#it took me SO MUCH not to keysmash all over this post DEAR GOD

[kanotototori]

The welcoming and friendly and bright facade of "Mother" and the family she raised at the Hearth, whose cruelty was hidden just beneath the surface - raising children as brothers and sisters so that they might slaughter each other in the future for the title of "King",

Versus

Arlecchino as the "strict" and "unfeeling" and cold and emotionally distant Father, who teaches her children that they should rely on each other, love each other, cherish each other and their own lives, stand on their own two feet in the world. The names of Arlecchino's constellations - "You shall become a new member of our family / You shall love and protect each other henceforth / For alone, we are as good as dead / From this day on, we shall delight in new life together" - are her teachings to the children of the House (and her hopes, too - we shall delight in new life together).

And the warm gentleness in her voice when she begins speaking - "come with me" - that turns into cold monotone, "like a strict and unfeeling Father". You can literally hear the moment she creates the persona of that "cold", "unfeeling", "strict" Father, when she puts on her mask.

And that's not even getting into how it's also a continuation of this vicious cycle - "I will raise you as my child" - because while Arlecchino's House is certainly leagues better than Crucabena's, she is still raising soldiers and ultimately leading many of them to their deaths* (despite her best efforts, it seems), she is actively priming Lyney to be the next "King", and the throne of the "King" is upheld by much death and bloodshed.

*As an aside, I gotta wonder if Arlecchino's crimes were pardoned only in exchange for her becoming a Harbinger, so now she's locked into a job where she has to raise more child soldiers and send them to die, just like her siblings were sent to die. It would explain why Childe clocks her loyalty to the Tsaritsa as being very shaky (him being a Tsaritsa fanboy in the first place, anyway). But if she didn't become "King"... well, wouldn't that mean all her siblings' sacrifices would be in vain? That would be kinda fucked up innit.

#it took me SO MUCH not to keysmash all over this post DEAR GOD #I AM NEVER EMOTIONALLY RECOVERING FROM THIS #genshin impact #arlecchino #my meta #kinda #they made her in a lab specifically for ME. #so many themes i go absolutely batshit for IN ONE PLACE #genshin leaks

[sky-and-sometimes-others]

I keep my promises!

yAKA a live blog of this fic: like, reblog, follow by MandaloreArtist 

Okay, it’s been a while since I’ve read it so my reactions should be fresh, and I’m in a mood for Prinxiety tonight! Let’s do this.

Right off the bat I love me some Ace!Logan. I’m ace and it just feels right.

AND ACE PATTON I’M SO SPOILED LOVE IT

I’m 90% sure Starbound is fictional but canon gays? SIGN ME UP

“ To say any more would spoil stuff, so go read the books and listen to the musical and avoid the movie like the Black Plague “ step by step instructions on how to join the Percy Jackson fandom.

It took me a solid 3 minutes to figure out what MYOB means because I am Not Hip With the Lingo

Patton talks to Virg the way I talk to all of my friends

I loOoOoOve BMC frick me up. I also quite enjoy Falsettos.

“  infinitesimal knowledge “ *whispers* it’s begun

- Short break where I had to go watch the end of Penn State vs. Ohio State with my dad. Go Bucks! -

Ah twenty questions. I have used this to flirt with several online crushes. 

LOGI-WAN KENOBI I’M WHEEZING

“ also, you have friends? “

“square up cutie” STOP

“ specs “ vs. “ eyeshadow^3 “

HIS LAST NAME IS SPIDER

ROMAN YOU BEAUTIFUL IDIOT 

“ Live a little, Logan! “

“ You can’t do if you’re dead. “

“ Oh I meant by me “ COLD AS ICE

Logan’s favorite character is Jerry shut UP

“ ...I am going away from you. I have no destination in mind. I simply need to exit your presence. “

Chuck and Gertrude are my favorite Sander Sides guys

“  Wow I can’t believe my stunning good looks actually killed a man  “ I’m WHEEZING

25 MINUTES OF FAWNING OVER ROMAN AWWWW

Practicing the cello at 6am what a power move. 

Logan is the epitome of “one black coffee” in this fic. 

The “message pat/fine/hey/oh he’s asleep” interaction is pure comedy

VIRGIL JUST USED A SELF REFERENTIAL LAST NAME PUN I THINK 

HIS LAST NAME IS BRAVA RIGHT AND HE SAID “brava for your attempt” VIRG ARE YOU SERIOUS

...Koshekh is from WTNV

“ chaotic neutral baby :) “

Patton THREW THE IPAD

virgil you SMOOTH SON OF A BEESTING 

...(I also like Star Trek more but that’s a personal preference)...

