#it lacked of something... hmm

[shadowlinktheshadow]

played ww and now im thinking about floormasters and gloom hands

im like 90% sure someone already made this connection, but

colors a bit off and no eye on floormaster but I see a connection

#shower thoughts hmm #well one is gloom and one is just some hand but #theyre both floor-hand-thingys #why not? #might write a fic for this but i lack writing skills #lets see how many drafts it takes for me to get out something good- #linked universe #legend of zelda #zelda ww #zelda totk #floormaster #gloom hands #totk spoilers

[timeisacephalopod]

The type of Christian who asks atheists how they don't like, murder people on the reg are so funny to me because they seem to think their religion makes them the Peak of Morality when statements like "if you don't believe in God how comes you don't do X thing" all but outright state they have no idea why shit like murder and rape is bad except that God doesn't like it lmao. Like way to admit you have no intrinsic sense of morality and need to be afraid of a higher power to be a decent person, but I promise if you're not a piece of shit it's actually very natural not to want to do heinous evil shit all the time potential punishment from a higher power or not 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

#winters ramblings #seriously its SO funny when that happens because every time its like ??? the FUCK kind of thoughts do you have #to ask HOW i resist doing evil shit all the time because i dont fear god because i dont believe in God?? #what kind of fucked up person do you haveto be to only resist killing people because of fear of a higher power?? #these are people to avoid because typically they also come with the issue of using their religion to make any action they want #perfectly Good and Moral because GOD said it its in the BIBLE whether thats true or not and like bible or no #if you have no intrinsic sense of morality i dont want to hear about atheist morality from you lmao #not that athiests lack issues i swear to god white dudes who evangelize atheism like its their new religion #have WILDLY missed the point and often suffer the same problem as the aforementioned Christians #wherein the onky thing thats ever given them any kind of pushback is the church so they decide RELIGION is horrible and bad as a whole #which isnt true religion can be a perfectly lovely amazing thing for people but that brand of atheist #doesnt seem to understand that people turned away from the church because of wide spread abuse and discrimination not because #believing in god makes you literally mentally ill like some of these fuckos act like. abelist AND shite to religious folks in one fowl swoop #so you know atheists have problems too but like they arent making laws in their beliefs images across the world so you know #temper the criticism with how influential the group actually is although richard dawkins types DID get a lot of space to spew their idiocy #like dawkims if you think youre SOOOO much smarter than christians how come you have ALL the same misogyny problems?? #youre not that smart and logical if youve decided a whole kind of person is inherently less than you buddy. in fact thats very Christian #of him actually. funny when that happens but again if you dont actually know WHY something is a problem #its very easy to say Thats Bad and then literally do the exact same thing you just condemned because when YOU do it its no longer bad #because its got YOUR flavor of fucked up morality on it now instead of being like hmm maybe Christianity isnt a problem #because it EXISTS but because a lot of people use their religion as a pointed barb to discriminate against huge swaths of people #and often the intolerance becomes a legal issue when Christians and other religious majorities shove through laws based on EXCLUSIVELY their #religions and opinions and that doesnt mean religion should be dismantled it means we ahould tell religious folk who would know what #morality was if it fucked them up the ass to shut up and figure out what morality is outside of rekigion before they start legislating about #it and whatnot. also i wish extreme opinions werent ALL the news focused on exclusively on the political right #can we platform some NORMAL well adjusted christians who are god loving AND not a bunch of wingnuts #who are two steps away from arguing thou shall not kill only applies to people they LIKE because they dont seem to understand #maybe murder is bad when EVERYONE does it not just The Bad People??!?!

