#in the thousands by now by themselves

[venacoeurva]

Yeah I'm well past that I think but I appreciate it

#vena vents #not art #I don't even know if this is for ME reblogging things or people reblogging my stuff but either way or both ways I think my day reblogs are #in the thousands by now by themselves

[merp-blerp]

Hamilton will be 10 years old next year…

#MAKE IT MAKE SENSE #I saw it for the first time live on the second of this month #I don't care what anyone says the show is still a masterpiece of theater #feels like I first got into it yesterday and thousands of years ago at the same time #I know the fandom was awkward in its hay day but I'll take it over how some fandoms are now #it can be so stressful #fandom or at least the little corners of it I saw were so much similar back then… #now people don't seem to get the most basic fandom etiquette #i miss it sometimes #are people who are new to fandom even enjoying themselves??? #at least we had fun #sorry a bit of a rant there #hamilton #hamilton musical #hamilton an american musical #lin manuel miranda

[luna-light-eclipse]

Young Wolf with a throne world and finding out about it when they experience a permanent death but they crawl out a barren sea of blood and corpses of everyone they’ve ever killed.

#luna’s brainbox #destiny #destiny 2 #just thinking of a Wolf who’s been on their last straw #and they wake up to this #they wake up drowning in their kills #pulling themselves up by the cold stiff bodies burying them #because they are a guardian #a dead thing #all they will ever do is kill #you know those people who have tens of thousands of kills on on like one gun but with a bunch of weapons? #imagine how many bodies that would be if you piled it up #I’ve managed to get a thousand or more kills in one day multiple times #imagine doing that #for a decade #a Wolf who only sees themself as a weapon and those they’ve been aimed towards #I’d love to do this with Aster but it wouldn’t really fit #guess it’s up for grabs in the box now

[shsl-heck]

One thing that's had me thinking about Amy lately, is the tension between disgust and desire. She is horrified by the immensity of her desire for Victoria, but the shame and guilt over it can only ever make it worse. Fear and arousal, disgust and desire, all of them bleed into each other (we see this constantly in both porn and horror). It's like she has this splinter at the core of her being and she either cant realize or wont accept that the more and more she digs for it to try to get it out, the deeper she's driving it into herself. She cannot remove this without help from someone else. (Coincidentally, not being able to recognize that her attempts to do/be what she's supposed to are only making things worse is also what leads to the Enwretchening)

I'm aware there's a reading of Worm in which Amy's attraction to Victoria is purely an expression of a kind of morality focused ocd, but I personally think that's less interesting. She definitely experiences some level of that (the urge to fuck up a baby she's healing followed by disgust with herself is like a perfect example of an intrusive thought associated with that brand of ocd), but I think this is a case of *and* rather than *or*. My reading of Amy is that of a deeply lonely and emotionally neglected child clinging to the one person in her life that gives her any form of affection, whose attachment only gets increasingly complicated as she starts to grow up and realizes she is attracted to women.

She has never been treated as part of the family, has always felt on some level that she's only playing at being a sister to Victoria, and she is dealing with that during a stage of her life that is turbulent at best for even people raised in a healthy functional environment. There is a broad cultural taboo around sex and desire, but there's a special sort of self-loathing and fear that you're somehow predatory for finding someone attractive that a lot of queer people experience due to the stigma surrounding their sexuality and/or gender. Homoeroticism and attraction is seen as disgusting and fundamentally wrong by society no matter what. It is especially disastrous for Amy because even though she's never been able to see herself as Victoria's sister, she knows she's supposed to, and that adds a whole new layer of guilt and shame to even a passing thought about Victoria being attractive.

Then she triggers. Suddenly she not only has to pretend to be Amy Dallon the well behaved unintrusive family member, she has to be Panacea, the girl who performs miracles. She doesn't even have a secret identity to fall back on for privacy because of New Wave's gimmick. Any resentment about her role, or desire to live a normal life become more proof that she is a sick, evil person; a parasite who has wormed her way into the Good and Heroic Dallon-Pelham family and is eating away at them from the inside-out.

