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lashtoncurls · 6 years

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Online (Ch. 2)

Summary: Ashton just broke up with his girlfriend and meets a girl on Omegle Warnings: None

(Ch. 1)

Ashton’s Pov:

“Whoooo!” Luke shouted as we got to the hotel, “That show was sick!” he exclaimed for what seemed like the 90th time. I’m more excited that tomorrow we get a nice week break before we head over to America

“Right, that was great.” Michael said smiling wide as we walked down the long halls and to our suites.

“Come on Irwin, cheer up mate!” Luke said shaking my shoulders and I smiled.

“I am bloody cheery, I’m just tired.” I said as a yawn slipped my mouth.

“I feel ya’ mate.” Calum said before he stopped at his door and waved goodnight to us. I walked a bit faster to catch up with Michael and Luke and I heard Michael talking about some online chat?

“Wait, what?” I interrupted his story.

“You’ve never heard of Omegle?” Michael asked, eyes a bit wide. I shook my head and he smiled.

“Mate, you’ve got to try it. It’s fun.” he said as we stopped in front of his door.

“I don’t know… why does Luke have that mischievous look in his eyes?” I asked him and he shrugged.

“You talk to strangers, you have the option of using video or not and if you don’t like someone just skip, it’s cool.” Luke interjected and I eyed them both one last time before I said goodnight and walked a few doors down to my room. How do you even spell omegle?

I’m a curious person so as soon as I was ready for bed I typed out the word into my search bar and up came some ads and then the main sight. Well, here goes… I obviously can’t be on camera but- Jesus Christ! I panicked as I looked for the ‘skip’ thing Luke was talking about. What the fuck!? Soon enough I was rid of the old, hairy man jerking himself off. I’m scarred. Forever. Those two are so getting it tomorrow…this new person wasn’t responding and so I skipped them and crossed my fingers that the next thing I saw wouldn’t be some creepy perv again.

Mila’s Pov:

The new person I had skipped to wasn’t visible, but they were typing something out, I waited just hoping it wasn’t some asshole asking to be flashed. I waited and waited and when the message came through it was a simple, “Hi” and I smiled, well that took a while.

You: Hi:)

I typed back waiting once more.

Stranger: You’re really pretty, you know?

Crossies that he’s a really hot guy.

You: Oh, thanks. *blushes profusely*

Stranger: Haha, that’s cute. But really, you’re very pretty. What’s your name?

You: You first.

Stranger: Ashton

My heart literally dropped like a ton of bricks, I was just fangirling over Ashton Irwin today and some random man on Omegle tells me his name is Ashton? This is fate, this really is fate.

You: I’m Mila, nice to meet you:) How old are you?

This is how time went by, we were just exchanging basic info. This guy was really sweet and really funny and I was just absorbed into him. I am currently trying to convince him to turn on his video but he refuses; he says that if he does that I probably won’t speak to him anymore, but I doubt that. This guy would have to look like Shrek in order for me to at least freak out a bit.

Ashton’s Pov

This girl. I haven’t been able to talk to a girl since the whole Leah thing. But this girl was pretty in my eyes the moment she came onto my screen. For once, I wished that I was just a simple nobody so that I could show my face and get to know her better. She’s trying to get me to turn on my video and she’s convincing me quite quickly… maybe we could come to a compromise.

You: I don’t mean to be a creep, but where are you from?

Stranger: It’s cool, I’m originally from America. After I graduated high school I went to visit some family in Sydney for the summer and I never left.

You: So you live in the Sydney now?

Stranger: Yup:)

You: This is insane, I live in the Sydney too!

Stranger: That’s crazy!!! We should totally meet now!!!! jk jk

You: Haha, well why not?

I watched as she typed away, she was so beautiful, her sound was off so I still had not heard her voice, but I’m sure it would be just as beautiful and melodious as she appears to be. I smiled as she continued typing and then held her finger up to the screen, telling me to wait. I sure as hell am not going anywhere.

Mila’s Pov:

I had to run downstairs when I heard the doorbell ringing incessantly. I shivered as I walked up to the front door and opened it wide to let Ella in.

“Sorry, I forgot my keys.” she slurred and I giggled as I helped her up to her room. As soon as she got in she just fell onto the bed and was out. I giggled and covered her up before returning to my room. I hope Ashton is still waiting. But I’m kind of nervous about meeting him. When the conversation was still on screen I sighed in relief and waved at the camera knowing that he could see.

Stranger: So, why can’t we meet?

You: You could be some crazy serial killer for all I know!

