#jrnl

[gastromancer]

miku binder thomas jefferson (slavetrader pirate remix)

#anti ofmd #anti our flag means death #praying it doesn’t get renewed! #the ofmd fandom is like a master class case study in liberal queer braindecay #jrnl

[kimhortons]

6th of april. nag eenjoy ako mag google sheet, kuha ko na yung pivot table, madali lang naman din kapain. yung mga formula lang talaga nagpapa kumplikado nito e, waw yabang haha. nung high school kasi di ako nakikinig sa teacher ko nung sa subject namin na computer e. haha tsaka basics lang din naman tinuro nun.

feeling ko yung iba pang kumplikado dito, madalas ituro sa mga accounting students haha. naalala ko kasi nung nasa isarog pa ako, kapag nag reremit kami at gumagawa ng report lalo na pag nasa main office ka, yung trabaho dapat ng accounting samin na binibigay haha. naalala ko yung isang chart dun, parang pivot table tsaka bawal galawin. siningit ko lang yung gsheet ko for context haha.

anyway, nagawa ko naman ang agenda for today, maliban sa pagpapa full body massage. di na kasi abot ng oras, baka mabugnot naman yung isa kapag siningit ko pa haha. nakapag pa trim ako ng buhok, medyo hindi ko lang bet masyado yung nag handle sakin, hindi niya nakuha yung gupit, sabi ko kasi bawasan lang pero halos nag pantay na yung sa harap at likod, pahaba kasi dapat yun sa harap. wala kasi yung nag gupit nito nung una e.

nagpa removal lang din ako ng gel polish, tapos pina regular ko nalang muna. balak ko talaga gel polish parin sana kaso nalimutan ko mag withdraw, e cash lang tinatanggap nila dun sa pinapagawan ko. nakakatuwa lang din kasi kilala narin nila ako, tapos yung gumawa sakin, apat na beses na balik ko na dun siya yung nasasakto lagi saken. siguro siya nalng hahanapin ko talaga tuwing pupunta ako dun. haha.

after ko magpa nails, sakto naman na dumating na si J. tapos kumain kami sa inasal, never pa kasi kami kumain dun simula ng naging kami haha. tsaka di rin kasi ako gaano mahilig sa inasal, pero parang nag crave kasi ako sa ihaw kanina kaya nag decide kami na dun nalang.

pagkatapos kumain, nag grocery na rin kami para di na kami ulit pupunta ng Legazpi bukas. kulang kulang naman kasi sa sentro, sa palengke nalang yung iba na wala. medyo lagpas sa budget ko yung pinamili namin ngayon sa grocery, di ko sure kung mas marami lang ba talaga kaming nabili ngayon kumpara sa usual na nabibili namin sa LCC, or mas mahal talaga sa SM. yung LCC kasi dito yung parang puregold e, though meron naman puregold dito, pero medyo malayo kasi kaya madalas sa Ayala - LCC lang kami or sa SM.

#jrnl

[cmacaulays]

i know it’s an irish thing but i’m absolutely obsessed with the little “c’mere to me” in anything but & first time. the intimacy of it. come here to me. come here . to me .

#hozier #unreal unearth #jrnl

[hagatek]

i dont like when grown ass women call themselves tomboys i dont know i dont like it. dont make me explain. especially if theyre aligned with "edgier" people

#jrnl #im gnc dont have a shartfest at me

[highpriestess]

I start moving into my new place tomorrow and I’m excited

#jrnl #maybe this will calm the restlessness for like half a second lol

[apricotluvr]

One of the best things I did this year was find my style of journaling. It’s a mix of junk journaling / diary / bullet journal (temporary bc I have bought an actual planner for 2024). I obv write personal things so I cant show that many pages but here are a random few. Bottom left pic is the fruit stickers collection and it’s so fun!

#jrnl

[crstnjnblr]

Finally finished The Courage To Be Disliked. I must confess there were moments of frustration and grappling with the ideas and literally tossing the book away lol. Welp, it really challenged my mind's framework but coming into the last chapters, the pieces finally fell into place.

"The life that ends at the age of twenty and the life that ends at ninety are both complete lives, and lives of happiness." This is my nth self help book since my mom died. Idk, perhaps I'm looking for an affirmation or something about her life, her death, or just human life in general. And this felt like it. Every time people talk about my mom, most of the time, it goes about how untimely it was. And even within my own family, I would constantly hear my brother say "sayang, hindi ko man lang naparamdam kay mama 'to *insert typical milestone*"... I know (and it also awfully pains me tbh) that she died without experiencing a lot of things. She didn't get to see my brother finish law school, didn't get to see me in my Sablay on a stage, didn't get to see another country, didn't get to see us married or have grandchildren, etc. I totally get the guilt and regret, but there's also a strong internal debate that it isn't right to feel that her life went about just like that because she missed some "core memories." I know deep in my heart that she lived earnestly and the people saying "sayang kasi hindi *ganito*, hindi *ganyan*" - we are all wrong. She's the kind of person who actually lived the series of moments of her life (that's why she's such a sunshine even if she's just playing candy crush or watching K-drama) and that is enough. Her life wasn't unfulfilled just because she didn't get to see these milestones set by others and arrived at their expectations.

She danced and her dance ended at fifty-eight. It is a complete, fulfilled life, a life of happiness.

#jrnl #dear paeng #the courage to be disliked #adlerian psychology

[melonch4m]

Blog #3

Having an ED is stupid. This blog is stupid.

I'm 90% sure I'm going to delete this thing. I keep seeing all these posts about how wonderful it will be to be skinny from people who aren't in the danger zone yet. Or people who are young and haven't ruined their lives with their EDs. It makes me so mad.

