#its 1 am sorry if this makes no sense

[svampira]

1 for elias but i m literally thinking about what if someone just locked him in a room with nothing to do. how would he even react to that LOLLLL

15 for your main ocs bc i want to know. (SORRY IF THTS ALOT)

ask game

What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

Omg what did Elias do to you why would you do this to him😖 though locking him in a room is marginally better than having him sit still. He will either sims idle animation (start stretching, doing push ups, singing to himself) or he'll pull out his phone to kill boredom by taking selfies, get mesmerised by his reflection, then stare at it for the next hour without blinking. I feel like w him being camarilla this actually happens very often (not him being locked in a room but more like. A lot of waiting) and he genuinely can't take it. If he has to speak to one of his superiors and he has to wait outside for more than 5 minutes he'll start wandering around, get lost, and force some elder with much better things to do to come fetch him.

How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?

Diamila > kourtney kardashian 100% they speak the exact same way. She tries to tone her valley girl accent down for important meetings but fails miserably all the time. She speaks very slowly and drags her vowels out > literally very otherwise menacing monologues dragged down by the trisha paytas mh at the end of every word. Apart from that she definitely rehearses everything she says first, 100% walking back and forth repeating her speech to herself outloud in the empty camarilla bathrooms, literally has Elias workshop jabs, speeches and threats with her at home. She's ventrue goofy in a way other people very much can see. The only reason no one makes fun of her to her face is that she's the ventrue whip and everyone knows she probably has a higher vampire bodycount than the entire SI (vtmb fledgling + working as a scourge/hound for 20 years)

Brooklyn > Sza 100%. Not only because i think her voice is super hot and I associate kill bill with brooklyn but also because of the insane pathological lying. They would both lie about being marine biologists. She's eloquent and borderline poetic when she speaks, smiles a lot, will say the most fucked up violent shit while beaming and giggling cutely 💯 does naut think before speaking but the times she does is when she's about to say something truly unhinged

Elias > my voice claim for him literally a fucking rpdr winner😭 sasha velour. They have such a nice voice and it fits Elias super well i love how deep it is while not being ooc for him and i ❤️❤️❤️ vocal fries they're so cute > here's what I'm talking about . Elias also speaks slowly while dragging his vowels ouuuuut, he does naut ever think for more than a split second before opening his mouth. Despite this, he's very very good at talking, could convince anyone to do almost anything while making them think it's still their own idea. Definitely intersperses his sentences with "like" a lot.

Eden > Welket Bungué. Why shouldn't he speak with a portuguese accent. Mainly because I decided on Eden's design after seeing him in crimes of the future and though I've never really referenced him while drawing him i can and will steal his voice. Deep and warm voice, unlike my other ocs he is NICE he speaks to spread positivity and kindness peace and love🙏 he's also an anarch figure head so he might spur people on to do incredible violence but thats normal camarilla are doing worse. Was naut born in the us but moved there as a teen

#immso so tired #ty kane🙏 #i initially meant for eden to be nigerian but he's from guinea bissau now🙏 this will never come up #ask #its 1 am sorry if this makes no sense #oc lore #elias lore #diamila lore #brooklyn lore #eden lore

[ourselvers]

she/her sans because i haven’t properly drawn her since last year and i miss her :((((((

#a year ago i made a post about my take on genderbent sans #since i got so fed up with the sexualized art of it lololol #so whenever i show this to peopel and theyre like uh but its the exact same as og sans just with a few changes #im like... yeah exactly #does this make sense #sorry its like 1 am #anyway i lvoe her #sans #undertale #sans undertale #genderbend sans #sansgender #giggles

[cherrirui-official]

Are your gijinkas (race wise) based on the actors for the most part or the pokemons design for the most part? I'm curious to know :3

I don't really have a definitive answer for this, but when think abt it, it's a bit all over the place if that makes sense??

Like some of them aren't really a specific race (Like 4est, Pastey, and Lark), some are based on the actors (Like Jayweed and the Mykyie redesign I plan on posting soon) and some are based on the Pokemon's design (Sara and Braidy I think are good examples of this)

Tbh the only one who doesn't fall into either one of these categories is Grunpilo, that weird little freak.

