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Aww thank you so much, Brynn (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

*pokes you*

Brynryn, hi hello, how are youuu?

Anyway, since you asked me abt who i ship my mutuals with, i wanna ask you something as well! >:D

What (two or more) characteristics do you personally like about yourself and your mutuals? You can either just say it, explain it, or anything really lol

About myself: I have a love-hate relationship with my grit. Mostly because I know I was born talentless in all aspects (no exaggeration), so every creative endeavor I have is 99% hardwork. And no, my parents don't have writing or drawing skills. I don't need to explain how my mom only knows how to draw "v" birds or how my dad isn't great at English. Absolute shame on them. (jk I love my family, I wish I could just pass my lifespan to hem HAHAHA). So when all hardwork fails, I feel like absolute shit. Second thing probably is my faith. I think I wouldn't be here if I didn't have some level of trust with the universe overall. The rest of me is garbage tho lmao. If I'm an otome game character, I'm 100% the beloved and beloathed trash husbando /srs.

About @leftdestiny-posts: I'm not sure I'd ever encounter an internet mutual like them ever again, and I think their appreciation for life and bluntness/straightforwardness is something to be admired. They're traits I don't have. Shiro and I are very very different people, and I'm not sure why there was a miracle that made us meet lol.

About @a-dose-of-phitre and @estellxli: longest friends I have. I really admire their creativity and skill, and if you want me to be honest, I know full well I'm left behind in those departments. If you know me irl, I'm not exactly the most affectionate person so I'd rather keep this part brief haha. Though, a small addition, I admire estella's communication skills and assertiveness a ton and I wish I had a bit more of Phitre's endearing charm and mannerisms (and height-). I'm super stiff lol.

About @navxry: Probably communication skills as well? When we met, they talked continuously. As much as I know I'm an extrovert and thrive off social energy, I think something in me is holding me back to being as vocal as they are. They also seem to have an abundance of energy. Ahh. Youth. /j

About @mixed-kester: i wish i am surviving engineering as much as she has i wanna quit can i quit also how does she pick colors sht is unfair i always have to open up google chrome to— //hjjjj

About @jessamine-rose: she already knows about my fashion sense or lack thereof, so let's talk about something else. I greatly enjoy her writing style because I know it's not something I'd pull off. Her sentence structures doesn't become verbose, they're incredibly succinct— enough to lead you along. Other than that, probably the way she bounces ideas spontaneously. I wish she sleeps right tho HAHAHA /silly

About @vennnnn-diagram: I probably pestered them too much about how normal people work honestly. I lack social skills so learning about stuff from them makes me feel a bit more knowledgeable without any visible judgement from them. So yeah, add that as one out of two. The second one? Their music skills. I hate learning instruments. I don't know why. I tried plenty. I suck plenty. Everyone in my family are great at playing except me. They're the Bruno Mars to my gambling addiction. WAIT WHY DOES SOUND LIKE THE WORST PICKUP LINE KN EXISTENCE HAHAHAHAHA

About @stardust-for-your-soul: i wish i can write fluff i wish i can write romantic things why can't i think of romantic genshin men headcanons why'd it always have to end in murder— oh and also, I love her prose. Chryseis can turn the mundane to something that oozes with beauty, and I think that romanticism is wonderful.

About @lucienbarkbark: i absolutely do not agree with your love for dazai /silly but I do admire estorea's unapologetic nature. Hell yeah bestie fricking read thag 300000+ chaptered story 😭😭😭 /gen. I find it a challenge to sit down and read nowadays huhu. Also, I like how warm she is to talk to, we haven't DMed much but it feels so hospitable (?) whenever she send fic links. Wish I was more like that. Also, thank you for the oda fics, soldier.

About @meimeimeirin: when mei put the kamisato siblings in a kin tier once (unless memory fails me), i remember silently agreeing so much. She has that "I got most my life together" vibe and I do wish I have that. She's also very open to talking about what she loves, she doesn't hide her affections and it's something I very much look up to if you've seen the things I've written so far lol. I love how vocal she is with appreciating what she has, including some new drinks she tasted, her parents' loving relationship, it's just sweet. The teashop aesthetic definitely suites her vibe. She just seems so... Elegant? Can't be me, I need to cause a mess /silly

About y o u: well first off if I get to have your hands for a day, you'd find weird ass drawings of blonde men on your drawing software. Second, I like your vibes a ton. It hits different. It fluctuates from absolutely chill to saying lowkey out of pocket things and I might be getting gaslit to thinking you're not at all the latter /j

#‘I wish she sleeps right tho HAHAHA’ *nervous laughter* just give me a few more weeks to finish my semester—#i rlly appreciate the praise X’3 #also ohh brynn lore!! rip i can very much relate to that feeling of having non-artistic parents #and music skills *shudder* i sympathize with that as well zD #also can i just say that i agree with what you said about mochi?? you perfectly described her vibes #anyway thanks again <3 #feedback #beloved-brynn #reblog

