#just-a-little-dead-inside

[croxovergoddess]

The girls are going through it...

#inside job #dead end paranormal park #fanart #reaper high #my art #just a little thing while I finish work

[michsmeesh]

hrhhrhrhhh jovier hghrhhh brokeback mountain au hhehjrhjjhgjhkejgdjnhknj its literally 5 am and i just finished these and i hate how they turned out but WHATEVER

i just cant stop thinking about these two and its making me sick!!!!!!!

#jovier #javier escuella #john marston #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #au stuff #will probably draw more for this but for now... #have this little thing jovier nation #my art #michsmeesh #idk this au is just. eating me up from inside #because its literally THEM #im gonna go cry myself to sleep now bye #and tmrw i'll draw more requests #well. #later i'll draw more requests

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hey do you think ya can explain Barnaby and his illusion smoke a bit? It seems really cool and I don't remember if ya talked about it in depth before

sure! this got a bit longer than i expected!

so i was thinking that Barnaby seems like more of a hands-off kinda guy when it comes to altercations. would rather sit back and make funny commentary! so if he Had to get involved, i imagine it would be from a distance and still in an Entertaining Way!

thus - illusion magic! for this au i've been picturing that he got his paws on some illusionary herb in his early teens. for making people laugh, you know! and help out with the farm - illusions could distract animals, convince them to move on to different pastures, calm the chickens for egg-collecting, etc!

Ms. Beagle didn't really approve, since smoking is harmful, but lucky for the both of them this particular plant doesn't deal as much damage when smoked as normal smoking materials would - like tobacco! something to do with the magic properties! so Barnaby mostly used it for chores (when his mama wasn't paying attention, ofc - it's still a bad habit in her eyes) and entertainment purposes.

how it works: on its own, it doesn't do much when burned. it's not like illusions will waft out of the pipe's bowl, or that sniffing it will give someone hallucinations. in order for it to work properly, the user has to inhale properly, form the Intent of what the illusion should be / look like / behave, then purposefully blow the smoke out with that thought firmly in mind. the reach of the smoke depends on the force of Intent, and the intensity depends on the amount inhaled. those that breathe it in / are surrounded by it will see hallucinations of whatever Barnaby - or whoever the user is - wants them to! it can be literally anything! whether or not the target is fooled depends entirely on the individual, but the herb is potent enough that most are convinced that what they "see" is real (auditory hallucinations only occur if the target breathes in the smoke)

upsides: this form of magic is great for distractions, cover, deescalation, and that kind of thing. if needed, Barnaby could stop a fight with one exhale! it's a pretty powerful trick! it also means that Barnaby has built up a tolerance to illusion magic over the years, so where most of the party would be tricked, Barnaby would be unfazed. the only one with total immunity to the form of magic is Wally!

downsides: if Barnaby uses too much in too short of a time, it will get to him. and since he breathes in the largest amount - undiluted at that - it can fuck him up! using it sparingly / using repeated small amounts doesn't do anything. the most it will do is make him feel slightly untethered, but he has an easy time ignoring it / shaking it off.

in mild cases of the magic getting to him, it's like a bad trip. his proprioception is messed with (basically he gets uncharacteristically clumsy & off-balance), he feels like he's falling, anxiety spikes, and his vision is just... off! there are blind spots (im talking actual blind spots, not spots of black), things are moving in ways that they shouldn't, he has mild auditory hallucinations. the others can help ground him by talking to him, touching him, and confirming what's real and what isn't.

in bad cases, it's like that but 10 times worse. on top of all of the previous symptoms being worsened, he gets extremely vivid hallucinations, and they're very often not fun! it's a simultaneous feeling of dying, going insane, and not knowing what the fuck is going on. Barnaby loses sense of where he is, who's where, what's happening. he can get lost in the hallucinations - he has no way to know that they aren't real. in these terrible trips, no one can really help him. they can't get through the hallucinations, and if they do, the magic morphs Barnaby's perception of them and they end up adding to the effects. honestly the best thing for him is to let him rest somewhere with as little sensory input as possible & leave him be until he starts to come down. physical contact does help, since Barnaby understands on an instinctive level that illusions can't touch him, but it doesn't help half as much as it does w/ the mild trips. and again, the presence of someone can make the hallucinations worse.

