#it’s my place where i calm down

[urlocalsadkid-l]

banned from MY OWN bedroom take 1,276,000

#like dude #what the actually fuck #it’s MY ROOM #it’s my place where i calm down #‘meh meh meh your so angry all the time it’s cause your always in your fucking room meh meh meh’ #NO. #SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!! #it’s calming me down #and if i didn’t get room time i would end up murdering someone #because #i am ALWAYS mad #i’m ALWAYS feeling my feelings to a new extreme #just let me go calm down for the love of god #please #please it is my room #i just need to be in there #urlocalsadkid l #text post #vent

[h0estar]

Yukine's journey toward acceptance of the life that was robbed of him, this time with finality, exemplifies the emotional and beautifully rendered arc that has defined his character.

Yukine finally accepting the reality of his death. Yukine stepping out from the fridge that contained memories of what was once his life. Yukine freeing himself from the shackles of his trauma. Yukine running to protect the person who cherished him the most in the world. Yukine standing up to an abusive father. Yukine wholeheartedly apologizing. Yukine's growth, and Yato tearing up as he stretches his little arms to pull him for an embrace.

Yukine's gratitude for what Yato did for him is evident throughout the series. He was given a name more precious than any other. He was treated like a human--an ordinary teenage boy. And life after that was one exciting journey after another. Now, Yukine can no longer be entirely consumed by the horrors of his past because he knows that his reality with Yato is so much brighter. Far brighter.

Yukine could break out from that refrigerator because of the true, sincere, and nurturing love shown by the only father figure in his life. Yato has said multiple times throughout the series that Yukine was his priority above all else, and Yukine was the only person he swore to protect the most. Hell, he even went straight to hug him after Yukine apologized for turning into that form! Yato did not need to summon Yukine. Yukine came to protect Yato on his own decision. As he always did.

The journey to their healing will be painful, and this chapter shows that Yato and Yukine will face it together. No more secrets and no more miscommunications. They will help and be by each other's side as they always have, not only as god and shinki but, this time, as family.

"I will not let him die. Not Yato. No matter what happens... I swear I won't let anyone take him from me!" -Yukine, Noragami Vol. 17 Chapter 67.

#noragami manga #noragami 104.2 #ah yes i've finally calmed down #i am still however sad as fuck but at the same time relieved #my boys have reconciled and i look forward to the yato and yukine duo once again :') #i was rereading my fave chapters and i missed seeing them in battle TOGETHER #hopefully we get that next chapter when they completely annihilate father <3 #i love them so much and i love this series sm #i will never shut up abt them man. their father and son dynamic is one of the best and i will stand by this till the day i die #i remember a post i made abt hoping yukine's life w yato will outweigh the grief of his past #and it did :'))))) it really did. yukine realized that himself and now he is back with yato #he is back by yato's side. the place where he rightfully belongs #i'm so emotional rn holy shit i've had this chapter dominate my head for the whole day today #anw WAR IS OVER LADIES Yukine has come back home 😭🫶 #noragami #noragami spoilers #yukine #yato #mine

[valkaryah]

GO CON thats MY man thats MY fucking president. put that lil slimeball in his place... who the fuck does he think he is to air quote willa, connors wife and the peoples princess.

#succession #connor roy #conwilla #and when he got up he reminded me of logan because of his size like con actually is a big man especially when he's next to his short #feeble younger brothers. Logan wasnt as tall as Con but he was a bigger man in size and he always occupied every room he LOOMS and #in that moment when Con got up and put his hand on Romans shoulder to put him in his damn place I saw Logan's large presence but calm #and kind like do you see where im getting at?!?!?! anyways fuck yeah Con you're my fucking president and fuck you Roman #you got a little bit of power fucked up with gerri and then decide to treat all women - your brothers wife included - like shit? calm down #this scene made my night! sorry for the rant #valkaryah talks

[proxissima]

Over and Done With

An excerpt from All but One by @aconstantstateofbladerunner... aka the fic with the rawest non-villain version of All Might I've personally had the pleasure of reading so far.

