OH I meant to make a post about this yesterday and then I forgot but I went over to my sister’s house to bring my niece her birthday presents and of course my niece wanted to show me all her new toys and play with them with me. I don’t mind doing this, in fact I actively enjoy playing with her because she’s a good storyteller and I know she loves having someone that will listen to her. Anyway, she brought out some slime and my stomach just straight up DROPPED. Yall I can’t STAND touching slime, like it makes every part of my body want to crawl up inside of itself, I just can’t do it. So I told her I couldn’t touch it and why and she stopped for a second and goes “you can’t touch it?” And I was like “no I can’t touch it, I don’t like the way it feels and it makes me upset to be touched with it.” And she nodded and set down her little jar for a second and was like “hold on” and dug under her bed and pulled out a little plastic horse and handed it to me and says “you can touch it with this!” It kind of rocked me because I mean of course that was a solution, and it was a fantastic one, I just didn’t expect her to understand and offer an alternative way to play so quickly! And it worked great! I didn’t have to touch the slime, and using the little horse was fun to roll and poke it with. We didn’t have to stop playing just because I didn’t like something, she figured out a way to let me play with her anyway. So I guess my thing is like, tell kids exactly why you do or don’t want to do something. You may need to explain it a couple of times, or in a different way, but they get it. And they will find a solution.
Part of me says the rehab clinic didn't help at all, but that's not true. I have motivation to get back into healthy habits again (I bought some fruit today to eat a yummy breakfast again!) and am less depressed than before I went to the clinic.
(Also, yes, they diagnosed me with DID. I still don't believe I have it. Or part of me doesn't.)
I wish they would do jellycat build-a-bears. I hate how they look and feel whereas jellycats are cute and fluffy and I just wanna put a stupid scented heart with a wish on it in my jellycat 😭
My girl is so fucking cute I spent the night last night and she fell asleep spooned up behind me and then in the middle of the night I woke up on my other side to her moving my arms so she could scoot backwards into them and spend some time as the little spoon 😭😭😭
Honestly, being a nice chatter in League is so funny. I got autofilled into jungle against an enemy team with mastery points in the millions. Died due to invades twice times in the first minute and a half. Wrote "I just wanna play my skin T_T" and overall joked about my complete inability to do ANYTHING that game.
the enemy viego felt so bad for me he promised not to kill me anymore, and at the very end he just stood in front of our open nexus, giving me advice on how jungle works, what to pay attention to etc, wishing me luck and to enjoy the skin. I was truly so pitiful they didn't end the game to give the sad wet little support main in jungle advice. It was absolutely hysterical.