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robbiwrites717 · 6 years

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Master list of my Davekat fic recs.( SFW LIST HERE ) I wanted to include my thoughts about each fic but it’s been well over a year since I read most of them and it would have been exhausting to read back through all of them so i just included the authors’ summaries instead. I have major respect for every fic and author on this list, seriously they’re amazing <3 Happy Reading !

All I Know Are Sad Songs - by ayyyy(RosaAquafire) - Alpha TImeline - Ch 36/?- 122731 words

The world is ending. Dave Strider can't tell if the bender he's on is because of that, or because of how bad stuff is fucked up with Rose, or just because his own bullshit has finally caught up to him. All he knows is that if the world DOES end today, maybe that wouldn't be the worst thing.Of course, he can't throw in the towel. His fate is already written. He raises a resistance. He duels the false presidents. He stands against the Empress herself. So maybe that's why Skaia allows a glitch that carries a consciousness across sessions that might save Dave's shitty life. (this is the only fic I’ll put my own notes on because it is absolutely and unequivocally my favorite fic ever. I almost didn’t read it because of the tags but the author handles every issue so seriously and beautifully, I can not stess enough how amazing this fic is!!!)

A wish upon a fountain or a falling start - by twofoldaxiom - Fantasy AU - Ch 25/25 - 51379 words

Your name is Karkat Vantas and you fell from the sky.You hadn't meant to; you were trying to make a wish by catching a fallen star by the tail. The star turned out to be stronger than you. Now, on Earth, alone and unsure of yourself, what can you do except find someone who might believe? And what do you do when you yourself start to question?

a fever you’re learning to live with - by callmearcturus - post sburb/sgrub - Ch 1/1 - 3974 words

This feels like winning. You are learning to live with the feeling more and more, like building up a poison resistance.

A Stunning Tour De Force - by Rag - Earth C - Ch 1/1 - 5101 words

"A triumph."

-Dave Strider, about getting his dick sucked for the first time

All I Can Taste Is The Sugar In Your Hair - by LandofMistandSecrets - Earth C - Ch 1/1 - 13614

Trickster Dave is a god damn treasure and no one can tell me otherwise.Some scenes from the Rosemary wedding, but really, this is about Dave being high on cherub candy and really, really, really wanting his boyfriend to fuck him. (Not intended to be dubcon, but if you have issues with altered mental states or pushy partners in the context of an established relationship it might be not great for you! Take care.)

Alternia Shuffle - by Essynkardi & twofoldaxiom - 1950s/detective AU- Ch 2/? - 4646 words

Your name is Dave Strider, and you're a twenty-six year old detective working for the Alternia City Police Department as senior officer Pyrope's partner and occasional chewtoy. It's already a messy job, but it gets messier when you end up the sole witness to an assassination during an art exhibit.Now you have to simultaneously cover your ass and uncover all the clues to find out who did it and who could be next, and things only get more complicated when you have to face a few things you've been covering up yourself.

Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Guy With Slightly More Self-Esteem - by LandofMistandSecrets - Earth C- Ch 1/1 - 7347 words

Dave is really attracted to his boyfriend, and determined to prove it.

Believe M When I Say Fuck - by Rag - earth c - Ch 1/1 - 4997 words

karkat goes and fucks himself

By the Letter (of the law) - by Asuka Kureru(Askerian) - Ch 4/4 - 10582 words

"No, but answer me this, do you want to invalidate this whole farce of a legal and religious joining of blah-di-fucking-blah? Because I have looked at your laws and if we don't consummate the union it's not valid!"

Anonymous asked: Davekat. Arranged marriage! The first time they are alone together is on their wedding night.

Now with actual sex, woo! Also several pages of Karkat and Dave being the dorkiest knights ever knighted.

Dave Strider Has Abs - by Miriage - High School AU (not explicit but i forgot to put it on my sfw list :/)

"Your name is Karkat Vantas and you’re mad.You’re really really really fucking mad.You’re mad because Dave-fucking-Strider has abs.Has serious abs.Has abs that you could grate shit on.Has abs that would make girls fall over and die.Has abs that gay men would weep for."

Dive in Deeper - by carnivorousBelvedere - Vacation AU - Ch 4/7 - 8298

Karkat is going on vacation during his birthday with Rose and Kanaya. They gift him a scuba certification class.The catch?Dave is taking it with him.

egg pun - by Rag - earth c - Ch 1/1 - 4518 words

dave and karkat explore the magical world of eggs

Flight Recorder From Viking 7 - by Royalrastafariannaynays - Space/Future/Pilots AU - Ch 7/7 - 31136 words

Dave Strider is a way-too-lonely transport pilot assigned to a high-pay low-stakes mission over the Christmas holiday. He's got a blistering hangover, a conscience full of nightmares, and an angry copilot. All he needs now is a nice bout of feeling worthless and-- well would ya look at that, he's got that, too. Time for takeoff, Houston, the water's just fine.Or: In which Dave Strider discovers a modicum of self worth while stuck on a trip through foreign space, with a short, irritable, and annoyingly attractive troll as his only conversational partner for the next two weeks.

