled to the brim with loud, toxic people. it's still a minority, but it's really, really loud and it's hard to ignore most of the time. i love scaramouche too, his lore is insane, his charadesign is gorgeous and his japanese voice actor was the one voicing my first ever crush (natsu.... what a time) so im kinda attached to him but not to the point where i'd handwrite his name **1,200 times** or have a breakdown bc he might not fit the idealized version of him i crafted over the year. this one i genuinely don't understand, i think most of the scara fandom has kinda correctly depicted him psychology-wise, he's a villain and shit, but you have to take into account that if he's playable, it most likely means redemption act, or at least a good reason for him joining our party and stop trying to kill us (in some degree at least, bc childe still wants to fight us lmao). and just because he has some depth and nuances doesn't mean he's ruined, just that he's more human than wr thought. i like the idea of playable scaramouche bc not only will we get his lore (hopefully more than with kokomi, ngl her story content is EMPTY) but also we'll get to know the character better. for now we have snippets, bits of a man with so much potential it's kind of insane. but the thing is, when i see how they act, i feel almost ashamed lmao bc i don't want to be associated with this sort of crowd. just like the xiao mains when his banner came out, it was a shitshow and players came into my world just to insult me bc i got him day one?? like,,, i don't understand

let's hope it doesn't go downhill when/if he becomes playable!! and know that if anything ill keep this blog absolutely safe, if you wanna ramble about anything hehe

it came off as anything but rude omg don't worry i love hearing ppl's thoughts!! kinda used the opportunity to go overboard anyway- and a wonderful day to you too <333

#answered #stormflypirateskin! 🤍

[femmesandhoney]

kinda tempted to just block an old friend on all my socials. she literally never cared about me enough to even message me first when she knew she hurt my feelings badly two years ago. the entire time we were friends (like 7+ years) she always preferred this other guy in our friend group even when she moved away and he never made time to even visit her. he ended up befriending some really shitty people throughout high school as well which she never saw or seemed to care.

like idk it felt like she was infatuated with him since we were kids and no matter how amazing of a friend you were to her, she would never consider you a best friend. always bugged me, but it wasn't until she started like abandoning our plans that were important to me for other things i realized i really wasn't a priority to her, but this other guy literally always is. and i like him when he's by himself, he's nice and we've known each other longer than we've both known this other girl, but im really annoyed by how she can't seem to realize he isn't actually that awesome of a friend. or at least, from my perspective of what a good friend should be, he doesn't like? do anything for her? make time for her? get her gifts? but nope he's still always this infallible person to her because i guess they just text a lot. thats literally the only way i think they communicate when she doesn't come to town for whatever reason, which is rare. so yeah. i hate it.

like for the record she told me to stop texting her because I was bothering her, when she could have just silenced my messages. so i waited until she would text me first. because the reason I texted her so much was cause i was geninuely interested in her life and wanted her to know i was still her friend even tho she lived three hours away, and it just seemed like a lot bc i was always the one trying to start convos and she would barely give me sentences. it was really odd behavior from her at the time, so i brushed it off, but i guess i messaged her one too many times. six ish months later she told me she wanted to message me after i had stopped, but she said she knew i was mad and was scared to. like girl wtf do you mean you were scared of me? we'd been amazing friends for fucking ever at that point and i couldn't believe she was nervous to message me first bc she knew i was probably mad bc of my silence. yeah great friends, where one is scared to even message hello 🙄 made me feel so great about our friendship.

like idk this is just a huge ramble but its always just been so frustrating to me bc we were actually amazing friends even though i did most of the work after she left town, but we were always close. same interests, same humor, same life shit. and she just let it all go bc she didn't know how to fucking message me after upsetting me. im petty and wasn't gonna be the first to message, but i did like six months later bc i was just so sad thinking about the situation and thats when she "explained" her side which wasnt an explanation at all really. she did say she would try to be more open and talkative and shit with me, but ope looks like she failed quickly.

and now both of them are hanging out in town together and posting about it and im like wow thanks for the invite i can see youre trying so hard to work on your side of our amazing. fucking. friendship.

