#it's my main passion in life

[very-uncorrect]

I wish I had the energy and motivation to write more because it is genuinely my #1 joy in life, I remember a year or 2 ago I was sitting in English class and something just clicked in my brain and I realise that I 100% want to be a professional writer and the amount of joy that washed over me was like nothing else

If callings are a real thing then writing is 100% mine, I just wish I could actually get myself to do it

#/lh #it's my main passion in life #I'm so relieved that trying to not write is a universal writer experience

[spaceratprodigy]

🎉 [ Art from 2022-2023 ] 🎉

Happy Birthday to my most favorite person in the world, the love of my life 🖤

I still can't believe this'll make our 10th year of being best friends and even more I can't believe we get to celebrate our 8th anniversary this summer 💖💕

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#I was gonna type out more but I decided I didn't want to be too sappy and emotional on main #so much has happened in these past 10 years #I can't believe I made it this far I really did not think I was going to have a future #but I did and I do #I have the most wonderful partner who I connect with in a way I never thought was possible #I am capable of being loved I am capable of loving in return #I learned how to love myself and be unapologetically myself for myself #I lost a lot of people and some very much for the better #I've become so so much happier my god I never thought I'd ever know what this felt like #I'm still angry and numb and having to battle depression but I've grown I've finally become someone worth being proud of #I'm no longer letting that anger and grief and everything that comes with it take over #I can't believe I've actually become gentler and kinder #I can't believe I've actually made genuine friends with people who are nice and caring and supportive #and are actually happy to see me and not trying to take advantage of me at every opportunity I'm finally seen as a person #I can't believe I'm finally in a safe environment I don't have to be terrified anymore I'm not going to be hurt anymore #I can't believe how far I've come creatively bc of how much bf has supported my every passion wholeheartedly #he is the reason I have a drawing tablet he is the one who encourages me and cheers on everything I do #god I still don't know how I could ever in my life thank you enough for every goddamn wonderful thing you do for me #you have changed everything for the better none of this would have ever happened if it wasn't for you #it's always been you #I fucking love you #more than anything in this universe and the next #forever and always #my art #glad I listened to my first tag lmao

[trans-axolotl]

I'm a psych survivor & want to find community in general or join conversations on here but it seems like no one really cares what I have to say & a lot of the conversations on here about mad liberation etc. are so academic that I feel alienated & shut out by them, and afraid of being talked down to & made fun of, even though I was (barely) able to master's degree and thought I was fairly intelligent. it seems like the academics mainly want to talk amongst themselves. idk. it's like the more I try to connect the worse I feel. I guess you probably don't have an answer to this but I appreciate your blog & how accessible your writing is

💜💜💜anon i think you have SUCH an important point. for me, the most meaningful mad community that i've found has always been when I've been institutionalized and just talking with other mad people, where most of them don't have any experience with mad liberation politics or antipsychiatry or any of that vocabulary. But like--time and time again those are the people who just get it the most, and are some of the most insightful people I've met. And I know that if some of my psych survivor friends came on tumblr, I think they would be judged for not having the "right" language or not communicating clearly enough or whatever. Which makes me so fucking mad, especially considering how many of us are disabled in ways that impact our communication, processing, and language. and how to me, it feels like such an important value of mad liberation to celebrate different styles of communication and all the different ways we're going to show up and exist as mad people! I'm sorry that you haven't been able to find a lot of welcoming community on tumblr--I know how exhausting and isolating it feels to not be able to connect with the people that are Supposed to actually understand and support you.

and it's not that I hate academic stuff about madness--I'm currently at university studying disability studies and really appreciate disability scholars. I think it's super fucking important + there's a lot of really talented people doing cool work. But I think that especially in disability studies, there needs to be a LOT more of an effort put in to actually make research + writing accessible. If half our community can't access any of the writing about our community, that's fucked up, you know? I'm always getting into arguments at university lmao when I talk about how we should do more to translate academic work into plain language. especially since i think it's a form of injustice when we are kept away from resources and knowledge that would let us build a political understanding of our experiences. it just feels super important to me to think about accessibility and what that means in mad spaces and psych survivor spaces, and who feels welcome to participate in our spaces and who feels left out of them.

and i also don't really have answers or solutions for How to Make That Happen on Tumblr--if you or any followers have any suggestions i would def love to hear them. i know that a lot of people are going to come on tumblr to do a lot of different things and that some people see this mostly as an academic space for them, where some people just come on here to talk or create art or a million different things.