#I hope this makes sense im rlly sorry if I worded it weird or made it sound confusing #Honestly Grunpilo just spawned into existence while I was drawing concept designs for other characters #and hes looked the same ever since #like the others have gone through at least a few small changes but not Grunpilo #I dont even remember how I created his design except for the fact that I wanted Grunpilo to be a lil puppeteer #and the rest is history #i didnt expect to be rambling abt Grunpilo in the tags but here i am lmao #Also i specifically mentioned the Mykyie redesign bc I barely knew anything abt Mikey when I first got into friendlocke #and my dumbass ended up making his first gijinka design WHITE!!!1! BIGGEST FUMBLE OF MY LIFE IM SO SO SO SOO SORRY MIKEY MY FELLOW FILIPINO #technically im white but a large part of my family is filipino so its even more embarrassing for me to do that AUGH! Im so ashamed of mysel #so yeah that's basically all I gotta say abt the subject. Ty for asking! #rui replies #friendlocke #friendlocke violet #violet gijinka AU #sugarlime83

[booktomoviebrawl]

1- you just have bad luck when looking for anime, there are plenty good ones 2- what genre are you looking for? 3- do you prioritize writing or animation? 4- comments like that are pretty sus, buddy 🙊

1) yeah 😔

2) idk I like. Fantasy stuff? Is that a genre???

3) writing ig? Idk a lot of stuff tends to go over my head anyway

4) I don't get why?

#uhhhhh i dont like stuff with lots of romance. thats my main problem lmao #i keep finding stuff i like and then a few episodes in it gets too much for me #also sorry if none of what i just said makes sense its 1 am #midnight speaks

[an-unraveling-unknown]

My thoughts on Undertale and philosophy

This short thought barf has so many holes and ramblings and the concept in itself could probably be explained far better by the countless video essays that genuinely had hard work into them and I recommend them no questions asked but I need to gush and further procrastinate on my French or else my brain will eat itself and explode (I’m sorry Ms. L)

Undertale is a game based in Nihilism that wants you to think that it’s based in Existentialism, while simultaneously having elements of both. Oough okay here we go

The basic outline for Nihilism is that nothing matters and we’re all going to perish unceremoniously. In broader terms, everything and anything we do as human beings does not change anything, it doesn’t matter, we are bound to fate and there is no meaning to life - meaning is a social construct per se. 

Existentialism, however, was created in more optimistic direct opposition to Nihilism, saying that we make meaning. We are defined by our existence, in our actions, who we are, people must choose a direction and meaning in life. 

Undertale happens to juggle both of these with humor upon a polka-dotted unicycle with mirth in its eyes.

One of the coolest things about the Undertale is that its game mechanics are a very real part of the world. You die, you can reset, you can reset at any point whatsoever, whether you choose mercy or fight or both has a specified outcome, you have control. A few select characters know this, like Flowey and Sans, but they can’t really do anything to stop you if you’re determined enough because determination is in ALL human souls - the will to keep living and change fate. It is RIGHT THERE is the description, Existentialism, where we make meaning, where we are in control, where we can change fate because we are determined to make meaning. Everything matters because we think it does (which could also tie into trying to decipher the story and make sense of things where they are chaotic and unknowable, like the elusive W.D Gaster. That, and that’s what a lot of the games were striving for at the time - rewarding the player by making sense, for all the puzzle pieces to satisfyingly click together.)*

But no matter how you play the game, Genocide route or Neutral or Pacifist, no matter what you do, you always end up back in the underground. If Chara goes up to the surface and presumably murders everyone she sees or something along those lines, it all resets. If Flowey decimates you and does whatever he does, it all resets. If you die in a fight with a monster, if Asgore defeats you and uses your determination soul to break the surface barrier, if you do the morally correct thing and find a way to break the barrier so the monsters can be free from the underground’s confines, it all has to reset.

The Monsters cannot truly go back up to the surface, and neither can you. 

Everything you did, all that you accomplished to help them, to break the mold, or to betray them and slaughter them all (or just a select few,) as a whole, It did not matter. What’s more, you will likely reset, regardless of any ending. You may reset, again and again and again, perhaps to see what will happen because of human curiosity, mayhaps because its just a really good game, or perhaps to subconsciously get proper closure - but regardless of any of these, you always end up back in the underground. You cannot win, but isn’t that what games are for?

