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Harrison Ford: 2020 summary

A year like no other, as you must have heard countless times. The pandemic changed almost everybody´s life on this planet and Harrison wasn´t an exception. Our lil´ bean is strong and healthy but also has to be safe at home, so this year didn´t deliver many news about Harrison. Still, we had a new Harrison movie, The Call of the Wild, released in February, and a few other events before the lockdown. 2020 was also marked by the death of 3 former Harrison´s costars: Chadwick Boseman, Sean Connery and David Prowse. May all of them rest on peace on Heaven.

A new year begins, and we all wish Harrison (and everyone by the way) a productive, happy and healthy 2021. Stay safe!

JANUARY

Early January: Harrison Ford enjoying his holidays in the caribbean island of Bonaire

25th: Harrison Ford with singer Carole Bayer Sager in a dinner in support of US Democratic candidate Michael Bloomberg

28th: The Call of the Wild “Adventure Companions” Featurette. Harrison Ford talks about dogs and companionship in The Call of the Wild’s “Adventure Companions” featurette.

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28th: not sure where these pics were taken. Probably in Wyoming? (pics from Rich Elali)

FEBRUARY

3rd: Verizon Super Bowl Ad Features Harrison Ford And New Pearl Jam Song

Kathleen Kennedy Says Harrison Ford Is Still On For ‘Indiana Jones 5’

Early-mid February: the national and international promotion of The Call of the Wild begins

5th: In Mexico City:

Harrison Ford: America Has Lost Its Moral Leadership And Credibility: The “Star Wars” and “Indiana Jones” star calls out U.S. policy on immigration and climate.

11th: On the Jimmy Kimmel Show:

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13th: Harrison Ford, actor and watch designer. Newly adapted from Jack London’s literary classic, “The Call of the Wild” transports us to the snowy expanses of Alaska in the 1890s, with Harrison Ford as prospector John Thornton. The actor talks about climate activism, technology and why mechanical watches beat smartwatches every time.

14th: Indiana Jones 5 Starts Shooting In Two Months Says Harrison Ford : The long delayed fifth Indiana Jones film is finally about to get underway, as Harrison Ford reveals that he will begin shooting in two months. (that was what they were planning before COVID-19 hit the world...)

14th: Harrison Ford: Indiana Jones 5 Will “See Part of His History Resolved”

17th: “A Force ghost? I don’t know what a Force ghost is…I have no idea what a Force ghost is. And I don’t care!“. Legend.

21st: The Call of the Wild is released in cinemas

At the movie premiere in Los Angeles:

BRING ON THE PUPPIES:

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More videos:

Call of the Wild Survival Tips!

SNACK??? (Kudos to that girl)

Find epic stories at your library!

More news:

Of Course Harrison Ford Did His Own Call Of The Wild Stunts And 'Wore Out' The Stunt Team

Harrison Ford's shirtless chest is that buff (at 77) for his 'Call of the Wild' swim scene

26th: Steven Spielberg Won’t Direct ‘Indiana Jones 5,’ James Mangold in Talks to Replace

27th: Harrison Ford Breaks Down His Career, from 'Star Wars' to 'Indiana Jones' (Vanity Fair)

Late February: Harrison Ford visits Google´s offices in San Francisco to test the company´s self-driving car. [x] [x] [x] [x]

MARCH

14th: Harrison spotted in South Hadley, Massachusetts [x]. Apparently Harrison and Calista went to Massachusetts to pick up their son Liam after college shut down due to the coronavirus pandemic.

MARCH

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APRIL

3rd: Disney delay multiple release dates including Jungle Cruise, The French Dispatch, and Indiana Jones 5

(…) Another big reveal is that Indiana Jones 5 – which will reportedly be directed by James Mangold – is being pushed back a year, from July 9, 2021 to July 29, 2022.

29th: Harrison Ford under FAA investigation after making a mistake while operating an airplane on the runway

According to the audio obtained by TMZ, Ford, 77, did not follow the direction of a tower operator to “keep short” on the runway because of “traffic”. It seems that the actor did not hear the direction. He nevertheless started to cross the runway, which prompted the operator to reprimand him for not following his instructions.

“Cross this trail now!” I told you to keep it short! You have to listen, “said the operator.

“Excuse me, sir, I thought exactly the opposite. I’m really sorry, ”said Ford immediately.

TMZ said there was no risk of an accident. The other aircraft was allegedly 3600 feet from Ford’s aircraft.

MAY

6th: Lucasfilm Reportedly Wants Harrison Ford To Return For Han And Chewie Star Wars Spinoff (Note: this hasn´t been officially confirmed by Lucasfilm)

15th: No news but I think this is cute:

From twitter.com/siikasele

21st: The Empire Strikes Back 40th anniversary. 40 years ago, TESB was released on theaters the 21st of May of 1980.

27th: James Mangold Confirmed To Direct Indiana Jones 5. Producer Frank Marshall confirms James Mangold is directing Indiana Jones 5 and says he's only just begun to work on his own script for the movie.

28th: James Mangold plans to take Indiana Jones franchise 'someplace new'.

Indiana Jones Writer on How Pandemic Will Affect Film's Script

JUNE

Nothing happens but look at this

You are welcome.

JULY

13th: Happy birthday king!

AUGUST

23rd: Harrison Ford dropping off his son Liam at College with wife Calista Flockhart via private plane (from tinyrebelstuff)

28th: Chadwick Boseman dies of cancer at the age of 43

Harrison Ford Calls Chadwick Boseman "As Much a Hero as Any He Played"

“Chadwick Boseman was as compelling, powerful and truthful as the characters he chose to play,” Ford said in a statement to The Hollywood Reporter. “His intelligence, personal dignity and deep commitment inspired his colleagues and elevated the stories he told. He is as much a hero as any he played. He is loved and will be deeply missed.”

SEPTEMBER

24th: Harrison Ford Cleared by FAA in Runway Investigation. "The FAA has closed the case involving the pilot who crossed a Hawthorne Municipal Airport runway without authorization on April 24, 2020. The FAA required the pilot to take a remedial runway incursion training course. When the pilot successfully completed the course, the FAA closed the case with no additional action," the FAA said in a statement to The Hollywood Reporter.

OCTOBER

19th: Harrison Ford & Ed Helms To Star In STX Seafaring Comedy ‘Adventures Of Burt Squire’

22nd: Actor and Pilot Harrison Ford Becomes Airlink Spokesperson. Video here

31st: Sean Connery dies at 90.

Sean Connery: Harrison Ford pays tribute to his Indiana Jones father and 'dear friend'

"He was my father... not in life... but in Indy 3," he said.

"You don't know pleasure until someone pays you to take Sean Connery for a ride in the sidecar of a Russian motorcycle bouncing along a bumpy, twisty mountain trail and getting to watch him squirm.

"God, we had fun - if he's in heaven, I hope they have golf courses.

"Rest in peace, dear friend."

NOVEMBER

2nd: Harrison Ford And Lincoln Project Back Anthony Fauci, Advocate Firing Donald Trump

In the waning hours of the 2020 presidential election, the Lincoln Project has enlisted Harrison Ford to narrate a new ad that plays up President Donald Trump’s suggestion that he will fire Dr. Anthony Fauci.

The spot features a scene from a Trump rally on Sunday in which supporters began chanting “Fire Fauci! Fire Fauci!” and the president responded, “Don’t tell anybody, but let me wait til a little bit after the election.”

Ford then says, “Tomorrow, you can fire only one of them. The choice is yours.”

3rd: Harrison Ford and Bloomberg on Biden 2020

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7th: Destiel becomes canon. Harrison doesn´t give a single fuck.

Also Joe Biden wins the US elections. Trump is defeated. Harrison, we know you hate Donald Trump. Congratulations.

21st: Harrison Ford back in Boston, Massachusetts, to pick up his son Liam for Thanksgiving Day.

28th: David Prowse, who played Darth Vader in the original trilogy, dies at the age of 85. Sorry, I didn´t find any words from Harrison on his memory... it seems they weren´t so close. Also, Jeremy Bulloch, the original Boba Fett, dies at 75 the 17th of december.

DECEMBER

10th: Indiana Jones: James Mangold, Harrison Ford Team to Close Out the Character

Harrison Ford and James Mangold's Indiana Jones 5 will serve as the final chapter for the iconic character.

Disney changed the Indiana Jones logotype. I have a bad feeling about this.

15th: Rare, behind-the-scenes look at 'The Empire Strikes Back'

Including this jewel:

Gif from the @theorganasolo

31st: And just at the very last day of this weird and strange year...

Disney Reportedly Wants Harrison Ford For Indiana Jones Streaming Show

Thankfully, then, it seems that the fifth (Indiana Jones) outing may not be the last we see of the actor in the role, as insider Daniel Richtman claims that Disney wants Ford to appear in a series that’s being developed for their streaming service. Further details are unclear and the tipster doesn’t say if it’s an all-new show or a reboot of The Young Indiana Jones Chronicles, but as one of the Mouse House’s most valuable assets, it wouldn’t be a surprise if they wanted to continue mining the property once Indiana Jones 5 wraps up the big screen stories for good.

Thanks everyone! Hopefully in 2021 the pandemic will fade and the world will return to normalcy. Luckily the production of Indiana Jones V will start this spring, as well as other Harrison projects such the tv show The Staircase and the movie starring with Ed Elms. Fingers crossed for a year full of (good) news about Harrison. Have a happy and safe 2021.

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theydontknowaboutusimagines · 4 years

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The Set Up - Harry Styles One Shot (Part 6)

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The 10th anniversary issue of The Mixtape was now on newsstands and the response from your loyal readers as been amazing. Everyone was taking to social media talking about it and adding their favorite memories. Things in the office were a bit slower now, but there was still plenty of work to do. Booking artists for interviews and covers, pitching article ideas, and new themed issues.

Your relationship was still in the honeymoon phase, but you knew at some point soon that would most likely fade away. Especially since he was starting tour in less than a week. You two still had yet to have a conversation about what it would entail in regards to your relationship. Would there be rules or expectations for one another? Would there be days that go where you two wouldn’t speak? How would you handle a disagreement?

There was so much unknown information that you were a little worried. You had already wrote down every single tour date in your calendar, trying to match up with your own schedule so that you could fly out for a week at a time. You also made sure to note any of his off weeks, so that you didn’t overbook yourself for when he was home.

Mentally, you are prepared to work as hard and as much as you could while he was gone, so that you were able to take off when you needed it. Of course, you knew that you couldn’t work yourself to death, but the motivation was there. You were at the office, going through a hoard of emails when your boyfriend poked his head in the office, holding two cups of coffee and a muffin.

“Hey,” You smiled getting up from your desk. “What are doing here?”

“Just thought I’d pop in and see my girl,” he smiled. “And bring her a little something.”

“I was just about to grab a refill, so thank you,” you smiled taking one of the cups from him.

“I figured,” he smiled putting his hand on your waist.

You smiled giving him a quick kiss, “So, what’s on your agenda today?”

“I’m having lunch with my sister,” he said leaning against your desk.

“Oh, that’ll be fun,” you said sipping your coffee.

“Yeah, I try to spend a little bit more time with her before tour, since it’ll be a while till I’m able to see her,” he said. “She doesn’t come out on tour much anymore.”

“Hm, that’s nice,” you smiled. “I remember her taking about it being weird for her, not always getting to talk or see you.”

He nodded, “Sometimes the time differences get in the way or our schedules. We at least will text here and there. In fact, sometimes we talk more while I’m tour than when I’m not,” he laughed.

You nodded, “Interesting.”

“Hey, but don’t worry,” he said. “That won’t happen with us. Don’t tell Gem, but I’d much rather talk to you, over her,” he winked.

You laughed, “I will definitely not tell her that or she’ll kick your ass.”

“That she would,” he laughed. “Oh, there is another reason, I stopped by because I talked to my Mum this morning and she wants me to come stay with her for a few days. I usually do that as well before tour, sometimes she comes here and stays with me or Gem, others I go up there. She also wanted me to invite you.”

“Oh, I’d love to go,” you smiled. “But only if you want me to go. I don’t want to impose on a mother son time.”

“You won’t be, besides I feel like she’d be happier spending time with you than me,” he laughed.

“Just let me know the dates and I’ll make sure everything’s good to go here,” you said.

“Will do,” he smiled. “Oh, one more thing and I’ll let you get back to work.”

“Yes?” You giggled.

“Stay over tonight?” He asked. “I missed having my favorite breakfast this morning.”

You looked at him confusion on your face, causing him to laugh, “You, baby,” he smirked.

“Behave!” You laughed.

“It’s true though,” he said. “I have to get it while I can before I have to go without it.”

“Well, when you put it that way,” you smirked wrapping your arms around his shoulder, “I’ll be at your place as soon as I’m finished here.. and who says we have to wait until breakfast.”

“I love the way you think,” he smirked pressing his lips against yours.

Harry left your office and headed straight to where he was meeting his sister. His mind was already thinking what would be taking place that nigh once you arrived at his home and he knew he needed to put that on the back burner before lunch with his sister. So, instead he thought about how your face at looked when he mentioned the tour and lack of communication with his family.

Looking back, he probably shouldn’t have said what he did because while you were trying to hide it he could tell it bothered you. He really need to talk to you about what to expect on tour, but every tour was different, every relationship was different. To be fair, he hadn’t had many experiences with relationships on tour and they all obviously didn’t end well. In the past, he either didn’t have a super serious relationship with someone while on tour or he just didn’t even bother.

That was mostly the younger side of him, still getting used to both the new found limelight and hectic schedule both on and off tour. But he really wanted this relationship to work with you. Going into it, he knew it was mostly a bad idea to pursue anything knowing he was leaving in a few months time, but he couldn’t help it. There was a undeniable connection he felt with you, even if in the beginning he tried to deny it. He could have at easily said he didn’t want it to become serious until he came back, but that wasn’t fair to you or to him.

