#jesus what am i even talking about again

[mattodore]

"I don’t actually think Theo has any offensive preferences, because he’s not really a fighter. That human instinct to fight back was trained out of him very young… so."

#cw abuse mention #cw child abuse mention #<- mentioned in the tags. i'm adding these cws bc i talk bluntly abt this in the tags so definitely don't look if it's triggering... #river dipping #questionnaire lb #AND FUCK YOU ACTUALLY ! #BANGING MY HEADI NTO A WALL................ THIS IS ONLY QUESTION 71.......................................... #I JUST . GRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #feeling sick already lord why am i doing this actually.......... #i feel so insane but it's like. theo just can't let himself fight back. he can't do it. #it's like...... it's not even about ''i can't do this it'll just make it worse'' to him. like that was how his brain processed it as a kid #like that's what he was taught then. but now as an adult it's about him feeling like he deserves it... like it's his fault. #i think he needs that sense of... control? as well. like if he's being hurt well. he should've prevented it beforehand. #obviously this is only happening because he did something to cause it and it'll stop if he just doesn't do that thing again. #if it's just. if it's not his fault then that makes him feel helpless. if he couldn't stop it - if it was always going to happen regardless #of what he did - then. jesus. like it just fucks with his head even thinking that. it petrifies him. #it's safer in his head to think okay. obviously i've created this situation somehow so i had that control over it and now i can prevent it. #but jesus theo............... you can't. #and then theo does these things almost... almost to prove that. to prove that he's always been in control of his own abuse. #where he uses and then he finds these hook-ups that aren't safe for him or these sketchy ppl and he shoots off at the mouth and. then. #when he gets hurt it's like. he feels vindicated. i caused this. this is my fault. it's always been my fault. #his recklessness is entirely because he just wants to prove it. he just wants to have that. it's... christ. #it's the only thing he feels like he has control over in his life. the violence he faces... it's his. in that way. #and it's one of the only aspects of his life he doesn't feel helpless in. not anymore. not since he was a teenager. #god. #and when he does finally let it out at one point. when he does finally fight back again. it just...... #it tears him up inside. it's one of the parts of the story i'm the most horrified about having to write #just because i know what it does to him. and how it all just spins out of control after. like it ruins everything for him. #christ. #what else is there to say.

[moki-dokie]

how to make 19 year old boy who came of age during the pandemic and never had a real real job before now realize he needs to Chill The Fuck Out and be Less eagar about working for free holy shit he is impossible to wrangle

#moki talks #hi i got dumped with a shitload of new responsibilities at work #one of which includes trying to teach a Virgin Employee how work life.. works #today i got asked a mindfuckery question that made me go #oh oh no he doesn't even know basic labor laws must get him sat down with hr like yesterday #do you wanna know what the question was #'so if you work more than 8 hours are you like required to take a lunch??' #CHILD PLEASE #i have told him no less than SIX times now to STOP. WORKING. OFF. THE. CLOCK. jesus christ #it is a CHALLENGE when this is all in a remote environment #sigh. i am not cut out for teaching kids #lawd i am trying tho #i guess in his defense there aren't labor law posters plastered everywhere to read during breaks/downtime #as there are in the typical workplace environment #idk man he's a good kid very smart tons of initiative but i have a feeling this aint the job for him #which really sucks cause its basically his dream job but #bruh i need you to get like 3-6 months minimum of real people customer service job skills #smh i am flabbergasted he asked me about the break policy he has 0 concept of the severity of labor laws #like no wonder states are pushing for child labor again NO ONE IS EDUCATING THESE KIDS ABOUT THEIR RIGHTS. FUCK.

