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sam-rothstein · 6 months

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‼️ creep 2014 spoilers ‼️ everyone complaining abt aaron's actions being stupid is 1000% missing the point bc .

. bc knowing in retrospect that josef was fully actively plotting to kill aaron from the moment he saw him it becomes pointless to question and nitpick everything aaron did. bc like he literally never does anything that hurts his case. he's never in a position where josef couldn't/wouldn't kill him and then he did something stupid and then josef became able to kill him.

yeah sure aaron isn't just nice he's overly trusting and accommodating and gives josef the benefit of the doubt far beyond what he's earned, to the point where you kinda wonder how he's gotten this far in life. but on the other hand being empathetic and believing what others tell you abt themselves and trying to see the best in them is . generally a good thing and something that will make people value you . and for what it's worth it's this very quality that makes josef genuinely like aaron and a little hesitant+regretful abt actually killing him.

like 'it seemed stupid that you wouldn't look behind you. but then i realized you're a good person and believed i would do you no harm' you don't need to question aaron's behaviour at the end they. they do that for you in the movie. and so yeah it seems aaron goes to the lake believing that josef doesn't really intend to seriously harm him. maybe that belief wasn't totally rational based on what we've seen. but yknow on the one hand any of the people in your life could be plotting to harm you. and on the other hand our feelings and beliefs aren't based just on logical analysis of the evidence. like what i'm saying is

-on the one hand

aaron's only real 'mistake' is he goes to josef's house assuming josef is not a serial killer. and sure the job is a little sketchy but that's still a reasonable assumption. like the fact is, random strangers, creeps, people who have hurt you, they're all usually not serial killers. it doesn't pay, yknow basically all of the time, to assume that the people around you are serial killers. and this has already doomed aaron just as the film begins.

also like it's very easy to imagine a version of this movie where aaron takes way more safety precautions and i envision it being a more boring movie but i don't envision it being a movie that makes me feel safe and secure bc it's very easy to imagine him doing that and still dying. maybe his friends or the police end up with more evidence they could use to catch josef but that doesn't really help aaron. like it wouldn't be very useful if he had told someone where he was going or had them checking in with him but josef just murdered him as soon as he got there. but yknow josef doesn't murder him at the cabin at all. like you're left with the knowledge that josef was thinking abt killing aaron the entire time and could have killed him in pretty much any frame of the film and was just choosing not to bc it was more fun for him. so like this movie made me feel fuckin unsafe. the ending really puts it in perspective that like cautious or not if some rando decided they really wanted to kill you. they could. they could murder you anytime, anywhere. is it more likely josef's murdered dozens of the dumbest motherfuckers on earth or that he was able to kill them simply bc they didn't know in advance he was a serial killer. yeah josef wants to kill aaron back at the lake just as he likes toying with people and forming weird relationships with them before killing them and likes to have their interactions filmed but by the time josef's sending the last tape .. if aaron didn't come he probably would've just . broken into his house and murdered him anyway right.

(side note it's the exact same people complaining it doesn't make sense aaron would keep filming as he's answering the phone / trying to escape. ??? he was already filming it's literally more effort for him to turn the camera off than not also you're trapped with someone you've come to believe is dangerous why Wouldn't you keep filming?? like as a deterrent / so you at least have evidence if something does go down)

-on the other hand

where does aaron's belief in josef come from? this is not really a mystery. when we leave the cabin and start watching josef's videos on aaron's tv there is certainly this sense that aaron is not even nominally in control of the narrative anymore, this sense of like, this thing has come out of the woods and the darkness and followed aaron and yknow it's in his house now. might not have been intentional but aaron's yellow shirt in the first scene after the cabin reminded me of his car and the yellow door that's featured strangely prominently at the beginning too - like, we're travelling, we're entering a new house, aaron's house, aaron's own reality, this evil is inside aaron as well now.

aaron admits josef has gotten into his head. he groans 'i gotta stop thinking about this guy' more like josef's an off-limits crush than a stalker. indeed josef has gotten into his head more than he even realizes, in the sense that he believes the emotions josef expressed to him. as much as he believes josef could be dangerous, and despite the evidence he can't trust what josef says, he also believes josef's loneliness and pain and desire for connection. josef has gotten to him. and i don't find that terribly unrealistic bc as a viewer mark duplass gives an amazing performance and he's super fun to watch and ofc we're seeing the character in a different light than aaron is but josef Does kinda get to you. aaron is indeed stupid but also i do kinda understand why he didn't just run away and might've seen something to care abt in josef.

also imean to my mind aaron's actions are due not only to stupidity and empathy but Also his attraction to josef. however, random commenters and critics alike seem determined to ignore the sexual aspect of this movie even though it's not exactly subtext. well hopefully for josef's part it goes without saying. as for aaron... we see just as he does the way josef is pretty much coming onto him, the way josef loves him and really likes hugging him, that by the end of the day it's pretty clear josef has a sexual interest in him and that he openly expresses his romantic feelings in the tapes (he uses the word friendship but uh we know what kinda 'friend'ship he's talkin abt) - i think the easiness with which aaron accepts all this makes Way more sense if he's also bi and josef isn't totally off the table for him either. admittedly that's speculation and to speculate some more isn't it possible that even while being creeped out by it aaron likes that josef likes him? after all the movie starts with him half-joking about the client being an older woman who just wants a boy to give money and rubdowns to and in a way that's not so far off from what he gets... and ends with him going 'how can i not go he's so sad... you got me'... maybe aaron is drawn to josef bc josef appears to want him and to need the kinda emotional support he's apparently very willing to give. mark duplass even said as much in an interview which ikno is Not part of the movie But this interpretation doesn't seem more unlikely than aaron simply being the stupidest person to ever live to adulthood which is also just an assumption audiences are making.