While he knew he should discuss the tour with you, he was going to keep it to himself a little bit longer. Yes, it was like the pot calling the kettle black because he had been upset with you not telling him about The Mixtape party, but this was different. He was afraid if he told you everything that could go wrong or how hard it could be, that you would freak out and end it before it even began.

However, would that actually be for the best? Would laying it all out there in the beginning, letting you make the choice of sticking it out or walking away, help prevent him from getting his heartbroken yet again? Sure, it would fucking suck, losing you now, but at least it would be before he had fallen head over heels in love with you.

Which, honestly, wouldn’t be too long now. It was crazy to think that way, he knew it. You two were still in the honeymoon phase, so it was mostly infatuation still, but he could honestly say he never felt what he was feeling with anyone else. Even people he dated long term. Maybe it was because you knew his family or maybe it was because you two were “made” for each other.

He didn’t necessarily believe in love at first sight or soulmates, but he did believe that there was someone who fit in your missing piece. Someone who made you feel complete, who standing next to him for years to come, and he could see you as that person. Now, that his mind was a little more clearer he headed into the restaurant grabbing a table for two.

“You’re late,” Harry smirked when his sister finally arrived.

“By two bloody minutes,” she rolled her eyes. “I can count on both hands and foot how many times you’ve been late.”

“I believe that’s a bit of an exaggeration,” he said.

“Except it’s not,” she laughed.

“Anyway, I ordered us drinks,” he said.

“Drinks, or drinks,” she smirked.

“The former,” he said. “No one needs you drunk at eleven am.”

She rolled her eyes shaking her head, “Now, let’s get down business.”

“Let me guess, you’re going to grill me about Y/N this entire time, right?” He sighed dramatically.

“Yeah, I am,” she said. “Neither of you have given me any information! I know you two are seeing each other and you were all lovey fucking dovey at The Mixtape party the other night, so just fucking tell me already.”

“Tell you what?” He smirked. “That we’re fucking?”

“Ew! What? No, I do not need to know that,” she said. “If it was Y/N and anyone else, I’d be all for the details, but not when it’s with my baby brother.”

He laughed shaking his head, “Um, so does this mean she’s talked to you about details of her sexual past before?”

“Yeah, I’m not going there,” she said.

“What? It’s a question. I’m not asking for details. I’d rather not know them, actually,” he said. “I just want to know if you two did talk about that before...”

“Yes, I mean it’s not like we sit down and have a formal tea and chat about it, but it’s been mentioned before usually when drinks involved,” she said.

“Hmpf,” he mumbled.

“Don’t be doing that,” she said.

“Doing what?” He asked all innocently.

“Getting jealous over past relationships,” she said. “It’s not like she’s the only person you’ve shagged either, yet you don’t see her trying to get information.”

“Whatever. I’m not getting jealous, one, and two, I’m not asking for information, I was just asking a simple question,” he said.

“Yeah, and denial is just a big fat river in Egypt,” she rolled her eyes.

“No, by The Nile River is,” he smirked.

“For fuck’s sake, just answer my previous question,” she groaned. “Are you and Y/N together yet?”

“If you’re asking whether she’s my girlfriend, then yes, the answer is yes,” he said.

“Yes! I fucking knew it,” she smirked. “When you two get married, please be sure to thank me. I take cash, checks, gift cards.”

He rolled his eyes, “Shouldn’t you just be happy that both your best friend and brother are happy?”

“Oh, I am. Extremely happy, but I can also be ecstatic that once again I was right,” she smirked.

Harry laughed taking a bite of his just delivered food.

“So, tour,” Gemma said after a bit. “How are you feeling about that?”

“Excited, nervous, the usual feelings,” he said.

“How Y/N’s feeling about the tour?” she asked.

“Um, I don’t really know her exact feelings,” he said. “We’ve not talked about it.”

Gemma sighed looking at him, “You leave next week.”

“I know, I know,” he sighed. “It just hasn’t really come up.”

“Because you haven’t brought it up,” Gemma said. “You need to talk to her about it, ASAP.”

“Why are you so adamant about this?” Harry asked. “Did she say something?”

“Look, I’m not going to get in between the two of you, I promised her I wouldn’t, but I will say this,” she said. “Just talk to her, please. Reassure her that things will be okay and that you two will work things out if they don't.”

“Is she worried it’s not going to work out?” He asked. “Gem, you can’t just tell me this shit half ass, please tell me.”

“Fuck me,” she groaned. “Before the two of you became official, she was a little hesitant on some things when it came to do the tour. She didn’t know how you felt about getting in or having a relationship on tour. She also may have asked about your other relationships and I might have told her there weren’t many to begin with and that the ones that were, there were problems.”

“Bloody hell, Gemma, why would you tell her that?” He sighed.

“Because it’s the truth, which she should have heard for you,” she pointed out. “So, that’s why I’m telling you to just sit down and have an honest conversation with her.”

He sighed sitting back in his seat, “Yeah, I’ll talk to her.”

Harry stared at the food in the skillet as it cooked, his mind wandering off to his talk with his sister. Ever since he left lunch with her, his mind raced with all sorts of thoughts. What if you were second guessing being with him and his fear of you walking out was bound to happen? He also wondered what else you talked to his sister about. He knew she would never break your trust, even if she slightly did during lunch, but if it was anything bigger, he knew she would never spill.

He understood why and he would never intentionally ask or invade your privacy like that, but it still didn’t make the possibilities of conversations lead his mind. He heard the buzzer at the gate, signaling that you had arrived. He had given you the guest code, so you were able to get in, but it still alerted him when someone had arrived. He was thankful for that in that moment because it gave him time to try and clear his mind and put on a front that everything was okay until he had to bring up the topic of conversation.

The doorbell rang, “It’s open!” He shouted from the kitchen.

A few seconds later, the front door opens and he could instantly smell your perfume. He smiled a bit knowing you were there, but deep down there was a feeling in his gut.

“Hey, baby,” you smiled walking into the kitchen. “Dinner is smelling amazing.”

“Thank you,” he smiled. “It should be ready in a bit.”

You smiled wrapping your arms around his waist and given him a kiss, “Hm, how was lunch with Gem?”

“Well, our conversation was centered around you,” he said.

“Ah, so I take you finally told her we’re together?” You asked.

“I did,” he said. “She told me we better thank her if we ever get married,” he laughed.

“She would,” you laughed.

“How was the rest of your day?” He asked. “Everything good at the office?”

“Well, everyone was certainly in good moods thanks to the hoards of coffee, bagels, and muffins, my boyfriend dropped off today,” you laughed.

“Happy everyone enjoyed it,” he smiled.

You kissed his cheek, “Do you need any help?”

“No, I’m good,” he said.

“Okay, then I’m going to go freshen up and change, I’ve had enough of these tight ass for the day,” you laughed.

He smirked, “Your ass definitely looks good in them though.”

You laughed, “I’ll be right back.”

He nodded giving you one more kiss before letting you go and head into the bedroom. He sighed, taking a deep breath before putting the food onto plates and taking it over to the table. Less than five minutes went by when you returned wearing leggings and an old concert t-shirt.

“Just in time,” you smiled sitting down.

“Want some wine?” He asked.

“Actually, I think I’m just going to have some water,” you said.

He nodded bringing over a glass of water before joining you at the table.

Dinner was usually quiet only the sounds of forks clinging and glasses being placed on the table. You could tell something was off and you wondered what had happened between this morning and now. The only thing would be his lunch with Gemma and with him saying they talked about you.

“You know despite Gemma’s previous warning, you aren’t that terrible of a cook,” you smirked looking over at him.

He playfully glared at you with a laugh, but you could tell it was forced. When both of you were finished, you took your plate into the kitchen, “I’ll clean up,” you smiled.

“You don’t-” he said.

“No, I don’t, but I want to,” you smiled. “Then I’ll meet you over on the couch.”

“Okay,” he nodded.

After you finished cleaning up the kitchen, you poured yourself a glass of wine before going over to the couch where Harry was sitting.

“So, you want to tell me what’s bothering you?” You asked turning to face him.

“What do you mean?” He asked sipping his wine.

“You know what I mean,” you said. “You’re acting different, standoffish a little. You barely said anything during dinner and now you won’t even look at me. Did I do something?”

He sighed putting the glass of wine on the coffee table, “I want you to be honest with me, did you think about not pursing a relationship with because of me going on tour?”

“Gemma?” you sighed.

“Don’t-Don’t be upset with her, she didn’t really say those exact words, but I sort of got the feeling that’s where she was going,” he said.

You sighed, “I didn’t say those exact words either,” you said. “We had this conversation before we even got together. It was while you were New York, she asked me how things were going and if I saw us going somewhere. I told her, I didn’t know because I didn’t know if you even wanted it to go somewhere because you would be going on tour.”

“Why would you think that?” He asked.

“I don’t know, I don’t know how that works,” you said. “I mean, maybe you don’t like having to worry about having someone back at home, having to make time to call them or something...”

“What do you mean not worry about having someone back at home?” He asked. “What do you think I fuck around or something?”

“What? No, I don’t-” you said.

“Then what?” He said. “It makes no fucking sense on why you would think I would’t want a girlfriend just because I’m going on tour.”

“Well, in case you forgot, you said it yourself just this morning, that you even have a hard time staying in touch with your family,” you said. “So, it does make sense that I would think you wouldn’t want another person to add to that list.”

“Touring is part of my life, Y/N,” he said. “If I thought that way, then I’d never have a girlfriend, or ever get married unless I quit that part of my life and I don’t ever see myself doing that. Not until I’m dead or people stop coming to my shows, which ever happens first.”

“We had just met, Harry, we had only been on one date and had a few phone conversations,” you said. “How was I supposed to know any of that? I didn’t even know what was going to come of us anyway.”

“Oh, so you didn’t think we’d get together? Why?” He asked.

“Damnit, Harry,” you sighed. “Did you? Listen to yourself, this conversation with Gemma happened months ago. And for the record, you’re worried about that conversation, yet you’ve done nothing in the present to set my mind at ease about you going on tour and what that means for us.”

“What are you worried about?” He asked. “Why are you freaking out about it?”

“Because my boyfriend is about to leave for months on end and I don’t know how often I’ll get to see him or talk to him,” you said. “And that maybe, just maybe, since I won’t be around, he’ll forget about me and all of this will have been for nothing.”

“How can you think that?” He asked. “I don’t know what you’ve experienced before in your past relationships, but I’m not some sort of fucking out of sight, out of mind person. If I’m with you, you’re all I’m thinking about. I don’t care if it’ll be two days or two fucking months since seeing or speaking with you, I will still be thinking about you.”

“You say that now,” you said. “But you don’t know how you’ll feel two months from now.”

He shook his head, “If anyone should be worried about it’s me,” he said. “How do I know that you won’t be the one looking for something else with me gone, huh? You could easily meet someone here, who would sweep you off your feet, someone who could be at your beck and call all the fucking time and not thousands of miles away. So, if there should be anyone worried about being in relationship while I’m tour, it’s me.”

“Oh, so now you think I’m going to be the one who fucks around on you?” You asked.

Harry didn’t say anything, but his silence said enough.

“Wow,” you laughed darkly. “Never once did I think you would actually cheat on me because I trust you, but apparently you don’t trust me. So, you know what, I’m just going to leave and go back to my flat, while you figure you own shit out, but just know, I refuse to be with someone who doesn’t trust me.”

Harry sighed, not saying anything, as your grabbed your bag to leave. You paused at the door, hoping he would say something, but he didn’t, so you walked away.

And he let you.

The next morning you were pissed, beyond pissed, so you got up first thing to head into the gym. Your trainer was there waiting for you with a punching bag and your gloves. You had waited up most of the night, wondering if Harry would call you to talk things over, but not even a single text message was sent your way.

“Rough night?” He asked while he taped up your hand and wrist.

“Didn’t get much sleep,” you sighed.

“So, that’s why I received a text at two in the morning,” he laughed.

“Yep, thought I might need to punch some shit around,” you said.

“That’s what I’m here for,” he smirked. “Just don’t mess up the money maker.”

“I’d never,” you joked. “On purpose, at least.”

Over an hour later, you were drenched with sweat and your muscles were on fire.

“Bloody hell, who pissed you off,” he said shaking his head.

You sighed chugging down some water, ignoring his question.

“Let me guess, boy troubles?” He asked.

“How’d you know?” You said sitting next to him, wiping your face down with a towel.

“I’ve had my share of ‘em,” he laughed.

“I bet,” you laughed.

“So, want to share?” He asked.

“Let’s just say we’re experiencing our first fight,” you said.

“Ah, the honeymoon phase is over,” he said.

“I wouldn’t say completely over, just paused at the moment,” you said.

“Well, punching the shit out of a bag and my hands, will help a bit,” he said. “But you know what actually will help.”

“Sitting around a campfire and talking our shit out?” You scoffed.

“Yes,” he laughed. “And then makeup sex, lots and lots of makeup sex.”

“I take it you’ve had a fair share of that, too,” you smirked.

“Yep,” he grinned.

“I better get going,” you said. “I need to shower, change, and get to the office.”

“And call the boyfriend,” he asked.

“At some point,” you said.

Harry knew he fucked up as soon as you saw you walking out of the door. He knew he should have went after you, brought you back inside, and talked all that shit through. But he didn’t. He knew he should have called you, even texted you, to make sure you got home okay, but he didn’t. He tossed and turned in his bed all night. Your perfume still lingered in the air.

Once the sun lit through his bedroom room, he decided to just get out of bed. He put on some jogger pants, his trainers, and a hoodie before making his way into the kitchen to make himself some coffee. He looked at his phone wondering if you had sent him anything, but there was nothing. Not that he blamed you.

