#it seems like the lack of privacy would be a major roadblock to recovering from a drug that

[gideonisms]

I do think that not being allowed to be a little grumpy and unreasonable in private without someone noticing would give me new unique kinds of neuroses though. I have always wished the imperial radch books examined breq's surveillance of her crew more in the later books because the common radchaii habit of being intentionally oblique/people from other places being more oblique and unreadable when talking to someone from the radch irritates breq frequently but seems to me to be the natural result of constantly being monitored. breq may be causing some of her own interpersonal issues here

#that aspect of the books has really aged. hmm i don't know if i can say well? because i wish it wasn't as relevant #but it was well observed #i think we see breq reckon with it more on the level of mourning something she's lost because it's her nature as a ship #but i'd love to hear maybe seivarden's take on constantly being monitored for emotional upheaval as someone recovering from addiction #it seems like the lack of privacy would be a major roadblock to recovering from a drug that #specifically limits your emotions (therefore your emotions won't stand out as being too intense and you'll avoid that level of scrutiny) #imperial radch