in any case what is NOT speculation is that aaron decides things aren't over with him and josef Not bc josef sent him a video but rather bc he's having dreams abt him. i'm not so sure there's any peachfuzz in aaron there's probably no part of him that's a murderer but there is a part of him, perhaps subconscious, that's intrigued by josef's fucked up shit and is exploring putting himself within this weird, undoubtedly sexual, fetish framework that josef outlined for them at the cabin. josef's weird sexuality has gotten to aaron as well. iknowikno the author is dead and everything but it is actually inconceivable to me that the filmmakers didn't intend the two dream-sequence-descriptions to be read as attraction on aaron's part. like the second one do i even need to say. maybe they're also there to suggest that aaron has a feeling of complicity with/protectiveness towards josef and his weird wolf shit as well. this is clearly backed up by his call to the police where he says he wants to report 'a violent domestic incident and stalker.' not that he deserves to not be taken seriously but this is probably most of the reason the cops don't take him seriously bc it sounds like he's talking abt a guy he hooked up with. he could have said assault or kidnapping or anything but he said domestic incident. the only thing this term means to me and indeed the only relevant thing it means to google is violence within the home/within a relationship, usually between intimate partners. SO either he's thinking of josef as someone he potentially could be / is in a relationship with, maybe without even realizing it, or he wants to make what happened between him and josef sound less weird, make josef sound less predatory, kinda suggesting they were consensually hanging out instead of . josef luring him to a remote location and attempting to kidnap him. why doesn't he tell the cops he has video of josef? why does he immediately get defensive and hang up instead of trying to explain where he's coming from, which seems out of character for him? perhaps the stress of the moment, perhaps stupidity, or maybe, again even without realizing it, he doesn't want anyone else to see the tapes.

while i don't think aaron's feelings for josef affect his ultimate fate that much i also don't view it as totally incidental - these things make aaron more of a character in his own right, suggest an understandable motive for some of his actions and show that josef accomplishes his goal of insidiously getting into aaron's life and mind before killing him which itself adds another intriguing and unsettling dimension to the film . and it makes ya think. what if i somehow got killed for being horny for mark duplass in creep 2014.

#srry this turned into a fuckin essay CREEP DID SOMETHING TO ME GUYS #creep #creep 2014 #gay subtext

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odrseasonone · 2 years

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ok so ur favorite odr co-author had some thoughts on a walk today but ur least favorite odr co-author went and forgot most of them aljsfkdjf let me see what i can remember ksljfkljdf

cassius

we already know everybody’s best pal, king cassius lowkey knows for much of the plot that guin is a dbl agent lkasdjfkjsdf i feel like part of cassius’ motivation for staying on the wrong side for so long is actually kinda noble (except...yknow...there was more he coulda done if he’d left rowena but here we are) in the sense that...ok so i think cassius as of 1.01 sees himself as standing between a selfish, heedless, worthless council and the ppl of aragoth and, tho he knows they hate him, he feels that now that he’s deprived them of all their other dragonrider defenders, it falls to him to look out for them. at first, he tries to deceive himself that rowena’s still ~getting things together~ before she launches all those great reforms they talked about!!!! but even as recently as 1.01 he’s pr deeply disenchanted w her and those dreams ever coming to fruition so he feels 1) if he deviates from his course he killed all his friends for nothing 2) he’s abandoning the ppl to the cold mercy of a council that’s ruling only for themselves

so!!! that’s where guin comes in!!!! and idk maybe we’d already come up w this but??????? maybe sometimes he actually like feeds her info so the resistance can do this or that thing which might benefit the ppl?????? smh of course there’s also tons he tries to keep from her etc its a whole thing but yeah!!!!

also, since cassius isn’t a dark sorcerer in his own right, perhaps (in addition to the sacrifices or not??? idk??) its his connection to rowena that’s keeping him alive ever since he yknow took all those mortal wounds in the purge. this is another reason he remains loyal so long -- and it also means that, when he does decide to take a stand against her, he does so knowing full well that he ~will die of the wounds his friends once inflicted

safira/”rochilda”

so our friend cassius is from the north ++ his main squeeze ends up moving to a really cozy ruin up there askdjfkjsf so maybe cassius is in some way in investigating some of safira’s doings in s2/3 and perhaps they even have some sort of showdown asp that foreshadows cassius vs rowena????? maybe she tries to sacrifice guin or one of cassius’ many family members and cassius aint having nonE of it???? or maybe he’s just, yknow, of the opinion that burning innocent ppl to death isn’t he nicest way to be???? isklfjkljaf either way, idk why i didn’t think of it before but i deffff feel like cassius would feel that its his duty as a rider to ~interfere and i defffff feel like that could go super badly and make some interesting tv

cordelia

when cordelia ends up being dispatched north, perhaps its w an ‘honor guard’ that’s actually supposed to assassinate her if it seems like she might be about to pull an arthur/lynessa bc i deffff feellike by this time rowena’s entering her paranoid stage (tbf, cordelia ~does end up turning against her tho so she’s not wrong lksjfklsjf) and she aint taking no more chances just bc ppl are family and have never betrayed her ~before anyway cordelia plays dumb but she knows perfectly well what’s up. however, she’s also been sent there and now the north is hers and she’ll be damned if she doesn’t make things better!!!! so basically she does her ruling apprenticeship phase -- helping to encourage craftsmanship, invigorate trade w the east and west, give the needy food and shelter, try to make repairs to all the post-rowlin/safira damage, and generally repair the north so she’s got challenges on both sides to spice it up -- assassins who’re supposedly her protectors (who she probs ultimately wins to her side bc...i mean...i feel like rowena is noT the best employer atp tbqh), scared and angry ppl who need food and shelter, etc, and learns about loyalty and her impact etc etc etc

just thought of this, re: her honor guard, but if we wanna bring tristan/ophelia back in, this might be a good place but idk if we even wanna do that

lord commander elections

ok idr where i was going w this ~exactly but i remember thinking oh!! gotta remember about lord commander elections!!!! askjfskldfjds i do know that i was thinking that perhaps the dragonriders elected their lord commanders (i think we’d already discussed that?) and basically it ends up going from charles --> roran potentially and slkfjksljf my emotions but also!! imagine, once rob bc a dragonrider, rowena is like ‘you two are the legit riders!! since they’re out there electing false lord commanders, you should elect the REAL lord commander!!’ and basically its this ridiculous scene of two men alone in a room, each voting for himself and coming to a stalemate alksjfklsdjfs but anyway!! idk what the actual plots was anymore laksjfljfsdf

oh wait maybe it had to do with [ this ]????

there was def more!!!! i think i had avina and ric and dezod and rowena thoughts and probs some others but...this is what made it out alive so make of this what you will i suppose

#kate #cassius #cassivere #guin #rowena #safira #rochilda #s2 #s3 #cordelia #s4 #Tristan #charles #roran #rob

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horrorxweasley · 2 years

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Oh please don't think I brought his age up because I was like "why is he still there??" In this day and age most of the time it is cheaper to stay with partners and save for a deposit. That also doesn't go into health issues and stuff. I'm sorry to hear that he does suffer such things.