so! suffice to say! he doesn't like using the herb all that often, and it's why he Stays Out Of It unless absolutely needed. he has two pouches of the herb - one with the strong stuff, reserved for emergencies / one with just a tiny bit of it mixed in with Barnaby's own personal blend for recreational/everyday use. (he also has an emergency tobacco stash in his pack, but that's only for when he's completely out of his usual blend <3)

extra lil scribble that didn't make it into the lil doodle post... i broke his wrist...

#the undiluted one is the blue/purple/pink smoke #while the personal blend changes color depending on his mood #and the personal blend does Not cause illusions! #the herb is included in the blend for cosmetic effects - colorful smoke! - and it has calming affects #so its. yeah its rgb weed last person nailed it on the head #rambles from the bog #wh fantasy au #the other day i was thinking about howdy's first adventure with the neighborhood #and i was like 'ok situation where barnaby has to use a tad too much of the magic' #and i amused myself imagining howdy's shock and panic when barnaby - steady graceful barnaby #staggers a little. looks up at the trees/skies. goes 'oh no' and promptly stumbles and falls on his face. and then just does not get back u #he has to go get poppy to make sure he isnt hurt / also howdy would Not be able to half-drag barn back to camp on his own #that dog is dead weight and staggering all over the place - if they can even unstick his claws from where he's anchored himself #sometimes barnaby will feel the unpleasant trip Incoming and he'll just. lie down right there and then #facedown. gripping the grass like his life depends on it - and also whoever's closest #frank always leaps out of the way when barn starts to Sway bc he does not want to sacrifice his arm for a solid few hours #usually wally is the one to sit with him and happily get his arm bones squeezed into dust <3 #a common thing is barnaby will be like 'the trees/sky is melting and the ground is turning inside-out' #what does that mean! no one knows! he cant explain it when he sobers up!

[spaghettiandart]

Charlie and the Puppet. Charlie kind of gives me 80's goth teen energy tbh so I drew a lot of her design from goth fashion trends at the time.

#shes like around 16 here #charlie emily #the puppet #the Marionette #fnaf #my art #fanart #five nights at freddy's #honestly i kind of loved it when ppl named the puppet the marionette and characterized them as being this mastermind puppetmaster #think ab it... she/he charlie. bc im thinking about it #this is basically going to become an au huh bc ive got a LOT of personality hcs for the dead kids #i like to think shes that cool older kid that the younger kids kind of admire but really on the inside shes just pure panic #three of the ghost kids r older siblings in their own way. #charlie is the older sibling figure not bc she has anything under control (he does NOT lol) but because hes literally the oldest #gabriel is an older sibling figure not only because hes the oldest but because hes susie's older brother. #he puts a lot of pressure and responsibility on himself post-slaughter and takes it upon himself to take care of the others #cassidy is the older sibling figure of CC because a shes 13 and hes like 8 and b shes a little protective of him #oh my GOD i need to get to learning how to make comics bc the IDEAS i HAVE..

[junebugtwin]

Undersider's eyes!

