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rriavian · 4 months

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I'm very tried today and so that's probably why I feel a bit not good, but does anyone ever just randomly stop caring about what they're writing? Just stop in the middle like what is the point?

It's usually a sign I need a break/food/sleep but I've been constantly cycling through feeling really excited to write and really repulsed by it these past few days. No real idea why, though I have some theories that are quite personal and probably boil down to it sapping energy more than it's invigorating.

Lots of the things I enjoy are rather draining to be honest so I'm used to it. Every hobby seems to have some sort of mental snag I keep getting caught on. That said, I will probably cycle back to excited later on today if the pattern holds

#personal #just needed to vent a little

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robotsandramblings · 1 year

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gosh it's... i can really feel it now, just how much more i liked Bad Batch S2 vs Mandalorian S3. the huge difference in quality and storytelling, for me anyways.

TL;DR -- i'm still reeling over The Bad Batch, even a month later. but The Mandalorian was outta my mind within like 24 hours. Like...i've got TBB soundtrack on repeat, but could care less about Mando's. I've basically got every TBB S2 episode memorized, but can hardly remember what happens in Mando S3. I plan to rewatch TBB soon; little to no desire to rewatch Mando.

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neither of these seasons was perfect. i have my gripes with both. and yet, there's only one of these shows that's still living in my mind rent-free: The Bad Batch. and it's been a whole month since S2 ended.

The Mandalorian, though? my brain kicked Mando to the curb within a day after the finale. i reblogged the gifsets, reminised over the episode, and have barely thought about it since.

and it's not like Mando had a boring finale?? it had lots of action, Din was kicking ass, and it had the happy ending and adoption scene i've been waiting to see since S1. but even that, i've moved on from, so quickly.

maybe it's because nothing really bad happened that my brain is just like "huh ok onto Season 4"??? whereas the TBB finale was full to the brim with heartbreak. and, left us with a lot of questions and things to worry about until S3 comes around.

and maybe... TBB S2 was actually just better than Mando S3. 🤷‍♀️

#just needed to vent a little #the bad batch #the mandalorian #star wars #it's just jarring to me because i was SO SO SO obsessed with the mandalorian when S1 came out #and over S2 quite a bit as well #i honestly wonder if they had aired at seperate times if i would be more invested in mando??? i dunno honestly #i don't think that would really change much tbh #anyways yeah i'm just noticing how much my love for mando has declined with S3 #but i think im even MORE obsessing over TBB if that's even possible lmao #rorambles

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librarianofdoom · 8 months

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I’m heading out tomorrow for my first real vacation in, god, years. I’m so excited to see friends I haven’t seen in ages. Some it’s been six years, others only (only! ha!) two, but in every case, I’ve changed so much since I last saw them. I was the last in my graduate cohort to get a job in our field. I’ve gained weight. I’ve lost a lot of my social muscles over covid. What if it’s too much? What if our friendships and romances can’t survive all that? What if they think less of me?

All of this is dumb, I know. My friends aren’t that shallow, they’re not that mean, I’ll have an amazing time, this is all just anxiety being a bitch again.

But.

I’m still worried about what they’ll think of me and about going there alone. I’m worried about changes, for good and for ill, over the years.

But also.

I’m so very thrilled to see these people who are so dear to me. To be going back to a place where I was so happy. Even though the anxiety that I’d been ignoring my entire life kind of came to a boiling point while I was there, I loved it. It was my city in a way that no place I’d ever lived before had been.

It’s going to be such an amazing week.

#and I get to see the Lindow Man again and he always get me feeling some things #sorry for the boring and tedious personal monologue #the regularly scheduled books and animals and weird random stuff is coming back I promise #just needed to vent a little #thanks for listening guys

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fitzroy-avery-vacker · 2 years

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I'm not bitter over the fact that the one thing I'm supposed to be good at and known to be good at is inferior to someone else's ability to do that thing, thus making my one good trait irrelevant because they're so much better, not at all

Hahaha I'm fine, I'm not internally dying over my own inferiority

#Haha please don't see this #I'm fine #I'm just silly #Just a bit quirky #Yk #Like normal people #It's not like I push away all my friends and loved ones to be the best and then get over shadowed by someone who was built instead of born #Pls none of my friends/partners see this #Private #Just needed to vent a little #... Maybe I should get a diary blog #Just for funsies #Definitely not so I can be bitter without people I know seeing this #Lol

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momhorror · 1 year

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my sister thinks it's a diss towards her when i try to talk about how lonely i am since she's there with me and i get that perspective but i get to spend like an hour with her a day usually and then once she leaves i'm lonely so ofc im gonna talk about how alone i feel!!!!

#just needed to vent a little

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wanderedaway · 1 year

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The feminine urge to run away and never look back.

#i'm just in dire need of a break #i thought things would be different after the surgery #and they most certainly are just not better #i hoped to move out this year and that is not going to happen #i'm not able to save enough to cover the theoretical rent and bills i would be spending anyhoo 🥲#so much responsibility has been put on me and my parents are refusing to help themselves l #i hate how responsible i feel of them #we're all adults right?#or so i thought #anyhoo don't mind me 😅#just needed to vent a little

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tornrose24 · 1 year

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It’s hard for me to want to go on Facebook because I don’t like seeing where everyone I met when I was younger in real life get to live out their lives and do things I wish I could have accomplished by now. They weren’t kidding when they said that some social media websites just cause you to be depressed.

Like I wish that I had found someone and gotten married and I wish I had kids by now like most of them. I wish I had more success in my career and was at a different point in my life. And if I’m on there for too long it doesn’t help my mental health.

…. And then I remember that a select few of them believe in a bunch of political conspiracy BS and suddenly I’m less depressed knowing that at least I don’t buy into that crap. And that I don’t have to deal with that if I’m not on Facebook as often as tumblr.

#Just needed to vent a little #Like I can talk to my therapist about some things but…#I don’t know I just feel like I’m stuck in a loop regardless of what I do #And I try to fix it but sometimes it feels like it’s not working as best as I’d like

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ahoysailorsteve · 2 years

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personal petty non-st related bitching under the cut sorry

my birthday is tomorrow and I have never felt less excited for it in my life lmao in general I've got some ✨️trauma✨️ related to that date but somehow my family seems DETERMINED to make this year extra awful for me. like, I'm positive my parents didn't even remember it was my birthday this week which is fine ig, I'm an adult so who cares. but my sister-in-law decided that today was the day she was going to talk shit about me to my best friend and start drama that I want no part of, and I am just TIRED of people at this point.

so I'm running away to disney world to spend the day BY MYSELF at magic kingdom to try and salvage it. which just seems?? childish?? but it's my only solution and I have an annual pass so I might as well use it. plus I want a stupid birthday button. wish me luck

#just needed to vent a little #birthday blogging 2022

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woundedheartwithin · 5 months

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Haaaaaaaaaa….