For me, I use tumblr as a space where I want to talk and connect with a lot of people about all kinds of topics and hear psych survivors opinions on a ton of stuff. a lot of my posts are pretty casual, but when i make longer educational and political posts i spend a lot of time thinking about the best ways to translate really academic concepts to a wider audience. when i sit down to write out a long post i try to incorporate as many accessibility features as possible like using bullet points, putting in summaries/ Tl;DR sections at ends of posts, adding in real life examples when I'm defining complicated technical concepts, adding content notes, and more. Before I post, I read through my posts and highlight every time I use a more academic or technical term. Then, I think through whether that vocab is necessary for people to understand the post, or if there's better language I could replace it with. A lot of times I do end up keeping in some technical terms in my posts because it is honestly the most direct way to explain some of the stuff I want to talk about, but it's been super valuable for me to go through and really think about it, even when some terms stay in my writing. that's just my process and what works for me and I really don't think that other people need to write the same way I do lmao, but if anyone ever wants to talk about writing in plain language & easy read PLEASE come into my inbox bc i love talking about this and want to chat about it with more people.

other things i'll say is that i've found that virtual/in person psych survivor/antipsych support groups are often times a lot more welcoming and accessible and are just like, people talking about things and hanging out together. I've heard really good things about Wildflower Alliance's support groups, and also recommend the Hearing Voices Network. Project LETS has been running an exceptional psychiatric survivor support group for almost a year that is more casual and is a really great community, I'm hoping that they're going to open up availability again in the spring so that might also be worth checking out in the next couple months. Campaign for Psych Abolition in the UK runs a mad art space that seems super fun. i wish there were a lot more existing groups cause it sucks how few things there are tbh.

anyway, know that you + anyone else are always welcome to chat in my inbox or on any of my posts and you will not face any judgement from me. i genuinely love talking to other psych survivors so much and want to hear what people have to say. the only people i get annoyed at on my posts are psych students and other mental health professionals who leave really bullshit stuff on there lmfao.

sending you all the solidarity, anon <3

#asks #psych survivor #surviving psych #psych abolition #mad liberation #accessibility #sorry for going on a tangent about plain language in the middle adsfjkhjkfsh i just like. am very passionate about plain language writing #and tumblr is one of the main places in my day to day life where i practice writing in plain language #i am not perfect at it but i really enjoy doing it and keep wanting to get better at it #also want to get better about writing in easy read. i'm not very good at that at all yet #ik that wasn't like directly related to your question tho so sorry!! i started getting excited about plain language #and then was like no okay i should just go post about plain language on a diff post that isn't ur ask askfdjhfjdkah #ANYWAY. sending all the love u way anon

[unopenablebox]

came home at 8:45 from work and 🌸 was already fast asleep fully dressed on the bed phone in hand completely unresponsive to sound including name-calling and loud floor creaks

probably they were planning to get more work done this evening but i'm going to sabotage that by turning their light off and ordering takeout so i don't make any cooking noises to wake them up, hopefully causing them to get up to a full 12 hours of sleep for what i think would be the first time in two and a half years

#can't check if their alarms for tomorrow are set‚ unfortunately‚ bc they don't have a fingerprint unlock phone anymore #so i can't do the ''cleverly manipulate your hand to unlock your phone in your sleep and set your alarms for you'' trick as i once did. #but we get up at the same time on fridays bc i have early meeting so i'll notice if they didn't. #box opener #girlfriend tag #i feel like my frequent blogging topics imply that my main interest in 🌸 is their sleep habits. it isn't but back when i was originally #becoming truly obsessed/falling in miserable secret love with them in college #it was roughly contemporaneous with their period where they tried to add our school's notorious theoretical cs program on top of their #existing bio/chem double major and 20hr/wk research commitments #and accordingly their sleep schedule would range from '4am-8am' to 'no'. #at the time i was very worried i was having an evil influence on their life (due to the corrosive nature of my secret passions obviously) #and my main countervailing evidence was how frequently i managed to convince them that going to sleep at 2am was ok to do #so i suppose. it remains a topic of some small interest. #also of course i am sulking a little because they are asleep so we can't hang out. so it helps to make it into a scheme i'm doing

[willehugsimme]

i just rewatched episode 6 for the first time and i think i was just really overwhelmed taking everything in the first time not really processing my emotions in the moment but now that i know what to anticipate i don’t think i’ll ever be able to watch this episode without crying again. there’s never been any piece of media that’s hit so hard for me. i’m not really the type to actively bawl over fiction but i sure as hell can’t see what i’m typing through my tears now. what the fuck man. how is anyone meant to get over this?