He needed to make this right, if there was ever a chance the two of you to come out of this still together. But first, he needed to clear his mind and to do that he needed to run. He put on some music, grabbed his keys, and headed out. Usually, he just ran a few times throughout his neighborhood, staying close, but that day he ended up running further and further away until he was standing outside of your office building.

It wasn’t entirely too far from his house, but further than he had run one way before. He saw you from the other side of the street, walking up the street, and into the building. He fought the urge to walk over to you for two reasons. He knew talking about last night at your job was not good for either one of you and two because he really wished he could kiss you and make it better.

After realizing he wasn’t going to actually do anything there, he decided to turn around and head back to his house. When he arrived back, he was dripping with sweat, after downing an entire glass and a half of water, he headed up to take a shower. He leaned his hands against the wall as he let the water rush over him. His mind wander to you and the situation again.

He still didn’t know how to make this right, but he knew someone who could help him figure it out.

By that afternoon, Harry had driven to his mother’s house, a few days earlier than planned. He hadn’t told her much, just that he wanted to be there a few days ahead of time. When she had mentioned you, he simply said it was because you couldn’t get off work, which technically wasn’t a lie.

When he arrived, he brought his bags into his room, before meeting his mother in the backyard for some snacks. Harry grabbed some cookies to nibble on while his mother looked over at him.

“What happened?” she said.

“What? Can’t a loving son come and visit his mother without there being anything wrong?” He asked

“Normally, yes,” she said. “But you can’t hide anything from me. I can see it in your eyes that something’s up. Did something happen between you and Y/N?”

He sighed, “We had our first fight last night.”

“I can’t say that I didn’t see that coming,” she sighed.

“Oh, but you and Gemma were just so sure we’re meant to be,” he rolled his eyes.

“I didn’t mean it like that,” she said. “I meant that the honeymoon, fairy tale love phase doesn’t last forever. All relationships have shit they go though, it’s what makes them grow. You don’t have to tell me what happened in detail if you don’t want to, but I will say the one way this works out for you two is if you talk through it. The way you handle a fight or an argument is what will make or break your relationship.”

“So, you’re saying coming up here was a mistake?” He asked.

“No, I’m not,” she said. “What I am saying, is you should call Gemma and have her bring Y/N up, so you two can talk it out.”

He sighed nodding.

“Now, do it,” she said.

“Yes, Mum,” he said.

Everything happened so fast, you don’t even remember how you got in the car and was on your way up to Anne’s house. All you remember is Gemma calling and telling you to back a bag. Gemma could be very scary and persuasive when she wanted something. You figured it had to with what was going o between you and Harry and while you thought it should stay between the two of you, you knew she wouldn’t know anything about it unless Harry had told her.

At least he was talking to someone about it. What you didn’t see coming was that she was driving you up to Anne’s house, which Anne knew something was up. You didn’t know how this would work between you and Harry if you needed other people to help you work out your shit, especially when it was your first fight. During the drive, neither your or Gemma really said anything.

It felt awkward, but you really didn’t know what to say. You couldn’t exactly blame Gemma for what happened, but part of it was a little bit her fault. When you arrived at Anne’s house, you felt nervous, not sure what you were walking into. Either you would be able to work things out and move on, or things would be over before they even really started. And you knew you wouldn’t be able to handle the latter, especially when your only way back home was either with Gemma or Harry.

Harry’s legs bounced up and down in anticipation as he waited for you to arrive. He wasn’t even sure how it happened, but Gemma was able to get you to come with her. He wasn’t sure how this was going to go or how you would respond to having to sort everything out at his mother’s house. God, he felt like a stupid, immature child, running to his mother’s house.

What if you thought the same way, but surely if you did, you wouldn’t have agreed to come. He heard a car pulling up in the driveway and he knew it was you. Anne had already said she and Gemma would leave for a few hours, so that you two could work this through without an audience. He just hoped that things would get worked out.

The backdoor opened and he turned around seeing you standing there.

“Hey,” he whispered.

“Hi,” you whispered back.

“Um, do you want to have a seat? Want some water or something?” He asked.

You shook your head, “I want to know why I’m here.”

“Because you and I both know we need to talk about what happened last night,” he said.

“And we couldn't have done that in London?” You said. “Or last night? You know instead of just letting me walk out, you had to drive up here and then have your sister bring me up here? What the fuck, Harry!”

“I know! I know, okay, I fucked up,” he said. “Both last night and doing all this, but I just... I needed some time to think and I came up here to see my Mum, since I was already coming up soon anyway. We talked a bit and then I asked Gem if she could get you up here because I figured you wouldn’t come on your own.”

“That’s pretty fucked up you know,” you snapped. “And the fact that you could talk to other people about last night, but not me, how do you think that makes me feel especially after you accused me of being the one to fuck up the relationship.”

“I didn’t fucking say that!” He snapped back.

“Yeah, well maybe not in those words exactly, but the imply was fucking there,” you said.

“For fuck’s sake, I’m trying to make this better between us,” he shouted.

“Well, shit isn’t going to get better unless we actually talk shit through!” You shouted.

“Fine! Fine, if we’re going to talk, can we just stop yelling for five damn minutes!” He sighed.

“Fine,” you said.

“Good,” he responded.

Both of you stood there trying to calm down for a bit. Harry ran his hand through his hair before looking back over at you.

“Look, I’m sorry,” he said. “for everything, I know that’s not going to make everything go away, but-”

“It’s a start,” you sighed.

“I know,” he nodded.

“Did you really mean it?” You asked. “Do you really think I would just forget about you and find someone else?”

“It wouldn’t be the first time,” he sighed.

You sighed walking closer to him placing your hand on his shoulder. The closer you got, you could see the hurt, worry, and tears in his eyes.

“I like you,” you whispered. “A lot.. hell, more than I’ve probably liked anyone, this fast before. When I’m with you, I’m happy. You make me laugh, you make me smile, you make me feel stupid butterflies in my stomach. There is no one else that could ever make me feel like that and even if there was, I wouldn’t want them. I only want you.”

“You say that now,” he whispered.

“Yeah, I do,” you said. “And I’m going to say that tomorrow and the next day and probably in the next two months and beyond that. Neither of us know what’s going to happen the future, that’s why we have to trust one another and communicate with each other, we’ll be set.”

He put his hands on your face, looking into your eyes, “I know I overreacted, but I just... the thought of losing you scares the shit out of me. I’ve never felt this way about anyone and I don’t want to lose how I feel whenever I’m around you or think about you.”

“You’re not going to lose me,” you whispered. “Not unless you keep saying stupid shit,” you laughed a bit.

He laughed a smile tugging at his lips before placing his forehead against yours, “And you’re not going to lose me, either. I’m not going to forget about you, I could never,” he whispered.

“Well, I am pretty rememberable,” you smirked.

He laughed, “A little bit, yeah.”

“I think we both know it’s more than a little bit,” you smirked.

“Does this mean we’re okay?” He whispered pushing hair away from your face.

“It means we’re going to be okay,” you whispered. “I can’t just get over it and I don’t expect you to either, but this is a start that we need to get over it.”

He nodded, “I’m sorry I made you come up here... If you want to go back to London, I’ll pay for you to go back.”

“No, it’s okay,” you said. “I don’t mind staying unless you don’t want me too.”

“I want you to stay,” he smiled.

You nodded, “So, um... Gem said her and your mum were leaving for a few hours,” you said.

“Yeah, Mum wanted to give us space to talk it out,” he said.

“Well, we’ve only used about an hour and half for this conversation... so I’d assume they won’t be back for at least another hour or so, right?” You smirked.

“I’d assume you’re right,” he said. “Where are you going with this?” He laughed.

“Why don’t you take me up to the bedroom and find out,” you smirked.

“Are you sure?” He asked. “We don’t-”

“Oh, well, I mean... if you’re not hungry, we can just sit on the couch, watch netflix or something,” you said innocently.

“Fuck that,” he laughed picking you up and throwing you over his shoulder.

“What are you doing?” You laughed holding onto his shirt. “I could have walked.”

“Just getting you used to this mode of transportation ,” he smirked. “Because you won’t be able to walk by the time we’re finished.”

“That a promise?” You smirked.

“Oh, I always keep my promises, babe,” he said.

And with that you both went up to his the bedroom, where he fact, kept his promise, which would eventually make for an awkward family dinner later that night.

Sooo... I’m thinking the next part will be the set up for him going on tour and then maybe having a second serious of them dealing with being on tour together... what do y’all think?

#One Direction Imagines #Harry Styles Imagines #Harry Styles One Shot

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sagehaleyofficial · 4 years

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HERE’S WHAT YOU MISSED THIS WEEK (2.19-2.25.20):

NEW MUSIC:

· Frank Iero and the Future Violents released a new video for their song “Basement Eyes.” Almost a year after the release of their long-awaited album Barriers, Iero took to social media to tease the arrival of the video on February 17th.

· The 1975 shared a new song and video for “The Birthday Party,” the fifth new track from their upcoming album Notes on a Conditional Form. Recently, the band also seemed to be behind a new website known as mindshower.ai.

· All Time Low dropped their second single and video from their upcoming album Wake Up, Sunshine, titled “Sleeping In.” The band partnered with North Shore Animal League America (NSALA) to help raise money and awareness for no kill rescue and adoption organizations.

· Ozzy Osbourne and Post Malone dropped their second collaboration from Osbourne’s album Ordinary Man, titled “It’s a Raid.” Fans first learned about the second collab earlier this month when the tracklist for the album was revealed.

· 5 Seconds of Summer dropped a new single, “Old Me,” off their upcoming LP C A L M. Earlier this month, the band dropped “No Shame” and announced the release date for their upcoming record.

· Dance Gavin Dance announced the release of their ninth full-length studio album titled Afterburner. The band also celebrated by dropping the first single and video titled “Prisoner.”

· Knuckle Puck dropped an energetic new track, “Tune You Out,” which is also their first release in nearly two years. According to Kerrang!, the band recently finished recording their third full-length album.

· Ashley Purdy recently dropped a third solo track following his departure from Black Veil Brides in November. The song is titled “King for a Day,” which serves as the full track from a teaser Purdy posted back in December.

· Fall Out Boy musicians Patrick Stump and Joe Trohman and Dethklok mastermind Brendon Small partnered up on the song “New Music Sucks.” The track comes off of Posehn’s comedy metal record Grandpa Metal.

· Craig Owens of D.R.U.G.S., among many other dissolved acts, made a brief anniversary post for the band’s sole self-titled record. This follows an Instagram account for the band that was made and a VK page that leaked info about a potential single release date.

TOUR ANNOUNCEMENTS:

· Foo Fighters announced a 25th Anniversary “Van Tour,” which will visit 10 different cities. The tour is special because they plan to revisit some stops they hit on their 1995 tour to promote their debut album.

· The Glasgow, Scotland, date of Palaye Royale’s The Bastards European Tour at the Garage was canceled, with the band later performing a free acoustic show near the venue. Days later, the band announced their show in Birmingham, England, was also canceled.

· Movements announced a spring tour, which will commence on April 23rd in San Diego and conclude on May 17th in El Paso, Texas. They will be joined by fellow hardcore groups Teenage Wrist and Queen of Jeans.

· After rescheduling some of their tour dates back in January for the second leg of their winter tour, Angels & Airwaves announced new dates for those shows, as well as some extra shows. They will take place around a handful of festival dates, including Bunbury Festival.

· In celebration of their 10-year anniversary tour for the record To Plant a Seed in a few weeks, We Came As Romans revealed exclusive tour merch designs. The band took to Twitter to reveal three exclusive t-shirt designs designed by bassist Andy Glass.

· Dropkick Murphys and Rancid announced that they are teaming up for a spring tour, the Boston to Berkeley II Tour. The tour begins May 3rd in Concord, North Carolina, and ends May 24th in Lewiston, New York.

· Vans Warped Tour founder Kevin Lyman took to social media to ask fans for their input on a potential Warped Rewind at Sea sequel. The tour searched for suggestions on what other kind of entertainment and activities would make the trip better.

· Alesana announced a 10-city tour to celebrate the 10th anniversary of their release, The Emptiness. The tour commences on April 24th in North Carolina before ending on May 3th in Austin, Texas.

· Armor for Sleep confirmed reunion theories with the announcement of a 15-year anniversary tour for their sophomore album What to Do When You Are Dead. The band broke up initially back in 2009.

OTHER NEWS:

· Bring Me the Horizon dressed up as famous pop girl group The Spice Girls at the BRIT Awards on February 18th. The band all wore the personas of Scary, Posh, Baby, Sporty and Ginger Spice from their iconic performance at the 1997 BRIT Awards.

· The Umbrella Academy teased viewers with a first look at the upcoming season, dropping the first set of posters for the second season of the series. The series is based on My Chemical Romance frontman Gerard Way‘s comic book of the same name.

· The 320 Project started by Warped Tour founder Kevin Lyman and 320 Changes Direction founder Talinda Bennington, who was married to the late Chester Bennington of Linkin Park, was announced. The event will take place at the USC Bovard Auditorium.

· The late Lil Peep’s estate partnered with luxury streetwear brand, Rose in Good Faith, to release a collaborative merch line. The line is dedicated to the memory of Gus, his music and his desire to help the world.

· Twenty One Pilots’ Tyler Joseph and wife Jenna Black shared a short video announcing the birth of their daughter Rosie Robert Joseph, who arrived February 9th. She also mentions the reasoning behind the middle name choice was to match Tyler’s.

· According to social media posts, YUNGBLUD and Travis Barker of Blink-182 seem to have pranked Machine Gun Kelly on MTV‘s Punk’d. Over this past weekend, Barker posted to his Instagram story a photo with a sign saying “you got PUNK’D.”

· Vans is giving their iconic checkerboard shoe a psychedelic makeover with its new line, featuring a tie-dye color scheme. The design will be overlaid atop their ComfyCush Era and Old Skool models.