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All for One’s ugly mug gazed confidently out the mansion’s floor-to-ceiling window like the untouchable god he thought he was for far too long.  Then he turned around, and sealed his fate.  The greatest villain Japan had ever known’s skull was no tougher than the glass Toshinori burst through compared to the raw force of One for All. 

He went flying, but steadied himself mid-air with some quirk.  “S-so,” he hacked.  “You must be the new pe-“

Toshinori caught the monster’s chin with a right hook.  Then he grabbed with the left. 

He crushed the jaw until it was practically liquid, then yanked what was left clean off.  All for One screamed, raw and unfiltered. 

An energy pulse pushed Toshinori back.  Some lackeys tried to come at him.  Toshinori backhanded a windblast that imbedded them in the walls.

All for One attempted hover away down the hall.  Every piece of glass in the room shattered with the force of Toshinori’s leap.  He went for the neck.  The bastard under his bloodied hands hacked fire and bile.  Shapes and shadows of a quirk danced at the corners of Toshinori’s vision.  Another slam into the floor cut it off.  He grabbed his hair-

Curly.  Dark.  No!

He grabbed a handful of his hair and yanked it off before digging the same fist deeper into his brains.  The marble floor cratered.  A sudden electrical shock loosened Toshinori’s grip just enough for All for One to force-jump away.  But he didn’t get far.  Toshinori was on him before he could even stumble.  He slammed his heel into the beast’s back; his spine snapped like a twig.  Gurgled wails almost drowned out the satisfying sound.

The floor collapsed and they fell into a kitchen.  More lackeys.  More hurricane-force winds.

All for One managed to flip himself over somewhat in the meantime.  He hurled some sort of metal spine.  Toshinori slapped it to the side.  A flurry of smaller spikes was blown away with a snap of his fingers.  He leapt over a fissure in the ground like he was jumping a puddle.  And he landed on the bastard’s knees.

Then Toshinori paused.  Ice crept into his veins.  Here was the man whose existence tormented him almost all his life. 

Jawless. 

The orchestrator behind thousands upon thousands of torturous crimes against humanity.

Head deflated.

The man who murdered my mother.

One eye dangling from its socket.

But there, under his remaining eye, was something Toshinori hadn’t ever noticed in their encounters.  Few and faded, but undeniably there.  Freckles.

The father of the greatest light of my life…

Toshinori hit him harder.  What was left of a face disappeared behind two falling fists.  He pulled back.  The walls around them were starting to melt.  All for One dug his nails into Toshinori’s costume while his skin spasmed, desperately trying to activate the right quirk.  Displaced teeth poked out of a gurgling bloody mass.  He hit him again.  And again.  And again.

All for One stopped swinging his arms at some point.  Toshinori wasn’t falling for that again.  His heel plunged into the monster’s chest, squishing and crunching organs beneath.  He didn’t let up until he was sloshing in a puddle.  Even then, it wasn’t over until all was still. 

So he waited, hovering over what was only a corpse in theory.  Long enough that blood on his face that wasn’t his cooled and crusted.  It was over far before Toshinori accepted it.  He couldn’t accept it.  It happened too fast.  There was a whole strategy ready to go.  He was going to trick him.  Use One for All in one part of his body at a time like Izuku did.  But the bastard just wouldn’t move.  No way it would be that easy.

And yet…

The investigators had to scrape up what was left into a bin. 

