#im so sorry I'll see myself out

[sushiburritonoms]

I have no shame

Crossing the International Matpat Canon Line to offer up a Escape the Night Crack Fic idea. The server in Joey's diner is Ness from the FNAF movie.

Like imagine, Joey looks up all excited, expecting this:

Competent, traumatized love of his life SAE Agent Matpat

And instead its this guy:

Gay, AuADHD, always a service worker!Ness. He's just a sweet, hyperactive guy, trying to take Joey's order.

Joey: OMG Matt, there's an eyeball in my milkshake! Ness: Oh no! You're so right, eyeballs are totally out of season! I don't know what the kitchen was thinking! I'm so sorry, can I get you a side of Hand instead? A plate of fingies for the table?

The man doesn't even question a stranger calling him Matt, so long as he tips.

He takes human souls as a legal tender btw.

#sir this is a wendys #forget the minic #joey graceffa is the best fnaf villain #he's out here voting henry emily to die #because afton causes more drama for the group and its good for ratings #ness survives the ETN movie despite doing absolutely nothing #they dont vote for him because he makes them pancakes #joey's out here collecting remnant #im so sorry I'll see myself out #etn #escape the night #escape the night movie #joey graceffa #matpat #fnaf ness #fnaf movie #five nights at freddys #matpat egos

[ihatebrainstorm]

Fort Max at a petting zoo + Fort Max being a ref at the puppy bowl bc I think he'd be a good ref

also this was meant to be an ask doodle but I think I accidentally deleted it??? That or I completely imagined someone asking for him...

#if someone did ask im so sorry ;v; #transformers #mtmte #maccadam #transformers fanart #fort max #fortress maximus #team fortress maximus 2 ehehhehh.. I'll see myself out

[soundwavemain]

What do I even caption this? Sorry rottmnt fans :[

Gotta thank @funneylizzie for forcing Casey Jr. to the forefront of my brain for weeks on end.

#this idea WOULDNT leave my mind im so SORRY #why d!sney has posessed me i dont know but listen LISTEN #i want people's honest opinion of this i need to know if this brain rot is a soundwavemain special or if it's infectious #anyways im SO normal about junior SO NORMAL #also if you don't know what song this is it's the next right thing from frozen two #i'll see myself out #rottmnt #tmnt #save rottmnt #rise casey jones jr #rise leo #i am not tagging anyone else because i dont wanna #junior and his totally normal parents #cw flashing #it's mainly at the beginning #YES i waited until i got an okay to @ someone i am AWKWARD dont look at me

[britneyshakespeare]

My toxic trait is that I like how my incomplete drawings look better than the finished things

#im sorry i cant be her (my searching lines) #i cant stop thinking about this drawing i have a sinking feeling that im gonna be very unhappy when its done #or. not unhappy. but not as excited as i feel about it now! #i only worked in two short chunks on it but both were pretty productive #i have a feeling that when i take the time to really dedicate myself to it im gonna fuck something up #like i can see areas i need to/can improve already but the glaring flaws are ok! bc it's not finished! #it OVERALL looks cool and LOOKS like it has the potential to turn out well #but will it... WILL IT??? WILL IT EVER? #i have never been so totally completely satisfied w any finished drawing ive dedicated myself to fully. #tales from diana #this is also only the second time ive done a really deliberate self-portrait that wasnt in some for or another. practice #like of course ive drawn my face before. not that often actually. but since yes i do draw. i have drawn myself #i probably should've drawn myself more times for how often i think id like a nice picture of myself #but then again its not gonna be so 'nice' if i make it and am not totally happy w it? #see one of the ppl who inspired me to learn to draw is ned @sneez my dearest. he's spoiled me before #and drawn me very beautifully on several occasions and it's very much a thing to move one's heart #to see someone dedicate their talent to depicting YOU. #and i might say HE has made me look more beautiful in art than i think i'll ever look in the flesh #which is not to say he drew me inaccurately. but he's so talented that his art is more beautiful than life. #and i dont compare myself in skill to him bc he's been doing it for YEARS and way more trained than me in the visual arts. #like it simply wouldn't be fair so i only compare myself to myself. naturally #but i used to think. very VAINLY i might say. that if i could draw like him id draw beautiful pictures of myself all the time #well ce n'est pas ca mon ami. since learning to draw i've found im much more interested in drawing ppl i find beautiful #rather than myself. im not art. not through my own eyes at least. #i should really draw ned sometime. i really should. #actually somewhat embarrasingly i tried to draw him like 5 or 6 years ago. and i NEVER tried to draw then #i did show him tho and he thought it was very impressive but that's probably just bc he loves me. xoxox #maybe ill post that someday as a throwback just for the hell of it. lol. thatd be cute