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/vent/

#i’ll delete this later on #yeahh i’m sorry if i’ve been extra venty this part year. it’s just….yeHhh irl has been kicking my ass #at this point. this is what?? my third monthly vent in a row?? ughhhh #but yeahh anyway. guess who is tired and frustrated as hell?? MEEEEEEEEEEE #idk i’ve just been super overwhelmed even before the start of april #and with the semester wnding *sigh* it’s just been hard #it reached the point where many times. i questioned if i could finish this semester at all #i’m down to three reqs now. it should be a good thing yet it feels nothing like one #especially when i’m still figuring out how to finish all three on time #idk i guess my frustratikn is more rooted in the fact that this past month. i haven’t been able to keep up with my internal deadljnes #it’s just so hard to open my laptop and get work done. idk why i keep doing this to myself but again and again. i find myself idling in the #daytime then sleeping late so i can finish the requirement and claim i’ve done smth productive today #nvm that i’ve lost at least five days to being useless and unproductive. i’d love to call it a mental break but it’s always been hard for m #whose great idea was it for non-major subjects to give so many requirements anyway??#this week. i marked ‘monday’ as the day i’d finish my third-to-last requirement. yet here i am now. only 1/3 progress made and pushing the #internal deadline to tomorrow. knowing i can’t push it any further bc i still need time for my last deadlines #i’ve been sick the past weeks. mainly with cold and fatigue and the occasional chest pain. but i’ve only been able to minimally address it #and now it looks like i’m dehydrated. if today’s cold and sore throat and crippling unwell-ness are anything to go by #ughh what else?? a relative died today. i’m not that close to her tbh but it still shocks me. but more intense was my dread when i realized #i’d have to attend her funeral which is on/ before my deadline. sure the visit might be short but will it. rlly?? what about the time spent #processing her death?? the emotions that could follow me back to my desk??#*sigh* idk where i’m going with this anymore. it feels like these days all i can do is complain and blame myself #and it makes me guilty every time i set aside time for myself. it makes me paranoid that i’m bothering my friends and mutuals too much with #personal vents #but at this point. all i can do is continue right?? compartmentalize. submit the fcking paper and stop being a perfectionist at the worst o #times. then after all that. get the rest i need #it looks easier on text. that’s all i can say #what else?? at the end of the day. i giess i just want to say thank you to my mutuals for being here. for giving me all those little moment #of joy. thanks for your comfort. and when this sem ends and i’ve rested enough. i hope i can go back to my usual brainrots. i miss that #UPDATE:: i managed to finish my rough draft of the paper. i can’t exactly call it one but at least it counts as 1/2 progress done

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ʚ✿ I Love You, Darling ✿ɞ

♡ Jessamine’s Yandere! Genshin masterlist

♡ All fics take place in the same universe <3

“You had long given up on wishes and happy endings. After what you believed to be the end of your tragic story, you resigned yourself to a shadow of a life with only your books and flowers to keep you company…until the vestiges of Windblume brought forth a mysterious stranger and a new ending for your dark fairytale.”

♡ Herbarium - Yandere! Il Capitano x f! Reader (10.1k words)

♡ Fairytale - side story + epilogue, Capitano’s POV (3.3k words)

♡ Forget-Me-Not - epilogue, Capitano’s POV (0.7k words)

♡ Astilbe - epilogue, Capitano comforts his darling (1.2k words)

♡ Author’s Note ๑ Artwork

✿ ⚘

♡ Perfect Couple - Capitano x Damsel fan club

♡ The Trials of a Snezhnayan Wife - Damsel learns to speak Snezhnayan

“Your entire life has been a gilded cage. The gods refuse to grant your greatest wish, and so you have resigned yourself to the will of destiny. But what happens when the red string of fate is severed and replaced with the silver chains of the Regrator?”

♡ Housecat - Yandere! Pantalone x f! Reader, part 1 (10.4k words)

♡ Alea Iacta Est - part 2, Pantalone’s POV (5.5k words)

♡ Author’s Note ๑ Artwork

⬩◈⬩

♡ Happy - alternate ending written by Anon

♡ Happy Cat Day - a tale of two cats

♡ The Devil Wears Jacquemus - Pantalone buys a special pair of shoes for his darling

“In the realm of science, love and insanity are closely intertwined mysteries. Disillusioned with the world, you had long forgotten its beauty until the wise doctor gives you a change of perspective.”

♡ Chemistry - Yandere! Il Dottore x f! Reader (13.5k words)

♡ Magnum Opus - side story, Dottore’s POV (4.7k words)

♡ Author’s Note ๑ Artwork

‎ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨

♡ About Time - a very late marriage

“Cursed with your divine burden and lost hope for the future, you have accepted a melancholy life of solitude. By some stroke of fate, however, you encounter a kindred spirit who will save you from the depths of your sorrow.”

♡ Disjecta Membra - Yandere! Pierro x f! Reader (14.9k words)

♡ Chess Piece - side story, Pierro’s POV (5.4k words)

♡ Author’s Note ๑ Artwork

*✧･ﾟ

♡ Just Friends, Right? - the Jester’s jealousy

♡ An Old Acquaintance - an unlikely reunion

♡ Misery Loves Solitude - Darling’s tears

♡ Official nicknames for each darling

♡ Artifact Set: Beloved Darlings - lore + extras

♡ Crossovers - Part 1 ๑ Part 2 ๑ Part 3

♡ More than Strangers, Less than Friends

♡ Reactions to Savior’s true identity

♡ Relationships with the other Harbingers

♡ A Forbidden Hug from the Jester’s Wife

♡ Which languages can the darlings speak?

