#in theory am i really though

[inavagrant-a]

You rp

..... ..I sure hope I do.

#blazesmith #inquiries. #out. #at least i think that i do #in theory am i really though #i'm just over here in my silly little laptop #clickity clackiting away at my keyboard keys #and barfing out words in hopes that they make sens e

[dramadred]

thinking about how lanfear interrupted a very much needed conversation between siuan and moiraine as revenge for moiraine cockblocking her in episode 4. she really uno reversed her

#the wheel of time #wheel of time #moiraine damodred #siuan sanche #lanfear #wot on prime #wot show #siuanraine #siuraine #fishwives #emotional cockblock for a physical cockblock #i’m using humor to cope okay #but really. we needed a conversation. something. #it’s been over twenty four hours and i am still just as heartbroken as i was yesterday #i’ve been EATING UP the theories though. gosh i love the minds of the siuanraine community

[moodyseal]

I got too deep into the Schema Theory while writing the paper for one of my exams and it got me thinking about Apollo's coping mechanisms yk

Basically the gist of this theory is that, in the eventuality that their primary needs are not satisfied during their formative years, a child might develop a bunch of different behavioural schemes in their adult life (which are too many to be listed here oh my god) that are a direct reflection of how the parent failed them during childhood

For example, one of these schemes is emotional deprivation, which is a person's tendency to emotionally distance themselves from other people due to the fact that they believe they won't be able to comfort them, and it's a scheme that's formed due to the guardian not satisfying the child's emotional needs. Basically it's formed through a "If my parent couldn't do it, then how could others?" sort of mentality

Another one, which I believe is very relevant here, is the sense of failure, which originates due to the guardian's immensely overbearing nature and the continuous dissatisfaction with the child's efforts. As an adult, the child in question believes that they're inept at everything, even if evidence points to the contrary, because of the fundamental belief that they hold that they're a failure

(Does it remind you of anyone?)

Now, these schemes tend to go hand in hand with modes, which are essentially coping mechanisms that the person uses to deal with whatever life throws at them and whatever negative emotion these schemes bring on. One of these modes is the *squints* scheme overcompensation? Anyway what it says on the article I got the info from is that basically people who use this coping mechanism tend to do the opposite of what their behavioural scheme tells them to do. If they're ashamed, they put down others. If they feel like a failure, they boast. (Again. Who does this sound like.)

AT FIRST it seems like a good coping mechanism but it's actually not, because the overcompensation leads to this vicious cycle where the more a person overcompensates, the more the scheme worsens. In Apollo's case, the scheme we're examining here is his sense of failure; in his overcompensation mode, to avoid feeling incompetent he tries to constantly put himself in the spotlight, drawing attention to his talents. However, he does it in such a ridiculous way (perhaps actually in some form of self-sabotage?) that the people around him insult those talents, call him a failure, and thus worsen his feeling of worthlessness.

(This might be tied to the punitive scheme as well, maybe? Considering how keen Zeus was on punishment, Apollo might've developed this scheme as a result, though over the centuries it could've shifted its focus from everyone to just him idk. The change between "I'm punishing everything and everyone for being so stupid, even my own son + this Ptolemaic god who breathed wrong in my direction" to "Actually I'm chill" seems pretty suspicious to me tbh)

ANYWAY all of this is to say that everything he does is so intrinsically tied to the damage Zeus did to him that it hurts. All his behaviours all his coping mechanisms. Everything

The arrogance is not just a façade he built over the years to hide his feeling of unhappiness and guilt!! It's quite literally an abuse response!!!!

And yeah maybe Leto was the one who spent the most time with him and Artemis and who took the most care of them so technically she should be considered his figure of attachment instead of Zeus but then again. How much time did Apollo spend beside her compared to the time he spent at Zeus' side, after the twins became Olympians? What do a few moments with her in a year do against entire centuries with him?

Leto's influence never really mattered. He was doomed since the beginning

#or rather not doomed just. really sad. thank god he's got friends now #shamelessly wrote this so i can memorize it better #it's a very fascinating theory though #i really recommend a read #btw some of this might be wrong bc a) i study medicine and not psychology and b) it's 4 am #actually almost 6? god i'm sleep deprived #anyway please don't mind it #it was just for funziessss!!! #trials of apollo #lonely thoughts #might delete later idk i'll see if this still makes sense in a few hours

[gremlin-pattie]

not dan and phil changing the video title from “THE HONEYMOON” to “HONEYMOON IN JAPAN!”…..

