#itll be a journey

[suck-mein-pokeballs]

This week my entire paycheck went to meds and therapy

Being disabled is the best

#ive been trying to not take my meds on the weekend to save money and my good fucking shit #the difference between how i feel and my ability to function on meds and off meds is damn A LOT #and i dont even stop my antidepressants on the weekends #i just stop my sleeping medication and my adhd medication because theyre really expensive #and i cant even rest man doing this is so much fucking harder #im starting to feel less guilty about the mess that was my life and less ashamed #and starting to accept that maybe i am actually disabled #itll be a journey #i still think i should be able to do things #theres a part of me that still thinks im weak and i just need to try harder #and theres another part of me that is coming to terms with the fact that ive been trying to function with untreated ptsd + adhd+ depression+ #generalised anxiety disorders and its like well fuck maybe theres a possibility that it eas a little unfair of me to expect myself to #be able to function like everyone else #and maybe theres a small possibility that i might maybe be disabled #im working on this #ill get there #mein shit

[transldpdl]

Louis de Pointe Du Lac 'In Throes of Increasing Wonder'

#ah i was supposed to post earlier but next week I'lll have a better schedule with the queue #ldpdl.txt #vampterview #amc iwtv #iwtv #interview with the vampire #amc interview with the vampire #louis de pointe du lac #I always found a certain amount of grace in louis that yk is beautifully displayed in the first episode #tho ofc it continues through the rest of the series #the crossing of legs bein here and then yk in the lil clip we got of s2 you see him doin the same crossing legs but armand is also joining #body language and such if that makes sense oh lil things of how we do not see his face or facial journey when the tape is heard his whole #body is turned away from daniel and the audience and yeah he was bein disrespectful #and its like as we get more pieces of the puzzle the more certain things make sense the more dynamics are just getting crazier #i felt a newer light after rewatching the trailers and lil clip and ik itll just be such an eye opener when we get to see all of s2 (puzzle #anyways im getting off topic my brain goes from x to a louis is just so gorgeous and the way he sits is as a dancer even continuing to in #later eps entrancing like you want to be near him and when he starts the story his laugh its like you know you need to be near him #In Throes of Increasing Wonder

[snail-sir]

Ask me to help you again I'll rip my hair out please 😭😭😭

#pulled out capcut for the first time in years for this #cutest npc award #philip my beloved #please learn to do it yourself or itll be the magister's 13th reason #afk journey #afk journey philip #doodle #sketch

[orginllazyblog]

Been playing AFK Journey and honestly...I'm loving it so far

So here we go with some headcanons and silly interactions

:D

The player, either male or female, can attract beautiful women or be beasties with them

With my player and with the interactions with the characters I meet so far, she is most fond of women

Haven't really thought of a name for my player, so I'm going with "Magister" even tho their name is Merlin. Plus, they forgot half of their memories

Meeting with Valen, the character who everyone falls in love with him. Yeah... I don't really see him that way 😅

Other people: "He is so fine 😏"

Me: "He's my beastie. If I die, he's dying with me, ain't no choice."

He's my emotional support friend

Also, I'm glad that there were characters from the Afk Arena such as Antandra, Satandra, Rowan, Niru, Brutus, Thoran, Lyca, Silvina, Arden, Lucius,Mirael, and Eironn I'm surprised how Lyca is playable but not her brother Lorsan 😭

There are only a few celestials and hypogeans in the game (so far)

The side quest I've completed, Romeo and Juliet, I find it quite funny as the group read the letter Romeo wanted to give tk Juliet. Yeah, it was a bit cringe, but luckily, Lorsan is the guy who knows romance 👍🏼

And with that, we become a trio: Valen, the friend everyone has a crush on. Lorsan, the friendly one, and me the player and the great mage everyone thinks but just a chaotic gremlin searching for treasure chest. And then there's Rowan, the rich friend.

I go straight to the npc monsters to get goodies and resources for my heroes. I make sure my team is at a higher level than them.

Yesterday, I just figured that you can interact with the animals like a cat or dog, and it was just...so cute. It show hearts and even sounds of them.

As for the guild party, I haven't decided on which one and more focus on the story mode.

Speaking of which, I actually got asked on a date by none other than...Mirael. Yeah, that got me by surprised 😮 Fun fact, Mirael was my first crush when I started playing afk arena bc she could wield fire, but that was when Lilith introduced Talene. So getting asked out by her was like... a dream to me 😌

But then she left 😭 like what did I do!?!?!? Did I choose the wrong answer? Don't leave 😢

Back to the story, the group has to sneak into the old man's mansion to investigate more of the grape situation, and that's where I left on bc I was playing late at night

It is such a beautiful game with the graphics, the weather changing, and new heroes. I'm very happy to be able to play when it got released for mobile. Also, I was wondering if the devs would add heroes from the Afk Arena

#afk journey #silly headcanons #gotta find secret chest #oooo found something shiny #Valen is my homie #he got my back #itll be funny once everyone knows that the player is the merlin #there are pretty women here #Valen here is our wingman

[spookythesillyfella]

I WANT THAT TWINK OBLITERATED !!!!!!!!