Stranger: Then what about emails? I’d say that phone numbers are too personal, because for all I know you could be the hologram of same very pretty girl :)

You: Haha. Well, I’m not but sure, that’s okay i guess…

I gave him my email and he said he would send a message to me right now. He took a bit but I waited for him just like he waited for me; soon my phone buzzed with a new email and I smiled.

Stranger: There(:

Stranger: I still want to meet you...

You: How about we make a deal? If… Oh okay, I got it:) If you show your face, I��ll meet you somewhere? That seems fair to me.

I waited anxiously for his reply. Something told me that he wasn’t some psycho creep, that he was a good guy, he was the guy I thought he was and I really hope that he agrees to this.

Stranger: Fine(:

I was too excited when I read his reply and I was even tapping my fingers along the laptop waiting to see this guy.

Ashton’s Pov:

I can’t believe I’m about to do this… I’m not even going to lie. I did run to the bathroom to make sure that I looked decent. It’s been at least an hour and I’m tired as hell so I needed to make sure that I was at least presentable. I pushed the screen of my laptop down to my shirt because I needed to go slowly. I’m just as nervous as she probably is. As I clicked on the “turn on video” option the page began to load and suddenly the page went blank. I refreshed and refreshed but nothing happened. I looked to the top corner of the laptop and saw that the internet had gone out.

“Fuck...” i muttered.

I quickly opened my email on my phone.

'Hey, the Wi-Fi in this place went out. But I was serious can we meet sometime?'

I shut my laptop and laid down, hoping that I could get at least a few hours of sleep. As soon as I shut my eyes, my phone dinged.

'Did you forget to pay your bill? Jk. And I don’t know, maybe.’

I smiled and typed a quick reply.

'Not home atm, but thanks for the reminder. Hopefully I don't come home and the lights are out. :P Please say yes?'

I wanted to meet her. She was beautiful and I could already tell that she was fun to be around.

'Interesting. And you're welcome. I've to work tomorrow and its late, so goodnight. :)'

I sent her a quick goodnight after noticing that she hadn't answered my question on meeting her. I closed my eyes, falling into a dreamless sleep for the first time in weeks.

Here’s chapter 2!! Hope you all enjoy this. Thanks for the love on the first one! if anybody wants to be tagged when I post let me know!

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tumblunni · 5 years

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Ohhh fuckin geez at least let me has a pikachu

Today's update: still feeling all fucked up from Everything Happening At Once, also getting a migraine from all the stress the other day and how i basically didnt sleep for two days and then passed out today and lost the entire 24 hours. Like man i cant even say the family shit was yesterday?? It just feels that way cos i spent all of today either sleeping, crying or crying on the phone to the bank and the stupid online game store that took my money for pokemon preorder yet didnt send me the actual game. GAHHHH and ive forgotten to Eat Food for like the whole three days all this shit has been going down, aside from a handful of Starburst candy my sis gave me during our Big Awkward Moment. And the energy drink i chugged on the way there to meet her because Fuck I Need Awakeness To Comprehend This Shit. I think my stomach is exploding in on itself.

Anyway! ANYWAY!! Gahhh! Anyway!

Thank you mega fuckin big much to the friends who leant me money AGAIN, both to catch the midnight bus to meet a long lost sibling and also to fix this stupid game preorder bollocks. God what the fuck is up with my life? I feel so guilty asking for money and man you guys have leant me like 300 in the last 3 months! Fuck i hope this stupid cavalcade of finance problems stops soon and i can start paying you all back because JESUS CHRIST. I feel like my skin is melting off my bones whenever i think about how much i dont deserve such great friends! 'welp yeah theyre wonderful people, guess i lost an arm' You ever wanna cringe yourself into a little ball from embarassment? Yeah like that but so much that i disintegrate into atoms.