♡ Different Perspectives ft. Wanderer’s darling

#masterlist #yandere fatui #fatui x reader #fatui harbingers #yandere genshin impact #genshin x reader #yandere fatui harbingers #yandere genshin #tw: yandere #spicy warning #mdni #fem reader #jessamine-writing #jessamine-art

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˖⋆˚♱ଘ Angel’s Tears ଓ♱˚⋆˖

*cries* I thought I was done with Church AU after Priest! Dottore yet here I am with more unholy ideas. Welp, Guardian Angel! Capitano x Nonbeliever! Darling, here we go (；ω；)

Tw:: yandere, psychological trauma, blood, violence, death, religious abuse, MDNI

Note:: fictional depictions of religion

♡ 3.8k words under the cut ♡

♡ From the moment of their creation, angels are classified into the Nine Orders. This hierarchy determines their role in Heaven and Earth, with higher ranks assigned greater levels of power and authority. A special exception is The Strongest Angel, an individual who is neither a seraph nor an angel from the First Sphere. Rather, the moniker belongs to Il Capitano, the leader of the Powers.

♡ The legitimacy of his title has never been questioned. As a warrior angel, Capitano’s purpose is to vanquish evil. He is the chivalrous knight in bloodstained armor, the nigh-invincible being who strikes fear into the hearts of demons, the ever-righteous angel bound by a paradoxical duty to partake in violence for the sake of everlasting peace.

♡ It is in a small town in Mondstadt, following his victory over a legion of demons, that Capitano encounters you. It is the hour of mass yet you are nowhere near the Church; rather, you have taken sanctuary in a secluded meadow. A book sits on your lap, not a religious text but a tale of dark fantasy. There is a saintlike quality to your countenance, an air of melancholy as delicate as the flowers which surround you.

✿ ⚘

The moment Capitano appears before you, all peace leaves the meadow.

No, this isn’t right. It is normal for humans to feel fear in the divine presence of angels, yet he is donning his human guise. Nonetheless, as soon as his shadow touches your form, you look up and suppress a shriek, your face losing its veil of apathy.

So what exactly did he do wrong?

For your benefit, he remains rooted to his spot. Clarity comes in the form of your gaze flitting to your book, its title printed on the cover in conspicuous letters, the whispers which leave trembling lips.

“I…I can explain! This book—it’s just fiction! There are no real curses or spells inscribed in the text; it doesn’t promote any form of blasphemy!”

Ah, now he understands. You weren’t afraid of him.

Carefully, Capitano takes a step forward and raises his hand in a calming gesture. A gentle expression adorns his false face.

“Be not afraid.”

✿ ⚘

♡ It doesn’t take long for him to understand your wariness. A glimpse into your soul, paired with your quiet explanation, tells the story of an orphan raised by the Church. Only, your Church is one of many founded on distorted beliefs, of violence preached in the name of a cruel god. As a result, your upbringing was marked by strict rules, corporal punishments, and sermons which painted the image of a hopeless child with a weakness for temptation.

♡ Knowing this, Capitano can’t fault you for forsaking God and your Church. Still in his human guise, he promises his silence and leaves the meadow. But once he returns to Heaven, his first course of action is to apply for a position as your guardian angel. It is an easy process—while that role is typically reserved for the lower ranks, there is no shortage of humans in need of spiritual guidance and protection. He only questions why an angel wasn’t assigned to you when you were in greatest need of one.

♡ Henceforth, Capitano becomes a recurring character in your life. Every week, he visits you in the meadow. When you ask for his identity, he claims to be a progressive believer from another town. But rather than enlighten you with the true Word of God, he simply keeps you company and indulges your “vices,” leading to hours spent reading together. Beyond those meetings, he also watches over you to ward off any demons or humans seeking to harm you.

♡ From your end, you slowly warm up to your mysterious companion. He is a man of few words, but his actions always convey a sense of kindness. And despite his faith, he genuinely respects your beliefs and accepts you as you are. At one point, he even gives you a special gift, a quill pen of exceptional quality. The feather, pure white with a soft radiance, must have been sourced from a rare bird of prey.

♡ Over time, however, something changes. Capitano can’t deny that the faults lies with him. His visits, his constant thoughts of you, the ever-blurring line between want and duty…nothing of his behavior can be attributed to an angel’s inherent love for humanity. If that were the case, his love wouldn’t beget heartache. His love wouldn’t beget the temptation to harm others, rooted not in the name of justice but for your own safety. His love wouldn’t beget lust, guilt, dishonor, desires so sinfully evocative of his own infallibility.

♡ The truth is, you were never in need of spiritual salvation. From the moment he first laid eyes on you, what Capitano saw was a pure soul—a good person unlikely to commit evil nor fall into true temptation. Moreover, he knows that your sin of disbelief is forgivable unlike your Church’s sins of violence. That so long as you remain as you are, your soul will not be denied paradise, albeit in a realm of Heaven beyond Capitano’s jurisdiction. So why is he incapable of leaving your side?

✿ ⚘

“I had a long, long dream. I dreamed that you and I met again in the pure white world that we created.”

As you read the final line, your gaze leaves the book and returns to Capitano.

“What did you think of the story?”

Your shoulder brushes against his own, a tempting sensation. It is all he can do to remain still, to think against seeking out more of your touch, to remind himself that your close proximity is a mere necessity for your current activity.

The left side of the book, bearing the story’s ending, rests in your left hand. The other side is held in Capitano’s right hand, a blank page devoid of hope for a happy ending. When he turns the page, you seamlessly catch it under your thumb to show the next page.

Who knew of the casual intimacies imbued in the act of reading together?

“It was a well-written novel,” he says simply. “Though her sins tarnished her honor, Rosalyne’s sacrifice was an act of love. Her loss did not hinder her faithfulness to Rostam.”