Overbearing parents for an ill child is sadly very common. It isn't a justifying reason to overstep someone's boundaries.

You should not "just deal with it." As I stated in the other message, you might want to have a private conversation or dare I say, actually want to be active with him. That just isn't feasible with the knowledge that his parents might be listening in. That's just so many different levels of fucking weird and invasive. Nobody should have to settle for that.

I really am sorry that you both have to experience this. Is his folks okay enough for him to maybe have a word with them and explain his side or would they be the type to jump to the defensive?

Oh no sorry i wasn’t thinking you i was just saying in general people tend to make that assumption of why isnt he just living himself bc of his age sorry darling didnt mean you :)

Yeah i can get where the ”protectiveness” of them is coming from he’s fine now with his condition coz hes had surgery and stuff he just has limits and stuff if yknow what i mean

There’s even more fucked up stuff his parents do including his benefit money which enrages me but yknow i have no power over it, but his parents really arent nice people deep down like to me theyre nice but ive heard them and how unreasonable they are and moany they are with the littlest thing like what time he gets the train to see me 😐

I just feel like idk i’m being controlling because im only his girlfriend and theyre his family and thats his life and has been his life forever before I came along

He’s tried talking to his parents about it numerous times and the get defensive like ’how dare you tell us what to and not to do regarding our own son and house’ they really are dickheads

#rachel talks #my lovely anon #anon :)#rachels asks

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astralaffairs · 3 years

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i know mc is specifically a political journalist, but what if she was covering a story like the blm on the side or a riot or smth, and happened to get arrested while on the job? any headcanons for how thom would react? i see him wanting to use his political influence to get her out but i feel like he might give away too much if he does that?? or would he not care at this point bc he just wants to make sure she's safe?

mc uses her prison phone call on either lafayette or dolley for the SOLE purpose of them getting her in touch w thom

because so many people were arrested, the cops arresting yet another journalist probably wouldn't make the news

so when she calls either dolley or laf she just has to hope that they know what she means when she says to "spread the word" that she's been arrested

when word reaches thomas about it, though, he damn near loses his mind because "they can't just hold her there indefinitely!!!!!"

however, because her invocation of habeas corpus is just met with a statement that she's suspected of "rioting" or some variation of theft or property destruction at the protests, they all realize that they can, in fact, hold her there indefinitely

because our criminal justice system is so wildly fucked up

being a certified Broke Bitch, our poor heroine cannot post bail, so she's there until either charges are dropped or she scrounges up enough money for bail

dolley and lafayette both come to visit her (regardless of who she calls w her one phone call, they each tell the other pretty quickly)

when they learn abt her situation, they're also freaking out

they both offer to pay her bail money, but considering that they're both public figures closely associated w the jefferson campaign, mc thinks it would look too sus

lafayette comes in the next day claiming to be her lawyer so he can talk to her alone (she j runs with it bc this might as well happen)

but really he just did it so he could have space to tell her that thomas was insisting on bankrolling her bail AND legal fees

his plan is to just fund it w/ offshore investments; if the $$ is coming from nevis, no one's gonna be able to track it back to him (haven't u heard thomas jefferson was implicated in the panama papers??)

she tells him fuck no u can't do that

because then she'd have evidence of him using offshore investments to evade taxes (and she'd publish that info w/o hesitation)

because of course he's guilty of tax evasion 🙄

she'd basically tell him to take his money out of the offshore accounts if he was gonna bankroll her anything; she refuses to let her bail fund b paid by dark money

meanwhile, alex and lafayette are about to throw down bc alex is pissed that lafayette is acting as mc's lawyer

"He doesn't even have a law degree! Why the hell would you trust him with this?"

and lafayette is ridiculously smug abt it, but he knows the only reason she's letting him act as her attorney is so he can act as an intermediary btwn her and thomas

(once she no longer needed to communicate w thom, lafayette would be losing his role there)

but anyway thomas quickly realizes she won't b letting him pay her bail fund (and that she's probably being more reasonable abt it than he is)

so, being the extra bitch he is, he literally funnels millions of dollars to washington dc bail funds (cool donation, mediocre motive)

however, despite him being lauded as a hero of the people and an Activist, mc's bail doesn't get paid

relative to the other people who are being held in the same jail as her, her bail is low-cost, and her charges aren't very serious, so bailing her out is low priority

so, being the extra bitch he is, thomas assembles a fucking legal team to take the arrest of reporters and journalists at the protests to the dc district courts as a first amendment violation

mc is fucking shocked when she finds out

she's even more shocked when she finds out alex forced his way onto thomas's legal team bc he decided he had a stake in the matter

he, of course, does not realize that thomas literally brought the case to the court for the sole purpose of freeing mc

and, yknow, protecting the bill of rights, of course

he wins his case, of course

it gets him ridiculously good press and his approval ratings jump significantly

he shows up at the holding cells at the county jail when the judge orders that all journalists and reporters are released partially to rub his win in the cops' faces

but also, by now, mc has been in a holding cell eating prison food for 8 days and thomas is absolutely worried sick

he hasn't seen her, spoken to her, or heard from her except by way of lafayette's interpretation of her words, and he has no clue how she's holding up

dolleys been doing her best to keep him updated

but, yknow, he has to personally see to it that the judge's orders are followed and the journalists are released

and mc is beyond overjoyed to see him

but she also thinks he was being extra as fuck, and he didn't need to do all this just to get her out

she thanks him for all his efforts in a very formal interaction when they're both at the county jail but she's clearly mildly amused that he went to all this trouble

and he just looks WORRIED AS SHIT. he wants to hug her and baby her and ask her if she's alright

instead, when she shakes his hand in a gesture of awkward gratitude, he subtly lets her know he'll be home all that evening

and then he's texting her all afternoon after she gets out

but she wants to stay home :( needs to be at her own place after all that time in a fucking holding cell

so she isn't shocked when thomas shows up for coffee at the diner around 10 pm

in fact, even tho she isn't working right then, she goes downstairs just on the hunch that he might show up

and when mc offers to let mira go, then, and leave closing up shop to mc, mira isn't shocked, either

by then, she's caught thomas sneaking out the back door of the building in the early morning one too many times for her to not suspect anything (even tho he always claims he was there for coffee, he swears)

mira just sighs and sends thomas upstairs w/ mc once the diner is all cleared out, and they're both like "shit shit fuck she knows oh my god"

but she doesn't push the conversation any further just then, so they figure it can wait until another day

and then, of course, thomas spends the night absolutely babying her

he insists on cooking for her since she didn't eat dinner (she claimed she didn't have an appetite, but he was fairly certain it was just the prison food making her feel sick)

she puts up a fight, but when the food is in front of her, it's a little too good to resist

and if they don't fuck when he spends the night, neither of them says anything about it. didn't this count as the "friends" part of "friends with benefits"?