It makes me madder to think I'm relapsing back into it too! As if being #Skinni was ever worth the look on my mother's face as she saw me dying before her eyes. This is so dumb! The tumblr culture is so dumb! Everyone saying they're "pro-recovery" is just dropping lip-service. You're all mean people.

Ugh. I'll see what I'm gonna do here.

#jrnl #eed tw

[rainbowcadillac]

can ppl stop reblogging my corny psa posts i made when i was 14 😭 this shit is so embarrassing

#jrnl

[yourenext]

man i feel plagued with sadness. i probably should be happy

#jrnl

[sleeterkinney]

if i look too hard at pictures of myself from a couple years ago my heart hurts a little cause ive gotten so sick since then and my body just doesn’t look half as happy or healthy. I don’t take pictures of myself anymore really

#im trying to get back to that. but i lost a lot over the course of a very short while and the stress wants my body to shut down. ugh #jrnl

[gastromancer]

found this old tweet that i screenshotted back in sept last year lol

#fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf movie #josh hutcherson #cleaning out junk photos and found this. ha. #jrnl

[kimhortons]

life recently.

there's a new coffee kiosk sa baba ng office namin that is very affordable yet super worth it naman sa price niyang 49-65 pesos. haven't tried ng standard na timpla nila, but judging by the looks of it kasi, mukhang matamis and goods naman if nag pa-add ng 1 shot ng coffee. mas worth it pa 'to kesa dun sa katapat na coffee shop na halos pang starbucks na yung presyo, but hindi naman masarap yung coffee. estetik lang e. haha

we had a photoshoot sa office, for business profile, 201 file and for social media use kineme. natawa ko kasi nung in-upload ko 'to sa stories ko, yung mga dati kong kawork akala'y manager na ako hahaha. sinasakyan nalang namin ni J mga nag cocomment, minsan sakanya pa namemention "nasa magandang kalagayan na yun" little did they know, e di naman din ganun kaperfect sa bago kong workplace haha. shrug off nalang. hehe

last friday, i went to the doctor. naalala ko sa isang post na shinare ko sa Facebook, yung video na may caption na; "in the phase where doing everything alone still feels painful but also helpful." naalala ko kasi kako, isa sa pinakatatakutan kong gawin mag isa dati, ay yung mag punta ng mag isa sa doctor. lagi ko kasing kasama noon si mommy or si lola. ngayon kaya ko na mag pa check up mag isa. though I'd still prefer na may kasama especially si J, for support lang if ever, (wag naman) may hindi magandang result.

so ayun nga, after i went to the doctor, dumeretcho ako sa SM para mag lunch and hintayin si J. medyo na ti-teary eyed ako nun habang kumakain mag isa at katext si J, kasi sabi ng doctor, baka nagreactivate yung sakit ko dati at kinailangan kong magpa chest CT scan para makita talaga kung anong meron since wala akong dalang records ng xray ko noon for comparison. covered naman siya ng medicard, kaso cash basis daw sila sa ospital at pwede naman daw mapa reimburse yun ng company. kaso parang ang hassle, 6-7k pa naman yun baka mamaya mahirapan pa akong magpa reimburse. kaya medyo nag woworry din ako. pero sana hindi na bumalik.

while waiting, i went to nails glow to have my gel nails. si rea na yung nirequest ko since siya na lagi yung nakakagawa ng sets ko. and okay yung lagay niya kasi tumatagal talaga. dun narin ako naabutan ni J pag dating niya, tumambay nalang siya sa loob habang ako naman yung hinihintay niya.

after getting my nails done, kumain kami sa Shakeys, and tried their mix and match since kami ay medyo tipid but also want to try other restaurant. and since na-try na namin 'to, sure akong hindi na kami babalik haha. hindi ko talaga bet yung chicken nila, wala na ako gaanong panlasa pero naaalatan parin ako sobra. yung spaghetti rin nila, hindi ganun kasarap. mas okay pa yung combo ng greenwich. sulit na sulit sa spag palang. haha hater.

we were supposed to go on a swimming sana nung saturday na kaming dalawa lang, kaya nga kami nag leave both sa work, last last week pa namin 'to napag usapan e, but since kinailangan ko na naman gumastos sa gamot, hindi na nga natuloy umuwi ng manila, hindi pa 'to natuloy. so maghapon lang kami nasa bahay over the weekend. nanungkit lang siya ng mangga, then nag linis ng kwarto. kanina nag laba naman. inayos ko rin yung dati kong work desk dito na ngayon ay lagayan ko na ng mga pabango haha.

bumalik narin siya ng naga kanina, naiyak ako nung paalis siya kasi namimiss ko agad siya, lalo pag ganitong may nararamdaman ako, sobra niya kasi akong alagaan, pag nagigising ako sa gabi, gumigising din siya, pag nag brobrownout, di niya ako tinitigilan paypayan at pinapauna ako pabalikin sa pag tulog. taga kuha ng tubig, taga hain pag kakain na. hindi ko na siya kailangan sabihan kasi nag kukusa siya kapag alam niyang masama pakiramdam ko. lalo ko siyang minamahal sa kung paano niya ako alagaan, hay lord.

#jrnl

[cmacaulays]

tamino, new york city

#tamino #going through my concert videos & photos again #bc i miss it and am going insane without them #jrnl

[hagatek]

dont mean this is an anachan coquette whisper why but why tf is vodka so many calories

#jrnl

[highpriestess]

i decided that i wont be sad on my birthday anymore and it's working

#i let go of the ego idea of birthday and now it's just a nice day for me to do nice things and not pressure myself about anything else #jrnl