#idk i think im just generally just mad at her bc i want to still be her friend but at the same time she was a shitty friend by the end

[arashinohi]

tired of everything. sunday left me feeling kind of weird. sofia and i went over to anastasia's to wish her happy bday and it was nice and all albeit a bit awkward idk why. after we left sofia came with me cause she was going to meet her bf and idk it was kinda weird like suddenly she looked like all she was thinking of was him (which probably is true) and we couldn't keep a normal conversation for some reason. she looked kinda distant. anyway she met up with him while i went home and after a while kourou sent a message at the groupchat that we should go out all together sometime. i mean we knew that was gonna happen since sofia told us so but i didn't expect it to happen so soon! so i was kind of panicking, anastasia wasn't answering and sofia sent me a plain "apanta" which made me sad for some reason. so of course today i felt the obligation to tell eva and niki about that and yet again i was the one who had to say everything. i mean anastasia could also say it but idk i think it's better that she didn't since her messages can sometimes cause misunderstandings. sofia tho? sofia didn't say anything and she is involved in this more than i am. i wasn't even sure if i could bring up everything that happened between her and kour because i didn't know if she wanted me to say it. she just stayed quiet the whole time which made me kinda angry. then both her and anastasia were like "yeah im only going bc they said they had some explaining to do" or "nah im tired of them i don't even wanna go that much, why don't they decide if they wanna hang out with us or not in the end". i was like ???. hello??? weren't we together when you said that you didn't really mind? that you lowkey liked that they were the ones asking us first to hang out? and i bet you sofia do want to go since your bf is a part of the group. so why are all of you saying stuff like that? it doesn't make sense too. we could easily deny them and just cut them off like that. us hanging out with them again mostly depends on how we feel, since they invited us. i thought i should be honest and told the girls that yea i dont really mind i just wanna see what they're up to and idk how it's gonna go from there. afterall we had a lot of fun last year but this year their behaviour was a bit questionable. these situations are really really awkward and i hate having to deal with them but what can i do? im trying to be honest for once and not appeal to them but now i, i don't know. it's just very weird. and i hate that i just want to take my mind off of these petty little things, they upset me and tire me out so much. i

[cryinghole-blog]

Xav: I'll talk to you on Steam but won't join tipchat again

Chinye: whats wrong

Xav: I dunno

Xav: I'm yelling a lot

Xav: Keep on changing what I want to do

Xav: Keep on fidgeting

Xav: So I'll talk after this shower

Chinye: ok

Chinye: i hope u feel better

Chinye: is something about tipchat bothering u?

Chinye: something i said?

Xav: No, it's me

Xav: I got upset in the shower. When I'm calmed down I'll tell you

Chinye: can i help?

Xav: I just need to unload on you

Xav: Sorry in advanced

Chinye: ok

Xav: Just here's the jist

Xav: I'm lazy

Chinye: lazy?

Chinye: i dont really get that impression with you

Chinye: did you forget to do something?

Xav: okay im back on

Xav: this might take a while

Xav: because i just have a horrible feeling in my gut

Xav: but the main reason why i am in my current life circumstance is that I'm lazy

Xav: 2010, first year of high school

Xav: everything was okay besides friend

Xav: 2011

Xav: i couldn't develop a study strategy

Xav: because I didn't feel like it

Xav: and pushed away the worries by either talking to people, playing games, watching things, etc.