and if it briefly occurs to them that friends aren't supposed to casually make out on their kitchen counters, they still don't say anything about it

and if mc spends the next couple nights sleeping better than she has in weeks because her bed smells like thomas, she doesn't say anything about it

#this got way too long and tangential #but thats ok #hzl talks #freedom of the press #hamilton x reader #hamilton #hamilton fanfic #hamilton fic #send me asks!

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littlebabycrybtch · 3 years

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yknow part of my brain unfortunately kind of gets why ableism is being left behind by modern activists bc... so much of performative and hollow ‘activism’ today is all about being super fake and digestible for majorities, and the (better) side of it is being so ‘fuck with me and die’ that either way they might possibly shut up and leave you alone. so being like. ‘i want you to listen to me and respect me, but i have physical and/or mental vulnerabilities that make it harder for me to intimidate you into doing that’ feels like. such a doomed situation. you have less leverage to get ppl to respect you so fighting back is harder, but then when you ask the fake bitches to help your community out they ignore you bc you arent sexee funnee uncringe relatable enough and theyre way too used to the clique mentality to get their own help so they see you as unworthy of their time. so we’re just slowly being left tf behind. now ppl get cancelled and held accountable for the usage of literally every other slur but a celeb could probably use the r word IN their slur apology video and i truly think ppl would literally not even acknowledge it. i think if i said ‘you just used another slur dude’ ppl on twitter would be genuinely confused or fuckign accuse me of ‘’’’‘derailing’’’’’ the situation and bro like. hoh my god the co ncept. the fuckin thought of abled bitches ignoring their privilege bc of their other minority statuses and blatantly standing up for shit (usually in a way that benefits them the most) and then acting CONFUSED when we also request their help bc they are THAT ignorant abt us just makes me see red. especially bc disabled ppl are one of the Largest oppressed ‘minority’ groups, we can overlap with any other fucking minority. we exist in ALL of your communities, we ARE ‘relatable’ to you, we ARE trying to fight, we are struggling and you are leaving us behind.

the r word holds so much fucking weight for us and noooobody is putting a stop to it anymore, i see it literally every single day now without Any backlash, and its EVERYWHERE. more and more boldfaced ableism is casually infiltrating leftist spaces. the systemic abuse and prejudice and violence and dehumanization behind it, this outdated medical term is not just a reminder and a product of its time, the connotations it created and ignorance behind it directly fueled and contributed to the forced imprisonment in asylums, the eugenics, and the oppression we ARE STILL EXPERIENCING TODAY. beyond the fact that yall truly forget america isnt the only place and the entire world has varying levels of how disabled people are legally treated, AMERICA STILL OPENLY OPRESSES THE DISABLED. remember when us gays got marriage rights and we were like ‘dont forget we still have shit to do’? wheelchair ramps and taking service animals on planes and $500 a fucking month to live on aint SHIT compared to what we still go through. WE LITERALLY STILL CANT GET MARRIED WITHOUT LOSING OUR BENEFITS. like. for fucks sake, the LEAST you ‘activists’ could be doing is CONDEMNING THE SLURS USED AGAINST US WITH AS MUCH SPEEDY EFFORT AS YOU PUT INTO CONDEMNING OTHER ONES!

#tw ableism

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crossnecklace · 6 years

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hi hi hi! so i feel like a lot of my most favorite fics dont get talked about much, therefore i wanted to create a proper fic rec masterpost to spread the love!! this is going to be a looooong list, so hopefully theres something for everyone (though i do firmly believe u should read every single one of these before u die)

in no particular order, but a * indicates my absolute faves that i reread monthly:

hats off to my distant hope by navigator (21k) *

Harry is in White Eskimo. Louis is in London.

AU loosely inspired by the song “505” by Arctic Monkeys.

-kicking this off with one of my very favorites. i think my favorite trope is when hl have this angsty “we’re not dating but definitely fucking and also doing everything couples do also i’m irrevocably in love with you why aren’t we dating?” sort of moment. its painful in the sweetest way, and this fic captures that perfectly. there will be quite a few of those on this list, i’ll bet

up the long delirious burning blue by orphan_account (6k)

harry is a swimmer & louis is the writer who somehow manages to make him come up for air.

-this one is quite sad. so poetic and painful and lovely and unf (warning for mentions of suicide and depression, and the ending is quite ambiguous but there is no MCD)

we wreak havoc with out hearts by flimsy (9k)

Harry finds that he can’t keep things separate; neither can Louis.

Harry tousles his hair, smoothes it back, shrugging.

“Alright,” he says. “I’m, you know, outside if you need anything.”

“Yeah,” Louis replies. “Sure.”

He doesn’t look like he’ll be needing Harry, and Harry tells himself that that’s okay. They’ve both got their moods sometimes or maybe the timing isn’t good, and if it’s not then that’s alright as well. Harry can respect that. And it’s not like this is their first tour; Harry knows that Louis will come around. He always does.

-another one of those w that trope i talked about. im gonna call it the RFWB trope (romantic friends w benefits). this one is so hot and good

rather this than live without you by mediaville (10k) *

Harry decides to give it all up. Louis refuses to be left behind.

-RFWB pt. 3. i ADORE this fic. just the setting and the angst and the smut ugh it all has me on the floor

one day to believe in you by mediaville (7k)

A mysterious force compels Louis to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Even when it’s really inconvenient.

Harry blinks and has the nerve to look surprised.

“You think about me when you get off?”

“Yes,” Louis says. He wonders how hard he’d need to punch himself in the face to knock himself out.

“Often?”

“Yes, Christ, Harry,” Louis groans. “Probably eight times a week for going on six years now. On average, you know. More when we were touring, less when I’ve been visiting family. Anything else you’d like to know?”