#i HATE the GHOST AND PALS CREATIVE REMIX #I HATE IT #I CAN'T GO A DAY WITHOUT LISTENING TO IT #I CAN'T FUNCTION PROPERLY ANYMORE #MY 2014-ESQUE DHMIS ERA WILL NEVER EVER STOP FOLLOWING ME #*curled up in a ball . shivering* #*rocking back and forth* #random posting #ghost and pals #vocaloid #utatane piko #dw guys something malicious is brewing in my artistic journey itll be awesome believe me >:)

[winnie-the-monster]

I wait it two years for this.

#i loved watching the journey too #i cant wait to see them in s4 #hopefully itll be good since itll be the last season #never have i ever #nhie #nhie s3 spoilers #ben gross #devi vishwakumar #benvi #bevi #ben x devi #devi x ben

[helloimnad]

i dont want men unless his name is jing yuan ...

#1.3 is another jingheng patch i can sense it #itll be jing yuan helping dan heng on his journey of self acceptance #while dan heng himself is helping to nurse jing yuan back to health #jingheng #honkai: star rail #thoughts

[wayward-wren]

See Timeless Child as a concept I don't hate. I think it's got some fun implications to explore and fallout for the Doctor to deal with, identity crisis and all. (Also I've heard Chibnall was drawing from his experience of being adopted, which makes me like it even more). I think there's a lot of interesting things in there, though part of me loves the Doctor being normal, just a bit different, too much to fully embrace the idea that the Doctor is a Special Being. That one is gonna be a 'depending on my mood ill choose this canon' thing for me probably. But on the whole I think Timeless Child is a solid try at something new, and Doctor Who always needs that imo.

What I don't like about the concept, is claiming that there was 'the Doctor' before the First, William Hartnell. Because he starts going by the Doctor in the show, we saw it happen. And I think its more canon that he chose the name at the academy now, but I still love the slow acceptance of the Doctor identity you see early in the show, along side the slow progression of the Doctor embracing a role of protector and defender. So while I can accept the idea that maybe there were Timeless Children, and then that entity had their memories erased and became a child again, who grew up into Hartnell, I don't like the idea that the Doctor existed before Hartnell (and this includes regenerations the Doctor remembers before Hartnell I think).

Which is why I think Ruth!Doctor has to be between Two and Three; because she called herself the Doctor and her TARDIS was a police box (something else that happened for the first time in the show). The Doctor as the Doctor didn't exist before William Hartnell, and I think changing that canon almost does a disservice to the fact that he essentially created the character, and did so with so much love and care.

Anyway. I finally finished season 12 so that's my thoughts now that I've actually seen the timeless children episode.

#wren rambles #doctor who #classic doctor who #the timeless child #i might actually catch up before the new season wouldnt that be something #then i just gotta rush my siblings through the. 16. seasons of classic we have yet to work through #not sure THATS gonna happen before may lol #we can sure TRY though #would help if they actually WERENT BUSY #Three Doctors is the next story guys CMON itll be fun i PROMISE 😭 #anyway this has nothing to do with the post #i like aspects of the timeless child #its been a journey

[doobea]

next milestone fic will be focusing on rinnie <3

everyone start placing bets to see how long it'll be and i hope to god it wont be 7k+ this time

#doobea talks #itll be an angsty journey for this one yum

[yaytomhiddlestonyay]

"With the Final Aeon, she can beat Sin. But then... But then..."

#final fantasy x #spoilers #i'm warning ya #incredible story but don't read a damn thing #if you want the proper experience #hide #block tags #buy the physical guidebook if you get stuck and keep it totally out of your algorithms #those were the days when you didn't have to worry about that as much #you can also just watch the story on youtube #but itll take a while #journeys #transformations

[toestalucia]

guy whos gonna feel like a fraud whenever they end up supporting someone to move on

#stardust speaking ! #gbf spoilers// #i have a longer post about this at the back of my mind but i cant form the words. ive thought about this a lot lately #no regrets & all that but definitely a bigger understanding for ppl like freesia & aglovale after this #well. at least part of freesias motives. to this day one of my favorites #how many yrs do u think i have to wait until orchis & orchid talks about seeing loki #i like erste cast a normal amount #anyway anytime i think of the whole 'go enjoy your journey rather than be pulled around by the world' i.... #'which way is forward' aauuughhhhhh #noas words of 'are u fine with it ending like this' too.............letting go of the letter <-critical dmg i was not rdy for that one #guy whos gonna stand there like 'ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm' whenever these subjects comes up #yeah sure u should move on but mayhaps u should get that talk from someone else...................... #cheats death thanks to lyria & then decides to attempt to undo death again funniest crew in the world #also thinking about characters like vaseraga whos crew made sure he stayed alive #ill have the words for it one day but its very. how do i look ppl in the eye after this. no regrets tho #rubs temple im worried about the dad situation as well considering. um. uh. yeah #ok enough tagtalking i WILL form a proper post. eventually. whenever i find the words. lots of things spinning in my head #OR itll be joining the 'tried to do extreme things to get my friends back' club