“I feel the same way,” you muse. “Now I understand why this book was banned centuries ago. Forbidden love between angels and humans…it certainly goes against what the Church taught us about angels. I have to give the author credit for their imagination.”

It’s just the two of you again, this time in the library. At the start of winter, you invited Capitano to your workplace. There, in your greatest show of trust, you brought him to a secret room dedicated to texts banned by the Church for promoting “blasphemy.” Fantasy, erotica, anti-Church publications, first editions of censored books, stories which merely deviated from the Church’s popular depictions of spiritual beings.

Molten Moment belongs to the last category. Little do you know that it was based on a true story, that the author had really formed a pact with a demon called La Signora. Capitano himself is mentioned in the story under his true name.

He was one of the few angels who noticed the changes in Rosalyne’s behavior. She was once an ophanim, an angel with no connection to Earth nor humanity. Yet by some twist of fate, she laid eyes on a brave knight from Mondstadt and began to meet him in her human guise.

He was the first to hear of Rosalyne’s sin, that being she saved Rostam’s life during a battle. It was a direct violation of God’s orders: Angels and demons may influence humans, but they are forbidden from directly altering a human’s lifespan.

He was a silent witness to Rosalyne’s descent. She fell from Heaven, burned by her own flames, yet she had never appeared more ecstatic. In the following years, she married Rostam and lived a happy life with him on Earth.

He was the last to recognize Rostam’s soul at the pearly gates, forever separated from his fallen lover. Such had been Rosalyne’s divine punishment, worsened by her knowledge of this possibility. But what else was she to do? To let Rostam know of her true nature? To drag his soul down to Hell, where he’d be subjected to an eternity of undeserved suffering?

Capitano is no fool. As he read Molten Moment, he began to understand Rosalyne’s sin in a new light. Half the time, he couldn’t even concentrate on the text, his human eyes repeatedly drifting to your intense reading expression.

He closes the book, leaving it in your sole grasp. But before he can stand up from the sofa, you scoot closer and lean your weight on him. The book is placed on a nearby table, forgotten.

“Do you mind?” you whisper. Your right hand, empty since the prologue, traces his left hand.

A moment of silence precedes his response. “You may.”

Wordlessly, you take his hand and intertwine your fingers. A gesture of intimacy, an unspoken confession. Yet as he savors your touch, Capitano wonders if you would harbor the same level of comfort around his true form.

He doubts it. As a Power, he bears an inhuman appearance on par with that of his superiors. It is his true image which has earned him the title of monster by witnessing humans.

Still, he allows himself to indulge in the blessing that is your oblivion. When you look into his two human eyes, there is a soft light in your gaze wholly free of fear.

“Spring is coming soon,” you mutter. “I can’t wait to see the flowers again. Come to think of it, there’s a variety of narcissus which grows only in late spring. It’s very pretty.”

Against his better judgment, Capitano strengthens his grip on your hand. “Shall I take it as an invitation to resume our meetings in the meadow?”

“Sure.” That is when you look up, a small smile adorning your face. “And if you can’t visit for whatever reason, I’ll pick a bouquet and preserve it for you.”

For once, Capitano is rendered speechless.

Rarely do you ever smile. Even to him, you retain your listless disposition—whether it is out of habit or lingering distance, he has yet to discern your reasons. But that is what makes it all the more special, those few instances when he is beholden to your expressions.

He wonders if this is what humans feel in the divine presence of angels, when they are borne witness to all things holy and beautiful.

Your smile is a phenomenon reserved only for the worthiest of souls. And in your grace, he has never felt more undeserving.

✿ ⚘

♡ At the end of winter, a religious war is authorized by the Church of Mondstadt. Shortly after the news reaches your town, Capitano informs you that he will be busy with “work.” He says it during another reading date, featuring Heart of Clear Springs. Before leaving, he kisses your hand and gives you a kind smile. There is a sad look in his eyes, but you don’t inquire further.

♡ In late spring, your town is attacked. With the entire area under fire, from your home to the meadow, you find yourself running back to the sacred building which you’d avoided for years. After all, though the enemy soldiers belong to a different denomination, they still worship the same god as you. In the present, the church is the only place on Earth where you can claim asylum and pray for your survival.

♡ Except every entrance is locked, including the doors to the orphanage. As the army reaches the town square, all you can do is bang on the front doors and beg to be let in. From inside, you can hear the voices of the people that luckily attended mass before the invasion. Some tell you to hide elsewhere, others beg you for forgiveness, a few sound like the nuns and caretakers who tormented you in the past.

♡ Before you can think of another sanctuary, a soldier strikes you. Pain…it has never felt more intense. Through your fading consciousness, you register your body falling and your head hitting the concrete. Blood pools from your forehead and trickles down the steps of the church, tainting it red.

♡ Life flashes before your eyes in a blurry sequence. The static images of God, sermons and bruises, unanswered prayers, people who never believed you or simply didn’t care. A birthday celebrated with your departure from the Church. Sanctuary found in the library followed by the meadow. Yet the numbness remained, each day bleeding into the next in a gloomy haze. In all those years, did you ever feel God’s love?

♡ It doesn’t matter at this point. A small part of you wonders if you should have retained your faith, continued your prayers, sought out salvation in the safety of your solitude. At least then, at the hour of your death, you wouldn’t be confronted with the fact of your humanity. The primal fear of death, the spiritual fear of ending up in Hell no matter Capitano’s reassurances.

