#its especially strange though because ive comforted other ppl who were scared of the potential void of death

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Having s bit of a strange moment

#gamer txt. #ive been thinking a little too much recently when i know its not particularly helpful or enjoyable in any way #im not even sure what set me on this route of thinking about it so much #ive just been really really scared of death recently #its honestly kinda funny because ive been thinking about how much of a joy and a wonder life is so much and somehow didnt think about- #-how thats partially because its brief. its so beautiful and important because its fleeting. one day a life will end and nothing can ever- #-replace it. not perfectly anyway. it'll always be different and unique and youre so lucky to exist at the same time because one of you #-will be gone someday #but oddly enough i never actually think too in depth about death #and im realising again why i dont #because i am so scared #i almost wish i could force myself to be religious so i could have some kind of hope about it. not have to fear it maybe even welcome it #but argh. 's not easy #its especially strange though because ive comforted other ppl who were scared of the potential void of death #by talking about how well its just not existing anymore it wont be a void because we wont be conscious #no reason to be scared of a nothingness you wont be aware of #its just like how you dont remember before being born because you didnt exist. same thing #but now i cant get the idea of an endless eternal void out of my head and i dont like it #i cant believe or take solace in my own words now and i dont know why #its not helping me feel any less scared