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I would give anything to watch Fantasy High for the first time again. You have no idea how serious this is to me. Literally anything

#tbh tho my memory is so bad that if i wait like. a year itll feel like im watching it for the first time again #seriously tho #the parents in peril thing in the first season? destroyed me #the battle at the arcade was the coolest thing id ever seen (i love combat bcuz battle sets and the math is so fun to me) #and then the nightmare forest? everyone being separated?? their personal journeys rhere??? #'its gorgug. keep going' #nightmare king becoming cassandra... #'i kiss her and then skateboard away!' #jawbone helping ayda discover shes autistic literally made me cry #and adaines spell for ayda... aydas spell for adaine... their friendship means the world to me....... #the bad kids saving jawbone in the forst season... #aelwyn and her cats... aelwyn and adaines relationship....... #im unwell about the entirety of fantasy high and i would give literally anything and everything just to watch it again for the first time

[needylittlegirl]

brain is spinning

#not in a good or bad way i just feel like im in a washing machine on a gentle cycle #just thinking about everything #mostly like #whoever i end up with is going to have to have So much patience #like #i dont know how Anything works #absolutely none of it #ive never had like healthy completely consensual sex #ive never been in a healthy relationship ive barely ever had Good friends #so like #erase everything thats happened to me like just dont count it #and i havent ever done anything #not with a boy in a romantic kinda way not with friends in a friends kinda way #and yeah that makes me sad sometimes and terrifies me most of the time #but hopefully i’ll find people that will take everything so slow with me and not mind #i just think its gonna be a long journey that im not super excited for cause i know its gonna be scary #but i also cant wait to like do everything for My first time #idk i think im just being a sap right now #and i cant wait to be able to do things with someone #like right now im just sitting in an empty parking lot with my door open watching the sunset and thinking about life #and someday i’ll be able to do that with someone!! we can talk about life for hours! #and someday someone will join me in my stupid little dance parties or karaoke sessions #and itll be nice #tbd #i need to romanticize every moment of my life or else i’ll want to die

[pinkseas]

girls will put an EXTENSIVE amount of thought and research into their next couple of planned fics and THIS IS THE THANKS THEY'LL GET FOR IT.

#aly.writing #i literally hate it here #the next 2 im working on i want to get ages solidly figured out and also itll just be helpful to give myself a timeline in general even- #-for stuff like boy best friends which'll be happening in the future #and the [redacted] fic which will be in the future also. and the other WIP which will be moreso in the past but ages are important #TECHNICALLY i shouldve done this for desiderium too to more accurately write characters like barbara and kaeya. because i wrote them at the #-age i consider them to be in my head frozen eternally instead of how old they'd be by the end of the traveler's journey which was- #-definitely a MISTAKE but hopefully/probably not a huge one? idk i definitely couldve done better but. i will going forward at least #kinda glad i decided to style the fic the way im styling it though #a) im gonna be forced to learn how to do Very Slightly Fancier things in ao3 to formet #b) i DO get to figure out ages and such just based on my own perception of the characters and itll be a good base timeline for what i write #actually fuck redacted im just gonna start tagging these as im talking about them so i dont have to go back and sort through later #30 seconds posting #aly grief fic #<- i can replace that tag w/ something better once i have a title for it rn i mostly just have the basics

[merrysithmas]

ugh im legit so disappointed they gave heir to the empire to filoni (& will seemingly focus on Ahsoka) rather than give it to someone like Gilroy and focus on Han/Luke/Leia

#use cgi or even as a recast whatever #filoni does not deserve heir to the empire #not after the complete and utter trainwreck of Mando3 #absolutely not #heir to the empire #ahsoka is great but we dont need the Filoni OC takeover #we need the og trio tbh #theyre the bedrock of star wars #which is why the universe seems so lifeless in disneys hands #give a powerful presence to han luke and leia and youre gold #whatever else you like from the sw universe should definitely coexist (the prequels the din and grogu stuff ahsokas journey the crime and #underworld andor rogue one yes #but without han luke and leia as its anchor the entire universe feels empty #plain and simple you truly cant have sw without the skywalkers (meaning LEIA and LUKE and VADER) #you can extrapolate all you want but they are the core of the core #until dlf brings them back itll always feel hollow #the sequels didnt give them any power and tbh this is the number one reason it fell flat #bc they used the og trio to prop up the new characters and and not the other way around #had they have been smart enough to do that - i guarantee the sequels wouldve succeedes #succeeded

[catboii]

@asskraehe sry that daves taste in videos is fucking weird

#((ic post)) #i cant say this out loud itll hurt his feelings #(( #ooc tho we're sharing weird videos that my small found on youtube. so. that's what they're all watching now it's canon lmao #first it was a poppy playtime let's play. then some “fnaf VHS tapes”. now we're watching the dog is dead. it's quite a journey #sock can just go to sleep on Tii tho it probs won't stop petting and snuggling him for a WHILE #))