♡ Capitano…where is he? Weakly, you call out to him but he doesn’t appear. Of course, why would he? You should feel thankful; it means he is probably safe, wherever he is. Still, you can’t help but wish he were here—if not to save you, as he has done by simply keeping you company, but to comfort you one last time. And those are the thoughts which plague you in your final moments, an unheard prayer on the tip of your tongue.

“I pray that we meet again, myself and the first person who truly loved me.”

♡ ______ died on a cloudy day, one of many people persecuted in the name of God. After the Church was destroyed and its followers slaughtered, their body was buried in a mass grave that once flourished with nature. There was a poignant quality to their countenance, an air of distress as transient as the flowers planted above them.

♡ At least, that is how your story ends from the perspectives of the survivors. But to the angels and demons who witnessed the destruction of your town, your death was only the end of a chapter in your life. In their eyes, Capitano had been present all throughout, an invisible witness to your death, absolute in his refusal to perform an unauthorized miracle.

♡ He remained by your side until the light faded from your eyes. That was when he took notice of the bouquet of narcissus clutched in your hand, tainted with blood despite your feeble efforts to save his gift. A soldier approached your corpse, intending to drag it down the steps for burial; but before they could touch you, Capitano appeared before them.

♡ It was only for a brief second, but the soldier drew back and cowered in fear. In the following days, they were haunted by the memory of the angelic figure who appeared outside the Church of Mondstadt. Or more precisely, the monster who prayed over a bloodstained corpse and took a bouquet of ruined flowers out of their grasp.

✿ ⚘

From the moment you wake up, all peace leaves the meadow.

What happened? Your memory comes back in hazy fragments—death, darkness, blinding light, pearly gates, ethereal figures. Most vivid is the sensation of strong arms and soft feathers, a familiar warmth which accompanied you throughout your journey.

As for your current surroundings, you are in a meadow so beautiful that it brings to mind the Garden of Eden. Flowers of every variety bloom across the scenery, some out of season. The sky is bright, sunless, a canvas of multiple colors. There are no other signs of life.

Internally, too, something feels off. A nearby pond provides a glimpse of your reflection—white garments, gold scars in place of your fatal injuries, your disoriented countenance. If this place is what you think it is…shouldn’t you feel at peace, happy even? And why are you alone?

Your gaze lands on a patch of flowers. Pure white, perianth petals, cup-shaped coronas…the same type of narcissus which grew in your favorite meadow. The flowers point in different directions, as though searching for a sun that does not exist.

“You are awake.”

A shadow touches your form, engulfing you in darkness. It bears a large, unrecognizable shape but such details escape you as you recognize the voice behind you.

“Capitano!” Immediately, you turn around, only to gasp and suppress a scream.

The person before you…can you even call him human? He is incredibly tall, to the point that you must crane your neck to see his face—assuming there is one beneath his iron mask. His body is clad in silver armor, stained blood in some places. A halo, shaped like a crown of thorns, shines behind his head.

But what shocks you are his wings. A single pair covered in radiant white feathers and eerily dark blue eyes. Each eye seems to glow with an uncanny aura.

Dark blue eyes with a striking resemblance to Capitano’s. What more for his long black hair and his solemn manner of speaking?

It doesn’t make your revelation any less unsettling.

“Capitano.” Your voice comes out in a nervous whisper. “Is it really you? You’re a…”

“An angel,” he confesses. He takes a step back, widening the distance between your bodies. “I ask that you pardon my appearance. Such was my sacrifice—for my true form, in all of its monstrosity, to be my sole image.”

His human face comes to mind, along with the kind gaze you fell in love with.

You feel the weight of multiple gazes on you. “What do you mean?”

“Is this realm to your satisfaction?” he asks. “I beseeched God to create a special paradise for you, cut off from the rest of Heaven. The price is that your capacity to feel negative emotions remains in this realm…though that is preferable.”

Preferable? How so? Right now, you can barely process what he is telling you. You are dead. Your companion is an angel. Your soul is in paradise, but not exactly.

After everything you’ve been through, you were still deemed worthy of a place in Heaven.

“I am sorry.”

Capitano’s voice brings you back to reality. He has never sounded more serious, emotional, repentant. And when you look up…

Is he crying?

Most of his eyes remain open, focusing on you with a fervent stare. But others are downcast, as if unable to face you. And a few appear glossy, blinking back iridescent tears.

“I am truly sorry.” He bows his head in shame, wings folded. “What I did to you was cruel, an absolute injustice.”

You don’t know which eyes to make contact with. “You—”

“It must have been painful,” he continues. “Even if I were to justify my actions, the truth lies in the fact that I tolerated your suffering for my own selfish desires. And that is why I ask not for your forgiveness, knowing I am the one at fault.”

Silence. In light of Capitano’s confession, all you can do is stare at him and comprehend the weight of your situation. What exactly are you supposed to feel, knowing his betrayal? Knowing that regardless of your feelings, you have nowhere else to go in the afterlife?

Yet despite it all, your prayer came true. The two of you were able to meet again.

And that is what compels you to take a step forward, to come closer until you are standing in front of him. “Hey, it’s…don’t cry.”

A delicate sensation blesses his wings—your hands carefully tracing his feathers to wipe away his tears. Several eyes widen in surprise, but all he can see in your gaze is sympathy.

“I’ll admit, it was painful,” you tell him. “Dying alone. But maybe it’s…better this way. If I survived, I’d have to deal with the loss of my home. And who knows what kind of living hell the other Church would’ve put me through?”