[possibly-eli]

once again posting a reminder (very gently, when you consider how fucking frustrated i am) that i am anti-kff! there are otherkin terms that people can use and, instead of educating themselves on this, they actively CHOOSE to belittle and bully otherkin folks, all while being a teensy tiny little bit ableist in how they go about it. its not a "erm these people are just minding their business and they're ALSO kin anyway" NO they are NOT. they are, by very fucking definition, either 'hearted or 'link (IF their connection is genuine ANYWAYS). that is NOT. KIN. and its kinda fucking telling if you think a community whose entire existence hinges on deliberate ignorance and harassment of a group is equal to the group theyre harassing and bastardising the terms and experiences of

#am i making ANY FUCKING SENSE #i swear to GOD #"dni antikin (this includes anti-kff) no the FUCK it does NOT #because kff ISNT. KIN #JESUS FUCKING! CHRIST!!! #kff “kins” are LINKTYPES and HEARTTYPES most often (again. if theyre not just being hashtag quirky on the internet) #also please please fuck off if you use the word “k/nn/e” i dont even care if you arent kff just. please go away #im stressed as balls man i dont like having to think about shit that stresses me out and annoys me but here i am! thinking about it! #this isnt directed at anyone btw i just keep seeing “omg this character is one of my biggest kins (kff)” and im so fucking tired of it #its mainly on tiktok anyways so im kinda shouting at air but fuck off #and like even when i see other ACTUAL otherkin/nonhuman/alterhuman folks say “oh yeah i 'kin' this character for fun” #it makes me so aggressively uncomfortable cause just. use 'link' man #use 'click' or 'heart' #stop Doing That cause thats not a fucking kintype and you are contributing to the problem (though minorly compared to other stuff) #theres also this one server wherein people would act and talk about their hearttypes as if they were kintypes despite outright saying - #- THEMSELVES “oh yeah this is a hearttype” #do you know what a fucking hearttype is? #are you stupid?

[gideonisms]

to the many people who saw my router modem griddlehark yesterday and said "yes you are crazy," you will be happy to note that I spoke to multiple people in person today and it DID make me less insane, unfortunately

To the people who said "abi, you're absolutely right," I am baking you bread. It's not MY locked tomb brain rot it's OUR locked tomb brain rot

To the one person whose only comment was that my modem and router should be farther away from each other, I'm obsessed with you. However I can't separate them! That's griddlehark

#i'm lying i put them a little bit more distant #okay actually. i'm lying again i didn't but it's because i forgot and as soon as i get up off this couch i will (truth) #anyway you know what i think? i think failing to adequately interact with people irl should have no mental consequences #i think god (hypothetical) should give that to me for free #i should not be struggling to eat and do basic chores then participate in a class discussion and come home eat lunch and write 2k words #that shouldn't be how that works #i shouldn't feel better after spending time with family. you know that's the thing i have complex emotions about! #you know i am struggling to decide how involved i want them to be in my life and it does not help that every time i go home i'm like #this is great! this isn't that bad! why did i move? we get along so well my brain says it's happier the jesus thing isn't even that big a-- #no that is the devil talking!!! #that is the devil talking

[doctorweebmd]

look i think the thing people forget is that My Hero Academia is not a typical shounen. Its purposeful. Its well written. Horikoshi does not DO throw away plot-lines. He doesn't ignore plot holes. Over the past 10 years he has proven, time and time and TIME again that this is an incredibly thought out, narrative-driven brilliant story that has taken popular tropes and preconceptions and turned them on their head.

Have a little faith.

#imagine you're in a horikoshi dick-riding competition and you're up against me #but seriously. with the most recent few chapters i'm continuing to be in AWE of what he's revealing and how he's executing it #so many shounens are like: i'm gonna put my guy in a situation! #haha now i'll put him in another situation! forget about what happened in the last arc that don't matter #the ONLY other shounen i can think of that stands anywhere near this in terms of writing is FMA #look ok drag me over the coals i DO NOT CARE #its truly the king series of 'not original idea but fucking stellar execution' #look and i'm not even gonna TALK about the art (jesus fucking christ. horikoshi.) #or the character creation (how did you make us give a shit about a 30+-character ensemble cast? people here are starting WARS over them) #or the WORLD BUILDING THAT IS SO SUBTLE BUT SO POWERFUL #rewatching season 6 (again) in preparation for season 7 #and obviously. i am biased. but. dude. #i trust horikoshi with my life #whatever choice he makes on how to end this is right #because LOOK at what he's built over the past 10 years #...dont worry about the posts i just worked 3 night shifts in a row on an amount of sleep some might call #uhhhh. bad #so. don't worry about it. its the delirium #i love you my hero academia

[hauntingblue]

MARIKO OUT-DIVA'D EVERYONE ON THE ROOM!!!!