[thebirdandhersong]

hey will be off tumblr for the rest of the week - things are Happening again and my head feels ready to explode.........would really appreciate prayer again. I'm constantly feeling like I'm on the brink of something (I don't KNOW what) terrible and I need to figure things out without before my body really DOES decide to shut down from the stress and the strange depressive dread that has been very difficult to shake this month. I would like to not feel like crying or throwing up at certain points in the day and also would like to not be so exhausted in the heart and mind area so that I can actually deal with these things. Especially since finals are looming ahead

#wish i had my support network but what with all my friends being so busy #with school work engagements marriage pregnancies housing issues #and my priests both up to their ears in work and all my older sister figures #having issues and more important things to deal with and my family being one of the sources of high stress #i dont have anyone to talk to or go to at the moment #so i need to figure that out before i have another health crisis because my body's starting to give up on me #(again) #on top of that there needs to be planning in place for the summer and next fall and graduation #i just want to stick my head in the ground like an ostrich and stay there!!!! instead of wading through this mess during midterm season #and having to start finals the WEEK after midterms end #complaining again sorry #i am so tired and trying to be cheerful/distracting myself only lasts a few hours #im trying. i promise im trying. but the world seems rather bleak right now #and it is very hard not to feel so very alone #anyway i love you all and i'll see you soon

[lucyvaleheart]

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#supposed to log good things #most of day was negative feelings and sadness #then. i remember feeling good #and then. tthe good went away #rreplaxed with the usual self doubt and loathing #the feelings of undesirability #the wish that i was. attractive in any way to anyone close to me that anyone wanted to. touch me #that i wasn't horrifically gross and disgusting #do the people who hold me do it out of pity? am i really so awful #pictures get a lot of praise #sometimes #less so lately #maybe the novelty of my personality has worn off #maybe seeing how broken i am #such a shambling wailing mess of a girl #....has made people realize how ugly i am #i don't know. its hard to care most nights #I'm supposed to feel better in the mornings #i don't usually #I used to #now i just feel..... dead inside #like a walking corpse #some part of me wants to make that reality #sigh. #anyway. #im sorry you had to read this whoever you are that's made it this far #it's a cry for help but my discord status says don't message me so it's. probably not gonna get much lol #.....i guess uh. if you've read this far and do want to say something you can take this tag in particular as a one time pass to do so #....i make no guarentees I'll respond but i will guarentee that i won't kill myself. at least not tonight or even any time this week

[opens-up-4-nobody]

The way that the sun hits leaves and clouds. I feel like I could watch the colors change forever. If I could slow down for that long.