Above all, Capitano is the only person whose love you can believe in.

Hesitantly, you take his hand and intertwine your fingers. The next words to leave your lips are spoken with certainty, bringing fresh tears to his eyes.

“I’m sure it was an act of love on your part.”

His reaction is sudden, incurring your surprise. But all you can do is surrender to Capitano’s embrace, allow his free arm to hold your waist and pull you closer to him. His wings wrap around you, caging you in soft feathers and eerie blue orbs.

“Capitano?” You can only look up at him, peering into the contents of his mask.

…It’s like staring into an abyss, a night sky dotted with twinkling blue stars. But in the absence of a human likeness, his words express what a face cannot.

“Never again,” he vows, “shall I allow harm to befall you. That is a promise.”

The hand on your waist moves upwards to caress your face. His touch is light, more hesitant than his previous gestures.

“You need not serve God nor partake in fruitful labor like the other souls in Heaven. All I ask is that you rest, indulge yourself, enjoy this paradise to the fullest.”

A flower is pinned to his armor, right above his heart. You recognize it instantly—a narcissus in full bloom, stained with your blood.

“If you desire a flower, it shall grow at once. If there are any books you would like to read, they shall be brought to you shortly.”

What was the name of that variety again? Narcissus triandrus. Angel’s tears.

“If you are in need of my presence, I shall appear before you, so long as I am not in the midst of battle. And should you ever desire the opposite, I can promise my distance.”

When Capitano looks into your eyes, all he can see is his own reflection. Whatever emotion colors your gaze, it casts his true image in a compassionate light.

“I shall do everything in my power to bring you joy for all of eternity. Such will be my penance.”

“...All right.” With that, you close your eyes and lean into his touch. He feels warm, comfortingly familiar. “I’ll trust you on that.”

Rest in peace, ______.

Think not of your mortal body in the beginning stages of decay.

Think not of your tormentors who are paying for their sins in Hell.

Think only of eternity with your beloved savior.

♡

Note:: Church AU is still on my “will not write” list. I only wrote this because I specifically like Priest! Dottore and Angel! Capitano. Please do not send me any Church AU asks/ requests involving other characters or dynamics.

Aahhhh it's done....this idea turned out much heavier than expected, but I'm glad that I was able to write this!! I hope you all cried over enjoyed the story of Angel! Capitano and his damsel. They were truly a delight to write for~

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i tried weeping

#reblog #yk that one post which goes 'ugh i’m so mad i’m going to go home and touch my husband’s tits so i won’t be mad'#yeahh this is how i feel about this art #ohhh to gaze upon the artistry that is pantalone's well-endowed booba styled with a harness and chest cutout......#or to relieve one's stress by hugging him and sobbing into his pillowy chest :'>#!! OR TO YANK HIM BY THE HARNESS AND LEAVE LOVE BITES ON THAT EXPOSED SLIVER OF SKIN--#at this point. idk how else to clown in op's tags edknkdnknek #time for art-style comments!! i can rlly see the effort you put into this sketch such as the shirt textures #and honestly?? as a thirst trap. this outfit is styled pretty well. the shirt clinging to his figure.....the belt.....the color palette #which suits pantalone's aesthetic......his usual ponytail drawing more attention to his chest window.....#aight i think that's enough reblogging and clowning from me xD #once again op. thank you for feeding the pantalone and dottore stannies. may both sides of your pillow always be cold uwu #and may pantalone bless you with wealth + success for feeding his simps #pantalone #genshin impact #fatui harbingers

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Come get your food

#reblog #so i decided it's about time that i finally reblog and comment on this art. but i underestimated the frequency with which i can revisit #this post and react just as incoherently as i did the first time i saw it #*deep breath* DKDENDKNDWK THANK YOU OP THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU #as a pantalone enjoyer. i am always happy to find new content of our favorite banker #and as a sadist. i am fcking delighted #a character restrained with chain and visibly disheveled......aahhhh this is everything i'm into X'3 #and it's more impactful with pantalone since he's typically characterized as someone that would never allow himself to be in that position #HIS SMILE?? HIM SECRETLY ENJOYING THE TORTURE MAYHAPS??#art-wise. this is so gorgeous. i rlly love the mix of pink lighting and shadows #op your ability to make nosebleeds + bloodstains look so attractive must be studied #AND THE TEARS IN HIS CLOTHING!! HNGGGGG #yeah umm i don't think there's anything else i can say about this art apart from 1) it's beautiful 2) i love it 3) more screaming #everyone. do make sure to check out op's other artworks of dottore and pantalone!! i promise that you'll enjoy it to the fullest uwu #pantalone #fatui harbingers #genshin impact #spicy warning

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#reblog #it physically pains me that i will never be able to tie dottore up and bend him over my desk and [redacted]#dottore x bondage.......what a perfect pairing. not to mention a canon pairing if his harness is anything to go by--#yeah umm idk what to say aside from SKNDKEDNDKNSWJSNWJSWNSWJNDKEDNKDENK I WANNA WRECK HIM SO BAD #OP HOW DOES IT FEEL TO HAVE A BRAIN SO BIG #HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BLESS THE DOTTORE AND PANTALONE MASSES WITH YOUR CREATIONS #*clears throat* art-wise. you drew him so well #his shit-eating grin.....the loose tendrils of hair obscuring his face.....the texture of the ropes artfully tied in an aesthetic pattern #everything about this is *chef's kiss*#i'm sorry i simply cannot be sane when it comes to your art #dottore #il dottore #genshin impact #fatui harbingers #spicy warning