#by using her ancestry no less... slay #yabushige is so funny... i love his manerisms #oh my god #threatening sepukku as a weapon omg..... girl.... #star crossed lovers omg....... mariko was my happiness...... girl..... #the hand again.... bi mariko i see you..... #oh my god oh jesus.... hes gonna finish her... and his husband is not there even 😭😭 #the hand AGAIN #girl your son is there.... do not make another one look what happened with mizu blue eye samurai #i wrote this before he entered her room i SWEAR #i have been prophecycing this show a little so this actually might become a thing. maybe the slay brother will die too who knows #what i also know is that yabushige is dying at the hands of this man. new person and away from a party.... nothing good can happen #OH NEVERMIND THE OTHER WAY AROUND AKDJSKSNSL YES GO OFF!!! HE IS IMMORTAL!! HIS SWAG TOO GREAT HIS DECEITFUL WAYS TOO HARD #NINJAS NINJAS NINJAS #what did i say. having people on the inside will make their operation work. what did i say. my brain huge my meat massive etc #sorry got carried away #why are they fighting them omg.... they are toranagas men right..... or did yabushige betray them.... oh god i was wrong #MARIKOOOOOOOOOO #oh i am slow. thats what ishido asked for in return. oh god #talking tag #NOT liveposting shogun #hehe.... alas..... #watching shogun #i am seeing that when i talk about someone on the post i then write tags about them dying. apollo stop this madness

[o-wyrmlight]

Fun fact: If you don't call somebody by their preferred pronouns even when someone else repeatedly attempts to correct you about it, and then proceed to excuse it by saying 'I don't feel comfortable calling (him) a he' before laughing about how the person doesn't look like their preferred pronouns to you, you're probably transphobic.

#'I don't feel comfortable substituting one word in my catalogue for this other word for this person's comfort' #yeah and i don't think that the person you're referring to feels very comfortable when he's being misgendered all the time #jesus #'hey you should respect his pronouns' 'but i feel uncomfortable' #'shut the fuck up and get back to work. find something to do. don't even fucking talk to me' #'oh what are you going to cry about it?' #no but i am NOT going to speak to you again #fucking hell #same guy when i first corrected him last week and told him that the person in question is a trans guy #first words he said was 'wait a real one? an actual trans person? what's in (his) pants? how does the trans thing work?' #not your fucking business and not my job to explain it to you and trans people are not like wild animals #'oh a real one? an actual one?' why you sounding so shocked #the trans coworker has also been taking more steps towards a masculine image #cutting his hair and stuff like i could TELL he just had The Vibes #I'm. so fucking frustrated fml #vent

[lovelyisadora]

it isn’t the end of the semester but i’m already having my end of the semester breakdown oh my GOD I am going to have a heart attack. sprite save me

