#in the most abstract way

[thedoodlebuggo]

!SPOILERS FOR MALEVOLENT PART 40! and mild blood warning

so i listened to malevolent. have animation of the sillies

#yes that's kayne #i love the rascal loki type designs i see a lot of but like #in my mind he's just this completely abstract being #who appears human for the most part but he's more fun to draw the other way lol #malevolent #malevolent podcast #kayne malevolent #collins malevolent #the butcher malevolent #malevolent spoilers #malevolent fanart #malevolent animation #my art

[reigndiance]

i like how sometimes i feel Sick out of Nowhere

#what is happeningngngngnngnn #ive felt like shit for like 3 weeks now #in the most abstract way #whyhy

[eskildit]

i think a lot about hot sauce and jeannemary. two young girls so ready to kill and to die. a comparison made all the worse when you recall that hot sauce lost all her family to the cohort, that she can specifically recall fourth style necromancy (using corpses as bombs). a fourteen and thirteen year old that could easily have been on opposite sides of the same front line. 

#the locked tomb #the loss of childhood! senseless violence! #opposite ends of the propaganda machine #eskildit posts tlt #all of nona the ninth #how am i supposed to tag hot sauce #jeannemary chatur #ok to rb #edit: okay im actually gonna use these tags to ramble a lil #in many ways i feel alecto the ninth is gonna be the hardest book to actually pull off #first for the obvious reason that its an ending and endings are always hard #but second because nona the ninth was by far the most political book of the series #books 1 and 2 following harrow and gideon mean we're following characters on the outskirts of the empire #gideon is individually oppressed by the ninth and even harrow is considered a black sheep outsider of the nine houses #but they are still WITHIN the houses gideon has dreams of the cohort harrow has dreams of of revitalizing her house #nona was our actual introduction to the real consequences of the empire that characters like judith like jeannemary like corona herself #have their livelihoods and status entirely built on the imperial violence we see first hand on new rho #anyway i say all of this to say it means coming back to these characters might be kinda tricky! #the cost of the empire is no longer abstract its extremely palpable! #how does one return to our core cast we've know for multiple books now that we understand that #idk. interested to see where we go!

[joshuamj]

She just wanted a friend :(

#the amazing digital circus #tadc #pomni #gummigoo #tadc spoilers #the amazing digital circus spoilers #josh art tag #okay but this ep was really interesting in the subtle ways it showed that pomni didnt think of the others as friends #like i suppose it shouldve been obvious #but i think myself and many other members of the fandom knew from the pilot that they would end up friends and we realized the potential #and then combined with the time between eps #i kinda forgot that they werent really friends #pomni actually spent most of the pilot separated from them in exit maze hell #and was Going Thru It the rest of the time #but this eps pomni dynamics with the rest were super interesting #esp how she wasnt really receptive to ragathas friendliness #and then the ending!! how a funeral of all things gave her comfort and hope! #i think that showed her that these truly are real people #not just like part of this weird digitap hell like caine #and that even if she abstracts she will be remembered #and people will be sad about what happened to her and mourn her #the scene of everyones (minus jax's) hands grabbing her as she falls makes me so emotional 🥺

[miraclesprinkle]

No memories remain of anything before

Yes, I'm with you in a garden of carnage

In a mayhem of trickster and tricked!

#amphibia #marcy wu #my art #okokok so- #i'm gonna do my best to explain this #because most of the art i make is some form of abstract/surreal #and most have a deeper meaning that will only makes sense to me and me only #but this one i wanna try and explain #anyway- #so it's supposed to represent conversation with yourself #like a shower argument if you will #but like talking to yourself #and enjoying the convo because nobody else but you will #like marcy could talk to anne or sasha about whatever but they wouldn't like or participate at all in the way marcy both wants/needs #so the only person marcy can have a real conversation with is herself #that's why the phone isn't connected to anything #what they're talking about isn't for anyone else to listen to #it's just for them because they know nobody else won't talk to them like they can #but that's it #hope that made any sense lmao

[remanedur-art]

If you had to pick.