#THE CHILLS THIS SCENE SENT RUNNING DOWN MY SPINE #all might not holding back is a different kind of unsettling and thrilling ESPECIALLY because it was only one moment with his worst enemy #BUT HOLY GODDAMN #do i need more of that #there's one other moment where we see despair and hatred take over toshi in that same fic #and even if he put the other in his place with just words it was just as spine-chilling #i realise the image i included does not do the scene in the fic fully justice but it's there's *something* about the calm fury #*chef's kiss* #all might #writing #fic rec #bnha #a whiff of dad for one #(and then it's gone)

[merkerlerspeaks]

on a scale of 1-10 how silly would it be to ask folks to pray that I find a piece of jewelery I lost. It's not particularly valuable monetarily but its very precious to me and Im afraid I lost it outside of the house. I cant find it anywhere it should be. It could be in the pocket of the either the pajama pants or outside pants I wore the last day I saw it (the 19th) or it could be buried under something in my old bedroom, or it could be at my friend's moms house or somewhere between here and there. Trying not to stress over it but its just become precious too me.

#Its just one of those shark bracelets from one of those scam ocean charity sites #But I have used it as a grounding tool to help me focus when I need to get my head on straight so its been through a lot with me #a replacement just wouldn't be the same either plus I don't want to give more money to scam charities than they already get #and writing this out is helping me calm down about it #as Im writing I realize that I tend to freak out a lot when I realize that something precious is missing and can't chill out until I find i #and thinking about it. I know exactly where that stems from #not something I ever considered before but a lot of things precious to me got burned when I was little #and at one point I repressed the memory and would search for things that got burned up for hours because I had no idea where they went #but yeah anyway Im gonna try to chill. It'll turn up Lord willing #Im just scared I lost it in my friends old house or somewhere between here and there and I'll never see it again #I do not like it when things like that disappear I do not like it at all #I just worry about all the possible places it could be lost forever in or where it could have gotten ruined #I also just have ADHD forgetfulness so I get paranoid I left it like in a walmart bathroom or something #I know I didn't but I have almost lost things that way before #Like even if it is just gone and lost forever I just want to know where it is #merkerler speaks #prayer request #bc I am spazzy about these things #need to be careful about it bc it mirror's some of my dad's OCD tendencies

[no1ryomafan]

I’m midway through Giant Robo and as much as I hate to point out something that reminds me of getter bc I say every mecha I’ve watched since has been very different:

I immediately notices two characters who have green hair and not only did I call they were siblings just based off of that but they are related to a mad dead scientist. I am once again wondering if Imagawa had the Kei is Genki plot point from the start and the team still used it after he left because this scarily aligns with what fucking happens later in arma. Like I heard he took his script with him but there is- so much foreshadow in the eps he did to the entire family plot line that unfolds in arma. So many lines Saotome saids about Go alluding to he’s a clone, a line from Musashi pointing out Genki is different, even Genki always had that yellow shirt in group photo that upon a second look feels like a *girl* would wear it and not a boy, but they have the cap still. Not to mention like I’ve said in a couple recent post MANY times is the weird factor that Kei originally was a side character, even my one friend pointed this out. Sure, she does show up in the manga when Sho isn’t around much and she did pilot shin getter during that point, but it’s not like she did much since Ryoma was doing the fighting for that section and then she died.

Also just the fact Kei is two characters merged into one is something imagawa would’ve done, given his other works he’s Frankensteining all these characters together and Giant Robo predated Arma, it’s not out of line for him to do something like this again especially when he keeps the same story telling beat of throwing his viewers into it and not explaining a thing. (Also I haven’t seen G gundam but KNOW family is a theme there for him too)

I’m always gonna go insane whether or not what we got in arma was actually lacking Imagawas original vision or not but this made me go more insane.

