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m-ieleeh · 2 years

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Pillow talk: Talking about how MysMe hits close to home now and feels so real.

Okay, I wanted to start a sincere discussion about it, I think it's interesting to see how y'all interprets this game: if it's just a game for fun, a lesson of life or a comfort zone. I don't know if what I'm going to say about this game might appear a bit "over the top" for you (like I go too far in my appreciation at the limit of excess) but please understand that I don't play a lot of games and MysMe got my attention for a long time which is why I'm considering it as an excellent game on which I relate a lot.

As said in the title: It's a "Pillow Talk" (I thought that term is super cute instead of "story time") so I'm going to write a lot about sensitive things that are a bit depressing. If you feel uncomfortable with this subject then please don't read >< also I'm going to talk about my own life so if you're not interested you can just ignore it and talk about your own experience lol

I'll just expect those who wants to talk a bit about this game to express themselves on this post and to have a maximum of respect for each others please. ^^

Well, my interpretation:

I was in high school when I first started this game (6years ago), (maybe) like you I got quite addicted to it: the gameplay was super original and I felt really close to the characters (calls, interactions and the fact that it's a messenger made the game feel more real.) My favorite was Zen, I thought he was super handsome, outgoing and warm and his story was super interesting. I also liked Yoosung for the same reasons meanwhile I just couldn't really grasp the struggles of Jaehee, Seven and Jumin, their problems kinda felt "unreal" to me (I mean that I didn't get their struggles because I didn't experienced it) I could be sympathetic with them but I couldn't relate.

But I didn't realized that it was because I could relate to them: I had a really low self-esteem like Zen, constantly questioning myself thinking "I don't deserve this or that" or "Am I even going to make it?" and was constantly relying on people and waiting for someone to tell me how I should do things. I would feel lost when I was all by myself like Yoosung.

So basically I was kinda a low self-esteem coward LOL

And there was also those two girls with whom I'd go out with a lot and who considered me as their "best friends". They didn't helped me at all and just pushed me down, making me feel even worse. So yeah, my surrounding weren't the best...

Anyway, after High School I got to experience a lot of things: extreme exhaustion (due to certain circumstances I worked 7/7, 16/24), I lost trust in a lot of people I held really dear, I experienced the weight of being under someone's authority and the frustration of not being able to make my situation any better and I always tried to look the other way when I had a problem and acted like everything was fine as long as I appeared happy.

I lost motivation for everything, did what I had to do and well... I just fucked up my life. I kept that to myself, I thought that it was useless to talk about it to my friends and also that my problems where mine so I'll keep it and just behave like the "me" I've always shown.

In a nutshell: I tried to conceal and kill my negative emotions but that just made me more depressed and lonely.

Now, I sorted out all my problems during quarantine, I quit my toxic job, blocked all the vipers from my life, went back to school (my loss of motivation made me stop my studies after college when I could go to university) and I am now taking things in hand and my life is way better now.

So after living all that, it's been 2 weeks I decided to play at MysMe again and I can now relate to Seven, Jumin and Jaehee. Seven's now my favorite, I don't think I am exactly like him but I do think our way to deal with life is kinda the same: creating a character in which we found comfort and comforting to others, concealing our feelings and most importantly that lonely feeling. So knowing that, I feel really close to this character which must be why I like his route since taking one's route in MysMe is helping this character to overcome their problems.

Voila, that was my personal take on why this game felt real. Ofc I am not delusional: I know they don't exist even if it would have been great if they did but I am just affectioning them a lot because they are really interesting, well developed, they give a lot of positive vibes and they represent the average human being's struggle.

I think Mystic Messenger helped a lot of people find a way out of their misery by showing them how to do it.

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hcrcwitz · 5 years

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back at it with bby #2! (but not #2 in my heart). again pls....HMU or LIKE THIS to plot!!

