#im having a moment forgive me-

[ollovae3]

Currently in a bit of a brain-is-mushy state still, wrote most of this days ago, but thought I'd toss this at y'all who remained through my hiatus (depression and burnout followed by school is,,,, fun)?? Like I said before, I've gotten hooked on The Walking Dead—also got my mom hooked on it somehow, so I'm cackling. As usual, that means my lil OC brain is churning a mile a minute but with no ability to choose, so I'd love y'all's opinions?

No art atm since I'm still recovering from literally drawing every day w the fear of 1000 gazelles (if that makes ANY sense), but I've got some picrews and info for em!! Not all the info tho cause I straight up have about 3 pages per character, in 2-column, 10pt font format. 💀 So here's their picrews and their initial moodboards!! Appearances changed since the boards so sorry abt that. 😅 Bless Canva tho, been addicted to that damn site since HS 👌

And yes I got attached to Daryl, leave me be w my love for the grump-w/-a-golden-heart trope— 🫣💀

Warning for some TWD-typical violence below, as well as mention of addiction/withdrawal.

Characters:

Halina Waldron:

Halina Waldron essentially had the Worst Vacation of Her Life. Went on a post-grad celebration trip, only for the Outbreak to start JUST as they got to their new stop for the trip (near the Atlanta area).

Managed to find the Dixon brothers before they found the Quarry, and essentially annoyed them into letting her tag along and learn from them. She hopes to find her family back in Vermont, but her story follows mostly along the canon route with the rest of the survivors.

Admittedly am tempted though to have her end up working for (not a soldier for) the Saviors at some point, as a way to change canon/put in some interesting conflict? But we'll see 👀

Brigid Hassall

Brigid Hassall, the Granny Witch from the Georgia portion of Appalachia! Personally designed her to be of partially Melungeon descent, as well as visibly Autistic?

Lived in the same lil town as the Dixons, with the talents of/later studying to be a medicine witch (variant of Granny Witches afaik). Was good friends with Daryl in school, and helped both brothers whenever they needed patching up or Merle needed help trying to quit whatever he was on. She turned semi-agoraphobic after losing her family, so the boys didn't see her and couldn't find her after The Outbreak. She did survive though, and kept growing things and hunting when she needed, helping travelers or defending her home from them.

Shows up around S3, during the Prison-Era. Got sought out for help w medicine and associated horticulture knowledge.

Andromeda Shaw

Andromeda Shaw, also called Meda [mee-dah], is a bit of a harsher character? She and her family were out camping with friends to escape the nasty flu going around when things hit. They lost their friends, who Meda had to stop from biting her family or getting into their RV, which hardened her, but broke her sibling (understandable ngl-).

After that, she and the family have been wandering in the RV, hoping to find people to trade with or somewhere safe to stay. Her parents had to focus on protecting and stabilizing her sib after that camping trip, so Meda's placed herself as the defacto family shield of sorts, there to have her dad's back and to help provide when the others can't.

The Shaws end up muddling with canon a bit, but don't show until around the Post-Governor Prison-Era in late-S3/S4? Eventually become more of a staple in canon during S6, when it turns out they're runners and residents of Alexandria.

So yeah!! I'd love any opinions on which of these girls you think I should run with more? I rlly like all of em so I'm just stuck blue-screening about which to work with, and I'd appreciate anything you might have honestly 😅.

Happy to answer additional questions abt em if that helps at all!! 💖

#writing tag #random tag #new oc #twd #the walking dead #walking dead #twd amc #daryl dixon #Georgia #appalachia #granny witch #canva #moodboard #aesthetics #picrew #im having a moment forgive me- #help #opinions wanted #long post

[lobster-lover]

homestuck so fun when you dont have a bitch in your ear telling you its cringe

#homestuck #jane crocker #dirk strider #jake english #roxy lalonde #lil seb #im kind of obsessed with them at the moment youll have to forgive me

[maevelander]

help

#found these in my photos i forgot i made them #if i posted these already and am just having a silly moment then forgive me ok i #it’s my bday im absolved of my sins so take it up with the lord or whatever #the boys #homelander #queen maeve #a train #the deep #billy butcher #black noir

[constellarcreator]

Transmasc Raz and transfem Frazie who were at one point only out to each other. Who were inseparable and had a bond only they could comprehend and understand. Who had each other's full support when they decided to finally come out to the rest of the family. Whose bond over being trans and being psychic were deeply intertwined. Can anyone hear me.

#bat chatter #psychonauts #forgive me im having a moment.

[jin-zixun]

hmm gotta say cql kinda lends itself to an interpretation where Jin Zixun decides to humiliate the Lans because they showed up to bully Su She when *he* was trying to bully Su She! like now he's looking at/thinking about those damn Lans when he should be looking at/thinking about me, i was bullying him first!