The only way to ‘win’ at this game is to never play it, really.

Undertale game mechanics are a very real part of the world built up around it and is a game that is self-aware in more ways than one - it knows what you do, it judges you for it, and it knows you cannot get out.

HOWEVER, like most things, there are two sides to that coin.

In all of this, you’re allowing yourself to have Determination - Hope. That’s what’s keeping you going as you claw and scrape your way through fights and levels of the story, what’s keeping you kind through the pacifist run (it takes a lot of effort to be kind sometimes, that’s not for nothing), that’s what’s keeping the Monsters going, the hope that they’ll see the surface again, that you can help, that again and again and again is hope. You are all in a perpetual state of hope.

Isn’t that an incredibly human thing to be?

Even better, that’s the games point. That we can come together, respect our differences and get along. Regardless of who we are, we are all bounded together by determination and hope. We can, and should care for each other, and learn and grow.

Heck, in the act of doing all this, we are making meaning, Cos’ we play games and everything feels alright for a bit.

“The human soul can be indomitable” Hell yeah it can.

#maybe the real meaning was the friends we made along the way but literal /pos #I don’t even know what time it is I think I started this at 3:36 and then I had a snack and blinked and now its dark outside #If this makes no sense I’m so sorry I think I’ll be able to clean it up a bit later #undertale #toby fox #hyperfixation go brrrr #aimless rambling #brain in shambles #face first in the brambles #where am I going with this #oh god it’s 1:12 oh no oh heck #Alright goodnight and thank you for coming to my TED talk

[chazz-is-a-zelda-fan]

can’t post this on insta considering a good chunk of my irls follow me there and they wouldn’t get this but i’ve been doing a lot better this week about keeping up with myself, i think

#the thing that i’ve mostly seen myself get better at is brushing my teeth and i know that’s so basic everyone starts by working on that #but its actually really difficult for me to keep up with esp considering that i have self sabotaging my health for years #like for the majority of my life i did not think i would make it to 16. i thought i would be 6 feet under and buried before i got here #i didn’t want people to know me because 1. then they couldn’t hurt me by forgetting me and 2. #they wouldn’t have anyone to mourn and i could fade away like i’d always wanted to #so i never cared about myself since i thought “well my time is up before i’m 16 it’s not like anything matters to me” #and while i hate to say it it gave me a sense of freedom under the roof i was stuck under #Religious Trauma does not fuck around let me tell you that #and so that “nothing i do matters” mentality became a major part of me and i regret it so much #i ruined so many relationships that could’ve helped me hold on to the little hope i had #i almost ruined my entire relationship with my sister because of that and i… i hope she knows how sorry i am. #i hope she knows just how hard her big brother is trying to be better. #i don’t know what to do now that i’m 16. it’s scary. i don’t know anything. i graduate next year. #but whatever i do… i can try. i can try to move on from the self sabotage and the recklessness and maybe #just maybe #i can be a big brother she can be proud of. #midnight mech

[zefforuins]

-/&;3;

#made myself mad thinking abt characters and things that don’t matter yet again #going to type my thoughts out here and then distract myself so I get over it LMAO #anyway. a heem heem #at the end of the day it does not matter. how people draw fictional characters. I can always find artists who draw them how I like and I do #but. because I am in a bad mood today. I just think that people who. draw Jason Todd like. really skinny. drives me insane #not necessarily just like the existence of it cause I am used to it but like when it’s him with other characters who are also skinny #I’m like hey why is he the same body type as his 17 year old brother? #and listen. Gotham knights Jason is not my favorite Jason #they fucked up his hair real bad. he looks older than he should according to when the game takes place. but whenever I see someone comment #on his build in the game?? I’m baffled. it’s pissing me off at this point tbh. like I’m sorry 1. not everyone is a size 0 just because you #find it hot. and 2. do you seriously expect. the character who’s whole think is being very strong. and beating people up nightly. #who’s fighting style is much heavier than his acrobat brothers style. to…be skinnier than said brother? #genuinely I think that gk Jason is generally how Jason SHOULD be built 99% of the time. like AK Jason and GK Jason. that’s peak #and it’s always ppl who like. when you look thru their art that body type is the ONLY body type they draw. and I’m like 🤨🤨🤨 is this like #bleeding into fatphobia territory now? not that gk Jason is fat because he VERY much isn’t. but they just draw character sooooooo skinny #as if their whole deal isn’t being physically strong!!! #atp I would rather every character look like 90s xtrme comics drawn by 40 yr old men where their arms are bigger than their heads and you #can see every muscle cause at least it makes somewhat more sense given their jobs ･_･ even tho it is ridiculous in its own way #my post #and it is my least fav comic art style LMAO #but anyways #nothing matters and I surround myself with love and light and I and the smartest person in the world who knows more about my favs than them #<3