#meg text #getter robo #giant robo #also I’m sorry if this evolved into another getter tangent and not a lot about giant robo #I like it so far but I’m waiting until I finish it to sort my thoughts given this is a shorter one #also a lot is going on LMAO #my only guess now with imagawas OG script is like- the dinosaurs would've been around and the hayato framing would be addressed #shin dragon would be more of a horrifying thing then what we got at the end #ryoma would PROBABLY be around the whole time so I don’t think Kei would’ve replaced him #and ig the tone would be more intense the whole time where as it kinda calm down a bit #man I still want the story of the drama to be revealed but it probably won’t ever happen #it’s a two decade old show and imagawa happy doing whatever now there’s no reason to touch it #but I’m always gonna theorize about this more then actual getter stuff /hj #also funny how Kei doesn’t have a weird apparent powers bc I hear that’s a common thing with imagawa #But go took her place ig

[seekingthestars]

me: man my shoulder/neck have been hurting for weeks, i'm gonna sit with the heat pack on them to see if that helps

my body: oh that's cute, guess what's that gonna get ya? mild heat rash HAVE FUN

me: okay well at least they don't hurt anymore, right?

my body: INCORRECT

me: okayyyy well nothing ELSE hurts at least?

my body: FOOT PAIN

me: _(: 」∠)_

#personal #this all sounds very dramatic and it's not quite as dramatic as it sounds lol #but my shoulder/neck HAVE been hurting for weeks #and i did accidentally give myself what i'm pretty sure is mild heat rash from the heat pack in my attempts to make that feel less awful #so that's annoying #but i also got it to a place rn where it barely hurts (KNOCK ON WOOD PLS DON'T CURSE THIS FOR ME) #so now it's mostly just the prickly/stinging heat rash annoyance #foot did start hurting right as neck started to calm down a bit though but it's not bad just sorta mildly annoying?? #i am simply tired of being in some kind of pain lol #i have also taken to ignoring my to do list and instead just laying around playing video games/watching things when i can #and that's a nice change of pace lol #i can't ignore the list forever but it's getting ignored for a little bit at least jfieowafew

[jewishdainix]

Im just so fucking tired I just want to go home and have my own fucking private room back

#I want to be in a room where nobody can just bardge in without my permission i want to be able to have a friend over I want to have all my #books and my stuff with me mosyly i want a place where I can calm down and be alone #I am just. so fucking tired and theres no place for me where I can stop being on gaurd

[starsonmarsy]

bpd irrationality and paranoia does not mix with being high

#i almost cried and thought myself into a spiral #like im way better with rationalizing than i was like. 3 years ago #but i still have my moments where i cant reassure or calm myself down #so then i need assistance or i freak out #and then realize i was being dramatic and assuming the worst #this happened hours ago im fine now #but lol i didnt need to freak the fuck out in the first place #mars stop thinking everyone hates you challenge failed

[srkgirlblogger]

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#the day was going so well until my mom decided to be mean to me for no reason in a piblic space where i was already feeling scared and over #stimulated. i wanted to try out the skateboards in decathlon but there were too many people and i got scared. and my mom suddenly said that #the skateboard that she was going to buy for me after/on my birthday. she had decided to buy now. since we were alr in theshop and i said no #way bec i hadnt decided which one i wanted yet and i was soo panicked. and then after some time when id calmed down a bit and was gonna try #to skate anyways she started questioning me abt when i planned on peacticing and where i was gonna do it and i obviously just started saying #things that i thought she would approve of. and then she told me i didnt have the time management skills or resolve to make it work. and she #just kept on passive aggressively bullying me until i just couldnt do it anymore and i told her i wanted go leave the store bc she was #spoiling the mood. and then she started bullying me louder and she told me to stop blaming her bc she was only asking me a question and she #didn't want to waste any more money on things that i wasnt gonna do even though ive wanted a skateboard for years now and have been actively #asking her for months. and i just lost my emergy and my appetite and i wanted to leave the mall and go home but insteaf she gook us to a #bagel place that ive been trying to get her to take us even though i felt like throwing up before we even left the mall and i told her i #didnt want to go there. and my brother even told her that she was ruining things for everyone. and he still ended up blaming me in the end. #but whatever. i kept getting flashbacks to insanely traumatic moments where shed yelled at or bullied me or cornered me or tried to #embarass me in public. and this is most likely my last year at home. and my last year of childhood. and its all going to be remembered in my #brain as underwhelming and depressing and mostly horrible. and im going to leave home and never cone back and my last year at home is going #to be just as shitty as every other year and ill just have to deal with that and try to build something good and new and kind when i leave #she shouldnt speak to her own children like this. she shouldnt be looking for reasons to make things miserable for me all the time like this #i should study. my head hurts. my entire body hurts so bad #delete later