Even as it forces her to repress more and more of herself, Panacea also offers Amy what is seemingly her only chance to be Good like her family. Healing people isn't just something she has to do in order to avoid being a terrible person, but also how she can atone for everything else that's Bad about her. Saving people is a way to try to purge herself of the desire for Victoria, and to prove that she can be a Dallon in more than name.

Like, as awful and lesbophobic as Wildbow's handling of Amy was, there is something deeply compelling and even relatable about her to me. She perfectly captures an emotional state that I've struggled (and failed) to explain as I wrote and rewrote this post. It's the hunger, the guilt, the shame, the fear, the loneliness that settles on your skin like frost as a child when you accept that there must be something wrong with you, because if there wasn't then you wouldn't have to try so hard to be good.

#i am placing my head in a bear trap by posting about Amy like this but here it is #this post has sat in drafts for months #being periodically chipped away at and rewritten a thousand times #but i think this is as good as it's going to get for now #the real takeaway here is that I think Amy should hang out with Green Eyes from Pact #maybe even start a club for girls who are sosososo lonely and disgusted by themselves that they should eat people about it #wormblr #worm web serial #worm wildbow #amy dallon #worm spoliers

[codakk]

dave "the only touch i know is my older brother's violence" strider and jade "i've long forgotten what the touch of another human being's felt like" harley both being lonely best friends struggling with their touch starvation but maneuvering through it and healing from it with each other's guidance and company

#xi #davejade #dave putting up walls to hide his starvation from everyone else #jade softly knocking at the walls hes put up and waiting for him patiently until he feels ready to let her in #even if waiting a thousand years for him meant letting her touch starvation grow hungrier and consume her completely #dave finally letting jade in but bit too late and now jades been left waiting and starved for too long. she just misses the warmth of a hug #dave hating the sight of his best friend so... sad and weak and tries to awkwardly hold her even if he doesn't know what a real hug is like #dave tentatively reaching out for jades hand for a few moments before his own starvation gives in and pulls her in for an abrupt embrace #its awkward. very. dave hugs jade with his elbows pointed out weirdly and with his hand hanging in the air not knowing where to rest itself #but once jade hugs back by looping her arms around him and pulling him close all the tension disappears between them and it feels just righ #just. the thought of both of them being just right for one another. willing to sacrifice themselves for each other. #your honor i love them

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

thinking abt kenny and his anti-neet agenda

#it’s soooo funny how he was constantly like. Fuck Tengen In Particular #but it’s also such an interesting aspect of his character it floors me all the time …. #the fact that what he hates more than anything is. the kind of person who gives up without trying. that learned helplessness #he hates tengen because they hid themselves away for all their centuries of living. chose to look away from the world of curses #while kenjaku has lived in that world for thousands of years now and continues to interact with it… and the people in it….. #and it’s also so obvious when you remember the characters kenjaku is most positive towards in the manga. he likes takaba. he likes yuki. #yuji too….. #all people who refuse to give up even when they’ve been knocked down a hundred times #yuki who uses her last strenght to create a fucking black hole… takaba who vows to make kenjaku laugh even after losing faith in himself #and yuji who never stops coming back from the dead. from the brink of insanity. yuji who tries again and again and again #i think kenjaku loves human resilience more than anything #hhhh. he really is my favorite…… gege ill never forgive u for fumbling him pls remember that . #ari noises ✩

[darlin-collins]

makkaro gave raze an unstoppable weapon that was gonna turn around and hit him and only him

time.