I mean he doesn't look happy (he never looks happy)

#'um we were actually having a moment here?' #'i was asking him who tf even let him be here and he bowed and said forgive me?' #'that's basically like second base' #top tier jin zixun analysis #im not not saying that the bullying is a metaphor #then he's gotta have ayao swooping in to save sms from him #like winning his heart in 0.2 seconds #like oh that was uh #that was kind of easy #su she #jin zixun

[fungii]

the fact that you've been like, the lone cabayomi prophet for OVER A DECADE is INSANE, thank you for bringing others into the light

KJDSKJFA I COULDN'T POSSIBLY BE THE ONLY ONE FOR ALL THAT TIME.....but likely the most annoying for sure

#fungii yells #ghost trick spoilers in tags dont read #have you thought about how cabanela is the only one who doesnt get a clean slate #and how hes also the only one yomiel killed w his own hands #so being together is a constant reminder of their worst moments #but also a physical representation of earning forgiveness for them #“if i can make you happy then maybe that will make up for what i did” #“if you can love me then maybe im not a monster” #AND TO SAY NOTHING OF THE MESS OF CAB REMEMBERING OR NOT #(mbmbam AND THE DICK? voice) AND THE FIANCE ISSUE? #dottyistired

[monitorkernelaccess]

she looks so scared at the end of ep 13...

#dungeon meshi #sorry for overreacting. but also. falin facial journey... #shes so scared im so sorry babygirl #girl who constantly has things just happen to her #and like she ends up different at the end as if she has gone through a character arc. but she hasn't. really #she chose to come back but that's it #aughhhhh #thistle i know you had reasons and you didn't fully realize what you were doing but #poor falin looks terrified #especially the moment right before she turns into chimera #at first she seems just horrified to realize that thistle is talking to her when he says 'dragon' #but then he says 'i'll give you a new form' and her eyes get even /wider/ #she doesn't want this!!!!! #and yea i think falin ends up happier with her post-chimera form with its leftover chimera features #but seeing it happen to her against her will... #forgive me for going a little crazy guys #i know shes fictional and i couldn't have stopped the events of The Plot but. shes. aughhhhh #shes so scared!!!!!! #i want plot device girl to live a happy life thank you

[youngpettyqueen]

“I was in a dangerous mood. Ever since that ridiculous holosuite program, I thought. The spy game. Well of course it’s a game. It’s all a game. But it’s not a holosuite program. And yet, the moment Julian wounded me with his ridiculous weapon, everything changed. I thought it was a magnificent moment. He showed me that he had the spine to play the game as it ought to be played. But why then did he back off? Why couldn’t he go beyond that moment? Why did our relationship end?”

im gonna scream my fucking lungs out Andrew Robinson when I get you

#star trek: ds9 #a stitch in time #elim garak #julian bashir #otp: I need to know that someone forgives me #WHY THEN DID HE BACK OFF #WHY COULDNT HE GO BEYOND THAT MOMENT #WHY DID OUR RELATIONSHIP END #I need to lie down. #this tied into what Garak said earlier in the novel- that the relationship ends when you no longer have anything to learn from each other #he KNOWS there's still more him and Julian can learn from each other #he knows there's more Julian can learn from HIM #but Julian doesnt go beyond that moment #and then well. we see Julian isnt spending much time with Garak at this point #so is that how Garak is seeing this? Julian ending their relationship? #leaving it incomplete? #god no wonder he's so mad #this is making me insane im chewing on this insight into Garak's mind #again. Andrew Robinson when I get you

[the-kipsabian]

"why is kip sabian wrestling orange cassidy again they do it too many times"

this is the fifth match in over a year. you think thats too much? just admit you hate good chemistry and love and shut the fuck up

#this is why i dont read twitter ive made a mistake ough #just. this is just a bad take? its not even one on one on friday it hasnt been since the botb title match. over a year ago #and pre injury stuff shouldnt count yes that feud was a little bloated but that was 2020 to 2021 and plagued with injuries #i think we can forgive that you know #but like. saying 'they are wrestling too many times' is like? do you even watch the product? #so everyone else can have a long term story and multiple matches but not these two who genuinely work amazing together in the ring?? #im sorry im mad its just. im finally getting something after literally months and people complain and say its 'too much' #fuck you #wrestling musing #the dislike and hatred wrestling fans have for kip is just mind boggling to me like. i dont understand #whats fucking wrong with you #counted my matches wrong also but only if you count the battle royale as one. i guess you do since it had the cuddle moments but yeah #five is still a single digit and one handed number. too many my fucking ass

[lyacinthus]

the train home

#i like trains :D #i have been training around all the late and it makes me brainrot about wholesome sibling moment #and yea. im genshin posting again. forgive me #genshin impact #albedo #klee #gi fanart #samms squigglies

[interlvgos]

George and Lewis

doesn’t make sense & doesn’t compel me

beloved gewis mutuals . i’m so sorry

ship game

#90% of u are here from my gewis fics im soooo having a moment w them OK #FORGIVE ME </3 m #coral chats shit #thank u nonnie may find me 73 followers less for it but appreciate u <3

[simplydnp]

.