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Check in next Tuesday for more “Posi Talk with Sage Haley,” only at @sagehaleyofficial!

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clearkoalacollective · 4 years

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Christmas 2019 Game Giveaway!

Ho ho ho! The Christmas season is upon us, and my annual giveaway of Steam codes (from leftover Humble Bundle games) is set to begin!

Take a look, pick out ONE game you’d like, send me a private message, and I will send you the key. It’s my gift to you, but first come, first served. If you claim something, I ask that you use the code QUICKLY – I will be editing the post to eliminate claimed games, but if someone else asks for a specific game and the unclaimed key is still in my possession, you may lose out!

Happiness and health to you and yours, no matter what (or even if) you celebrate!

-Aesthete Claus

**THE LIST**

11-11 Memories Retold

Aaero

Acceleration of SUGURI 2

Action!

Action Henk

The Adventure Pals

Almost There: The Platformer

Ame no Marginal -Rain Marginal

Ancient Planet

Anna’s Quest

Anno 2205 (uPlay)

ARMA Gold Edition

Ashes of the Singularity: Escalation

Auto Age: Standoff

Avernum 2: Crystal Souls

Avernum 3: Ruined World

Back to Bed

BalanCity

Bastion

Battle Riders

Beckett

Bezier

Bit Blaster XL

Black Mesa

Black the Fall

Blackwake

BlazBlue: Chronophantasma Extend

Bleed 2

Blockstorm

Bomb Defense

Borderlands 2 Ultimate Vault Hunter Upgrade Pack 2

Borderlands: The Pre-Sequel

Bounty Train

Call of Duty: Black Ops 4 Standard Edition

Call of Duty: Black Ops 4 Additional Content

Carcassonne - Inns & Cathedrals

Carcassonne - Tiles & Tactics

Chime Sharp

Chivalry: Medieval Warfare

Chronology

ClusterPuck99

Copoka

Cosmonautica

Crazy Machines 3

Crusader Kings 2: Dynasty Starter Pack

Cthulhu Realms

Cursed Castilla (Maldita Castilla EX)

Dead Island Definitive Edition

Dead Rising 2

Deep Dungeons of Doom

Defend Your Life: TD

Deponia Doomsday

Deponia: The Complete Journey

Dimension Jump

DiRT Rally

Distance

Distrust

DreadOut

Dreaming Sarah

Duskers

The Dwarves

Emily Is Away Too

Endless Legend - Classic Edition

The Escapists - Alcatraz

The Escapists - Duct Tapes are Forever

The Escapists - Escape Team

The Escapists - Fhurst Peak

Elder Scrolls Online content: Bristlegut Piglet + 15 days of ESO Plus

ETHEREAL

Evergarden

Everything

FaceRig

FaceRig Pro

The Fall

fault - milestone two side:above

fault milestone one

Fearless Fantasy

F.E.X. (Forced Evolution Experiment)

Fidel - Dungeon Rescue

Fight’N Rage

Figment

Filthy, Stinking, Orcs

Finding Paradise

Flat Heroes

Flinthook

Forged Battalion

Forts

Fortune-499

FreeCell Quest

Full Throttle Remastered

Galactic Civilizations III

Getting Over It with Bennett Foddy

Gloom: Digital Edition

God’s Trigger

GoNNER - Press Jump To Die Edition

Gremlins, Inc.

Grey Goo Definitive Edition

Guacamelee! 2

Guild of Dungeoneering

Guild Wars 2 Heroic Edition

Guns of Icarus Alliance

Gurgamoth

H1Z1

Hacknet

Hard Reset Redux

Headlander

Hearts of Iron III Collection

Her Story

Hexcells Complete Pack

Highway Blossoms

HIVESWAP: Act 1

Holy Potatoes! We’re in Space?!

HoPiKo

Hotline Miami 2: Wrong Number

How to Survive 2

Hurtworld

Husk

Idol Magical Girl Chiru Chiru Michiru Part 1

Idol Magical Girl Chiru Chiru Michiru Part 2

Immortal Redneck

The Incredible Adventures of Van Helsing

The Incredible Adventures of Van Helsing: Final Cut

Infested Planet

Invisible Inc.

The Journey Down: Chapter Three

Jump Stars

Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes

Kentucky Route Zero

Kero Blaster

Kimmy

Kingdom: New Lands

Kona

Lakeview Cabin Collection

Lara Croft GO

Laser League

Last Day of June

Layers of Fear: Masterpiece Edition

The Legend of Heroes: Trails in the Sky

Lion Quest

Loot Rascals

Lost Castle

LostWinds

Love is Dead

Love Letter

Macdows 95

Machinarium Collector’s Edition

Magicka

Maize

Majesty 2 Collection

Marooners

Master Spy

Memoria

Memory’s Dogma CODE:01

Metrico+

Mimic Arena

Minecraft: Story Mode

Minion Masters

Mirage: Arcane Warfare

Monstercat Gold 1 Year

Moon Hunters

Moonlighter

MOTHERGUNSHIP

Mr. Shifty

Mysterium - Hidden Signs (expansion)

Mysterium - Secrets and Lies (expansion)

NAIRI: Tower of Shirin

Narcissu 10th Anniversary Anthology Project

NBA Playgrounds

NEKOPARA Vol. 1

Neon Chrome

Neon Drive

NeuroVoider

Nex Machina

No Time To Explain Remastered

Offensive Combat: Redux!

Okhlos

Old Man’s Journey

On Rusty Trails

Outlast 2

Override: Mech City brawl

Oxenfree

Painters Guild

Paradigm

Paratopic

The Park

Passpartout: The Starving Artist

Pirate Pop Plus

Plague Inc: Evolved

Planet Alpha

Pony Island

Pool Panic

Portal Knights

Primal Carnage: Extinction

Project CARS

Project CARS 2

Prototype 2

Purrfect Date - Visual Novel/Dating Simulator

Puss!

Q.U.B.E.: Director’s Cut

Q.U.B.E. 2

Rapture Rejects

Red Orchestra 2: Heroes of Stalingrad

The Red Solstice

Refunct

Resident Evil 5 Gold Edition

Resident Evil Revelations

Restream 1 Year

ReThink

Rivals of Aether

RIVE: Wreck, Hack, Die, Retry

Road Redemption

Rock of Ages 2: Bigger & Boulder

Roombo: First Blood (Justice Sucks)

Running with Rifles

Rusty Lake Hotel

Samorost 3

Sanctum 2

Scanner Sombre

Scrap Garden

Scythe: Digital Edition

Seasons After Fall

Serial Cleaner

SEUM: Speedrunners from Hell

Seven: The Days Long Gone

Shadow Tactics: Blades of the Shogun

Shadowrun: Hong Kong - Extended Edition

She Remembered Caterpillars

Shiness: The Lightning Kingdom

Silence

SimplePlanes

Sleeping Dogs: Definitive Edition

Slime-san

Slipstream

Snake Pass

Sniper Elite

Sniper Elite V2

Sonic Mania

Sorcerer King: Rivals

Soul Axiom

Space Run Galaxy

Spectrum

The Spiral Scouts

Splasher

Squad (early access)

The Stanley Parable

State of Mind

Staxel

Steamworld Heist

STRAFE: Millennium Edition

Stronghold Legends: Steam Edition

Styx: Shards of Darkness

Subterrain

Sudden Strike 4

Sundered

Sunrider: Liberation Day - Captain’s Edition

Super Daryl Deluxe

Super Rude Bear Resurrection

SuperLuminauts

The Surge

Swords and Soldiers 2 Shawarmageddon

SYNTHETIK: Legion Rising

Tales of Berseria

Team Racing League

Teslagrad

Thomas Was Alone

THOTH Ticket to Ride: First Journey

Tiltagon

Tiny Echo

TIS-100

Tom Clancy’s The Division + Survival (uPlay)

Tormentor X Punisher

Tower Unite

Toy Odyssey: The Lost and Found

Train Valley

Tricky Towers

TumbleSeed

Tumblestone

The Turing Test

Twilight Struggle

Uurnog Uurnlimited

Verdun

Victor Vran

Virginia

Wargame: Red Dragon

Warhammer 40,000: Mechanicus

Wasted Pizza

Wasteland

Wasteland 2: Director’s Cut - Standard Edition

We Were Here Too

Witch It

Wizard of Legend

WORLD END ECONOMiCA episode.01

WORLD END ECONOMiCA episode.02

WORLD END ECONOMiCA episode.03

World to the West

Wurm Unlimited

XSplit Premium 1 Year

XSplit VCAM

Yakuza Kiwami

Yoku’s Island Express

Yume Nikki

YUMENIKKI -DREAM DIARY-

Zero Reflex: Black Eye Edition

Ziggurat

Zombie Army Trilogy

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nacrepearl · 5 years

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This anniversary, I wanted to pay tribute to the show by redrawing my favorite SDCC poster. With a few changes. It’s been 3 years since this poster came out on the internet, but it’s the poster for the first SDCC I experienced in this fandom. Below the cut is me being sentimental because I really love this show and its impact on my life is greater than one would think.

March 26th, 2015. I decide to watch Steven Universe after seeing gifsets of the first Stevenbomb on my dash from lingering members of the people who worked on my previous hyperfixation Attack on Space (A spinoff AU from the parent series Attack on Titan, which my interest in was fading quickly). I opt to watch the episodes that are on demand because they’re easier to access. I watch Alone Together first, Full Disclosure second (actual quote from me, who hadn’t known about SU’s musical nature: “Since when is SU a musical?!”). I then spend the next week or two watching the episodes on demand, then going onto KissCartoon to watch the series in order, in its entirety. (Quote when watching S1E05 Frybo: “I’m glad I’m watching these now before this inevitably becomes my new hyperfixation.” I have second hand embarrassment moments from this episode to this day). My brother decides to watch with me occasionally.

Fast forward to the end of March. I’m caught up with the series (back then only up to Joy Ride, which aired the day I began this journey). My friend Zac and I are now both into the show, and the following week Attack the Light comes out the same day that Say Uncle airs. Say Uncle is the first episode I watch live. I download ATL and finish it within a week. The rest of the weekly episodes (you heard me: weekly) were to follow and I was excited to officially be involved in the fandom. The beginning of April, I found the comics and I got to issue #5, the one where Pearl sucks in a gem-embedded book into her own gem and becomes ill from it. that was the day that I realized Pearl was my favorite character. Hurt/comfort is my way to tell.

I carry on watching the episodes throughout the month, and then after Reformed airs, we are faced with a hiatus. back then, a month and a half was a long time. Then, I got into the Pearl theories. I was all over the so called “nacre theory” right up until the theory had been confirmed in Back to the Barn (I still am, though the term “nacre theory” takes on a whole new meaning that I’m not sure will see the light of day now that we know more about Homeworld). You should have seen me go ham reblogging things about Pearl being lower-class, a lowly technician (ha), a maintenance drone. And all Pearls looked exactly the same back then in the fanart.

May 26th they announced the second Stevenbomb, half the fandom combusted. So did I. Sworn to the Sword happened and I had more fuel for the NT. I woke up that Thursday morning to a gifset of Pearl and Rose’s fusion dance because We Need to Talk leaked and spontaneously combusted right there. Then they announced Week of Sardonyx and our naive selves said “another one?” I went camping that weekend, which was also the weekend of SDCC. I nearly had a heart attack from my over-excitement when I got home that Sunday.

Week of Sardonyx came and went, with even more fuel to the fire for the NT. Cartoon Network does their greatest fuckup of the year by accidentally putting all of the Summer of Steven episode titles a whole year before they air. They changed the release date for the weekly episodes from August 6th to September 10th, and then we were graced by small Peridot on September 24th.

Back to the Barn airs. I die.

Then we go into a very long hiatus until Stevenbomb 4, airing in January 2016. This marks the first epsiodes to be leaked with the traditional screenshots + 2 minute clip. This was our first look at both diamonds + their pearls, and people were reasonably excited. Then we entered what we thought was the longest hiatus in fandom history–and we got the In Too Deep special earlier than expected.

Following the special, they announced the Steven Nuke/Summer of Steven. 4 weeks of episodes every night from mid-July to mid-August. Mr. Greg was the first musical episode and the crew hyped it up so much and yet it still had a huge impact on those watching that night. It was nominated for an Emmy one year later in 2017. We got some of the most intense episodes of the show in that bomb, with Amethyst’s arc, Bismuth holding the first half-hour special, the revelation that Rose supposedly shattered Pink Diamond, and Centipeetle’s corruption being explained further. Following SOS, there were weekly episodes and then another short hiatus, until Gem Harvest’s release in November. A short hiatus and then Three Gems and a Baby aired in early December.

During 2016, I meet two of my best friends through the fandom - @always-make-it-gayer and @hackerperidot. Gale and J have been my friends since that summer and because of this fandom, I’ve been less lonely and have had a blast in the ever growing group chat we have (Reverse Garden of Eden). I love you guys, and of course everyone else in the chat.

Following 3GAAB, in early January 2017, the entirety of Stevenbomb 5 drops on the app. Pictures with the diamonds and the zoo and the famethyst were on the internet in seconds. I had been on holiday break from school, and the night this all dropped was the first school night when the break was over. I stayed up very late, watched the episodes when I woke up for school in the morning, and listened to What’s the Use of Feeling Blue on repeat in the cold, snowy weeks to come. This was also right around the time my mom bought a house and we were ready to move in.

I got another birthday episode–Rocknaldo, airing on February 24th. Could’ve been better. I’m not complaining though. SU was crucial during this time because I was feeling very depressed and closed off due to the move and missing the apartment. The New Crystal Gems was the last episode the apartment got to see, and I promised to show Pearl’s backstory when it eventually aired, but we moved too early for that to happen. I like to imagine it can see my journal entries (you can ask if you want, in short it’s a coping mechanism I developed). Thereafter, we had another hiatus leading up to the sixth Stevenbomb with Aquamarine and Topaz. That bomb ended with the saddest episode in the series, finalizing season 4. Then the Wanted event aired, and we got so much lore content and more hints to the Pink Diamond mystery.