What are you top 5 kinks?

eooo

1.) enf

2

why is that 2 so big

2.) excessive cum

3.) why the fuck do these numbers keep being really big when i type them initially but then go back to normal when i type anything else

3.) pretty light bondage

4.) human x anthro

5.) i dont know if there's a single term for it but whenever characters have like, nigh uncontrollably high libido esp with mixed with any of the above like jus bein on the brink of cumming really hard or that but they're also tied down so they cant. that, whatever that's called

#kinda in no specific order #because i dont actually have a whole lotta quote unquote kinks #most of my stuff is just preference or sorta abstract preference #like the aforementioned libido thing #or like really specific character types (of both body and attitude) in specific positions and such #like big bara man character who is stern and reserved and very gay but also a really bottom-y size queen? hell yeah #but thats not really a kink nor is there just a singular term for that most of the time #or like rico and olympia where olympia is a very recently uncloseted gay guy who is sorta forging his sexuality #while rico is a very sexually experienced transguy who hasnt really gone thru any sorta bodily changes #SHRUG #real specific shit like that but not broadly specific in the kink way

[visdiefje]

Thinking that part of the reason why "love yourself, you are beautiful, adore yourself" falls completely flat on me is because I can't do anything with abstract instructions and it simply means nothing to me. But very funny is that I'm accidentally getting there anyway by entirely unconventional means (mind animal)

Love yourself: okay. How? What does that mean? How can I love something I have no particular feelings for? It just is. How do I have feelings on purpose? How do I make myself care? Am I supposed to pretend to have feelings I don't until it's real? I end up not doing this because it doesn't feel like an actual thing I can do

Dæmonism, apparently: okay, so imagine the other half of your mind voice, the one you bounce your inner dialogue off, as a person. Name them, find out what they're like, and now their opinions hold more weight. What do they want you to do? Would that benefit you? Is it possible that this part of you knows how to take care of you? Imagine them as a companion of your own, that is always with you wherever you go. Isn't it nice to be in your own company sometimes? You can represent them visually through an animal. There are many ways to determine what animal would fit. You see qualities of yourself in this animal, don't you think this is a creature worth of admiration, respect and love? Then why wouldn't you be? Build a relationship with this part of you, make a way of living with them, grant them kindness and feel love for them. But remember! They are you and you are them! OOPS you've been tricked into caring for yourself and holding yourself to a higher esteem!

#bien rambles #daemonism #dæmonism #I post this knowing I have a ten person audience for these personal posts at most. please do not be weird to me #anyway there are many mental practices that can help make people feel better in their own minds in many ways #this is just one that helped me in a particular way #and I wasn't expecting it. I just wanted a little mind beast. and now I do. and it's great #I never did well with abstract instructions honestly. this should come as no surprise to me

[blinkpen]

i made a semi-facetious joke about kabru dungeon meshi but then it turned into a long ramble oops

kabru is so weirded out by laios' inscrutable vibes and lack of interest in other people (including kabru which he totally doesn't take personally or anything) that he immediately descends into paranoia and assumes malevolence

what i'm saying is laios is autistic rep, this we know, but kabru is also autistic rep, for equally traumatized autistic people who think their hard-learned mastery of people pleasing, social scripts and masking translates into unilateral skill at reading people of all types and assuming they are right on the money about it every time (**despite obvious cases of this not being true) and now call themselves Dark Empaths and have that one person who didn't wrong them but also didn't notice them or immediately become their friend and so said Empath is waiting desperately for another, actually valid reason to call them out and claim this weirdo was evil all along and be 'dealt with' and feel reassuring closure over not being able to connect with what is now clearly proven to be just an obvious error of a human, whatever that even means,

and tragically not grappling with the irony of this being the exact fate they've merely defensively trained their way out of facing at the hands of others

i say this as someone who likes kabru and think he and laios should kiss btw i just wanted to see how many people read all that and Flinched, happy tuesday

**something something:

Worthy Contrast i think, between A) kabru assuming average joe adventurers laios and falin are sinister people hiding something... after seeing their honest generosity be pretty blatantly taken advantage of, without them ever catching on or at least never causing a fuss, and kabru assuming laios could only ever be corrupted by the forces of the dungeon because laios doesn't care enough about people or what people think, which must mean he doesn't value human life enough to not do evil things one day