I would 900% call someone to laugh at them for 5 minutes straight

“I gotta gay” YEAH ME TOO BUDDY

VIRGIL NO DON’T STOP DOING ART NO VIRG

oH MY GOSH NOW RO IS POSTING LESS BECAUSE HE’S SO SAD ABOUT VIRG I’M SO FRICKING SAD

HAHAHAHA HE THREW THE PHONE

They’re all so Jew-y in this and as a Jew I appreciate it but it does feel kinda weird for the characters. 

All that pep talk and then “ how was your day? “ Nailed it. 

“  I swear, sometimes you’re just too gay to live. “ BITCH ME TOO THE FUCK

Veertrash71 is meeeeeee

“take my pet photos and leave” 

“babe”

HONESTLY MOOD THAT’S FLIRTING RIGHT? WOULDN’T KNOW BUT I THINK SO

I’m so sorry for how much of this has been me just quoting your fic back to you

????? He shipped him brownies? They obviously live in the same city

Also Lo calling Pat his boyfriend gives me a fuzzy feeling in my HEART

Ahh, a good ol’ reference war. 

“  You utter and complete dunce! You’ve driven him away! “ me addressing me

God I’m so ALONE

“ never knew that you were gay???

truly shocked “

“wait aren’t you lactose intolerant” 

Awww he surprised him with a pin I’m CRYING

LOGAN FINALLY KEYSMASHED HE REALLY IS A GAY

“  HATE them? H A T E them? H A T E T H E M ? !  “ I can hear it in his voice from Crofters the Musical (I think that’s the one it’s like 2 am forgive me)

“ aaaAAAAWWWWW! Baabeeeeee, you have a crush on me?! “

“ we’re dating, andy “

Where the heck are their parents how old are these people?? College aged?? I’m so curious I have no idea how old they’re supposed to be.

I’m SHRIEKING their all SO CUTE TOGETHER

Awwww Ro feeling insecure because of being sick and it was such a small moment but so good

I FORGOT ABOUT THIS OH MY GOSH THEY LIVE SO CLOSE THEY’RE AT THE SAME BOOKSHOP LOGAN GO SAY HI GO SAY HI GO MEET YOUR BOYFRIEND GO

Aw

“ fracture a femur “ Thanks! I hate it. If anyone ever said that to me before a show I would feel very cursed.

Dear lord 5 months and they’ve already said I love you. God I wish that was me. 

AVAILABLE FOR ONE SHOW ONLY LORDY LORDY OF COURSE IT’S PACKED I’VE NEVER BEEN TO A ONE NIGHT ONLY THAT WASN’T

How did they get the rights to Falsettos

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW PAT AND LO’S FIRST MEETING AWWWWWWWWW

“ you’re allergic to nuts “ 

“ ...it’s good!! “ Oh Pat

IT’S HIM IT’S HIM IT’S HIM HE BUMPED INTO HIM I’M SURE OF IT

Ro fixed his makeup I’m love

THEY KISSED !!!!!!!!!!

"Um, so I think I just saw Roman."

Logan tilted his head. "How do you know?"

"I made out with him in the doorway to the bathroom." sounds like a good sign it might’ve been him

Listen anytime you get to point at the audience during a show you GOTTA point at your friends it’s a rule. 

He was answered with a smirk. “Well, first—”  Oooooooooooohhhhhhhh

ROMAN DIPPED VIRGIL THIS IS THE FAN SERVICE I DESERVE

"Well, yes, but a promise is a promise! Fulfill your oath, or you shall feel my wrath!"

"Spicy."

"What??"

"Nothing."

THIS. IS. THE. FAN. SERVICE. I. DESERVE.

“ To even it up more, we must all eat marshmallows. ” I mean that’s literally logic right there can’t argue with that. 

“I can’t believe Logan is dead,” Roman whispered in his ear.  < Made me laugh out loud

This whole fic is just so fricking good. It’s the EXACT kind of fluff I need. Great job!!! 

#sander sides #prinxiety #Logicality #i also swear in this so uh yeah #long post

[frenchibi]

15, 21, and 25 for the fanfic ask if you don't mind~ Also, what does the 'liberal me' on your page mean?

Hi anon, and thank you very much for asking!