There came the biggest hiatus in the fandom’s history to this day. We were so thirsty for content. It was dry as fuck and the only light in the dark was SDCC with the Lars of the Stars clip (which would then air months later) and the trailer for the first half of season 5′s kickoff bomb.

Gemcation airs, and everyone finally understands Pearl’s quirk with covering her mouth in discussions about the diamonds. We all were getting so antsy at this point to find out what was happening with Pink Diamond and the lore behind the show and by god where is White Diamond?

We get Stranded in January 2018, allowing us to spark the “diamonds get revealed in January” meme with the Pink Diamond face reveal. Of course, this is debunked by Legs From Here To Homeworld in July 2018.

We get more episodes in March, and then are plunged into the final reveal in May with the half hour event, Can’t Go Back and A Single Pale Rose. The fandom collectively freaked out with the revelation that Pearl and Rose were diamond and pearl and faked the shattering in an effort to end the war. The people who survived this saw the Heart of the Crystal Gems arc in July. This was the week that held the Rupphire wedding.

Reunited airs, and I am surrounded by 3 of my best friends ( @asassynerdnamedgabbs, @neroblackcat, and @hackerperidot who had been visiting New York from Australia that week ) so I hold myself back from reacting too much. I cried that night out of sheer joy that my favorite show was the first cartoon to show a lesbian wedding on national TV. Of course, we get the diamonds and then SDCC the following weeks, with Legs From Here to Homeworld. I am at my cousin’s graduation party the day of the panel and my phone is slowly losing battery percentage as I try to keep up with the tweets and posts about what was going on. It was a huge deal.

Now we arrive here. Nothing had been shown at last month’s NYCC which is unusual, but that’s okay. We are still on hiatus, and it is SU’s 5th anniversary of being on the air. I am patiently waiting for the show to come back, and I’ll have more memories to make with this fandom in the months to come.

Happy Anniversary, SU!

#lovelikeyou2018 #steven universe #reverse garden of eden #rae.png #raescribbles

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vintagedolls · 6 years

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Cultural Immersion in Japan

I had the privilege of participating in my second campaign with Tokyo Metropolitan Government. Last May, I documented my Tokyo & Yamagata photo diary for TOHOKUxTokyo. This time, my adventures are centered around cultural experiences in Tokyo.

Daikanyama T-Site

No matter where you go in Japan, you are likely to find someone reading. It is no wonder that Japan is home to what many would crown “The Best Bookstore in the World”. Daikanyama Tsutaya Books is a bookworm wonderland with wooden interiors and ample amounts of sunlight. Tsutaya Books is nested in the middle of architectural masterpiece Daikanyama T-site.

Daikanyama also contains many shops and cafes. The entire area is an ideal place to get lost in a good book. This town is also the most pet-friendly area I have ever visited in Japan. You can see many owners enjoy the establishment with their fur babies. *Kudos to Ginger Maeda for being such a good model.

There is a metro stop at Daikanyama, so getting there is quite simple. Many specialty restaurants, shops, and cafes are situated close to the station (including this yellow espresso van).

Yebisu International Festival for Art & Alternative Visions

The festival is held annually during the month of February. This year’s dates are February 9-25, 2018. As I was walking around Yebisu Garden Place, I interacted with a red piano that I assumed was native to the mall. Each piano note is the catalyst for dozens of wooden triggers. Later, I found out that the piano is an interactive exhibition for Yebisu International Festival for Art & Alternative Visions 2018: Mapping the Invisible.

2018 marks the 10th anniversary of this event. The current theme “Mapping the Invisible” is centralized around the power and diversity of video expression. I believe this theme is prevalent in today’s age where anything and everything is documented. Although we may not all be artists, we are all documentarists in our own right. The memories and experiences we capture are building blocks for our lives. The way we choose to document is a reflection of artistic and individual expression.

Yebisu International Festival for Art & Alternative Visions 2018 was the cultural highlight of my trip. Contemporary art may be a difficult topic to understand, but it is intellectually stimulating. Some pieces are very visually pleasing, including Rafaël Rozendaal’s Into Time 15 05 02 featured above. Each canvas changes colors and morphs shapes at every angle. This colorful piece marks the beginning of the festival. Other short documentaries such as Erkan Özgen’s Wonderland are emotionally impactful. The displays are simultaneously enticing and haunting. You are sure to reflect on the pieces afterward.

As you are navigating your way through the festival, you can obtain stamps at each location. Once you collect 5 stamps, you are rewarded with a “Mapping the Invisible” tote. The facility also hosts a cafe with pastries and a string of restaurants at BRICK END.

Ueno Ameyoko

Ueno’s Ameyoko is the cultural melting pot of Japan. The street highlights a multitude of cuisines from countries all over the world. Bargain clothing, produce stands, and foreign foods can all be found at Ameyoko.

Bonsai Museum

I am always fascinated by the meticulous nature of Japanese culture. The finest details are taken into account when growing bonsai trees. Bonsai is a historic Japanese art form using trees inside containers. Wires alter the direction and growth of branches. Trees are tended daily to ensure longevity. The most expensive bonsai tree at this museum is ¥100,000,000 (which is roughly $950,000). That particular tree has been featured on many television programs worldwide. The bonsai garden is a nice change of pace, away from the hustle and bustle of the city. Classes are also offered for those interested in learning about bonsai.

Tea Ceremony

In Japan, traditions of the past very much embedded into the present day. The tea ceremony is a celebrated part of Japanese culture. The tradition can be traced back thousands of years. Originally, the sacred ceremony was only intended for males- women and children were deemed inferior. Tea gatherings were instances when social status became nullified. Whether you were a shogun or a samurai, you were required to remove all armor and embellishments to enter the tea ceremony. Luckily, women are now allowed to participate. Wearing a yukata for the tea ceremony made this experience even more notable.

Hie Shrine

It is almost impossible to visit Japan without walking past a shrine. Even during my time studying abroad, the program emphasized the importance of shrines. I love seeing the juxtaposition of a historical shrine and a skyscraper. I believe that the parallels between old and new are what makes Japan so interesting.

Hie Shrine hosts one of the three great Japanese festivals of Edo. The festival takes place each year on June 15. The shrine is well-known for its purple chrysanthemum crest.

One of my favorite parts of traveling is the opportunity to experience another culture. The acts of integrating into a community, interacting with locals, and immersing yourself in a foreign culture are integral to becoming a well-rounded individual. By understanding other people, we are able to understand ourselves better.

With Japan tourism currently on the uprise (reaching its peak during Tokyo 2020 Olympics), I hope people utilize this time to better understand Japan.