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Help, I told a friend about the Blade matchup and this was her reply. So perhaps @mochinon-yah’s thought process wasn’t entirely crazy xD

Guess who had a crack idea bc of your thought process for shipping me with Blade + the fact that I don’t know much about the character::

…..Isn’t this basically like a Blind Date AU between me and Blade?? xD

My thought process is either somewhat reasonable and detailed or just plain up crazy and messy like that match up-

…..Isn’t this basically like a Blind Date AU between me and Blade?? xD

Errr, i guess so? Haha;;;; no- jess- run away- he's no good for you-! If he's obsessed with you, he's gonna chase after you no matter how far away you are- AND MOST OF ALL, HIS NAME IS BLADE. LIKE WHO HAS THAT KIND OF NAME???? But anyway, don't jess-

#the jessablade saga progresses lol #also. can i just say it’s rlly funny to read my mutuals’ comments and reblogs where they’re all ‘how did you go from capitano to blade for #jessamine.’ just how red are his flags xD #jessamine rambles

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Someday, I want to list down all of the fashion terms/ references I’ve made in my writing and Darlings’ designs. Idk it sounds fun :3

#jessamine rambles #from the top of my head. i can recall kitty! darling’s esclavage necklace (in housecat) and how my character design for her was inspired by #the chanel chain dress and bulgari choker xD #ohh and savior’s necklace is supposed to be a festoon necklace ^o^#as for the others….miguel o’hara’s darling has a chain belt inspired by chanel >:3 #and ofc there’s that time i wrote a description for friend! darling’s outfit which was based on chanel’s 1995 spring ready-to-wear collecti #ohh and for my church au!! i haven’t mentioned it here yet. but priesttore’a hell outfit has a modified version of the diy heart shirt that #trended earlier this year. while his fallen seraph darling’s outfit has a back cutout inspired by simone rocha’s autumn/ winter 2022 #i also have another darling design which might incorporate the vivienne westwood orb earrings and roberto cavalli #backless dress #and just today i learned about rusly tjohnardi’s capes #which could work for demon! pantalone’s outfit #hold up. did i just list everything already….?? xD #aahh i love fashion…….

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(me after seeing that reblog)

*squishes you gently* you. you. youuuuuuuu ;w; /pos

Fufufu (๑╹ω╹๑ )

#thank you for the cat gif uwu #now allow me to squish you back sksk #jessamine rambles #meimeimeirin #asks

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i feel like zhongli would be the type to be absolutely and utterly horrified when he knows you've skipped a meal.

he understands that your job make you busy and sometimes it's best to not break your focus from the task you're currently doing. and he understands that most of the time, when you miss your mealtime, there are lots of factors that makes it hard to leave your post just to shove some nutrients into your stomach.

still, he thinks you being in a hungry state for an extended period of time is a crime. it's simply unacceptable.

so he tries hard to always make sure you always have a snack with you. maybe a thermos full of tea to go with it too. and of course he'd also try to get you to eat a whole meal.

if you work from home, be prepared to be hounded by a worried husband who would literally spoon-feed you your lunch while you're working. if you're really not in the situation which would allow you to eat, rest assured that he'll go as far as putting milk into your tea or get a boba delivered right onto your shared abode's doorstep. if push comes to shove, he'd walk in with a tray of food while you're on an internal video call and gently reminds everyone in the room that you're going to eat lunch first and that's final.

if you work from the office, sure, it would be harder for him to dote on you. but he's not above subtly messaging you to indirectly ask/remind you to eat. expect pictures of the lunch he's having along with messages like "i had a nice lunch. what did you have for lunch, my love? may i see it?" and if, god forbid, you continue with the habit of eating lunch late, don't be surprised if he pops into your office and smiles warmly at the receptionist as he declares that he's there to pick you up for lunch.

all in all, 10/10 husband who feeds you as an act of love.

#reblog #OHHH HOW CUTE >:’0 #zhongli…..what a good husband uwu #reading rin’s work reminds me of my early days in the genshin fandom (read:: liking fan art and fanfics just bc the characters were hot #and not knowing what actually happened in the game xD )#back then. the first ever character to catch my eye was zhongli!! so it feels very nostalgic lol #anyway. if you saw your spam notifs. just know i’ll get to the other fics when i’m less busy #i speed-read a few of them and aahhh expect lots of ramblings for your ‘lipstick’ and ‘collar’ drabbles when the time comes <3 #also the one about pantalone and firearms bc OHH THE IDEAS <3 #aight back to zhongli. you write his soft side so well #your version of zhongli is so affectionate and husband-coded #ahhh this zhongli binge will be enjoyable #zhongli #zhongli x reader #aahhh one of my fave genshin artists is here!!#genshin impact

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The “oh I could definitely write this fanfic in under 5000 words and it really wouldn’t take me that long” voice in your head is actually the devil speaking

#reblog #HELP #i mean. you’re not wrong T0T #thinking about it now. i can’t believe it’s been two years since i wrote my harbinger longfic series #truly an era on this blog xD #jessamime rambles

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Noted, thank you for your input as the one who is more knowledgeable about Blade between the two of us. Hopefully, your matchup does not turn that nightmare into a reality xD

Guess who had a crack idea bc of your thought process for shipping me with Blade + the fact that I don’t know much about the character::

