i want to know everything about spider
spiderrr my lovely amy
ehhh umm ehhhuuummm
well heres her for anyone who didnt know- spider is caseys mama ^_^
well lets seee she grew up on a reserve and was raised by her dad alone since her mom died when she was pretty young. shes an only child. she was a good kid. a normal kid. her parents treated her well but her dad was and is a very very quiet gruff sort of guy. emotionally distant. (like every father ever just kidding just kidding just ki) so he didnt know how to support her or comfort her when she was grieving her mother and showing signs of crazy suicidal depression. he loves her dearly, but he doesnt know how to communicate that or connect with her or show her that he cares (sound familiar yet)
when she got pregnant they got into a huge fight over it and she left home to move to the city to start working to support herself, by herself
she'd always wanted to move to the city eventually anyways because she'd need to be in a city to go to college and get a job that wasnt the local gas station or supermarket
but college wasnt on the table because she needed to work fulltime to support herself and a bebe. (resentment meter towards this creature that came out of her growing)
eventually she and her dad start talking again though, after caseys maybe a year or 2 old. and then its like My dad and the grandchild he didnt want. (hes on the ground playing with her) he loves this thing. he would help out with casey sometimes when he'd come into town when she was a baby but its a bit of a trip to get there for him and the trips out are more infrequent by the time caseys old enough to start forming attachments to relatives that arent her mom, so by the time shes an adult its just yearly happy birthday and merry christmas texts from grandpa for her
ermm ermm ummm aacckk WELL i actualy have a little google document i wrote a while ago (its not long) abt when casey moved out from spiders perspective bcuz i wanted to test dialogue between them (even though it ended up caseys not even there for very long) if youre interested in spider... you can read it here if you want. sharing anything ive written so publicly fills me with deadly toxins if you thinkg "wow this sucks"YOU DOTN HAVE TO TELL ME THAT
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Gang I blistered 3 fingers unlacing and relacing these so first my very tiny partner and then my very juicy calves could fit in them and It Is So Worth It I Have Never Been Happier
Over the knee, white holo faux leather, WITH my most favourite sole, the Shaker???? Demonia came for my goddamn THROAT
Only criticisms? Please for the love of all that is good provide a wide calves version, I am riding the goddamn line and it shows, and also holy shit the laces are Rough
And they have to be, they’re under pressure here, but goddamn I am serious I am blistered and I’m going to do it all again
FUCK I’M A DUMBASS SHOULDA WORN MY COMPRESSION GLOVES
Everything still fucking SUCKS on this side atm, but my gran sent me money for a flight out even knowing ahead of time I wouldn’t be able to make it and told me to spend it on something that would make me happy and think of her
And it’s real hard to be depressed in thigh high white holo boots
(I. She. She’s my good Christian Granny. I don’t think I can show her. But they made me smile the easiest I have in 3 weeks and they weren’t even close to the cost of the flight so I can do many more things she will approve of that I can show her before it’s too late)
(The fucking SECOND Demonia puts out a white holo ankle boot in Shaker or Camel lemme tell you I will simply perish I cannot afford shit rn but ONE DAY.
My standard for adult success has been “can I afford Demonias” (whether or not I then do) since I was 14 years old and yeah I’m failing now but I’m failing while already owning Demonias so it’s still a win)
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things i learned via getting a matching tattoo with my mom and sister in the same spot on the same day include that i apparently have a very high tolerance for pain and my opinions about what hurts and where insofar as tattooing goes are functionally useless. that being said i still think they both need to grow up
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as someone who’s been in dance related activities (ballet hiphop etc) since she was 2 i think we need to talk about how EFFORTLESSLY yuri does (jumping) pirouettes here because it took me 5 years to do it decently without hurting myself and that was on SOLID GROUND
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I KT taped my ankle but hate wearing socks at home so tape is not sticking so well to my skin but amazing to EVERYTHING else. I think I have a solution that would help keep the loose parts in place but I don’t want to waste more KT tape if it doesn’t work. Shits expensive.
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sometimes my chest starts to hurt and it feels both like a gasping hollow where something isn't and like a tightness and pressure where something is but doesn't want to be. it feels like a poem and a health concern
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this year for our birthday maybe we will finally get a tattoo...
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the problem with wearing a flight suit as casual daywear is that none of your pockets are in normal places
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