#i keep forgetting a have a deck now. i can go outside and sit there #im doing that now. sitting in the corner of a deck full of empty chairs. staring up at a big pine tree where the sun is striking it gold #at the top. i like how thr light hits the needles. if the sky was black it would look like its on fire #theres a tree outside my bedroom window too. in the morning. after the sunrises it catches thr light and refelcts the most perfect shade #of green. the kind of green that flutters translucent like youre looking up from the bottom of a pool. the light the light its all about #the sun. everything everything is about the sun. when i start my project I'll be focused on understanding how organisms catch the light bc #its so incredible and complicated it would make my chest swell to bursting if there wasnt an empty bleeding wound in my gut. a #metaphorical wound of course. i dunno. its just difficult bc right now my mood is inflated by hormones. not even that much i think I'm #just at what shoulf be a normal level of happiness so i can be slow for a minute. but just a minute bc i kno it won't last long #sorry i cant shut the fuck up when im like this but i dunno i just feel like i havr to document these ephemeral moments before they're gone #its just difficult when you kno the world is so full of beautiful things but 95% of the time your eyes are too clouded to see it #everyone tells me i work too much but i feel like im just staring off into space being miserable 60% of the time. ive just done so much #damage over the past few years im coming into a new lab as damaged goods. ive got an albatross around my neck in thr form of data i #collected so self destructively that the idea of having anything to do with its publication makes me hate myself. everytime someone tells #me good job on collecting so so so much data it feels like they're congratulating me for breaking something within myself. like i slit my #wrists and bled out on a lab bench and theyre saying good job and theyre excited for me and i have to grin and bear it and pretend im #excited too. but im not bc ive burned everything inside me to ash. so when im elevated enough to be distracted by the clouds and trees it #feels like healing. like seeing angels. beautiful ephemeral beams of light. i wish i could slow down enough to watch them. but now thr sun #is hitting the horizon and the sky is going gradually dark and i should go inside. bc i have many things to do in the morning. so that's #what ill do. and ill try to get more thsn 6hrs of sleep but its hard when your body is vibrating over with energy #but at least i dont feel tired in the morning. something in my head must be on fire #unrelated #hm i should maybe add a tw to this #tw self injury #but its the kind thst makes u good at ur Job. its the kind ppl reward. so they don't understand when u say its destroying ur life #but im trying to get better. i say as i gear up for an insane semester lol but i do mean it

[defness]

→ drawing the same pose over and over again and feels cringe

→ realizes that these drawings are simply pre-ref drawings to figure out one's design so I can Draw Them

→ no longer feels cringe

#jic ur wondering why all of them are drawn w that same arms out legs semi open pose #do i obsessively worry about this to an unhealthy degree? yeah #do people not verbally tell me that seeing me draw the same pose over and over again is Boring or Lame or stupid or smth? yes but i get #like. stupidly anxious and start thinking about things like that which i obviously know probably isn't the case and that in actuality #no one cares about how i draw more than i do #but it's still difficult not to ruminate on thoughts of people subconsciously rolling their eyes at my art because its so plain and boring #and static and stiff and it doesnt feel lively and dynamic like the artists i aspire to be like #but then i also remember im only just starting my art journey. by this year I'll only have been drawing for 4 years. 4 YEARS. #which seems like alot honestly? especially w the progress I've made #but most; if not everyone who isn't me have spent 7+ YEARS of drawing and i remind myself that. oh #yeah! im on the same path they were #maybe they had the same issues i did #but ill get through it :) i want to experiment more this year w my art #i say that but i need to COMMIT #i need to commit. to actually put in effort to learn posing and perspective instead of trying to lazily scrawl color on a digital canvas #but it all seems so daunting #but; you know; in time it'll come. seeing the difference only a few months has done to my art is also truly refreshing #it lets me know that im still learning and improving my technique and that really helps iron out any anxieties i have. #sorry this got super rambly super quickly lol

[4arconinoma]

Ok so I haven't finished it yet But I'd like to ramble just a little about some thoughts on Marble Hornets so far that being: 1. WAY sadder than I had ever expected it to be 2. I find it really entertaining how the protagonist is honestly kind of terrible

#txt #By that I mean to say that well Im not sure how much of a consensus this opinion is but as I see it Im just honestly surprised at the #lengths that Jay goes to investigate. and you know there's conviction and all but god DAMN. Ill avoid spoilers till I have a proper tag but #Suffice to say i didnt expect him to go from trespassing to . Psychological manipulation...? Im 90% sure he just re-ruined this guy's life? #And this isnt a complaint. On the contrary i really appreciate it because I think hes a really interesting protag #Usually something like MH would bore me seeing as a lot of it is just walking with a camera while being kind of clueless? #But i feel so invested in the characters that im actually always eager to find out what will happen. I think theyve pulled off tension so #well this entire time. Its really thrilling to watch this #Anyways when it comes to the first point Im not even going to try and explain the emotions that I feel towards Tim Wright. #You can figure that out on your own. I can assure you that NONE are normal and it is very DIRE. thats all i'll say on that #Lastly Im honestly a little scared to finish it. i think i only have some 20 entries left but I know for a fact things will get bad #and im Scared ;((( so Im putting it off and I'll do it in a few days so I can get ready Ok. if Tim dies I kill myself in front of everybody #uhhmmm autism over sorry byeee [skitters away