#it makes sense that gb made them stay asleep throughout the whole time on the mountain #they wouldn't think about all of what happened to them #but since he gave them time while they were conscious.. all they did was think all if it + magruis there (now visually and audible-ly) #when they got out od that cell #they the rage of a thousand #and who made them this mad? themselves. they are mad at themselves. but at mak bc he's the reason they are mad at themselves #goodboyaudios #good boy audios #gba makkaro #gba guardian #gba moth

[tethered-heartstrings]

Id just like to say that I love all your reblogs of yourself coz I don't know if I missed them or if I forgot those posts existed but everytime I'm like "wow, what a banger" and then I look and it's you who's rereblogging your own posts and I'm just like .....AS THEY SHOULD! THANK YOU!

genuinely read this and it made my day tysm on so many levels <33

#wishing you a thousand good days to come #i used to feel weird about rbing my own stuff bc i thought it was annoying and i was like #there is stuff people havent seen #my blog isnt old but i have made a lot of posts #and i have like 1100 memes there is a good chance people havent seen some of them #+ my other posts too #but now idc. i am happy with the stuff i have made and i should rb myself. everyone should rb themselves #imagine though if i rbed 10 memes a day every day it would take like 3.5 months #and that doesn't include the new ones i would make along the way #but seriously ty ty ty anon whoever you are <333 #i had an exam today so this was wonderful <3 #anonymous #the curious clown

[migata]

utterly ashamed to have once called myself a eurovision fan

#this whole year has been such a disgrace for the ebu and everyone involved in creating the contest #I decided not to watch it earlier this year because I had been disgusted by how they were able to keep israel in the fucking competition #and now somehow they've made it even worse. i hope they never recover from this shit #prioritising a fucking sponsorship over people's literal lives?? i mean they have never truly cared about 'uniting europe' #but at least they pretended when they banned russia #you were so scared of disrepute... THIS is fucking disrepute!!!!!! #thousands of people protesting outside the venue... thousands boycotting the show..... people dropping out of the show last minute #and now they've disqualified joost over something he SAID????? like come on either this is complete hypocrisy #or they were worried about one of the most outspoken anti-israel artists in the contest #everyone should be fucking embarrassed of themselves #eurovision

[mintjeru]

the newest addition to the geo family!

open for better quality | no reposts | ID under the cut

[Image description: A drawing of all the playable Geo characters of Genshin Impact (as of version 3.0) surrounding a gold Seelie. In the front row are Gorou, Noelle, Yun Jin, who look up at the Seelie, and Albedo, who is drawing on his clipboard. In the back row are Itto, Zhongli, and Ningguang. Itto grins with a hand on Zhongli's shoulder, and Zhongli smiles down at the Seelie. Ningguang watches Albedo as he draws. The Seelie floats in the center of the page with sparkles around it.]

#genshin impact #genshin #arataki itto #zhongli #ningguang #gorou #noelle #yun jin #albedo #fanart #myart #doodle #could i really call myself a geo main if i didn't snag the golden seelie? the answer is no #now most of my characters have a seelie that matches them hehe #geo characters my beloved.. need to draw them more #it's been ten thousand years since i've drawn zhongli and not to mention ningguang #i also gave noelle muscles bc hyv are cowards and won't do it themselves #ok last thing is i'm proud of the colors i got for noelle and albedo's hair #i've always struggled w/ getting the right shades so i'm happy it turned out nicely #when in doubt tonal edits always help hehehe

[falllpoutboy]

sydcarmy would not generate this much pushback on social media and have people scream for them to stay platonic if both of them were white

it’s time like these when i remember this article that may be of some use for everyone to read

#like every time i see a viral sydcarmy tweet #(which the virality of them definitely means a lot of people are either shippers themselves or lying) #theres dozens of replies crying about the sanctity of male female friendships and other shit #theres other male and female characters on the bear for syd and carmy to be friends with #i have yet to see a post with at least a few thousand likes wanting sydney and marcus to get together #and i saw a shit ton of viral tweets clowning claire and carmy scenes #no one else on that show has a charged and sexy and platonic and messy (actual words about sc from molly gordons mouth) dynamic #sooo?? what now #its giving f!nnrey and th0rkyrie all over again

