#it's suffocating

[americankimchi]

god i wish they hadn't retconned maul's death. i get wanting to explore more of his character because he was, objectively, one of the coolest star wars characters to ever hit the big screen and didn't get much screentime prior to his death, but also his role was fulfilled perfectly within those constraints so i wasn't too upset by it.

but by retconning it and making it so he never died it's like. okay. what now? the whole point (well, to me, ymmv of course) of the theed generator fight was that it was the first ever fight between the jedi and the sith in thousands of years, and that in the end even though the jedi (obi-wan) won the fight, a jedi (qui-gon) and a sith (maul) still died. a master and an apprentice dying together to herald the start of a new age/the return of the sith. perfectly paralleling the way in rotj a master (palps) and an apprentice (anakin/vader) died together to herald the return of the jedi. in both instances, a father figure (qui-gon/vader) dies in the arms of their son (obi-wan/luke) as a sith (palps/maul) is cast down into the abyss to their deaths. (palps being alive in the ST and retconning his death in rotj is also annoying for this reason)

i mean i like maul. don't get me wrong. he's an incredibly compelling character and i enjoy seeing more of him... but there's always the thought hovering in my mind like "he should be dead though. he should 100% be dead. this wouldn't be happening if he was dead, but i honestly would rather it not if it meant that maul was dead."

like the tpm fight just doesn't hit the same knowing that canonically he's just. going to become a robot octopus at some point. (shoutout to palps becoming sith glados in the ST) it cheapens the moment for me. it was supposed to be a moment of triumph marred by the deep and soul-crushing loss of a loved one and it's just... not, anymore. or at least not to the same extent. AUGH i'm just. frustrated. wish star wars as a whole wasn't constantly reframing/retconning what's been established. just puts a bad taste in my mouth.

#personal #star wars is HUGE #there's a GALAXY'S worth of stories to be told #and we're always for whatever reason focusing on this ONE PARTICULAR TIME PERIOD #it's suffocating #this is partly why i'm so excited to see the acolyte #it's a break from the skywalker saga #i love the skywalkers. i love the skywalker saga. #but that's also why i want them to STOP ADDING TO THEIR STORY #sometimes a story has a beginning middle and an end and that's okay! #that's fantastic! #we don't need to see between the lines! or behind the scenes! what if we just LEFT IT ALONE #AUGH #anyways. i don't know. i'm just frustrated with the state of star wars as a whole #it feels so claustrophobic right now. just because the space is there and undefined doesn't mean it needs to be filled #this constant push to canonize the years leading up to an event with content is so frustrating #negative space in an image isn't a bad thing it just helps guide the eye to what's most important #otherwise it gets too cluttered. too noisy. too DISTRACTING. #this was supposed to be about maul being alive but it's really about my ongoing grievances with how star wars is cannibalizing the movies #i'm tired of it........ tired i tell you #anyways that's all. real old man yells at cloud moment rn lmao

[cringefailroboguy]

I hate the fact that I have such a long streak of friendships that failed so hard that I was left permanently scarred and that now in every new friendship I constantly screenshot and record everything everyone says so I can have dirt on them in case they try to smear my image or something

I just want to be able to have normal friendships without the paranoia and the worst thing is that when I try to avoid the paranoia, then the friendship ends catastrophically and it turns out that I SHOULD'VE been collecting evidence

#i know this isn't normal and it sucks but i need to get this off my chest #it's suffocating #i can't have genuine connections with anyone #atlas' confessions

[yelenabemylova]

yk when you feel like the only thing that'll get the thoughts out of your head is to literally claw at your brain

#it's suffocating #and terrifying #tw body horror #ig #not really #but yk

[alex-stars33]

Today I went to the movies and when I was ordering my food I was so nervous and my voice was shaky. When I started eating I felt suffocated.

#it's suffocating #movies #theater #nervous

[honeybeehugs]

Anybody else feel suffocated by their parents even tho you’re of age and have become a full adult on your own in college?

#anamia #anarexia #anarexique #low cal ana #tw ana thoughts #ed thots #tw ed mention #tw ed stuff #parents #it's suffocating #i feel suffocated #suffocation

[thenerdcommander]

Really wish I didn’t have impulse control issues rn bc I promised myself I’d wait a couple months to really think through and thoroughly plan my move with the goal simply to be out of this state and working on my new state residency by the time the overturn of Roe gets voted on...but the urge to jump ship NOW after a mere week of research and planning is so fucking strong.  I want OUT.  I don’t even have any kind of ID anymore to make it feasible at this present moment in time but I need away from here ASAP.

#oversharing on main yet again? couldn't be me #I've just been hit with this strong feeling of being trapped and caged #it's suffocating #not only because this is a red state and I know I'm in danger #but also because I'm sick of living with my shitty family #they haven't even done anything today to make me want to run #I just hate it here #I want to be free with full autonomy over myself and I want to be able to go to therapy and I want to be out of the closet in REAL places #that aren't the internet and I want to wear binders and transition and I want to be able to have partners that I don't have to keep secret #and to love them openly and loudly where everyone around me can know I'm a simp without putting my mental health in jeopardy and I want to #be somewhere I don't have to abide by unnecessarily strict rules and schedules and don't have to perform to receive love from people who #expect me to be a perfect little lady that'll give them grandchildren and provide for a cishet white husband that I'll definitely have one #day and I want to wake up in the morning knowing I'm safe and that I won't be judged for merely existing #that's all I want #I can't stand it here

[duplicitousdamsel]

Why do I feel like this?