#japan #tokyo #tokyo luxey #tokyo metropolitan government #travel #hotel #hotels

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[ENG]Here is my translation of Momoka’s graduation live speech and messages from the other members. I apologize in advance for my bad english >_<. [FR]Voici la traduction du discours de Momoka lors de son dernier live ainsi que les messages que les autres membres lui ont adressé: Reni-chan: [ENG] When you announced that you will quit the group, to be honest the first thing I thought was "You're really stupid!" and I asked you several times if you did not want to change your mind. You must have found me annoying. But I want you to know that they are many things you did I am grateful for: First, when you just joined the group, every time I told you that I could not do this dance step correctly, you always told me "What if you tried like that, or like that ?" while showing me the movement so that I can improve my dance. Also, whenever I was anxious, you took my hand to reassure me. When my foot was injured and that I couldn't do silly things on stage because of this, you did it instead of me. When I had surgery for my foot, when it was my birthday or when I had my solo concert, you always sent me messages. You really supported me a lot. I wondered what will Momoclo become without you. But you have to live your own life so I decided to go forward as 4 member group while having fun from now on. I want the 4 of us to build a new landscape even bigger than now while remembering the one we built with 5 members. I would like you to consider these 8 years together as a treasure. Thank you for all your efforts. [FR] Quand tu nous as annoncé ton départ, pour être honnête la première chose que j'ai pensé c'est "T'es vraiment trop bête !" et je t'ai demandé plusieurs fois si tu ne voulais pas changer d'avis. Tu as du me trouver pénible. Mais sache qu'il y a beaucoup de chose pour lesquelles je te suis reconaissante: D'abord, quand tu venais d'intégrer le groupe, à chaque fois que je te disais que je n'arrivai pas à faire tel pas de danse correctement, tu me disais toujours "et si tu essyais comme ça, ou comme ça" en me montrant comment faire pour que je puisse m'améliorer. Aussi, toutes les fois où j'étais angoissée, tu me prenais la main pour me rassurer. Quand je me suis blessée au pied et que je ne pouvais pas faire l'idiote sur scène, c'est toi qui l'a fait à ma place. Quand je me suis faite opérer pour ma blessure, quand c'était mon anniversaire ou quand j'avais mon concert solo, tu m'as toujours envoyé des messages. Tu m'as vraiment énormément soutenue. Je me suis demandée ce qu'on allait devenir sans toi. Mais toi tu dois vivre ta vie alors j'ai décidé qu'on avancerait désormais à 4 tout en s'amusant. Je veux qu'à 4 on construise un nouveau paysage encore plus grand tout en se souvenant de celui qu'on a construit à 5. Je voudrais que tu considères ces 8 années passées ensemble comme un trésor. Merci pour tous tes efforts. Aarin: First of all, thank you for your work during 8 years. When I think back to all my memories with you, the most memorable is the one when you joined the group. Me too, I joined it after the other member and everyone was very kind to me. So when I heard that a new member was going to join the group, I wanted to welcome her in the same way. Except that she was an incredibly talented girl. You were already famous, so I thought "That's THE Momoka!" and suddenly I had not anything to teach you neither in singing or dancing. But during all the years as Momoclo members, there have been many moments of doubt and I thought I was happy to have been able to be with you during these moments even just a little bit. From today, you will discover many things and I would like you to become happy to the point of you will think "It was the good decision to leave the group". And that you do your best to the point of making us think "She took the good decision by leaving the group". After your departure, I will feel lonely, I will not have anyone next to me in the car anymore and I will not be able to take a picture with you anymore. From now on I intend to do my best with the 3 others while keeping in mind that you had been there with us. Congratulations for these 8 years and thank you for being with us until now. Tout d'abord, merci pour ton travail durant ces 8 années. Quand je repense à tous mes souvenirs avec toi, le plus marquant reste celui du moment où tu as intégrée le groupe. Moi aussi je suis arrivée après les autres et tout le monde a été très gentil avec moi. Alors quand j'ai appris qu'une nouvelle membre allait intégrer le groupe, je voulais l'accueillir de la même manière. Sauf qu'en fait c'était une fille incroyablement douée. Tu étais déjà connue à l’époque, alors je me suis dis "C'est LA Momoka !" et du coup que ce soit en danse ou en chant, je n'avais rien à t’apprendre. Mais durant toutes les années où l'on a été dans les Momoclo, il y a eu beaucoup de moments de doutes et je me dis que j'ai été heureuse d'avoir pu vivre tout ça avec toi ne serait-ce qu'un peu. A partir d'aujourd'hui, tu vas découvrir pleins de choses et j'aimerais que tu deviennes heureuse au point de te dire que tu as bien fait de quitter le groupe. Et que tu fasses de ton mieux au point de nous faire dire à nous "C'est une bonne chose qu'elle ait quitté le groupe". Après ton départ, je vais me sentir seule, je n'aurai plus personne à côté de moi dans la voiture et je ne pourrai plus prendre de photo avec toi. A partir de maintenant je compte faire de mon mieux avec les 3 autres tout en gardant en tête que tu avais été là avec nous. Encore félicitation pour ces 8 années et merci d'avoir été à nos côtés jusqu'à aujourd'hui. Shiorin: Thank you for these 8 years. Suddenly, I realized that it was already 8 years! I remember the day when you joined the group as if it was yesterday. The first thing I thought was "Her hair looks so smooth and silky !" (They laugh.). At the beginning we were the two small ones of the group and now we are the ones with the most difference in term of height. We also share the same blood type but our personnality are total opposite. You keep your blog up to date and you are hard worker while I am not. Sometimes I watched you and I always thought you looked so beautifully calm and serene. And in the group, I saw you a bit like my rival (in a good way). From today we will follow two different paths but the fact that you have been there until now is something irrefutable. I wish you did not forget it. From now on we will do our best with 4 members so that you can know what we become without even having to use your high skill in net research. Merci pour ces 8 années. Tout à coup, j'ai réalisé que ça faisait déjà 8 ans ! Je me rappelle de ton arrivée dans le groupe comme si c'était hier. La première chose que j'ai pensé c'est "ses cheveux semblent tellement lisse et soyeux" (elles rient). Au départ on était les deux petites du groupe et maintenant on est celles avec le plus d'écart en taille. On a aussi le même groupe sanguin mais niveau personnalité on est tout l'opposé l'une de l'autre. Toi tu tiens ton blog à jour et tu es une bosseuse, moi pas du tout. Parfois je t'observais et je me disais toujours que tu avais l'air posée et sereine, je trouvais ça beau. Et dans le groupe, je te voyais un peu comme ma rivale (dans le bon sens du terme). A partir d'aujourd'hui on va suivre deux chemins différents mais le fait que tu aies été là jusqu'à maintenant est quelque chose d'irréfutable. J'aimerais que tu ne l'oublies pas. A partir de maintenant on va faire de notre mieux à 4 pour que tu puisses savoir ce que l'on devient sans même avoir à utiliser tes super compétences en recherches d'informations sur internet. Kanako: You worked hard during these 8 years, congratulations. We shared advices on pills for mouth ulcers. If you ever find new pills, send me a message. (Everybody laugh) Really, I can not imagine the Momoclo with 4 members. But when you announced you leave the group, I understood that deep down, your decision was already taken so I did not say anything. But still there was a part of me that could not digest it and wondered what I was supposed to do. But you too were very anxious and you chose to make this difficult decision alone so I figured the best thing to do was we encourage you. (She thinks for a long time) In fact, there is something very straightforward that I could not tell you until now: I really wanted to celebrate our 10th Anniversary as a 5 members group. (She keeps quiet) There's a part of me that thought we could really do it with 5 members, but suddenly I realized that there is also dreams that would not come true.... From today, we will mutually follow a new path but I wish us all to be able to achieve the new dreams that we will find there and us, we will also do our best with 4 members. Now, follow this new path with a smile and take all our and Mononofu's feelings with you, please. Thank you again for everything you have done so far. Tu as bien travaillé durant ces 8 années. On s'échangeait des conseils sur les cachets pour les aphtes. Si jamais tu trouves des nouveaux cachets, envoie-moi un message. (Tout le monde rit) Vraiment, je n'arrive pas à m'imaginer les Momoclo à 4. Mais quand tu nous as annoncé ton départ, j'ai bien compris qu'au fond de toi, ta décision était déjà prise alors je n'ai rien dit. Mais malgré tout il y avait une part de moi qui n'arrivait pas à le digérer et qui s'est longuement demandée ce que j'étais censée faire. Mais toi aussi tu t'étais beaucoup angoissée et tu as choisi de prendre cette décision difficile toute seule alors je me suis dit que le mieux à faire était que nous t'encouragions. (Elle réfléchit longuement) En fait, il y a quelque chose de très franc et direct que je n'ai pas réussi à te dire: je voulais vraiment qu'on fête les 10 ans du groupe à 5. (Elle fait une pause) Il y a une part de moi qui pensait qu'on pouvait vraiment le faire à 5 mais tout à coup j'ai réalisé que tous les rêves ne se réalisaient pas forcément.... A partir d'aujourd'hui, nous allons mutuellement suivre un nouveau chemin mais je nous souhaite à toutes de pouvoir réaliser les nouveaux rêves que l'on trouvera là-bas et nous de notre côté on fera aussi de notre mieux. Maintenant, avance sur ce nouveau chemin avec le sourire en emportant tous nos sentiments ainsi que ceux des Mononofu avec toi s'il te plaît. Encore merci pour tout ce que tu as fais jusqu'à maintenant. Momoka's message to other members/ Message de Momoka pour les autres membres: I caused a lot of trouble to the group that will remains with 4 members instead of 5 and despite everything you took the trouble to prepare a farewell song, thank you very much. So first of all, Reni, Kanako, Shiorin, Aarin, I really want to thank you. Aarin, you who are an idol 24 hours a day, thank you for teaching me so much about how to become one. Shiorin, you always looked after us calmly and kindly, thank you. I was very surprised to see how much you had become a strong adult in such a short time. Kanako, you were the very embodiment of a responsible person. I followed you knowing that we could count on you in all circumstances, thank you. And finally Reni, no matter how much you were sad or anxious yourself, you showed me that you were always there to take care of others in a warm and kind way. Thank you for saving me so many times. J'ai causé énormément de soucis au groupe qui va se retrouver à 4 au lieu de 5 et malgré tout vous avez pris la peine de me préparer une chanson d'adieu, merci beaucoup. Alors avant tout, Reni, Kanako, Shiorin, Aarin, je tenais vraiment à vous remercier. Aarin, toi qui est 24h/24 une idole, merci de m'avoir appris autant de choses sur la façon d'en devenir une. Shiorin, tu veillais toujours sur nous avec calme et gentillesse, merci. J'ai été très surprise de voir à quel point tu étais devenue une adulte forte en si peu de temps. Kanako, tu étais l'incarnation même d'une personne responsable. Je t'ai suivi en sachant que l'on pouvait compter sur toi en toutes circonstances, merci. Et enfin Reni, peu importe à quel point toi-même tu souffrais ou angoissais, tu m'as montré que tu étais toujours là pour prendre soin des autres de manière chaleureuse et très gentille. Merci à toi de m'avoir sauvée tant de fois. Momoka's message to Mononofu and staff/ Message de Momoka pour les Mononofu et le staff: Reni, Kanako, Shiorin, Aarin, I'm really glad you were there. I too thought I could go to the 10th Anniversary as 5 members. But for the future of the 4 of you that begins now, I had to make a decision. We were often called the "5 miracles girls". But to be honest I never felt that way. I think the group of 5 that are Momoclo is you 4 plus the fans. So, dear Mononofu, whether for 10 years, for 20 years or much later, I count on you to support them. Dear staff members, thank you for creating this stage for me today. My dear fans, if I could reach 8 years, it is thanks to you who supported me warmly and kindly in any situation. Thank you for giving me this idol life full of happiness for 8 years. During these 8 years, I have the feeling I have accomplished all that I wanted, so I leave without regrets. That's why I want to be happy to the point of making you proud of me. To you who have followed me for 8 years and you, despite my selfish decision and my sudden departure, who told me "Congratulations, you did a great job.", thank you very much. From now on, I entrust you the 4 others. Reni, Kanako, Shiorin, Aarin, je suis vraiment heureuse que vous ayez été là. Moi aussi je pensais pouvoir aller jusqu'aux 10 ans du groupe à 5. Mais pour votre futur à vous 4 qui commence maintenant, j'ai du prendre une décision. On nous appelait souvent les "5 enfants miracles" mais pour être honnête je ne l'ai jamais vu de cette manière. Je pense que les Momoclo à 5 c'est vous 4 et les fans. Alors cher Mononofu, que ce soit pour 10 ans, pour 20 ans ou encore bien après, je compte sur vous pour les soutenir. Chers membres du staff, je vous remercie d'avoir créé cette scène pour moi aujourd'hui. Mes chers fans, si j'ai pu arriver au bout de ces 8 années, c'est grâce à vous qui m'avez soutenu chaleureusement et avec beaucoup de gentillesse dans n'importe quelle situation. Merci de m'avoir donné cette vie d'idol si heureuse durant 8 ans. Pendant ces 8 années, je pense avoir accompli tout ce que je voulais, alors je pars sans regrets. C'est pourquoi je souhaite devenir heureuse au point de vous rendre fiers de moi. A vous qui m'avez suivi durant 8 ans et qui, malgré ma décision égoïste et mon départ si soudain, m'avez dit "Bravo, tu as bien travaillé.", je vous remercie énormément. A partir de maintenant, je vous confie ces 4 autres filles. Kanako’s last message to Mononofu/ Dernier message de Kanako pour les Mononofu: Thank you all. So we are only 4 now. I do not know what awaits us from now on but to think about it, it was laways like this until now. We go to the unknown but I want us to do our best by having fun to make you smile. I apologize for all the confused feelings you could have had today, but I hope you will continue to support us. Merci à tous. Nous ne sommes donc plus que 4. Je ne sais pas ce qui nous attend à partir de maintenant mais à bien y réfléchir, on a toujours avancer de cette manière jusqu'à aujourd'hui. Nous nous lançons vers l'inconnu mais je veux qu'on fasse de notre mieux en nous amusant pour vous faire sourire. Je m'excuse pour tous les sentiments confus que vous avez du ressentir aujourd'hui mais j'espère que vous continuerez de nous soutenir.

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My Speech

I haven’t blogged in over a year ... this post really doesn’t count because it is a copy of a speech I gave this week at the a statewide nurse appreciation event the March of Dimes put on. Nurses were awarded in 20 different categories. There was also a silent and live auction to raise funds for the MOD.

March of Dimes

Nurse of the Year Event

11/22/19

Richmond Hilton, Short Pump

When Latne asked me to speak today, I couldn’t say no because any chance I get to express gratitude to nurses I am going to jump on it! I cannot think of very many honors higher than publicly thanking those who serve others -- especially babies. So if you, all the nurses here today, get nothing else out of my little speech, please hear me when I say “THANK YOU!” Thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart! You make a difference every.single.day! Latne also asked me to keep my remarks under 5 minutes -- I’ll do my very best, but no promises … it’s going to be quite challenging to share our story in just 5 minutes.

Let me begin with a day I will never forget. It was an ordinary Saturday night in early 2018. Anne-Marie’s health was pretty stable by then. She had long been off oxygen, and she was tolerating her gtube feeds fairly well. Anyways, I got her out of the bath and dressed her for bed. I looked her in the eyes just like every other night and said, “Anne-Marie, I love you.” And then that very ordinary night became one very extraordinary night in a matter of seconds. Anne-Marie looked back at me with the most loving eyes and responded very robotically and very, very softly, “IIII Wuuub wun.” You see, Anne-Marie was nonverbal up until last year. I sat in the floor and cried tears of joy and relished in the fact that I had finally heard the three little words, I sometimes doubted I’d ever hear. I vividly remember after a few minutes of crying, saying a prayer out loud (I usually pray silently and I hate to admit it, only when I need something) but in that moment I thanked God out loud for every single one of Anne-Marie’s nurses by name, doctors by name, therapists by name, her teachers by name, my parents, my best friend, Maggie, and everyone else who has cared for Anne-Marie along the way.

Anne-Marie was born at 25 weeks gestation because I had severe pre-eclampsia and HELLP syndrome. The details surrounding her traumatic birth are a little cloudy. However, I have a couple of very clear memories from that very scary time.

I was admitted to the hospital on January 10th. I was supposed to be on bed-rest because of my high blood pressure, but we had planned a 5th birthday party at the local bowling alley for my oldest daughter, Leah. So while we were at Leah’s birthday celebration, my OB doctor called and said my blood work didn’t look good and I needed to go to the hospital. Upon arrival and evaluation, the doctors said they would try and wait as long as possible to deliver, because they wanted to give me steroids for the baby’s lungs, but things didn’t look good and I may need to have a c-section “soon.”

This news was not okay with me for several reasons. The first and most important reason was that my baby, in my mind, was not developed enough to sustain life outside the womb. At that time, I knew next to nothing about prematurity. I just had this gut-wrenching feeling that my baby was going to die.

The second reason I was not okay with learning the news that a “soon” delivery was inevitable, was that I did NOT want my baby to be born on Leah’s birthday. Again, I had a bad feeling I was going to lose my baby and I didn’t want to have an anniversary of a birth and a death on the same day.

So, we were in the hospital, doing our best to process this very worrisome, new information and an in-depth ultrasound was done to predict the size of our baby. Afterwards, two residents came in to speak with me about the possibility of the smallest breathing tube the NICU has being too large for our baby. This information just lead to more questions with unknown answers. They left and then it was a nurse who came back in, and with the most compassionate demeanor, she asked what we were going to name our baby. I looked at my husband, Bradley, cluelessly … all I could think about is why are we going to name a baby, who probably won’t survive. What’s the point? It will just make this all harder? We explained to the sweet nurse that we didn’t have any names picked out and we didn’t even know the sex, we had wanted to be surprised. The nurse said that they liked to call babies by name when working to resuscitate them and caring for them -- she said they have a tendency to respond better. With that small act of kindness, an overwhelming sense of comfort came over me. I surrendered all and we named our baby.

After that humble conversation with that nurse my feelings surrounding the date of my c-section began to change. I figured if Anne-Marie needed to be born on Leah’s birthday, maybe that could actually be a gift and not a curse.

And that’s exactly what happened. Anne-Marie was born en caul on January 12th. She weighed 420 grams (that’s 14.8 ounces for all of us non-medical people) and was 10 inches long. She was tinier than tiny -- about the size of a big Smartphone with a hard case.

Anne-Marie did fairly-well during the very beginning of her 200-day hospital-stay. I was discharged and tried my absolute best to keep some sense of normalcy for Leah, all while traveling back and forth to the hospital each day and pumping breast milk every three hours.

It wasn’t until right around the 2 week mark when we had our first big scare. I got a call from a doctor who said Anne-Marie’s oxygen stats were really low and they needed to change out her breathing tube to the next biggest size. When we arrived, the normally dark and calm NICU room looked completely different. The lights were bright and there was close to 10-15 people crowded around Anne-Marie’s isolette. A social worker sat with me and explained what was happening. One nurse had a cart with a separate computer and was logging everything the medical team was doing. A respiratory therapist was bagging Anne-Marie. Two doctors were conversing quietly about my daughter but not including me. The air was tense. Everyone was very serious. A hospital chaplin came and introduced himself. He asked me if I wanted to have Anne-Marie baptised.

Prior to her birth, I was the one who thought she was going to die. Now here we are, a couple of weeks later, and the experts think she’s going to die. I politely responded, “No” to the chaplin. I know it’s irrational now, but at that time, I figured if I allowed her to be baptised, I was giving up. I thought if I willed her to live, she would. I was scared. I asked if I should call my husband in from work. The doctor in the purple tie responded matter-of-factly, “Yes,” he said, “your baby is very sick and could die any minute.” I called Bradley then stared at the beeping monitor displaying sats in the teens and 20s for half an hour. I was in a daze, when one of Anne-Marie’s primary nurses asked me if I needed a break. She may have never known it, but she had two patients that day, Anne-Marie and myself. Her calm, professional vibe and consideration allowed me to deal with the situation.

These are just two of countless times during Anne-Marie’s journey where I credit my own success to her nurses. All along, I’ve always credited Anne-Marie’s success to her skilled nurses. And I always will. Through 5 surgeries, several PICC lines, countless blood transfusions, back and forth transitions between the jet ventilator, conventional ventilator, and CPAP, progression from TPN to all mixes of formula, and graduating from an isolette to a warmer bed to an open crib, Anne-Marie’s nurses have been there on the front lines every step of the way. Not only did they medically care for her, but they went way beyond that … Anne-Marie’s nurses were really her first parents before we had her in our true custody. They advocated to doctors on our behalf during rounds, they sang to her to soothe her, they dressed her up when she was able to wear clothes, they took pictures to decorate her bedside and did everything as much as they could to support the emotional needs of all of us.