#old phannies get it :’) #they really pulled an uno reverse on us post-coming out #now I’M the one who can’t go online without experiencing psychological warfare #i never really bought into that theory #but i am certain that’s what they’re referencing #and it’s very funny #though it did jumpscare me #dan and phil #danandphilgames #kat is typing

[maybeinanotherworld]

i am a tax-paying adult and yet every time these two british homosexuals post something, i drop everything

#dan and phil #amazingphil #daniel howell #i am going to cry that is a threat #I'm really enjoying the theories lmao #I'm very team devan wedding though

[mcybree]

i need to start hating other characters besides just scott apparently. does anyone have suggestions

#Sorry i dont. care enough about the other guys. #I mean I do i rlly do but like. not enough to feel comfortable saying i’d hit them with my car #I get to say I’d hit scott with my car because i’ve thought about him for 15000 billion years and #am cursed to the scott favorite blorbo hell dimension #I cant start doing this with like. idk. bdubs. I dont know him like that #I could hit bdubs with my car recreationally like for fun. I think he’d flatten like a pancake and then stand up just fine #bree barks so fucking loud #On an actual note: ive given a lot of thought to why cscott gets hated specifically and it’s actually really fascinating #theyre of course just theories though I’d need like. more personal testimonies to back them up. #since i think im an outlier in the “i relate to 3l jimmy so of course I’d hate 3l scott specifically” department and therefore dont have— #extremely relevant personal insight on the topic #also usual disclaimer that when i say i hate scott i also love scott he’s my favorite etc etc

[starsundertheceiling]

I’m probably a little late to the party (heh) but there’s something I’ve noticed concerning color theory and Max, and Max in general

When she is introduced to us as MADMAX, her situation with Billy makes her feel lonely and angry. She’s wearing red clothes (with a white stripe!) and her hair is down (letting her rage roam free).

In here, she’s clearly annoyed. She’s just left Billy’s car, Mr. Clarke made her stand before the class and named her Maxine when she just wanted to melt into the background and get over her first day at an unfamiliar school, still not thrilled about having to move from California.

Still, she’s zipped down, since those people didn’t do anything especially hurtful towards her and maybe she’s a little hopeful about them. 

When she’s mad after an interaction with Billy she’s wearing red:

Darker red! She’s at school where she won’t have to deal with Billy for a while. She’s cooling like lava but there’s still one streak of the anger in the back of her head.

When the boys approach her, her zip-up sweatshirt is unzipped to show some of the color underneath. She’s happy! She will not let her guard down completely but she won’t hiss at them immediately! Still, she’s ready for disappointment and snapping right back to being fully red.

Yellow is not a lighter shade of red, but it’s definitely close on the color wheel. Closer to white, too! She is showing she’s not only mad, there also is softness inside her! It’s still a shade connected to red (anger) but yellow by itself is more of a happiness color. She wants to make friends but is still scared because of the new environment and Billy.

In the car with Billy (the scene where he wants to run over the party), the entire scene is shot in a way that’s barely letting us see her clothes. It’s mostly covered by hair, too, but we can see it’s still at least a little unzipped as there’s a bit of the yellow collar visible.

In the scene, she’s defending Hawkins saying, that it’s not that bad and that she can’t see any cows (yellow). She’s scared of Billy, so she’s trying to cover up her sympathy towards Hawkins and towards the boys (with red and her hair, Billy saw her get out of the car with the sweatshirt zipped up and hair down, now she’s covering her softness with what is familiar to Billy, so that he doesn’t see anything has changed, notice that softness and hurt her. That’s exactly what she does when she says she doesn’t know the boys trying to protect them from getting ran over).

Yellow! Fully yellow :) She’s happy to be shown weird pollywog-like creatures with the rest of the Party!

Right after Will gets possessed, her question as to what “true sight” means gets brushed off by all of the boys. She’s hurt and feels excluded, but her hurt makes her angry again. Next time we see her, she’s all red again.

“Party members only! This is non-negotiable.”

“I thought you guys wanted me in your Party!”

At the arcade! She’s already acclimated to Hawkins, and the arcade is her favorite place. 