B) kabru having misguided trust for the town's literal crime lord, who he knows is a crime lord, entirely bc of how friendly the guy is and how clean and orderly he runs things (because it's functionally pragmatic to not be as evil as possible about it) and oohh they're so well acquainted! kabru knows he's a ultimately a good dude who'd do the right thing and care about the community whose seedy underbelly he oversees, and look at him, he even looks like santa claus...! after all the cordial interactions they've had, surely "leave money on the table to prevent a calamity that could leave hundreds dead" is a favor he won't mind kabru asking of him at all!

kabru said he wanted to see a mask fall,

he got exactly that

#fandom warbling #dungeon meshi warbling #fandom posts will not be rebloggable bc i don't gamble #dude that face jumspcared me the first time i read the manga LOL #panels including spoilers for a minor character we see for like 1 chapter turning heel ig? #i hc kabru as jealous of laios' more 'honest' weirdness while kabru is running on Hypervigilant Social 4D Chess Mode at all times #also the lovehateboner partially rooted in laios being a chaos variable in any social script kabru could possibly attempt to break the ice #unlike most people he has to formulate interactions with laios From Scratch just for a conversation to -functionally continue- #in a way he's forced to be himself enough to confront what he even wants from these conversations to figure out what to even say #even if what he ends up saying is more people pleasing bullshit for a dude who you don't actually need to try that hard to befriend #haha he makes you feel vulnerable in a really abstract way every time you simply try to Communicate with him doesn't he kabru #i'm rambling again hi #i like kabru and i don't think the anime is doing him justice but maybe that'll get better

[puppyeared]

i feel shy talking here when i dont have anything worth sharing but i cant help feeling like ive said things in the tags that could be brought up in court

#im joking #i think i just get embarrassed saying smth that most ppl can see out in the open. its like when prey animals are grazing in a pasture #and then they hear a twig snap yk. im like that. but talking in the tags is more comfortable because it just feels more.. hidden?? quiet??? #its kind of like how i prefer responding thru asks than DMs.. idk if it has something to do with space or less pressure #i also use these as an excuse to ramble a little abt recent events so. ive worked a little bit on shuffle and prestos backstories ^_^ #i was thinking abt giving them a shared past where they knew each other as kids and forgot but i also though hmm.. idk if it would drive th #story i want bc i think itd be better if they bonded over similar experiences instead of the fact that they knew each other before. i get #that reconnecting and reconciling your idea of someone now and then is a good concept but id have to think abt it.. i dont want it to feel #like they owe each other to be friends again just bc they were as kids. ive experienced that a lot and all it did was make me feel guilty #so i think id want to write it as u can be friends with someone who had similar experiences and make u wish you knew each other then #i also know theyd hate each other but idk HOW. i suck at writing conflict so idk if theyd try to make each other eat glass and why #idk if itll ever come up but id also like to see if theres a way i could rationalize why they have animal ears.. normally i say aliens #but ive had an idea for a species and background for that too. although its very abstract and it probably has a lot of holes #smth abt peoples souls attaching themselves to smth they identify with.. although i dont know to what extent like if it can #be called a sona or if it can even be smth mythical like a unicorn or god itself.. its very weird rn #yapping #oc talk

[daily-ron-fnf]

Day 44

#daily ron fnf #bob mod #bobs onslaught #fnf ron #ron fnf #ok but whatever i did wtih ghe background? #that would look SICK on a shirt right? #im not gonna sell it as one most likely but #i think more pride stuff should have abstract patterns like that #is that the right term? idk #either way its COOL

[liesonthefloordramatically]

okay, Midst is very good, PLEASE listen to it, but also I realized that part of why I am so gleeful about Midst is that it not only features one of my favorite things (unreliable narrators) but also features one of my other favorite things (the narrative standing directly behind the characters with a gun)

case in point: spent the entirety of the episode last week feeling an intense amount of dread because I DID see the narrative standing directly behind the characters with a gun and then this week felt an intense amount of vindication when the gun fired

Rowan has said before that I am way too good at picking up on foreshadowing (I think I am a normal amount of good at it, but also recognize that I seem to correctly predict where things are going substantially more often than many of my friends), but also I am so gleeful that A. Midst does occasionally manage to clothesline me anyway (yes! it's fun to stop dead in the middle of the street due to Events and Revelations!) but also B. the narrative is built to be even more enjoyable when you pick up the foreshadowing because then the narrative is making pointed eye contact with you while standing behind the unsuspecting characters with a gun

anyway, this metaphor is getting away from me, please listen to Midst, I'm having a GREAT time