#genuinely asking #im scared of losing this community and this fandom #not to be super sentimental on main but i love every single young royals blog on here #i think i’ve always been searching for like minded communities that i have no way of finding in real life #i fell into such a warm nest of passionate people in autumn of 2021 #invigorated my love for fandom community on tumblr again #if anything it’s us i don’t want to end #young royals #riska rambles

[white-cat-of-doom]

Do you have any hobbies other than Cats? That's all you talk about lol

A valid question Anon, but this is my CATS blog after all.

I had a short lived music blog that was meant to be a sort of listening journal during the pandemic, but that stopped once I was told by someone that nobody cared.

That being said, I do occasionally mention that I am a record collector. I started buying vinyl in 2008, meaning that I have been collecting for more than half my life, which is interesting to note. Record collecting was (and still can be considered) my main hobby, but at this point it may be tied with CATS. I have over 3000 items in my collection, with quite a few rarer and valuable pieces, which is coincidentally much like my CATS collection :).

If you wanted a recommendation, a great one for Valentine's Day to boot (in my opinion), I just finished listening to Ernest Ansermet conducting the Orchestra Of The Royal Opera House, Covent Garden for the The Royal Ballet Gala Performances, a tremendous piece of Romantic classical music released in 1959. My copy is a 5LP boxset cut at 45 rpm for the best audio fidelity (and it does sound fantastic) that was initially reissued in 2019, but was out of print for years until they finally repressed it last year. It has recordings of pieces from ballets such as Swan Lake, The Nutcracker, Coppélia, and more.

#Not CATS #Music has always been my main passion in life #And I am so far behind or not knowledgeable in basically any other media like TV or movies #The White Cat Speaks

[piosplayhouse]

"Great Master" Airplane Shooting Towards The Sky had claimed that Proud Immortal Demon Way's purpose was perfectly clear, and that each word had been written with a single goal in mind: to satisfy the reader. (25)

Ah .. this is just . Sad now knowing everything ahh how airplane was genuinely passionate about the book at first even knowing that it sucked but had to cater it towards readers instead of actually pursuing the plotlines he wanted because he needed the money, how when the system offers him a way to go back home the first thing he thinks about is how much he misses writing and how he was always too busy to do it post transmigration.... Fuck man

#airplane might not have as overwhelmingly tragic a backstory as wwx or lbh or other mxtx characters but i personally feel like his is the #only one that never fails to make me really depressed. it just feels so... realistic! losing passion in a craft youd used as an escape #from the stressful things in your life . the strained family relationships. the debt and stress of college #its fucked! its really fucked! and its scary! #because it can happen to you at any time!! #i will say. i am a diehard bingqiu main over all else. but airplane is my little meow meow #bingy mouse scum house

[redshoes-blues]

Name a better duo than me and the new book idea my brain has chosen to hyperfixate on even though I have well over a dozen ideas already and multiple novels on the go that are collecting dust while the shiny new thing grabs my attention

#any other adhd writers have this issue? #i get so excited and passionate about a project. think it’s the next big thing that will get published and change my life #and then with the snap of my fingers a new idea comes along and BOOM all motivation for the past great idea is gone #I have two main projects I always return to/hyperfixate on periodically throughout the year but yeahhh #writing stuff #actually adhd

[jessamine-rose]