#nothing is done!! not my applications not my interviews etc #I am running out of time to graduate in June and I could just graduate in august but then I have to admit to my family that I fucked up bad #it takes 3-6 weeks to get IRB approval I need to step on it #it’ll take at least 4 for my paid leave forms for work to go through and I don’t know if it’ll get approved #and if it does when do my benefits start #I feel like an idiot where those forms are concerned because it needs an occupation code and I don’t know if it’s specific #or if I can just select the one that best matches my job description and I can’t find that info anywhere #my body is literally shutting down I have two golf ball sized tumors and I can’t get out of bed but I can’t sleep #my car is kaputt and I have to call several different shops to get it seen because the one I took it to couldn’t fix it #and is any of it worth it!! is any of it!! #I cried for like three hours today bc I tried to talk to my mom about it and. well. she was very much a mom about it and not helpful #like yeah! obviously I want to graduate in June! but my research isn’t even approved because I haven’t been able to get myself #to complete the application for the last six months! Jesus Christ! #I can’t sleep and I’m so tired I’m so so tired my brain just straight up isn’t working! #I swear to god if I finally meet with my advisor and he does his well you don’t seem to need my help bullshit again #I’m gonna actually snap and kill him #anyway. need to do three things by end of Wednesday. just three things #clean. irb. and paid leave. that’s it that’s all. #it’s what I’ve tried to do the last four days and I’ve accomplished none of it but. Jesus Christ it’s gotta get done #FOUR THINGS I have to call the shop to get an estimate for a car I’m not even going to bother to fix #ok vent session over #delete later #fkdjdjshhaa im a MESS #sprite save me 😭 #save me sprite. save me

[ournextdoorneighbor]

#

#im tired. am i going to get my period soon #probably. #but its not like i havent been feeling like shit the last 3 months so i cant exactly blame my tiredness to my period cycle #im being so so brave about my job. im being so brave abt the idea of going to the office for 3 days straight #i feel like if i stop to think even for a milisecond im gonna start crying and no one wants to see that #at the same time i dont have time for it. #i keep thinking abt all the times they told me that you’d have to actively look for a job in the art industry #to constantly be advocating for yourself if you want to stay and i am trying so hard. im applying im submitting im rewriting my statements #im brainstorming im reaching out im making content. jesus christ im so tired. im doing so much and theres no pay off at all and im stuck #in this job that i hate will every fibre of my being. i just want to do something im happy with again. i want to wake up and be excited abt #doing work again. be happy abt going to work and talking to ppl i like. im doing so much but nothings working #what is the point #bestie i am so fucking done. i wang to curl up in bed all day and cry

[genderfluid-druid]

do you ever somehow match with like. the HOTTEST person you have ever seen in your life on a dating app. and look down at your little gremlin hands which now each feel roughly the size of Pluto. and just go. What do I do with these.

#he works in environmental policy which means he is both hot AND extremely cool #and i am booboo the fool #with my aro ass over here like idk what I'm even looking for but it's probably either casual sex or just to talk to new people #and idk if you're the kind of guy who will talk about dumb little podcasts which is pretty much my only conversational tactic #so #uh #shrug??? #Jesus Christ i just looked at his profile again to see if he was really that hot and HE IS #fucking hell....... #he's got long hair and dimples and HAZEL EYES like are you kidding me?? this is cartoonish

[blossom-hwa]

got tickets for ateez but god at what cost

#lina talks #nas #ateez #my sanity #anyway I hate Ticketmaster with a burning passion #and to every ticket scalper out there: I hope you burn #anyway I am def grateful I got a ticket and have the opportunity to see ateez again but holy shit this crap is a nightmare #the horrible promoting. the general admission. Jesus Christ #this feels like just a huge cash grab by kq which makes me feel kind of disappointed #like I love ateez and I’m seriously grateful to go to another concert of theirs #but all of these tiers and vip things and shit…. and making it GA while covid is still not over and we have monkey pox to think about. #also has ateez even been given a rest this entire year. what the fuck man #idk. I’m excited to go but it’s dampened a little #maybe it’s just bc I’m tired

[tenisperfection]

Watched 3x10 Black Sails and I'm literally never going to be normal again!!!!