Just a fun little exercise with human eyes, plus I thought it would be fun to show off how I imagine their eyes to look. (If the color I gave them isn't canon, yes it is)

Close ups below the cut:

#worm #parahumans #taylor hebert #skitter #brian laborn #grue #aisha laborn #imp #lisa wilbourn #tattletale #rachel lindt #alec vasil #regent #my art #this took a while! it was pretty hard to get the colors of their eyes right and not looking too unnatural #just noticed i didn't give alecs eyes any little shiny things whoops #its okay he's dead inside

[carehounds]

a while back I heard that at the start of Coraline, the tools the Beldam used to make Coralines doll were all tools used in embalming and i thought that was really interesting, but one thing that caught my attention even more was that cotton was one of those common materials and I thought, huh, lesley...... lesley has cotton coming out of her face

#puppet talk #im really unsure if this is reaching i said it awhile ago somewhere else but!!!!!! watever #i doubt they were doing that on purpose but i think its a nice little detail both dhmis and coraline are just jam packed with little fun st #uff to speculate about. #im not leaning towards lesley being dead or anything but . honestly shes so cool weird ass lady #love the distinction between her and every other puppet on the set. puppets with organs and blood and her being presumably a complete- #- flip to that. inside out..... ooooongggggghhgg #dhmis #< WATEVR

[sweetandglovelyart]

You know what I think would be a fun concept for a Kirby game? Kirby being able to travel to different planets on the Halberd to go explore with Meta Knight and his crew. I know that he can just fly different places by himself on his warp star, but I thought it’d be cool if he got to go on a little adventure with all of them.

The Halberd could be the hub world, I could see it acting sort of like Waddle Dee Town in Forgotten Land in that you’d be inside the Halberd when starting the game and from there you could select stages to play, play mini games, buy healing items and buffs, and other things like that. It would be nice if you could interact with Meta Knight and his crew outside of battle for once and see the inside of the Halberd without having to destroy it. What do you guys think of this? Would this be a cool concept for a game?

#text post #Kirby #we never get to see inside of the Halberd unless we’re destroying it #and we never get to see Meta Knight’s crew #everyone keeps saying ‘oh they’re all dead Kirby killed them in Revenge of Meta Knight’ #well first of all I don’t think Meta Knight would be friends with Kirby in subsequent games if Kirby killed his crew #and we see the Meta Knights in that one attack in Planet Robobot so I would assume they’re still around and we just don’t see them #same with Sailor Dee and Captain Vul I don’t think that they’re dead either #like we literally see Vul abandon ship and I’m sure Sailor managed to get out of there too #not sure about Sword and Blade Knight though like Sword Knight hasn’t been used in a game since Super Star Ultra #we only see Blade Knight as a recurring enemy (and a friend in Star Allies) #anyway I think it would be neat to have a game where you can go in the Halberd and interact with the crew #and then Kirby can visit different planets to go on adventures #this is just my headcanon but I have a headcanon that Meta Knight has a little room for Kirby set up on the Halberd #it’s a place where Kirby can stay and sleep whenever he comes to visit lol #if a game like this was made I could see them putting a room for Kirby on the Halberd and it would act like his house in Forgotten Land #so he could sleep in there to regain health and also decorate it with collectibles

[sillydeadpoets]

hello!!

figured with all these new mutuals and possible friends, i should make an introduction post :)

hello! my name is simon, i'm 19 years old, and i'm a freshman in college. my pronouns are he/him+ (any questions on that, feel free to ask!), and i consider myself genderfluid but mostly transmasc if that makes sense? idk i am confused tbh but anyway i'm also bisexual :)

i am very very fixated on dead poets society (especially charlie), and i also am a major todd kinnie. anyway- i also love other movies and shows, so here's a comprehensive list:

dead poets society (obv)

the outsiders

the breakfast club

marvel (moon knight and anything steve and bucky related tbh)

star wars (literally all movies and shows tbh)

inside job

good omens

supernatural (been a fan since i was in a bassinet☝🏻)

i will mostly discuss dps on here, but if i do post about my other interests i hope that's alright :) as for hobbies, i enjoy reading, writing, playing video games, journaling, and collecting stuff (albums, books, movies, etc etc)

feel free to message me any time! i am always willing to talk about anything at all. as i did say, i am in college so response times vary but i will see and get back to you asap! :) sorry for the long post!