[gideonisms]

I do think that not being allowed to be a little grumpy and unreasonable in private without someone noticing would give me new unique kinds of neuroses though. I have always wished the imperial radch books examined breq's surveillance of her crew more in the later books because the common radchaii habit of being intentionally oblique/people from other places being more oblique and unreadable when talking to someone from the radch irritates breq frequently but seems to me to be the natural result of constantly being monitored. breq may be causing some of her own interpersonal issues here

#that aspect of the books has really aged. hmm i don't know if i can say well? because i wish it wasn't as relevant #but it was well observed #i think we see breq reckon with it more on the level of mourning something she's lost because it's her nature as a ship #but i'd love to hear maybe seivarden's take on constantly being monitored for emotional upheaval as someone recovering from addiction #it seems like the lack of privacy would be a major roadblock to recovering from a drug that #specifically limits your emotions (therefore your emotions won't stand out as being too intense and you'll avoid that level of scrutiny) #imperial radch

[13eyond13]

one of the lesser talked about fun things about intentionally reading more books is finding new stuff to be a bit of a hater about tbh

#and i know sometimes im probably just not properly picking up whatever the writer is putting down but whatever it's still fun #to actually know what you think about stuff like the highly regarded classics and extremely popular hyped up things #here are a few writers im a bit of a hater about w my opinions now btw #neil gaiman: does not do it for me at alllll #have read the graveyard book and american gods and hated almost every minute of both #in american gods i just found the aesthetic ideas and characters completely unappealing and in the graveyard book #i thought it was dreary and not well described enough... kept feeling like it was too bare bones in some way to picture things properly #i was like 'hmm i wish this was one of his graphic novels instead bc i'd like to be able to see what's going on here a bit better...' #also his humour just never lands for me and i do not often get his references either #ray bradbury annoys me in a similar way to neil gaiman but also somewhat oppositely like where #the way they write characters and plots and ideas and the stuff they care about gets on my nerves in an almost identical way #that i don't know how to define except to say i had a bit of a 'same energy' experience reading Something Wicked This Way Comes #and some of neil gaiman's stuff #but unlike neil gaiman i think that ray bradbury attempts to describe things unusually so much and TOO much #to the point that it takes me out of the story in a different yet similar way #to how the lack of description in neil gaiman's stuff does #what else have i become a bit of a hater about or did not get the appeal of lately? hmmm #oh hp lovecraft hahahaha #least scary stories ever god everything he's scared of is so dumb #like even aside from his extremely racist takes and fear of the 'exotic other' his fears about being cosmically insignificant are just like #yeah and? whats so scary about that hahaha i literally just dont get it #also the amount he writes dialogue in heavy accents annoys the shit out of me #p

[hidefdoritos]

Was walking down the dorm hallway with my Duolingo and somehow stepped on glass??

Just had a random tiny sharp pain in my toe. Tried to take a second step and it still hurt. Sat down and finished my Match Madness. Then took off the sock and was surprised by seeing a little blood, and also a tiny thin shard of glass sticking out of my big toe.

Carefully pulled it out and then limped to my sister's room (my roommate is asleep). Embalmed the glass in duct tape so I can throw it out without re-stabbing anyone. Got sympathy and a band-aid. It doesn't look like a point broke off anywhere deeper, but I can't be sure. It hurts a surprising amount.

Gives me way more respect for the Die Hard guy.

#seriously #I know it's a movie it's for shock value it's even cool silicon glass and I know how they made it #but like #I want to be a giant baby about this #I want to be wrapped in a blanket and cuddled #and demand that my lover feed me grapes on an ottoman #or something ksdfswcmbgfchlik #I wonder why I want comfort so badly for something so small #This might be indicative of me not accepting comfort for bigger things #hmm much to think about #namely my lack of a lover and an ottoman and grapes #oh yes also #injury tw #blood tw

[non-un-topo]

Been writing some bonus/missing scenes from my tetrad mysteries series because I miss writing these four idiots so bad but have no energy ;_;

#i do have a few queer quartet fic plans / bits in the works. but yeah health problems got me BAD this summer. geez. #anyway apparently i can never stfu about these mysteries i wrote two years ago #and missing scenes are fun.... #but they're pretty much just the characters worrying about each other when they're separated or hurt or something dsfghfds #no idea what to write for perfero's missing scene though. hmm. #might post them on ao3. might crawl in a hole. #so if i've been absent for a few days it's because of health stuff and also a total lack of focus and energy

[schmafs]

to be human

redraw of this from four years ago (wow!)