Xav: this manifested

Xav: i started to not ask for help

Xav: because I didn't want to

Xav: and it was so much effort

Xav: this started spilling into everything

Xav: in life

Xav: today

Xav: i didn't eat breakfast

Xav: because i didn't want to

Xav: i didn't walk peggy

Xav: because i didn't want to

Xav: didn't do washing, the dishes, clean up

Xav: didn't go outside

Xav: it goes into video games

Xav: i can have more fun in Granblue if I looked up what I should do next and grind

Xav: but I'm lazy

Xav: and don't want to put in effort

Xav: so I just whine about my current situation

Xav: i would put more effort into trying to rebuild friendships

Xav: but I'm lazy

Xav: t would require too much effort

Xav: and make me anxious

Xav: and runin mty day

Xav: so I resort to staying inside

Xav: I was in the shwower

Xav: I was too lazy to get out

Xav: i just let the water envelop me

Xav: Like a wet and slippery cocoon

Xav: I don't try to develop new hobbies

Xav: Because that requires me to fail first to improve

Chinye: you sound like me

Xav: and I don't want to do that

Xav: I am too lazy to get up

Chinye: thats exactly how i am

Xav: too lazy to get dressed

Xav: too lazy to look for a job

Xav: too lazy to seek help from free government services

Xav: too lazy to tell mum and dad my real inner problems

Xav: too lazy to even start a conversation with my surviving friends

Xav: too lazy to become alive

Xav: too lazy to defend myself

Xav: i just take each blow

Xav: too lazy to do these stretches which will stop me feeling pain

Xav: too lazy to stop any of this happening

Xav: too lazy to believe in myself

Chinye: do you have anything that motivates you

Xav: i dunno

Xav: i just wanna go to sleep

Xav: because im too lazy to figure out what to do for the rest of the day

Xav: Too lazy to even try to find someone to fuck the pain away

Xav: I'm too lazy to find out if I even like dick

Xav: I've just masturbated to some dumb doujins online

Xav: had one boyfriend

Xav: who hadn't even transitioned yt

Xav: and i label myself as bi/pan

Xav: too lazy to get to the root of the problem

Xav: too lazy to get better at video games

Xav: doesn't that just make your skin crawl?

Xav: i want to do all these things

Xav: but this little thing in my head just makes me this walking zombie

Chinye: it doesnt really make it crawl but it makes me lock up a bit

Chinye: because i have exactly the same problem

Chinye: no motivation to do anything

Chinye: too lazy to fix my problems

Xav: i can feel my energy leak out

Chinye: I dont know what to say about it

Xav: all the positivity

Chinye: cause like im exactly the same

Xav: i want to cut off my limbs

Chinye: I wish there was a magic fix

Chinye: :(

Xav: and im too lazy to stop talking and think about your feelings

Chinye: you dont need to stop

Xav: i just keep on going

Xav: and impede negativity onto you

Chinye: negativity doesn't bother me

Chinye: I can handle it

Xav: even though i know how you feel because i've been in your spot so many times

Chinye: I just am thinking about it

Chinye: I dont know how to solve problems i have myself

Chinye: its good to know im not alone though

Xav: i'm too lazy to tell people what they say makes me feel horrible but i bottle it up and struggle to help them but all i can do is hit these plastic objects

Chinye: I thought other people just had motivation to do things

Chinye: and that things were just harder for me

Xav: which then sends an impulse to wiring then goes through all of these devices

Xav: to someone else

Chinye: Do i make you feel bad?

Chinye: with anything i say?

Chinye: I can stop dumping emotional stuff on you

Xav: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mWotngJBcc

Xav: i can't stop talking to you though

Xav: because then you will have to talk to someone else

Xav: and gothrough the same process

Chinye: I can keep it in

Chinye: and deal with it myself

Chinye: like should've done in the first place

Xav: you;'ll hurt yourself in the

Xav: process

Chinye: i'm sorry i've been dumping stuff on you

Chinye: I wont anymore

Xav: no

Chinye: thanks for all the help so far though

Xav: i want to be strong

Xav: i want to be strong for you

Xav: but i'm just so squishy

Xav: and take everything to heart

Chinye: i told you before

Chinye: i can handle it myself

Xav: i dont want you to be in pain

Chinye: i just got weak

Chinye: and let it fall on someone else

Chinye: dont worry about it anymore

Xav: i failed

Chinye: how?