#forgive my lil breakdown but one of the big blogs in our fandom reblogged one of my posts and i'm having a lil moment about it #like im just here doing my thing. and so many of the blogs ive looked up to for YEARS actually follow me now? it doesn't feel real #i love yall sm. im so fond of this community & im so grateful any of you like hearing what i have to say bc its just fun to talk about it!! #ive said this before but my silly little posts my silly little tags my emotional breakdowns--its all *for* me. purely selfish content really #but the fact it hits a nerve for a lot of you means more than i can ever describe. bc writing like this brings me joy. #and the fact my joy makes you feel things? indescribable. yall really know the way to a girls heart (its through the prev tags) #love uuuu #c.text

[averysjameson]

idk but saying jennifer lynn barnes sucks at writing romance because your ship wasn't canon is beyond hilarious to me like okay???? HAHHAHAHA. everyone has their own preferences of course but the vehement hatred for jlb and the belittlement of her writing on booktok and bookstagram (sometimes on here) has been ASTOUNDING.

a note about the "poorly done romance/love triangle" in tig: jlb never said it was going to be "even". no one ever said that. personally pioneering the idea that one character was "not given a chance" does not make it a poorly written love triangle or a poorly written romance. in love triangles, there is usually ALWAYS one option who is simply NOT a real option. look me in the eye and tell me characters jeremiah fisher, aspen in the selection series, gale hawthorne, adam kent, jacob black, and i'm sorry but grayson hawthorne amongst a myriad of others were actual contenders for the main character. if you believed they are/wanted them to be, that's great! but all of these characters are in well known love triangles and at the end of the day, books with love triangles WILL sell because they generate conversation and hype around the book. it is a marketing tactic and you are NEVER promised equal opportunity from both love interests. you losing the love triangle or that you believe there is wasted potential doesn't mean bad writing has occurred. also, for the love of god, while you are supposed to relate to a character, you are not the main character!! belly, america, katniss, juliette, avery, what have you, all chose based on who they are as characters. and also, female characters don't have to "experience" both love interests to make a decision. if they want to, that's totally fine, but specifically about avery bc this is what this blog is all about, she absolutely knows what she's "missing out" on with grayson and she doesn't care. shipping averygrayson just blatantly feels like ignoring avery's wants and needs.

anyway, if you want to call jlb's writing poorly done bc you didn't get your way, that's totally fine. you are entitled to your own opinion. it's just funny that you say that bc had grayson and avery been randomly thrown together in the epilogue of tfg or something, i have a feeling you wouldn't be of this opinion.

tldr; love triangles are a marketing tactic and you are neither entitled to a win nor is is poorly done/executed if you lose. love triangles, more often than not, have a clear winner from the beginning (coughcough "see? you're already his") but the debate and drama of another character sells the book.

#the inheritance games #oh god the love triangle discourse is so tiring does it not get OLD???? #averyjameson #avery grambs #avery kylie grambs #jennifer lynn barnes #been a while since i went on a rant #tig #if you disagree idrc bc im not trying to convince you that you can't think something is poorly written #averygrayson #anyway! miss you guys #can't wait for the brothers hawthorne!!!! #i think she's a genius romance writer bc im rr tig and she sprinkles in these moments from the very beginning and wow #she has such a big brain #god booktok is annoying and the comments on jlb's insta posts are so?????? #like imagine the amount of “how dare you not make ag endgame” comments she's gotten (by the same people every post but still) is so weird #“how are you” “what were you thinking” “it was a love triangle and grayson was the right option i'm not reading you books anymore” LOL #or “how are you not let gray be endgame/have avery/be happy” hm avery isn't a prize and gray doesn't let himself be happy hope that helps! #i thought the sad/chronically unhappy thing was y'all's brand for him but suddenly when he doesn't flip a switch and be :D y'all hate it?? #him forgiving himself at the end and letting himself feel was HUGE like ?? ive digressed but tell me you dont understand him w/o telling me

[hopalongfairywren]

can people ever get it through their skulls that their experiences aren't universal and what's healing for them is not for others.