Helter Skelter - by HexMeridan(myrainbowshoelaces) - post sburb-sgrub - Ch 1/1 - 6281 words

Dave gets a visit from Future Dave, and between the two of them, they give Karkat the night of his life. Over and over again.

Hit the Deck: A davekat fic- by awkwardfawn - restaurant AU - Ch 15/? - 68875 words

I present a story in which Karkat works at a restaurant where you're supposed to be rude to the customers. It's sort of the gimmick there. Normally he can handle what he's given at work and give it right back, but this just might be the straw that breaks the load. Little does our kitkat know that Dave can dish the shit better than anyone out there. Sarcastic adult boys will be sarcastic. I hope this will be as slow burning as I want it to be, but then again it probably won't.

Inveterate - by Rag - earth C - Ch 1/1 - 4441 words

dave and karkat try bdsm

it goes well until it doesnt

Just A Thing We Do - by LandofMistandSecrets - Earth C - Ch 1/1 - 14941 words

“Apparently, you inspired him to try initiating amorous… activities… over these stupid devices!” Karkat waved his phone at him, punctuating the accusation. “Do you actually just casually proposition Dirk while he’s busy with other people?!”Jake shot him a wide-eyed look, freezing halfway through shoveling a handful of popcorn in his mouth. He slowly lowered his hand, blinking rapidly, eyebrows furrowing behind his glasses. “I -- well, what’s that to any of you, exactly?”(Or, as I have been calling it, The DaveKat Sexting Fic. ENJOY)

Love Bites - by notwest - earth c - Ch 1/1 - 2366

What if hickeys were the first mark on Dave's body he liked?

Midnight on the Demon Patrol - by Asuka Kureru(Askerian) - Ch 30/? - 233688 words

Fighting fire with fire is okay in theory but Detective-Summoner Dave L. Strider figures trying to summon corporeal demons to the mortal plane to fight other demons is likely to backfire spectacularly. Sadly for him his inner Knight gets the vapors at the thought of letting anyone else play guinea pig.Yup, he is totally hogging the demon. What could go wrong? (Oh no, Dave, why did you have to think that.)

Red Converse - by MageofHeart - Humanstuck AU - Ch 16/16 - 26648 words

Due to a seizure, Karkat Vantas now has to learn how to live his life with two speech aphasia. He goes to therapy three times a week, suffers from awful headaches, and tries to avoid people as much as possible.Due to a traumatic experience, Dave Strider refuses to use his words, preferring to relay his snarky comments and witty banter through sign language and typing on his phone.They meet in a waiting room.

Sugar and Spice - by Dawngyocry - Humanstuck/Coming of Age Fic - Ch 2/2 - 44734 words

You remember the first time you really realized you were fucked up.You were five. First year of kindergarten, miserable as all fuck. The teacher told the boys to line up on one side of the room and the girls on the other. You don't even remember why. You just remember the result.

Sunday Morning - Nomisupernova - earth c - Ch 1/1 - 3561 words

“Hey Dave?” You rest your arm at your side, his hand finds yours and he entwines his fingers with yours. His ring clinks against your ring and it makes your heart skip a beat to think about it.He looks at you, blinking sleepily, “Yes Karkat?”“I love you.”He laughs softly, a beautiful sound to your ears, “I love you too, Kar.”

The Cold Never Bothered Me Anyway - by ectoBisexual - ski lodge AU - Ch 1/1 - 4128 words

During a trip to a ski lodge with their friends, Dave and Karkat end up stuck in an elevator. It sucks, but it's not the worst thing in the world. Until the power goes out and it starts to get really, really cold.

The Eurydice Suite - by callmearcturus - post sburb/sgrub - Ch 15/15 - 97103 words

Dream-sharing. A highly illegal little industry in which agents delve into people's dreams and unearth their deepest secrets and memories. And the Strider-Lalondes are the best in the business.Until Dirk Strider gets his fool ass trapped within the confines of his own subconscious, with his Auto-Responder playing malicious prison warden. To save him, it's going to take a team of the world's most talented dreamers to save him.Backed by the token rich friend, lead by the surliest extractor ever bribed out of retirement, haunted by the shade of the l8est and gr8est agent

The Finer Points Of Plantsitting - by LandofMistandSecrets - Earth C - Ch 1/1 - 9323 words

Jade & Davepeta are taking off on a presumably romantic weekend retreat. Dave and Karkat are left in charge of the plants.It's just one weekend. There's no way this goes wrong.Or, uh. Gets weird. Right???

The Sex Number - by ayyyy(RosaAquafire - earth c = Ch 1/1 - 3788 words

CG: IS OR IS THERE NOT ANY SOCIETAL OR CULTURAL SIGNIFICANCE TO THE NUMBER 69?

TT: Ah, yes.

TT: The sex number.

TT: This is where I slowly wink.