#jesus fucking christ how many times can i say that this episode is the best of all time about this ONE show? #i need to watch it again i need to watch it all the time why do i even watch anything that isn't this episode? #flint and silver in that forest......no one talk to me #that whole storyline with dobbs paying off so well #madi and silver and this thing between them i am obsessed with #madi is just so!!!! she's so!!!! i'm in love #that last scene with billy creating long john silver #you know what given how much black sails feels like a play and all the characters feel like they're playing parts they should do broadway #they shouldn't change anything just bring it to broadway and bring luke arnold!!!!! #(where did they find this man how is he literally just like that how did he just become john silver) #jonathan steinberg we need to talk #black sails #genuinely the best show i've seen in a long long time by a wide margin!!!! #anyway one more season left *sobs but also slow claps*

[livvyofthelake]

why are the mutuals and mutals in law just NOW seeing me and tee talk about merlin and going “hey i should watch that” what part of this agony is compelling to you people. do you also see dead deer on the side of the road and think you know what i too could go for a nap rn! are you insane. you couldn’t have been compelled to join us two months ago when we were still having fun. like you can’t pretend we JUST started talking about it this has been a months long journey. come on….

#the way i am literally not even talking about a specific person because multiple people have said and done this. #again what part of my emotional turmoil and agony is compelling to you #i didn’t make that romeo and juliet post because i was doing GOOD. jesus #beth.txt

[hauntingblue]

Toranaga's son is so funny. Failson 🫵🏻

#also toranagas brother.... hello...... #his ponytail is so slay. his fit too fire. his swag too different. his smoke too hard. his bitch too bad. they'll kill you #omg the nephew eating and looking at anjin and mariko like this 😏 #OH NO RED WEDDING???? #THEY MADE HIM REGENT!!!!!! #she said i want a cortisan union and also retirement. slay #and also you fucked up and also i am leaving goodbye. every woman in here is such a diva. mariko and fuji need to step their game up!! #stop being emos!!! its diva time!!! #'i am going to kill myself and become ashes with them' BOOHOO!! GET YOUR MONEY UP!!! GET YOUR PUSSY UP!! #so they really wore g strings with a little (kinda big) flap as cover up... oden was just there a breath away from showing his junk #dancing at the town square.... jesus #white in the water!!!! its wet t shirt time out there jesus....... a bit of modesty please...... #forgotten before you can be remembered.... boom roasted #it rains so much in there but mariko never feels the rain on her skin. no one else can feel it for you!! only you can let it in!!! #get your money up!!! get your pussy up!!! #fuck your husband!!! and the anjin too!! focus on your dono!! get your job done!! hustle!!! #the anjin needa to get some drip!! ugly ass clothes. doesnt his wage get him bether fabrics. what is going on there. fuji is sabotaging him #toranaga wearing gold and his brother silver..... slay #OH MY GOD #i couldnt have made a post about anyone else omg..... #that was brutal #a comment saying this death isnt poetic and is deus ex machina for the villain which... have you been watching lmao #he has been making mistake after mistake on purpose by disobeying his father over and over and here he goes again.... #this one mistake even bigger than the rest bc he was going to kill his uncle (a regent now!!) after his father already made his decision #come on..... think a little #talking tag #watching shogun

[buck-yyyy]

lord i want to go home.

#disrespectfully. when your child is sobbing and half screaming while trying to WASH THEIR FUCKING MOUTH because it hurts. YOU DON’T MAKE #THEM GO TO FUCKING SCHOOL #can’t wait to not talk to my mother for the rest of the day jesus fucking christ #‘how are you doing kid’ fucking shit and fuck you for asking because WHY DO YOU EVEN HAVE TO ASK. GUESS #told her in the car that i threw up in the middle of the night and her only response was ‘awh why didn’t you come get me :(‘ BECAUSE IT #WILL NOT FUCKING CHANGE ANYTHING #fuck her and fuck the stupid fucking attendance policies and fuck her again for doing a half assed SHIT job checking the back of my mouth #because we were in a rush this morning. i had to fucking pick at the stitches by myself with a fucking COMB i am #fuck #just. fuck #god. what i’m about to say is awful and i know it #but i don’t even care #i just hope i pass out or lose it or SOMETHING i don’t even know what because maybe then she’ll at least feel bad enough to let me stay home

[tojisun]

!! female reader; dirty talking; breeding kink; slight overstim play; unrealistic sex x’>

thinking about how simon’s the type to keep saying filth to you when he’s balls deep. how, in the throes of his pleasure, so pussy-drunk, simon begins to wax poetry about the way you make him feel.

he’s got you folded in a mating press, his lips ghosting wet kisses along your trembling legs. “god, baby,” simon murmurs, his voice a drunken slur. “i need t’wife you up, i swear.” he punctuates this with a thrust, before his fingers pinch your clit.

you choke at the feeling, your legs kicking from where they’re slung over simon’s shoulders. your head thrashes against the pillow, not knowing how else to tether yourself from the stinging pleasure, your mouth falling open uselessly as garbled moans spill out.