#Trapped #melancholic #sad #current mood #moodboard #it's suffocating #escape #fix me #please #screaming silently

[yeetacai]

The Inside Outtakes is so raw and resonates so deeply; it both revitalizing and deteriorating at the same time.

No I will not elaborate further

#bo burnham #the inside outtakes #it's such an experience #it's everything I've ever wanted #and also too much at the same time #it's so raw #it's suffocating #but in a way that takes your breath away and compels you #it's a sinking feeling #a deep saturation #we are quite literally witnessing a mental illness #it's heavy #it's relatable #it's manic #we're all just teetering on the edge #terrified and tired #a forced apathetic acceptance #a need to do something anything despite that #it's crushing #it's revitalizing #it's so so much #no I will not elaborate further I say #*elaborates further in the tags*

[sunflowersolace]

i waited unril 11:46 to post anything about it but. it was my birthday today.

#i spent my birthday angry about transgender oppression #i didn't have fun today because i was so mad about it #and i wish i could say today was an exception #but it's every fucking day #it's suffocating #i wish i could say i know what transgender joy feels like

[stoicallyshi]

November 12th

Last night I said to myself that "you can either choose to end your sufferings or keep on suffering alone" and I think I'll go with the first one.

#suffering #it's suffocating #november

[nerianasims]

Oh good, that ao3 top fandom ships bracket poll thing is a separate Tumblr, so I can block it without worry.

#it's all men and all men and all men and more men and then some more men and men men men I do not care if there is not a woman #it's suffocating

[skellydun]

who wants to lay on top of me like a weighted blanket and fix me

#i can't use actual weighted blankets bc it feels suffocating but another person? 10/10 #not even in any kind of way i just need someone to crush my body back into some sort of shape that is not exhausted and aching #need me a bear hug and a bear to crush me tbh #the cabin will fix me. i will be secluded and alone and get high one of the nights and have smores. i will take stupid nature walks and read

[cowboysmp3]

i have a slightly insane relationship with window curtains/blinds and i need to know if im alone

#for context #i never shut my blinds #theyre always open #i know a lot of people cant sleep with their blinds open #bc of the light in the morning #but i find curtains being closed SUFFOCATING #and i hate waking up in a dark room

[time-woods]

a nighttime routine

#adventure time #fionna and cake #betty grof #simon petrikov #sharing a headspace with a deity infused with literal chaos and destruction isnt the most comforting place to be #its lonely and vast but it still manages to be suffocating #but hey at least she can live in that fantasy

[birdmenmanga]

I think there's no greater indication that disco elysium is sympathetic towards communism when it literally says "communism is failure" and then the literal gameplay itself rewards trying and failing. The most obvious one being the Shivers check at the FELD mural, which is an Impossible 20 check BUT opens itself up again and again the longer you spend in the world doing things, but even just looking at sheer probabilities, for any given white check, rolling first and THEN putting a point into that skill upon failure is more likely to grant you success than putting a point first and then rolling, but that would require failing first.

Other things too: Precarious world saying you'll 100% fail red checks no matter what (not necessarily a bad thing, btw!! throwing the boule into the sea is a success but like. in some other ways one would want a perfect petanque throw instead. but people wouldn't typically assume that failure is desirable sometimes from the start) persuading you to accept that you'll fail some things that is irrevocable, for a world where everything is just a tiny bit easier.

The faux game over screen when you faint after reading Dora's letter— emulating a sense of failure on the scale of the entire game. When it rolls up most people go "What?? Game over?? No way, what did I do wrong!!" and waking up after that, with no huge or lasting impact on Harry's health or morale really tells the player, "Sometimes things will seem so bad that it all seems like it's coming to an end, but it's not the end, it's really not the end, go drink so water, you can still go on despite this failure"

I'm sure there are other things as well that are eluding me but like. The literal gameplay rewards failing and succeeding far more so than simply succeeding every single time, and I think you get a fuller experience of Elysium that way too

#just thinking thoughts... #disco elysium #idk man when did we get so scared of failing!! #people never want to speak in class because 'what if I'm wrong :(((' #well then you are wrong... that is okay... it's normal to fail... sometimes saying the wrong thing is a great way to jumpstart a topic... #'getting a good grade in X is both normal to want and possible to achieve' #okay sure but have you made peace with the fact that getting a BAD grade in X isn't a bad thing? #a bad grade in being friends... okay... so you didn't check up on someone in 3 months... you failed... that's fine... #you can learn from it!! you can learn how to keep in touch with people. how to take care of them when they're sick. #how to resolve a dispute. how to communicate and compromise. these are all things you are not born with #and will fail first before succeeding at #Like yes I get that in the age of surveillance your failures may be recorded and preserved forever and that's not great #but if we don't normalize failure I really think we'll just suffocate and die

[dimitrow]

#lovers #sexy content #couple #passion #affection #love #romantic #suffocating #arm veins #couple goals