[lady-vicky-toria]

I've noticed that most of league fandom draw Kayn on four main ways:

The canon accurate: most similar to canon content, crazy face and eyes, grumpy expression, tits out, no bitches, sometimes a loser you get my point

The :3 : just a little silly guy with little silly thoughts, sometimes is just that and other is about to commit crimes against all of humanity

The trans: he fucking trans for some reason, he looks really cooler thou, one of my fave style tbh

The sexy one: so fucking sexy omg I want to do things with him so hard ily people with this style ty for the food (half of that is just him going on monster mode but I'm a mosterfucker so it's okay)

#shieda kayn #league of legends #kayn #LoL #its 1:20 am im sleep deprived and with possible myopia sorry if this not make sense #i hope its at least funny #kayn artist of you see this i want you to call yourself one of this #vicky's talks

[funkily]

tbh at this point just take any labels i use as me just slapping a title on my Me . cos none of them will ever fit perfectly . yk

#some 1 am enlightenment . i guess #like yeah im a bigender aceflux gray aro bi lesbian . take that with a grain of salt bc more than that i am Oslo #this sounds so stupid . but does it make sense #i am everything i love everything but sometimes my love is unconventional . i am fluid i am everchanging . nothing is solid #everything just keeps moving and ill never nail it down . and thats ok for me . #its just not ok for my brain which feels the desperate need to define and label everything about myself #but its ok . ill just put on my silly little outfits to pacify him #god . so sorry #babbleeng #shouldve stayed in the drafts probably

[heartburstings]

do u ever see comments on posts and artwork full of effort and thought and passion etc and like. think about that post that talks about how people have the darndest time interacting with art without trying to crack a joke about it. is it really so boring to take someone's art seriously? is it necessary to demean someone's efforts, however unintended, for a 'joke' that consists of you being like "ooOOoOh how weird lol!!" like i don't want or mean to be a killjoy. but i think about that post a lot. like y do u need to add a punchline to something that doesn't need one. who asked u. why does it need to be funny. and u don't even have the decency to acknowledge its merit ;/

#wynn speaks #don't get me wrong i love being silly it's 1 of my most valued traits #but like. idk. #imagine seeing a genuinely cool animation of how a feathered dinosaur might look in a jurassic park-esque movie #and you comment that it looks like a big bird creepypasta. like rlly u couldn't keep that to urself? #sorry it's probably not that serious. i'm just extremely petty and that comment annoyed me and now i am in my petty mode #i went to check the artist out (they're on twitter @wobblyworks) and turns out dinosaurs is their Whole Thing #tbh the feathered dino animation reminds me of like #so i went to this science museum to chaperone my little sister n her classmates and they had this fun li'l thing #where a guy was in basically a full-body puppet which was a feathered t-rex #and they treated it like a 'real' t-rex while talking abt dino facts #they let kids throw a light ball at it to 'play' w it it was very cute #and like you could See the puppetteer u could see their legs and shoes and stuff #but even middle schoolers were able to look past that and see how genuinely fucking cool that was! #like yes they made jokes abt the sneakers and how a human crawled out the rex when the show was over and they had to put the suit away #but they were in so much genuine aw it was rlly cute. and it makes sense bc the suit was really well made! it had a moving mouth/jaw #and i wouldn't be surprised if it had a mechanism to blink its eyes #but i digress #i'm not saying that u can Only interact with art with complete seriousness. like jokes r fine #but idk. becomes a problem when that is the only way u interact with art. and also if you're unfunny and personally annoy me #and i'm not saying that person is the kind of person to do that. bc idk them. i'm just like #kind of annoyed with seeing repeat instances of comments that r like 'hmm this art... what if i made it about how funny i am!'' #i say kind of but then i look up and there is an entire wall of tags that r just me griping about it and a detour about a dino puppet suit #sorry besties i just needed to get that out of my system ily <3 #btw the dude's part of a project/kickstarter called 'forgotten bloodlines' #and it seems to be an animated documentary about prehistoric creatures #i recommend u check out the trailer it looks soo cool