- :-)))))))

all my love was down in a frozen ground by navigator (16k)

Louis goes to the woods.

AU very loosely inspired by the creation of Bon Iver’s first record.

-i’ll be honest i dont even remember what this fic is about but its in my bookmarks and its by navigator so i know that its good

boys of summer by sharktoothedfawnskinned (49k) *

What he wants is for this to be a forever thing, not someplace Harry spent the summer once. What he wants is for this to be more than a memory.

(New Jersey beach town AU.)

- I SCREAM EVERY TIME READ THIS RIGHT NOW

we should get jerseys by orphan_account (12k) *

There’s a lot surrounding Harry, and Louis knows, in his heart of hearts, that there always will be. He just doesn’t know if he’ll manage to equate into the ‘always’ of it.

(Harry is a hockey player, and Louis is his slightly melodramatic boyfriend.)

- another old favorite!!! pretty much anything that involves harry being good at sports has me on my knees bc it paves way for automatic angst, louis being jealous of a puck/ball/net/what have you, and uhhh various other *athletic* activities

the finish line (is a good place for us to start) by @loaded-gunn (122k)

Louis Tomlinson, one-time Formula 1 World Champion, is looking forward to the 2013 season. He’s got Zayn in his garage and Liam in his ear, he’s got Cowell Racing backing him despite former indiscretions, he’s got experience and the best race car out there. Not to mention he’s the only racer they have, after Oliver dropped out late last year.

It hasn’t occurred to him that Oliver would have to be replaced by February. That is, until he finds himself at a party celebrating Harry Styles leaving Ferrari for Cowell. Harry hotshot Styles, who broke a record last year and is probably looking to make a big splash. Harry Styles, who is talented and somewhat intimidating. Harry Styles, who left Ferrari for reasons unknown and seems kind of lonely and harmless in person. Lonely, harmless, hot as fuck. Whatever.

The first thing Louis does is take him under his wing. From there it’s nine months of slow-burning romance, the past catching up to them, turning into the human puppy pile that is OT5 and a lot of feelings until, of course, reaching the finish line.

-one of the first 1d fics i remember reading. i havent touched it in a long time but it used to be my #1 fave and it has a special place in my heart. so much pining, only not really in a frustrating way bc theres abundant flirting and they kiss in like, the second scene. its basically louis trying to keep his shit together and failing miserably. AND its stuffed with fandom meta which is quite entertaining if youve been here for awhile. anyway give this a read, i truly love it so much

so keep my candle bright by whisperdlullaby (78k) *

louis returns to his hometown after four years to find that the reverend’s son has done some growing up of his own.

-god. the characterization in this one is just gorgeous. the way louis helps harry accept/explore his sexuality is so beautiful and i think about it every day. a must read!!! (warning for homophobia and religious themes)

no one like you by @myownsparknow (20k)

Dear Niall,

I was glad to have the chance to talk with you again at the AHA conference. Your idea that the Musee D’Orsay Tomlinson painting is in fact not a self-portrait is an intriguing one, and I may have discovered something that will have a bearing on that theory.

Some background: as you may remember, I’ve been researching for a book I’m writing about Harry Styles. I’ve been in communication with Styles’ last living descendant, who is in possession of a trunk that her family believed to have belonged to Styles himself. It held some personal items she presumes to be his, including two unmounted paintings and a small collection of letters.

Upon spending the last few days in Provins studying these items, I believe there to be a connection between Tomlinson and Styles, and I would very much like your opinion.

Are you up for a trip to France?

Sincerely, Liam Payne

Where Liam and Niall are art historians discovering the truth about two nineteenth century painters on opposite sides of an artistic divide.

-this is one of the only recent fics on this list bc i like to stew in the past and pretend all my favorite writers havent left the fandom. i read it when it first came out and man oh man, its like poetry. so gorgeously written, and hl’s relationship is so deeply rooted and beautiful. i love

our little corner of the world by brownheadedstranger (30k)

AU. Louis is stuck in his mom’s diner for the summer. Harry is the line cook with a pickup truck.

-so good!! i’d die for americanized fics which doesnt even make sense bc i hate america but. what can u do

i could dream all night by @fondleeds (73k) *

As the sun kisses the horizon, one last flash of light before the stars and the moon take over, his phone will brighten in his grasp, Louis’ name appearing on screen, come over or wanna see you or miss your mouth. Harry always lingers on those messages, elbows bruising on the cool metal of the railing by the lookout, watching the water as he thumbs at the side of his phone, lips bitten into his mouth, trying to will away the bubbling in his stomach, the heat that flushes to his neck at the thought of being thought of.

At the thought of Louis thinking of him.

AU. Harry spends his summer away from the city.

-lordt. where the fuck do i begin. first of all, lysha, if ur reading this, i’d die for u even tho u already killed me with this fic. second, what the fuck???? this is so good??? the imagery is exquisite, everything is so soft and hazy and warm, but just be warned that its a tRick. this fics wraps u in like a warm hug and then stabs u 7 times in the back so be prepared :-))) (warning for ambiguous ending)

another hazy may by deLILAh (41k) *

louis is a terrible poet and harry lives in the now and they have six weeks to fall in love but, really, it only takes six seconds. bookshop meets military meets summer romance au ft. marlboros, the backstreet boys, and underrated literary devices.

-i dnot even wanna talk about it. i swear to god the first time i read this i stayed up all night and cried through literally like the last three quarters of it. its so poetic and gorgeous and now every time i think or hear about the literary present i wanna die so thanks for scarring me forever

like a bastard on the burning sea by vashtaneradas (22k) *

au; harry breaks louis, louis breaks everything.

- listen i know im not supposed to like this but yknow what?? iconic. its absolutely a guilty pleasure and the only cheating fic ill ever give the time of day bc it just hurts so good

take me to the church (series) by @kingsoftheimpossible (14k/6k/4k)

Harry and Louis are Horsemen of the Apocalypse- War and Conquest- but that’s not really important. They just like to fuck things up.

these r freaky but so so good. theres nothin i love more than boyfriends wreaking havoc on..everything. (the main warnings i’d say are for slight gore/violence and blasphemy. other than that i’d read the tags before you dive in)

if you love me, come clean by @victoryjacket (121k) *

AU in which Louis works at a recording studio where Harry’s ‘up and coming’ and ‘exciting’, soon-to-be famous indie band has just signed a deal to record their debut album at, and Louis’ never even heard of them for Christ’s sakes, but that doesn’t stop him from repeatedly catching the eye of the raven-haired, eyeliner-wearing and slightly dangerous-looking frontman (but he’s not interested, he isn’t.)