#if you have ever enjoyed the experience of canon standing directly behind the characters with a gun at the end of one of my fics #consider: you may enjoy Midst #actually you probably will enjoy Midst because this is like. custom-made in a lab for my weirdo taste in narrative nonsense #anyway: coming up with a twist so convoluted no one can possibly guess it is OUT #pointing the narrative in a direction while making pointed eye contact with your audience and smiling is IN #the fact that I'm very good at figuring out where things are going made me mildly frustrated by a lot of media as a child #which is how I got into weirdo narrative devices now that I think about it #because the glee of the narrators telling you 'hey. here's what gonna happen at the end. good luck :)' #and then trying to figure out how on EARTH they're going to get there was enrichment for tiny Queenie #Queenie actually says something on this blog #Midst #Midst spoilers in the most abstracted way possible. but if you are strictly spoiler-free maybe you want to avoid.

[doctorwhoisadhd]

so wait, since i was just reminded of the recorder thing donna talked about in the giggle, i now have a question for uk ppl: do yall learn the recorder in school? like in a music class? and like how much do yall have music class over there?

#this is a very interesting topic for me as a music educator from the us #ik a guy from ireland and he said there was no music class in schools for him and like not the same country BUT same island #(as northern ireland. not the others in the uk but still) #and its so wild and fascinating music education is a fascinating field and the way we do it in the us seems to be largely vvv unique to us #for clarification on how things are different so ppl have a better idea on how to answer my question lol: #in the us music class is standard in elementary schools and most places have general music until abt 5th/6th grade (year 6/7) #(general music = basics- music games learn recorder SOME notation-reading; often classroom instruments eg boomwhackers claves maracas #orff instruments if you're lucky/from a school district that isnt poor. also some world music) #its less standardized after that and not every school will have music after middle school but concert bands and choirs are both huge here #choirs start right on the heels of general music classes (sometimes start earlier + students elect to be in choir instead of general music) #bands USUALLY start in 4th grade (year 5) but sometimes can be later 5th/6th (year 6/7) or even 7th (year 8) (WAY less common) #depends on the state generally 4th is most common i think (choirs start at around the same time i think so probs 4th but choir isnt my area #orchestras are weird bc theyre a lot less common but can commonly start younger bc of one of the big approaches to music ed (suzuki method) #so like maybe 3rd grade (year 4) maybe 4th w/ band (year 5) but i have a friend who teaches at a private school #& said they have 1st/2nd graders (year 2/3)!! orchestra is also not my area though #also marching bands: vv common! usually just in hs (starting 9th grade / year 10) bc it supports the football team at games #but starting in 8th grade (year 9) is also common (sometimes even 7th / year 8) #theres two different styles: collegiate/show band and competition. former is very rah rah pop music etc; competition is more abstract #show bands are clearly designed to entertain whereas competition is designed to be more impressive and tell a story #so more impact moments abstract shapes/lines on the field and has movements - opener ballad closer (fast-slow-fast)

[echoes-fandoms]

My Top 100 Ships (#68: Rick/Morty)

Source: Rick and Morty

When Did I Start Shipping Them? I watched episode one and it tripped my 'fucked up relationship' sensors: I don't know if shipping them is really the right word for my emotions about this particular pairing, but I knew from the get-go that I wanted to explore the most toxic aspects of their relationship to each other. Why Do I Ship Them? There's a lot of themes in Rick and Morty that I think are interesting, but Rick and Morty's codependence and both of their reluctant awareness of it is something that strikes me as the heart of the show. Throughout the show, Rick is using Morty in a harmful way, and introducing romantic/sexual dynamics to that makes it easier to viscerally explore that guilt and abuse. There are so many moments in the show that are about the way Rick disregards Morty's boundaries, and it just... makes me need fanfiction about them where that's in the spotlight.

Favourite Fanfiction Tropes/Staples? Fanfics that pay attention to both sides of the codependency: fics where Rick is forced to confront what it would look like for him if Morty left, and how far he's willing to go to prevent it. Also, fics that are brutal about injuries and the threat of their adventures, in a way that the cartoon style of the show isn't quite capable of conveying.