#original #wthi #yunvei #cant believe it's been four years. good lord #anyway drawing this was such an interesting process! i surprised myself with a lot of my decisions #ie initially the color palette was going to be closer to the original but i instinctively was like hmm that doesnt feel right #because several years ago he was a far far edgier character whereas now hes really just.. some guy #softer colors suit him far better than more aggressive ones #there was also stuff with the hand placement in this one. hes not actively covering his face this time.. grammas doing it #something something he is no longer self sabotaging in the same way that he used to be #i could go on with more little things in this but lol i feel like im rambling #hope youve all been doing well! sorry for the lack of art. art school killed my ability to draw for myself #im trying to find it again and i THINK i might be on track

[bumblingbabooshka]

Learning Curve Hall-of-Famer right here. Tuvok making Chell clean the transporter room with the equivalent of a toothbrush as, I assume, a punishment of some sort & Harry coming out of left field with a 'You missed a spot <3' just to kick him while he's down. Harry, the man's gonna be there LITERALLY all day. Absolute bastards these Starfleet types <- said with love

#learning curve #Tuvok confiscating the Bajoran earring is obviously bad but his entire method of training is also just so ... it's a Lot #He's such a drill sargent v_v It's moments like these that make me think he and Harry would well together in the mirrorverse #B'Elanna: ?? But he'll be at it for hours! / Kim: (knowing that's the point) : ) ..... #B'Elanna: Well good luck! / Harry: You missed a spot : ) #Tuvok: Ten laps around the ship in increased gravity. Ten more laps if you talk back to me. Twenty. Thirty. Forty. #Twenty six hours scrubbing the floor as punishment. No stopping for water. I expect you to improve daily or I will consider this a failure. #Also Tuvok: I just don't understand why they aren't responding well to my training....hmm.... / Neelix: ................ : ) Um. #People like to focus on Tuvok as a good mentor or father figure but I really think that's only to very select and specific people about #select & specific things - this rigidity and lack of compassion and inability to understand others and general #vibe of being uncaring is also part of his personality #Like what Neelix said: 'That's the problem - you have no feeling for me but you have feelings against me' <- That sort of vibe #<- And also the fact that he's very close with Janeway despite (or perhaps because of) this is another interest component of them #Janeway who at the start of the show stated explictly that she was comfortable with her distance as Captain (which hints that she's not #like say - Pike. Who wants to get to know his crew intimately) #Idk I just think it's interesting! #Janeway & Tuvok as colder than other Human/Vulcan pairs is something that intrigues me. Janeway being comfortable with distance from others #and heavily segmenting her personal vs private lives and Tuvok who is the most quintessential Vulcan also being the closest to her for the #longest time (They've been friends 20 years prior to the show's opening) #There's no component of their relationship which demands Tuvok be more Human which is something I /WISH/....we EXPLORED more....the #Janeway-Tuvok friendship....it's SO telling that other Main Vulcan-Human pairs are like the most delved into relationships on screen but #Tuvok & Janeway's relationship is paid lip service but never REALLY is any time devoted to it explicitly. I wonder why that IS.

[sysig]

Self-Made Man (Patreon)

#Doodles #Deltarune #Spamton #I guess Pink is technically there too #Pink Addison #Dangit I really should've written down my original haphazardly made-up headcanons while I was deep in the paint lol #I do at least remember not really showing much interest in acid theory(?) or anything I was just off in my own weird little corner lol #I have no idea how much overlap or lack thereof there is but it's fiiine I'm just here for funsies #I do remember the basics! Let's start there it's a good place to start lol #The first two were just headcanoning around Add clothing - either shoes that match pants or something like leggings #And then a jacket right over their chests no undershirt or anything #Spamton texture stim headcanon? Maybe 👀 Is that why he switches to a turtleneck under a similarly cut red jacket? Maybe 👀 #Pink's not super sympathetic haha #And then the colour sets in ♪ #One idea that's definitely stuck with me is something along the lines of Acceptance of Change or some such - othering oneself #The more distant he feels from the Addisons the more his changes ''take'' if that makes sense #Feeling like a black sheep? Hair more readily accepts the black dye #I left it in a caption but I really liked my description of ''Increase opacity for every inch you fall from grace'' :)c #There's also something to his legs and feet morphing into one shape like how the pants/shoes of the Addisons' outfits look I think hmm ♪ #I do overall like the last one but I do wish I'd made his glasses black with little pink and yellow eyelid indications instead haha #Ah well - next time

[birdmenmanga]

this is perfect actually... if his flight trajectory is from shinjuku (approx) -> toyosu (approx) in the morning then it stares directly into the sun... then we can get a ton of really great shadows I think...