here's some pics from my adventure last week to a cafe and park lol

#introducing myself #dead poets fandom #dead poets society #i'm just a silly little guy #the breakfast club #inside job #i am ron staedtler irl for real #and brett hand is my girlfriend #i also love adam sandler movies shhh #marvel #moon knight #i was fixated on moon knight for so long #i love my moon boys #silly little moon system i miss them so much ANYWAY #good omens #they deserve each other #ill cry #star wars #supernatural #spn #they made my brain rot for years thanks winchesters #okay that's it mostly thanks! #the outsiders

[dreampearls]

I think fischl and collei are socute like you have fischl who's trying sooo hard to be a weirdgirl to compensate for thr fact that she's incredibly normal versus collei who is fighting every day of her life to appear Normal. I think them meeting would do collei some good

#colleis like. I was injected with the remains of a deceased god. its corpse slumbers deep inside of me where a seal holds it in place #and fischls like Alllllll over that shes like The two of us... we are wayward kindred spirits. Once lost but now found in each our #respective kingdoms to call our own.. You are worthy of sitting beside my Throne. and colleis like. Y... yea.. #fischl internally is jumping up and down for joy that someones actually engaging with her on her level #maybe even a little jealous that collei has a cooler backstory than her own #Just like completely oblivious to the favt that collei was telling the truth and that there really is a dead archon inside kf her. #its no biggie tjough. #colleiction

[oobbbear]

Is there an angel where you just feel hollow and dead inside, like you're rotting from your organs out? (kinda like a zombie :3)

I think that’s just him

#ask #afterland postal #I was gonna say that little grey guy the addiction angel #but I think dead inside it’s just him #no angel needed ✨

[jaxon-c6]

I didn't really draw on paper in a long time (a decade, almost). Last time I did was when I was still in school, during classes instead of paying attention I drew whatever I had in my mind at the moment. I guess it will take some time to get back to where I was back then. Sadly cannot show examples, my family put them on fire because 'it is trash' to live with their words. But I guess I got over that finally, and started with who else than Vulpes Inculta?

Not the best or most detailed, but I am still proud of myself for being able to overcome a decade of inactivity. First step was starting to draw on my phone, second and more important step is drawing on paper.

#fallout #fallout new vegas #fnv #fallout nv #fonv #fo:nv #f:nv #vulpes inculta #fallout art #i was so traumatized after they put my drawings on fire #that i didn't have the strenght to draw almost for an entire decide #and felt so dead inside for years #and i just started to overcome it less than a year ago #noone should ever do it #noone should ever destroy something that belongs to someone else just because it is meaningless to them #because it can mean everything to someone #i guess it helped that i don't contact with the toxic family members no more #and that my little sister started to show interest in drawing #so yeah i feel some kind of pride for being able to bring myself to draw on paper finally #i am almost crying because it feels like overcoming some hard challenge or something

[wulfhalls]

.

#i miss my dumbass idiot cat so much i feel like im dyingggggg licherally that is my little baby guy i want my little baby boy back wtf #i cant deal with this shit i genuinely wish i was dead so bad #im having a worse day with it than usual and my usual was this bitch on suicide watch fr #I feel like its really starting to hit me that hes gone. and it kills me what do u mean hes never coming back thats my angel my baby i need #him #all i do is weep wish for death weep weep some more death wish again sometimes im granted complete numbness for up to several hours #i love totally dead inside time its the only time i can look at pictures of him without being 3 seconds away from throwing up #then its back to weeping on the floor. if i cant boop his little tiny nosey in the next 5 minutes im ending it all im not kidding #not to be dramatic but i feel like a part of my soul died with him lol #anyway. i hope i die #also everyone ignore me no one say anything i just needed to type this out #bb baby #txt.me

[mastomysowner]

Can we talk about how Big Jack Horner lied to the Ethical Bug that he had loving parents, a mansion, and a thriving baked goods enterprise for him to inherit?