[thelioncourts]

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#we're at a really weird moment in the iwtv fandom where like #there are book purists who hate the show #there are book fans who love the show but look down on fans that don't know the books and are also like. #really unmoving with certain ideas and whatnot where it simply doesn't make sense #show fans who have read the books one time through and think they're experts on the entire lore of it all #show fans that are slowly and hesitantly making their way through the books #and show fans that have no desire for the books because - as this is an adaptation - they view it as its own entity #and like #nm i won't say all i want on my opinions of it all but i will say that #show fans who have read the books once and lack basic reading comprehension in the first place are reallllllly draining on me rn #the book fans who have the superiority complex are always draining but the #'i've read the books' you read them once calm down #ooof the 'i've read them once' crowd who act like they understand every nuance and can speak on it are something else

[visdiefje]

I feel like I'm going to explode with stress. How do other people do this. There is a knot of anxiety in the back of my throat, in my chest, in my stomach. I have not slept enough and can't calm down enough to sleep. This is so stupid. Nothing is even happening. This is just from the confirmation that I will be moving out in a month and a half

#a leftover studio viewing today then tomorrow a contract signing for the apartment I'll be living in #and then we should be done with stuff for a while #then it's just a matter or arranging the insurance/gas/power/internet for the place #and scoring furniture where we can find it of course #there's plenty enough time and I'm sure my parents will help anywhere I need help #I'm certain they'll still let me sleep over anytime if I ever need it #so WHY is my body exploding. girl help #I'm entering a stress loop bc I'm leaving for budapest on the first #and last year I got what I believe was a stress induced illness this time of year while I was in denmark #and it SUCKED. I couldn't do anything and it felt like my heart was going to give out. #I was scared to go to sleep bc it felt like I wouldn't wake up. and that fed into the stress sleep deprivation loop #I hope this calms down because if it keeps up I will definitely get sick again. and I want to enjoy my friend trip!! aaaa!!!! #I also hope I can settle into the apartment okay #this is all very new for me and there is a fear that living apart just. won't work for me #but I'll get to try it for a year. and if it doesn't work? then so be it #but if it does? I get to stay in a nice apartment with a little private garden space #so I'll just have to endure feeling like shit for a while and stay strong #hashtag autism I love intense physical reactions to stress and major life changes #bien rambles

[dandyshucks]

i think the simultaneously funniest and most frustrating thing abt my brain when things like this happen is that my brain freezes up a bit and can only think of like "aw gee whiz now xyz mundane thing i had scheduled into today won't happen" like girl WHAT there is shit going down and thats what ur thinking about ???

#in emergency situations where i am able to Do Shit i actually am very good at keeping calm though #and doing what needs to be done #in general in stressful situations where im helping other ppl then im such a good person to have around dhdkdl #this came in handy at two of my past workplaces bc i would be able to just do what needed to be done quickly and efficiently #when things got Bad in those places #but shdksl when it comes to situations where I can't do anything or where i dont Know what needs to be done ... augh #then i just shut down a little bit or go numb at least and my brain automatically starts thinking abt mundane and routine things #girl there is a medical emergency happening !!! (''but we've been through this before. several times over the past few months'' says brain) #example a: i feel a little disappointed that i won't get to do crochet with mother like we had planned #example b: i want to go back to sleep even with this all going on #(i feel awful that this is what brain is thinking about rn dhdkdl but. better than incessantly worrying ig? though im doing that too...) #ah well djdlsl I'll go shower so if anything Really Bad happens then at least im clean and dressed and ready to get over to the hospital #dandy.cmd #vent // #medical tw