#just thinking thoughts... #I know I arbitrarily set the apartment somewhere in nakano/shinjuku/that vague area #having done zero research except for whatever I ambiently absorbed from detco #hmm I wanted them to use the train in act 3 but I don't know if that's actually normal for two grown men... #we can get around takayama by saying he doesn't like driving (I can believe it) #but eishi is such a driver. he's so driverly #like considering his socioeconomic status + his employment + his desire for agency #like aside from the bus crash and when he went to pick shouma up #he's always walking places instead (cannot drive as a middle schooler so this is the next best thing) #I think. I'd have to check but yeah. something something public transport representing the lack of agency and control #I think I could be onto something here but I'm also very very tired #ummm hopefully I can sketch out a banger composition tomorrow... i love you guys

[kageyama-ritsu]

idk theres something about makotos overarching character arc being that he basically decided to devote his whole self into doing something he loves (being an idol and being part of trickstar) and sticking with it even when it consistently drags him outside of his comfort zone

parallels with his modelling career where he was also repeatedly pulled outside of his comfort zone, but in ways where he was being taken advantage of, where it was done to the detriment of his own self, something he wished he could escape from but circumstances prevented him from doing so until he reached a breaking point and physically could not continue anymore.

now he's constantly being pushed to do things like take charge, assert himself, and gain self-confidence, even when he doesn't quite feel comfortable in doing so. he fights back when he doesn't think he's being valued as a human being with his own desires and wants. every time he's pushed out of his comfort zone, it's for his own benefit - and even if it isn't, he finds a way to put a positive spin on it. and most importantly (to me anyways), he does this all while pursuing his dream of becoming an idol, something that doesn't come as naturally to him as modelling did, something he still feels inadequate about and is unsure he even has the talent for. but he works his ass off to be an idol despite the fact that he can quit anytime BECAUSE he loves the new path he's chosen so much

#ensemble stars #makoto yuuki #after the trauma his modelling career left him with he could have tried his best to just live a normal life #or stayed a hikkikomori forever. i dont think many people wouldhave blamed him #but instead he decided to risk it all and place himself back in the spotlight again #originally just as a way to create a completely brand new and fresh start to his life #but eventually gaining the courage and confidence to literally face his past (cameras) and make something good of it #i think many makoto enjoyers would describe him as 'ruthless' or 'pragmatic' which is admittedly a rather confusing descriptor #for those who havent pored over his stories #but its a very different sort of pragmatism from the usual that someone like. say ibara or eichi would embody in some ways #because it's more... hmm... reactionary? defensive? #the goal of his pragmatism is not to brutally force his opponents out of the way #but as a way to push himself and those he cares about forwards no matter what stands in their way #an example of this is the fact that he uses a sort of easygoing and klutzy persona on the stage #to smooth over the mistakes and relative lack of talent he had compared to the other three #and basically incorpoate his mistakes into his appeal #he does it so well that i think a lot of enstars fans legitimately have the misconception that makoto is just a silly little guy #yes hes part of the idiot combi but he's the tsukkomi. yes hes a silly guy but he can be as serious as they come when the chips are down #this is the guy who literally had to be locked in a room for a week tostop him from going back to trickstar #this is the guy who was willing to sacrifice what he thought of back then as his only redeeming quality (his looks) #in order to be an idol in the unit he loves!!! #when im out of catching up on work hell and can writemy 10k+ word makoto dissertation its fucking over for you all

[calamarispiderart]

small note but something i noticed heart does that i love is they cover their mouth/face w their hand.... idk if it was intentional (going to assume it was) but it feels nice. it makes me think about like...trying to hide your face/expressions because you want people to take you seriously, and sometimes facial expressions cant be as easily controlled. not sure how to put what im thinking quite right but it feels right.