#big jack horner #puss in boots #a popular theory is that his parents' business eventually flourished #but most likely he founded his company himself #just like he became a crime lord #he was a pathetic buttered baker's boy. Little Jack is dead #seems that his words about being dead inside are related to this quote #he could've squashed the EB right away #but apparently Jack wanted to prove to him that he was irredeemable

[ohitslen]

“No fear. No pain. No humiliation”

FUCK YOUUUUUUU AAAAAAAA

(crying myself into dehydration)

I’m

#every time I read or hear that line something inside of me gets ripped apart #we can psychoanalyze the shit out of that little white boy all we want #but I think we can all agree that these being what could potentially be his last words for all Vash is concerned is just #crying throwing up absolutely destroyed never the same they make me SICK #‘a paradise. for us’ FUCK OFFFFFF #ANYWAYS live laugh love that was Kni idc if he says oh he’s dead like the edge lord he is #that Mf speaking was Kni we all know WE ALL KNOW #CRY #trigun #millions knives #Kni saverem #kni #nai saverem #nai trigun #trigun stampede #lenssi rambles

[aq2003]

series 3 is so frustrating because there is like a shining core of pure diamond underneath the problems . like conceptually it rocks so incredibly hard. but the problems

#dr who #i am being so honest when i say ten should have gotten on his knees and begged for simm!master's life #they should have framed the bit between him and martha's mom so different #like yes it is 10000% in character that the doctor with his bleeding heart and loneliness wouldn't want to kill him #even after everything that happened. because he's the only person he has left. 'i forgive you' was PERFECT. #but literally anyone else that suffered from what the master did. Deserves to rip him to shreds. so very obviously #and like i know.i KNOW that i am watching the 'funny immortal alien saves people through time and space' show #but i actually despise the doctor being framed as like an all powerful savior. or treated like one. even for a little bit. is Annoying #the first part of the series 3 finale having martha be humanity's last hope was SO GOOD bc it like kind of set her up as like #having to grapple with all that responsibility and attention like the doctor does. everyone's lives are in her hands. so crunchy #but when it like slides into 'everyone pls believe in our specialest boy in the world The Doctor <3' it just. falls flat #i feel like with a couple tweaks here and there in the execution and like actual fuckinnn people of color in the writer's room #series 3 would be PEAK media. but as it is it's just. falling short. #i do really appreciate martha deciding to leave ten on her own though. first of all. qpp down. second of all #she's realized that she can't keep traveling with him. bc (as i mentioned) hes someone who simultaneously needs saving #and refuses to be saved in the ways that matter. Yes im fucking ignoring the unrequited romance angle i think #it does a gigantic disservice to martha's character if u boil her down to that. fight me i dont care if that was the authorial intent #martha in the end is too kind to ten and ten keeps making her watch his meandering path of self destruction. toxic doomed qprism to ME. #anyway fuck. idk man series 2 consensus was that im dead inside and series 3 consensus is that the version i have of it in my head is peak #series 2 is better but i think because of my ten martha insanity i actually enjoyed watching series 3 more than series 2. #even if i got mad at it more than any other season. i think something is wrong with me. um. lmao #ten and martha #10 era

[wuffgang-ameowdeus-moozart]

Steve "neglectful parents" Harrington, Eddie "lives with his uncle" Munson, Will and Jonathan "dad was a piece of shit" Byers and Max "mom is an alcoholic" Mayfield all telling extremely obnoxious your mom jokes 24/7 and nobody can do anything against it because like c'mon

#they are all little bitches inside #and thrive on making other ppl vaguely uncomfortable #they keep making uncalled parents jokes with each other #but as soon as someone else tries #they just look at them with dead eyes and describe their (former) home life #they have a meeting at the end of every week and the person who gathered the funniest reactions wons #stranger things #steve harrington #eddie munson #will byers #jonathan byers #max mayfield