#instant overstim panic attack overwhelm

[twowivestwoknives]

well i made it to the medical appointment, got all the way to the procedure room, had a panic attack and couldnt go thru with it

#i can FEEL needles inside me #instant overstim panic attack overwhelm #and the procedure is 5min of 3 diff needles In My Shoulder #and i just couldnt keep it together #but if i dont do this we dont know if i need surgery #i feel like such a fucking pussy #idk why i feel so bad #i keep fighting hard to get my body taken care of #and this is a Part of That #but i just cant fucking do it #ffs i wanna die (not for serious just) #i have so much run off panic #im going home and eating leftovers and playing sims and going to bed early #and only wesring soft things #i feel like such a fucking child #im 27 and scared of /needles/ ??? #i broke my foot and didnt notice but NEEDLES #i hhave chronic pain at a 4-7 daily but NEEDLES #i find cuts and bruises cathartic but NEEDLES #who the fuck am i why am i lile this #life and times #medical t #needles t