[currentlyonstandbi]

visited my state’s public library today

#had an out of body experience it actually was stunning in there #the specific wing of the library i was in is actually 138 years old #i've been looking for someone quiet to have my lunch breaks when i'm at work for awhile now and the 2nd level is actually a study area #so i think from now on this is where i'll be going #the downside to it being open to public access is the families who bring kids there who then proceed to scream at the top of their lungs #please if your child is crying and screaming take them outside until they calm down. you're in a place that echoes like crazy #and yes that is a wine bottle in one of the display cases #we're well known for being a wine region here actually lmao classic aussies getting on the grog #photography #library #aesthetic #academia

[trans-xianxian]

hmmmm I drafted an email to my boss abt how her text regarding my time off request after my mother's death made me feel very uncomfortable and how I felt like it was unprofessional should I send it

#obviously I did not go to sleep after that reblog kshdmudksb #anyway I want to but also like I work closely w her every day and I don't want to eternally feel uncomfortable because I confronted her #but at the same time like her text made me feel bad enough that it completely altered how I feel about my job #like I was going to come back next year and for summer camp but how she handled the whole thing just made me feel Bad #and like if in the future something else happens where I need extended time off she will be equally as not understanding #idk it just put a rlly bad taste in my mouth that she tried to make my co workers work life my responsibility during my time off #I feel like thats something she needs to be confronted about #but like. what outcome will that have other than making it uncomfortable to be around her for the foreseeable future #idk and also like. everyone else in my life including co workers has been so understanding and kind and compassionate #but even her My Condolences tm text was kind of cold and rude #and its like. okay maybe I'll calm down about this once I'm not In The Throws Of Grief but at the same time #I am in a very emotionally vulnerable place and someone intentionally took advantage of that to make me feel bad #thats kind of a big deal? #idk its just weird. she'd been so understanding until I actually needed something from her #I'd also sort of been getting the impression that she was growing tired of the whole broken foot thing #but I was hoping that that was just me projecting cuz I feel bad about not being helpful #now I am nawt so sure... #anyway this really sucks I really loved my work environment and then it was ruined with one (1) text #ghost posts #text

[cereusblue]

Hey yall, happy reminder that if your doctor/therapist/psychiatrist treats you like shit? Drop em. Like dead fucking weight. There's a difference between them telling you some hard to swallow information and them being a straight up asshole. Take care of yourself. I know it can be hard to distinguish between hard to swallow information and them being rude, and if you're having a hard time with it then maybe attempt to reach out to them and see how they respond. If they double down and do not take your feelings into consideration, dump em. If they seem apologetic and want to understand and help you feel more comfortable about the information you were given? Then hang on, you may have misconstrued some words. There ARE doctors who care and want to help you. The medical field isn't wholly evil, I promise. I work in it too, I know there's some rules we can't bend and some things we have to do but.. All in all, it's all about giving patients the care they need to live a better life. Please, please take care of yourselves out there. When it comes to your mental health, the only one who can truly take the best care of you is yourself. In the sense that you have to make the decisions to make changes, take leaps, and ask for help. Be good to yourself 💙

#i just finished a virtual appt where my dr would roll her head back and smile incredulously any time i didnt have all the info she wanted #because said info is 7+ or 20 years old and i no longer have it #she was very cold and unfeeling the entire time and had no tact in going about very sensitive information #i took 40 minutes to calm down after she ended my session 20 minutes early #called the company and reported her ass for unprofessional behavior #i described everything to the scheduler in more detail #and even she was like #oh my god im so sorry! #immediately was pulled from that persons schedule and added to someone else as well as not charged for the shit visit i just had #thats not the rule for all places but it was the rule for this one #she was just very sweet in helping me get my stuff changed #take care of yourselves #the person who can take the best care of yourself is you #at least when it comes to your mental well being #anyway im rambling #have a good day everyone