-everyone read my love’s fic right now. she writes tortured rockstar!harry beautifully and its just so good :-))))) ft. the slowest, sweetest burn

a runaway american dream by dangerbears (15k)

AU. they take route 66 with only each other and their secrets.

-iconic. plus the whole thing is just hl trying and failing to be just bro pals and platonically share a bed

from the love to the lightning by orphan_account (22k) *

“i didn’t realize it would sometimes be more than whole, that the wholeness was a rather luxurious idea. because it’s the halves that halve you in half.”

a like crazy au where harry and louis fall in america, but have to try to make it work when problems arise that force louis to stay in london.

-definitely in my top 10. first things first, the line that fucked me up forever: “Three thousand, four hundred and seventy one. There are 3471 miles and an entire ocean between them, but Harry doesn’t even have to get out of bed to find bone-crushing heartache.” AH. i think this might actually be the only long distance au ive ever read and its angsty as fuck but oh so worth it. like literally idek what to say except read this right now (warning for harry/ofc relationship that is pretty detailed, but i grew kinda fond of her? and anyway its mainly just a plot point to emphasize harrys pining for his tru love,,,,yk who)

we can take the long way home by @eleadore (27k) *

“Fertile,” Louis says, and then laughs because it sounds stupid to say out loud. He hasn’t ever really thought of himself in those terms. Baby-making terms. It’s just one of those things his body can do, like exercise, or go without tea. Doesn’t mean he will.

or, The band takes a break. Harry and Louis come together.

-listen, i REALLY REALLY love this fic. its probably literally my favorite one shot, like, its really just so sweet and hot and its again one of those good ol RFWB tropes. loveeee

red brick heart by hazmesentir (99k) *

Harry has only had his room for thirty-two minutes when it stops being his.

Uni AU. Harry had turned up at the halls of residence expecting fun, new friends, and maybe a life experience or two. What he doesn’t expect is a surprise roommate who’s loud and dramatic and obsessed with tea and is maybe, actually, all he’s ever wanted.

-this is one of the few fandom faves i can get behind. i know its got that early era cliche of commitment phobe!louis but i really love hl’s relationship in this, and how harry comes to terms w his sexuality via making out w louis tomlinson like 500 times. plus the scene in the club where louis, uh, helps harry out just…GETS me, yknow?

some things take root by navigator/quitter (50k) *

AU. Louis’ ex doesn’t get jealous of anyone besides Harry. Harry helps Louis use that to his advantage.

-pleasepleplalspelplseease. literally navigator can end me. this is THE fake relationship au yall, like, any fanart of hl making out near a bar gives me flashbacks to this fic. read it

keep yourself warm by navigator (20k)

AU. Harry sleeps around.

-this fic is really nice and oddly comforting, like, i just love the pining and the angst. its so !!!!

with love comes strange currencies by mediaville (16k) *

One day One Direction will be over and Louis won’t be around Harry every waking moment. He’ll be able to finally get some space, let their bond dissipate as it’s bound to do, if they don’t mess up again. He can move to Costa Rica and forget that Harry Styles popped his first knot inside him. Until then, he’s going to have to deal with this.

or, They’re Accidentally Mated and Dealing With It Rather Badly.

-i con ic. listen, i have nothing against abo but im just .. not rly into it. however, THIS is the first abo fic i read and the only one i ever loved. like just the whole accidental mating and how it draws them to each other even tho its quite inconvenient, and how h takes cares of l when hes sick, i just..gotta go

covered in lines (series) by mentalistecbm (24k)

He likes to imagine that he’s always aware of Harry’s eyes on him, but the spark that flashes across his body at how often Harry licks his lips while looking at his throat doesn’t feel like something he’s explicitly and consciously acknowledged before, but it feels familiar. Usual. Right.

(Louis is human, and Harry is lucky enough to be his vampire boyfriend.)

-noah fence but this is,,,, essentially twilight in au form, minus love triangles and werewolves. actually its completely different lmao, who am i, but the overall atmosphere and the vampire dynamics rly reminded me of it. i mean it in the best way!!! its so good, and anything involving dr*nking has me on the floor

weird honey by orphan_account (5k)

~staying up all night, talking blasphemous ash, weird honey~

(PWP where Harry is not 100% at home in his body and he and Louis use a sex toy to help work through the problem)

-this fic is soft and nice and makes me feel warm inside so highly recommend

who painted the moon black by throughthedark (95k) *

“People died,” Harry whispers so quietly Louis strains to hear. “People died, and I killed some of them. How does life just go on after something like that?”

Louis shakes his head. “I don’t know. It just does.”

Hunger Games AU where Louis Tomlinson is district six’s victor from the 69th Hunger Games and Harry Styles is district seven’s victor from the 72nd Hunger Games.

-listen. i do NOT want to talk about it. (ps harry throwing axes on the bbc literally took me out by the knees bc of this fic)

one more for the stars by imsosorry (16k)

It’s different, and Louis knows that, because Harry’s got so much riding on this - a career and a future and his whole life. There’s talk of him going first overall in the draft, of entering the NFL after only two years in college, of going to New York or Seattle or Green Bay, and Louis wants to be there for him, wants to support him and help him make decisions, but he also kind of wants to pin him to the bed and cry and scream, What about me what about me what about me?

(au. Harry’s the star quarterback and Louis is about to graduate. It’s a heartbreak waiting to happen.)

-i think i mentioned before that sports au have me on the floor and this is no excpetion

you and me were kings by ithacas (28k) *

harry plays football in a small town in west texas. louis might be the only person that doesn’t give a damn. au.

-another football au, this one with the added beauty of being set in southern us. im such a sucker for southern aus, mannnn, and this one is so soft and beautiful

hold onto your stars by vashtaneradas (16k) *

au; harry’s in the army, louis’ back home, and ninety days is a lifetime.

-are u srs????? this is another hazy may except…….Worse. like, im still working out the science of it but im pretty sure this killed me and brought me back to life just so i could suffer the pain of it forever. (nobody dies tho)

makes perfect by checkthemargins (8k)

“What if you practiced on like, a mannequin?” Louis presses. “Or one of those blow up sex dolls? Or even just like, I don’t know, a pillow or something. Whatever it’d fit around.”