Today, Anne-Marie is in school and is very successful. She’s spunky and silly and full of life. Anne-Marie loves reading, singing, pretend-play, her Nana, and following Leah around every step she takes. My family is forever in debt to the NICU nurses and doctors, the March of Dimes, and the greater field of neonatology. I reflect upon her journey from time to time and know without a shadow of doubt that each person who cared for Anne-Marie was put in that position at that particular time for a reason. Her outcome would have been different if certain pieces to the puzzle were lost. We will never be able to express enough gratitude for saving Anne-Marie’s life. On behalf of babies everywhere, I sincerely thank you for your dedication and service.

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Dear Mr. Mustang,

Day 5 of Royai Week: Letters Rated: T? iunno || Words: 2928

January 10th, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang,

The house is quieter with you gone. It’s funny, all that time trying to keep the noise down and it’s the first thing I notice. Father barely speaks, I think he’s still furious with you - he doesn’t show it, he was never one to vocalize his thoughts. He stays in his study, leaving his comfort zone for dinner time or at night once he’s done brooding, I suppose.

I’m not completely sure why you’ve asked me to write to you, but your face looked genuine when you asked so I won’t take it as a jest. I suppose I’ve run out of things to say. I’d like to know what the academy is like. I wish you the best in your training.

Riza H.

Riza bit on the edge of her inkpen, nervous about the words that she wanted to say without saying too much. She sat back into her wooden chair, having half a mind to tear it into pieces. Her hand hovered over the sheet, ready to crumple into a ball, but she hesitated.

Leaning forwards, she grabbed the short edge of the letter and folded, creasing it to fit neatly within an envelope. She tucked the letter away to drop off at the postal office during her trip to town.

January 30th, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang,

Winter classes are in session again. I’ll admit the house seems lonelier. In between the usual upkeep around the house and work from the courses given, there’s hardly a soul to speak to besides what I’m doing now in these letters. I’ve played with the thought of leaving this place too. You always talked about the big city and I only have my imagination and images from books to go by. Perhaps, one day, I could go see the rest of Amestris. I laugh just thinking about it.

As I write this, Father’s cough is going off a few doors down into his study. Someone would need to take care of him. I do hope these get to you. Old Lady Germaine at the post says I’m addressing them right. If not, I hope a kind stranger takes comfort in the musings of a random girl.

Riza H.

February 16th, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang,

I’m hesitant to write this, even now. I feel as though I’m being irrational and losing focus over stupid letters. For heaven’s sake, you’re in the military academy and I’m just someone with too much time on their hands who can’t handle a father who mumbles to himself about a legacy and his alchemy like a madman. I can’t

The pen veered off the paper’s edge and dropped onto surface of the desk with a clatter, and her palms pressed down into her eyes to stop the manifestation of tears. She knew it was a lost cause. She tore herself down, reprimanding herself her letters were just that, not a diary. Her father’s voice became eerily clear in her head, encompassing her own thoughts. She was 17, not a child with her mind in the clouds.

She shut her eyes, curling her body into the seat of the chair. The temptation to leave was all she could think about.

In a way, she envied Roy and his ability to pack up and leave once as the apprenticeship came to a close. Her time would come, Riza consoled herself.

Taking a deep breath, she wiped the remnants from her moment of weakness into the collar of her dress. Her hand ripped the letter and tossed the pieces into the wastebin next to her desk. Riza lifted the surface of her desk to produce another sheet of paper. She began again.

February 16th, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang,

How’s the winter treating you in the academy? I’ve been very busy with schoolwork. I sometimes find time to go out into the field and shoot some old cans - glass bottles if I’m lucky. I wonder what it is like to have a dog as a companion. Father takes strolls on his own. He hasn’t offered apprenticeship to anyone else. What little he says, he’s always sure to remind me to keep mindful of my studies and says no one can take my education from me. Are you keeping up with what you learned here? Or has it all gone away? Best wishes.

Riza H.

February 29th, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang,

A day that only comes around every four years. An unusual occurrence in our everyday lives, like birds singing in the winter, sunlight during the rain, or my father coming home with groceries and packages after a day out on the town. Can you believe father goes out? It seems a new life has gotten into him lately.

He’s mostly silent to me. But there is something unsettling, where his eyes wanders. It’s not at me, but it’s something around me and I can’t quite place where they roam. Could he be going mad after all? He seems better but..I digress.

Best Wishes Riza H.

March 15th, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang,

Whether or not you’re getting these, they’re my only consolation. It takes my mind away. The Ishvalan War is getting more dangerous and closer to rural areas such as my quiet little hometown. Father’s malady bothers him less as the temperature begins to warm. He makes trips still to the town.

I talked to him about if I could ever travel out of town and go see Mother’s grave that lies at a cemetery a little more to the east. He became irrationally furious. It was unlike anything I had ever seen. He degraded my intelligence, which was off-putting, but … The anniversary of her death is soon, perhaps I should feel some empathy for the loss of his wife, as well. Hope you’re well.

Riza H.

March 21, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang,

I’m terrified. I have nightmares.

The letter dated March 15th laid on her desk; it settled unwritten. Riza placed the heavy quilt given to her by her mother and tried to find the comfort or a light to latch on to.

May 25th, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang,

It’s your birthday. I wish I had saved the address to your Aunt Chris so that I could send a gift there, but I seem to have lost my head and with it the address you left behind. I swore I placed it somewhere safe. I’m biting my lip as I write this - I miss your goofy nature. Your light heartedness brought a little glee to this otherwise dull existence. I laughed harder than I ever remember doing and my smiles are far and few between now.

This is rather forward of me and quite unlike me, but I reminisce on the the summer days where we spent the lazy afternoon under the clouds. I never imagined I could enjoy losing time watching the clouds roll by. It’s only been a half a year, but it seems so long ago now.

Best Wishes, Riza H.

June 18th, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang,

We managed to go visit her. Her grave was no longer intact. Father was silent the entire ride home and there was something in the surface of his eyes that I wasn’t able to read. Perhaps I’ve been staring at them as listlessly brown eyes that any emotion would be so foreign for me.

There was a skirmish of some kind with the Ishvalans and now there’s no telling where the grave was amongst the barren wasteland. It should be alarming that the fighting is nearby, but military men came to our door and spoke to me about the safety they were assuring.

Father, as bold and brash as he is, spat in their faces. I apologized for it. Thankfully, they were convinced when I told him in low tones that he was missing a screw. I saw their heads look at the state of the house and they understood immediately that it was just us there. Whether I should be unsettled by it, we’ll find out.

My heart aches, Roy. I’ve seen my mother’s grave a handful of times. The memory of her is so fleeting and I barely remember what she looks like any more. I shed my tears, not for the loss of a mother, but the only memory that was tangible. I have a theory Father took down all the pictures and destroyed them. I wonder if I look like her, would that be the explanation for his cold behavior towards me? On a lighter, yet somehow darker note, could you imagine a daughter with the spitting image of Berthold Hawkeye with a bow? Best Wishes.

Riza H.

September 12th, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang.

It’s my birthday. But there hardly seems a reason to celebrate. The sky is dark and gloomy as if winter will approach earlier this year. The entire summer has passed and classes are over. I wonder why he felt the need to send me to school. Does he possibly intend to marry me off to someone? What are his plans? He seems like he’s in a scheming mood, but I’ve mentioned before his behavior is unlike from what I’ve seen since you left for the academy.

I’ll blow out a candle or perhaps an imaginary one. I’ll take comfort in the times I made your birthday cake. Or the one year you tried to surprise me with a small cake for me. You said “small cake for the small lady.” I was so mad, but I hold that memory dearly now. It was an awful cake too. Someone should teach you how to bake. If only you’d learn.

Take care. Riza H.

November 27, 1904 Dear Mr. Mustang,

Do you believe we’re born with our burdens? That we’ll never escape them no matter how fast you run? Forgive me for being vague. The tears that fall are trying not to dilute the ink on the paper as I write this and I don’t have the energy to begin once more.

Alchemy is lauded like the salvation of mankind. If this is the product of alchemy, if this is what my father has to show for his years of research, then I wish I had no part of it. There’s a fire on my back and I cannot extinguish it. It burns terribly, like his alchemy. I’ve fallen sick from it, from his inexperience in the application of it.

If you ever have a child, promise me you won’t treat them like my father has treated me. I hardly have words to speak to him. He speaks to me now with a tone of concern. I know it’s not for me. Not for the welfare of Riza Hawkeye. Was I unworthy of it? Did he question my aptitude? Did he not think I’d be capable? Questions are swirling in my head, pleading for answers, and I lack the courage to confront him. What else is he capable of? What more do I not know of Berthold Hawkeye? Please send me your regards. I beg for someone to show me they still care for a forgotten girl in a rundown house.

Riza H.

January 12, 1905 Dearest Mr. Mustang,

It’s the new year. A whole year has gone by and a lot has happened since you’ve gone to your military academy for reasons I may never know. I’ve sent a myriad of letters and I’m not sure if you’ve received them or if there isn’t time for you. But as I said, this is the new year and I suppose I should create my own closure by properly saying good-bye - for my own sake. Plenty has happened, the unspeakable - things I never thought I’d witness, but I bear the scars of it. You gave me an insight of a different type of life. I can only hope I can get a semblance of what that’s like.

I never thought I’d admit this to myself. I wish that you were here. Wherever you are, stay safe, Roy. Best Wishes.

Riza H.

Delicate hands folded the letter into straight creases before it slipped effortlessly into the white envelope and addressed it for the last time.

With a sadness in the depths of her chest, she sealed the envelope, rising from her chair. Riza exited her room and saw the light escape from the cracks of her father’s study. A warm jacket weighed heavily against her tiny frame, but the bite to her cheeks reminded her that a minor inconvenience was leagues better than frostbite to her skin.

Old Lady Germaine no longer worked the post office, having recently retired. Her granddaughter now ran it for her. The girl around the same age as Riza perked as she entered the building. Riza shivered off the change in temperature and began to materialize the letter from the inner lining of her jacket.

“Miss Hawkeye, right?”

A little stunned to be called by name by someone she didn’t see too often, she nodded slowly. This was a small town after all.

“My grandmother said you’d be coming in a lot.”

It made her embarrassed and Riza thanked the cold for the redness on her cheeks. She silently placed the letter on the counter, sliding over to the girl to handle.

She smiled at her as she took it, but extended her other hand, “I’m Germaine, like my grandmother.” Young Germaine, she thought comically.

She took the hand and shook it courteously. “Riza Hawkeye. Nice to meet you.”

“Same to you! I’ll see you around.” Riza heard her say as she turned around to exit back into the bitter cold.

As she walked back into the deteriorating manor, at first, she thought her father was in his study again rambling to himself like the self-deluded madman he became. However, as she hung the coat on the rack, Riza listened carefully and distinguished a second voice. It was deeper and louder than the weak voice of her father. Curious, Riza began to ascend the stairs to second story, trying not to stir the noise out of the steps.

The second voice sounded as if they were pleading and her father responded with the emotionless tenor that somehow broke her heart every time.

Suddenly, it changed.

Riza heard the chatter grow into yells. A plea for someone to help, for a doctor, “Someone call a doctor! Is anybody here?!”

Riza dashed as quickly as her thawing legs would allow her to the origin of the sound from the study. The panic set in her and she didn’t know who was in her house or what was going on, but someone beckoned for her that wasn’t her father.

At the threshold, she froze in a manner likening to the ice outside. She leaned against the door with her palms to catch herself and her face contorted in a look of disbelief and horror.

She smelled the tin in the air. Blood contrasted against the white of the paper on the desk. The cough that deteriorated her father’s health only worsened with the winter, and her father was slung around the shoulder of a military officer. It took her a moment to register the face and she could swear the feeling of her feet nearly left.

It was him. Standing in the flesh. Terror in his eyes.

“Riza!”She heard him shout.

The family doctor came right as the feeling gathered in her fingers. Berthold Hawkeye was pronounced dead at 12:47 pm on January 12th, 1905.

She didn’t offer Mr. Mustang to stay the night with her the Hawkeye manor, so he stayed at an inn in town. He left the next day to take care of some matters in Central. He said he’d be back for the funeral he was going to pay for.

The letters became insignificant now. They were nonexistent and she vowed the topic would never surface unless he brought it up. The feeling of embarrassment from being acknowledged like a stranger. She couldn’t help but doubt herself. Her thoughts went to the few summers they spent together, a time when she didn’t see him the way she did now. Where they all in her head? Did she not only inherit her father’s legacy but his lunacy too?

Riza felt the quietness of the house. It was so silent. She could feel his ghost around her, especially on her back.

It was a surreal moment. Riza entered her father’s study and began sort through his belongings and organize the clutter he had left behind. There were books upon books stacked halfway to the ceiling and filled the bookshelf. Some of them with paper notes jutting out the edges and she hated each and every blank book for not being good enough for her late father.

She let out a sigh without anyone in the large house to hear it. Once the loose papers and strewn books were organized, she reached for one of the many trunks and opened it. This one was more organized with folders and dividers to separate papers. There was a clump at the back that made the dividers bend from the breadth of the contents.

As her delicate fingers wiggled it out, her eyes widened and she felt a cold sweat suddenly spread across the surface of her skin. In her hands were a stack of letters with a string wrapping them together. In the front was her familiar handwriting and the familiar address she wrote so many times

Her breath escaped through her lips.

Roy Mustang Renwall Military Academy East City, Amestris

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skiasurveys · 7 years

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got this from bzoink LMAO.

All About My Boyfriend survey

How did it all begin...?