[paixarina]

Even though they both went through the same thing, Nayu is the complete opposite of Kanata in that regard. Nayu has much more patience. I suppose it's because she grew up with someone who gets angry easily?) Maybe that's the reason why Nayu is calmer

ohhh that would make sense, since cozmez's mother might live in the slums and slums are known for having foul fights everyday where people will use physical violence to fight everyone just to get what they want. i think she might got influenced by this kind of environment.

nayuta is also more optimistic comparing to kanata and despite cozmez being known for their huge trust issues, nayuta, at least tries to socialize with people who he think he would like to trust with, like shiki and the others. he is more open to interact with other people besides kanata and i think he is a little bit positive to his view to the world and has a "even this world is terrible, i still think it has a bright side to see more" mindset.

nayuta only gets angry if someone dares to make fun on kanata (dude literally yelled angrily to hajun in rats and nobles voice drama for laughing over kanata drinking a water from a finger bowl in the fancy high class restaurant.) or when someone trying to piss him off. just because nayuta is more calmer, it doesn't mean that he cannot get angry. nayuta can get angry, but i think he gets angry very rarely and probably has his own limit of that and is more dry and rational than kanata.

i also think that the reason why nayuta is more calmer than kanata is because he might inherited his calm attitude from his unknown father (?) idk man, cozmez's lore is so wack and fucked up someone please adopt these twins and give them some love already 😔

#🦋 Paixa Answers #its 1 am in my country and my brain doesnt make sense so sorry if my rambling sounds shit

[ocdhuacheng]

Me knowing full well that the value of the yen in the csm universe is probably meant to be exactly the same as in real life it’s just that denji is chronically in hustle mode and will do the strangest things for an absolutely pitiful amount of money like being a human chair for the grand total of about one (1) American cent but liking to think otherwise bc if what the latest chapter implies that devil contracts are based not on actuality but on perception there’s no way I can imagine asa genuinely believing she can buy an aquarium for about seven thousand (7000) American dollars unless she has no concept of money which I doubt bc she’s not exactly rich herself unless you don’t have to genuinely believe something in order to affect the contract you can just pretend but that doesn’t really make sense to me bc then like. What Is A Devil Contract Anyway

#this is probably incoherent but it’s 3 am and it makes sense TO ME. if you don’t understand what I’m talking about that’s a you problem #.txt #csm #also it said the purchasing power of the yen is ~ the same in 1997 as 2022 so like that includes inflation as well #… I think #like the US dollar lost about 50ish % of its value since 1997 #but the yen only lost about 5% in the same amount of time #so inflation is not really a big variable in this #like 7000 vs 14000 ur still not buying an aquarium beloved #sorry 400ish. or whatever. idfk I’m tired #*4000 UGH #sorry its late and also I’m doing this very surface level research on my phone and I can never keep track of research on phones I have to d #*do it on the computer if I’m gonna like look into it for real I always get mixed up if I look too many things up on my phone #I’m just going with VERY general numbers here #disclaimer 10¥ isn’t actually 1 cent it’s more like 7-8 cents I was just writing whatever but now im like what if ppl think im stupid #Dw I also think im stupid #🤡

[klutzytomb]

I’ve always thought high teens for your age like 16 or 17. Imma go with 16 👍

not to be rude, but could you rephrase the first part of this? I legitimately do not understand that first sentence.

#i cant tell if its because im like half asleep or something but my brain does not compute #im not trying to be rude i just didnt know how else to phrase this if that makes sense #also its really interesting how you think im 16-17 #im not going to say whether or not it's true #i just find it interesting #so far 1 person thought i was 18 (the anon from way back) #2 people think im 16 (one being you) #and 1 person thinking i am 13-14 #its really cool to see how others interpret me #ask kris #also sorry again if this comes off as rude #i really don't mean for it to #😅

[bsaka7]

Sorry if this is weird or anything but re:the post you rb'd abt fanfic... i adore all your writing - you're such a talent, thank you for sharing the things you write!