#let's hear it for the most fucked up ship on the list!!! #rickorty #my moodboards #tw incest #tw age gap #c-137cest #my 100 ships #this was the easiest moodboard to make because i think of this ship in a very abstract visual way #proship #shipping moodboard #rick and morty #yeah fuck it main tags sorry everyone

[oatbugs]

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#meeting the sociologist/philosopher who flew in from barcelona and got basically no sleep just 2 be on time to our date soon #im wearing the earrings the ex situationship person chose for me. they have 3 sharp metal bits hanging down from them. it feels #cold like a knife and also they make noise whenever i take a step which acts a little like a friend and also a beating. dont forget who cho #for you. do you miss her? do you miss her? when you see his face will you miss her? #im going to look someone else in their eyes today #im going to study with my friend today and tomorrow #i had a call w a friend yesterday . he taught me logic metatheory intensively and he also said this whole experience has been painful for #him and the rest of my friends bc its like watching someone nearly drink cyanide over and over #it made things a bit clearer #he said its like watching a lion get declawed and that i was essentially unrecognisable. something happened to his friend #and he wanted his friend back #so im going to go back. #he said he doesnt mind dying alone. he asked why hes doing philosophy and i said pure love and he said thats true #im supposed to be in love w abstractions more than ppl #and im supposed to be in love w my friends before any romantic partner #ok going up tottenham ct escelators is a religious experience recently bc every time i will either make eye contact w the most beautiful #person ever or be reminded of the way they held me on the way down here or how i held them on the way up #anyway lets go

[daataa]

tbh i think that women *not* having like...an organized "religion" (but i would rather use the term "spiritual practice" bc i do believe there is a difference between that and organized religion) the way men do with abrahamic religions directly correlates to our oppression

#men use this abstract idea of gods will as an excuse to justify controlling and oppressing women along with war racism etc #like currently all major religions are just one big collective boys club and women don't have that #and i understand why most women are anti religious which ultimately leads to being anti spiritual atheist #bc of religious upbringings that are inherently misogynistic #but religion and spirituality havent always been that way and god used to be worshipped as a woman/mother!!!

[alevolpe]

your hc on the tiaras being the eyes of serenity makes me wonder if you have any hc about the planetary symbols on the foreheads aside from it being the natural state

Mmh, let’s see. Not particularly I guess, if anything I think I’d take away stuff from canon.

Like in canon is implied that the symbol appears when a senshi “needs help” or “is willing to help”, I don’t have that, cause that would imply the symbols inherently being tied to the team rather than to the individual, or it could mean that the senshis are inherently born to be tied in a connection where they would need this type of almost instinctual communication engrained into their being in the first place.

The ladder isn’t an inherently bad idea and I think you could go very interesting places with it, but I just haven’t gotten that far.

That really cuts to the question of: what is a senshi? Why do they exit and what is their purpose? And I know we have an answer in canon, but I don’t particularly love it, so I’m reworking the whole structure from the ground up.

In the general sense though, the symbols just stand as a way of identifying if one is a senshi or not. A weird analogy I have for it is like the red markings on a black widow, tho in the senshis’ case it doesn’t necessarily mean they’re a threat and the symbols is a warning. The symbol just is, as far as we know, and it’s prob not as easy to understand as the red markings on a spider.

#ask me stuff #The existence of the senshi is a very interesting topic to think about #I don’t hate the canon answer about them #But I don’t like the implications of the senshis being an inherently good force #And chaos being the inherent evil #I think there’s a better way to do this that reflects our own universe #I like the idea of balance but nature and the universe don’t distinguish good and evil #Prey and predator are both equally vital to the ecosystem #Nothing but our own biased morals influence us to think that the prey is any less “evil” than the predator and yet #Most stories feature predators as villains or evil #Coming back to sm what canon does is telling me straight up that the predator is the evil one and that prey is good #When that just isn’t true #Chaos is a very abstract and sort of nonsensical idea of an evil force #Cause chaos itself isn’t an inherently bad thing #We just think it is cause of our own human morals and experiences #Hell without that we wouldn’t have even the idea of chaos #How can “the universe” even distinguish between what is “chaos” and what is “not chaos” #And if it does would that imply the existence a conscience inside of the empty abstract idea of “the universe”