[ninacarstairss]

i’m so proud of them it hurts. our little gay story has come so far <3

#last year they were the cast of a new show going to pride #now they have their own float filled with flags and ballons #thousands of people who came out and accepted themselves because of them #thousands of people who love them and admire them #they’ve come so far <3 #heartstopper #heartstopper cast #heartstopper tv #heartstopper pride

[sophieswundergarten]

So. Everyone who yelled at me yesterday for making a ramble on Reynie going blank and then not resolving it, this is for you: (@lemondropletters, you have been tagged)

Also, it's in a Google Doc because it was definitely too long for a Tumblr post, and ~~I don't know how AO3 works~~

The (vague) premise is that, instead of Constance seeing Curtain's broadcast, they all get to the compound mentally sound, but once there, they split up to look for Mr. Benedict, and instead Reynie finds Curtain. This is the wrap up of what would have happened in the last episode.

#I'm sorry if it's also garbage #My brain hasn't been letting me sleep the last two days so I've just been working on this #And also I've never tried writing fic before so it is highly likely to be bad #But it was certainly a fun experience! #I was like “Oh I'll just rewrite that first post in this new format and then add the notes I had in my drafts” #And from there it somehow spiraled into a five and a half thousand word mess #But I think I learned some things! #And I'm sorry Miss Perumal isn't more help I got caught up in the emotion and I just really wanted the kids to work it out themselves #Especially since Reynie is normally the driving force for those kinds of solutions #But without him it took a lot longer than I expected #Also be warned I use a lot more em dashes then I think I'm supposed to #And I was trying the technique of mostly using the adult's formal names since the main perspective is the kids' #But the point is that I did it. I tried. #And if it's terrible then I will just never do it again #I'm sorry I didn't know how to end it so it's kind of vague and abrupt #I hope it's fairly in-character I tried really hard but messing up character voices terrifies me which is why I've never tried this before #I am genuinely so sorry if this is hot garbage it certainly feels like garbage #Okay shutting up now. Again my apologies #the mysterious benedict society #mbs #reynie muldoon #kate wetherall #sticky washington #constance contraire #miss perumal

[thyandrawrites]

https://thyandrawrites.tumblr.com/post/614692078547582976/i-havent-cried-since-my-tear-ducts-got-burned

Just read your meta about this ^ <3

And It made me question why the league has given up on changing their society into a healthier one. I mean I can see why they did give up on it but I guess theres just a part of me that wishes they didnt. What do they think will happen when they show the world how corrupt it is and do succeed in destroying Heros and all that. We talk about them wanting to destroy Heros and their status quo but what do they think will happen once they manage to do that? Just because they destroyed status quo, I don’t see anything changing for the better in the end because the villains aren’t purposely fighting the heros for the sake of a better society🤔. One reason why they destroy is because they no longer see a future for themselves but jeez it makes me sad that they think that way and making everything worse by destroying everything around them in the war right now. The heros really need to step up right now and help them.

You're right that they're not seeking to destroy to build something better atop the wreckage. Not anymore, at least. But I think it's important to point out that while their goals weren't exactly constructive to begin with, their current destruction is an escalation of their original objectives.

Like, Dabi is the most obvious example. Up until the war arc, he still had some sort of lingering idealism. He made a nationwide broadcast aimed at civilians to push them into thinking with their own heads and making society better by ridding it of all fake heroes. It's only when society throws the abuse he suffered back in his face by siding with Enji that he realizes that's never going to work, that people will always "live to laugh" in the face of his trauma and step on his need for justice.

Same with Toga and Shigaraki. They tried explaining themselves over and over, but not a single time were their points ever heard. Toga tried to get Ochako and Deku to acknowledge that heroes took the lives of a precious friend and showed no remorse and suffered no consquences. Neither of them acknowledged her suffering, and instead kept addressing her as a love-obsessed freak. Shigaraki told Deku and the heroes that the society that heroes built has always rejected him, started from his own household. He was locked out of the house as punishment for refusing to obey arbitrary and despotic rules that didn't value him as a person. The heroes built him a flying coffin as punishment for refusing to die quietly, and called him an "it", making it clear they also don't see him as a person.