I really do think of your stories a lot - as slashfic it is wonderful and very much appreciated, but so much of it just leaves me with a lasting impression of a theme or feeling that I can't shake; beyond the story itself. You have an incredible way with words, managing to convey things wholly but without any exaggeration, which makes for a perfect and usually heart-rending read

Thank you again :)

definitely not weird!!! i appreciate and cherish what everyone says about my writing and i am always deeply grateful for your comments. i'm clutching this ask like when otters float on their backs with the clam pressed to their chest!!! i often think that i'm -- trying too hard with fic, or i think too hard about it. i'm very glad that themes and feelings stuck with you because that is so often what i am trying to impart. i think -- i have these questions that go round and round in my head (connection, meaning, misdirection, etc) and sometimes my fic is a way of trying to figure out one perspective or another on those things, or is responding to something i've read in a book (i swear i'm not that pretentious okay. a little. but not TOO bad i hope.), or is just. i think this would be cool (or hot) can i execute it!! and i throw this all out to you guys and you are always far too kind. anyway long story short i really appreciate u and appreciate everyone who likes my writing haha!! i've only ever written like...history papers for school so you guys have seen nearly all the creative writing i've done in my entire life so it's very nice that you enjoy! and it's such an honor that anything i write sticks with u <333333333333333

#i think of my writing like. two ways #1) like hacking at a text with an axe until theres something there #and 2) i think. i really do value trying to say complex things in simple language. idk. #its not that i don't KNOW big words but i don't. i don't really think in them???? and so i don't write in them #this was fairly true in school as well. like i know what. epistemic means. i guess i am vaguely interested epistemological matters. #but like. idk. it makes more sense to me. at times. to just be like. oh this s relating to knowledge itself etc. #not that theres not room for the word #and so when people remark on that aspect of. how i write i guess. #i used to think it was more of a failing than i think it is now #[insert that quote about how its more painful to describe things as they actually are] [not that i do this but yea] #so its always. idk. shocking and nice to me that u guys like it #okay ENOUGH RAMBLING THANK U VERY MUCH FOR THE NICE COMMENT #im going to go home eat lunch flop at this job interview for a job i dont really want #then maybe watch the second half of the brazil game #ask #sorry i guess u said i didnt have to answer and i appreciate that too #this bad boy going in the nice comments screenshot folder #but i am answering bc i like to talk :P #Idk we all know i go through it about engagement on this blog #And like. How I feel. Seperate from some chunks of. People in the same boat #So it's nice. It's always nice

[aromanticannibal]

all my childhood I told people I was atheist bc everytime I said I didn't have a religion they said oh, so ur atheist

but like really I do think theres some higher forces and stuff it's just that christianity and islam and judaism and all that jazz don't really vibe with what I think man

#especially since I don't think mostly #like idk if there's IS stuff I think that 1 : #there must be truth in every religion bc everyone of them must have gotten at least one thing right. like idk #2 : omg if there IS stuff it's not me Z gnc child who is going to figure it out I am not the messiah my dudes. #and actually no one is going to figure it out bc. they're literally called higher forces. we are but little dudes running around on a ball #how do you want us dumbasses to figure it out #also i think i don't vibe with the uh. the big 3 I wanna say #bc as far as I'm aware they all have the One Big Dude and like. I don't like. I don't think so #like if there's just 1 ''god'' then it's completely unfathomable to us humans and can't really be considered as one or multiple it's more #like. everything #I do vibe mroe with polytheist (is that how it is english. many big dudes religions) religions #like greek and egyptian mythology always fascinated me especially when I was a kid #just because of the there's a dude for each thing concept #it's why I also like. what's it called. witchcraft thing #I am so sorry I am fucking this up lmao my brain is dead #but like yeah I don't think there's just nothing and the universe as we know it is just the way it is bc idk its just there #like rationally there's a part of me that's like ofc. but I don't like the rational part of me it somehow makes me sense to think there's #Dudes running around #anyways idk what prompted this. #also i know agnostic is a thing I know #also also please do not feel attacked in ur own beliefs truth doesn't flow out of my mouth this is just what I think #it doesn't mean I don't respect others' religions #religion tw #tw religion #tw christianity #religion