#christ. just saw an awful post #anyways abuse victims shouldn't ever have to forgive their abusers #just because your uncomfortable with the idea that not everyone deserves a second chance and some people WILL keep hurting others #doesn't mean we should have to sit in a circle and have a heartfelt moment with our tormenters #there's a fine line between being critical of vigilante justice #and excusing literal abusers and rapists #anyways im killing the guy who hurt me with hammers #tw vent

[the-meme-monarch]

Can you explain Strange Someone Frisk’s motivations a bit more? I don’t really understand how they could go from being a nice supportive kid to tampering with things in DR

well frisk Does appear to be nice and nonviolent even without the SOUL’s control (sans saying “even when you ran away you did it with a smile” and seemingly feeling guilty for taking more than one piece of candy (the bowl tipping over and the narration saying “you felt like the scum of the earth”(unless that’s just chara trying to guilt them/you)) and we know from deltarune that while the SOUL controls what frisk and kris do, where they walk and what they say, it doesn’t control how they say things, like kris saying things sarcastically/confusedly/as a joke when it’s a choice they don’t particularly agree with (like the “perish” being said enthusiastically, or saying they’d go to the festival w ralsei or noelle and not sounding like the Actually Want To).

and similarly to kris ithink ss frisk feels. lost. without the soul. in the context of the au, frisk doesn’t remember anything before falling into mt ebott. idk it’d they even remember their life before that day. idk if they even had one. they maybe convinced themself that they were literally made for their role, and didn’t exist before then. maybe them causing problems through the secret bosses is them trying to get the SOUL’s attention, bc the SOUL’s influence is all they know, and they know the SOUL is here now.

they’re messed up in a similar fashion as jevil and spamton (and presumably the other secret bosses we have yet to meet) but where as they were Told by frisk about their roles as characters in a story, and jevil’s method of coping being that he’s “free”, and spamton’s is by trying to escape, frisk was made aware by their firsthand experience, and has turned to telling the secret bosses. and well, while i don’t know Why frisk would let this knowledge upon them when they’d been previously kindhearted, maybe it has to do w like. their life being entirely upended by the game ending and being shunted out of that universe as a result. maybe they feel cheated. maybe they feel that doing good isn’t worth it. maybe they feel like they can’t do good without the SOUL telling them to do so. maybe they don’t even realize or think that what they’re doing is causing harm, maybe they think that telling them What’s Really Up is a good thing. they did actually help spamton, for a time.

think that makes flowey’s plea for the player not to reset, to leave the game alone let frisk have their happy ending, kinda. ironic. not that resetting Would Have done them any favors either.

also if i was made fully aware that my life was little more than a means to tell a story i think I’d snap a little bit too. my life is a game maybe I am tired of being nice, maybe I do just want to go apeshit. maybe I’ll cause some problems on purpose

#also this reminded me. on the comic w ss frisk and flowey talking and frisk thinking they don’t deserve a happy ending anymore #frisk forgives him but not themself bc of their differing circumstances #frisk feels like now that they’re doing Bad Things after having don’t Good Things that weren’t their own choices that they just. arent good #they KNOW what it’s like to do good. they HAVE done good. now they arent #frisk hasn’t been told how trauma can effect poeple and that healing isn’t linear. sad ! /ref #flowey was able to undo the harm he did at a moments notice when he would save and reset. he can’t anymore and hes doing better now. he’s a #he’s acknowledged his wrongdoings and worked to fix them post game #i couldn’t really get into that bc i lost the canvas in A Cropping Accident #sorry I’m beginning to feel incoherent idk if any of what im saying or have said makes any sense #i have a commission to work on and i have been here typing for like half an hour!!! goodbye now #the monarch’s court

[lowcursedmg]

i am perfectly capable of hurting people and being insufferable. i realize this. and it doesnt make me an inherently bad person, it makes me just like everyone else.

#though what i want to do is strive to be better #to be kind and graceful and self aware #moving forward #in that way i can distinguish myself i think. i hope #i think often of the quote 'people might not remember you but theyll remember how you made them feel' #i want to leave people better than i found them #and i have to forgive myself for past mistakes even if no one else will #because im stuck with me until i die. i am only owed my own lifelong commitment #im trying man #i just want to be remembered fondly #i didnt have any good examples of healthy relationships growing up #and im not trying to blame everything on my childhood #im responsible for my actions and my behavior #but like im doing the best i can with what i know in the moment #ive never intentionally tried to be cruel. not unprovoked anyway #of that im proud of #i just want to be better #let sleeping dogs lie and whatnot. move on and try again with new people #i cant spend my whole life looking behind me #things happened the way that they did. #ill be ok #im trying. im trying my best. and my best isnt good enough for everyone and thats ok too #i feel such an intense guilt but i dont know how to atone #ramsey speaks