#calamarispeaks #chonny jash #heart #like....hmm #like a sort of insecurity or something. #like idk what to do with my hands and a sort of lack of stability or comfort in yourself..? #i see heart being a very visceral being. they express and convey a lot of pain and feeling and some of that is uncertainty. fidgeting

[nolongerexistingsadcatface]

ik literally no one but me cares about this, but i’d just like to make it known that in my main canon, reilley and alistair r actually Not shit people who victim blame, they’re basically america’s dads, I’m just really bad at writing fluff LMFAO

#raise ur hand if u can only write horrific angst because writing about good family bonds makes it real and causes too many emotions for you! #like main canon ire and scotland believed her 100% and went hunting for that guy’s blood #they dont fuck around about their baby!!!!! #well HMM ok this is getting too socially consciousy but i don’t wanna say they wouldn’t do this for or believe women outside of the family #but its kinda a hard truth that people—especially in the 17 1800s—don’t really extend their anger or sympathy or support to victims or #women in general if they’re not part of their intimate circle—social or family #and its another kinda hard truth that one of the reasons people like that are only able to extend these feelings to family members or #intimates is because they have extended contact with them and are able to actually view them as human which is something they’re not able #to do with people they don’t interact with #lack of empathy? lack of necessity? superiority complex? who knows im not a scientist! #BUT ALL THIS TO SAY #finally getting back on track #i dont wanna say scotland and ireland arent like. decent guys—because they are!!—but they are definitely a reflection of the time and thus #don’t really Support women in a modern sense #its more of a possessive sense ig #you messed with Our family so we’ll mess you up

[caffeinatedopossum]

My last vent post could have literally been summarized by me just saying "how tf are some people just okay?!? I'm freaking out over here and I'M RIGHT"

#yeah anyways dont let anime protagonist decieve you #being severely traumatized didnt unlock special powers it just made people tell me i have wisdom #but in reality that wisdom is something i deeply repress and try to hide from others #because it reminds me of how many things none of us will be able to control and how #anyone lacking an understanding of that isnt something i would ever take from them #you deserve to be happy. even if it means blaming yourself for things that arent your fault sometimes #because regret is still better than despair #maybe people can have a little self deception. as a treat #since i lost mine ive been burdened by fear and inevitability and conflict that i cant quite decipher #though i guess i felt that in my self deception too... hmm #maybe it would be okay to not hide what j think after all #maybe what i do or dont say about things wont affect people that much after all #nah im still too scared lol #also sorry if i worried anyone. i will be okay just feelin a little paranoid is all

[diluc33rpm]

1/2 Do you ever feel that you are really a terrible person, and only act good out of societal or some other obligation?

#um. no #like i get the feeling of ‘hmm you know that was a pretty asshat thing for me to think’ sometimes but... never to this extreme #even then it’s just something to examine occasionally. would it even really matter to people if you were perfectly nice on the outside #nobody would give a shit if there was no observable difference #i was gonna ask ‘is op fucking ok’ but then i realised op is a radfem so the answer is no and i kinda don’t care. lol #meduka meguca voice my asklist now (go legally brain dead from lack of oxygen due to choking on my transgender co

[inga-don-studio]

Well this is certainly one of the weirder Mexican bootleg FNAF figures I’ve come across in a while. 🤔

#FNAF #FNAF Merch #FNAF Bootleg #I … uh … hmm … #Seems like most Mexican bootleg figures have been Nightmare/Twisted versions of … well … EVERYONE lately #And much as those are my jam and what I collect - it’s kinda nice seeing something different for once even if it’s not my personal taste #Plus I like that they finally made an Endo figure! #His endo go ‘ʘ o ʘ’ #I think it’s the lack of paint on Gregory & the suit fragments that I’m not keen on #-otherwise it’s an interesting figure #🎃 cryptid sighting