Harry tilts his head thoughtfully, curls catching the light so entrancingly that Louis finds himself reaching up to push his fingers through them. “It’s different, though, innit? When it’s a real person. A pillow won’t snog me.”

“Why should it?” says Louis. “You can’t even take its bra off.”

hmmmm. hmmmmmmmm. im jus gonna leave this here,,,,,,,,,

all the diamonds you have here by vashtaneradas (21k)

it hits louis now, how fucking close to the precipice they’re standing.

or, an au feat. investment banking and children.

-its #confirmed that anything by vashtaneradas is guaranteed to be painful as hell. who said there cant be soul crushing angst in marriage/kid fics too !

wild and unruly by @100percentsassy/gloria_andrews (123k) *

Harry is a cowboy sitting on the biggest oil reservoir in Wyoming, and Louis is the paralegal assigned to pressure him into selling his land.

-ending this with a classic. i trust that everyone has read this masterpiece already and that i dont have to say anything about it other than w o w

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tis all for now! happy reading and pleaseee feel free to yell @ me about these fics if you liked them as much as i did!!

#this TRULY took me for fucking ever lmao #pls ignore my sorry attempt at a banner #anyway pls read all of these i love them so much #im so picky about fics so theyre all amazing its confirmed #fic rec #fics #hl #larry fic #my fic rec

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EPISODE EIGHT

“I'd say now more than ever it is evidently clear that there is two very prominent sides of the house.” - jev

HOH: Joshua UPSIDE DOWN: Nathan NOMINEES: Brianna & Jacob POV: Jev FINAL NOMINEES: Brianna & Jacob EVICTED: Jacob (5-0)

JEV

So Josh is gone and I'd say now more than ever it is evidently clear that there is two very prominent sides of the house. The first being myself, Emma, Kiki & Joshua with the other side being Nathan, Brianna, Jacob and Joey with Aria sitting very comfortably in the middle. How much further I make it in this game completely depends on who wins these next couple of HOHs, if our side wins we need to be strategic and send one of their side to the upside down to chop their numbers as much as possible so we have majority for the vote. Ideally I want to see Brianna and Jacob split up but I'm not sure how realistic that is, Nathan definitely needs to leave ASAP too.

ARIA

heyooooo!!! new week new strats!!! Ive honestly been kinda slacking recently so im not gonna do my usual bullet point thing but i do want to talk about last week's plans and then this week as well so!! lets get into it!!

So nathan wins hoh woot woot! thank god tbh bc my hiding vote shenanigans failed (honestly the attempt itself is embarrassing LMAO)but with nathan winning hoh i knew i had a week to reintegrate myself into the house after the shitshow called live night. So from there its clear that its 5 v 5 ALTHOUGH nathan almost nommed bri/jacob bc apparently they talked shit or something so that was really stressful- speaking of i need to talk with nathan more oopsie whoopsie- I think that its likely he could lean more towards joshua/kiki/jev side this week due to the sc he was given but who knows.

So wabam nathan makes his noms and im thinking,,,yknow having these sides are kinda cute and it wouldnt benefit me to have someone like josh c in this game whos playing the middle and honestly is in the same position as i am (theres not enough room for the two of us>:((( ) So i then turned my sights on josh c to eliminate first by turning jacob into the fact "heyyyy, josh c is super smart and playing the middle we should wabam him" and then he spreads that idea and when joshua wins veto it was like the stars aligned!!! From there it was kinda a done deal and i think he hates me now esp bc i sent a REALLY bad gbm but its fine!!!! Everything is fine!!!!!!!!!!!

But okay this week!! So coming into this week the "other side" won hoh (thank GOD or this wouldve been an ugly steamroll) and my goal this week is for Jacob to go, i think jacob has been a star player so far and super smart with his moves, hes close to all my allies and just a threat to win esppp compared to the other three potential people who could leave

1.Nathan- half the people in this game hate him, he might be a good f2 option bc maybe the jury will be more bitter at him than they will be w/ me uwu

2. Bri- she has my HEART!!!! Also she isnt super social with other people and i would love to have a f2 with her oh my GOD

3.Joey- apparently we're a duo and idk what hes done in this game so wabam easy peasy f2 pls and thank (thats a joke pls dont hate me)

^^^ my reasoning in no particular order

okay thats it kat is bullying me

JEV

I'm so happy Joshua has won the HOH for the third time consecutively that he's been eligible :sob: It means we can slim down the other sides numbers again and make it 4v3 with Aria in the middle, which I'm pretty sure is how I think everyone sits in the house at the moment. Preferably I'd like to see Nathan or Jacob leave this week, but also wouldn't be mad to see Brianna leave, I just need to make sure Joshua sends one of their side to the upside down to ensure we have the majority of the votes.

EMMA

https://youtu.be/a_-i4sIcDGI

ARIA

hi daily reminder Bri has my ENTIRE heart shes so fucking sweet and joshua also had my heart hes so fun and sweet to talk with they both deserve the WORLD!! I see any bri or joshua slander i WILL be throwing hands <3

JEV

Also let it be known that even though I haven't listed Aria in who I would like to see leave, I don't trust her as far as I can throw her. I know she's playing or at least thinks she's playing everyone like a fiddle but I see right through her. I know she's for sure good with 90% of the people left in the game and that doesn't sit right with me, so she will be dealt with. But right now I need to ensure Joshua stays focused and takes out people who have the comp wins to back up their social games.