SO I HOPE! FOR FUCKIN GODS SAKE! That this stolen money zero game bullshit gets resolved soon. But there's no chance of it taking less than a week, so thank you SO MUCH for helping me place another preorder at a different more reliable shop! This is what i get for fuckin going bargain hunting aaa. I ordered pikachu version just in case the original order does somehow turn up, cos it was eevee version. But i got none of the preorder bonuses anymore and no pokeball controller on this. I guess maybe itll make my second playthru more fun if i can finally use the damn controller, haha! And this second copy is probably gonna arrive quite late now cos i missed the preorder window. But it should be either on saturday or monday which is way better than waiting a month or something chasing up this bullshit! And hopefully also in a week or two i will get the money back from selling alll those preowned games, and it can go towards A: GROCERIES and B: repaying bebst friends of reckless money giving. You guys are fuckin nuts, seriously!! And man god i hate that im still suffering this knock-on effect tight finances bullshit from the stupid mental hospital thing 3 months ago. I mean i failed to even last a month there and its cost me almost a thousand pounds in terms of stocking up the stuff to be able to move house temporarily, all the mobile data i had to use while being without internet while i was there, all the miscellaneous expenses along the way, and then all the bill debt and having to restock tolietries and groceries and everyries when i got back home. Sighhh! And i feel guilty that i bought a stupid warhammer starter kit around halloween and i still havent even opened it because The Guilt. Like man i should have somehow predicted there would be more money trouble and saved that money rather than make a selfish purchase. But like it was the cheapest beginners kit anyway and i even haggled a discount for getting the figures without the paint. And now im being selfish and getting this pokemon game!! Twice!! Because stupid fuckin online banking nonsense!! Godddd give me back my money so i can give it to my friendsssss

So yeah in summary Bunni Feel Bad and also Overwhelmed and also Bad. But hopefully stuff is sorted now. Gah!

Also probably will be some delay on doing a lets play of this new pokemon cos i dunno when its gonna arrive and also i feel Big Sick now and need to chug a paracetamol and eat a loaf of bread before i die. Hope i dont spend all weekend just passed out on the sofa from Too Much Braining In One Day. Srsly why did this all happen all at once...

Also i probably wont go with the idea of twin protagonists headcanon for this LP, cos the whole Untimely Lost Sibling Madness kinda made that a sore spot to think about. One good side of getting the version i didnt want is that i can pick the female protagonist if i get pikachu version, and go with the personality i was gonna use for the female sibling. Cos actually it seems that your rival dude's perosnality is kinda simular to what i was gonna do for the male sibling? Could just have that sort of relationshup as a best buddies thing. And playing as a sassy roughhousing jock girl protag is gonna be more fun than playing The Nice And Shy Dude which is basically what i always do in every game cos its just me??? Would get more fun character lets player contrast with protagonist Darcy.

Also fuck i am gonna have SO MUCH to talk about in this first episode! Watchers who dont follow me on tumblr are gonna be so confused. "Hey youtube i just got out of mental hospital and found my long lost sister who thought i was dead, anyway never mind that lets talk about pokemon! I was gonna say i dont have any baby pictures of me when the original Pokemon Yellow came out, but here's the one i found on a facebook obituary for myself yesterday..."

What the fuck is my life, seriously?

Also if my starter ends up being a male pikachu im gonna name it Chuppy after my original one in pokemon yellow. And if its a girl i'll call it Ghostwriter after my mimikyu and pretend that its a mimikyu that just has an extra high quality disguise. Seriously, picturing all of these cute antics and tiny costumes on mimikyu makes it all even sweeter to me! I love ghosties!!

LOL I JUST REALIZED MAYBE IM A GHOST TRAINER COS I WAS "DEAD" ALL THESE YEARS AND DIDNT KNOW IT

Seriously man if there are any parents out there reading this, dont fuckin lie to your 4 year old that her sibling is dead just because the dad divorced you. There are no words for how fucked up this is. Except 'oh i guess thats why my favourite digimon frontier character is duskmon'. I fuckin thought that plot was unrealistic when i first watched it! XD actually i think duskmon is straight up my favourite digimon design and the one i'd probably pick as my partner, even though i prefer Impmon's plot from the third season. I kinda wanna go make a fanmade full evolution line for Duskmon now?? Man why am i getting so wildly off topic!

I really need to eat a food and sleep a sleep

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dmmowers · 7 years

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A vow of eternal relationship

The bride and groom wrote their own wedding vows.

Before I was ordained, I think was best man, groomsman, or usher in something like 18 weddings, and now that I'm ordained, I am in a lot more weddings. Many times, when I'm helping plan a wedding, the couple will have made decisions that I would not have made. Sometimes if I'm officiating I veto things that aren't in the prayer book or things that are in especially bad taste, but rarely do I have much personal angst about them.

But there is one practice that is guaranteed a veto from me as an officiant and that, if I attend the wedding as a guest, is guaranteed to make me get in the car snarling and sputtering to my wife about the indignity of the the thing, and it's when the couple writes their own wedding vows.

Some people do a good job writing their wedding vows, and my muttering on those occasions is more on the level of "cranky old man muttering about kids these days." Now, of course, even these vows don't have the same ring to them as "I take you to be my wife, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, until we are parted by death." But they do the job well enough.