“oh this,” he says, distracted by your reaction. “cute little thing, isn’t it?” he looks at your pussy almost with a starry-eyed gaze.

jesus-

“shu-ut up, si!” your voice breaks, weakened from the moans, but simon’s already looking too far gone, his eyes blown wide and his face flushed because of his pleasure.

“y’just squeezed me tighter, baby.” simon rips his eyes from your cunt to look at you with a sort of giddy trance. “y’like it when i play with–” he circles his thumb on your clit, making you squeal. “this? yeah? oh, lovie, you’re gushing.”

he pulls out, torturously slow, teasing, then he’s slamming back in. your ears ring at the resounding wet slide, his pelvis meeting your own with a goddamn squelch, and you scream, clawing at his back at the sharp pleasure that razes through you.

“going t’stuff you w’my cum everyday, baby.” simon giggles. “going t’make you so full.”

he nuzzles his nose on the side of your tear-soaked cheek. “y’want that, yeah? want t’feel sore because of how much cum’s stored in you? want t’be fucked until it takes?”

what-

“si! si!” you cry, mushy mind trying to understand what he’s insinuating. “wha- wh-…?”

“oh but you’d be so gorgeous, baby,” simon groans, his hand leaving your oversensitive clit to hike up along your body, dancing past your groin to plant just below your belly button. simon nuzzles close again, tracing the shell of your ear with his lips, then, “you’d be so pretty carrying my kids.”

those words make your body lock up, something in your mind just shifting right, and then you’re cumming, squirting all over simon’s cock and spraying on his legs.

simon outright moans, pulling back just enough to slot his lips against yours. you couldn’t even kiss him back, still so busy cumming, all cross-eyed at the intensity of your orgasm. it doesn’t matter to him, anyway, not when simon begins pistoning harder. faster. rougher.

every drag of his cock back in your pussy pushes more gushing squirt from you, and simon rumbles with a pleased groan, looking so blissed out as he leaves open-mouthed kisses along your jaw. you dig your nails at his back but simon doesn’t even register the prickling pain, too busy chasing his own orgasm through your cunt.

“s’right,” he coos. “nothin’ else could make me cum, baby. nothin’ else but y’r pretty pussy. y’r tight pussy. god, it’s such a delicious pussy, baby, how am i so lucky to have you, huh?” his words mingle with the thwap-thwap-thwap sounds of his body slamming against your own. it makes you dizzy with pleasure, ragged rasps of breath is all that is passing through your parted lips.

simon croons. “how’d i chance luck and end up w’such a delight?” another wet sound from your pussy rings amidst his words. “mmm, hear that baby?”

you nod, you think. or you moan a reply. honestly, you don’t even know, not with how dizzy you are at the peaking pleasure because there’s no way you’re cumming again–

“that’s the sounds that a happy wife makes,” simon purrs, replying to his own question, and the weight of his words washes over you like the pleasure that’s racing across your synapses. “that’s the sound that someone makes when they want to be bred.”

“simo-nnnnn!” you scream, the sound guttural and ragged, and your eyes can no longer see anything, and your ears are ringing, and- and–

simon laughs, the sound curling into something so, so fond. “y’r so pretty when y’cum, baby.” he kisses your wet cheek. “one more? f’r me?”

fuck-

#suns #simon ghost riley x reader #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley smut #simon riley x reader #simon riley #simon riley smut #female reader #IM CRYING BETWEEN MY LEGS WHEW