Where did you meet?- we met on Okcupid. a dating app.

When did you meet? -In person was Oct 3 2015.

Was it love at first sight?-No, but like 1 hour into the first date I was like wow i like him alot

how old were you both?- He was 25 and I was 18 at the time.

When did you have your first kiss? - First date, after dinner i went to his house to hang out more he asked to kiss me and so i did <3

Where was your first date?- It was at the college- we went to a supersmash bros club ahah and then the noodle house, then i went to his house to hang out and watch some youtube videosss.

How long until you met the parents?- I met his mom 2 weeks later. He met my mom pretty quick.

When was it 'official'?- Ok. Heres the trippy Part. we dated for one month, broke up, didnt really talk for a while, 5 months later we start to talk again, a month after that we started to date again and made it offical on May 10th 2016. That is our anniversary.

The good...

Whats your happiest memory of him?- Theres so many. Theres the time when we stayed up all night just talking about our future, theres when we told me he loved me so much, when he held me because i had a panic attack..

Whats the sweetist thing he has ever done for you?- slept behind a friends couch for 7 months because he didnt want to move away from me. ( we couldnt get aplace)

Does he buy you lots of gifts?- No, but I am fine with that, I dont like gifts actually. I rather him tell me he loves me and spend time with me.

Whats your favorite thing to do together?- honestly. stay up all night and get deep.

When did you know you were falling in love?- when he told me I was his best friend.

Who said 'I love you' first?- Me

Is it true love?- I think so.

How do you know this?- Never felt like this before.

The bad...

Whats his worst habit?- Not texting me back, but really hes gettings pissed at the dumbest shit ever, and hes really bad at plan making and especially when I pick him up..ill say “Ill be there at 5 PM” and his bitchass will be sleeping at 4:30

What annoys you about him?- when he talks really loud at 3 am when I was sleep, and his texting back skills.

Has he ever hurt you badly?- we did get into a fight where we hurt eachother really bad. ( emotionally).

Would he ever cheat?-No.

Has he to your knowlege ever cheated?- No he hasnt. I know he wouldnt cause I just know that if he found someone else he would just dump me

Do you trust him?- I dooo

The ugly....

Best facial feature?- his entire face

Favorite part of his body?- his strong arms <3

Hair colour?- Brown

What does he smell of?- I dont know how to explain it

Whats he wearing when you picture him in your head?- Black tshirt ?

Intimacy...

How do you feel when he holds you?- I feel safe.

How do you feel when you fall asleep and wake up in his arms?- Happy

How does it feel when he touches you?- depends ;)

Does his touch give you goose bumps?- it can

Does he kiss your neck?- Mmmhmm thats the best shit everrr.

Your tummy?- I like it.

Your forehead? It makes me feel loved idk why

Deep and meaningfull...

Could you be without him?- I dont think so.

Do you think about him constantly when your apart?- i am always thinking about him to the point where i get mad at myself cus im like bitchhhh

How long have you been together? 1 year and 2 months

Can you see a future together?- I can

Would you like to get married?- Yeah in the future.

Have children?- No. I dont want kids, nor does he

Where can you see your relationship in a years time?- I see us having a nice apartment, and im in school and he has a good job. It depends.

5 years time? Nice apartment. I dont think we will be in the same city, we are planning on moving cause his dad wants to do some buisness thing with him. Id be done school probably just starting my career.

Do you know there is definatly no-one better out there for you?- Yeah, he just suits me so perfectly.

How do you know this? I dont.

Are you scared he might find someone better? I always am. But i guess the best thing to do is be the best that I can at this moment and trust him

Is he your best friend as well as your lover?- yes

Does he come first over everyone else in your life?- No, I dont like to do that boyfriend over family/friends. I like to see my friends and hang with my family but I do know when i need to spend time with Him. I would only choose him over them if it was a serious thing, but if it wasnt he could wait.

Would you die for him? sure..but why am i dying

On a lighter note...

Whats the funniest thing you have ever done together?- theres too many things.

Say something that only you two understand- Best NA Heals.

Do you have nick names for each other? eh not rly.

Does he make you laugh? of course

Do you wrestle? sometimes. i usually do this tho cus for him to get on top lol..

Is he tickelish? yeah but im more.

Are you? ^

His Favorites...

Food? meat of all kind

Drink? water but i think mountain dew too lol

Sport? football? idk he doesn twatch sports.

Past time? Video games

Animal? cats

Aftershave? ??? he lieks to have a beard i think

Clothing style? He just wears tshirt and jeans. he doesnt care about clothes...

Band? Queen i think lmao He isnt huge into music like i am

Music? He likes classic rock, and techno/anime music lmao

Your 'things'....

Song? I cant help falling in love and wish u were here.

DVD? we dont own dvds

Place to hang out? my house or colins

Meal to cook together?- anything

Lasts...

Time you saw him? tuesday :( but i see him tomorrow.

Kissed him? Tuesday :((

Spoke to him? Just like an hour ago

The last text he sent you? an hour ago

When will you...

See him again? tomorrow night

Speak to him again?- either tonight or tomorrow morning/day whenever

Tell him you love him again? maybe tomorrow. we dont say i love you just randomly, i personally dont cause i like it to be personal.

Have you ever?

Spent the night together?- Of course. when he comes over he spends like 2-3 nights.

Been on holiday? No, but i kind of want to!

Met his parents? Yes. Just not his biological dad cus he lives far away

Had naughty time?- duh

Made him cry?- I think so by accident. i feel awful

Done anything spontaneous together?- yes

Lastly....

Is this love? durrr.

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Dramaturgy Paradise: George Mann @ Edfringe 2017

Theatre Ad Infinitum presents:

Translunar Paradise

Theatre Ad Infinitum’s breakthrough smash-hit returns to the Fringe for their 10th anniversary

Written and directed by George Mann

Pleasance Courtyard, Fourth, 2 – 28 Aug 2017 (not 9, 15 & 22), 15.45 (17.00)

First seen at the Edinburgh Fringe in 2011, Theatre Ad Infinitum’s multi award-winning, wordless tale of life, death and enduring love returns to the Pleasance following years of extensive international touring amassing nine awards.

Original performers George Mann and Deborah Pugh are joined by Sophie Crawford to retell with precise gesture and touches of humour the story of widower William who escapes to a comforting world of fantasy and memories rather than confront his grief. From beyond the grave, his wife Rose returns to help him let go.

This poignant, life-affirming tale uses intricate and lifelike hand-held masks – created by Madame Tussaud’s senior sculptor Victoria Beaton – to travel back and forth through William and Rose’s relationship, wordlessly conveying a lifetime of memories in 75 minutes. Translunar Paradise returns to the Fringe alongside Theatre Ad Infinitum’s Odyssey for the company’s 10th anniversary.

What was the inspiration for this performance? I had been trying to find a way to understand and deal with grief. My father had been diagnosed with terminal lung cancer – after the initial shock two things happened.

Firstly, my father didn’t die in 4 months as we had been told; he fought the disease for another five years. This left my father and I time to resolve some of our long held disputes and disagreements (though not all of them!) and grow a little closer. Secondly, I found that I was grieving his death before he had even passed away, but I didn’t know how to grieve. Our nation and culture don’t do grief very well at all, as I discovered.

We don’t know how to speak about it, what to do, or how to deal with the natural process of grieving that lasts for a variable number of years. So I embarked on finding a story, a style and a play that could evoke a space in which the audience could share in the feelings of love, loss and bereavement – rather than feel alone or isolated.

Translunar Paradise was that play, a non-verbal production that expressed everything I had hoped to communicate – without words. This seemed fitting to me, as my experience of grief for the most part, involved not knowing how to speak about it – but feeling so much. Is performance still a good space for the public discussion of ideas? I think its one of the best spaces. Theatre can evoke the kind of visceral, passionate debate that can only come from having seen a live performance. It needs to be encouraged, but if an audience are invited to speak, to discuss and interact about something they have just watched, it often results in a very fulfilling conversation.

There’s also something unique about this type of debate in that it captures a feeling of community so often lost nowadays – whilst you can express your individual opinion, you are acutely aware of the collective of people who experienced the same show, yet may have different points of view – and this naturally challenges everyone present. Social media, TV – even cinema, often involves the expression of ideas in isolation from one another, ideas and opinions that are not necessarily informed by other peoples views – that create a feeling of wanting to be heard or read or seen, without necessarily having to truly engage or interact with another persons viewpoint.

The nature of debate and being impacted and learning from other people’s insights is lessened. Or reduced to angry exchanges on twitter in which 140 characters cannot properly express or capture the human interaction born of profound communal debate. Of course that’s my point of view and I invite anyone reading to disagree and debate this with me… How did you become interested in making performance? For a long time I was torn between painting, music and song writing, and theatre. But I found that theatre captures all of my passions – directing is like the collaborative composition of a live and constantly moving painting, all theatre that we make involves music and song, musicality and rhythm, and theatre itself is the art form of the imagination and therefore limitless in its possibility – which I love.

Having always loved theatre since a young age, a few moments converged that convinced me it was what I had to do. Seeing Complicité’s Caucasian Chalk Circle and Theatre O’s The Argument –discovering Jacque Lecoq’s pedagogy and physical theatre making school in Paris (and deciding I had to train there) – and understanding I didn’t have to define myself as ‘actor’ or ‘writer’ or ‘director’ as you’re encouraged to do in the UK, you could play all of these roles and more! Is there any particular approach to the making of the show? For me and for Theatre Ad Infinitum we set ourselves the aim of making something completely different each time we begin creating a play, and we usually always devise and make theatre through improvisation. This is very exciting, each time we’re entering into the unknown, but its also terrifying, as it’s a risk.

With Translunar Paradise I had never made a mask and mime show before, and making one about grief definitely raised a few eyebrows – I didn’t know if it would work, it was an instinct I was following. Not only that, but although I had trained in mask at the Lecoq School, I had had an idea about the masks being hand-held so that we could easily remove them and put them back on again as the story (which moves in time from an 80 year old couple in the present day back to the past and stories of their 60 year marriage together).

There was no examples of such a mask I draw from, so we had to understand, discover and find out how to play such masks and tell a story with them from scratch. Its very challenging, but I love it. Does the show fit with your usual productions? As all of our shows strive to be completely different, it fits perfectly in that its nothing like any of our other shows to date! What do you hope that the audience will experience? At the risk of sounding cheesy, the honest answer to this question is: I hope that the audience will be moved – to think about grief, the impact of death, the joy of life and how important it is to love without the fear of loss. Love and loss are a natural part of life, as is learning how to live with these facts, its something I’m still learning how to do. What strategies did you consider towards shaping this audience experience? I always focus on the story I’m telling and finding a style that can tell the story in the most powerful and effective way. We never take our audiences for granted and always put our plays through a vigorous process in which audiences are invited in to the room/theatre to watch and give feedback on the performance at roughly three stages, sometimes more, of our staggered 12-15 weeks of rehearsal (usually we’ll make work in period of 4-5 weeks finishing with a showing, take a break and then continue).

We ask for honest feedback and tell them not to hold back – as we see it as such a valuable way to learn how the play is perceived. Do the audience see what we hope they will see? If not why? Does it work? What bits are awful? Did the audience understand – or – what did the audience understand?

These are some of the questions we ask, and we take many notes. Then after a period of time in which we digest this information, we make plans and go back into rehearsal. Of course, even this process doesn’t guarantee the outcome, its success or enable any true control over shaping an audiences experience – but it keeps our feet on the ground, keeps us humble and stops us forgetting that theatre is both for an audience and unable to exist without one.

The production won multiple awards in the UK and abroad, including Mervyn Stutters’ Pick of the Fringe, the Brave New World Award and Audience Award at the Sarajevo MESS Theatre Festival in Bosnia & Herzegovina, the Best Theatre Direction Award at ACT Festival Bilbao Spain, The Argus Angel Award, Brighton Festival 2012, The Netherlands’ Wijkjury First Prize Award 2014 and The Observer Iron Man Award for actress and musician Kim Heron. George Mann said, “I'll never forget the first performances of this piece and the response of audiences. Translunar came from such a personal impulse - my father was dying of lung cancer and I felt that I was living in a country and a culture that didn't offer me a way to deal with my grief - the grief I felt knowing he would die; the grief I felt when he died. From this feeling I set about making this show of love, loss and letting go. Sadly my father passed before we completed and premiered the production. But the response was heart-warming - the show created what I can only describe as a communal space of grief - a place in which people could share in a feeling of loss and profound love. It was extraordinary. As were the stories audience members shared with us after every show. It was a humbling and unforgettable experience and I look forward to sharing this show once more.” A company whose work shifts in style as they explore each new subject, Theatre Ad Infinitum are showcasing several of their hit productions this year for the company’s 10th anniversary. Odyssey also returns to the Pleasance at Edinburgh Festival Fringe, following the return of Light to Battersea Arts Centre in June. Bucket List, the company’s new production for 2016, garnered critical acclaim, a Spirit of the Fringe Award, and enjoyed a London premiere at BAC where it was nominated for an Offie for Best Ensemble before an extensive UK tour. Co-Artistic Director George Mann also directed Medea at Bristol Old Vic in May. Theatre Ad Infinitum is an international ensemble of theatre-makers based in Bristol, UK, that develops new and original theatre for diverse audiences. Led by Co-Artistic Directors, Nir Paldi and George Mann, the group has been creating and touring critically acclaimed, award-winning productions for 10 years. Theatre Ad Infinitum’s mission is to create theatre that examines social and political themes through innovative storytelling and bold experimental styles, making something completely different each time. The company has recently become and Associate Artist at Bristol Old Vic and is an Associate Artist Alumni at Bush Theatre (2011-2013) The Lowry (2011-2017) and Redbridge Drama Centre (2009-2017). from the vileblog http://ift.tt/2rXQJ1l

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