[sensitivegoblin]

Damn I need to get teased within an inch of my life so that the stress can leak out of me please

#ramble #vent #gimmetag #I'm very very tense and stressed and need a hug #I'll try answering dms and anons I've missed I'm truly sorry that I suck so bad at that #I'm just tired but I'm too afraid to sleep #I'm being melodramatic but the statement stems from truth #I feel like such a loser but tickling/sex and Fortnite are literally the only things that make me feel better #I'm too depressed to do anjghing else my dad sucks all of my energy #I need to fall into a hug and sleep pls hmu volunteers😭 #I like sleeping around awake people that's when I sleep my best #YouTube videos used to fill that hole but now I just can't stop thinking of myself as such a loser #mt dad turned 60 and hes depressed and he thinks out loud so I'm hearing really depressing stuff #and nothing I do helps so I just have to soak up his pain and somehow wanna live to see 60???? #if you heard the carousal of stuff he repeats every breath that im with him you'd go crazy too #anyway im trying to get out of my frozen state so o can take pills and masturbate and cry lmao #FUCK I NEED A REAL HUG😭

[misojohnist]

I am just despairing so deeply at the state of it all

#like. i just need a break so bad and im never going to get it. #im not gonna be able to see family this winter. im not gonna be able to afford to go out with people. #im barely sure i'll be able to afford the place i live for the next three months. #im broke and my job wont start paying me for who knows how long #i cant work more because school. and school is costing me even more fucking money #im depressed and suicidal but i cant afford therapy #and on top of it all i have four classes and a thesis to write. and none of my practicum paperwork is finished and i have no car. #like. sorry but i just want to fucking kill myself.

[todayisafridaynight]

making all of you read this cute arasawa fic right now about jo and ichi's tattoos this isn't a request it's a demand

#snap chats #I GOT CURIOUS TO SEE IF THERE WAS ANYTHING ELSE IN THE TAG ASIDE FROM STAR UPDATIN THEIR FIC #AND HOOOWW DID I MISS THIS it cause i dont go on ao3. oopsie.. #anyway ive just been in an especially I Need It mood about arasawa today.... #ive been driving myself insane with images in my brain so i was trying to think of ways to distract my brain or put it at ease #and this fic was just the lil pick me up i needed.... its less than 1k but it's still a cute less-than-1k....... #shakin and cryin thank you god for fic writers amen.. #ough is it bad if i wanna make fanart inspo'd by it....... it's just done such good images for my brain.. i'll still my stylus for now... #jo being lowkey posessive and jealous is always a guilty pleasure i am sorry...... #he'll refuse to see it as such and he'll feel bad about it if he does but ooooooohh its good for my heart im sorry..... #ayway where the fuck is my spanish prof she like twenty minutes late🧍‍♂️ #im gonna think bout middle aged men makin out in an alleyway now bye. maybe the car even idk my brain'll decide

[roger-paladino]

Sorry for being really slow with like. everything art related guys I have been going through it so bad

#Im so emotionally and physically burnt out rn i physically can't even talk to my friends without feeling like my heads abt to explode #this is mostly for the people commissioning me rn I can't get anything good out atm #I'm working on them but bear with me for a day or so #so im gonna. mental health break. Im seeing my dad tomorrow and saturday he's getting me out of the house so maybe I'll be back to normal #my mums bf put up cameras that alert his phone when someone moves outside and it just kicked my anxiety up so bad I literally can't handle #the idea of leaving the house and him seeing it on the camera and making a comment lmaoooo #I gotta. get over that but he makes fun of me all the time anyway (in a joking way im just sensitive) so I just expect it #and bc of that I can't leave my house more so than normal #I need to see a doctor abt my anxiety like. bad. but Im too scared of going and wasting their time since the NHS is already strained #which. also comes from my anxiety lol #its BADDDD its so bad I shouldn't be scared to go outside #I do try and force myself and its never that bad but I disassociate the whole time and I feel like im not making any progress really #anyway sorry for turning into a little vent LMAO oopsie.. #all this to say I'm very eepy and just need a second to get back on track #.txt