I mean. Draw your conclusions.

At some point they did seek a dialogue, but it was only met with even more rejection. Imho that's important to acknowledge because all three of them became villains precisely because society rejected them over and over, made them scapegoats, and then called them monsters and tried to put them down like wild animals.

So while I don't see lashing out with even more violent and destruction as a viable solution... I can totally understand where they're coming from.

it... really shouldn't be on them to make a good enough case for why children shouldn't be fucking abused, for the heroes to finally start seeing them as human beings... and yet...

I think it makes sense why the League would have enough of being pummeled to near-death every time they try a dialogue, and instead decided to hit back just as hard. I mean, obviously that's just repeating the endless cycle of violence (it's the same old 'an eye for an eye'), and we can clearly see how it's only making the Lov trio's self-loathing fester and bring them further and further away from their origins, but. At this point, honestly, why should they make things easier on the heroes?

#I'm def biased here because I relate to them more than I ever will to the kids but #it's so frustrating to watch the kids rn #because they will probably need to see their villain foils be on death's doorstep before they realize #that something needs to change #cause right now they're stuck punching them to near-death themselves #and completely missing the point that every fist #brings them further and further away from the end of this damned war #ali replies #bnha #spoilers #like one common take I see often is that #the kids should save the villains asap #but personally I think the kids should just. stop punching them with the force of a thousand suns first #like empathy totally is key here. but like #did we all miss that fighting shouto burned dabi's remaining healthy skin off or

[ajaxdishsoap]

Jesus did not say that every time we rebuke or abuse the poor and down-trodden we're rebuking and abusing Him for Christians to put conditions on their aid for people

#no one cares about this but i'm mad at the modern church #modern christianity is so removed from its roots (at least in the west idk abt other areas) that they should feel ashamed of themselves #we were PERSECUTED and we LIVED LIFE AND HELPED OTHERS ANYWAY #HOW HAVE WE FORGOTTEN OUR OWN HISTORY AND FALLEN.SO FAR FROM THE COMMANDS OF THE GOD WE SAY WE SERVE #also i'm seething over how modern 'mission trips' are done #your only job was to help people with no strings and tell them 'hey Jesus loves you- He died on the cross and was ressurected three days- #-later' and then bada bing bada boom job done #why are you out here with a longer terms and conditions list attached to your aid than a modern mmorpg #Jesus help us #i love the church so much and i am so so disappointed #what happened to 'in the world but not of it' #what happened to 'it's not the healthy that need a doctor' #WHAT HAPPENED TO EVERY TEACHING OF JESUS #WE ARE NOT EXEMPT BECAUSE WE'RE A COUPLE THOUSAND YEARS REMOVED FROM WHEN HE WALKED THE EARTH #ALSO????????? THE ONLY WAY SOMEONE CAN SAY AND BELIEVE 'JESUS IS LORD' IS BY THE POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT #NOT COERCION #okay #i'm done #for now

[senselessalchemist]

Sometimes you spend Saturday (one of your two free days a week) sitting in the stairwell because your insurance will only fill your specialty meds thru the mail and your doorbell is broken so if you want to get your medication you have to watch for the FedEx truck

By you I mean me

(5 hours and meds still not here)

I am tired of having this body and I deserve a new one after the massive hell this one has put me through

#im sleepy and irritable #didnt want to spend all day in thr stairwell watching for the fedex truck #its cold and i am sore and my teeth hurt because orthodontia #i want a nap #i dont know that a sign would work #i did think about it #but also its my goddamn multiple thousands of dollars worth of medicine #because hellscape where a chronic illness means you have to deal with more bullshit than non chronically ill people #which makes sense punish those sick fucks for being sick they obviously brought it on themselves #anyway point is i dont want to fuck around with it #i literally got married to afford this medication lmao #wish i hadnt now but also what could i have done? #how much after 5 do i wait....