On the other hand, some people seem to not care whether their vows match the solemnity of the occasion. At one wedding I know of, one of the parties pledged to the other that they would always make snacks. On another occasion, I heard someone vow that they would always tolerate their spouse's cold feet in bed. On the internet, I found some templates for writing non-traditional, humorous wedding vows. I looked and looked to see if these were actually a joke, but it seems that the website took them as entirely serious possibilities for use in actual weddings. "I promise to love you as much as I love my credit card and not hold your poor fashion sense against you." Here’s another one: “I promise to love you even when you refuse to let me watch football, to cherish you even when you blow one week’s salary on yet another handbag, and to understand even when you are mad at me because of something that happened in a dream.”[1]

The problem with vows like these is partly that the words don't match the occasion. But the other problem is that vows are serious business. Vows are hard to keep. I don't know about you, but making snacks feels a whole lot easier than saying, "I take you to be my husband, in sickness and in health to love and to cherish until we are parted by death." Marriage isn't easy. Being a mother or father isn’t easy. Being a faithful friend isn’t easy. As much as we don't like to think about it, being parted by death is in the future for all of us, and know that I want to see people make vows like people who know that one day they are going to die, because life is precious.

That specter of death ending relationships hangs over our gospel passage this morning. Just prior to our reading, Jesus has told the disciples that he is going to leave them, and they think that means that he is about to die. Jesus tells them that they cannot follow him, and then Peter makes a vow: Why can't I follow you? I will die for you. Jesus looks at his badly-conceived vow sadly, and says, this very night you will deny that you even know me three times. You won't die for me. Before I die, you're going to leave me.

Darkness descends upon the room, and Jesus says: Do not let your hearts be troubled. How could their hearts not have been troubled? They've just invested three years in following Jesus around and he's telling them that all of this talk about him dying is actually going to happen. They had thought that Jesus was going to be the one to redeem Israel, the one who would overthrow the Romans, install a new Jewish government and help the people of Israel to once again be what God had called them to be for thousands of years. Instead, Jesus told them that he was about to go away. How could he go away if the mission wasn't done? How could he redeem Israel if all he was about to do was die?

He told them to believe in God and to believe also in him. He was asking them to trust that he was who he claimed to be, but all they could see were promises that he was not going to be able to keep. You can understand the gloom in the room; you can understand how their hearts being troubled might be an understatement.

Jesus said, "I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, so that where I am, there you may be also. And you know the way to the place where I am going. Thomas replied and said to him, "Lord, we don't even know where you are going, so how is it possible that we could know the way?"

Jesus tells them, "I am the way, and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you know me, you know my Father also.” But the disciples still don't get it: Philip responds right away: Lord, show us the Father, and we will be satisfied. It's not enough that you are the way, Philip says: show us the Father. Show us the Father working on behalf of Israel right in the midst of our present reality. That would be enough. Jesus being the way to the Father? Not enough.

II.

At a previous parish, I was helping a family plan a funeral once when I suggested that they use this reading this morning as the gospel reading at the funeral. Indeed, this is maybe the most common reading I suggest at funerals. The elderly sister of the woman who had died objected. "My sister was a woman who got along with everybody and was tolerant of everyone else's viewpoints," she said. "This passage makes it sound like only Christians go to heaven. It doesn't reflect what she believed."

The sister was right in seeing absolute claims in what Jesus was arguing. When Thomas asks him how to get where is going, Jesus responds by saying, "I am the way." Where was Jesus going? He was going to prepare a place for his disciples, and the way that he was going to get to that place was by dying. So when Jesus says that he is the way to the place where he is going, he means that he has conquered death, and the only way for Thomas, and for all of the disciples who follow after him, to conquer death is to trust that Jesus has already done so.

Jesus conquering death, and being the only one to conquer death, naturally brings up questions about other religions. But the thing is, a lot of mainline Protestants like us don't really believe that we need Jesus to conquer death. Instead of the God of the bible and the creeds, many people claim to be Christian but actually believe in something one scholar calls "moral therapeutic deism." The basic beliefs of moral therapeutic deism are that 1) God exists, created the world and watches over us 2) God wants people to be good, nice and fair to each other, as taught by the Bible and most world religions 3) The central goal of life is to be happy and feel good about ourselves 4) God doesn't need to be particularly involved in our lives except when we need God to solve problems and 5) good people go to heaven when they die.