…..Isn’t this basically like a Blind Date AU between me and Blade?? xD

My thought process is either somewhat reasonable and detailed or just plain up crazy and messy like that match up-

…..Isn’t this basically like a Blind Date AU between me and Blade?? xD

#read the linked post to understand what’s going on xD #i don’t play hsr so my knowledge on blade is limited #i just know that he used to be ‘yingxing.’ he’s chasing after dan heng. and that he’s a stellaron hunter/ kafka’s coworker #oh and that yingxing knew dan feng and jingyuan #welp this is funny. at least i got matched with a pretty. stylish man xD #reblog #mochinon-yah #jessamine rambles

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Ohhh?? I never knew Reli was a matchmaker xD

Ngl Capitano sounds rlly accurate, seeing how I once answered a FMK with “Marry Capitano.” I just think he’s husband material—calm, reliable, respectful of his lover’s personal boundaries. Also, I have enough solo hobbies to prevent me from feeling lonely during his missions :>

Now, Blade is interesting bc I don’t know much about him. I will say that I find him attractive in terms of physical appearance and HIS OUTFIT!! As a fashion girlie, I rlly like his personal style so I doubt that I’d get tired of looking at him xD

I just realized we all technically have the power to ask any questions on this site, and I never got to doing it. So....

[Points S.E.E.S evoker at you]

Who are the fictional characters you ship your mutuals to? Doesn't have to be necessarily their self-ship. I am deadass curious. Spill the tea, Imbibitor's lover—

We can lower that down, brynn- no need to get all aggressive now-

*cough* ANYWAY!

I'll list them down below, and if they're not accurate or you're actually gonna fight them rather than making out with the characters that i chose then yeah, that is probably my plan 😀 /silly

Oh and! I'll mostly be using genshin and hsr characters because yeah-

@beloved-brynn -> heizou and ratio. NGL, YOU + HEIZOU, OR YOU + RATIO, OR EVEN THE THREE OF YOU WOULD TOTALLY BE SO FUNNY AND CHAOTIC 😭☝️ they can counter your wild statements while also being the (somewhat) saner one but could also say smth wild as well. I could see you and one of em (possibly ratio) be like "oh yeah, the other day, i was eating my lunch while watching that gorey movie-" "what." "yeah, i was hungry at that time, so like why not yk-" (this is based on my real experience guys, guess which dialogue is me lmao)

@meimeimeirin -> hmmmm, koh zhongli maybe? Okay, let me tell you the reason why... it's simply because she NEEDS someone who can pamper her! I don't know where that conclusion came from, but yeah. Anyway, if we're talking about other characters, then i think welt, or even zayne from lnd could fit. Basically: "I need someone older, just a little bit colder." lmao (oh, mochi, did this conclusion came up because you know rin's the youngest in her family and now you ship her with men older (and more experienced) than her? whaatt... ofc not, haha-)

@leftdestiny-posts -> absolutely cannot see them with anyone other than dottore. Cute and kind but is secretly crazy "i want to watch the world burn" x The human version of the word 'crazy' "as you wish, my love" would be their dynamic, i suppose...? WAIT OH! I can actually see shiro with ayato or maybe sunday! I bet they would like such a cute, innocent-looking darling to control, but then they would get so surprised and maybe super interested into trying to control the darling despite how crazy the darling actually is- (shiro ily, if ur crazy then we can be crazy together 💐)

@navxry -> arlechinno, and maybe black swan. Yeah, that's it. No explanation needed.

@jessamine-rose -> hmmm, would it be weird if i say capitano? I don't know why or how did i get to that conclusion, but yeah. And maybe blade? IDK WHY I'M PARTNERING HER WITH CRAY CRAY MEN- SORRY JESS, I (subconsciously) THINK YOU CAN LIKE CALM THEM OR SMTH AJFIAWOF-

@stardust-for-your-soul -> funnily enough, i can see her with aventurine. They'll say sweet words that probably have a double meaning and also probably have a teeny tiny bit (maybe a lot lmao) of 'enemies to lovers' moment. (wow, cherry, your new bf is a gambler- /smack). But anyway, i could also see her be with march 7th who is so bubbly and sweet, and i'd think cherry would love to tease march hehe

@teabutmakeitazure -> ACTUALLY NGL DAN HENG????? He would listen to her ramblings and also help her write her fics. It just sounds so cute in my opinion lol. Other than dan heng (who is obviously the best choice), zuri would probably look into red flag charas, like... yeah, aventurine- but still tho, dan heng! But i get what zuri is thinking tho, red is such a sexy color- /smack

@harmonysanreads -> ngl alhaitham or kaeya would be cute if paired up with her! Idk where did kaeya come from, but when i thought about it, instantly "cute!". I think, harmony has this really 'weird' calming aura that could make those two charas just fell in love with how comfortamble she can make them feel. BUT LIKE IDK THO-

@fishanonishere -> Albedo...... i think? Fish, i know what you are- i mean like as in how chaotic and just how 'what in the world is this person thinking???' you are. With how calming and 'would jump into any interesting topic' he is, i think fish and him could be such a cute duo. Fish's ramblings and their drawings are some of the things that make him really interested in fish

#reblog #thanks for mentioning me. reli <3 #i don’t selfship but it’s rlly fun to read my mutuals’ thoughts on who they’d pair me with #i also enjoyed reading the other ships. shiro’s sounds very accurate and brynn’s sounds like prime comedy content #+ your explanations made this even more enjoyable to read >:3 #mochinon-yah

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