[erythristicbones]

amazing how pride month has just started and ive still somehow had to unfollow 3 people rbing the most insanely biphobic shit w/o caring

#tbf they were people i dont really even remember following in the first place #like they crawled out of the woodwork just for this month to be awful #anyways friendly reminder that my gf is bi and i do not put up w that shit at all #like fucking hell i feel like i see this every goddamn june #even just the amount of ppl irl who Steph has explicitly stated she is bi to SEVERAL TIMES #who exclusively refer to her as a lesbian bc she's dating me and has been for 8yrs #which is also super shitty considering im not a fucking woman #ppl will respect my pronouns but very clearly see me as Woman Lite and refuse to take criticism on that #vent #personal #sorry i just. i see this every year #and i know its probs that irl we only know so many queer ppl #so it feels like everyone we know is performitively accepting #in our eight years of dating i havent heard a single person other than myself call steph bi #even when its among friends. even when she's told them over and over #and even when i bring up 1000 times that I AM GENDERFLUID. i am not female!!!! #im so tired of other queer ppl thinking that theyre allowed to use whatever fucking labels they want for us #even when we have told them exactly what we are and what we are comfortable with #I'll probs delete this later #bc i hate having negative shit/vents on my blog #im just so tired man #if someone tells you a label...use it #a bi person is still bi even if you think theyre something else #a lesbian is still a lesbian even if you think theyre something else #a trans person is the gender they say they are EVEN IF they dont fit your standards of that gender #literally what is so hard about seeing someone else tell you exactly what to call them and then calling them what they said to #for the love of god JUST RESPECT PPL #its not fucking hard

[no-rice-panda]

You've heard of a Bed and Breakfast, well get ready for

[Photo ID: There's an image of omelette with a small portion cut off and a fork in it. Inside the omelette is a tiny image of the sleeping grandfather in his bed from Stardew Valley. ID End]

#im so sorry. i made this for my SO over an xmas brunch and need to show others #bed in breakfast. ha. ha. ha..... I'll see myself out #stardew valley gramp gramp is cozy in an egg cave #egg-splorer he is. eh? #im sorry :D #me

[piplupod]

today is absolute garbage but i am going to try to do some painting on my project nonetheless, doing my best to attempt to claw my way out of the suicidality goop

#funny how ppl are like ''stay alive for xyz things!'' and that doesnt work for me #like sorry but that is not making up for all the dogshit I've got going on dbdjdl it doesnt come anywhere close to balancing out the scales #if i am staying alive it is entirely my choice made out of stubbornness and occasionally spite #only reason i havent offed myself yet is bc i dont want to hurt people (even that doesnt convince me sometimes) and- #-i can always do it tomorrow. like why not just stick around until things get truly too fucked up to keep going #I'll make art while im around and hopefully leave behind some kind of positive mark on the world fjfkdl #also fucking... jack stauber's ''dinner is not over'' #like yeah dinner isnt over yet. and it wont be until i cant stand another bite. and then i can have dessert. gotta wait til dinner is done! #like do i see there being any way for me to exist in the world? no djdksl not at all #i cant work and disability is not livable and theres no disability housing available rn so fbfjdl its not realistic #but im going to stick around until i get to the point where it isnt feasible to be around anymore dhfksl #and if the situation changes for the better then great I'll keep trucking along #but i genuinely dont think im making it to like... 30. 25 is iffy. 23 is fuzzy. its just not realistic with how society is set up currently #but! doesnt matter! just working with what i have in the present and I'll just keep trucking until i cant anymore dbfjdl #suicide tw #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #sorry this is wildly mentally ill but i am just kind of ... hoping maybe it'll help someone else #all i see for suicide prevention is ''you have so much to live for!'' and that doesnt rly help ppl in my situation #i KNOW I've got a lot to live for but it's simply not realistic nor does it make up for the fact that life is utter dogshit dhdjdl #so i just try to approach it from an angle of almost like... not caring #like I'll keep doing what i can until things get too hard and then I'll take my leave 🤷 sticking around until then!