❝ jake gyllenhaal. cismale. he/him. ❞ ━ 𝕝𝕒𝕜𝕖𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨 welcomes calvin hyde with open arms. the thirty-seven year old funeral director has been living here for thirty-seven years, give or take. on a good day, they seem the clever & self-reliant type, but their taciturn & irritable tendencies shine through when there are no taxis into the city.

ok so, cal has lived in lakeview for his entire (sad) life. he’s the only child of two (now retired) high school teachers and he has always been the little emo shit ball he is today.

he was that weird little white kid who would like......burn ants and shit with a magnifying glass probably. he was definitely an annoying little shit who had no friends & he thought it was because he was a LOSER but it was actually because he was just kind of rude???

he wasn’t actually THAT bad he just wanted to be left alone and he kind of made that fact known. it was also kinda hard for him to be the son of 2 teachers at his school u know??? he just hated school & wanted ppl to leave him ALONE.

probably only had like 3 friends but he would spend his lunches and free periods just reading outside no matter the weather.

his earliest memory is of his grandpa’s funeral and he’s been very interested in death ever since? LMAO. not in like....a whack serial killer ted bundy kinda way but more in like a.........isn’t it kinda weird that u have to stare at ur dead grandpa before he gets put in the ground kinda way????

but he never rly thought abt it in terms of a career until he started dating his first gf in high school. her dad was a funeral director and he was like 👀 yo this mans is COOOOL AF

it got to the point where he would spend more time with his gf’s dad than his actual gf bc....he is a FREAK and even though they broke up eventually, cal went to work at his funeral home right after high school & became his apprentice. a few years later & he was working at the funeral home full time as a licensed embalmer & funeral director!

he’s been there ever since and tbqh he is a complete workaholic. ppl die every day man he’s always busy, on call 24/7, helping families arrange burials and funerals and all that jazz. he much prefers the embalming and paperwork side of his job where he can work alone in peace. comforting grieving families is absolutely exhausting and it’s taken a toll on him. the mans needs a VACATION he’s never been sis...................he needs some sunlight. he needs some milk :/

his HERO and MENTOR has since passed (cal handled the funeral himself, ofc) and the funeral home was passed down to him, so he is now also the owner & manager.

he was married once upon a time!!!!!!!! he loved his wife v much but he is very bad at communicating and expressing his feelings and he tends to busy himself with work when things get tough so whenever they had a fight, he would disappear and just work work work. they were together for four years before they separated and eventually divorced.

now he is just.............alone. with his cat, gomez.

my boi....

again, he likes to be alone. he is kind of awkward, kind of anti-social, just generally uncomfortable around ppl, especially if he doesnt know them. he’s pleasant enough but he just would rather not meet new ppl if he doesnt have to LMAO.

he is ALWAYS tired. the man doesnt sleep, let me tell u. doesn’t help that he’s always drinking coffee tbh. he can stop whenever he wants he just....doesnt want to.........

bc he is so tired he is also very easily irritated & quite snappy. he is just kind of negative & rude & grouchy & snappy and i am so sorry for him.

but is he lonely???? absolutely. the mans has convinced himself he needs a solitary life and yet............sir??? something is missing?????? what is it??????

all he can do is cuddle his cat & then get upset when that lil shit yeets away bc a cat cannot be contained.

very out of touch w his emotions and likes to pretend he is a robot who feels nothing. not to be depressing af but honestly........catch him at like 4am in bed crying bc the weight of his JOB and his CRUSHING LONELINESS catches up to him sometimes

then he watches a stupid movie and feels better

he’s playin himself

he is VERY bad at dating and relationships and flirting!!!! he’s very oblivious to flirtation tbh. u can straight up offer to suck his dick and he’d be like “oh they’re just being nice!!!!” how he managed to have a wife is beyond me but he did!!!!

he’s.....lowkey soft (but dont tell him that :/ )

what else can i say

likes 2 read

especially likes 2 read when he’s havin a bubble bath

he is not sure if he wants to get married again. also not sure if he wants to have kids ever (even tho he is soft around them). the grown ass man just doesnt rly know what he wants??? and that is Okay. life is confusing sometimes, man.

he rly does love his cat

doesn’t rly drink alcohol bc his family has a history of addiction but he does smoke shame cigarettes when he’s stressed

all black everything, always. looks emo all the time bc he is.

he be lookin sleek tho, he’s v good at keeping himself well-groomed

smart af yet somehow still a clown :/

#thirtyintro #my....dad..........

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