Alright, I’m getting tired and my third eye is slowly closing, so I’m going to wrap this up quickly, since I think I presented what the gist of the idea is.

In season 3, yellow, patterns, colors! She is now fully a member of the party! She has friends, she knows the secrets, El is back. This is the happiest she’s been.

Clothes are important in both of the girl’s characters! (El changes from murky colors to vivid patterns when she finds herself and there’s a post about El shedding layers of blue in season 4. I’d link it but can’t find it, I’m sorry!) There being a scene like this, with them fooling around with their clothes is basically the peak of happiness :)

Here Max gets really worried because of Billy. She’s feeling a bit guilty ‘cause that’s her step-brother that’s sowing chaos and hurting her friends. El is straining herself. The situation is looking BAD. Blue!

Beginning of season 4

Blue - she’s grieving and feeling guilty, Black coat - she’s hiding herself in a shell. She’s not particularly hiding her grief but she can close off at any moment.

(Btw Lucas is also wearing a blue shirt with some coats. I’d say he is sad because Max dumped him and doesn’t want to tell him things but the coats have a couple of colors because he’s hiding away his nerdiness in order to be cool :) 

Now, the overcoat is blue with yellow elements - Max is being honest about her grief. She’s targeted by Vecna, the Hawkins gang knows she is SAD. It’s her last day, she can unfurl. The sweatshirt is unzipped and showing red and white underneath, the same colors we’ve seen her wear when we first met her. The girl that slammed the door of Billy’s car. The one that was scared of him. That girl is still inside Max. 

Sometimes, she’s wearing this. Grief covered up with brownish-reddish... Red. She’s going back to her previous self, she is talking to Lucas again and he SEES her... But to get that shade of red you go more towards black on the color wheel. She’s not that vivid, fiery red anymore. There are bits of that girl deep inside her, but she’s too tired to make it her entire self. She’s tired. 

#idk if this makes sense #i did not do research befor this i literally got this idea while changing clothes #and it works for the most part #maybe a bit delusional here and there #but i choose to choose being chill and just in awe of the costume department #i am also pretty sure you beautiful people have decoded this long ago #since the color theory makes a big part of the show #either way i love max #if she doesn't wear the prettiest colors in s5 then why should i live to see it #i hope SHE will be able to see it though #although blind max is beautiful; she doesn't deserve it :( #max mayfield #stranger things #lumax #elumax #elmax #not really color theory because i don't know the color theory :) literally just vibes #aaand i'm not gonna reread what i've written cuz i'm tired. hope it makes any sense. #but you're smart too so you can probably get the gist of what i was trying to say

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

hold on i need to get a thought and emotions out. so with Welcome Home, there seems to be a before and an after. obviously, we're in the after. the website is the after. and if it turns out that the story we see, the one where shit hits the fan and the show is practically erased, then... that already happened. whatever horrors we see, we'll know that there is no saving them. there is no happy ending - it happened, and it's tragic. the show is doomed to end and be scrubbed away. if any of the characters are revealed to be dead/gone by the website, then when/if we see them at an earlier point, we'll Know

and there's a special kind of dread and horror in that for us, the audience.

#im not articulating this the way i want to... #it's like going to see a tragic play. like romeo and juliet for instance. #we go into it knowing the end. they die. no matter what they die. every step they take leads to That End #every happy moment is undercut by the knowledge that it won't last #thinking about this makes me think that at some point learning more about the story/characters is gonna feel like digging up a grave #AGH I LOVE IT THOUGH I LOVE IT. IT HURTS SO MUCH BUT I LOVE IT #its a special feeling of dread/nostalgia/bittersweetness/resignation #and that is sensation in the chest that doesnt feel good but it also does somehow? it hurts but just enough to not be unbearable? #welcome home #welcome home speculation #welcome home puppet show #man i am so so so so scared for the puppets lmfao #i have some theories on the ways shit might go down. like little things. souring relationships and such #i also have a feeling that the story is really gonna hit home (ha) for me in Big Ways #like as soon as i saw clown say that it's kinda about 'when does a home become a house' and stuff #OOF. YIKES. WHEN DOES IT INDEED. i mean i know. ive lived it. im Living it. #this is gonna get unintentionally personal Real Fast in Several Fun And Festive Ways for me huh #i wonder if the story is gonna be uncovered linearly or not... #chewing on it chewing on it chewing on it #i can't wait to Understand the world/characters so that i can write fanfic. i want to so badly. i want to Explore #i want to hop into that grave and keep digging