/obey me! vent/

#jessamine rambles #before i start. pls keep in mind that this is fully subjective and could just be a 'me' problem. i just want to get this off my chest #ngl i've been contemplating on whether i want to stop playing obey me. both the og game and nightbringer #idk i've been playing the game since its first month and while it's given me a lot of joy + memories + chances to befriend other ppl. i'm #pretty burned out. not to mention TIRED of my consistent disappointment with the game #the main story.....where do i start?? i actually enjoyed s1-s3 despite my qualms with the fillers and pacing but s4 disappointed me. i was #rlly looking forward to simeon's storyline and the new characters but ultimately. the devs tried to squeeze too many things into one season #not to mention that there is a notable difference in how the characters are written. i.e. beel's hunger and asmo's beauty #being watered down to running gags instead of the complexities explored in the old dg stories and chara songs #gameplay-wise. i was there when the devs raised the rewards price of the event urs and removed the demon ssrs completely #but nightbringer was the last straw for me. the amount of time it takes to grind for two games. knowing that the og app has essentially bee #abandoned by the devs?? not to mention that while the plot is interesting. i haven't touched the main story ever since the coma arc #i will give credit to the devs for improving the event stories by choosing to focus on 1-2 demons. but it has always felt like a quantity > #quality situation. esp if i were to compare it to my other fandoms #it also doesn't help that i'm currently at a point of my life where i'm questioning if i could use my time on obm for better things #seeing how the game is giving me less reasons to believe it is worth my time #idk this may also be a short-term phase since i DID get back into twst after a long hiatus and i recently got into whb #which btw has felt like a breath of fresh air despite my frustrations with the bugs and current gacha #but yeahhhh........as much as i love the obm characters and fanfics. i'm just tired #at this point i feel like the only reason why i still play the game is due to the nostalgia and so i don't waste the years of grinding #aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #this is what i get for being the type of player who only plays a few games so they can rlly dedicate their time and passion to it #that's all

[courcgecus]

Elizabeth, lived her life in the countryside without need of learning to even read Jonathan: My love, let me tell you about blablablablabla -mathphysicsliteracymachineselectricityspacetime...-

Elizabeth: What a fascinating man.

#|| I just adore the fact she never had any education and then love of her life is like #|| you cannot read? mice don't read? pff let me show you! I'll teach you! #|| probably taught her some elementary math and would talk about physics but that's where her limits came asdsadas #|| he would just be so passionate about knowledge and learning she just got excited too #|| and she did learn to read and write! slow but she can #|| like in main AU this is even more clear but tbh even in my other AUs she comes from poor family that hadn't access to anything #|| Jonathan was her key to modern things and city things- of timelines depending AU ofc

[tunapesto]

picking a course makes me want to cry and throw up so bad

#this will set up the rest of my life im afraid #there are 2 viable courses. the others are too complex and will not benefit me in the long run #the two viable choices. one I have experience in bec its somewhat art related #and it has real jobs. but its real rare and kind of underappreciated here where i live #might be hard to apply for #and the other one. i have vague interest in #not much experience however it has great jobs and opportunities everywhere #overall i will learn More and gain more from it probably. its not the most annoying subject in the world #sorry i dont have any figures that i can ask in my life about it hahaha all they say is 'which one would you enjoy more' #ive been in a self aware depressive state for years now i have no real passion for anything #i just do the things i know i can do #i would enjoy either the same normal amount #one where i can hone and expand on an existing skill #and one where i can take up new opportunities and expand my brain . my tool belt if u will #and i would really like either #i will gnaw wood #sorry for oversharing on main this is an actual cry for help heehoo maybe someone out there is going thru the same thing or whatever #it's just a lot of irreversible wasted time and effort and money

[metal-mouse]

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#I’m gonna be real it’s the playoffs rn and my mood directly responds to how my teams are doing #and the bad news is that I’m a leafs fan #and we’re playing Boston #so reni is balls deep in sports related trauma rn #the thing is that in the hockey pool I’m in I picked Boston in 7 to win this round #but like trust the process #(I don’t trust anything) #I’m legitimately stressed over this why mother why have you given me this curse #Mama Reni almost divorced Papa Reni when he boycotted the leafs in the early noughties #it’s a life long passion unfortunately #I might be that person™️ on main and I’m sorry in advance

[4lph4kidz]

this is my first experience with longform writing as an actual adult and i'm finding it so, so difficult to direct my attention and effort into constructive and positive places. rather than focus on like, things that are helpful, or actually making something, my anxiety and perfectionism keep driving my into unhelpfully negative places, and i keep obsessing over potential problems and picking what i already have apart instead of making any real progress. i'm sick of falling into these constant pitfalls, never feeling like i can commit to my ideas because they probably suck and what if i realise there was something better i could have done later down the line... i'm also seeking out a lot of less than constructive writing advice and media criticsm that probably isn't relevant to what i'm working on and doesn't seem to do anything but feed my fears and stop me in my tracks. maybe i should stop doing that.

but like, i don't want to jam my fingers in my ears and write blindly? not on wide scale. i might need to consider being stricter about seperating the writing and editing processes, but i find that very difficult with an ongoing project like this. what i'm doing now is way too much of an uphill struggle to be sustainable. maybe it's just a temporary case of writers block, maybe i just feel frustrated that i haven't gotten into the flow for awhile because i've been focusing on the planning side of things for a long time, but i dunno. rough going.