HOST WEEKLY CAST ASSESSMENT

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e1BBeyRUKg4&list=PLFEwPPy8j010XXwntq80VSU0qLNTNpSIN&index=9&t=0s

#bbnetflix st

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jess-oh · 6 years

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Reflection

I’ve been so busy.

but before i forget, i think it’s really interesting how quickly i am able to adapt to the new culture. I just got back from an ASO meeting and it was really nice to see everyone and they all exclaimed, “Jessica!” happy to see me and it was honestly such a great feeling. And we ate brownies, played games, and overall, it was really fun! But we did briefly discuss religion when someone commented on In-n-Out’s John 3:16 verse, I wasn’t quick to jump and say that I’m actually super religious and want to live out 1 Peter 3:14-17. I did think about it but I was afraid that the conversation would abruptly end and then it would just be awkward and I didn’t want to ruin what we had going. But it was really fun and I’m glad that I got let out of class so early today and was able to share that time with them. I’m actually so surprised because I’ve been nonstop busy for the past couple days but now I actually feel like I have time to rest and work on my portfolio. I have a quiz for Oceanography tomorrow and I need to work on my branding for Self Management and Freelancing but I’m fairly confident that I can finish both before midnight tonight. And that’s so weird. I’m not sure when the last time I posted was so let me backtrack. Oh wait, I do remember. It was Sunday. Okay, so I only missed one day. I was up until around 4 or 5am Sunday night just working so hard on my graphic design pictographs and my critique actually went really well. Jilly did target me for a moment but I quickly regaine my composure and went forward with what I had. And while she did give me some advice, I’m starting to discover who she is and what her teaching style is like. She really is extremely specific and if you don’t have it like how she wants it, then you’re screwed. I’m most worried for Andrew bc he’s so unorthodox but she seemed like his things so far. But I do appreciate her critique and I am excited to move forward with it. Step 1 included having all the categories and titles figured out plus drawing. Now that it’s just drawing, I feel a lot better about it and I am hoping to work on it before Sunday since I know I’m going to be crazy busy Friday and Saturday.

Oh, I was also late to work this morning and yesterday morning :’( But the techs were pretty considerate about it. They’re probably taking pity on me bc they know about the funeral and I’m doing my best not to bring it up because I don’t want to play the pity card. I don’t want to be pitied. It’s so cheap. I felt pity from others on Sunday and I know that they’re just trying to be there for me but it feels so routine and informal. And I know I have a past of bragging about my own hardships but I really want to strive to avoid that. I want to really genuinely care about others now and only bring up my side of the story when necessary. I do want to become a better person. I do. I definitely slipped today and yesterday just bc I was so tired but I do really want to live out my life for Christ.

Quick thing that bothered me but I’m growing to realize how much I dislike gossip. I waited for Sara after class yesterday and once she got her stuff together, she just started going off on Jilly. And I did expect some complaining but she was just going ham bc she was so angry and frustrated and it was interesting bc that sounded like a high schooler to me. I’m honestly just so blessed that I have the opportunity to go here and I’m just thankful for that. And of course, it won’t always be a smooth ride but I want to make the most of my time here, yknow? But Sarah. a 29 year old who chose to back to school, was just so upset at her and I was kind of taken aback. I tried to join in but it honestly just felt awkward and out of place. And Jilly walked by a few times and I’m pretty sure she overheard us. And once we were going to go down, we ran into our old graphic design teacher, Sarah Faust, and Sara immediately dipped and opted for the stairs instead. I just kind of assumed that she went down all the way by herself but we met up on the elevator on the 4th floor. I was pretty surprised. But we were just chill about it and then part ways once we hit outside.

Then, I grabbed a meal from Subway and ate that for dinner because I hadn’t eaten all day and tried my best to scarf that down as fast as I could because Emily and I needed to go check out the apartments. So we the 2 bus and went and I texted Ashlie that we’d be half an hour later and she was fine with it. But then we got there, looked around, and I already had my heart set on the Cornell apartment but the others were really nice to look at. And probably because it was so cold and we were tired after a long day and had seen the nicer apartments first, Cornell was pretty disappointing. I was moreso in love with the location and the price than the actual building but it really was a huge step down. I’m going to do some more research and calculate all the expenses and where everything is in proximity with grocery stores and that kind of stuff but we’ll see. At this rate, because I got Andrew N.’s advice too, it doesn’t look like we’ll be going with Cornell. I know Emily is in love with Cottage Grove and while it is nice, I don’t think it’s nice enough in comparison with the Drexel apartment. It’s only a $20 difference for each of us and I feel like we may as well go with the more expensive one in that case and reap more benefits.

But onto today, I went to work and napped during my break in between classes. I was supposed to work on my homework and get a bunch of stuff done but I ended up passing out and honestly, that was probably for the best. I was so tired and felt like passing out all day at work. But I responded to 6 posts while at work and then I was just gonna go home, do my reflection, and continue my apartment research. Unfortunately, I didn’t get to either. Kind of. I had about half an hour before class and had the choice of either showering or doing my reflection and risk losing points in the class. I did the reflection. It took 20 minutes to watch but it was actually really interesting and I think I wrote a pretty good response. Class was fun too and I got a lot of good thoughts in. I lowkey bullshitted my IA assignment last night so I didn’t wan to present today but after reading other comments, I was feeling a lot better about it and felt ready to go. And while I didn’t get that chance, I was definitely read to present. And it was just nice because whenever I participated and knew all eyes were on me, I felt at ease and calm and collected. It was great. And plus, I did get to shower before class. I rushed but I did it and I felt so much better after.

Walking home with some people with ASO was interesting. We started off really strong but eventually our conversation died down. And Mulan was really shitting on her friends about how they don’t get anything done and I tried to defend them by talking about what Janae had been doing but she seemed stubborn and I haven’t served with them so I don’t know but there’s definitely some miscommunication going on here. Someone isn’t telling someone else that they’re upset. Or maybe neither of them are talking. Who knows. After hearing about what Mulan has had to go through, I’m a bit more understanding now but seeing her lash out at our friends... it still saddens me.

And now I’m here. I’ve been typing for about half an hour and because I realized I need to do pre-work for graphic design soon, I’m worried that I actually won’t be sleeping at midnight today. But I did also promise Mulan that I would workout with her tomorrow morning at 7am so I kind of have to but we’ll see. I don’t mind if I stay up late again on Sunday night but especially since we’ll be debriefing too, I am worried. I should try to get as much of it done as I can beforehand. And I still need to work on my typography homework too. I was saving that for tomorrow but if I can do it today, I may as well. I’m just hoping that everything calms down soon. I know I’ve only been so busy bc I’ve had blocks in my schedule of going home or meeting up with people that I haven’t had as much free time as I’d like. And while I am happy that I’m taking the time to meet up with more people and really invest into them and make the most out of life, I am starting to see how thinly I am stretching myself and it is worrying. I don’t want to half ass anything but I also don’t want to be left feeling so empty and stressed out again. It’s all about balance and I think I’ve just been too aggressive. But I do think everything will start to calm down starting next week so I’m excited. I just have to push through for now.

#reflection

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