[narlwhal-in-a-trashcan]

Nona is such a silly sweetie-pie

#I’m like 135 pgs into Nona the ninth #I’m a bit confused but I understand also though I guess that’s the typical locked tomb experience #it’s interesting and fun though I’m enjoying it #I love cam pal Nona and pyrrhas dynamic and relationship it’s super sweet #I just got to act 3 or day three I’m used to acts #the John chapters are confusing me a bit #who in the world is he talking to? #also I may not be correct but am I right in saying Nona is dreaming about the pool scene because it really seems like it #I love this series it puts my brain into hard drive and I have so many questions and theories #I’m already thinking of rereading the whole thing #the locked tomb #nona the ninth #harrow the ninth #griddlehark #gideon the ninth

[irrigos]

bad news: im at it again

#just remembered this image lol #if you're wondering why i keep bringing up my communist theory studies #and joking about how everyone probably hates it and finds it exhausting #even though no one has ever expressed. any opinion about it whatsoever #its because i am genuinely and sincerely embarrassed #and framing it like its a quirky affectation instead of just. my irrepressible autism way #feels a little better i guess #if its a funny bit or if its a thing im doing to spite the haters then at least it's something im doing on purpose yknow? #so if someone could please get Big Mad about the communism that would really help support my premise thanks

[chibishortdeath]

I doodled this when I was replaying the game once. There really isn’t enough humor (memes? Shitposting? Idk what the correct word is for it, but all of those) for the older games, which is a damn shame since they have a lot of opportunities for it.

#castlevania #castlevania games #simon belmont #art post #my art #simon’s quest #castlevania simon’s quest #silly post #Simon is doing his best!!! #this really be about how the end of the game goes lol #then you freeze Dracula in one spot and he dies in under 30 seconds ( #I don’t even know how to begin to explain the endings hehehehehe >:) #I should make a theory dump on that hmmmm #there’s a couple things I need better sources for though #now I’m kinda suddenly feeling like this isn’t that funny oops oh well #probably because it’s a meme that’s a good idk a thousand years old #then again Castlevania memes are so far behind anyway so #I haven’t even seen a carmelldansen video we’re that far behind like #shout out to whoever made some of those lords of shadow MMDs I’ve cried laughing at those #you haven’t lived until you’ve seen Dracula dancing to thriller at 1 AM #I have been desperately looking for an MMD of Simon I saw a screenshot of on Google #because the person very obviously made the model using one of the basic Kagamine Rin models as a base to make him shorter than and like #I love that model I want it it’s hilarious #OOOOO OK I HAVE A COUPLE FLIPNOTE ANIMATIONS I COULD SHARE HMMM MAYBE ILL DO THAT SOON #ok gotta go tho bye hopefully this is semi ok

[cozylittleartblog]

these tags just made me feel fucking ancient

#bendy and the ink machine #to answer your question even though this person wont see this: we had really good theories #that the devs threw out in favor of an incoherent twist ending #its one of those few things where the fandom really was miles better than the canon content #not art #2017 still feels like last week to me #why am i on the other end of my 'what were people like back then' antique and thrift store rambles but fandom colored #thats trippy #i dunk on this game sometimes for what a shitshow the dev team and story became but its still near and dear to my heart #i actually did try making some fanart for the sequel but i just didnt have the energy #and now the moment has passed

[lacecap]

how do you get your colors pallets to be so united while also having accents?

i love you all so much and i will try my best to answer this but i am not the person to go to for art advice. NEVERTHELESS. i will try.

when it comes to color palettes i'm a large proponent of unabashedly stealing the palettes of other paintings/drawings you stumble across. really dissect and study why you like the art that you like!! adjustment layers & other overlay effects can be your friend too

i personally like using a textured brush + a soft muted color as an underpainting in order to help set the mood & color for a piece, the texture that seeps through is also really nice to have on what would otherwise be a plain background

^ small process gif of my last drawing, maybe it'll help (?)