#i was going to post this on my main but eh its about the fic in my pinned so i might as well put it here #this was supposed to be a silly little fanfic project wht the hell am i doing here #i think. i am a very passionate person and it is very hard for me to not take these things far too seriously. oops #oh to think i thought i could put out monthly updates... i mean it's not impossible once my life settles down a bit #that might be possible once i've worked through most of my big picture concerns and can knuckle down on just. writing #delete later

[thegreatyin]

really really annoying trying to read stuff in the interactive fiction genre and every single author on their development blog is like. here's 10 paragraphs about the love interests <3 here's some good 50 asks about sex headcanons <3 and im like cool what's the plot and where's the actual demo btw? and they're like what are those

#sorry. im not usually a hater on main. im just fighting for my life in the choice of games/dashingdon/twine scene #i dont want a dating sim with ur ocs. just make an otome for that. for the love of god use the writing medium to tell a coherent story #yin-thoughts #this is incidentally why i never clicked with wayhaven. that and i weirdly despise first person pov #i feel BAD being a petty little hater bc this stuff is all fundamentally works of passion and dedication and basically everyone is indie #but also. also. maybe i am the petty hater. maybe i am the pettiest hater in the whole wide world. #i don't even have a problem with romance-centric stuff just advertise your bloody work as such. #why is every cyoa game and every cyoa fanbase so incredibly focused on romance routes. i crave a platonic feast

[stars-and-darkness]

FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE IF YOU DECIDE TO BE CRITICAL OF A FIC IN YOUR BOOKMARKS THEN MAKE THAT SHIT PRIVATE, NO ONE WANTS TO SEE IT

#i swear #the number of times i went into the bookmarks of a fic #and saw some smartass decided their critique and their unsolicited opinion is SO IMPORTANT AND IRREPROACHABLE #that they decided to plaster it on a fic where the author can see it but can't remove it or reply #TAKE THAT SHIT INTO THE COMMENTS IF YOU HAVE THE BALLS FOR IT #like do whatever you want in the bookmarks but make. it. private. #the author who writes for fun doesn't want to see you shit all over their hard work #the readers don't want to see you shit all over the story they adore #what makes these people think THEIR opinion is this important oh my god #BUT IF YOU DO THIS SHIT FUCK YOU AND YOUR ENTIRE BLOODLINE #IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE ANY RIGHT TO SHIT ON SOMETHING MADE BY AMATEURS OUT OF PASSION #AND SHARED WITH YOU FOR FREE OUT OF THE GOODNESS OF THEIR HEART #TAKE THE SPATULA AND DO IT YOURSELF IF YOU WANT SOMETHING DIFFERENT SPONGEBOB #oh my god #i'm calm i'm calm #anyway #i have started leaving nice little comments in my bookmarks so that there's an easter egg waiting for the author when they take a look #and it's for this exact reason #because there are assholes out there convinced they're the main character of life #ella originals

[westmansion]

my 2nd supervisor today out of fucking nowhere: hey im back from my vacation and i want you to send out some email blasts to showcase our next events! but you know im just not that creative haha so im going to leave that part to you! dont show me how to change up the layouts because thats just gonna be more work on me haha im just not that creative! also i want to start doing monthly newsletter cause i just think its a really cute idea but im just not that creative so i'll leave the designing to you ok! also i want you to start making more advertisements for our social media side too but all that is up to you cause im just not that creative haha!! also this event is next week btw haha!!

#**SHE SAID THE SAME LINE AT LEAST 5 TIMES!! IM SITTING HERE LISTENING TO THIS WOMAN REPEAT HERSELF!! #**ma'am this is a side job Underneath my main job which you are already aware of. how are you giving me more assignments than my main job #**ALSO ALSO they havent paid me for my last 2 month im going ballistic <3 #**supervisors who have never done any graphic design in their life: Youre Just So Creative It Should Be Easy!! Just Do My Hard Work For Me! #Fishie whatevers #**graphic design IS NOT my passion!! graphic design is my MORTAL ENEMY!!!!!!!!