Just to clear up your question there before we get started - “libera me” is latin (”free me”) and it’s a quote from a song that I’ve had stuck in my head for like 3 months because I sang it in my choir xD It’s… rather religious (which I am not) but I really enjoyed singing it? Have a link, if you’re interested (it’s classical, so idk if it’s everyone’s thing lmao); skip to 1:17 if you just want the choir part without the solo beforehand, and to 2:48 if you want the specific part I’m referencing, without the buildup xD

It’s… very dramatic and I love that :D The actual lyrics are something along the lines of “free me, God, of eternal death, on the day of mighty dread” and then “I am made to shake and tremble, I fear that day of calamity and misery” or something, I don’t really know enough latin to confidently translate them :’D It’s all very apocalyptic and super epic to sing in a choir hdfjklahshsdf

Anyway, moving on to your questions, before I get caught up rambling about how much I love choir again - this was supposed to be about fanfiction after all xD

15 something you learned this year

Well. I took on a project, as you may know, of writing one chapter or oneshot per week - and I kept it up until July, when I had a series of huge breakdowns and finally got help for my depression - I’ve since put that project on hold because I can’t handle the pressure yet (it started out fine though! I had fun with it for the first half of the year!) - what I learned through it is that writing, for me, is about discipline. I can always write, and if I want to, I should. I should only write when I want to, though, because that produces the best results. Am I making sense? Idk. I’m resolved to write more than ever, but to give less craps about the numbers - which I was rather obsessed with, regrettably. That made me miserable. So no more of that from now on.

21 most memorable comment/review

Boy, you want me to pick out ONE?

I know this isn’t fair at all because I have gotten COUNTLESS fantastic comments this year and as soon as I start mentioning people I will forget someone, I just know it. But I do want to shout out to some of my favorites…? I hope I don’t inadvertantly offend anyone.

@josai was my writing companion for the better part of the year and while not all of her comments were public, they were the most encouraging thing EVER. You gave me the courage to post my work, you always listened to my ideas, and you had heaps and heaps of enthusiasm for me. I feel like I could never thank you enough.

@hajiiwa always leaves wonderfully thoughtful comments - I deeply appreciate your insight(s) and I absolutely love discussing theories and characterizations and fic ideas with you. We seem to be of similar opinions a lot of the time, which is great and encouraging, but sometimes you open my eyes to things and I’m really grateful for that :D

@greenstickynotes is the champion of keysmashing AND heartfelt emotional responses - your comments are always highlights, but even moreso I enjoy and savor your snapchat reactions because they are full of real, raw emotion that I cannot believe resulted from my writing. Honestly, you are a gift and I hope you never stop yelling.

@joanofarcticmonkeys is wonderful and supportive and takes time to comment even when she’s busy. Also she always sends prompts and she gets so emotional over my writing that she yells to her other friends about it (who are not even in the fandom?) - you are fantastic and I hope you know how much I love you.

@distinguisheddelusions is a recent commenter but their comments are pages long and they’re the most in-depth analyses I have ever received. I treasure and cherish every single word and thought they spend on my writing and characterization. They’ve been going through my works from back to front and commenting on my progress and I could just. weep tears of joy. Thank you so much, it’s the most validating thing EVER.

@marleeb left me a comment that I can’t get out of my head - it took me ages to answer because it made me so emotional? It was incredibly supportive and uplifting and just... exactly what I needed to hear to boost my confidence. I’m eternally grateful for that, honestly.

25 a fic you read this year that you would recommend everyone read

I haven’t been reading many fics actually - if you want recs, you could check out my bookmarks on ao3? - but I HAVE been reading books, and I’d like to recommend some if that’s okay instead…?

Dear Life by Alice Munro is a collection of short stories that is moving and important and just. Stuck with me. She won the Nobel Prize for literature for this book, and I think with good reason. I thoroughly enjoyed it.

The Alchemist by Paolo Coelho is magic, plain and simple. A lovely tale (and it really is that, a tale) about finding yourself and your beliefs and I have re-read it at least 5 times. It’s stunning and beautiful and memorable.

Topics About Which I Know Nothing by Patrick Ness is a delightful collection of short stories - very diverse in the styles, but each one of them works remarkably well and I just loved reading it. So vibrant and colorful!

The Princess Saves Herself In This One by Amanda Lovelace is a collection of poems tying together to paint a stunning and startling picture of a woman who went through a hell of a lot to get to where she is - but she saved herself, as the title says. This book was a gift from @notinvidia and I read it in half a day - I devoured it, and I’m really, really glad I did. I didn’t think poetry was my thing at all, but here we are. Go read it.

Alternatively to that last one, read Milk And Honey and The Sun And Her Flowers by Rupi Kaur - stunning and immersive and expressive and just… important poems, the lot of them. They’re accompanied by art, too, and they’re all just so… full of life (and love and suffering and recovery) and it’s utterly fantastic and beautiful.

…okay, I think that’s enough raving for now. Maybe I should write book reviews? I’d enjoy that tbh. Would anyone be interested in reading them? hasdflasdh I might make some changes to this blog, or make a sideblog for my varying interests…? I’m just afraid I wouldn’t have enough energy to manage several tbh… and this blog is already a mess of everything, but I tag, so… it should be okay? xD Idk man. That’s a question for another day.

IN ANY CASE thank you so much for your questions, anon, I really loved answering them and I’d love to talk more about fics and writing, so feel free to ask away!!

#fanfic end of year asks #my writing #French speaks