CG: OH, CHRIST.

What To Do When You See Your Best Bro Naked - by Miriage - College/female kk AU - Ch 2/2 - 7464 words

"Still, when you walked out of the bathroom with a towel around your waist and a smaller one ruffling your black hair, you weren’t expecting him to be there and he wasn’t expecting you to be wearing sans almost nothing."A story in which Dave Strider falls in love after he sees Karkat Vantas naked.(Also, Karkat has AA boobs and Dave is into it.)

#gonna do a dirkjake list next #fic recs #fic rec list #read responsibly lads #davekat #dave strider #karkat vantas #homestuck #i will definitely need to add more to these later

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leximsiel · 5 years

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My journey so far in Real Life (2 of 2)

Part of me isn’t so sure if I should be sharing some of my darkest years with the world (even though my blog doesn't actually catch any attention), but then if I don’t make it through this at least there won’t be any mysteries or unanswered questions.

Anyway.

Having partially reintegrated and immersed myself into society, the one that's not accessed through the internet, I continued the social exercises I set myself when I took the opportunity and moved to one of my favourite cities. Again starting afresh in a new place, I had still found myself freezing up in unfamiliar social situations, more apparently so with people with what I see as authority figures, people that I'd look up to, those that I don't think would like me (see a self fulfilling prophecy there?), or girls that are my type (visually and/or, once I get to know them, through personality). Some of these problems had existed in my younger years, but instead of ignoring them or avoiding certain situations, this time round I kept pushing myself whenever I can. Taking on challenges with a positive mindset.

Often afterwards I'd think about how I could have better responded or make further interactions instead, and try to learn from it. Social experiences, I find, are relative rather than absolute, but I do keep doing what I can to keep growing as a person. Despite one uphill battle after another, I know happiness would ever remain in the distant if I give up and stayed the same.

In some way, I feel lucky to have picked up Swing dancing, more specifically, Lindy Hop, before I left my last city. And I am ever grateful to life for this. It’s been helping me a lot in expanding my comfort zone in different ways, first and foremost, bringing strangers to a physical distance I previously wouldn’t normally allow, giving me countless chances to engage with people from all walks of life. At first, I just kept telling myself to look "cool, calm, and collected," hahaha!

Eventually, with a keen interest in other people's lives and their stories, I started properly making friends again. The weird feelings were still there, and often I had still found myself thinking on the spot for things to say and end up with not much, coming up with stupid things, regretting it afterwards. (Later, my experience would tell me that society is still not ready for negative conversations being made among friends, and I started learning not to share some of my deepest thoughts, after losing a few because I shared too much. Perhaps I'm just not as compatible with others as I'd like.)

Alongside, I had other little things that kept me from feeling more fulfilled about life. Random memory problems (recalling names of people as well as some mild form of anomic aphasia), minute unconscious stereotypy / bias / assumptions, weird grandiosity as a protection mechanism (I think this is an artifact of my once-upon-a-time full blown arrogance), just to name a couple.

Overtime, my goals on the small changes I want for myself had become smaller and more specific. Eventually, one day I noticed I no longer felt anything untowards when I walked into a supermarket. The social anxiety that I introduced myself to had, seemingly, gone. My original social difficulties were still there, and this time round, I was very motivated and deterministic in getting rid of it or at least minimising the recurrent damage that it's been causing. Last year, for the first time, I realised that I could have basic conversations with a crush, and while this year I am trapped even deeper with my feelings, I could now properly share most things on my mind. Painful would be an understatement when it comes to the repercussions, anyhow at least now I can finally express my feelings for someone.

Today, I still leave home with no one to say goodbye to, and return to marvel at the pity of the walls. Sadly I don't think my heart can take much of what's going on anymore. Going around saying things you don't really mean to different girls just isn't me.

Despite experience and environment telling me to become otherwise, I remain emotionally driven. So stubborn that I am, I simply believe I am happiest when I'm in a relationship - I’d much rather be dealing with all the “problems” that one might face than the emptiness that won’t stop eating you from within.

And I'd rather perish with what I value than living as someone/thing without principles.

Making conversation remains a challenge in specific moments, particularly those that would have really mattered. I am still a stupid boy that just don't say the right things at the right time.

Still, I much prefer this MMO (fair, it's not really an online game) I’ve now been playing called Real Life. Hidden stats for yourself and others (or, only partially available when you use expensive apparatus or tests), no radar, no second chances, limited choices in your appearance, there's disparity right at the very start, there's mandatory enrolment to start playing, no way to tell what your quality of connections are with those around you, but, it's the most popular game there is and you get a potential shot at everything.

And without realising it so much, suddenly one day, Real Life did become real life.

Maybe it's a curse yet to be lifted. Maybe the curse isn’t meant to be lifted.

Perhaps I really don't deserve happiness. Perhaps no matter what my feelings will never be returned. But I don't know that if I don't try.

#RealLife #SocialAnxiety #ComfortZone #Feelings #Emotions

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