#i am very bad at advice. the best i can offer is some insight to my process. thank you for asking though #most IMPORTANTLY of all.. !!! u should have fun with your colors. and well some agony too if you really want to get better at art #but i would hope we all create art for the love of it #sorry all i can say at this point is what everyone else says.. look into color theory do your studies etc.. #AND LISTEN TO YOUR HEART!!!!!! okay thats it from me #gif warning

[lawlietscaramels]

something that keeps tripping me up in death note fandom is that, because the series has so many inconsistencies and holes, there are so many interpretations of the series, the characters, and I just can't keep it all straight in my head. lol. not to say I don't like it; I just struggle so much when I see two headcanons I like but they can't both work together.

So it really trips me up when it comes to headcanons of my own - I don't agree with things I wrote last month probably - and when world building for Riri...

aaand in the tags..

#lei chats #death note has its own multiverse and in each one thing is fact and the rest is fair game #this is also my trying to explain the ryuzaki theory a little. cause looking back i don't agree with much of it #i still think he takes naps at sunset #and I like to think he will lie on wood floors and stand like a flamingo and an assortment of weird sitting standing poses like me #emphasis on like me. i headcanon that on my comfort character because I've always felt weird about doing it. #but idk. i disagree with most of what i remember writing. same with a chunk of my misa post the colours theory and the yandere thing #though that one wasn't really serious #anyway if you read this far im anxious that everyone hates me now and of course that is why i am rambling... #love you guys. please forgive me.

[alfhildr-the-word-weaver]

So! I've been working on the My Home(TM) kitchen in Design Home, and I've got it juuuuust about perfect (or as much as it can be within the limited options of design home), but I keep going back and forth on which rug I want. And then I thought, why not ask tumblr? So, behold:

Option 1:

I've always wanted a yellow kitchen, but there was no option to make the walls yellow in design home, so a nice bright yellow rug seems like a good compromise. However, my yellow/multicolor floral accent chair doesn't shine as well against this background.

Option 2:

The blue complements the rest of the kitchen well and gives my table and chairs a solid background to pop against. However, I worry it makes the room too dark and the color palette too cool for my goal of a bright, sunshiney kitchen.

Option 3:

Purple is my favorite color (quelle surprise if you know me at all, lol) and it's a good inbetween tone-wise I think. However, I worry the pattern of this rug is a touch busy.

If you pick the fourth one, you're legally obligated to tell me what rug you're thinking of. Also legal disclaimer that I am not bound by the results of this poll and I'll probably make up my mind on my own eventually, but I'm curious to see how things shake out, and also I lowkey wanted to show off my home designing.

Yeah I'm a gamer (*spends hours playing a home design game on my phone*)

#Design Home #my home kitchen #specifically it's the #main home kitchen #polls #vote now! #you can critique other elements of my design if you want I guess but at this point I'm not changing it most likely #I'm really pretty happy with this but none of the rugs feel quite perfect #mobile gaming #interior design #I could almost call this art or something but I don't want to spam too many tags ;) #I do think I've got a certain composition going though #but yeah opinions welcome! (be nice) (or the laser cats will get you) (I am not legally responsible for the actions of the laser cats) #lol #color theory #hehe #but I do have kind of a purple/blue/yellow palette going‚ which isn't a proper triadic palette technically but I dig it #I do love design home... I might be a little too into it but it's fun #the hgtv kid to wish I owned a house pipeline. oof lol #anyways look at my pretty kitchen. love my pretty kitchen with me #even in the tags i ramble

[tigergendermoved]

All the art and fics of Deltarune where Kris and Susie are like fuckin soulbonded together are wonderful and my favorite but I think they're a lot funnier when you think about the fact that they've been friends for less than 24 hours

#i am a krusie believer platonic or otherwise but these two have only known each other for a short time #if noelle's description of susie as 'the new girl' is anything to go by #and about a day before chapter 2's beginning kris's sole experience with susie was her bullying them #it does make me go 'ough' a little though. susie very nearly asking kris if they'll still be friends if it turns out they cant go back to #the dark world. #god i cant wait to learn more about susie and her background i'm so curious was kris said to her in new girl #because i do feel like they've met before. maybe when they were little and susie moved away or something #i'm partial to the theory that susie grew up in an all-human town and she freaks monsters out and talks about 'we all have blood' #cuz she doesnt really know how to interact with monsters. and maybe she's from hometown and had to move back cuz her family #i imagine susie's family as being Not the best so maybe toriel tried to help her before she moved away #and that's why susie seems to hold toriel in such high esteem and emphasizes kris having a good mom #okay these tags got away from me but ough. susie