None of these adequately reflects Christian belief, and yet these ideas are everywhere. Look at the reaction when someone dies young: people talk about what a tragedy it is, but how they know that this loved one has gone on to a better place and is looking down on us. That sort of thing might make some of us feel good, but I think that it is a failure to take death seriously. If Jesus Christ was wrong about what he told his disciples in that upper room, if he is not the way through death to the presence of God on the other side, then death has won. That means that the only place our loved ones go when they die is to the bottom of the grave, and it means that life is pointless. The God of moral therapeutic deism is a spineless God who has no power over death; people who believe in that kind of God simply avoid death and fail to acknowledge its evil reality in our midst. We are beset by a human tendency to break things, including our relationships. We do not have the power within ourselves to make and keep vows to each other, and this so-called God who exists solely so that we feel good about ourselves does not give us the power over our tendency to break things. If we acknowledge the many ways that death surrounds us, and indeed is within us, then we need something else.

III.

Jesus' saying that he is the way and the truth and the life is the great clue that in Jesus, death has been conquered. Jesus is about to go away to prepare a place for us - he is about to die and go to the other side of death. He promises the disciples, and all of us who follow after him, that he will go away to prepare a place for us, so that where he is, we may be also.

Lots of us have pictures of that place in our imaginations: gold streets, pearly gates. Some of us have read books where people claim to have visions of heaven and give us vivid description of what it’s like. But what this gospel reading gives is that heaven is heaven because we are with Jesus, in the presence of the Father, together with all of the other followers of Jesus who have been brought through death to the other side.

It's also clear that heaven is a temporary place - that where we will ultimately end up is back here, on this earth, resurrected from the dead in the same way that Jesus was. Our bodies, this world and all creation will be renewed to be the way that we were supposed to be from the garden of Eden on. Heaven will come to Earth and will transform it.

Jesus says that he is the way through death so that his disciples will take comfort. Even though he is about to go away from them, even though their expectations of what he is about are totally wrong, Jesus is promising to be in relationship with them forever. The emphasis is not on what happens to those people who do not put their trust in Jesus; the emphasis is on the promise that Jesus is making to the people who trust him to be the way through death to the other side, to be the truth that makes the world have a purpose, and to bring the life that brings about the renewal of all creation. Jesus is not making a claim that shuts people out; rather, he is making a promise of eternal relationship to all who will hear it.

IV.

Jesus doesn’t get into a theological debate about what happens to non-Christians after they die. That is a mercy. What all of us who fear death need isn’t philosophical argument – what we need is the promise that we will never be alone. This reminds me of one other thing about self-written wedding vows: oftentimes, people will promise that they will love the other "through eternity". Like most vows, that is a promise that we cannot keep by ourselves but this one requires a lot more help than just honoring or cherishing our spouses. Promising that we will love someone "through eternity" means that we will continue our commitment to someone after we die, or after they die. We're literally promising that our love will be stronger than death.

This is not a promise that we are able to keep. This is a God who leaves the 99 mothers in church and We do not have the power to love someone through eternity. It's even debatable whether we, under only our own power, can truly love someone for all of this life because of how pervasive our tendency to break relationships is. But if we promise someone that we are going to love them through eternity, we are writing a check we cannot cash. Thanks be to God, we know a Savior who makes love stronger than death.

All of this talk of death on Mother’s Day might leave some folks wondering what put the preacher in such a bad mood this week. But it is not so. Rather, on a day commemorating the special people who are our mothers and grandmothers, the ladies who have children or who yearn for them today, I cannot offer you the same kind of schmaltzy, cliched hope you can find in most Mother’s Day cards. I can only offer you the best hope I know: that the good ways in which you have formed children – your own and other peoples’ – have eternal significance, because Jesus Christ has promised to be our way through death, the healer of our biggest griefs, the restorer of our biggest losses.

This is a God who leaves the 99 mothers in church and goes to find the one woman who has just learned she cannot conceive. This is a God who desires abundant life for all of the families of the earth, for the widows and the widowers, for the ones who are single and who wish they weren’t. He has put Trinity Church in the midst of Baraboo so that no one would be without a family, so that no one would be alone. This is a God who takes people who are not related, who are different in every way, and makes out of them a family that cares for each other and for the people outside our church, so that our lives together might be the means for some to hear Jesus’ promise to be the Way for the very first time.

When, in the foolishness of young love, men and women pledge themselves to each other for eternity, they do it not realizing the impossibility of what they offer to the other. But thanks be to God through our Lord Jesus Christ, we have a Way who has vowed to offer himself to us in eternal relationship. We have a Truth who has come to Earth to make God’s purposes for the world known. We have a Life that is given to us as a gift freely given. Amen.

[1] http://tailoredfitphotography.com/ultimate-wedding-vow-guide-writing-wedding-vows-wedding-vow-templates/

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