#im just a ball of depression and anxiety rn and yeah i distract myself and whatnot but im actually depressed again

[dellinah]

I've been saying that 'soon ill feel like myself again' for so long that maybe it's time to accept this is who I am now and theres no old self to go back to anymore

#Personal #Vent #Tw depression for the following tags #Anyway everything is falling apart and i think its about time to stop pretending its not #my group of friends broke off and my best friend and i had a fight that just hurt #Im still mourning the loss of someone to Covid bc I cannot accept theyre gone and brazils situation is shit #for some reason im anxious as fuck thinking im gonna fail my classes and fall behind and now i cannot sleep #i tried so hard to keep it together but honestly im not strong enough to keep pretending im as strong as I tried to be #jfc #im just a ball of depression and anxiety rn and yeah i distract myself and whatnot but im actually depressed again #2016 feels #fuck itt #and will i be ok? probably #everything passes and this shall to #but right now #everything sucks and im hating life and if i could stop it for a bit i would #i dont want to exist rn feels #so allow me to go dope myself and wake up tomorrow and do this all over again #bc i need sleep and that doesnt happen naturally anymore #idk if too many bad things happened and made me fall again #or if i was already down and bad things triggered it #all i know is that rn i wanna sleep and not wake up again #but i will and we'll see how it is in the morning #anyway take care yall ok?