Chinye: we're still gonna hang out

Chinye: and talk

Chinye: just not about sad stuff

Chinye: unless you need help

Chinye: maybe it'd be good to get some sleep though

Chinye: you said you were tired

Chinye: and i dont want you ot be upset

Xav: i donm't know

Xav: do we even have anything else to talk about?

Chinye: ofc we do

Chinye: are u joking

Chinye: i think were really good friend

Chinye: s

Chinye: we can talk about games

Chinye: and shows

Chinye: and things going on in discord

Xav: every day i just feel weaker and weaker

Xav: yesterday was fine

Xav: i don';t know why

Xav: everything felt different

Xav: but just

Xav: thinking of anything

Chinye: its my fault

Xav: makes me collapse

Chinye: you have been dealing with other peoples problems

Xav: no

Chinye: in addition to your own

Chinye: ofc its gonna be hard

Xav: please no

Chinye: ???

Xav: i don't wnat it ot be like this

Chinye: what to be like what

Chinye: im confused sorry

Xav: i dunno

Chinye: oh ok well

Chinye: if you wanna play games

Chinye: or anything

Chinye: let me know

Chinye: get some rest tho

Chinye: noob

Xav: i want to be stronger for you

Xav: for everyone

Chinye: then get there

Chinye: prepare yourself

Chinye: but that doesnt mean you gotta deal with everything at once

Xav: i want this feeling in my chest to go away

Chinye: sleep

Xav: it's 4:30 pm

Chinye: its the best way to get rid of feeling like that

Xav: it will ruin my day

Chinye: listen to music?

Chinye: im not sure

Xav: none of my music is particularly good at making me feel better

Chinye: you could finish koboyashi

Xav: i watch it with friends

Chinye: watch an anime from my list

Chinye: anything 8 and above is good

Xav: im too lazy to do anything new

Chinye: have you seen no.6?

Chinye: its shonnen ai

Chinye: but its really lite

Chinye: and good

Chinye: im thinking about going to sleep

Chinye: im really tired

Chinye: despite sleeping a bunch

Xav: okay

Chinye: not sure yet

Xav: dont ruin your sleep schedule this weekend

Xav: i want you to go to work on monday

Chinye: thanks dad

Chinye: :P

Xav: sorry, just can't think of anything funny atm

Chinye: lol you dont have to

Chinye: go eat a sanger

Chinye: or whatever u called them

Xav: i just feel frail and stale

Chinye: stale?

Chinye: you are a really nice person

Chinye: and i really think you brighten people around you

Chinye: a mood booster

Xav: it;s not enough

Chinye: its some though

Chinye: better than being someone who brings others down

Chinye: if everyone was like that

Chinye: things would be great

Xav: i;m going to be a pig and order food now

Chinye: wish i did that

Chinye: the sub i had when i woke up was gross

Chinye: lol

Xav: hoping mum won't look at the credit card bill

Xav: she was suggesting i make something for myself

Xav: but im just so weak

Xav: i didn't even make that sandwich i said i was going to make

Chinye: want me to paypal u money

Xav: no

Chinye: so u can order food

Chinye: and u just pay me back somehow

Xav: somehow will be in 2 years

Xav: maybe more

Chinye: it doesnt have to be with money n

Chinye: nerd

Xav: i've given you all i have

Chinye: what would food even cost

Chinye: like $20?

Xav: this place's minimum order is $20

Xav: the HSP was 13.50

Chinye: just let me know if u want me to

Chinye: and i'll paypal u it

Xav: i got a milkshake but it was shit

Chinye: you dont even have to give back

Xav: i can't let you do that

Chinye: i dont want you to get yelled at

Xav: Mum doesn't yell

Chinye: sorry

Chinye: shamed at

Xav: i can deal with it

Chinye: you dont have to if u let me help

Chinye: but ok

Chinye: its up to you

Xav: i just can't sorry

Chinye: ok...

#cryhole